#I'm just happy to be moving around again

[deepseaspriteblog]

i have been cured of all ailments

#not sprites #hey sorry for suddenly disappearing I got super sick for over a week and the side effects from my medicine fucked me up even more #I couldn't even hold a mouse :( #I was planning on doing one last adopt batch for february but couldn't... ah well #I'm just happy to be moving around again #yeah being sick was painful but also it was very boring

[wyvernity]

sss day my favorite national holiday WOOOOHHHH

bonus

#pokemon #trainer lyra #rival silver #soulsilvershipping #timeskip tag #bao beis #i had so much more planned. but alas. college. #ANYWAY. sss my everything. ohh. always thinking abt them. #this is very obviously lyra's room! all the pink! massive bed to fit all her pokemon! the champion paycheck gets you that much at least #and plants!!! no. 1 horticulturist in johto #she's living somewhere around the base of mt silver... decently close to the league and her hometown #so i like to imagine her with a huge greenhouse so she can take care of plants even in the harsher climate #meanwhile silver has one of those decrepit malelivingspace flats in viridian. he's making it work. #i can only see sss properly moving in together liiiike in their late 20s #after they get to enjoy young adult independence for a while #but before they permanently settle down they should go on silly adventures again... just once. or twice. or #as much as i like to entertain the thought of them being homebodies i think they'd rather spend their lives travelling haha #since silver never got to fully experience it as a kid on the run #being a wanted man and all #and lyra is itching for the getaway #they deserve to be in nature and responsibility-free and *frothing at the mouth* #BTW i put my whole wyvussy into that wall decor #lisia signed poster... rosa's resemblance as mei(!!!) in the totoro one... bell tower + whirl island pics // #pokemon constellations... and those gen 4 mail templates that no one actually used. probably from dawn. champion penpals :] #i debated doing a lance poster because celebrity idol funny but nah she'd bin that immediately after moving out #oh yeah the drawover was um. inspired by the nonebinary neochamp fit. so happy for my son. #i'm glad i managed to finish the big piece in time otherwise i would've just posted that LOL can you imagine #okey bye happy sss day

[httpiastri]

#im about to FREAK OUT bcs of my boss #like yes i'm so thankful and happy to be employed. really. #but my boss is so #it feels like he's never doing anything.... he's only in the office max 2 days per week and idk #hes just very strange #but the worst thing is that he just takes his own work and dumps it on me #which is fine in some ways! like i sometimes just sit around with no work to do #so then it's good to have something to do #but today... not only did i already have a shit ton of work to do but #he tells me to book a hotel for a conference they're having ?? and that's not even near what's in my work description?????? #(i basically just do numbers rn. i sit with spreadsheets and move numbers around and stuff like that) #and the worst part is that he told me i cant email them... i must call........ #and i get that this sounds super silly to those who don't have a fear of speaking on the phone but #it makes me freak the f out #i cant even talk on the phone with my parents. or my brother. or a friend. like genuinely just no i cant #it brings out so so much anxiety in me #i get dizzy just thinking about it #and again this is really really not even similar to anything in my job description ???? i wouldn't have signed up if i knew i had to do thi #and when i have things that i need to do but i physically cant then my brain just goes into pause mode and i don't do anything at all #instead of doing one of the many things i *could* do (like write an email anyway) #there's just no way im gonna be able to call but idk what my boss is gonna think if i mail.... because he specifically said that i must cal #rrGGG im just so frustrated!!!!! #and i needed to get this out.... soz for the rant #i just think i would cry (genuinely) if i were to make that call #alSO BECAUSE THE INSTRUCTION IS SO UNCLEAR LIKE ALWAYS WITH THIS GUY #I DONT EVEN UNDERSTAND WHAT IM SUPPOSED TO DO #gonna go drink a lot of water so i dont cry now 👍 sorry bye

[arikihalloween]

honestly you and the others should just report all those fakes

you get some fuckers who come up with stupid fish barnabys

some greyscale Wally ripoffs

and of course that retard fucking glitch barnaby

you and everyone else behind wttmv are superior

love your work hope you get rid of the stupidass copies

Wow, that is a lot of anger and frustration to process, it seems

Go to the corner to think about it while I show why this is bad fandom behavior

Now now, it's my birthday today, so I am allowed bitch ranting and I'll be a bitch for once

Hey, hi, don't fucking say that

People like that are the reason creators abandon their aus, and yeah, one of the reason wttmv is in pause

We lost motivation due to school, busy life, ect, but also because people keep coming at us with this mentality

I get that you like our work, and it would be flattering, if you didn't put others down to compliment wttmv

I can't stand this behavior

Let people tell their stories !

