#I want Tommy to be like yeah I ended things with Buck he's a great guy

[buckboi]

Angsty Little Coda to 7.6 because I couldn’t get the look on Margaret Buckley’s face out of my head but don’t worry it has a happy ending

G / 1k / TW for bad parents

“Evan, have you got a moment?” 

Five words from his mother and Buck falls off cloud nine and crashes back to nineteen years old.

But Chimney’s alive and okay. Maddie’s glowing beside him in her gown. Everyone’s chatting and eating the overpriced (but admittedly delicious) wedding cake. It feels like a family gathering, and Buck won’t cause a scene in front of his family.

“Yeah, sure,” he says. Tommy gives his hand a gentle squeeze. Says I’ll be right here with just his eyes. Buck squeezes back, and follows his mom into the corridor.

“Come here.” She pulls a tissue from her pocket with one hand, grabs his chin with the other and starts wiping away the soot Tommy had left on his face when they reunited. “So. What’s all this then?”

It’s a trap, he knows.

“What’s all what?” he deflects.

“All this.” She waves her hand at his face, then towards the hospital room where Tommy is visible through the glass door. “You’re an adult now, Evan. I thought you knew better than to upstage your sister on her wedding day.”

Oh great. Accused of doing exactly what he’s trying not to do. It would be funny if it wasn’t frustrating.

“Second wedding,” he mutters under his breath. Just because Maddie was happy to forgive her parents for missing the first one, doesn't mean Buck has to let it go too.

“Excuse me?”

“I said she knows,” he corrects. This is a happy day. Chim is alive. Maddie is beautiful. Tommy is waiting for him. Things are good. He’s not arguing with his mother. “Maddie. I told her about Tommy weeks ago. She was the first person I told, actually. And she told me to bring him to the wedding, if I wanted to. The only one here who seems to have a problem with it is you.”

His mom scoffs at that, and lets go of his face.

“I’m not homophobic.”

“I didn’t say you were.”

“I just don’t think it’s right, springing it on your father like that.” She tuts at him. Like he’s nineteen, fifteen, twelve, eight years old. He almost liked it when she was disappointed in him. At least she was paying attention. “He’s getting older. His heart.”

“You think me having a boyfriend is going to give dad a heart attack?” He laughs at the absurdity of it all. “Do you think we should get him outta that room before he realizes Hen and Karen are lesbians?”

“Evan.” How she manages to say his name with some much judgment when she’s the one who names him, he’ll never know. “It’s different. When you find out your own child has been lying to you for years. And all those girls you’d string along...”

She looks hurt, but not angry, which is its own kind of fucked up. It’s not fair. She doesn’t get to be sad about this.

Not when things are finally feeling good, and safe, and right. When Tommy feels right.

“I wasn’t lying.” It’s maybe more of the truth than she deserves.

“I don’t see how that can be true if you’re gay.”

“Well I’m bi, actually. And I only just-“ he scrubs a hand over his face, probably spreading the soot around worse. “It’s a recent development, okay? That’s why people didn’t know. ‘Cause it’s new. And Tommy and I are taking it slow.”

“I suppose that’s a first for you too, Evan?” she snipes and it’s goddamn unfair because who is she to ask him that? To judge his life when she’s never so much as pretended to take an interest in it?

He has options, now. He could storm off. He could say something worse. He could say something worse, something about dead children and how they can’t disappoint you like the ones who are still alive and then storm off.

She’s not worth it, says a voice in his head. It sounds a lot like Eddie, and Bobby; like Maddie, and Chim, and Hen, and Tommy.

Like someone who actually cares about him.

“Can we just… not?” he asks, and for a second Buck thinks she might actually refuse. Might force the point, but she lets out an unnecessarily weary sigh and nods. “Can’t we go back to the party, and enjoy what’s left of the day?”

“Of course. Why wouldn’t I want that?” Buck doesn’t even attempt to answer that one. “Just let me get you looking respectable again and we can go back.” She grabs at his face once more.

“Buck! Chim wants you back for a team photo,” Maddie says, bursting out of Chimney’s room in a cloud of tulle. Just in time to witness his humiliation. Great. “Aww, you’re wiping it off?” 

“Of course he is,” their mom says. She’s scratching at his face with the tissue. Speaking for him like he can’t answer on his own. “It’s your wedding, Maddie. I won’t let him show you and Howard up.”

Buck takes a deep breath and smiles thinly as his sister furrows her brows.

“Oh, well, Chim said he wanted a photo with your face all dirty.” She laughs sweetly, and grabs Buck’s arm. “He wants to capture every detail of the day.” 

“Oh,” Buck says eloquently as he lets his sister pull him back into Chimney’s room. “I’m sorry.”

“It’s alright,” she assures him.

“No it isn’t,” Chim cuts in from his bed. “Tommy, again. I want that photo!”

And Buck laughs, because it’s silly, and because he knows his family loves him. He asks, “Do we have to?” not because he doesn’t want to, but because it’s Maddie and Chim’s day, and he never wanted to steal their spotlight, even for a moment.

“Oh absolutely you do, Mister,” Maddie tells him, with just enough tease that he knows she wouldn’t force it if he protested. “Our wedding, our rules.”

Buck has no interest in protesting, instead he turns towards Tommy, who’d been a shockingly good sport about this. Buck’s sure he’s exhausted; probably desperate to get back to his apartment and shower off the day. Kinda wants to join him there if he’s being completely honest with himself.

“Well?” Tommy asks, interrupting his steamy fantasy.

Buck bites his lip like he's a teenager again.

“Hi.”

“H-“ Buck interrupts Tommy’s reply with his lips, far softer than before.

He’ll never ask how his mom reacted - whether she rolled her eyes, or pursed her lips or looked, even for a moment, proud of him - but Buck’s family cheers and jeers and whistles their support.

And he feels free.

#is it silly and indulgent? yes!! this is the being silly and indulgent website #911 spoilers #911 abc #evan buckley #bucktommy #tevan #bucktommy fic #tommy kinard #um i will edit & ao3 this later ok i gotta get back on the floor lol

[letmetellyouaboutmyfeels]

so how would you have this play out. say buck and tommy start experimenting halfway into this season and then eddie gets wind of it gets pissed and shit goes down and by seasons end tommy leaves, buck is going to be comfortable with the idea of being with men, tommy probably gives buck a hint about eddie and well marisol and eddie probably break up as well cause homegirl is gonna be like you're more interested in your best friend dating a man then me, tell my why that is? oh it's so juicy.

I've said this before but I don't know if I've ever said it publicly: I am betting on a Bones season six situation.

