#I'm back sorry for disappearing again

[baiwu-jinji]

I'm so very late to the party but finally finished listening to TGCF audio drama season 1, love how intense the last two episodes are :3 Here are some incoherent thoughts about some of the episodes I haven't talked about:

Episode 12: It occurred to me when I'm listening to this episode that the ghosts of Ghost City are always so lively and bubbly, always laughing and flirting and teasing, when most of them must've had a tragic life story with unresolved misfortunes that caused them to turn into ghosts in the first place. Their high spirits feels incongruous with their tragic past, but maybe it's because they're happier as ghosts than as humans?

There's a ghost called 红粉骷髅 (literally "skeleton of beautiful woman") in this episode that finds afterlife much more liberating and satisfying than life itself, as she recites the following poem when she's dancing: "I danced for others in life, nobody buried my bones when I died; I sing for myself after death, my beauty moves the netherworld."

(The name 红粉骷髅 actually comes from a Buddhist story where the Bodhisattva Guanyin turns into a beautiful woman to make love to men but would suddenly turn into a skeleton in the process, scaring the men into realising that the most alluring beauty in the world is but ashes and bones and ghastly in death, and that they shouldn't give in to temptations.)

Episode 13: Hua Cheng tells Xie Lian that he doesn't look at the wishes of his believers and just throws them away because he doesn't care about being worshipped. This just shows the difference between Hua Cheng and Jun Wu: although they both desire power, Hua Cheng only wants power in himself and over his own fate, while Jun Wu wants power over others. The conversation between HC and XL is as follows:

HC: It's better to help yourself than ask the help of others. If you want to climb out of the abyss, what use is it to look to others? Others won't come to save you every time.

XL: That's why you need gods.

HC: But if everyone counts on the god, what about the god? Wouldn't the god get tired?

XL: But you must have many believers. If you turn a blind eye to their prayers, won't they consider you to be ineffectual?

HC: I didn't ask them to worship me, they kneeled before me without my permission. Besides, only those who happen to have their wishes granted would dare to talk about it - those who don't wouldn't dare to complain.

Episode 17: Xie Lian tells Lang Qianqiu that he named his sword technique which he uses to break up a clash by diverting all the harm to himself "wuming" (meaning "nameless") - a fitting name because the technique is about the negation of the self, and sacrificing oneself to endure it all. "Wuming" is also the name Hua Cheng took when he followed Xie Lian after the fall of Xianle and eventually sacrificed himself to protect Xie Lian.

Episode 18: When Xie Lian worries that telling Lang Qianqiu the truth would make Lang Qianqiu question everything XL taught him and cease to be the courageous and honourable person that he is, Hua Cheng asks XL to trust in LQQ's innate moral strength. I like what HC said to XL about LQQ:

"If you value him so much, then why can't you trust him? Trust that since he's the one you chose, he won't lose himself in hatred and will eventually do what he should do, even though he once wanted to destroy the whole world out of hate."

HC is asking XL to have faith in LQQ the same way that HC has always had faith in XL.

There's also something I wonder about the situation between Xie Lian and Lang Qianqiu. LQQ's parents were murdered by the resentful ghosts of the people of Xianle, and XL took the blame for the Gilded Banquet massacre because he didn't want LQQ to think that he tried to save those resentful ghosts in vain, that LQQ's good will towards the resentful ghosts was met with hatred and revenge. But has it occurred to XL that his own supposed "betrayal" would've hurt LQQ equally much? Would LQQ really feel better if instead of the resentful ghosts, it's his teacher whom he admired and respected so much that had betrayed him?