It's inspired from other works, so what ? Humans get inspired all the time

WTTMV itself is inspired by Underverse and X-tale, at core !!

Rippoff is a strong word, and a wrong one at that

Similar concepts are bound to happen

Heck, there is a character with the same core concept as Stitcher, a Julie destroying worlds while thinking she does the right thing

But Designer and Stitcher are different, they have different stories, different narrative themes, and that's why both are cool as fuck (also they would likely get along if they were to meet)

I don't understand why I would want to get rid of the others

The other aus and multiverser aren't competition

They never were

The multiverse concept is not new, it's not ours, it's big and full of possibilities

That's why when our snowball effect rolled early one, with the mootieverse craze and all, we quickly detached ourselves from the word "mootieverse" so everyone could use it

Idk if people noticed that we stopped calling ourselves mootieverse

Mootieverse is for anyone that has a wh multivers characters and who is mutual with the others, and all stories are worth telling

We also try to give a little lore explanation about how we see the multiverse in wttmv, so that it doesn't exclude other creators and to avoid behavior like this

I'm putting this on full blast

This is BAD fandom behavior

It's behavior like this that makes creators want to lock themselves in their private discords to just play with their friends and never show the world their amazing creations

I don't like being seen as superior than anyone

It's uncomfortable

It makes people want to attack and blame *us* for words like this, when we never even implied anything of the sort (that happened yeah)

I rant a lot, but I think it needs to be said more

Appreciate all the stories

That's what makes us unique and not like AI

If you like wttmv, just say you like it, don't put others down, don't ask us to report (it wouldn't do anything anyway cause the others didn't do anything wrong, duh)

Scroll away if you don't like something, or mute, or block, it's as easy as this

Of you want more wttmv, idk, just ask lore questions, request doodles (me and koko are open for requests), show that you love it and maybe it'll get us motivated to show what we've been working on

Do you just understand all of this

Negativity will get your favorite AUs nowhere

It will only make them disapear

#loooots of ranting on this one #would be a lie to say I haven't been waiting for this #i needed it out of my chest because I've seen that mentality around sometimes #it's not the compliment you think it is #reporting is just a dick move #i have no autority on what is and is not on other aus #and who cares if an au or the other is a rippoff #they can never do the samr as og #so the AU ends up different #and guess what ? IT'S THE POINT OF AUS #ALTERNATE UNIVERSE does that ring a bell ? ALTERNATE ??? THE POINT *IS* THAT THERE ARE MANY VERSIONS WITH DIFFERENT NARRATIVES #oooof screaming in tags #i'm not mad #just ranting #rambling rambling #ariki is rambling again #anyway happy birthday to me #and learn to appreciate stories fucker #or i'm putting you back in the corner of shame for timeout

[errolluck]

I'm tired. Of all of this.

Every fucking day feels like the same, yet it gets heavier. Things get worse, nothing gets better and the few things that gave me security, happiness, where I thought I could escape and be free for some moments, are getting corrupted, forgotten, stained forever, never to be the same refuge they once were.

I'm tired of living sometimes. Of existing on this world.

I know how dying feels; it's calming, the darkness eats you and you feel without worries for the first time in your existance. You know it and that frees you.

But I don't want to die. I'm a coward. I want to continue living on this earth just because I think I can do something in the future, something that will fix everything, something that will give a purporse to everything I've done and lived through.

But we all know that is just a lie to make us feel better, don't we?

Because, at the end of all, do we really matter? What can assure us that?

I'm tired. Too tired.

I want to go somewhere else, but there is nowhere to escape. I want to say that I want to go home, go to the park, go to a forest and be happy. But this is something that will haunt me, haunt me forever and everywhere until the end.

Because you can't escape yourself.

I'm tired...