For those of you who don't know, in the television show Bones, at the end of season five one half of the slow burn, Booth, confessed his love to Brennan, the other half, and she turned him down. She was terrified that their relationship wouldn't work out and she'd lose him. Booth, brokenhearted, quit the team and got himself a new girlfriend (Katheryn Winnick, hhhnnngghhh).

In season six, Brennan breaks down and confesses to Booth she does love him and wants a relationship with him, and begs him to tell her it's not too late. Booth is hurt, and tells her that his current girlfriend is "not a consolation prize" and he's not going to break up with her to get with Brennan - he cares about her and is going to stay with her.

He and the girlfriend then break up because they want different things in life, and Booth is able to go to Brennan and be with her (after a period of adjustment).

I'm deeply inclined to think that we'll get something along those lines. We all saw how hurt Eddie looked when Buck said "she sees me" in that graveyard scene. I think that Buck is going to realize his feelings and confess to Eddie and Eddie is going to fight him, hurt and upset, telling him that he waited for ages for Buck to realize Eddie was right there, and Buck just went off with another woman. Again. And Marisol isn't someone Eddie's going to just dump the second Buck gives him a chance, he's not going to do that to her.

We'll have angst and pain and Buddie separation, Eddie and Marisol will break up, and Buck and Eddie will get together in the season finale.

(Which, for the record, I'm betting the Madney wedding is the finale. Just saying.)

I would not be surprised if they pushed Buck and Eddie getting together until the next season and instead focused on the angst to be evil and give us an emotional cliffhanger. Especially with only a ten-episode season. But I'm currently betting on them getting together in the finale.

That's my line of thinking! And if we could get Tommy asking Chim how long Buck and Eddie have been into each other while Chim astral projects his way through the last six years and bluescreens, that would be the icing on the cake.

#mads answers things #911 spec #I just want Chim to have a leetol crisis because of Tommy #I want Tommy confessing to Maddie he had a huge crush on Chim while Chim has 'hello darkness my old friend' playing in his head #I want Tommy to be like yeah I ended things with Buck he's a great guy #but I'm not getting in the middle of him and Eddie #and have Chim be like I'm sorry my good sir what the actual fuck are you talking about pray tell #I just. Kenny is such a great comedic actor. I need it.

[faillen]

honestly Tommy distancing himself So Quick after that date makes him so much more interesting to me and now I actually do wanna write about him

#cause like. it’s great and all for him to be super supportive of Buck but at what cost??? #this is a guy who took a long time to feel comfortable with himself #I think based on the promo I could see him being supportive and brushing it off #but the degree to which Buck took it meant that yeah!! I did want to see Tommy’s self-protection/preservation kick in #Evan is adorable BUT he does not want to be there if it’s /this/ level of internal conflict #and I feel like his reaction at the end really just hammered home that it DID suck for him to leave Buck there #he didn’t want to!! #but he’s done a lot of work to get this far with himself #and if Evan is going to act /like that/—which as far as he knew was just due to straight internalized homophobia #he can’t exist in a relationship where he has to just let all the sucky things bounce off him/not affect him #and then just give and give and give in terms of support and reassurance to the other person #Hngh I liked him for what he could be to Buck after last ep but now I like him for him after this el #terrible terrible terrible how am I supposed to function #911 spoilers #911 on abc

[littlespoonevan]

If you are looking for prompts.... Eddie and Tommy realising they unintentionally excluded Buck ?

ohohoho this was fun to write but Sad also bc eddie is clearly thinking one thing and tommy is clearly thinking many things and buck is off in his loft thinking many, Many things but i hope you like it, friend 💛

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Eddie hobbles over to his couch with Tommy’s help.

“There you go, man,” Tommy says as he gets Eddie situated on the cushion. “You need anything?”

“Nah, I’m good,” Eddie replies, waving a hand. “There’s beer in the fridge though; help yourself.”

Tommy doesn’t take him up on the offer, instead moving to sit on the coffee table next to where Eddie’s propped up his injured leg.

“So, uh, Buck can get pretty competitive?” He says it like a question, nodding to Eddie’s wrapped ankle as if in proof and it’s, well-

“No, actually,” Eddie says, and he feels…stuck between a long-ingrained need to defend Buck and confusion as to how they ended up here in the first place.

Because this isn’t like Buck. Because Buck usually spends his every waking minute actively trying to keep Eddie out of harm’s way. He sure as hell is never the cause. And Eddie knows he didn’t mean to, is the thing. But just calling it a simple accident doesn’t feel quite right either.

“I don’t-” he starts and then reconsiders what he’d planned to say. “Honestly, Buck’s been a little off this week so I think…”

He trails off. It feels weird talking about Buck with someone who isn’t close to them, who doesn’t just implicitly gets all the intricate mental gymnastics behind Buck’s every action.

Then again, Eddie’s not sure if anyone is actually as adept at figuring out how Buck gets from A to Z as he is.

“Is it because of me?” Tommy asks and he looks genuinely concerned.

Eddie replays every conversation he’s had with Buck this past week – every too bright smile Buck flashed him, every enthusiastic assertion that he thought it was great Eddie had a new friend – and then he, inexplicably, thinks about when he first joined the 118 and some things slot into place.

“I think he was maybe a little worried,” Eddie allows. “That I was replacing him with you.”

Tommy’s eyes do a slow, deliberate sweep of the living room and the multiple photo frames of him, Buck and Christopher on the mantel and the side table before he looks back to Eddie. “Is that even possible?”

Eddie shakes his head, letting out a laugh. “I mean, no. Obviously. But Buck just- sometimes he needs reminding how much he means to people.”

Guilt settles between his ribs then. He’s been too distracted this week, too excited about having someone he had so much in common with around to talk to. If he’d taken half a second to look a little closer he would’ve realised Buck was spiralling.

“I should’ve spoken to him,” he sighs. “Reassured him that we weren’t trying to exclude him.”

Tommy frowns. “You really think that’s how he felt? I thought you said he never wanted to play basketball when you asked?”

“I think it was more than just the basketball,” Eddie says, wincing – the memory of him asking Buck to babysit instead of coming to the bar with them feels particularly bad.

Tommy nods slowly, mind clearly working. He’s quiet for so long Eddie thinks about telling him not to worry about it, that he’ll deal with it, but then-

“Why don’t I go talk to him?” he suggests, confident and sure. “Clear the air? I don’t want him to think I’m trying to get in the middle of you two.”

It takes Eddie by surprise. There’s a strangely defensive part of him that wants to say he and Buck don’t need anyone to mend their fences for them but he shoves the thought aside and reminds himself that’s not what Tommy means. Buck had sought Tommy out too last week and they’d seemed to get along. Maybe Tommy wants to clear the air for his own sake.