#I'm back sorry for disappearing again #tgcf #tgcf audio drama #xie lian #hua cheng #lang qianqiu

[collophora]

"Let's fix this drawing" *redraw the whole thing*

#star wars #star wars fanart #star wars the clone wars #star wars rex #wip or finished? #no one knows #sorry for the spam #I disappear a week and come back with *nothing* #But don't complain you're lucky #meanwhile my twitt is without content since a month #Cause I'm battling with illustrations V_v #anyway I went hiking with friends #we end up getting lost and having to go through like a feet of mud #a river #and 4 hours of walking #And my body took it well wtf like zero cramp #But then two days after I think I may have gotten a cold #so idk #still pushed to the gym #tho ofc it's summer now so they are much people #and BOI lemme tell you #for a city were half the population is right-wing elderly #the only people I see at my park are doing handstand on bars or whatever high level jedi sh*t #or maybe it's the only good streetpark at miles around so cool people can only go there #and me a shy potato with my cat-ears headphones and messy hair #anyway #that's it for my life. #good night #or I will redraw his face AGAIN #TAT

[diverbots]

origin story

#overwatch #maximilien #art #Hi hello. Sorry for disappearing off the face of the Earth for a week I had to stay off social media due to my mental health plummeting. #But I'm back now and I'll have health insurance again soon. Smile :-)

[schumiatspa]

It is not that surprising that Carlitos has trouble with his ankles, if this is what his ankles have to carry everyday

#i'm sorry for this disappearing for days and just coming back for these posts and then fucking off again #but these pictures had to be shared #carlos alcaraz #tennis #indian wells 2024

[cedarw00d-the-fourth]

redeemed Gort au....He gets tadpoled instead of durge....hregrgrggrr...

#so many thoughts about this au #he meets Karlach and she tries to kill him but he's like “woah there i have amnesia I'm sorry for selling you” #and she's constantly weary of him despite him doing good actions #and sometimes scamming people but he's still good #he meets Ketheric and bro starts having war flashbacks because now that gort is back he has to deal with gort and lythe making out again #OH YEAH LYTHE #lythe gets visited by bhaal and bane and bane is like #“yo you're kinda swaggy and my chosen is gone #wann be my new chosen?“ #and lythe says sure and lets orin take her place as Bhaal's chosen #and then gort gets to Baldur's gate and lythe goes fucking crazy and tells him “kill my sister” and he goes “ok” because bhaalspawn pussy #goes hard #anyways she's archduchess of Baldur's gate and reminds gort that he's chosen of bane #and then gort goes to kill orin and then tries to go to the iron throne but the keyword here is tried because #lythe catches him and leaves him and the gang to die #but he leaves and then finds Lythe at the morphic pool with the netherstones #and she's fucking crazy so she tries to kill him #but fails and disappears #and then they save the world YIPPE #Sorry for the note rambles I'm just autistic #bg3 #enver gortash #baldurs gate 3 #baldur's gate 3 #cedar rambles #bg3 gortash

[thsc-confessions]

"this fandom is what got me into reading fanfics" submitted by @cyancatart

#SORRY I DISAPPEARED AGAIN I GOT RLLY SICK😭😭 #but I'm BACK #again #I wrote that fic in the back on a whim I was just making things up as I go IDEK IF THE SUBMITTER LIKES STICKVIN PLEASEE #this isn't me making fun of fandic writers btw I'm one myself RHEAJSEHJ #FANFIC* NOT FANDIC #I just didn't know what picture to use so I decided to be silly #mod dave #thsc #thsc confession #thsc confessions #@/cyancatart #not gonna tag stickvin

[redspottedsheep]

So with the new update came one of my now favourite Four panels, so I figured I'd make a wallpaper for anyone who may want it!

More under the cut

Feel free to use this! All I ask is that you

•Dont remove my watermark

•Dont repost or claim to have made it (Reblogging is great tho!)

The Four sword is from the title screen of Minish Cap, I simply pixelated it to give it the pixel art effect since I couldn't find one without the text but with the pixels

Note: I Iove how this is the version of the 4sword he uses in the comic, it's just so cool looking!

The background is stained glass found in the Minish cap's opening sequence that's been blurred, obscured and mauled

Of course the colour fade all around is a reference to well, the colours. I also put them as they are on Four's very iconic tunic because it's very neat

I may repost this with different versions or changes I make in the future, but if you have any ideas on other characters you may want, things to change about this one, just lmk!