#I'm not ok right now #my mental health is declining #and everything is getting worse #even the little things that I used to escape reality are rotting #Im just tired #of every single fucking thing that happens #I just wanna curl up and not move at all #Sorry for the vent #but i need to get it out #Im not considering suicide #I don't want to be a weight even after Im gone #and again #i dont want to die #but I just #I just don't want to do this anymore #I don't know what to do #I feel pointless #I think this is just another crisis episode I'm having and I'm going to be fine in some weeks #but I just have to get this out of my chest #I pretend to be ok #to be happy to see if I can truly be happy again #trying to be normal #and ignore everything else that is wrong around me and with me #Sorry again #sorry for the vent #you don't have to worry about me #I don't wanna stress people because I'm not worth it

[stereax]

woohoo spiraling out of control right now (what else is new really I've been fucked up and spiraling for weeks now) and trying to figure out reasons not to delete my tumblr and discord and myself along the way

but you know. talking about myself on my blog automatically means I'm attention seeking and fishing for pity right? should just shut up and stick to the news eh, it's all I'm good for :D

anyway if you need me I'll be in the corner reliving the past, coming to terms with reality, and trying to convince myself I'm not the problem despite every indication to the contrary ✌︎︎

#sterechats :) #09:58 pm - this is a bad idea but scheduling it anyway #what's the worst that can happen really? everyone leaves again? nobody talks to me again? #probably gonna delete this in the morning so. meh. not like it matters not like I matter :D #10:29 pm - wow it feels like my head is on fire #like my brain is actually burning and I can't do a damn thing about it #I should be happy right now! the devils are winning! my favorite guys are scoring! #but no! I'm barely keeping it together around my family and praying I don't wake up tomorrow <3 #11:00 pm - I need to get out of here #I need to get out of here out of here out of here I can't stay here any more this is killing me #everyone hates me and I need to chew my arms open maybe then everything will make sense #why am I even writing these tags what does it matter #I was so much more in control of myself when I was sh-ing #maybe I should get back to that maybe it'll help I don't know anymore #I just want my friends back but they hate me hahahaha #11:24 pm - wonder how many people are gonna block me after this one #how many people will finally be fed up and leave for good #everyone leaves and I should be used to this by now #here's a truck stop instead of saint peter's (yeah yeah yeah yeah) #11:41 pm - it's friday afternoon/there goes antigone to be buried alive #in the next world I want to be something useful/like a staple gun/or in love #I would fall off a cliff for you/a thousand times and call it a good day #maybe I'm just incapable of being human! maybe that's it! #maybe I'm not even human at all... but something worse instead... #1:22 am - moving the posting of this back from 3 to 6 am #not that that matters and not that I matter but I don't think I'll sleep #and I don't want this to post when I'm awake #I know I'm just going to get unfollowed and blocked and left behind as always #because happiness and good things and friendships just aren't things I get to have really #I just wish people would stop lying and telling me they're different and they'll stay when they're not different and won't stay

[clowngremlin]

did some reading today......this year i'm gonna try to read more because i used to love to read and then i stopped and i have a ton of books i want to read....

#the wretched gremlin strikes again #i feel like social media has like ruined my attention span and idk what to do about it besides like trying to do things offline #for a period of time every day #i also got some new books for christmas that i am excited to read!!! #and i have some comics i got over the past year that i want to read but i was really put off reading comics because of the comic that i rea #that was super triggering to me like it just put me off comics but i think i'm ok to read them again! #i read for like an hour today which made me really happy because that's the most i've read since we like moved from the shitty apartment #when i had access to a library and was taking books out from there to read! #i'm still reading american psycho by bret easton ellis which i got over the summer and kept meaning to read more #but never really got around to it

[sage-nebula]

To be honest I kind of just want to write a fic set after Frontiers where Tails ends up in Possum Springs and befriends that crew. Not for any plot reasons, there's no plot really, but just so he can hang around with a bunch of people who have problems and negative feelings and think it's A-OK to feel and express those negative feelings. They treat him like the kid he is because they're in their twenties, and he explodes with everything he's been through in a way to prove that he's not just a kid, and Mae responds with the NitW-certified understated, "Jeez." They take him to smash lightbulbs behind the Snack Falcon. They let him sit in at band practice. He helps Bea out at the Ol' Pickaxe so she can finally fire the creep that assaulted her. (She at first tells him that's probably a violation of child labor laws. He goes, "what are those." She says "fuck it" and hires him.) He and Lori get to gleefully shout, "everything sucks forever!!" while laying on the train tracks because sometimes you've just got to embrace the fact that, yeah, things suck! And maybe they always will! And maybe that's okay! Maybe it's okay to not be okay!!

There's no plot. This follows the events of NitW too, so there's no danger from the cult. Tails is aged up a little maybe, perhaps 12 so that he and Lori can be closer in age (since she's 14), because I want them to be besties and later pen pals. (She gets him a friendship necklace that's two halves of a star. Together they spell "BFF." She gives him the B, because he has a big brain, and keeps the second F because she wants people to think it means "fuck."