So he says, “Yeah,” probably a few seconds too late and makes himself smile. “Normally I’d be the one driving to his house and forcing him to talk. But I guess I’m kind of out of commission right now.”

He nods at his foot and Tommy laughs, pushing himself up off the couch to stand. “Well, hey, I’ll be sure to pass on your regards.”

“Thanks,” Eddie snorts.

Tommy claps him on the shoulder as he rounds the couch. “Don’t forget to take those pain pills, man. I’ll let you know how things go with Evan.”

He calls the rest of his sentence over his shoulder as he heads for the door and Eddie manages a half-hearted, “Will do,” as he hears the click of the latch.

And he feels…how Buck has felt all week, probably. Confused and irritated and a little possessive. Like Tommy’s stealing his job. As if Eddie hadn’t just told him it was fine. As if Eddie could even make it over to Buck’s place right now. At least he managed to hold back the petty, “His name is Buck,” that had immediately rose up in his throat as soon as Tommy had called him Evan.

Shaking his head, he reaches for the paper bag with his prescription that Tommy had left on the coffee table.

He’ll talk to Buck tomorrow and everything will be fine.

#my fics #7x04 #911 related #eddie diaz #tommy kinard #buddie #or like buddie adjacent #also bucktommy adjacent #asks #anon

[glorious-spoon]

ship: eddie/buck prompt: couch

hi, and thank you! this got longer than i was planning, lol. buck/eddie; 700 words; unsubtle metaphors and first kisses

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Eddie opens his eyes to the dim flickering light of the TV, turned down low but not quite muted on one of those Ninja Warrior things that Buck loves. He's tilted sideways, cheek pillowed against the outside of Buck's arm, and he's apparently been drooling a little, which would be more embarrassing if it were the first or even the twentieth time it's happened.

"Sorry," he mumbles, peeling his face away to flop back against the couch and muffle a yawn into the back of his hand. "Time's it?"

"Like ten. You were wiped."

"Haven't been sleeping great lately."

"Good thing I picked out a comfortable couch this time around, huh?"

Eddie laughs softly, rolls his shoulders until they give a couple of satisfying pops, then leans forward, resting his elbows on his knees. He glances up to see Buck watching him fondly, his face lit up in the glow of the screen, his eyes sleepy and soft.

"Yeah," he says. "Good thing."

Buck huffs a little, a smile tugging at the corner of his mouth. Eddie imagines tracing the shape of it with his fingers, or maybe with his lips. It's a thought he's become more settled with in the past month or so, after Buck ended things with Tommy, or Tommy ended things with him—Eddie never actually got a detailed post-mortem on what went down there, from either of them, and he's not sure he wants one. They're both single now. Buck likes men. Eddie could just kiss him and see where it leads.

Instead, he slouches back against the couch. On the screen, a petite but muscular woman is slamming her way up a salmon ladder while the crowd shrieks, nearly muted, and the timer speeds ahead. 

"God, she's so good. I bet she could kick my ass."

"That's your type, huh?" Eddie asks, and Buck ducks his head, laughing. 

"I don't know. Maybe."

Eddie hums. He's remembering a night in Buck's kitchen, years ago—you wanna go for the title?—and a tension he can name more easily now than he could back then. For himself, anyway. Sometimes Buck looks at him the way he is now, and he thinks—but he doesn't know. Not for sure.

"Hey, Eddie?"

He didn't even realize his eyes had slid shut again. He blinks, rubbing at them, then rolls his head over to look at Buck. "Yeah?"

Buck hesitates, his lips parted. His eyes flicker over Eddie's face for a moment, and then he scoffs a little and turns his face away. "Nothing. Never mind."

"Oh, no, come on. Now you gotta tell me."

"It's nothing. Seriously."

"Buck."

Buck holds out for a moment, but Eddie can see the moment he gives in, his shoulders sagging, because he's never been any better at saying no to Eddie than Eddie is at saying no to him. It's comforting, the way they both have that problem. Buck rubs at his lower lip, then shrugs a little, then says, without looking at Eddie, "Do you ever… did you ever think that you and me, that we could be…" He glances over, quick and nervous, and Eddie wishes like hell that he knew what his face was doing or how to control it. Buck smears his hand over his mouth a little more roughly, then says, "Seriously, forget it."

"Buck," Eddie whispers. He straightens up on the couch, fully awake now.

"Eddie, I—I don't—"

"Hey," Eddie says, and he reaches up and touches Buck's cheek. Warm skin, stubble just starting to come in. Buck's eyelashes fluttering, his shaky breath. And it's easy from there, to let that guide him: to lean in and press a kiss to Buck's mouth.

It lingers in the stillness for a moment. Then Buck's hand comes up to cup his cheek, and his lips move against Eddie's, kissing him back.

It's soft, and they part just as softly. Buck's eyes are closed, but after a moment he opens them. He breathes out shakily, then laughs a little. "Yeah?"

"Yeah," Eddie whispers. His hand is still on Buck's cheek, and he wants to kiss him again, and he thinks maybe he gets to do that now. "Yeah, I think we could."

#911 #buddie #buddie fic #evan buckley #eddie diaz #prompt fic #my fic

[matan4il]

911 ep 705 first watch reactions

Of course 911 would "punish" the "You are the boss of you!" guy with an alien hand that attacks him, and does what it wants. Pooor Buck and Eddie paying the price for that...

Okay, love the storyline with Hen and Karen possibly eventually adopting an older girl. Too many shows just find easy, unrealistic ways to give their same sex couples kids, and I am really glad that 911 shows the reality of it, and that it is a more complex struggle for many, that it's an act of continuously choosing to be parents. That's actually an amazing, difficult thing, and it should be faithfully depicted and respected, for all of its heartache, and the little moments of triumph.

Buck and Tommy on a date, and Eddie comes along with Marisol? Love how Buck's bisexual awakening and coming out continues to involve Eddie so much. Tell me they're end game, even if they're not gonna get together right now, without telling me they're...

I did not need to learn Marisol is moving in with Eddie like this, with any build up, or even any sort of insight into the relationship, and nope, that does not bode well for them. IDK how 911 managed to do it, but they have somehow managed to give Eddie a love interest the show is even less invested in than Ana.

And the funniest bit, is that Marisol and Eddie's big development is only there to further Buck's journey anyway.

"You can never have too much closet space" LMAO the way 911 both made me laugh, and feel sorry for poor, baby bi Buck. XD

Hmmm. Were parts of this scene cut out? We don't get to see Eddie on his own date with Marisol, but constantly looking over at Tommy and Buck? Boo. I'm glad we at least got the BTS photos, then. But seriously, why!? That was gonna be so delicious.