As always, a few last things

Four's amazing panel and character were made by the one and only JoJo so credit to her!

Tumblr ruins the quality, so don't forget to click for HD

#linked universe #lu #linked universe four #lu four #oh look I'm alive again sorry for disappearing #thinking of going back to my roots and continuing to make memes if ppl like em #linked universe fanart #? can i tag that for this #technically i didnt draw any of it #just edited things together #eh idk #<3 the silly

[oseike]

I've been hurting myself with this thought that just won't leave me so I'm sharing it so others can suffer with me, hi

But

The one who suffered the most from the group regression was Yoo Joonghyuk.

Let's look at it this way: When 49!kdj collapses, the party ends up with the knowledge that someday, the Kim Dokja in front of them will just disappear. He won't wake up, and will remain as he is until that time. So, they band together under Yoo Joonghyuk, who has evolved his skill into allowing a group to regress, and they go back to save the rest of him. At this time, Yoo Joonghyuk regains his memories of his Turn Zero, and he realizes his sponsor - that silent force that has been watching him all 1864 rounds - was Kim Dokja all along, likely observing from that train.

Then they get there. They reach him, they dig him out of that subway car....and they have already failed. The end result is Kim Dokja in a coma, now looking younger as well.

To the rest of the party, it really is a zero sum, or maybe slightly better even. They started with a comatose, incomplete Kim Dokja who would never wake up and would someday disappear. They ended with potentially even less of Kim Dokja, still in a coma never to awaken, but without the surety that he would disappear. Essentially, nothing was gained, but also nothing really was lost.

Except for Yoo Joonghyuk.

To Yoo Joonghyuk, he intended to rescue Kim Dokja - to complete his own original desire to finally meet the person who led him through his first life, to face the one who has been watching him since then, and rescue his life and death companion.

But what he is left with is so much worse. Not only does he fail, but after they return, that sponsor, that gaze that had been watching him - a gaze he had come to hate but now no longer could - was also gone. He has to live with the knowledge that Kim Dokja had watched him sink into hatred for him, had sworn to kill him, and then in the moment when he had returned at last, intending to save him, he instead fulfilled the dark wish he had made for countless lives instead. There is a black stain on his sword he can't get rid of that is proof of that.

If he had not regressed, if he had not gone to save Kim Dokja, then Yoo Joonghyuk would not have been the one to strike down the last remnants of him. The gaze of that sponsor would have simply faded away with the system, and he wouldn't know what happened to Kim Dokja. He would probably believe he would just keep living to watch over the world lines forever.

Instead, he has to live with the knowledge that he rushed Kim Dokja to his death, and cut him down at the last. The comatose Kim Dokja he has now is a cold reminder of what he truly lost, and the sky that used to be alive with that silent gaze is now wholly empty. For the first time in 1865 rounds, he is alone, and that fact is not a celebration, but a dirge.

#orv spoilers #orv #no wonder he disappears and comes back 2 years later going a bit crazy #i bet he tried to honor kdj by teying to find a way to live in that world #kdj gave everything to make sure it would continue after all #it was his gift to dlthe party and it was clear kdj would have wanted them to carry on and be happy #and I'm sure yjh tried to find a way to do that #until 2 years later ofc #also it hurts me to realize that kdj really did fulfill practically all of yjh's desires #which of course includes the good ones like making sure everyone survives etc #but there was another wish kdj let him fulfill and its a wish that at the end yjh desperately did not want #and that was yjh's hatred towards his sponsor that made yjh want to kill him #technically the entire 3rd/1864th round fulfilled Tuen Zero's wish to meet him again #but there were countless rounds where yjh swore he would kill his sponsor #and in the end that too came to pass #anyway sorry for typos and enjoy my heartache #i hope this makes sense in the morning still

[buckttommy]

kissing u on the mouth for the zayn tags

It needs to be said. Zayn is a powerhouse, he always has been. Even back during the band, I remember thinking that when they ended, it would be a tossup between him and Harry as to who would come out on top (the only reason Liam wasn't apart of that conversation is because he lacks the confidence and social charisma to carry on a sustainable solo career, as unfortunately indicated by... whatever he's doing now. Definitely not because he's lacking the vocal ability because I've always thought Liam had the most classically appealing voice). But anyway.