Tails: "So . . . Brains Forever Fuck?" Lori: "Exactly" :3)

I just think it would be fun and maybe what he needs. Everything's dying in Possum Springs and everything sucks, Mae is severely mentally ill, Bea is cut off from her dreams, Gregg and Angus have no way of knowing if they'll ever manage to get out, Lori was probably going to be the next target of the cult. But hey, they're still alive. They can still smash lightbulbs and build crazy robots and tightrope walk on the power lines and have knife fights (ok that's just Mae and Gregg) and play grunge rock as loud as they can during band practice. Angus can tell Tails about a universe that doesn't care, and people who do. Gregg can commiserate on what it feels like to feel worthless, and Bea likewise on how it feels to be overwhelmed but knowing you have no choice but to keep going anyway. And Mae can save him the trouble of paying for a shit therapist by telling him, look, the only therapist around will tell you to just journal your thoughts and feelings. So do that. Maybe it helps. She doesn't know. But she does it, so hey, might be worth a shot.

I don't know, I just like thinking about it. Don't know if I'll ever write it, but the idea of Tails and Lori M being pen pals regardless is one I like a lot (as well as Tails taking a burned CD of the band's EP with him when he leaves, and actually picking up on that journaling thing big sis Maeday told him about . . .)

#i recently rediscovered the song ''Ghosts'' by Mandopony which is based on NitW #and it makes me think of this concept a lot #the thing abt the Sonic characters is that feeling negative things is often like . . . they try to fix it for each other? #which isn't bad per se; there's no bad intentions there #but whether it's Sonic or Amy or whoever the idea is always - #no no don't feel sad! believe in urself!! be happy!! be optimistic!! etc etc #but sometimes you NEED to feel bad. sometimes you NEED to just scream abt how much everything fucking SUCKS #bc feeling it & screaming abt it is the only way to get to accepting & moving on from it!! #so i think being around ppl who are like ''yup things fucking suck bro. have a drink (wait how old are you again)'' would be healing #plus there's one lyric set in ''Ghosts' that really works for post-Frontiers: #''I found the stars but I lost my mind'' #idk. i'm just thinking abt it a lot #night in the woods #oh ALSO since Gregg is ALSO a fox he could teach Tails the trick where u put cups on ur ears #& then u can hear the ocean #v important trick for him to learn #sth

[nightlynymph]

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#i'm back home after one of the worst nights of my life #my cat fell from the kitchen window #i live on the 4th floor #i was locked in my room for like an hour #only then i realised he's gone and this was at midnight #after that i walked the whole neighbourhood twice yelling after him #i looked everywhere in the house and everywhere in the parking lot and behind and around every block and he was nowhere #i came back upstairs and i cried for some good 30-45 minutes harder than i ever cried in my life #i almost gave up for the night when i decided to drag myself out of bed and roam the neighbourhood again at 3am #i was kind of numb at this point and i was in no hurry #which is why i decided the best course of action is to check under every car touroughly #and that's when i found him #just several steps from where he probably fell but he was so so so scared he wouldn't move at all #his face was obviously bleeding a lot but i didn't know much else #i somehow managed in the end to grab him from under the car and i ran to the emergency vet #its 5am now and im back home and i was told he will be ready to be discharged this morning until noon #which is amazing #im so happy that internally he is alright #he cannot walk without dragging himself so his paws need some casts #and his face was a bit dislodged and im afraid it might stay like that but otherwise he is ok and he is safe and i found him #which is all that matters #the guilt i feel right now made me self destructive for the first time in years #i will cat proof every inch of the apartment #i rambled a lot im sorry #had to get it out

[neverendingford]