Oh, Tommy's breaking up with Buck. I mean, good for him, and he ain't wrong after Buck's "after this, we're gonna go out looking for chicks" reaction, but man do I feel sorry for Buck. Him and Tommy might not be my end game (Buddie forever will be), but I do think this relationship could be good for our baby bi. Tommy being in the same profession, knowing what it's like to have this gap between who you are and the image of guys in your line of work, plus he's got more experience than Buck, is sure of himself, can help our boy figure himself out, and also Buck obviously does like his vibe. He deserves to be with someone he actually likes, not just the first woman willing to be with him that the plot pushed in his way.

Oh, baby Buck. :( You didn't even tell Maddie about Tommy. You really aren't ready it. But also (and as a Buddie shipper, more importantly), Tommy broke things off with Buck, but what is eating him up, is that he lied to Eddie. XD Yeah, this gonna end with wedding bells, sooner or later. On screen, off screen after the show ends with canon Buddie, or only in my head if 911 never dares make Buddie canon, I don't care. That kind of emotional devotion is not something that my hopelessly romantic heart can ignore.

OMG, this is how Buck comes out to Maddie? XD Via random pronoun mention, and as a by product of trying to figure out how to tell Eddie the truth? This is hilarious. lol It really makes it clear that, after all, the issue for Buck really isn't people knowing he is also dating guys (or checking their asses), even when it's the other closest person in the world for him, it's Eddie. Specifically. Buck's ready, even if he doesn't have the exact clear words yet, he's just not ready to tell Eddie. Can't imagine why. XDDD

What was that awkward post-sex scene with Eddie and Marisol? And the issues with her moving in are popping up a second after she has. But yeah, we have no idea who this woman is as a person, she's been a cardboard cut out so far, and then one of the first things we do learn about her, is that she would call her stuff better than Eddie's? Once again, this is not the stuff great romance is made of. Or... even just the stuff any kind of romance is made of.

Wait, Marisol was a nun, and Eddie didn't even know!? This whole ep is telegraphing in the news of how weird and awkward and underdeveloped this r/s is, not just for us as viewers who know nothing about Marisol, but apparently for Eddie as well.

And of course his Catholic guilt is gonna kick in now. I'd care, except 911 has given me absolutely no reason to. Seriously, I care more about Buck and Tommy after just 2 eps, than Eddie and Marisol, even though this is technically her 2nd season on the show.

Of course Buck went to find Eddie, and spotted him at the gym. Forever 201 vibes, with Eddie being the focus of Buck's attention. ^u^

I couldn't care less about Eddie's Catholic guilt crisis, and how it's actually a projection of what his real issues are with Marisol, but it's nice to see that as always, Buck's the one who can tell when something's off, and offer Eddie exactly what he needs (even when that's to talk to someone else, but Buck figures out immediately who the right person to address is), and then they just very naturally switch, because Eddie can also tell when something's off with Buck, and he wants to tell him something. Soulmates. THAT is the stuff that great romance IS made of.

:/ The imagery of Catholic nuns has not been around for over 2,000 years, please stop being ignorant about your own religion, and the very different way it looked in its early days.

Bobby is forgiven, he does give good advice, and his "her ex, the Lord" bit, which prompted that reaction from Eddie, is hilarious. XD

So... when Eddie is having issues with Marisol, he already knows he has to figure out how he feels about her, but instead of doing so, he goes to his safe place... Buck's loft.

Man, Eddie being into Tommy's choice of avoidning relationships with women, and hanging out with boys, after in the past, Eddie had dealt with his Shannon issues by running away from her, and re-enlisting in the army, where he gets to hang out with boys, when we all (Buck included) know why Tommy's "hanging out with boys"... I do like that if they want to (and hopefully they do), this further lays the groundwork for Eddie's own queer realization.

Buck and Eddie helping each other with their respective romantic problems, without realizing they are each other's respective romantic solution is gonna make me chew on my own fists. Again. But I'm not even a little bit surprised that Eddie was totally fine and accepting of Buck being bi, or that the first thing he thought of is how this reflects on them. Because their friendship IS way deeper and closer than normal for platonic friends, and Eddie's little reassurance is also an admission of that.

Man, for a second I was worried they also cut out Eddie in the loft, once more putting his thumb on Buck's pulse point possessively, in a perfect parallel to 303. I would have sued for emotional damages. But yeah, it says so much that the peak of emotional meaningfulness for Buck when coming out is in relation to Eddie, and that the scene itself peaks with Eddie, instead of finishing rushing out to take care of his own romantic business, hurries back to Buck first, to hug him, place his hand on Buck and give him orders. "Sure, you're gonna be dating this guy, but I'm still your real husband."

Well, at least Eddie amitted to himself and Marisol that he doesn't actually know her. But... I have never seen two people being both being so happy about not moving in together, and I'm supposed to think this r/s has a chance? Okay. Suuuure.

The scene with Buck going to Tommy to set things straight ready for something was lovely, it was nice seeing him excited, and get to choose, and hear he's wanted. But since the note Tommy and Buck's storyline in this ep should have ended on, is Buck showing Tommy he's ready enough to let others know he's dating a guy by inviting Tommy to come with Buck to Madney's wedding, then why is the very next scene playing the romantic switch again, making us think Buck's car just arrived at the wedding with him and Tommy, only for Buck and Eddie to walk in together? I see what you did there, 911.

Thank you for reading! If you're looking for more, you can find my s7 reactions tag here, and more of my Buddie meta and content in my pinned post. xoxox

#911 spoilers #911 #911 abc #911abc #911 on abc #911onabc #evan buckley #eddie diaz #911 meta #chimney han #maddie buckley #bobby nash #tommy kinard #911reactions #9-1-1 #henren #madney #118 firefam #fire family #hen wilson

[half-oz-eddie]

For @911buddieweek prompt "Please don't leave"

A misunderstanding and lack of communication leads Buck to believe he has overstayed his welcome on Eddie's couch. He couldn't be more wrong.

Read on Ao3 or below the cut!

Buck fears he’s overstayed his welcome. Ever since he lost his lease, he’s been crashing on Eddie’s couch. 

Of course, Bobby and Athena offered him an empty room, but he opted for his safe space—to be closer to his 2 best friends in the whole world. 

At first, it seemed like Eddie and Christopher loved having him around. Every night was game night, Buck got to have bedtime chats with Christopher until he fell asleep and then he’d end the night with a beer with Eddie. They’d talk about how things were with Tommy and Marisol and in the mornings they’d get ready for the day together.

Buck had found comfort in this routine.

Now, three weeks in, and the routine seemed to change abruptly. It was less Buck, Christopher and Eddie time, and more Buck and Christopher time. At first, Buck assumed Eddie was spending more time with Marisol, until Eddie came home one evening, vaguely mentioned breaking up with her and kept his distance ever since.

