rivers speech about loving the doctor while 12 stands there without her knowing never fails to destroy me. she loves him so much and doesn’t believe he loves her back, imagine hearing “it's like loving the stars themselves. You don't expect a sunset to admire you back.” and knowing it’s about you, how do you not break into tears. his soft smile and the look on rivers face when she finally realizes who it is, the way they slip back into their easy banter, the way they’re both ready to sacrifice themselves for the other so readily? i love them dearly, they make me ill
okay so 15 finding a blonde I thought was laughable bc I thought RTD was trying to do another restart with a young, blonde hottie but 15 seeing him and his story mirrored in a young woman who looks a bit like 13 with that short blonde hair makes me want to WEEP my god Russel can you fight???
Currently thinking about brushing and braiding Alucard’s hair. He’d sit patiently while you ran your fingers through it, separating it into sections and gently dragging a brush through the strands. Bonus points if it’s in front of a mirror and you get to watch him examining little pieces of things on the vanity table. The subtle expressions he’d make as he’d silently question what you did with what and when and why. How delicately he’d turn things this way and that and you’d have to remind him every once in a while to not move his head so much
I just saw the shooting scene for the first time and I’m in literal shambles,,, the camera work for the angle of them looking at each other, the way Buck looked at Eddie as he was bleeding out, the raw intensity of it. His unwavering stare, the way he suddenly snaps back into reality bc he realizes he has to save him, he has to. The way he braces himself to get under the truck, foregoing his own trauma of being crushed and preparing himself for the amount of physical strength he’s gonna need to pull it off. THE WAY he screams at Eddie that he’s going, that he’s on his way, to hold on. He doesn’t want him to think he’s alone - and he doesn’t want to think he can’t hear him either -. The desperation in which he pulls him in and then inside the truck, the way he covers him not once but twice from the fire on the other car, the way he RIPS OPEN his uniform to care for the wound. Don’t even get me started on the one single second Eddie’s awake and conscious and he asks Buck if he’s okay bc he doesn’t understand the blood on the man is his. He uses his one moment to care for Buck, and Buck’s on the verge of tears and he begs him to hold on “I need you to hang on” I need you, he says. Need. He needs him. And then the pleading screams to get to the hospital faster, the hoarse voice, the way he’s keeping his tears in bc he knows they’ll be useless right now, and the way he simply finally, defeatedly deadpans ‘no’ when he’s asked if he’s okay. Because how could he be? The love of his life in on the brink of death and there’s not a single thing more he can do about it now but wait.
Pepito hanging out with his dad and then going to his grandma after.
I’m so glad that they’re hanging out again, it’s really nice to see the two spending time together, only leo is missing ;-; Pepito even mentioned missing her today.
Foolish you don’t even know how important you are to that egg. Foolish openly saying that he enjoys his company, they’re just two sweethearts.
After his dad roier, foolish to me, is the most important person to Pepito. He was there for everything ☹️.
Both tumblr and tiktok are such violently antisemetic places it’s genuinely horrifying. Just went on tiktok and saw a post showing a comment saying ‘six million was never enough’ and every single comment was talking about how based and right that person was for it. There was also a shit tone of holocaust denial, saying that it wasn’t six million. I feel sick. A lot of those people there are leftists, too. People that are supposed to value life and fight for human rights. Even to the left, all we are are dirty Jews who should’ve been left in history. The only good Jew is a dead Jew, after all