#I’m really going through it guys

[thecowboykatsuki-anon]

My body is doing some FUNKY things on this new birth control and I don’t think I appreciate it

#like i got the arm implant thing mid December and it was all fine and dandy #but the last two-three weeks have been rough #like I was spotting for 1.5 weeks #I cry so much (I mean I’m also grieving so this one isn’t just the birth control I guess) #but the worst thing is the stomach problems I’ve been having for two weeks #like this is tmi but every other meal/drink that’s not water I have to run to the bathroom like 10 minutes after #I also have an ovarian cyst I was supposed to go get ultra-sounded in December but forgot to make the appointment #and my brain is like “oh you’re dying actually. it’s not a cyst and this is your body dying #which does not help my anxiety #I’m really going through it guys #send help #and pepto

[keanureevves]

we’re going to see Wilf again in just over an hour

#I’m really going through it guys #doctor who

[casper-aristotle]

i’m tired of being sweaty and having no self control when it comes to cutting my hair and i’m tired of waiting for my background check to go through so i can start my new job but now that i’ve waited this long my confidence in myself has dipped so low and i just know everyone at that job will hate me and judge me and think i’m incompetent so what’s the fucking point and i’m tired of being self destructive but that’s all i know how to react to everything i do and say and part of me really wants to just end it all because i’m so so tired of fighting with myself and i miss my sister so much i wish i could hug her

the only thing stopping me is fucking volume two of stranger things season four and that’s what irritates me the most

#vehiclepersonal #i’m really going through it guys

[himbohargreeves]

Anyway idk if anyone else has said it but the reason the Umbrellas had such a different outcome compared to the Sparrows is because Reggie gave up on them the minute he realised he couldn’t control Viktor. He needed seven to complete his plan. The Umbrella Academy was already a failure before it had even really begun.

#I also think this is why they’re so much less of a team and so much more of a family #because the sparrows were trained as a unit.. Reggie NEEDED them to be a cohesive team if they were gonna make it in oblivion #which meant they already had that sense of comeradery among one another but in a much less personal sense #whereas for the umbrellas it was never really about being a team.. that ship had already sailed #it became about pushing them individually to their limits #and their bond was a solidarity through shared trauma.. they were there for each other emotionally rather than physically #anyways I’m going to bed night guys #the umbrella academy #tua3 #tua3 spoilers

[daffi-990]

Tease Tidbit Tuesday 🏙️

Tagged by @diazsdimples & @tizniz. Make sure to check out what they shared today! (and maybe send James a virtual hug or a stupid punny joke? He’s been sick for 3 weeks and I’m sure he could use some cheering up 😘)

I have been wanting so desperately to write the past few days but a cold has my sinuses putting so much pressure on my head I feel like it’s going to explode, plus it’s school holidays and it’s been raining so I’ve got two very energetic kids with cabin fever running around causing mayhem 😅.

BUT! I did manage to write a little something for LA Lonely so yay (even though it may not be great, at least it’s words)

Pre snippet here

Buck is woken up by the shrill sound of a phone ringing. The bed jostles, Buck letting out an annoyed grumble as the warm body that is wrapped around him disappears. There is a kiss pressed to his naked shoulder, a whispered apology and then the rustling of the blankets as the person leaves the bed, answering the phone with a quiet hello.

Rolling over to check the time, Buck’s surprised to see that it’s almost 9. Usually his body clock wakes him up at 7am everyday, whether he stayed up late or not, so sleep-ins are a rare thing. He rolls onto his back, groaning as he stretches his arms up above his head. There’s a slight ache in his ass but it’s a reminder of the fantastic sex he had last night and honestly, Buck doesn’t mind the discomfort.

He hears footsteps on the stairs, the wood creaking slightly and then the most attractive man Buck has ever laid eyes on is standing at the foot of his bed wearing nothing but underwear and a soft apologetic smile that has Buck’s tummy swooping.

Eddie.