Buck thought Eddie was sulking, but it seemed more like Eddie was being completely avoidant of Buck.

Buck would wake up some mornings to a completely silent house. Eddie and Christopher started doing their morning routines without him, because Eddie told Christopher to stop waking Buck.

It was heartbreaking, to say the least. Buck assumed perhaps he should have taken Bobby and Athena up on their offer, and he was beginning to hope it wasn’t too late. 

He didn’t want Eddie to resent him. 

As he moped on the couch in deep thought, he received a text from Tommy, inviting him out to lunch.

Buck hoped a date would take his mind off of Eddie.

It did not.

In fact, Buck spent most of their date talking about Eddie, and Tommy was beginning to pick up on a vibe he’d suspected from the very beginning.

“…And we would have beer together—every single night. Then, he breaks up with Marisol and just…" Buck shrugs "starts avoiding me. Maybe—what if I had something to do with the breakup? What if they broke up because of me crashing on his couch? What if I’m in the way somehow and—“

Tommy placed a gentle hand on top of Buck's and gave him a serious gaze, hoping to reel him in.

“Evan. I think you’re a little oblivious to what’s going on, but…I’m not.”

“W-what are you talking about? I have no idea what’s going on.”

“I know.” Tommy pulled his hand away. “But it’s clear you’re worried about more than losing your best friend, and Eddie may not be avoiding you because he’s sick of having you there.”

Buck shook his head. “I’m—I don’t understand.”

“Look, Evan, I’ve been having an amazing time with you, but I should have known better after seeing how the two of you are together.”

Buck narrowed his eyes in confusion, before they widened in disbelief. “Wa-wait, no! Eddie’s straight. He—he only likes women.”

“Does he?” Tommy raised a brow.

Buck nodded emphatically. “Catholic guilt and everything.” He nervously chuckled.

Tommy silently chuckled and stood from the table. “Listen. I see where this is going already, and I just don’t wanna get caught in the crossfire. I had a great time with you, Evan. I wish you the best of luck.”

“But—Tommy!”

“No hard feelings, kay? I promise. I know you’re still figuring yourself out.” Tommy smiled before placing some money on the table and exiting the restaurant.

Buck hung his head down, sighing to himself. He had no idea what the hell was going on, or why any of this was happening. He was suddenly being pushed away by everyone he cared about and it terrified him.

Why was he so unwanted?

Buck returned to Eddie’s and was greeted by Christopher. 

“Buck! We got pizza!” Christopher beamed. 

“Oh yeah?" Buck smiled warmly. "Sounds delicious, buddy.”

“We saved you some.” Eddie shouted from the kitchen. “I wasn’t too sure if you’d be back before lunch was over.”

“I…kinda went out for lunch but, well, we didn’t eat much.”

“Why, what happened?”

“Tommy said we shouldn’t see each other anymore so…”

“What?” Eddie surfaced from the kitchen, brows furrowed in concern. “Why’d he say that? I thought things were great with you guys!”

“Me too, but I guess not.” He shrugged as he sat beside Christopher at the table. “Thanks for saving me a slice.”

“We saved you 3!” Christopher corrected. “You always eat 3.”

Buck smiled widely. “That’s—that’s true. I do always eat 3.”

Buck could hardly stomach one slice, but he pushed his way through it until Christopher got bored of sitting at the table and went off to play in his room. 

Eddie sat across from him. “I know that look. He hurt you, didn’t he?” 

“A little. I’m just more confused than anything.” Buck suddenly stood from the table. “I need to go do something. I’ll uh…be back later.”

Eddie gave him a nod. “See you later.”

“…and then Tommy left.” Buck had just finished explaining everything to Bobby and Athena. 

“Why did Eddie and Marisol break up?” Bobby wondered.

“I have no idea. Eddie never told me.”

“That’s unusual. Doesn’t Eddie tell you everything?” Athena questioned.

“Yes! That’s why I found it weird, too.”

“Maybe Tommy was onto something.” Bobby added. 

“Not you too. Look, I told you. Eddie’s straight as straight can be.”

“Oh yeah? Is he an ally like you?” Athena quipped, sipping her coffee as Bobby snickered. 

“I just—I don’t know what to do. It feels like nobody wants me around anymore. I-I’m actively looking for a place. I just need some time—“

“Well, you’re always welcome here. We’ve got a spare room you can have anytime.” Bobby reassured, patting Buck’s shoulder. 

Buck half-smiled, unable to ignore the strange, aching feeling in his heart. 

Buck returned to Eddie’s and began to pack his belongings while Eddie was having an evening chat with Christopher. 

Those nightly chats had been Buck’s thing with Christopher for the past few weeks, but it seemed like he simply wasn’t needed or wanted around the Diaz household anymore, so it was time to go. 

“Hey, Buck. You're back! Straightening up?” Eddie asked. 

“No I was uh…packing up, actually.”

“W-what, why?” Eddie asked, a deep frown on his face. 

“I feel like I may have overstayed my welcome. You’ve been avoiding me lately and I figured maybe I’m the cause of the strain on your relationship with Marisol, so—I just wanna go before I ruin our friendship.”

Eddie sighed. “C'mon. Stop packing. Sit down with me.”

Buck stopped stuffing his belongings into the boxes and plopped down on the couch. 

Eddie joined him, handing him a beer. 

They clanked their bottles together and took a few sips in silence. 

Buck missed these moments, but tonight felt unusually tense and caused his stomach to twist in knots. He desperately wanted to open his mouth and say something first, but what? What could he say?

“Please don’t leave.” Eddie spoke up suddenly. 

Buck’s eyes widened as his head snapped in Eddie’s direction. “W—you want me to stay?”

“Yeah. I really do.”

“But—what about Marisol? Didn’t you break up with her because of me? Because I’m staying here?”

“We didn’t break up because of you. Well—“ Eddie stopped to correct himself. “We didn’t break up because you’re staying here.”

“So…" Buck narrowed his eyes. "Why did you break up?”

There was a drawn out silence that made Buck feel uneasy. Eddie wouldn’t even look at him, but Buck stared—hard. Watching as Eddie sipped his beer and slouched over, noticing how he began to fidget and sigh heavily. 

“She got tired of me talking about you. I didn’t even realize how much I was talking about you.” Eddie chuckled. “She said it felt like you’d become part of our relationship over the past few weeks.”

Buck scoffed. “So, what, she was jealous of me? That’s weird. She’s always known how close we were. That was never a problem before.”

“You weren’t openly bisexual before.”

A heavy silence fell upon them again. Buck feared that coming out would bring the exact trouble he feared it would. 

“Does she have a problem with that?” He warily asked. 