I remember when Pillow Talk came out and the Big Larries (you know the ones) were raking him over the coals for it, but in all actuality, that release did exactly what he wanted it to do: it set him apart and, like he said in that interview, it gave him the rare, once-in-a-lifetime opportunity to be the first one out of the biggest band in the world. He could have chosen any genre in the world, but he chose R&B, and despite what anyone else might think, everyone else's solo career was built around Zayn's. Because what else were they going to do? Compete for space in the same genres? That would make the discrepancies between their abilities overwhelmingly obvious. So Zayn planted his flag in R&B, and then Harry/HS1 with soft rock, Niall/NH1 with singer-songwriter, and so forth. (Disclaimer: Obviously, it was fairly obvious which direction each 1D boy was going to go, especially in the later albums, and especially with MITAM, where they all had the most creative control over the lyrics, music, etc.)

But back to Zayn. We always talked about Louis's business sense and how he would be a powerhouse in the industry (I still believe that, if he settled down long enough to go corporate) but Zayn's right up there with him. The fact that, even back then, he could look at what was going on within and around their contract negotiations and know, "okay, this is a sinking ship" speaks to a level of profound intellect and insight into the working cogs of the industry itself.

I also find it interesting that he said they got sick of each other because that's the most honest thing I've ever heard any of them say about what happened to their relationship(s). I mean, living in each other's pockets it was bound to happen (and we all know that toward the end of it, there was, is, and will be animosity between him and Harry) but, I don't know. Lots to think about there when I consider how much they tried to play it up for the camera (especially during 2014/FOUR promo, which Zayn was completely fucking checked out of and we all knew, and especially during Orlando, I think it was (when Louis was wearing the green hoodie, like something went down during that time for sure). But yeah! hUh! lots to ponder, lots to ponder

#apparently I have a lot of thoughts about this sorry lol #zanye magic #i feel like i'm slowly coming out of hibernation (dipping my toe into one dee) now that he's back #(she says even though she knows he's going to disappear again) #seed <333 #fandom: 1d

[dawntheduckrb]

I'll stop posting wips eventually but it's been five days since I've said anything and I don't want anyone to think I'm dead/dying/stuck in a ditch and withering away, so here's 10% of the reason I disappeared (the duck is stuck in rendering hell) (and my little baby laptop is screaming at me every time I open up this file)

I might still be mostly lurking for a little bit so please be patient with me in the meantime 🙏🙏

#seriously though I'm sorry for just up and disappearing like that #wanna talk to people and interact with them so bad lately but I just can't bring myself to do it #so the best i can manage is blabbing in the tags like always #i don't know wtf is going on but over the past few days I've just felt like i don't deserve to talk to anyone #tried to reblog posts from mutuals several times but something in my head keeps saying; #'yeah they don't actually care for your input at all and you're being a bother for even trying etc etc' #and i know deep down that's probably not true (i hope) but i can't reason it away you know #and i know the best solution to this is to just talk to someone #let it be known that i *did* make an attempt to #i tried texting someone (and succeeded) but i couldn't keep doing it and I'm back at square one (and now feel worse lmao) #i'm not really putting this here for anybody to see it as much as i am for myself #but i know that (hypothetically) this could be seen by a real human so it still kinda feels like I'm reaching out in a way which feels nice #makes me feel less like I'm shriveling up in my own self imposed solitude #so uh hello person who might be reading the tags (there's six of you guys here now which is crazy cause i post nothing but junk here lol) #((but thanks anyway for following and even more thanks for reading this if you did)) #i'll make my way around all the posts i missed soon enough don't worry #i'm sorry i'm really not meaning to ignore anybody #i have drafted quite a few posts from moots that i couldn't finish leaving comments on but i have seen them #everyone here is super cool and talented as always <3 whether that be through art or writing or just finding neat posts to share #this wall of text is long enough and i'm very eeby so thank you again for reading this #tldr; not dead and i'll be okay eventually :) #not rb #hey look i didn't post a picture of my dog this time (a crime) #i'll make sure to share one the next time i get a good one