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#tag talk #as much as I hate to see the social cinema grow as I get new followers. we're at a good and satisfying number. and I like that #also also also. I've introduced a friend to Hannibal (tv show) and he's loving it and I'm so happy cause none of #of my other friends have been able to stomach the body horror. so it's super cool to find someone to hype over it with #another random story that I genuinely can't remember if I said already. got told by a kid in minecraft that he's smiled a lot more around me #which. huge compliment. genuine honor to make people happy and smile and laugh #people don't laugh enough. we don't smile enough. be happy or die. and I'm too powerful to die. been there. haven't done that #cry and then laugh and then punch as hard as you can. #got to visit some of my favorite residents from the nursing home I first worked at. lotta new staff but my three favorite nurses are still #which is nice. I cried when I left that job because even though it crushed my soul I loved my coworkers and most of my residents. #I get why some healthcare workers grind themselves to the bone for the job. you're making such a huge difference in people's lives. #I tried but didn't have the fortitude for it. but it's nice to be able to go back and say hi to the friends I made and see how things are. #anyway. sorry for being weird like.. one or two weeks ago. I think things are settling out again. moving is rough but we're making it work #It's been a lot of Lear again lately. especially while being at my parents house. he doesn't mind being deadnamed as much sooo.... #idk. at least one of us is capable of surviving the dmv and the state medicaid website. heaven knows I can't manage. #trying to stop using him as a crutch for getting things done has just resulted in us not being able to get things done. #but I don't want to be someone else I want to be me. I don't want to be the armor I want to be the human inside. #I don't want to live defensively. pushing everyone away. I can't do that. #anyway. we're back home! and work is on the horizon. hopefully this job works out cause I don't want to have to apply for new jobs. #the hr rep is a man at this store and I immediately got set on edge and our voice dropped as I stepped back. #then we introduced ourselves with the wrong name and he got confused and I just felt stupid about it #but how am I supposed to know which name he's been told. he didn't even use our paperwork name. Anyway that was a disaster #but we're on track and embarrassment is not a setback but a feeling about the way things progress. and it is progress we're making

[skrunksthatwunk]

not rascal's deadbeat owner coming around when im not home and telling my roommate she's taking him for a week (our break is 4 weeks or so, implying he's gonna be back here even though That's Her Cat Not Ours) and then just picking up the new toys i bought for him and taking them with her without even asking. hey. hi. those are mine

#like yes i want rascal to use them so he can be happy and fulfilled but also i dont fucking trust you #she didnt even ask. i wasnt even AROUND and she just yoinked them #she also took the new litter box my roomie got for him bc the old one was so caked in shit that 20 mins in a powerful sink didnt even #change it. like bedrock-hard cat shit. who fucking knows how old that was bc they never clean or empty it. fucks sake #and obv he needs a litter box and my roomie threw the old one away bc again it was Unsalvageably And Hazardously Filthy #like we could get sick he could get sick. get a grip #but like i dont wanna be feeding her replacements for her stuff she doesn't take care of over and over #just burning money trying to make rascal's life a Little better bc again our control over his situation is limited bc hes literally her cat #it's so frustrating. like i waited a full month to get him new toys bc i didn't know how long this situation was gonna last and i dont have #cats and cant have them for a while (not that this is stopping me oops) so it's not like the toys'll be used w me #like if she decided to up and drop him at a shelter like she'd planned less than a couple months ago I'd be sittjng in a pile of cat stuff #but he needs more stuff yknow. theyre not providing for him and i have the means to atm. and just when i bite the bullet and surprise him #with a bunch of new things he was SO excited about she swoops in without warning and takes him #god. my roommate told me he just froze up when his owner came in..and he looked so pissed about it #having to go back and leave us and leave all his fun new stuff to go back to the room where they cant even bother to feed him regularly #much less play with him or take care of him #it's heartbreaking. it's such a delicate situation im trying to move carefully so we don't lose him completely but it's so frustrating going #slow. ughhghhgh AND THEYRE ALWAYS LIKE man he's so much nicer to y'all. MAYBE IT'S BC WE TREAT HIM WELL. CRAZY THOUGHT I KNOW #fucking. i love that little man this sucks for him so bad. trying to get him back for a couple days while im here but no response yet #and my roommate's staying on campus over break so she's gonna show up as soon as that week's over like I'm Here For Rascal. Your Time Is Up. #rauguhhhhh sorry if these rascal vent posts are a downer guys. it's just. god dude. fucking hell #i know this is a stupid situation i have gotten myself into i know it's stupid to try and finagle someone's pet from them BUT SHES ABUSIVE #AND SUPER LIKE. INDIFFERENT?? AND APATHETIC ABOUT WHETHER OR NOT THE PPL SHE DUMPS HIM ON CARE FOR HIM WELL OR NOT. AGH #sighhhh. whatever. gotta focus on tmr's exam and then i can complain about rascal some more. #i get she prolly thinks it's a team effort but the only reason we take her stuff is bc we didn't have a cat and werent planning on it #ggggghhzgzzjzjkkzkzkkzkk. grinding my teeth

[lemoncake438]

How do u know if its love or mental illness?