“It’s not that either.” Eddie began to explain, gripping his beer tightly. “She…sees you as a threat. She thinks I have feelings for you.”

Buck began to laugh nervously. “That’s—Tommy said the same thing. That’s why he broke up with me. I tried to explain to him that it’s ridic—“

“I do, though.” Eddie blurted out. “I always did. I tried to write it off as a little crush and push it down as far as I could because I’ve always known myself to be straight. I just figured it was an intense feeling because we’re so close, y’know? I’ve never been this close to any friends of mine. But then you came out, and I started to feel things again.” Eddie groaned. “I don’t wanna ruin our friendship either.”

Buck froze, his eyes wide with disbelief. “You have feelings for me?”

Eddie let out a sound, something Buck found cute and pathetic, reminiscent of a puppy's whimper. He rested his head in his hand. “I don’t want to mess this up. I don’t wanna lose you. I don’t want Christopher to lose you. I thought long and hard about what Marisol said and I realized—I love you in ways I don’t even understand.” Eddie laughed upon his confession. “I have…always loved you.”

Buck sighed. “Sometimes I felt this…weird soulmate attachment to you. Like we’re meant to be together, but I thought it was a—bro thing, y’know?”

“Exactly. That’s what I thought.”

Their eyes met, and all their feelings surfaced at once, hitting them both like an oncoming train. 

Buck’s hand tingled with the desire to touch Eddie’s, and Eddie felt the same. 

He moved his hand closer to Buck’s, and Buck let his pinky touch Eddie’s. 

They continued to sit in silence, their pinkies now intertwined. 

“I don’t know what to do.” Eddie admitted. “But please. Please don’t leave.”

“I won’t. We’ll figure this out.”

Eddie held Buck’s hand. Lovingly, but fearfully. Loving Buck was dangerous work, maybe more dangerous than any call they ever responded to. He had half of his entire world in one hand, while the other half slept peacefully. 

“What if we…did this and then broke up?”

Buck chuckled. “Already planning to break up with me before we get this started?”

“No! I would never break up with you. I know you better than anybody. Love you more than anybody too.”

“You say that so naturally, and yet you’re so afraid. But I get it. I’m afraid too. But I think—maybe—I love you more than anybody else, too.”

“So what do we—“

“Let’s just…do what we normally do, but without having to hide our feelings from each other.”

“But what if I can’t contain my feelings? What if I really wanna kiss you?”

“Then kiss me. Whenever you’re ready.”

Eddie kissed Buck’s hand, surprising them both. “See you in the morning?”

“Yeah. Goodnight.”

The firefighters went to sleep without a care in the world, unexpectedly relieved that they were able to realize their feelings. 

Over the next few days, hand kisses became cheek kisses and flirtatious smiles became blatant flirting. 

“Good morning.” Eddie greeted as he made his way into the kitchen. “What’re we having for breakfast?” He mumbled into Buck’s shoulder.

“You, if you don’t get away from the stove while I’m cooking.” Buck joked, gently nudging Eddie away.

“Oh, yeah? You can have me for breakfast anytime.”

They exchanged mischievous glances before Eddie exited the kitchen, giving Buck space to work.

As much as they enjoyed the foolishness, things were getting pretty serious, and different desires were awakening in them. 

This wasn’t the first time they’d flirt, and it wouldn’t be the last.

Days passed, and Buck and Eddie (who still haven’t kissed yet, mind you) would playfully grab and spank each other’s asses, telling themselves this high school sweetheart phase between them was all good fun, but deep down they knew, they knew how badly they wanted to put their hands all over each other. 

Eddie found himself going to the gym more often to work off his…pent up stress. 

Buck, of course, had his own wants and needs, but he was too busy focusing on how much he adored Eddie and wanted to kiss his stupid face, but he didn’t want to make the first move. He’d already had his experience with a man—a patient man at that. He wanted to give Eddie the same amount of space and patience that he was given, no matter how difficult it was. 

But enough was enough. It was enough for Eddie, and it was enough for Buck.

After their shift, they went home to an empty, quiet place. Christopher was at a sleepover at Hen and Karen’s, leaving the two of them alone to…sort out their…problems, if you’d even call it that.

“Hey, Eddie, listen—“ Buck couldn’t even finish his sentence before he was pulled in for a kiss. It was hot and heavy and delicious. Eddie was pressed so closely to him, he could feel his heart beating out of his chest. 

They remained chest to chest, their hearts beating asynchronously as they kissed and kissed and kissed with no one rushing to pull away. They’d already said all they needed to say before. This was all about action.

Eddie realized he always wanted to kiss Buck. He’d never been able to kiss anyone like this—like it was the last time his lips would ever touch lips. His first kiss felt like hello and goodbye all at the same time and he had no desire to let Buck get away.

Eventually, they needed to part for air, but only created slight distance, their sweaty foreheads pressed to one another’s.

“What took you so long?” Buck heaved, laughing softly.

Eddie exhaled, slowly shaking his head. “I dunno, but that was really worth the wait.”

“Yeah.” Buck agreed, their hands intertwining in the darkness.

“I guess we should get your stuff out of storage, huh?” 

Buck smiled. “Maybe some other time. I’ve got something...else I need to unpack.” He said, leading Eddie to the bedroom.

Looks like Buck won’t be sleeping on the couch ever again.

#buddie week 2024 #buddie #evan buckley #eddie diaz #ivy.doc

[some-little-infamy]

Buck, Realized

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Buck’s body registers the knock at the door before his brain does, heartbeat quickening in his chest at the sound and the mixture of hope and trepidation that floods through him. Eddie. He’s been avoiding Eddie, but of course Eddie isn’t the sort to suffer avoidance in silence - for better or worse, he’s going to make Buck talk to him and deal with this head-on. And, for better or worse, Buck deserves to be confronted with the aftermath of his action. Buck doesn’t even bother checking the peephole before pulling the door wide open.

When he sees not Eddie, but Tommy, standing in the doorway, everything seems to pause. This… isn’t right. This isn’t what he’s expecting, the routine of them, of Buck and Eddie, that Buck’s grown so used to since Eddie entered his life. Then again, since Tommy entered Eddie’s life, things haven’t been what Buck’s used to, have they?

It takes a moment for the idea that it’s Tommy at his door to register, and when it does Buck doesn’t feel disappointed that it isn’t Eddie. In fact, his heart only races faster, nearly visible where it pulses in his neck. Weird. He writes it off as fear, fear over how badly he fucked up that Eddie can’t even face him.

“Uh, hey. Hey, Tommy.”

“Can we talk?” No greetings. Not a great start.

“Uh, yeah, yeah. Come… on in.” Buck invites him in, fully functioning on autopilot at this point, his words repeating and stuttering in an effort for his mind to catch up with his actions.

