#I was and am extremely blessed by you wonderful mutuals on this blog

[luv-assangiebatch]

The One Where I was Written Into My Favorite Scene...

Courtesy of our own @bethanys-adventure

Recently, our fic-senpai Bethany shared some of her Kassangie archives with me-- and I remembered this one quite well and fondly-- as she wrote me straight into one of my favorite scene from The Fifth Estate! That's right-- The Pirate Bay shirt scene!

Effective Immediately

“Everything’s going out at once in case there’s a gag order”

“I’m struggling to keep it to 14 pages.”

Julian was bombarded with pages that two members of the guardian were giving him. This was all about his upcoming leak, the biggest one yet. This was the first public release of 91,000 Iraq war logs.

Kat was standing outside the office, not wanting to disrupt the meeting. Since she was not technically part of the WikiLeaks staff (she still managed to convince people that she was Julian’s PA) nor a journalist, she saw it best to keep her nose out of those sorts of meetings.

“Kat?”

Kat looked up to see Daniel walking towards her.

“Oh, hello Daniel!”

“Where’s Julian?”

Kat pointed to the office behind her “Why, what’s going on?” she questioned curiously, she noticed that Daniel sounded annoyed. She then wondered if the reason why Daniel was angry was because of Julian.

‘Of course not! They’re best friends!’

‘Well I did overhear something about a major unedited upcoming release of Iraq war logs… maybe it was that…’

Daniel nodded and annoyed, he almost burst through the door of the office “Julian.” Kat saw Julian look up and that was it. She didn’t hear the rest, she could only see. Julian looked a little annoyed and then stood up.

He walked out of the door, Daniel and possibly Ziggy (the new intern) trailing behind. Kat knew that this may not go well. She sighed and looked at Julian, who was wearing her favourite Pirate Bay shirt underneath a white button up (with all the buttons undone).

“What were you thinking?” Daniel growled.

“We make a promise to our sources to publish in full” Julian retaliated.

“You lied to everyone, you lied to me!”

“It’s funny; I don’t remember you objecting us publishing the names and addresses of every BMP member”

“These sources are fighting for the very thing we are supposed to stand for!”

“And remind me what that is exactly? Hm? Transparency for powerful organisations? Exposing corruption wherever it exists?” He turned to face Daniel.

“We’re going to have to push back publication. There’s no way we can publish in 4 days!”

The two entered another room, Kat decided to follow Ziggy, who waited outside. She sighed, knowing this would end badly.

“14 pages in the Guardian. 12 in the New York Times. This is more coverage than all of the leaks we have had combined. We are winning an information war! Which goes beyond the short term alliance we have with the mainstream media and you want to throw it all away because you fear that some US government informant might come to harm?”

“These are human beings Julian, there are lives at stake!”

“What about the lives of the soldiers and the civilians involved in these conflicts. Death squads, unreported civilian casualties, Countless incidents of ‘friendly fire’! This is information the world needs to know! So the next time you find yourself lecturing me about this organisation, please try and remember why I created it and why I hired you to help me.”

“That’s funny; I don’t remember you hiring me. I don’t recall a contract or a salary. But I guess I should have known when I met J Lim, there is no organisation. There’s just you and your ego and the lies you tell to get whatever the fuck you want!” Daniel almost shouted as Julian walked away a few steps.

Julian inhaled deeply, trying not to show any signs of anger “You know it’s incredible.” He mumbled loud enough for Daniel to hear “How much time you can spend with a person and still have no idea who they are.”

Daniel nodded a few times, clearly fuming. Kat had her fist close up to her lips in anxiety, the tip of her index finger poking the bottom of her nose.

A few more people had gathered out to see this argument.

Julian finally broke the silence “You’re suspended.” He turned around “Effective immediately.” He clicked his fingers and pointed at Kat and cocked his head “Love?” Kat knew the signal and followed him. As she was about to walk down the flight of stairs, Daniel grabbed her arm “Kat, you’re not really going to do this? You’re not going to follow him? Are you?”

Kat sighed “I’m sorry Daniel, I really am.” She brushed Daniel’s hand off of her arm and continued to follow Julian. When she had finally caught up with Julian, she could tell that he was fuming- even more than the incident with Sam.

He didn’t speak a word to her until they reached the hotel room they were staying in, obviously trying not to take his anger out on her. Kat stopped in front of Julian, with her left hand she cupped his left cheek and with her right hand, she curled a few strands of his hair in between her fingers and nuzzled his nose.

“Kat. Please.” Julian sighed.

“Hmm?” Kat mused, signaling that she was paying attention.

Julian then paused “What did Daniel say to you?”

“Julian, are we really going to talk about this now…”

“Yes, what did he say?”

“He asked me if I was really going to follow you. Whose side was I on.”

“And whose side are you on?” Julian questioned.

“You asked me a while ago if you had me. I will always be on your side Julian, always and forever. Not even Daniel can convince me otherwise.” Kat pulled Julian into a hug, pulling her head into his chest.

Julian nuzzled the top of her head and kissed her forehead. He smiled and said “Is it because you love me or you love the Pirate Bay shirt?”

Kat giggled “You know I can’t say no to that shirt and the maroon hoodie… and the cargo pants. But you know that I love you more than your clothes.”

Julian grinned “Thank you Kat. Thanks for everything.”

***

Later that night.... 😏🔥

#kassangie #author: bethanys-adventure #i hope this is okay to share here! #if not please let me know and I'll remove it #but this brought back a lot of nostalgia and feels #I was and am extremely blessed by you wonderful mutuals on this blog #just know I appreciate you! #also it gave me the excuse to have fun with these ai arts I made and altered a bit to be a little more “canon” #*giggles* 🤭🤭 #full shame

[wcrriorhearts]

Welcome to part two of my positivity shoutouts. I will be doing these in alphabetical order and hope my scattered brain won’t forget anyone. Given I can only put people on here I follow and therefore know, feel free to send in positivity for people in the House of the Dragon fandom who I have missed & not mentioned, so I can include them in a later post! 

@bloodiedrubies - because i am a scatterbrain and shamefully forgot this gem in yesterday’s post under the letter b, i’ll do that now and ask for forgiveness ( i blame my wonky follower list for not showing you xD ). Man, another blog that is so good that it is hard to put into words. Rhaegar is technically not in our hotd timeline, but the mun has verses that make it super easy to interact and the writing is just incredible. so much quality, such an incredible grasp on the character. cannot recommend the blog enough!

@dionai - damn, what can i say? SO much talent! all of the muses are impeccable and the aesthetics are *chef’s kiss*. the writing is extremely good and the mun a sweetheart <3 i can only say wonderful things about them!

@dcrilaros - a wonderful interpretation of daemon that is very true to his character. the mun is also absolutely lovely and i adore them. hope this motivates them to come back to daemon and bless our dashes again

@dracharenae - technically not a hotd strictly speaking, but since i have decided to include everyone who rps into our world, i could never skip this wonderful human being and their amazing muses. even though rhaenys lives a little later than most of our babies, the mun has many verses and is incredibly approachable & always helpful. the writing is so beautiful and i stan everything they touch.

@degriseo - another wonderful multi with beautifully written hotd characters! i’ve had this one on my dash for a long time and love to quietly stalk their wonderful threads. everything they write is just awesome and creative!

@dragcnsdaughter - so much love for this one! dany is an absolutely wonderfully fleshed out character in all of the mun’s verses and the writing is just beautiful. the mun is also a super kind person ooc and i am so happy we get to write together on both of their blogs. lots and lots of talent &lt;3

@fallesto - ah, my sweet, sweet fallesto. i have so much love and adoration for you, i could never put it into words. we have written the most gut wrenching angst together and the sweetest romances & everything is just perfect. all the characters are absolutely on point and the mun is incredibly kind & approachable. i hope you’ll never get tired of me, because i adore you endlessly. 

@fictalmultitude - we are new mutuals, so we have only just begun to interact with each other, but i already adore the writing and the choice of muses is also absolutely perfect. the mun is also kind and friendly, so i wholeheartedly recommend.

@gelarios - another wonderful & talented rhaegar! it is so nice to see characters loved on that have not had the chance to shine in mainstream media ( aka the shows ), because people can truly make them their on and the mun does a great job! love having them on my dash!

