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broken-clover · 5 years

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Goretober Day 9- Medical

Man, this one is weird. In hindsight there were so many other options I could have gone with, and I went with this one? Meh. Honestly I wonder how coherent this is in the first place, I’m probably gonna edit it in the morning to try and make it less disaster-y because I can’t make an informed opinion right now I don’t have enough brainpower to do that. Hopefully the long weekend will let me catch up on everything (including the sleep)

Well! Onto the important stuff. I figured I’d been away from Blazblue for long enough, so have a Tager! Because I love him, and I love to hurt him. Also maybe a warning for canon compliance because I dunno how well this works, I tried to do some background research but Blazblue is confusing and at some point I just kinda gave up.

He’d learned two lessons that day, ones that he was pretty sure he wasn’t going to forget anytime soon. The first was the idea that brute strength was a powerful tool, if used wisely. Bare hands could do a lot of damage, even matched up against machine weaponry.

The second was that the feeling of having your ribcage torn clean open was the worst sensation that a person could live through.

The whole fight had been a whirlwind, and he’d barely remembered where it started. They were supposed to have been retrieving Nirvana, but the group that had commissioned them had said that Nirvana was supposed to be dormant. Maybe it wouldn’t have been the cleanest mission, but they hadn’t been expecting-

“GOOD! Keep squirming! I LOVE it when they squirm!”

A flash of sea-blue hair and burning red eyes sent everything back into disarray.

“Artillery! Keep on the left, don’t lose track of Nirvana!”

He couldn’t remember when he’d dropped his weapon. It was nowhere within reach. Partizan always had extras, just in case something happened while they were out in the thick of a mission. But Partizan had been the first to fall down and not get up. He could still see a pale hand clutching her long spear, even as they both marinated in her own blood.

“Flamberge! Pull back!”

It had swiftly turned into a losing battle, and they all knew it. But they also knew that not all of them would be able to make it out. That…thing, it was too fast to outrun.

“Take everyone who can still walk and RUN! I’ll try to hold him off- !”

Even that had been wishful thinking. He’d watched Artillery get his jaw torn clean off, Flamberge stabbed on her own blade, Francisca left bleeding out from her snapped-off leg, and Krieg nothing more than a mashed-up pile of flesh, half-crushed under a support beam.

The monster had killed them all, deliberately, right in front of him, as though a punishment for trying to be the martyr. It had left him alive for last, savoring every moment with a wretched sense of satisfaction.

”You made for a bunch of fun toys. Never had any of ‘em last that long before.”

He didn’t want to think about some of his best and closest friends, butchered without mercy, not offered a moment to say goodbye to the world before they were taken out of it. All that was left now was him, sprawled out on the hard ground, bleeding and pinned down by something that looked human, but couldn’t be. No human could commit such an atrocity.

Some manic, hysterical part of him laughed in triumph, realizing that he wouldn’t be parted from them for very long.

It seemed to exert so little effort when it ripped him right in two. Almost like opening a present. Though the pain sparked off of every nerve, dragging out a scream that could shake the heavens above, he found himself wondering about the creature that was mauling him. Who had decided to create it? Did it know anything else besides the blood and sweat and tears of war? Was battle all that it knew, or did it simply not care about anything else?

Sharp teeth grazed his exposed innards, ripping out a mouthful of something. The creature was eating him alive.

”Never had a toy that’s so tasty, either…”

As long as Bullet was far, far away from there...she’d begged to come along, insisting that her wounds had finally healed. They had all ribbed him over it, laughing about how easy it was for her to get him to say yes. But he had been firm. Of course he cared deeply about their younger member, that was why he wanted her to fully recover before she could go back onto the field, no matter how much she pleaded and scowled.

He wasn’t sure how he hadn’t died yet. He could see a single arm off on its own, and the action of tearing through his ribs had definitely snapped the spine. One eye had been punched clean out, and he could barely manage breathing without trying not to choke as blood pooled in the back of his throat.