The man’s name is Eddie, Buck remembers. And remember he should because he was moaning it loud enough last night.

Eddie has a phone pressed between his ear and shoulder as he picks up his jeans and begins to awkwardly shimmy them up his legs. “I told you, I overslept. But I’m getting ready now and can be there in —” he looks down at his wrist and frowns, his eyes sweeping over the discarded clothes on the floor before zeroing in on Buck’s second nightstand where a clunky watch sits. Eddie grabs the watch, quickly checking the time before he begins strapping it on. “I can be there in 20 minutes, 15 if the traffic is good.”

Buck feels a pang in his chest and then instantly chastises himself. This was just another hookup, a one night stand —nothing more than that. He was foolish to think that what he felt last night with Eddie was anything real. It was just the hormones.

Eddie may have stayed, but that was probably because he was hoping to get lucky again this morning. Or like Buck, he slept in and didn’t get a chance to sneak out before Buck woke up.

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#spoiler alert: Eddie would stay if he could but fatherhood calls and well that’s a call Eddie will always answer #daffi writes #wip: la lonely #Buck is being all self deprecating #but what else is new? #buddie wip #buddie #I really really want to finish Rival Firefighters so I can dive into my other wips #(and also post the first chapter for you guys!) #and I’m soooo close #but between the pounding head and the energetic munchkins .. I haven’t been able to keep the smutty writing beans going #though I have been on a bit of a little fic reading roll atm which is nice 😊 #having to slow down and rest (more like being forced to by my husband haha) gives me time to go through my MARKED FOR LATER library #okay I’ve probably rambled way too much #hugs to everyone ❤️

[fujii-draws]

OKAY! Chatot rant in tags below! Read at your own discretion.

#okay starting from the beginning of where ppl usually dislike him. apple woods chapter. #he doesn’t give hero/partner the CHANCE to explain themselves despite them being relatively good recruits up until that point. #and that legit might be my only gripe with that chapter bc!!! stories need conflict! I LIKE the conflict in apple woods!!! #hero and partner being punished so something they didn’t do! #the misunderstanding! how team skull (Skuntank) actually outplays the main duo with a clever yet rotten trick. I LOVE that it segways into- #one of the more sweeter scenes of guild members looking out for eachother. I LIKE APPLE WOODS CONFLICT. #but chatot just. not giving them a chance. is so dumb. #I’d personally fix this by having a lil montage of hero/partner fucking up on jobs. A LOT. and chatot giving them a pass every time. #and let the perfect apple incident BE the one where he puts his foot down and doesn’t listen to them. bc he’d given them loads of chances. #and doesn’t want to hear any excuse. #but yeah. I legit dont mind him during that chapter except for that really stupid and frustrating moment. #NOW. CHAPTER 17. #UGGGGHHH WHERE DO I BEGIN #Him not believing hero and Partner about Grovyle and the future being in ruin? FINE. ACTUALLY GOOD. BC CHATOT WOULD BE SKEPTIC. #IT FITS HIS CHARACTER!! #BUT WHAT DOES SUCK. IS HIM GOING ‘Dusknoir isn’t the bad guy. he didn’t do anything wrong’ #WHEN HE LITERALLY KIDNAPPED HERO AND PARTNER RIGHT I N F R O N T OF HIM. #(​NO LITERALLY. HIS CHARACTER IS IN THE FRONT ROW WHEN IT HAPPENED.) #and him. having the GALL to tell hero and partner they must’ve been ‘seeing things’ and downplaying the HELL they went through. #despite them being missing for hours/days. his own guild recruits. and his angry sprite showing up. #like. I think that’s when I genuinely despised him. #that and him going ‘OH I BELIEVED YOU THE WHOLE TIME HEEHOO :)’ shit was so fucking annoying. #just playing it off as a joke the second the guild started to believe hero and partner. #IMAGINE IF HE W A S ACTUALLY TESTING THE GUILD’S TRUST. SHOWCASING HIM AS THE MORE RESPONSIBLE AND RESPECTFUL RIGHT HAND OF THE GUILD. #and yes. Brine cave he saves hero and partner. but at that point I just didn’t care anymore. #he fucked those two over so much. that I didn’t care what ‘valiant’ sacrifice he had. #and he grills Team Skull for what they did OFF SCREEN. they couldn’t even give us THAT. #<<< THAT or him outright saying sorry would’ve been nice. IKIK his ‘actions’ or whatever but. #eughh again this is all imo. I’m not trying to make people hate him or change their mind. #I’ll get into positives in the second post cause I’m running out of tags