@hamcrtia - heheheh now i get to love on my sister from another mister, the most wonderful and special bean rae. you already know that i think you’re pretty okay, but for everyone who doesn’t know yet: this blog is incredible! so much talent, such a wonderful & lovely mun! every character is just utterly perfect and rae is the most approachable, accommodating and kind person ever. 100/10 recommend <3 i love you

@heireign - a very, very talented and wonderful rhaenyra <3 my favorite black queen is in incredibly capable hands here and the mun does such an amazing job writing her. i love every interaction we have and & having them on my dash!

@hearthofvesta - my darling vesta, the person who needs to be told 100x a day how wonderful they are and maybe they’ll believe it at one point :D ! such a wonderful multi with an impeccable selection of muses that are all so well written and fleshed out <3 i adore everything we write and i hope one day you’ll see your own worth, because you’re a perfect little bean!

#positivity shoutout pt 2

[dayurno]

you are so cute and sweet but UR PINTEREST BOARD LINK DOESNT WORK FOR ME be still my tender heart…… that is ok im imagining it in my mind palace. unfortunately i actually am like. kind of a freak and all my ideas live in my brain space and jumbled notes + so i don’t have anything fic-specific BUT. i Will grant you my kevin (https://open.spotify.com/playlist/6jtCq6lXKxJeaIEEZ4mNoO?si=HZJJ-rwTTmShM8z1bL7M7A&pi=u-HaC1d26IRgKR) and jean (https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0s4McJXNv5B0kM3zkcmWMv?si=PTIG6mYSTG2mvhqrbL7dDA&pi=u-9TZa7fgfQnS-) playlists respectively. i listen to them + my aftg playlist a lot while writing and many of the songs in them make me think of kerejean anyway :3

i am an unrepentant jeredrew enjoyer. i think they would make the silliest bffs possible. that lucky-slice art was soooo special to me. andrew just, of course, immediately hates kevin and jean and doesn’t trust their intentions. especially because of how they meet which i don’t know if we need to get into now... the feeling is very mutual though (and kevin is salty because in his last year of college he tried to have andrew recruited to the foxes and andrew ignored the hell out of him and followed jeremy to USC instead). the antics and dynamics are very very fun to write. jean compares what andrew is to jeremy as what neil is to kevin at one point and kevin is scandalized.

also due to the contents of this blog i feel like ive really undersold this fic by not mentioning the BITING sooner. i just think you need to know there’s lots of casual biting. of all varieties…. Heheh. kevin warns jeremy that jean is a biter very early on and refuses to acknowledge the fact that he too likes to nibble on boyfriends…… jeremy joins them ^-^ kevin complains so much when he’s being attacked by both of them. they’re really cute and very special to me

I'M SO SORRY LOVIE ITS UP NOW....... i forgor it was a secret board...... BUT NOW IT IS NOT >:)

CAN I SAYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!! YOUR KEVIN PLAYLISTTTT..... more than a woman by the bee gees you really understand it all so very clearly. acolyte!!! and vienna :) AND KILLER QUEEN WHICH MADE ME REALLY HAPPY and northern downpour too....... i always love when kevin playlists specifically include this very deliberate kind of popular classics that never go away..... and i especially always love when kevin playlists have cheerful joyful music too..... it gets boring listening to the same sad songs again and again! MORE THAN A WOMAN MADE ME REALLY HAPPY LOL kevin day... you are more than a woman to me...!!! just as a last comment the kids arent alright is such a kevinsong i'm so glad you had it too.... blessed be the boys time cant capture :)

i love your jean playlist too!!! It just had more songs i didnt know hehe but i loved glory and gore.... right where you left me;;;; first time by lucy dacus! AND NINA CRIED POWER. i think jean is such a hozier character to me the jean song of all times is 'it will come back' i think it's very how i see him. I ALWAYS WANNA DIE (SOMETIMES) awhagag...... AND ONCE MORE TO SEE YOU which is i fear kevjeanisms to the extreme.... only friend :) these were so lovely thank you i love it i love it all

i was wondering if i ever shared my jean playlist here and i dont think so because it was rather unfinished after all but decided to work some more on it and here it is! and my kevjean too but this one's a LOT more messy! you were warned!!!!

KANDREW BEEF :-) for me you have to have them growing closer later on.... please..... i need jeremy to be disconcerted because kevin gets along well with his impossible to get along with best friend. its important for me. is neil also a milf in this one? are you writing side andreil? so many questions!!!!!! AND BITING WHEH honestly this is all in terms with kevin (the normal nibbler, just autistic) and jean (Predator Instincts Only Slightly Dulled From Years Of Domestication). where does jeremy fall in the spectrum? THEY SHOULD ATTACK KEVIN as often and as hard as possible.... remind him of the food chain a little bit. sir you are under this 23 year old how do you feel. i feel like this age thing really is incredible sorry. maybe its because with canon jeremy is older than kevin but im getting light headed thinking about it..... kevin getting mauled by some guy who just graduated from college. and also of course

kevin taking a stolen drag from jeans cig: isnt that weird? when you were starting highschool i was already in college

jeremy: can yuo put that out on me. please

#jeremy: i love milfs i mean milfs no i mean milfs no milfs i meant kevin #ALSO CAN I GET MORE JEANFO (JEAN INFO) what does he think about keremy??? hows he doing... just curious! #whats my babybel cheese in the form of a man doing #asks #kerejean #kerejean fic anon

[jalebi-weds-bluetooth]

Hello AJ.

I read your reply to my ask, and I'm going to keep the name shy anon because it means a lot to me too.

I always wonder every time I send you an ask, especially on this blog since it's dedicated to ipk, I wonder if I'm being annoying, and I think about whether or not you and your mutuals are bothered by just how much I talk about my life. And I've said this before but thank you so much for always making this such a welcome space and for reassuring me that I'm not being a bother. I just constantly express my gratitude because I genuinely feel grateful every time I message you.

Truth be told, the reason I don't share most of this with my irl friends and family is because I have this aching fear of being a disappointment to them. So it's easier to talk here because I don't actually have to face you. If that makes me a coward then I'm definitely a coward. But it doesn't take anything away from the fact that you and your mutuals are wonderful and even though me sharing my problems here started like that, the reason I keep coming back is because I feel a genuine connection now. And I love the analogy you used kyunki jab bhi main yahan msg karti hoon main dil se karti hoon aur mere mann ka bojj halka hota hai.

AJ. Thank you so much. For existing and for being so compassionate, understanding and talented as hell.

PS: You've been away for quite a while. How are you doing? I hope that all is well.

Bye 🥰

Hello Shy Anon,

What's IPK apart from bringing people closer? As Jug from Dear Zindagi said, every relationship has its own special place and own set of expectations.

It's completely ok to sometimes not face people - don't call yourself a coward. Also your friends should never make you feel terrible for sharing your worst with them. But I understand, heck I was feeling sad for calling up a friend only when I'm crying and I needed support and you know what she said?

"That's what friends are for."

Every friendship has its place in life. For some you're the advice givers. For some you're the advice seekers. For some you're the gossipers. For some you're the listeners.

And these relationships are all equally important as long as there's solid non judgmental love.

And it means a lot for me to have you here. As I have said before, my heart feels warm because in a strange way my blog has documented somebody's wonderful life. It's a blessed sweet connection.

I am doing well, extremely upset on YouTube cause they're behind me cause I have TWO just TWO VMs out there and they have a load of views. Ugh.

Best,

AJ

#ask #shy anon

[bye-bye-sunbird]

I'm curious! Which works of your mutuals do you consider your favorites?

ajsdnjkansdajk I love this ask???? Ok, to answer this, I went back on the ones I've liked/reblogged in the past as well as the recent discoveries I made going through their blogs, all thanks to this ask. I am blessed.

WARNING: DARK CONTENT AHEAD, MINORS DNI.

Man, there are many wonderful works, it's very hard to choose one, but let's see...

@yandere-romanticaa: You want god-tier quality yandere content for all of your fandoms? This is the blog you go to. It's extremely hard to pick just one of her works, but we'll go for "Love me, love me not". I kid you not, I screamed because we rarely see Code Geass works nowadays, and to find such a good piece??? Yes, to all of it.

@tri3tri: The very reason I might just get into Twisted Wonderland. But coming back to Genshin, and since I am a quote type of person, I'll just leave you with "A lie. Such a big, fat lie it almost burned your tongue from the insincerity of it, from the acidity of it.", because I am obsessed with this line, don't know why. It's from "Special Treatment"!