There wasn’t much after that. Blood. Screaming, but not his own. Flashing lights. Something was lifting him. Had the goddess of death finally arrived to release him from the agony?

It had been dark then, for a long time. He could make out the vague faces of his friends, staring out in the gloom. They never moved, never said anything, just stood and stared. It still offered a sense of comfort, being with people he knew. It felt less lonely.

The sound of a light switching on felt like a gunshot whizzing past his head. It was the first real sensation he could remember in what felt like an eternity. It was odd to feel something again.

He immediately regretted the thought, as a tidal wave of pain slammed into him at full force. It was a sensation that he recognized. The memories flooded back a moment later- the twisted, mangled bodies of his companions, a horrible, satisfied smile, drowning in his own blood-

“I know, it’s not like I’ve forgotten about you.”

The unfamiliar voice snapped him out of the memories. He couldn’t remember anything, who was she? Why was she talking to him?

The light burned. He barely had enough energy to squeeze his eye shut to hide from it. Something like footsteps clicked in the distance.

“I’ll help you right now.” The strange woman’s voice came back. “No, let me rephrase- I’ll give you a ‘chance to be helped.’”

He had no idea what she was talking about. Was this woman death? Had she come to judge his soul? Perhaps that’s why the light felt so blinding.

The sound of footsteps was joined by the clink of metal, things being pulled and pushed around. He didn’t tend to think of himself as an especially curious person, but the lack of understanding of his current situation definitely had him wanting to know more, even if it hurt.

The light still hurt. It was hard to focus on much more than that. But he could make out a pair of shining lenses looming over him, adjusting things that he couldn’t see. The light glinted off of a dozen cables and wires, attaching and affixing themselves to...was that his body?

There wasn’t much to be seen. It was clear that nearly all of it was broken. Only one limb appeared to have anything useful still attached to it. Needles were stuck into his sides, with no proper arms to find the veins to. He didn’t look like a person. He didn’t look like he was supposed to be alive.

“Hey, can you hear me?”

She was talking to him now? What for? It didn’t make any sense. He managed to get a dry groan out, before it made his head spin.

“I’ve got some interesting readings from you. You’re really lucky. I think you’re compatible.”

“‘Compatible?’ Compatible with what? What was she talking about? Why was he even here in the first place?

He must have made some noise without realizing it. The stranger’s voice came back, sporting an oddly soothing tone. “Hey, hey, you’re my test subject now. I can’t exactly have you die on me.”

Test subject?!

“But I hope you’re ready to become a demon…”

Oh, no. Was this what everything was all about? She’d managed to scrape him off the ground and stitched him back together just enough so that he could be used as a lab rat?! Was this woman absolutely deranged?

He desperately wished he had the power to move. Even attempting a pathetic wiggle was too much, and it only made him writhe in pain. There was nothing he could do as she finished looking him over, and fetched a sharp needle to stick in him.

He could feel the foreign object digging in, pooling out. It burned in his blood, ripping skin and muscles and cells apart and eating what was inside. Was this some kind of torture? It had to be. It felt like being split in two all over again. He could almost see those menacing eyes, boring into his soul as it tore him into bits.

When he finally felt lucid enough to think, all he could focus on was the thought that this couldn’t be his own body, it looked nothing like it.

He wasn’t supposed to be this big, or this red, or this…metallic. Something had been welded onto the stumps of his legs (hadn’t there been more of them left? What happened to his other leg?). What were all these extra parts? Why were they here?

“You’re up?”

His eyes snapped towards the source. The strange woman. Something about her face was frightening.

“W-what-” It didn’t sound quite like him. But it was close enough. Closer than everything else.

“Whatever. You don’t need to worry about that.” She held something in her hand. A thick cable came off of it, which she connected to another that snaked across the floor.

As soon as she did, an odd rush of coldness flooded his body. The second cable seemed to connect to him in some way. That wasn’t supposed to be there, so why was it?

“I’ve still got a few more jobs to do with you. But to do that, I’ve gotta clean the slate and start over.”