[turtleblogatlast]

Do you ship any of the turtles with anyone? or do you ship anything in rise at all?

(This ended up being a lot longer an answer than I intended hoo boy sorry about that)

Hmmm, I’m not too big a shipper tbh! Especially since I really enjoy canon interactions backing my ships, so it’s hard for me to actively like any that don’t really have that going for them. There’s plenty that I see around that I think are cute, but that’s usually the extent of my thought process for them.

For ships I more actively have, I guess I like AprilxSunita! They’re very very cute and I think they have some huge meet cute energy in their first episode together, and their chemistry is genuinely adorable (plus them being featured means more April screentime which is ALWAYS a good thing.)

I also think AprilxCasey (and when I say Casey I mean our OG girl) is really good, as I’m a sucker for enemies to lovers, and I think they have a lot in common and just bounce off each other very well (not to mention this ship in other iterations of TMNT has a loooooot going for it.)

Keeping the chain going, I think RaphxCasey (again, OG Casey) is also one with a tonnnnn of potential. They have a lot of common characteristics, and considering Raph’s whole thing with Franken-Foot, I really think there’s a lot of room there for a relationship to develop. Plus, like AprilxCasey, Raph and Casey tend to have a close relationship throughout the iterations of TMNT and it would be great to see that more with these two, even if not romantically.

Actually going back to enemies to lovers, I unironically think there’s a ton going for DonniexKendra. I know a lot of people hate this ship, but I don’t and I actually think it could very easily work whether in a love-hate way or a slow burn way. There’s a lot to like here and honestly they’re good together! Kendra is legit Donnie’s type too haha (cute, but mean.)

Lastly, SplinterxDraxum is good…when done right. I really like when people take it and don’t undermine the very real trauma that Splinter has gone through. As I’ve stated a lot, I love me some enemies to lovers, so I can see the potential here. Plus lbr Draxum was down BAD for Lou Jitsu when he first saw him haha.

I think that’s the extent to what I actively like? Everything else usually falls into “aw cute” or “ehhh not for me thanks”. And before you ask YES leosagi is cute and I’ll read fics with it if the premise is appealing, but I’m afraid I need some canon interactions to establish base character dynamics before I actively ship it alas.😔 Super cute though, no hate to it or any of the other CanonxCharacter-they’ve-never-met ships, I genuinely think people should just have fun! And for what it’s worth I really do wish we got a Usagi and Leo interaction in Rise like we have in other iterations.:(

So yeah. Overall, I have a few ships I enjoy, but I fall much more in the “prefer to keep everyone to themselves and make the focus family and friendship” category.

#non au ask #can you tell I’m an enemies to lovers person yet 💀 #I had a dream once that the Fox yokai working for big mama was a teenage employee and he and Leo had a cute thing going on does that count #(the bellhop guy we see often with Big Mama) #that dream had like all of big mama’s employees basically be her adopted children #including frida #(Big Mama’s assistant) #AND Gus #(the guard dog) #so like she was literally big MAMA lol #pretty interesting story tbh too bad it ended when I woke up and I forgot a good 70% of it #lol this is also enemies to lovers I just realized- #but yeah overall I’m mostly a friendship or family platonic dynamics person #pfft of the ones I listed only AprilxSunita was not enemies to lovers wait 😭 #nah but like I’m not really a big shipper tbh #I tend to fast forward through romance plots in shows that don’t focus on romance #and I tend to avoid romance genres in general most of the time #no hate at allll it’s just not typically for me y’know? #I was reallyyyyy scared to post this because people can get MEAN about ships 💀

[twinstxrs]

there’s probably something deeply wrong with me because every time i see someone react to the pok gukgak interrogation scene it’s like “oh no oh my god is riz’s dad a bad guy?” when the first time i saw that scene my only thought was “oh my god is riz’s dad HOT??”