@snailsgoingdowntown: If you haven't read "On the Run", you need to drop everything you are doing. You need to make yourself some good tea, the expensive kind, and you need to sit comfortably. This one is a TREAT, and you deserve it. Can't recommend this one enough.

@ddarker-dreams: I know I've said this a hundred times already, but she's the best Childe writer, she just is, I will fight anyone on this. As much as I enjoy the "First Contract" series, "Contractual Obligations" takes the cake. It's the one that got me into Genshin Yandere, so there's that. Also, her Diluc and Albedo works akasadsndjkas, sadly, I had to pick just one of her works.

@99-nct: Diluc Headcanons are good, yummy, dark. "who will protect you from him?", who needs protection when we have good writing with a taste for sin? tsk tsk tsk.

@merakiui: Maaaan, I... gosh, this one is so hard, so I'll just go with the more recent ones, the Kazuha x Reader x Scaramouche ones. I am SO invested, this is the life I want asjkdnjkasdnasjkdnajks.

Now... I am not mutuals with them but I HAVE to talk about:

"Breaking the Collar" series, by @sondepoch. It's DARK, very dark. Every chapter has stayed in my mind long after I finish reading them. The level of writing here is absolutely insane.

The whole Xiao x Cam Girl saga, by @cinnamonest. Another really dark work, but then again, she's the undisputed queen of dark content.

And OOOFFF, I think that's all I got. I am SURE I forgot something TuT, but those are the ones that came to mind. If, for some reason, someone feels uncomfortable by me tagging them, please let me know!

#sunnie recommends #recommendations #sunnie fangirling again #lovely asks #anon ask #i had so much fun #dark content #dark fics #minors not allowed #minors dni

[mellorad]

update

Hey!! It's been a while, hasn't it?

TL;DR: you can find me nowadays on my Twitter or Instagram where I'm currently sharing my professional work + engaged in the Tangled/Cassunzel fandom.

I've been thinking about this blog for the past couple of days, and my entire experience here on tumblr (especially during my FMA fandom days)... so if any of you are still out there, let's talk:

It's been... so, so long since I was last actively here, aside from very occasionally dropping by. Browsing this blog, going back to my 2015-2017 active days, it feels like my own time capsule: a record of my experiences and the person I used to be.

It's wild; reading these insights into my impressionable, excitable 19/20 year old self out here, and realizing, now 4 years later with some good distance, just how much I was struggling (particularly in 2017).... and just how much I've grown, how much I've changed.

It's still me! I still see my enthusiasm and resolve... but dang, I've really become someone different. Life happened! So, so many things in life happened. So here I am, in the middle of this panini, having become the best, fiercest, most resilient version of myself. I learned to love and accept myself, I learned to speak up and stand my ground... and there hasn't been a day where I haven't grown happier for embracing my queerness.

I wonder how ya'll see me, or remember me after all this time! If it's that frozen version of myself from 2017. I wish I could fully express all my changes, but there's so much I can put into words!

Reading through the asks sent to this blog and interactions from back then, I can't help but feel overwhelmed with emotion and extremely thankful for the kindness and care I was often handed by my followers, mutuals and online friends from back then.

My experience out here might've been tainted by burnout and a few personal struggles that resulted in stepping away from the platform; I never really disclosed the hows or whys, but they honestly don't matter anymore. However, skimming through this blog after years made me realize and value the support I had from the community, from people willing to DM me or send an ask to check in on me, cheer me up, offering advice.

And to that, I say: thank you. Thank you for being by my side, for having interacted, for having taken part in that moment of my life.

I doubt I'll ever return here properly, maybe just checking in to reblog some cool stuff or share my art. But I want this blog to remain the time capsule that it is, for the most part.

As I said on the TLDR part, I'm most active on Twitter nowadays (and even engaged in another fandom for the first time in 4 years: Tangled The Series & Cassunzel, who would've thought!) and I've been focused in my professional career as a designer and illustrator, in taking care of myself, as well as my support system (so blessed to have incredible real life friends, and a few online ones perservering!!). So check out what I've been up to!! I assure you, you'll barelyyy be able to recognize my art, hehehehe.

I hope you're good!! I'd love to hear how you're doing, if you've read this!!

#mello talks #ooooofff it's been a while #lmao I wonder if there's gonna be a popup saying 'mellorad is back at it again!!' #but for the real homies out there: you're so cool i appreciate tf out of you #you do the hockey pockey and you turn yourself around #just like our boy todd chavez from bojack horseman says #man i'm like 500% chill about life than I used to be when I was here HAHA

[ahalal-uralma]

As you know, I am a friend who supports you, and interacts with you regularly... I haven't known you long, but from what I have seen, you are a sweet, kind, humble, intelligent, respectful person, whose blog, posts and writings speak for themselves... I am generally a laid back, drama free kind of person, but when a friend has to endure tirade after tirade of this nonsense, I feel that I have to wade in and say something...

I am not privy to all the historical context here, but it is clear even to me that these anons are sinking themselves ever further in the quicksand of their own bogus claims with every message that they send... the arrogant approach and resorting to insults just reeks of hysteria and desperation, their counter-arguments hypocritical at best...

As you can see, this supportive message has been relayed off anon... so the harasser(s) can see that there are people who do support you in your plight, and that their ridiculous claim of you sending anons to yourself can also be quashed...

We are mutuals, and for a good few weeks now, my name has been all over your blog... yet, I think it's way out of order that I have received no stalkings and zero hate messages, insults, or personal attacks... not one! I feel extremely left out and saddened by this! These instigators are clearly picking on certain individuals, trying to either drive them away from your blog, or from interacting altogether (which in essence is bullying), whilst propagating their pathetic crusade to try and denounce you...

Fucking amateurs!

You are wonderful and people like you make me smile. I don’t think there will ever be a hug big enough or words warm enough to express my gratitude for your kindness.

I am blessed to have friends like you. 🖤🦇

#ask #asks #answered

[decembermoonskz]

Hello moonbeams~! Writing letters is something I’m good at, because even if I stumble in all other forms of communication sometimes, my writing, my words never fail me. The overall negative energy, annoyance and sometimes hatred towards the pandemic, the social/political topics and the year in general can be very draining and or taxing on me and you all. Of course we’re upset too but seeing so much hate can be draining for people like me, and maybe you. So for a moment, grab a seat and a blanket and listen as I read this letter to you. This is a letter from me, to you, and I offer a blessing from her majesty the moon herself as well.

2020 has been one hell of a year that’s for sure. I experienced a lot of sadness, fatigue and overall lower moods as I tend to take on the energy of the world heavily. There has been so much that’s happened to us all, sadness, fear, anger, heartbreak; but even still we survived it. There were so many that felt we wouldn’t make it through this year or make it to the end as it felt like it would go on forever, but we’re here now, to write these letters, to tell these stories. 

Even in this hectic year, I experienced so much, I felt happiness, joy I cried a lot and released so many pent up feelings, I came to terms with things I had locked away, I laughed a lot, I found passions that I thought were long lost. So much has happened to me in this year both ups and downs and I’m grateful for it all. You may be wondering why I would be grateful for downs as well, they helped teach me things, how strong I am; how it’s okay to give in and feel your sadness or pain; to validate my emotions; and a lot more. I hope that with all that’s happened you were able to take in some lessons yourself.

Below this cut, I wanted to thank some people who made my experience on tumblr as wonderful as it has been, more amazing than I had ever expected it to be. I came on here extremely nervous about sharing my stories and these people have been so warm and welcoming and honestly I wouldn’t have enjoyed my time as much without them. I’ll have my ending message at the bottom of this. 