What? Why did she say so many strange things? Everything felt so confusing. He didn’t know what any of it meant. What did she was with him? Why-

She twisted something on the strange object in her hand, and everything went dark.

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chelsorz07 · 6 years

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you know it’s not forever

I think I’m gonna stop doing these soon, since it’s been at least a year since I started the series and I have to have repeated some already. But for tonight I have nothing else to do. Also for anyone who actually cares I’m working on a fic...it’s not my first but it will be the first one I finish and publish so keep an eye out in the next couple days, Dean/Cas fans ♥

2010/2018

What's one of your locked text messages? a line from a justin bieber song that sarah sent me haha Don’t have any. This phone doesn’t delete shit apparently. Where is the one boy/girl you want to see the most right now? at this very moment i would grow a left nut just so i could give it away if it gave me the opportunity to kick it with mah weskimo. Texas. Do you think your last ex deserves to die? i don't think about him, one way or the other. I definitely do not think that. He thinks that. And I try to convince him every day that he’s wrong, just like he does for me. Who was the last person you slept in the same bed with? david. Dave but he’s been gone for two weeks. Would you be mad if your best friend dated the person you like? probably, considering the person i like is my boyfriend. If my best friend dated my husband, yeah that’d be an issue. She never would though. She doesn’t even like him as a person lol Is anyone over- protective of you? my parents used to be but i think they've decided to chill for the most part. Nobody cares that much about me. Plans for tomorrow? babysitting, and hopefully walmart to get shirts to tie-dye for the summer set. Laundry, Netflix, hopefully finishing the story I’m writing. I really suck at dialogue. Have you made a mistake in the past week? i make mistakes by the hour. Constantly. I don’t recall a specific one though. Do you know anyone named Joshua? yeppp. A couple. Nobody I’ve spoken to in years. Will you be in a relationship in 4 months? more than likely. I’d like to hope so. If my marriage falls apart in the next four months I will most definitely kill myself. If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you? for sure. I’d do it for free. What were you doing at 7:00 AM? sleeping. Watching TWD and playing solitaire on my phone. Do you think you can last in a relationship for six months? it's been almost a year. Oh my god. Do you think two people can last forever? perhaps. I have yet to see it happen. Would you put yesterday on repeat and live it forever? nah. No, yesterday sucked. Work was dead and with nothing to do my feet hurt like hell, even with medical grade compression socks on. Did you ever kiss someone with a tattoo? yeah. Yup. I would never go near that person again. I was 19 and stupid and he was a filthy liar. What did you do today? watched maranda, cleaned up the house a little. that's pretty much it. Slept mostly. Picked up the living room. Watched tv. Looked at real estate listings. Talked to my dad. It was a decent day. Last time you laughed super hard? no idea. i laugh all the time. Can’t remember. I tend not to laugh really hard when I’m alone. Which I usually am. Do you find smoking unattractive? nope. but it sucks being around all my friends who smoke when i quit two and a half months ago. It probably is but I’m a chain smoker so I don’t really care. How many people do you fully trust? haha...well...used to be one. now i'm not sure i can completely trust anyone. Still one. Although the person is different. Nobody will ever have my back as much as my dad does. Did anyone see you kiss the last person you kissed? i doubt it. Um...randos at the Pittsburgh airport. Did anyone call you pretty recently? ehh...don't think so. The last person to call me pretty was me. But Mike agreed so I guess him lol Do you look decent when you wake up? depends how my previous night went. That’s a valid answer. I look shitty without makeup no matter what. If my makeup from the previous day isn’t all fucked up after I sleep then I still look good. Are you afraid of falling in love? no. If I was it’d be way too late. Say the last person you kissed was kissing someone right in front of you? i'd probably feel exactly the same way i felt when i woke up from a really bad dream about him yesterday morning. There would be violence involved. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room? um...i don't believe so. I don’t drink anymore. There are a couple bottles of whiskey in my freezer that haven’t been touched in years, that’s about it. when was the last time you were at the beach? never. Still never. Think back to September, were you in a relationship? yep. I’ve been in a relationship for the past eight Septembers. Almost nine. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be? i wouldn't. Last half of 2010, first half of 2011. Do you know anyone with such a terribly annoying voice that you can't even stand? most people. Fucking BARB. A lady I work with. She’s so irritating. I’ve even had customers complain to me about her voice, saying they want me to check them out instead. Who was the last person to give you a hug? maranda. Dave. What was the first thing you thought this morning? aksdfmkaoiewhfjdnf;h. “Wtf time is it?” It was actually almost 3pm. But I don’t go to bed till the morning so. What is something that you disliked about your day? uh. everything. The fact that I was pain free most of the day and now I’m not. Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with a B? How many? nope. Not that I recall.