“Wow, maybe I’m working at the wrong station,” Tommy comments, looking around Buck’s place with obvious awe.

Buck grins despite the situation, because it feels good to be on the receiving end of a compliment from Tommy, to be in the place that he imagines Eddie’s been in a million times based on how close they’ve grown. Not that it matters - having a nice apartment isn’t going to win him any friends here, no matter how deep his need to impress runs.

“Can I get you something? I still owe you a beer, right?” Buck doesn’t know why he’s trying so hard, why he’s smiling so wide, as if this could still be a simple social call. He wants to salvage what he can with Tommy, if he can. Tommy’s reply isn’t promising.

“No, I’m good. I won’t stay long. I just wanted to clear the air and I didn’t want to do it over the phone or in a text or something.”

Jesus, why does this sound like Tommy’s breaking up with him? Buck grabs a beer for himself, anticipating the need for it - and probably a few others - by the end of this conversation.

“Clear the air about what?” Buck asks, needing to know for certain.

Tommy keeps his distance, standing in the open space beyond the kitchen Buck’s in as he replies.

“Obviously I’ve been the cause of some bad blood between you and Eddie and I just want you to know that was never my intention.”

Fuck. Buck knows he hasn’t been anything short of obvious lately, with Maddie and Chimney picking up on it before Buck even fully realized what he was doing. So of course Tommy picked up on it, too. And if Tommy had… “There’s no bad blood,” Buck promises. “Evan-” Tommy starts, but Buck continues talking before Tommy can say anything else. He ignores the strange weight he feels in his stomach hearing Tommy say his name like that… there was emotion behind that name, something Buck doesn’t have time to think on just then. “Really,” Buck continues. “No bad blood, just… bad behavior, and, and it’s all on my part. You guys didn’t do anything wrong. You and Eddie as buddies makes perfect sense.”

“Yeah, we do,” Tommy agrees so immediately he nearly cuts Buck off to say it. “And you know he can have more than one friend, right?”

Buck looks down as he smiles at that, doing his best to cover the embarrassment that flushes his cheeks. Of course Eddie can have other friends. Eddie has other friends. He has girlfriends. But other friends aren’t Tommy, and Buck isn’t sure how to explain why that’s different without sounding crazy. He certainly feels a little crazy just thinking it.

“Uh, yes. Yes, I do know that,” Buck manages to force out around his thoughts.

“I mean it’s not like I could ever replace you. Christopher would absolutely have something to say about that. That kid cannot shut up about you.”

Buck swallows hard, pushing back the lump of emotion that catches in his throat at that.

“Really?” Buck can’t help it - he smiles, practically beaming. Tommy was impressive, and cool, and smooth, and everything Buck isn’t. Buck wouldn’t have blamed him if Chris thought Tommy was better than him and wanted him around more instead. Hell, Buck gets the appeal. He wants to be around Tommy, too. It’s why he was trying so hard to keep his attention with the hangar tour, wasn’t it?

Wait… was it?

“Really,” Tommy swears, continuing the conversation and leaving no time for Buck’s wandering thoughts.

“I guess Eddie is, uh, pretty pissed, huh?” Buck forces himself to focus back on the conversation at hand. He walks over to the other side of the kitchen island, feeling a little more okay with the conversation now. Now that he knows this is a civil conversation and that Tommy isn’t out to get him, Buck doesn’t need the drink in his hand or the distance between them.

More than that, he doesn’t want there to be space between. He finally has the thing he wanted all those other times - Tommy’s undivided attention - even if it’s not the way he wanted to get it. He instinctively moves towards the comfort this kind of interaction brings him, a feeling he hadn’t realized he missed so much until this moment.

When Tommy crosses his arms Buck stops moving toward him and leans back against the island instead, reading Tommy’s body language and adjusting accordingly. Buck’s hands grip the counter ledge behind him, grounding him there for now. There’s something more to this conversation, something thrumming under Buck’s skin and flashing across Tommy’s eyes that Buck swears he isn’t imagining, but he can’t figure out what it is. All he knows is that this conversation feels… dangerous, somehow, and he isn’t eager to be the one to push the boundaries of it.

“No, he’s not. In fact, he feels bad. We both do. Nobody meant to exclude you, Evan. Eddie and I hanging out, it wasn’t about you.”

“That’s usually my problem. Uh, I can get pretty jealous.”

The words leave Buck’s mouth before he has the chance to overthink them. They’re true. They’re honest in a way he hasn’t allowed himself to be before the basketball game.

When Tommy looks away at those words Buck thinks he looks… upset? Buck swears there was a moment of disappointment, of something Tommy didn’t want Buck to see that the quick turn away covered up.

“Yeah, you’re not the only one. I was super jealous.” “You? Over what?” Buck leans forward as he asks but doesn’t move away from where he’s stationed himself against the island.

Tommy’s the one to move this time, taking a few steps forward, walking back and forth a bit as he rewards Buck’s honest admission with a confession of his own.

“All of you. The 118. How it’s become like a family over there. How you all were willing to put everything on the line for one another. I wanted to be part of that.”

They’re close now, mere feet apart, but it’s too much distance for the moment they’re having. Buck hadn’t realized how much the two of them had in common. Maybe not in things like hobbies, but something deeper. They both feel left out of something they want to be part of. They both feel like they’re looking in on something they can’t have, and maybe don’t deserve.

Buck takes a step away from the island, closing the distance between them even further. He wants to reach out, to put an arm on Tommy’s shoulder or pull him into a hug, but he doesn’t. That isn’t what this is and he’s too grateful for the moment they are sharing to risk ruining it by thinking he means more to Tommy in all of this than he does. “Hey, you were, and you did. You,” Buck laughs mid-sentence at the memory. “You even made fake mouth static at the fire chief.”

Honestly, it was the moment in the helicopter that Buck first realized that Tommy was the sort of person he could see himself getting along with. Reckless for all the right reasons. A bit of a smartass. Great personality and sense of humor, even in a situation like the one they were all in at the moment. How could anyone not be immediately won over?

“I’m renowned for my fake mouth static,” Tommy declares.

Buck finds himself mirroring the absolutely unserious expression on Tommy’s face with ease. Given the uncertainty he felt at the start of this encounter, Buck’s surprised that he can feel so comfortable, so quickly.

“It was not great,” Buck points out. “Come on, hey!” There’s no true hurt in Tommy’s indignation, no sign that he’s put off by Buck’s joking critique. The relief that Buck feels over the cheerfulness Tommy exudes now, over the smile that spreads wide across his face as he laughs with Buck… it’s like something begins to settle in Buck’s previously tumultuous mind.