@sleepylixie Lily darling, my brain twin!! you’ve made my short tumblr life so much fun! sharing brain waves one moment, soundboarding ideas the next, and having so many things in common between us it’s crazy (wolfie gang). You’ve become one of the best things to happen to me on this site! xoxo thank you for always sharing your wonderful ideas with me and for sharing my love of fantasy!! Oh and I can’t forget all the shared screaming we do over skz and anything else xD I’m so glad we started talking and even in just a short time I feel so close to you already!! Thank you for letting me vent out all my ideas and for letting me be that person for your ideas too, thank you for always giving such good feedback and opinions and thank you for just overall being one of my favorite people to talk to. I hope we can make more wonderful memories in the coming year and beyond it. love you darling have a beautiful 2021~ 💜💜💜 ⟪ song rec: Another Day - Stray Kids ⟫

@rebecca-noona​ Becca! You were the first person to interact with my blog and when I look back on it, I’m so thankful you did. I love our talks about Korea and skz and writing. Your support has always been incredibly helpful, thank you for always being a cheerleader for me, it means the world. I hope you know I love you and support you and your works and whatever you wish to do so much as well!! I’m so happy we started talking and you make me so happy. Thank you for being my friend and when I finally get to Korea you gotta show me around when you get back!! I hope your process of getting back is smooth and easy, stay as optimistic as you can love!! xoxo  ⟪ song rec: motive - Ariana Grande (ft. Doja Cat) ⟫ 

@skzctnightnight​ bel! bel! :DD it’s your words of encouragement that helped me create this blog, you’re one of the reasons I’m here!! your works have been some of my favorites and I was so happy when I first reached out to you. Your kindness really touched me and being your anon at the time was so much fun >v< Prowl will forever be one of my favorite series and you inspire me with your works!! I love talking with you no matter if it’s a quick chat, or a long convo, I always love talking to you. Thank you for making my 2020 so nice! I’m glad I know you and let’s talk more soon! <3  ⟪ song rec: Clarity - Kim Petras ⟫ 

@aliceu​ Alice!! I’m so thankful we met by chance when replying to one of Lily’s posts LOL I think it was an ask of yours about fantasy, and we shared a mutual love for it xD I want you to know that I always smile and I’m always happy when you send asks or dms so please I hope you never worry about being a bother and keep sending them hehe >v</ Thank you for always taking some of your time  to check out my stories and for always leaving such wonderful feedback too!! It makes me happy to read your mini reviews about them!! Thanks for having little chats with me too. I enjoy them always and I hope we can continue to chat more 2021!! Please have a great new year and stay safe and comfy uwu ⟪ song rec: TMT - Stray Kids ⟫ 

@t-toodumbtocare​ Bar! xoxo I’m so glad we finally started talking and I’m hoping we can talk more soon >w<b You’re so fun and sweet and your stories are cute!! I wanna read more soon!! >^<9 Thanks for our little chats and thanks for checking out my stories as well I appreciate it. I hope to get to know you better in the coming year and I hope you have the best 2021!!  ⟪ song rec: Cruel Summer - Taylor Swift ⟫ 

@delicatewerewolfsoul​​ Vicky!!! I’m so happy we started talking! I loved talking about animals and pets with you and I loved all the skz soft hours asks you sent (I hope you send more of them psst psst) they made my day!! You’re such a sweetheart and you’re a master of heart memes xD I hope your 2021 is wonderful just like you are!! Stay safe and warm you cute bean xoxo ⟪ song rec: Inception - ATEEZ ⟫ 

@dreamescapeswriting​ Hi M!!! Okay full disclosure!! I’ve actually read some of your works before having tumblr LOL Like I really enjoyed them (Lucky and You Love Me are so cute) and honestly I was shy about reaching out but I’m so glad I did because now I wanna continue to talk and send you hugs! >V< I’m so glad we’re both gamers and your asks make me so happy! Thank you for being the sweetie you are and I hope we can talk more in 2021!! Have a great new year cutie!! <3 ⟪ song rec: False God - Taylor Swift ⟫ 

to my mutuals and other moonbeams who I wanna talk to more and love and support so much!! @mikoto-ica-fics​ @hanflix​ @chogiwow​ @redsandroses​ @meiiyue​ @missskzbiased​ @rosieecheeks​ I hope we can talk more in the new year and I love you a lot!!! You’re all such beautiful souls!! Know I’m sending you love and hugs and all the support I can muster \>v</ xoxoxoxoxo ⟪ song rec: Breath - GOT7 ⟫ 

To my beautiful nonnies, I’m super happy you’re here. I miss you all and hope you’re well and to the new ones welcome welcome!! I hope you know all your messages make me so happy! When I started my blog, I didn’t imagine I’d have as many anons as I do now, I didn’t think I’d have many, maybe 2 or 3? You guys make me so happy and I hope to see you more in my inbox when you have the time!!! <33 ⟪ song rec: You Can STAY - Stray Kids ⟫ 

To all my followers, my darling moonbeams!! Thank you so much for joining on this journey of practice and self-love that I’ve been trying to embark on. The comments, the reblogs, the likes, the asks, all of it, it means the world to me. To re-learn that it is possible for people to enjoy what I do, and not tie it to my own self-worth has been something I’m so thankful for. You all helped me learn that so thank you. I hope you continue to enjoy the stories I put out and feel free to reach out anytime! I’m so happy to have 300+ (almost 400) of you lovely moonbeams here! I hope you all have a wonderful 2021! It doesn’t matter who you are, how old you are, where you come from, what you identify as, what you believe in, or who you love; you are all precious moonbeams here in this haven.  ⟪ song rec: Haven - Stray Kids ⟫ 

I know I say it a million times but since this is a wrapup letter I’ll share it again shortly. My blog was made for the main purpose of learning to appreciate my passion for writing and to not cage myself from posting and sharing my stories. I wanted to learn to write for myself and that posting stories in and of itself was the main victory, and everything else was the bonus, instead of thinking when people like it, only then is it good. I’ve done that before and having learned from it I now feel more prepared to tackle this. Thank you again for all the warm welcomes and the love I’ve received it still hasn’t quite sunk in for me and it feels so unreal. To know you all enjoy my stories and give me so much love, it’s crazy and it’s happening and I am so happy. I’m very thankful I took the leap of faith even though I was scared and decided to create this blog! 2020 challeneged me as well as pushed me and supported me. I experienced hard times yes, but I also experienced some really amazing things. I found comfort in things new and old, I feel like the quarantine made me come to terms with myself more, not run from things I wanted to confront and talk to myself more. I feel like 2020 albeit really draining in all ways, helped shape me and I got stronger because of living through this year. Now before I get any more preach-y than I already have LOL Thank you for being a part of my 2020 everyone!! I hope to have you with me in 2021 and I hope you experience the blessings of the moon like I feel we all do. See you in 2021 y’all! We’ll get through next year and the next and the next, I know it! 💜

Love Izzy 

#my 2020 love letter to you #izzy's 2020 wrapped up #izzy doing stuffs #izzy be rambling #I love you all my moonbeams #🌕 may her majesty the moon watch over you always

[akkpipitphattana]

so first and foremost just going to say @sanderdriesen, i mean this should not be shocking i say it all the time that emma is my comfort blog and i literally have being her stan in my description so kfsjdklfjklj. the why is so easy, she's always blessed my dash with her creativity as well has been such a fun blog to interact with and so sweet too. like really without her i wouldn't have gotten into the fandom as much as i did so i owe her for allowing me to meet my wonderful mutuals.

which those wonderful mutuals are all extremely talented and sweet individuals who keep me motivated as well as make my day brighter....and i am afraid to list them as i don't want to leave any out. so i hope they know that i love them all including you. 💛💛💛

ahhh this is so cute!! emma is the sweetest, and it doesn’t surprise me at all you went with her 😌🥰

@sanderdriesen 💙

tell me who your favorite blogs are and why!

#also ily2 😘 #asks #antania 💛 #emma ❣️

[inkykeiji]

WAIT CLARI YOU’RE SO SMOL AND CUTE SLFJSL lowkey tho??? lowkey tho......... you give off like,, a bigger presence so i can see why people find you intimidating lmao??

i was like cramming for my lab exam and barely passed and didn’t have the mental capacity to say anything before but like i really wanna and i hope this isn’t overstepping or creepy in any way and i’m sorry if it is!! i just appreciate you a lot for coming onto this blog and interacting with everyone in the first place? like even just clicking into your blog and reading your replies to other anons and seeing your energy and hearing your thoughts — you really do create like a really safe space i kinda enjoy existing in even if you aren’t interacting and i know i and so many other anons and mutuals appreciate and adore that. you just existing is enough and regardless of how much content you’re putting out or how fast it’s coming out, that’s valid. and for the content that you share — it is much loved and appreciated and wonderful!!