What about T? How many? no. Nope. What do you currently hear right now? commercials. Carl Grimes. And my cat snoring. Have you ever sent a text to the wrong person? many times. Yep. Awkwardsauce. Who was your last text from? chele. My dad. Did you have any unread text messages when you woke up today? no. Nope, just a voicemail from my pharmacy. Would you rather be able to control the weather or control traffic? weather. Ooh...those are my two biggest fears sooo...Idk if I could pick. Are you faster at text messaging or typing on the computer? computer. Computer for sure. Even with Swype. If you won a trip to a nude beach would you go or give the trip away? i wouldn't go that's for sure...but i'd figure out a way to make money off of it. I stand by that. In your opinion which is the stronger emotion: love or hate? love. of course sometimes when i say i hate someone, it's just because i don't know how to tell them i love them. and furthermore, feeling like i hate someone can make me love them even more. Love. I don’t have the energy for hatred anymore. But I’ll never stop loving what I love. Would you rather sleep for 3 days, or stay awake for 3 days? sleeeeeeeep. Honestly...I don’t know now. I do love my sleep. And I’m lucky to do it for three hours at a time, let alone three days. But I’m also the world’s biggest night owl and am most productive when I should be sleeping. What time did you go to sleep last night? 5am this morning. Like 9am? I don’t remember. When was the last time you had starbucks? never have, never will. I broke my vow and had it exactly one time, a couple years ago. But I refuse to pay five dollars for coffee ever again. Timmy Ho’s and Sheetz are better and half the price. If you were granted one wish, what would you wish for? i don't believe in wishes. Money. What's the tenth text in your inbox say? "is nellie home?" from my mom. “I’m just happy you actually did something about it. Suppose I should return the favor and look into this now.” From Dave, about our respective health issues. Did you stand on your tippy-toes when you had your last kiss? for some reason i always do, even though he's only an inch taller than i am. I must have broken that habit somewhere along the way, because no, I didn’t. Do you like the same person you did a month ago? i've liked the same person for two years. That will never change. Would it be weird if the last person you kissed called you? yeah, cuz he's at work. and he almost never actually calls. He doesn’t call unless something is wrong. Kissed somebody whose name starts with a C T D or J? d. First name D, last name C, middle name J. All different people. Do you ever think about the past? i think about past, present, and future. Always. Do you believe exes can be friends? sometimes. They most certainly can. Do you currently have a hickey, if so where? i've never had one. Only guy who ever gave me a hickey was a complete tool and I only liked him for his southern accent. He came along a few months after the last time I took this survey, when I was on the rebound. Last night you felt? meh. Bored and in pain. What's your favorite thing to do when you're bored? play solitaire. Read fanfic or watch Youtube. In the past 72 hours have you been under the influence? yup. I haven’t. It’s been months since I even drank a beer. Does anyone know your password besides you? no. Dave knows a couple of them. What're you wearing right now? pajamas and a hoodie. Lilo & Stitch pajama pants, Supernatural Day 2017 shirt. The Hot Topical makes a lot of money from me. What were you doing when you found out Michael Jackson was dead? don't know, don't care. i never liked michael jackson. That. Do you want to see somebody right now? yes. Several people. When's the last time you cried? daily. Um...a couple days ago at work because I was in pain. And probably the same day because I was watching Gilmore Girls: A Year in the Life and it always makes me cry. Would you rather sing or dance in front of 100,000 people? i'd do both. I don’t want to do anything in front of that many people. But I could sing better than I could dance. Would it be more likely of you to fail Science or Math? both. I sucked at both. I was strictly an English and Art kinda gal. Will you regret your next kiss? no. they're so few and far between i can't regret them. not that i would anyway. No way in hell. I relish the ones I can get. Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry? yeah but he doesn't ever seem to care. All the time. Everything makes me cry. Next time you will kiss someone on the lips? hopefully i'll get to see him tonight or tomorrow night when he gets done working, since i won't see him on his day off this week. Sometime between the hours of 4 and 7am next Thursday. Your boyfriend buys you flowers, you say? he's not that stupid. he knows i hate flowers. Still true, except he’s my husband now. Do you understand football? understand it and love it. The fooseball is life. I’m so freaking excited for the draft tomorrow. Is the last person you kissed mad at you? he'd have to care to be mad. Our last conversation was about travel and home buying so probably not. The person you have the strongest feelings for dies, do you care? shut up. i'm terrified of that more than anything, because he seems to like to do dumb shit that could get him killed. and i've been having tons of dreams about it lately. What the hell kind of question is that? I’m not a sociopath. Think to the last person you kissed, have you ever kissed them in a car? yes. Our first kiss was in a car. Well not the first kiss but that’s what we spent the entire rest of that night doing lol...There have been many car kisses since then as well. Have you kissed more than ten people this year? one person. Just one. Would you ever date someone who was gorgeous but they had a conceited attitude? no. looks don't matter as much as personality. I didn’t know he was conceited at the time but no, I never would again. Like I said, dude was a tool. If someone called you a bitch would you be offended? more like proud. I AM a bitch. I own it. Do you know a few people that smoke weed? a few? i know less people who DON'T smoke weed. Everybody smokes weed anymore. Except like my parents. Was this the best summer of your life? it hasn't happened yet. but last summer was the best so far. For the record, the summer of 2010 was the worst of my life. And last summer was really good for the sole reason of my birthday week, where I met All Time Low and got to spend it back home with my family and friends. Do you think relationships are even worth it? some are. Hope so. Medicine, fine arts, or law? arts. Same. Have you been through driver's ed yet? safety ed...like six years ago. i still don't have my license though. We didn’t have “driver’s ed”. Safety ed was like six weeks of basics but there was never any practice driving or anything like that. I didn’t get my license till I was almost 23. What do you think about people who party a lot? i think i want to be invited? If they’re my age, they need to grow the hell up. If they’re my sister’s age, I’m sure most of them will get sick of it eventually like I did. When was the last time you dyed your hair? almost a year ago...i've been really lazy with it lately. A little over a month ago? It’s orange with black ombre. I like the concept but next time I’m getting it done professionally. Is there a movie you've seen countless times? more than one. Several. I tend to watch most things I like over and over again instead of watching new things. What do you need to go shopping for? i need to stop shopping. Haha...that’s a good answer. But I do need some more compression socks. Have you ever read Twilight? no. Yes, and dammit, I liked it. I still curse myself for that. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about? yeah. Nah, I’ll talk about anything. I’m pretty self-centered. If Britney Spears came to your town, would you go see her concert? hell yes i love her. I’d be there with bells on. Meet anybody new this week? nope. but i'm going to on wednesday. Idk if customers at work count. I don’t leave my house unless it’s for that. Do you dislike anyone at this moment in time? everyone. Yeah, the cunt that thought it’d be cool to cheat on her boyfriend with my best friend and then screw him over as well. Any up coming events you're excited about? the concert on wednesday, and my birthday. Going home next week and house shopping. Does anyone hate you? sure. I guess so. Don’t matter to me.

#not spn #personal #about me #bring back myspace surveys 2k18 #i do what i want

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