#I'm so fucked up in the head #so glad I have therapy later #love #bpd #bipolar #fawn response #like ugh I am so fucking afraid of myself #I take a look at my past 3 relationships and I have absolutely devastated all three of them and I don't want to hurt anyone else #but I'm literally 3 for 3 in the ruining lives department and like okay yeah 1 and 2 eventually got over it and moved on but what if 3 #never does? I mean I guess its all so new and raw but like I feel so awful. I feel like I'm never allowed to love again until I can like #not hurt people? but I think we are all always gonna hurt people. ugh love is so stupid I wish I could just turn it off!! #I wish I could just rip it out of my chest and fucking kill fucking beat the shit out of my heart so it never dares to feel or want again #and then I get surprised when I tell people that and they look at me like they're going to cry #why in the world should I be allowed to love?? when it clearly does so much damage?? #and then its worse right because then when I love someone I google the symptom of every fucking mental illness imaginable. bpd. bipolar. #adhd. autism. you name it I've searched it. and like I have bipolar so then I start invalidating my own love. I tell myself things like #oh youre just manic and thats making you think that this person is in love with you. oh you're just manic you think you are the center of #everyone's universe. oh you're just manic you aren't actually happy around them they just enable your ugly illness #and then like the things in question that are making me think this as like totally valid and normal things #like oh you're just manic you think they love you- my brother in christ they remember the smallest details about me and always know how to #make me laugh. we can't lock eyes longer than a few seconds before we both smile etc etc etc #but then it gets analytical- you know? bc then my brain is like ok we have to disprove our own personal bartholomuel that nafty brainworm #but you cant logically analyze something like love I don't think #right and then like I'm so deep in this hole of analyzing I start running the simulations of all the damage I'll do if/when it ends poorly #because I'm a piece of shit and I always always always go stir crazy and lose myself in it and panic and try to run and then bury my own #personality and wants and needs bc I want so badly to be loved I subconsciously shape shift myself into their ideal partner #right okay so then I'm minmaxing it- I'm speed running the imaginary relationship in my brain start to finish every single day and living #in a fake scenario where we break up every single day thousands and thousands of times over and none of that even happened #its like- because I have to prove to myself that its pure and genuine love and not mental illness or attachment or pure lust allows this #evil part of my brain to just take over and go hog wild torturing me with all these awful situations that don't even exist!!

[jedi-bird]

Just ordered an offbrand dice case for my star wars destiny dice side the official ones are now ridiculously overpriced. This way I can get them out of the disintegrating cardboard boxes they came in that take up too much space and have easier access to them so I can hopefully start playing again. It seems silly, but star wars games are how my partner got me to start playing games with them. And they just make me happy.

#soon it'll be too hot to move much so I'm going to spend a lot of time just sitting and sorting things #and playing with dice always makes me happy #i bought an extra storage box because I'm pretty sure there's destiny dice somewhere that i haven't stumbled across yet #but once i do i can store them safely #and there's a good chance that the game store i like will find another box and discount it again since very few still play around here

[arsonist-chicken]

my flatmates just got home and I heard them acting all surprised that I emptied the dishwasher and more when I tried to not listen and focus on my assignment again, but the tone clearly said "omg can you believe she actually does house work???" as if I'm the one throwing beer cans and wine bottles in the plastic bin every other day

#also having so much stuff in the fridge you can't figure out what's the thing smelling slightly off #also going out every tuesday and thursday but claiming they don't have time to walk ten minutes to the glass/metal collection bins #honestly them coming home at 2am loudly twice a week bothers me less than it would others because i've usually failed to go to bed by then #but if i had a proper job or 8am classes everyday I'd lose it with these two #on one hand i don't want to move out because they're out two evenings a week and gone completely on the weekends #on the other i'm in a bad mood everytime i hear them by now because the mood's just been poisoned like that from the previous stuff #also they run the dishwasher every day no matter how empty it is and i don't want to still live here when we get the yearly energy bill #but i vaguely looked into other places but there's just nothing affordable around here #which going on erasmus would have fixed but well. i see we're at this topic again. happy days #anyway don't mind me i just need to complain because just the sound of especially on of their voices is driving me crazy #and makes my heart speed up in the annoyed way #mine #jess' flatmate rants #upside of a holiday on thursday: holiday! downside: they also have a holiday. hopefully they have plans #i have far too much stuff to catch up on and if i go to the library i either have to cook before or buy something and i already used so muc #money on food this month