i obviously dont want to compare. just sldksj to try and relate in any sense i’ve taken like full courseloads as much as possible, even at one point taking 5 course and 5 labs and literally maxing out despite the fact that my parents have assured, which i am very blessed and grateful for, that they are willing to lend as much support as needed so i don’t have to finish uni just in 4 years. i also have friends who have shared really really similar thoughts to you and i know for me personally and from what they’ve told me that it can be really tricky to get out of that mindset to stop feeling so bad! i guess i jus wanted to say that i support you and i know other anons support you. i hope you’re gentle with yourself. i hope you take time for yourself. i know you’ve said you enjoy being on this blog and we enjoy interacting with you and your content! but i just hope, and i obviously cannot tell you what to do or force you and you know whats best for you!, that you put yourself first.

developing new schedules can take time and you have a very valid life outside of the blog and you deserve to feel good and confident in the things you post and how much you’re doing already. your existence is enough. always.

mwah mwah - 🦦

AW THANK U MY LIL OTTER <33 DO I ACTUALLY I’M SO ???????? ehehe but i’m also kinda flattered, so thank you 🥰

aw thank you so much sweetpea, that really means a lot to me 🥺🥺 i am genuinely so, so happy to hear that you and so many others feel that way about my little online space, it warms me to my very core <33

omg i took five years to finish uni too!!! it’s so stressful, i hope you’re doing okay bb :(( it is an extremely difficult mindset to get out of, but i’m trying!!! like i said before, there’s really no one putting any pressure on me except for ME, just wanting to be more consistent with posting content etc. but i appreciate your (and the other anons) support so so soooooo much, you’re all so kind to me and i could never ask for anything more <333 i am trying to be gentle and kind with myself, i promise <3 i’ll try even harder just for u, my lil otter <33 but thank you for sharing your own experiences with me!!! it makes me feel a lot better, too 🥺🥺

aaaaah your last little paragraph made me CRY ehehe oh thank you so very much, from the bottom of my heart. you are such a beautiful, kind, sweet person and i am extremely lucky to have you, and all of my incredible anons + followers, in my life. like i said a few days ago, coming on here and talking to you guys truly is the highlight of my day, every day. so thank you for being here for me, and for supporting me and my work, and for being patient and honest and so incredibly understanding. it truly means more to me than words could ever tell you <333333 ALSO U KNOW I LOVE UR LONG MESSAGES PLS NEVER APOLOGIZE ehehe

also bb i will be getting to your other ask soon enough, hopefully tomorrow??? THE ONE WHERE U TOTALLY CALLED ME OUT LMAO but i’m so, so close to being done with the first piece of the series i want to post, it just needs to be edited, so i want to use today to do that!!

#ALSO UR GYM RAT STORY #SO CUTE AHAHAHAHA #omfg i love that so much ehehehehe #again thank you so very much for this <33 i love u lots n lots n lots #pls promise me youre taking care of yourself n drinking water n resting #i know this can be a very busy and extremely stressful time of year for so many of us #so remember to be kind to yourself #and i will try to be kind to myself in return #<333333 have a lovely day sweet otter #🦦.anon #clari gets mail

[wendimydarling]

I run a smut blog on tumblr but I’m a mutual. I’m a virgin so we can see why this is on Anon. Anyways, I’ve never had sex before or am orgasm. I’ve never touched myself. So, big sis, Wendi, where do I start? I’m a devout Christian and I’m terrified.

Alright, Nonnie. I hope you don’t think I’d forgotten you, cause I haven’t. I’ve been thinking about what to answer with since you sent me this ask. Let’s you and me have a dialogue, okay? Just grab your coffee and read.

To be honest, I’m probably the wrong person to be asking about this. I pulled out my bible, blew the dust off of it from it’s lack of recent use, and searched. It doesn’t specifically talk about masturbation, but from other passages you can gather that it is probably sinful to masturbate, solely for the fact that 9 out of 10 times, you’re picturing something sexual and lusting after it. 

But I’m a rare breed. I didn’t grow up masturbating to sexual images, at least, I didn’t realize they were sexual. I masturbate to fully clothed people getting tickled. Weird, I know, but it was the only kink my eleven year old brain could safely latch onto at the time. I didn’t even realize I was masturbating until I was seventeen, and I hadn’t linked it to something sexual until then. 

That being said, I was SO uncomfortable with sex for the first THREE YEARS of my marriage. I can you blame me? For 20 years I had been told “sex is bad, don’t have sex, don’t touch boys, sex is bad, don’t stumble boys, don’t let them see your body, etc.” and then suddenly it was my “biblical duty” as a wife to sleep with my husband when he desires it because he’s physically designed to need it more than I do? The FUCK is wrong with this system of teaching? It’s no wonder I hated being naked!

Now I was fortunate. I like to tell people “I’ve got so many other problems that the Lord said ‘ya know what? Imma BLESS you in this area’”, and he gave me unlimited orgasmic potential. The very first time I had sex was with my husband on our wedding night, and I had two orgasms and cried. It was beautiful. And I had no struggles with orgasms, I hit my first record of nine about 6 months in. But I struggled coming up with the desire to do it. Once I was in it I was fine, but I would have so much anxiety over the fact that I knew my husband wanted to sleep with me, and I didn’t know my body well. It was very vanilla those first few years.

Look, I’m still a believer. I love Jesus, and I believe without a doubt that he died for my sins. I just don’t see the world as black and white as I used to. Masturbation is a grey area, and I’d rather my daughter satisfy herself than deal with all the issues of having sex too soon. I want her to know herself and be confident in herself and her body and with boys. And I think that masturbation is something that a husband and wife should decide together if it’s something they like and want to continue. 

All that being said. If you’re terrified because you feel guilty, I’d recommend holding off. I don’t know how old you are, or where you’re at in life, but if you run a smut blog and we’re mutuals, then your shit is prolly really good and you’ve got the basics down. If you’re terrified cause you just don’t know where to begin, start small. Don’t watch porn, focus on your body and what feels good. just take your fingers and explore with all kinds of different touch. My masturbatory episodes are so extreme because I’ve been doing it for 25 years. 

(Which I would be more than happy to walk people through btw... should they be interested in a play by play. 👀👀👀)

But most importantly lady, love yourself. Love the body the Lord gave you, and all that it’s capable of. If you can go without until you’re married do it, but I don’t think Jesus is going to love you any less because you touched yourself.

#ask wendi #sex questions #sex positivity

[fugoukeijis]

when you get this, you must publicly post something nice about at least 5 different people you follow, then copy and paste this in each of their ask boxes :D

rissa!! first of all, tysm for adding me in yours. words absolutely cannot describe how grateful i feel to know you like my blog, and how much i appreciate you. you're fantastic! :3 and i'm so sorry this is so late! ><

@reehlia reh!! you were one of my first ever friends on this platform and ever since you've been nothing but nice to me. you're seriously the best and you have such a soft and beautiful heart. you've also introduced me to a bunch of animes and i enjoyed every single one of them. i cannot thank you enough for your ever lasting support and kindness. ❤

@yokamis hey, lia! ever since i first saw you, i immediately got a very positive vibe from you and i was so right about that. you've been extremely supportive to me since day one of this new blog, your blog is so beautiful and you in general, are such a fantastic person. thank you for being such a blessing on this platform. ❤

@space--cowboys alex, you're an amazing content creator and friend and that's one of the infinite many wonderful things i can say about you. you happen to be a huge inspiration in my gif making process and i always get so excited to see you on my dash. you also share a lot of common interests in anime with me and i'm so happy about that. i'm so happy to have you, a ray of sunshine, as my friend. you're awesome. ❤

@aominne noufi, you always bring positivity to my inbox and i really want to thank you for that. your blog is also so aesthetically pleasing and i keep visiting it from time to time. you were one of my first mutuals on my blog and again, i wanna thank you greatly for that, and for being such a good friend. i hope we get to talk more often soon because i really want to get to know you better, because you seem to be such a fun person to talk to. ❤

@p-irozhki okay i know i've said it before but thank you once again for including me in your list of this mesaage. i really appreciate it :3 your edits and gifs are some of the best creations i've seen on this platforms. you're so incredibly talented, rissa. and such a sweet person. you're always so kind in anything you say. thank you for being like that. thank you for everything. ❤

i wanted to include more people but i just wanna say; i love and appreciate all of you. i cannot mention how grateful i am for having your support and love. i hope everyone is having a lovely day/night. 💛

#asks #<33

[astrogone]