#i mean admittedly my instinct was that he was lying about what he was saying & he was a good guy (which i was right about) but #it truly was like pok: i don’t give a shit about my wife & kid i only care about this job / me: pok gukgak save me… save me pok gukgak #fantasy high #dimension 20 #pok gukgak #riz gukgak #in my defense ​i really love spies so watching someone convincingly act indifferent about the most important part of their life… CRAZYYY #but i still feel like i’m setting back feminism so many years but also. he got acid splashed on his face & didn’t even flinch… that’s hot #guy who would literally go through hell & back bc it’s for the greater good but would also if he had to do it for the people he loves #but like. the greater good always came before the people he loves. that was the job. he loved them so much but he also missed so much #how much WAS he willing to sacrifice for the sake of the job? work is a great form of love but it can’t be the only form #especially for a young kid. but yea idk i have complicated feelings #pok gukgak u r so fascinating to me #pok sklonda riz ​& work as a form of love or whatever #truly would not work as a campaign & would be better as a book but young pok young kalina young sklonda… i need to know EVERYTHINGGG #the shameful thirst post -> character rumination journey of these tags is truly Something but also par for the course w/ my brain

[josephtrohman]

#sorry guys i’m really going through it here #my beautiful pixelated wife…

[mystristages]

coward

#miguel o'hara #spider-man 2099 #hanging tw #suicide tw #sm2099 #inspired by the ‘and I haven’t got the guts to finish the job for you’ line from issue 1 and the opening of 26. among other things #this was actually my last piece of 2023. you can really tell what a grand old time I was having #I feel better now dw. it’s just that every time I look back at this art in particular I’m like oh man. you were going through it #me and putting my favorite guy through the horrors whenever I feel bad

[serendipitouscontaminant]

I truly can’t get over how devastatingly correct the parent who calls Jacob “Stuart Little” is.

Why are they the same picture 😭

#abbott elementary #jacob hill #i’m SORRY it’s just SO FUNNY TO MEEE #obvs they are not the same picture but it’s hyperbole #the similarities really are uncanny #it’s ok jacob i loved stuart little you keep deluding yourself into thinking that’s a compliment friend #i know i am laser-focused on this guy this episode give me a break pls he’s going through a tough time just like me #abbott elementary spoilers #technically ig

[insanesonofabitch]

8x10 Torn & Frayed one line schedule | 8x11 LARP & The Real Girl production draft script | 8x09 Citizen Fang | 8x10 Torn & Frayed transcript | 9x08 Rock and a Hard Place

Good fucking morning.

#I just thought about them too much so i made this cus the alternative was killing myself 🫶 #slash jay #there is SO MUCH going on behind the camera in supernatural. these guys were fuckin #the fact that we can only canonically confirm that they really did have a relationship is through their break up is kind of fucked up. #I’ve said this before but I’m saying it again I deserved to see Benny hungrily and desperately drinking Dean’s blood straight from the tap #I want him back. #jensen benny-lover ross ackles…you know what to do #supernatural #spn #spn 8x09 #citizen fang #spn 8x10 #torn and frayed #spn 8x11 #larp and the real girl #spn 9x08 #rock and a hard place #deanbenny #destiny #dean winchester #benny lafitte #dean x benny

[send-me-a-puffalope]

guys i really like drew some insane vanessa fanart and i’m like gripping my seat about the fact that i can’t post it until later. so um. REMEMBER TO PURCHASE YOUR VERY OWN HAPPIEST DAY FNAF ZINE WHEN IT COMES OUT 🫵

