#i want to be working full time in theagre and/or film

[the-kestrels-feather]

Anyone else have big dreams and no idea how to realistically achieve them and a fear of inadequacy so they're worried they're going to stagnate in their current situation because they're too afraid to leave it or is that just me?

#personal #inferiority complex #i have so much shit i want to do #i want to leave the job im im because i dont like it #i want to be using my degree for mkre than i am #i want to be working full time in theagre and/or film #and i keep applying for jobs and just get every door slammed in my fucking face every time #and now im almost 26 so i have to worry about any job i *do* take offering insuramce #and the job im in right now 'much as i hate it has insirance for when i turn 26 #and I'm afraid to leave because of that even though they don't even pay me a livable wage #if i wasn't living with my parents I'd probably be homeless or have 0 savings #and its not like i can really say fuck it and quit and move somewhere more conducive to what I want to do because I have savings #because I need a job somewhere that can pay me enough to support rent and has insurance and those are in short supply #i just feel like shit #i feel like im stuck in this rut and don't know how to get out of it and am never gonna get out #im just exhausted