❝ @ mutuals, send me a 🍓 and I’ll compliment you! ❞     /     pt. 4

🍓 @glrchmp: Zacharie, you and your blog are absolutely? Phenomenal?! I honestly have not got into the playthrough of Shield / Sword yet while I do not have Switch, but of course, Leon has my heart instantly, and seeing someone so so passionate of him makes me very delighted. I absolutely adore what you have thought of him and written with him so far, and I always highly look forward to read and learn more about your Leon. It was such a wonderful moment going through your blog and seeing how would you portray Leon. Everything about him is so well thought and detailed, it is just incredible. To be honest, even if I haven’t got into the game yet, I already had a thought that Nintendo could not ever do Leon justice like how you would portray him. I hope you have at least some pride in your work because, seriously, what you touch turns into a wonderful art, and I am so grateful that I had stumbled across your blog. Anyone should, actually. You are a gem as you are a lovely person to have on my dash. I do hope we can interact more soon and have you shove me into more of the Pokéworld ( because I will admit, I’m not too hot with the lores and whatnot, and I’d love to get Deep with it, if ya get me there ) but if you are busy or anything, I’m more than okay to wait. Give you the time and space you need. For now, just seeing you on my dash makes me happy— as long as you are content, I am too. <3

🍓 @mtchstck​: Alex, first of all [makes over 100 fire / hot puns such as how your blog is hot, your writing is spicy—]. Second of all, my goodness, please know that you and Livvy are out of the world, like we truly do not deserve you two. Your developments, writings, graphics, artworks— everything that you would come up with are incredible, and just... The time and effort you would put in these delightful creations... There is so much passion in your work and I just do not know how you would come up with any of these stuff. Livvy is such an interesting and fun character to learn about, and you probably get this a lot, but I do want to tell you how much I love that you write her with life in her. In a roleplay forum I was in for most of my roleplay life, I had seen so many young muses around her age being written with these traits that were just slapped onto them or given them a tragic background for the sake of it with bare to no developments and meaningful thoughts behind them. Yet with Livvy, everything about her feels natural because you care, and it just makes me so happy to see that there are people out there like you who would hold a lot care for their muse’s characterizations. You are just so talented in everything you do and I highly admire you. Honestly, what a spark of delight and inspiration you are to have on my dash. <3

🍓 @arsonbeast: MJ, we haven’t done much together yet, but, my gosh, you! Are so cool! Honestly. I still remember our conversation during around the Fourth of July and recalling about it makes me think that you’re such a very fun and hilarious person to interact with ( and I would love to interact with you more but I’m so Fucking Slow, but... you know ). I don’t know how to explain it, but I can really sense your energy from your texts alone and I get so delighted whenever I see your posts on here / text messages. You just have a really chill vibe that makes me feel comfortable, which says a lot with me having anxiety, welp, but... Just know that you have my heart and soul. Also, I highly adore your writings with MJ— the way you would word your sentences, MJ’s dialogues, etcetera, it really captures the personality of him and it’s so much fun and exciting to read them! And his faceclaim? Epic choice, my dude, I love that a lot. I can not truly wait to see more work with him, and once I finally fucking figure out who to write / plot with him, it’ll be Over for you, so you better watch out for my dumb ass coming at your way with that, lmfao... You’re awesome as Hell, dude. <3

🍓 @fatedriven​: Neo, at the moment, we are just silently supporting each other from our tiny corners ( I am too slow and often chaotically losing my energy to reach out but! I will! Get to you soon, I Swear ), but I do want you know that I am! So so! EXCITED to interact with you more! And I ADORE all of your muses and everything in your blogs dearly MUCH! I swear, everything about your blog and creations and so forth are downright gorgeous. Stepping into your blogs for the first time was like having my eyes blessed with the sacred lights, no kidding at all!... Your muses are so unique and different from each other, it takes my breath away to see how much passion you have for all of them. Also seeing your writings? Truly poetic, oh my gosh. Your blogs are just so so delightful to go through. I love your ideas, your portrayals, and everything, like. You’re already one of my inspirations as seeing your work makes me feel motivated to work and develop on my creations, so thank you for taking the time and effort in sharing your creations on this Hellsite. They are truly amazing and I just can not wait to see more from you, as well as, again, interacting with you more. <3

🍓 @destructiveglitch​​: Myers, where to even start... I do not ever believe words would be enough, but as it is what I can offer, please, despite anything and what anyone would say to you, try to remember that whatever you create, your creations will always bring light to this universe! Every edges and corners and the insides of your creations from your muses to artworks and headcanons and writings and so forth? So well done. So so good to get into anytime, any day. And seeing your art improvement with the “silence, bottom” artworks? Incredible. It truly does show much you had improved from years of creating, and while you may experience feeling negative about your creations, I do want to give you a gentle reminder that this world is truly blessed to even look at your work. Just... the passion and dedication you have in your creations make me feel beyond delighted, and I love whatever you would post on my dash, even it’s just a silly thought. If you ever end up writing a novel or make a comic or whatever, you better let me know and I will pay to even read about it. Your creativity is too good for us. I am beyond grateful to have stumbled across your blog. You are just so sweet and fun and cool to have around, and I can not wait to make more fun memories with you. <3

🍓 @forcefuried​: Tian, you are extremely delightful to interact with and have on my dash and Discord. Just. Every time I would see your post or text message, I get so giddy and hope you are doing okay. You deserve all of the goods out there. You hold nothing but kindness and even when we have recently interacted, you make me feel at home already, and it’s... a rare thing when I have anxiety, so, I just love how open and honest and sweet you are to not just me but others as well. I have said this before, but i will not hesitate to say this once more that I am beyond grateful that you decided to check up my blog and gave me a follow because, otherwise, I would probably not get to see the absolute beauty you have in your blog. The passion in everything you create is amazing and with every thoughts, headcanons, writings, and such that you would come up with? Always a breathtaking moment. There is so much details and dedication in everything, and how you would take the time to research and pour your soul out is so admiring. You are the reason I should get into the rest of the old S.tar W.ars films as I had watched only one of the old ones, honestly, lmfao, but yeah, you are so sweet and creative, and, gosh, this world just can not get enough of you. <3 🍓 @gloryshound: Nee, wow, honestly, what did I do to deserve you? While we are starting to interact more, I must say that I truly am in love with your writings. The details, the wordings, everything about them are so great. It just catches my emotions, make me feel and think for these muses, and it really amazes me to see how you would give each muse their own voice in your writings, and I personally believe it is not that easy to do that, especially when you have a lot of muses to write at once. I find it so interesting just reading what are the themes / main focuses each of your muse have, and it makes me think how determined and willing you are in exploring more of these themes / main focuses with their respective muses, and I think that’s really neat. I love when people actually take a step back to see the potentials in the characters and use them to make more of they are given from the media. It shows that they care, and I do love when people take the time and effort in placing so many thoughts and developments in a character. You are one of those people and I hope you know that your creations are highly inspiring to many people, including myself. I am so happy that we got to meet and I highly look forward to interact with you and all of your lovely muses more. It is gonna be so amazing! <3

#( happy happyyyy belated strawberryday everyone!!! love you all so so much!!! <333 ) #˚* ੈ✧ ‧ ( ooc . ) i am alive ; i am awake #glrchmp #mtchstck #arsonbeast #fatedriven #destructiveglitch #forcefuried #gloryshound

[msjr0119]

50 Living Your Best Life Dialogue Prompts 30 and 31

Thanks @kacie-0156 can always trust you to send me prompts/requests👍🏼

So, I’ve decided to combine this with my ‘We Belong’ series. It begins from the ending of the last chapter- however this isn’t the beginning of the next chapter.

Book: The Royal Romance

Pairing: Drake Walker (belongs to Pixelberry) x Evangeline Bruley (belongs to me.)

Prompts:

30- “I’m a little drunk, extremely happy, and so in love. Life couldn’t get any better.”

31- “I love wedding receptions. Nothing beats free booze.”

Warnings: *Please only read if you are over 18* Fluff! ❤️, some adult language, mention of shooting (past tense), mention of stabbing (present tense).

Word Count: 1,646

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Hey guys, myself and Evie aren’t returning to the apartment.

We are going to a hotel, I am spoiling my fiancée. D x

That night that Drake had proposed to Evie in Paris, still felt like a fantasy. Even if it did take two attempts for her to accept the proposal, he couldn’t help but feel blessed. Every morning since returning to Cordonia, he woke up feeling anxious- paranoid, that she could leave him at any minute. Deep down, he believed that she was far too good for him. Not quite believing that she could love him back as more than a friend- especially when she had the opportunity to marry Liam from such a young age.