#guys i’m actually like going through my five stages of grief #i want to show y’all so so so so bad #but i think it’s gonna be really really cool in print #so y’all are gonna have to deal with the wait (<- suffering with the wait the most) #nat’s rambles

[the-casbah-way]

i never ever cry in front of anyone ever but there was this boy i was OBSESSED with in primary school when i was like seven years old because he was the fastest boy in the class and he had cool spiky hair and i always thought it was a crush until i came out and realised it was gender envy of some form and today my friend out of the blue told me that i look like him and we looked at his instagram together and i actually do. i look almost exactly like him. and i cried like an absolute wanker because i’ve been so miserable my whole life being perceived entirely the wrong way and i went home today and looked at myself and realised i look like the boy i always wanted to be when i was a kid. and whenever i feel bad about myself i get to remind myself that i look like him so i shouldn’t feel bad because back then i couldn’t have ever dreamed of getting to look like this. and t will only make it better and even though the idea of starting it is still so scary to me i keep having moments like this that make me realise how good it’s going to be even if some of it will suck. i always focus on all of the ways my transition has gone and will go wrong and i forget that it’s going to go right in a lot of ways too

#i remember what this boy looked like when he started getting spots and what he sounded like when his voice started breaking #and it makes me so excited even for the parts of t that everyone says are ‘bad’ #my identity is so much more binary than i tell myself it is. i play it down because being a fully binary Guy who wants to be purely masc is #a lot harder to break to my mother who is devastated even at the thought of me being a masculine woman #i’ve been pretending for a while that i’m more ‘in the middle’ than i really am because of that #but moments like this always remind me that i know exactly what i want to be and what i want to look like #and it’s the exact opposite of everything my mother wants me to be #this shit is going to be Hard. and i don’t expect my mother will stick around the further into my transition i get #which is so unbearable to me that i try not to think about it. i just can’t go back into the closet even for her #i was trying to force myself to do that before xmas and that’s what made me attempt and end up coming out to her #but i didn’t tell the full truth i just said i hate being feminine and i hate being a girl #i couldn’t bring myself to say the rest and i don’t know if i’ll ever say any of it to her #i wish i had a therapist so i could talk about all this as i’m working through the beginning of transition but. oh well

[lifblogs]

Wow, I’m reading reviews for a book I’m trying to read, and I’m appalled that so many people have a problem with a male author writing a sapphic main character. Damn, get your fucking head out of the sand.

They don’t even complain of him messing up representation there. They just hate it for some reason!

Sorry, but that’s just not it. A man can write a sapphic main character. There is no inherent problem with that. He’s just writing a character he finds fun and fascinating!

#y’all would hate my dad for this then #when really his sister was a lesbian #and he supported her through hell and high water #so of course he’d want to share that representation with the world #and people don’t even need a story like that to write whoever they want #i’m sorry am i going to hell for writing a chinese character #despite my minor in asian studies and hours of research? #thinking of rebecca kuang mentioning #this same idea that you can just write that representation #just do it #my god people #vent #salt #also one of my guy friends has a lesbian main character in one trilogy #what is wrong with that #nothing

[megamcm]

How am I supposed to sit here, sleep even, knowing that Percy Jackson and I have both called our moms in the middle of the night crying about how we have no friends and we want to go home. How am I supposed to sleep knowing Percy Jackson and I both have said “I think I finally made some real friends” only to be betrayed and hurt by them in the end. HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO LIVE knowing Percy Jackson and I both deep down feel like we’re broken. FUCK.

#guys I can’t begin to describe the emotions I am feeling #everything he said in his prayer to his mom is so relatable #I never felt this deeply connected while reading those books #I read them when I was really going through the peak of my friendship crisis #worst year of my life #and now this gods dam show is making me feel again #percy jackson #pjo #pjotv #I’m gonna cry