[mikaikaika]

wasnt there that one time where everyone was panicking over Leo and it turned out the admin was playing Roblox on stream or something LOL

Yeah everyone was panicking over where Leo was since they were late for tasks meanwhile when you look over to Leo's admin and they just :

#Anon I'm so sorry I tried to answer you ask but it just disappeared and now it's back again after I updated tumblr idk what happened #Sorry for late reply #Mika mumbles back #Anon #Ask

[mazanica]

... h.. hey.... crazy idea haha but what if... what if I went back to writing fnaf fanfic... as much as I wrote it before anyway seeing as everything was set in anthro aus... what if I went back and rewrote Phantom Watchers... what then. What if I actually explored the cultural differences of these people from these planets.... what if...

#personal #I have so many better AUs for the Phantom Watchers AU #but what if I went back and rewrote the central AU... #I miss my guys #I miss Blu and Bonnie and Freddy and Red and Spring and Goldie and- #I miss my gays #I'm working full time and going to school in the mornings and writing a novel AND a novel-length fic in another fandom #but I very much so miss my guys #Sorry I keep disappearing it Will happen again (is anyone still there...?)

[avalardreams]

I'VE ABANDONED MY BOY

#sorry this is the longest i've not used the app since highschool lol #i only just noticed i was on it? when did i open it #anyway hopefully back to regularly scheduled posting since i'm apparently on here again lmao? #didn't even mean to disappear in the first place had a lot of life changes goin on & mental health but i'm good! #tbd

[maellor]

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#hi I'm back online! #(sorry i disappeared for a couple of weeks again) #I'll try to catch up with tumblr in the next few days #personal stuff

[blizzardz]

that one trope where Character A has been missing for years, almost believed to be dead, until suddenly coming back, much to the relief and happiness of all their friends and family. Except for Character B, who is more than terrified about A's return. But for whatever reason, B can't let anyone know why they feel the way they do about A's return

#sorry i'm insane guys i'm having a moment #like it can go a lot of ways i thinks #because it can go ways where Character A is malicious. or Character B is. #like maybe before their disappearance. A was secretly violent or otherwise hurtful to B #OR B was the one to make A disappear. but they can't let anyone know that #OR EVEN FURTHER!!!! if you wanna get really freaky with it- #Character A really WAS dead. and B was the only person who knew for years #whatever reason B may have for keeping A's death a secret. there's a much bigger problem of. how is A back #can you imagine having to witness the sudden death of someone else- having their corpse burned into your memory #only to see them again standing right in front of you. alive and well. doing just dandy #and you can't even give the slightest hint about how much that scares you #CAN YALL TELL WHICH OF THESE SCENARIOS I LIKE THE MOST LMAO #anyway. revive your characters but in the worst way possible. alls i'm saying

[arklay]

WIP DAY.

tagged by @girlbosselrond @morvaris @aartyom @risingsh0t @phillipsgraves @leviiackrman @indorilnerevarine & @denerims over the past month! sorry it's taken me so long to get to anything at all, i'm sure you guys have heard me address it enough, but thank you all so much for continuing to tag me in things while i've been inactive ♡

tagging @aelyosos @brujah @calenhads @florbelles @jendoe @lightwardens @liurnia @nokstella @nuclearstorms @shadowsofrose @shellibisshe @steelport @swordcoasts @wrymbloods @voerman & all of those who tagged me again cause i'm so behind + anyone else who'd like to share anything they're working on, not just writing! ♡

i haven't written anything since the last wip game i did, but i started trying to put diana's timeline together at the start of january, so i mean... i'll show that instead. as you can see, fatigue hasn't let me do much with it even though i've got all of her timeline already done and strewn about all over the place.