This morning he woke up alone for the first time in weeks. Today was their wedding day. He had spend decades of loving her in secret, today was the day that he was officially making her his. And much to his disgust, the day that he became a Duke. Even though he had grown up around nobility, he had hoped that he would make Evie proud- not fail her as a Duke. Support her as best as he could do.

Walking down the aisle with Liam, his best man- the guests greeted them as they made their way up towards Leo who was officiating the upcoming nuptials.

“What’s up with you? I have never seen you this nervous before.” Continuously taking deep breaths, he couldn’t prevent the shaking.

“Li, it’s just....You know Evie....She always runs away. I mean, I had to ask her twice to become my wife. What if she just thinks ‘fuck this’.. would you blame her? All the shit we have been through. The miscarriage. My mom. Myself getting shot again- because you’re a fucking dumbass.”

“And you’re the fucking dumbass hero all the time. When Olivia rings, I am going to go and collect your bride- and if I have to drag her down the aisle I will do.”

“You’re my best man! Why are you walking her down the aisle?”

“Maxwell was driving her crazy.” I can imagine. “I can still do my best man duties, soon to be Duke Walker.”

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Liam made his way to the room that Evie was getting ready in, Olivia winked at him as he walked in.

“For today, only- I give you the most beautiful Duchess in Cordonia, your Majesty.”

“What if one day isn’t long enough, Duchess Olivia?”

“Don’t push it, Evie. I’ll give you both two minutes.” Liam nodded, as Olivia exited the room.

“You look breathtaking, Evie.” Finally turning around to face him, he noticed tears trickle down her face. “Why are you crying?”

“Olivia is going to kill me if I smudge my make up. I never thought that this day was coming.” Knowing exactly what she was referring to, he caressed her cheeks- smiling softly towards her.

“Your fiancé or should I say soon to be husband, is a strong man Evangeline. He wouldn’t leave you again, he fought hard. He’s shaking like... what do they say? A shitting dog. He’s worried that you are going to runaway, he adores you so much.”

“There’s still time to do that, right?” Liam was attempting to study her face, not quite knowing if she was winding him up or not. “I’m joking Liam. Are we okay?”

“Of course we are, why wouldn’t we be?”

“Oh, because. You know....You’re walking the bride down the aisle, the bride that was supposed to be yours once upon a time.”

“Oh, Evie. I’m honoured to be walking you down the aisle. You’re my best friend. We’d have never worked out anyway. Come on, let’s make this a better wedding than mine. Let’s turn Drake into a Duke and you’ll become Duchess Evangeline Walker- Mrs Drake Walker.”

****

Evie didn’t know how tightly she was holding onto Liam, the nerves had gotten the best of her. It’s Drake. My Drake. I’ve found the love of my life and my closest, truest friend. Reaching closer and closer towards Drake, she could tell how nervous he was. His hands were physically shaking. Liam kissed her on the cheek, I love you, Evangeline. Look after him for God’s sake! Evie let out a nervous laugh, before reaching for her fiancés clammy hand.

“Evie, you look beautiful. You’re always beautiful... I mean... fuck. I love you, Lina.”

“You look handsome, Mr Walker. You’re always handsome to me though. I love you, Drake.”

****

During the reception, Drake never wanted to leave Evie’s side. He was in awe with his best friend, his now wife. After much ‘peer pressure’ from their friends, especially Maxwell- Drake wrapped his arms around Evie’s waist in the middle of the room before beginning a speech. He didn’t want to. He didn’t know exactly what to say. He wasn’t sure what people were expecting from him. Maybe some slurred garbage with the amount of whiskey that he had consumed.

“The hardest part was admitting my true feelings after years of wishing that you was mine. Everybody else knew, I just regret not telling you before I eventually did. I’m a little drunk, extremely happy, and so in love. Life couldn’t get any better. Until my beautiful wife, gives us another blessing, hopefully. We’ve been through enough surely? We deserve happiness. I’m going to shut up boring you all. But thank you all for coming. Evangeline Grace Walker, I love you so much. My, Lina.” Picking her up -unexpectedly, he held onto her tightly. Never wanting to let her go.

“I love you too so much! My husband.”

“Put her down Walker! Wait for the wedding night! Oh by the way, I do believe that I deserved some recognition in your poor drunken speech. If it wasn’t for me, she wouldn’t be back and you wouldn’t be so crazy in love.”

“Thank you Duchess Olivia, for being an interfering bitch!” The Duchess perked her eyebrows up towards him, whilst fumbling in her bag. Showing him the contents of her bag, he gulped knowing that he had to be grateful towards her before she potentially stabbed him. “Your interference worked out well this time. Thank you, Liv. I appreciate you for bringing Evie back into my life, into all of our lives.”

“No problem- DUKE Walker. May I steal my best friend for a moment? I’m sure Maxwell could entertain you instead?”

Drake met Maxwell at the bar, he felt as if he was floating on cloud nine. With a whiskey in his hand, his eyes were still focused towards Evie and every movement she made. Needing to make sure that she was safe from harm, after the disastrous Royal Wedding.

“I can’t believe that you are married!”

“Neither can I.” Blushing, Maxwell pulled him in for an over dramatic bromance hug.

“I love wedding receptions. Nothing beats free booze.” He said to his friend, as he slowly sipped the brown liquid.

“Erm, Drake....”

“What, Max?”

“The booze isn’t free. You and Evie paid for it remember... you put a ton of money behind the bar, Evie’s idea. I mean it’s free for us, but not for you two...so cheers Drakey!”

“Are you fucking kidding me?” Maxwell’s eyes widened as Drake climbed over the bar- scrutinising for the money. Panicking, Maxwell backed away- needing to find Evie, hoping that she would distract him. Somehow.

****

Fuck

Drake woke up in a sweat. Looking around, they were in the Parisian hotel room. The place that Drake had escorted her towards after his second proposal. The successful one. Sitting up, he couldn’t wait to marry the love of his life. However, he was horrified with the possibility that he may have to contribute to the bars float. It was just a dream. He wasn’t a tight bastard, or maybe he was? But their mutual friends were all nobles- surely they could afford their own drinks? Calculating the number of guests in his mind, he was then attempting to work out how many drinks the guests would each have. Maxwell and Adelaide would be the biggest burdens if there was a free bar, taking advantage. At least Brooks is pregnant- that’s one less person, he thought to himself.

“Drake?” Evie stirred, wondering what he was doing. “Are you okay?” She asked softly, as she attempted to wake up properly.

“Yeah...” Laying back down, he pulled her into his embrace and held her lovingly.

“Evie? You know when we get married...”

“Yeah?”

“Do we have to pay for the booze? For everyone?”

“Of course we do, Drake! You can’t be a sponger all of your life. It’s that or the wedding will be alcohol free....”

Drake’s eyes widened, realisation that there would be no whiskey or any alcohol for that matter if he refused to pay upfront. “Or we could pay, then send Maxwell or someone around with a bucket and if anyone is willing to pay a donation they can do. Besides, what’s a bit of money for alcohol- people will buy us wedding gifts. It’s the least we can do.” Snuggling into his chest, she loved seeing the horror written across his face. Trying not to laugh, she knew exactly who was paying for her wedding, and for the drinks of course. They remained in silence for a while, content in each other’s company.

“Did you love my parents Drake?” That was random. He thought to himself. Why is she asking that?

“Yes. Of course I did, they did everything they could for myself and Sav. They took us in when they didn’t need to. They were the most amazing people, that I’ve ever known. I am thankful for everything that they did for me, for us.”

“Good.”

“Good?”

“When they died, they left me an envelope... You can thank them for paying for our wedding, including the drinks. I love you, Drake.”

#we belong #drake #evie #TW: Adult language #TW: mention of shooting past tense #TW: mention of stabbing present tense #prompts

[mistresstrevelyan]

FOLLOWER MILESTONE

As of today Persephone’s Parlour has reached 400 followers.

When I remade after that toxic breakup fiasco a few years ago I never could have imagined to find so many wonderful people who’d follow me when I’m blogging about my OCs, Fashion, Opera, Merlin and so on and so forth.

Some of you are friends going back all the way to the BSN (IE @knightofphoenix and @merilsell) others I’ve met on YT (IE @mloreley my fave LPer of all time) and one even dates back to my writing days on LJ (Hi @nikichidon). 

ALL of you are people I’m extremely proud to call my friends. ALL of you are incredibly patient with my multi-fandom blogging (Bless you @freifraufischer I’m still here for Regina, our queen!) ALL of you are incredibly kind, talented and loving people.

But none of this would have been possible without my friend @dandelion-warrior who not only was my rock and my protector in the difficult months and years after the breakup and who offered precious advice, hugs, love and support during that emotional roller coaster. It is thanks to her I was able to shed the abusive conditioning and create fan-ish stuff, esp. OCs, without wishing to please but because theirs are the stories I wish to tell. Without her, Desideria Hawke, Drusilla Trevelyan, Theresa Chiara Ryder and Olivia Rumaryn would not exist. Without her the Rhia ‘Verse would be so much emptier (Eluned Mahariel was created during that time and her role being given to one vacated by another OC who wasn’t mine and all but took over the ‘verse was a major step towards recovery) and important layers in the world building just wouldn’t exist. Myrna Tabris being the Hero of the Alienage rather than waiting for a shem to save the day for example. Tara Surana and Erlina being raised to the peerage is another. Eluned Mahariel marrying Queen Anora and thus becoming and elvhen Queen is yet another.

Also, a special shoutout must go to @imperiius my sweet Tumblr wife and the best friend a gal ever had.

And also a shoutout to the newest of the Parlour family @obvidalous. I’m delighted to be mutuals with you and can’t wait to gush about ME:A and our smuggler husband together!

All that said, I am just so thankful  and feel blessed that you guys are there with me. When I had an episode of depression after a pain attack I knew you guys would be there for me. There’s nothing I can ever do or say to repay all of your support, love for me and my OC daughters and staying by my side through thick and thin.

Today was rough (I’ll explain later in a separate post) but my Dash is such a comfort zone to me now like it never was before. I never have to deliver or perform, I can just be me, gushing about what or whom I love and you guys cheer me on with every Like, Reblog, tag and kind word.

As I can’t draw or write very well I don’t know if I can do a milestone giveaway but I might just to a story giveaway and promote a few mutuals who have been a lifeline of love and support.

I humbly want to offer thanks and if ever you need anything, even if it’s just a listening ear or a shoulder to cry on, remember I have two of each available.

Be well everyone, be safe! /Persephone out

#Parlour politics #Persephone chatters #Follower milestone #Gif Warning

[ddaengboys]

cutie pie, euphoric and wobbly for the cute asks ♡ ily

Cutie Pie; what is the most precious item(s) you own?

So I am very sentimental honestly (and have a few hoarder like tendencies), this adds up to mean that essentially anything that’s been given to me in my life I have kept and it’s precious to me. If you have put time and effort into something and had the thought to give me something that you worked on, or you found something and it made you think of me and you give it to me, I’ll keep it always. I still have notes given to me from my middle school days, pieces of art friends made for a class in high school but gave to me; this also means that as an elementary school teacher I have stacks upon stacks of “drawings” from various children that I’ve kept and plan to keep for as long as possible. I just find gifts very precious and meaningful

Euphoric; talk about someone you love.

Oh Amanda, why this one >3le sigh… Here goes (I’m not naming just one person and I’m gonna try and limit myself to three sentences or less)!

@adoreyoongi; She is my soulmate. She is the most important human in my life; honestly even more so than my blood family (cause spoiler alert she is my family). She is the person I can always turn to no matter what; she makes my heart smile, she makes me realize why the earth turns and the sun rises and why the sky is blue and the grass green. I never knew love before her and I truly hope I can have her in my life until the end

@jeonking; a sweet and beautiful (AND COOL AS HECK) goddess whomst I miss very much. She is truly so kind and amazing and talking with her is always a joy. She is a cool person (even if she denies it constantly), not because she lives an amazing life, but because she has worked so hard and has earned the amazing life she leads.

@vanteblaq; A real/genuine and amazing human. She has a fantastically beautiful eye when she takes pictures and I’m always so amazed at what she’s able to capture. She’s such a cute and adorable angel (even when she’s trying to murder people with pictures and gifs).

@melswolf; My tag for you says it all ½ of the loveliest mom duo. She is an incredible woman; so strong and level-headed, calm and collected, very smart and such a natural leader I always want to follow her. I haven’t had the chance to tell her this yet so I may as well do it here Whenever I see her name it reminds me of sunshine and bright things (her name is green in the groupchat but I always see yellow when I think of her

@myonlyparadiselost; One of my wonderful Spanish teachers and a bright human who is as sweet as a peach. Talking with her always puts a smile on my face. I truly love and adore this beautiful sweetheart (who for real has the voice of the most amazing and heavenly being).

@raplinepersona; my purple soulmie and fantastic human who I talk to every day (and would never have it any other way). She is an actual queen who rules with a just and considerate heart; she would honestly do whatever she could to make someone else happy (even at the cost of her own feelings 3). She is a beautiful soul and I’m so glad and grateful that I was able to meet her.

@bitterpan; My wonderful Korean teacher and veteran ARMY, thank you for always being willing to help us new ARMY; you are always there anytime we have a question or are confused about something, you talk it through and explain it to us every single time and I’m so grateful for that. You are such a kind human, so sweet and helpful always. I love you bunches my adorable Narwhal.

@painfulbutsweet; My tag for you says it all ½ of the loveliest mom duo. My adorable, amazing, awe-inspiring Amanda. You are an incredible gfx maker. A kind and gentle soul. Even though you’re my Momma you sometimes remind me of a baby chick, something I want to hold and protect forever, something I value and treasure a lot. Your friendship means the world to me :’)

@e-n-s-a-m; I know you’ve been busy lately (still sending you good vibes so you can rest soon) but whenever we do get to talk I consider it a blessing. You always know the best Stray Kids content to send and I’m so glad I can scream about the best boys ever with you. In my mind, you’re actually a precious flower being kissed by the sun’s rays.

@shook-kookie; My precious Jimin Jungkook(?) stan, aka my sweet Piglet and cinnamon roll. Killing you is always a sweet pleasure of mine, but talking to you is even sweeter. I’m so glad to know a silly bean like you, who is always ready to scream about Jimin (and Jungkook, and sometimes Hobi, occasionally Yoongi). You’re my fellow hoe in boots (it’s the sexiest clothing item I could think of on short notice I’m sorry) and you help me feel not alone

@idobelieveyourgalaxyrm; my little sister (who is stressed about school so if you have time and care about her please send her top tier Namjoon content) and fellow Joon stan (also my other Spanish teacher). Anytime she arrives in the gc she puts a smile on my face, whether that’s because she’s being the actual funniest human alive, or because for once she is blessing me with her lovely face and/or sweet adorable voice. She is baby, she is my sweet Sicily, and I love her more than I thought possible.

@jiminestamour; My angel, my little piece of happiness, my whole heart placed in a body too many miles away. Talking to her is one of the many joys I have in my life. She never fails to make me feel loved and safe, whether it’s through the overwhelmingly sweet (and adorable) posts she sends me, when I’m able to see her bright smile, or her general existence. She truly is my number one angel, I would and will serve her to the day I pass :3

@bangtantannie and @tatavangogh; I know we haven’t interacted much (so I’m very sorry if this makes you uncomfortable) but I just want you to know how much I adore you. You’ve always been so kind to me, whether it’s here on Tumblr or through Rachel, and I’m just ever so grateful for that. Thank you for being utter delights and I truly love you

And finally, to any of my mutuals or anyone who follows me or interacts with my blog. Thank you. I truly don’t think I deserve to be blessed with such wonderful people in my life. Even if we don’t talk often or at all I love you. I love seeing your name pop up in my notifications when you like or reblog something from me or when you tag me in something. It makes my heart feel extremely warm and gooey. I’m sorry if you’ve tagged me in something and I haven’t responded (fun fact about me, I automatically assume no one wants to talk to me so unless you tag me in multiple stuff often I just assume you accidentally tagged me in something and it was a fluke), it truly means a lot that you would do that and I thank you

I’m truly sorry that got so long but I have a lot of love in my heart and I genuinely enjoy sharing that love with anyone and everyone as often as I can

Wobbly; have you ever wished upon a star?

I have

Thank you so much for the ask Amanda (I’m really sorry for the long rant but) I hope you liked my answers :3 I love you bunches

Ask Away!

#again i'm really sorry for the rant #and #i hope i didn't make anyone feel uncomfortable #but thank you so much for the ask #i hope everyone has a good day #answered