started with 1995 onwards cause it was originally going to be an ewskers timeline situation, but then wanted to include all of her backstory so i went back to the start and still have the late 80s and early 90s to get through before then, but yeah :]

it's going to include like all little moments i've thought of between the ewskers just for me and placing them on the timeline, so you can imagine how long this is going to get if i have to go to 2021 for village... like just 1996-1998 is going to be so much... she's very special to me if you couldn't tell already lmaoo

never sharing this though, it's just for me, and like will help for when i do her timeline page (more in-depth version of what's on her oc page) to just run through canon events and brief descriptions and whatnot. you understand.

everything is blurred out besides 1995 ewskers momence and the years, just cause like idk her i feel weird sharing her in-depth backstory unless it's in dms or something, just cause there's lots going on there and yeah. things. idk

i also made a carrd for twt if you wanna have a look at that :] there's some cheeky subtle things with the two resi items i used as pics hehe

actually, you know what, i'll give a lil bit from where i left of with that rewrite anyways, even though it's been months since i wrote it. but why not

Wesker left a fleeting kiss behind her ear then reached around her and hooked his fingers beneath her coat, prompting Diana to glance back at him. But all he did was gently pull it from her shoulders. She watched him from out of the corner of her eye as he hung it up on the rack by the door, his movements careful and almost calculated, until he turned back towards her, and the warmth of his body returned once more. He pressed up against her side this time, as opposed to her back, and one of his hands found a home on her waist. The way the arm it belonged to was resting firmly against her as he began leading her towards the kitchen was comforting, secure, yet unmistakably possessive. And she revelled in it. He had quite the knack for handling her just the way she wanted.

#tag games. #keep going to do picrews and just zoning out 😭 i'm so behind on literally everything but it's fine it's okay (lying) #i'm having a day and a half even though i woke up feeling okay but oh well. my last month has just been like watching videos during the day #or playing games when i have a bit more energy but like i can't do anything that requires me to actually read or write things like words #are just not computing in my brain at the moment but it's okay like i'm just exhausted and hoping soon i can get back to writing because i #still have over 30 wips going lmao but yeah it's been a time a half with lots of appointments and seeing specialists again and trying to #sort things out. i've been more active on twitter which i've mentioned before but it's just because like it's easier for me to sort of just #like and rt things and not having to do my organisation tags and things like i know that sounds so just small and simple but that's how #i've been lately like to my brain rn that seems like a really big task. so i just keep coming on here randomly for a few minutes then #disappearing so i'm sorry that i've definitely missed so much and i haven't been around to just show my appreciation and love to your #creations!! also just everything that happened in december and then a bit at the start of january too like i'm just a lil paranoid about #being on here honestly so i'm trying to get back to it and be okay with posting again and i'm going to make a promise to myself to actually #filter more tags i think? just to help me with like not exposing myself to things that do make me feel uncomfortable in any way!! i'm #rambling now but sorry sometimes i just need to lmaooo idk but yes so cute lil subtle things from my carrd i wanna talk about cause why not #i didn't have to change the blue herb from re0 besides making it brighter because it's already teal toned which is so sexy but i shifted #the hue on the spade key like SLIGHTLY like it was so little. but anyways. i use this emoji ✨ on my twitter name and yes cause sparkles but #also. three stars. the s.t.a.r.s. badge and logo :] then blue herb because i will have no poison in my safe space!!!! take a blue herb or #leave please!! only good vibes and safe space here!! spade key because i'm ace <3 i was going to include the diamond one in there as well #because am demiro and like those are the symbols in the community. ace of spades for ace. diamond for demis (both orientations) #but wasn't sure how to weave the pink through the rest of the carrd even though cyan and pink together is so pretty omg