“It was not convincing, but you did it anyway,” Buck points out, his tone growing serious again, shifting into something low and contemplative. “You threw in with us, no hesitation, and I, I thought wow, that guy is cool. I like that guy. That’s why I called and asked for the tour. It wasn’t about me maybe leaving the 118, Tommy, I…”

He what? Buck doesn’t know where any of this is coming from. Being here, alone and in private with Tommy, allows him a sense of freedom he didn’t have when they were back at the hangar doing the tour. Everything just feels so easy, so natural. Buck didn’t mean to say anything he just said, it all just sort of tumbled out. Talking with Tommy, being here with him… this is all he really wanted the chance to do before.

Before Eddie started spending all his free time with Tommy at fights and basketball games.

Before Buck ever had a chance to say it, or even realize he thought it.

“I just wanted to get to know you,” Buck finishes, softly.

“Yeah?” Tommy seems surprised, but in a good way, and Buck feels that strange flutter again, that tingling just underneath his skin that he doesn’t expect over something as simple as being the cause of that grin on Tommy’s face.

It makes more sense now than it did before. A lot of things do, the longer the two of them stand this close together, the more they share goofy grins back and forth that seem to feed off each other’s borderline flirtatious energy. That flush of heat begins to return, and Buck quashes it down.

Buck reminds himself that Tommy came here to talk about Eddie. He reminds himself that it’s Tommy and Eddie who are close, not him. This is all just to smooth things over. “Yeah,” he agrees.” And then you left with Eddie. Which, listen, you don’t have to tell me how great Eddie is, you know, I’ve known that from the first day I worked with him. Of course you want to hang out with Eddie. Plus, well, I, I don’t know Muay Thai,” Buck finishes lamely, well aware that he’s rambling now and not doing himself any favors.

What was all that? It’s like once he started speaking he couldn’t stop. And how many times had he said Eddie’s name? God, he’s a disaster.

“I can teach you,” Tommy offers.

So maybe all hope isn’t lost after all. “Okay,” Buck says, not taking the offer entirely seriously. “Is that going to be right after our flying lessons?”

“Probably not on the same day,” Tommy admits. There it is again, that natural way of playing off Buck’s tone and mannerisms, matching him tit for tat not just in emotional moments but in joking ones as well, never missing a beat.

Buck thinks that he wouldn’t mind spending an entire day with Tommy. Hell, he wouldn’t mind spending multiple days with Tommy. In fact… that’s all Buck’s wanted all along. Buck’s first offer to grab a drink was turned down because of Tommy’s plans with Eddie, and then all of his free time since then also being taken up by Eddie…

“Yeah,” Buck says slowly. He’s staring now, longer than he should, but he can’t help it. His mouth hangs open slightly while every disjointed thought seems to click together at once. “Just… trying to get your attention has been kind of exhausting.”

There it is.

“My attention?” Tommy seems as surprised by the revelation as Buck is, but it’s out there now and Buck doesn’t want to take it back. “Yeah, I guess so, uh…” What does he say now? What else can he say? “I mean I, I did maim my best friend.” That sure isn’t it, but it’s what comes out. Now that the moment of clarity has passed he’s filled with panic, and with panic comes rambling. What he can’t do is let an uncomfortable silence ruin everything because he had to go and have a revelation out loud in front of the guy it was about. “My sister says there are better ways to get someone’s attentio-”

The word is muffled by Tommy’s lips on his. First there’s a gentle touch of Tommy’s fingers lifting Buck’s chin up to just the right angle, and then they’re kissing. It happens so fast, but once it’s happening Buck feels like he’s been waiting forever for it, somehow. Maybe not for Tommy specifically, but for this. An opportunity he didn’t know he wanted to seize until he was seizing it.

Buck kisses back without hesitation, leaning into the embrace, bringing his own hand up to the side of Tommy’s arm for a second before letting it fall back down to his side when Tommy steps away. It’s only a few seconds, but Buck finally gets what people say in movies and books about feeling like time stops. He’s never felt like this before, frozen in a moment where everything just feels… right.

“Like that?” Tommy asks. It isn’t flirty or challenging like Buck would expect, but a genuine question, to make sure they were both reading the same signs.

“Yeah, that works.” Buck feels… frozen? No. Rooted. Grounded, in a way he hasn’t in a very long time.

“So that was okay?” Tommy asks with a small smile, and fuck if that slight hesitation doesn’t pull at every single one of Buck’s heartstrings in the best possible way over the fact that Tommy’s checking in on him.

“That was better than fake mouth static,” Buck says. Okay, so maybe the word-vomiting isn’t entirely quelled, but at least it’s toned down in the aftermath of the kiss. Buck can barely think a single cohesive thought right now, let alone come up with enough to properly ramble about.

Buck’s lips curl up at the corners slightly as everything settles within him, like something shifting so slightly but in a way that allows everything around it to fall into perfect alignment. He likes Tommy. Every surge of jealousy, every stray thought he couldn’t figure out, every physical reaction he couldn’t explain away… it all makes sense. He likes Tommy. He’s probably liked other guys… he’s certainly flirted with other guys, though at the time he wrote it off as being his usual charismatic self. But now he has to wonder…

“I got a shift,” Tommy says, the words break through Buck’s quiet reflection. “Okay,” Buck says, already feeling the dread seep into the peace he felt moments before as he braces himself to be left alone again so soon. Maybe this was just an impulsive fluke for Tommy… maybe it didn’t mean anything for him, not the way it did for Buck. “Yeah, across-town traffic - came in a car this time. So what are you doing on Saturday?”

“Uh, S-Saturday?” The whiplash of going from the realization of his own feelings, to the kiss, to Tommy’s sudden need to leave, to asking Buck what he’s doing Saturday has Buck’s head spinning, barely able to keep up.

“You still owe me that beer. You free?” Buck notices the way Tommy tries, and mostly succeeds, to hold back a smile until Buck has the time to answer without feeling any sort of obligation.

Buck, in return, only smiles wider, eager and relieved and nervous, but the good kind of nervous. Like he knows he’s agreeing to something important - maybe not in the grand scheme of things, but certainly for the smaller scale of his immediate existence.

“Yes, I, I, I am free,” Buck confirms, cursing the way he can’t keep from tripping over his words, his mind racing faster than his mouth can keep up with.

“Great,” Tommy turns to leave, talking while he makes his way toward the door. Buck fights the urge to follow him over, to kiss him another time before he leaves just to make sure this is all real. “So let’s say I come by around, I dunno, eight?”

“Yeah, eight is great.” If the fact that Buck’s ability to form words is reduced to elementary rhyming words makes Tommy rethink his decision to ask Buck out, he doesn’t let it show. “Great,” Tommy grins at Buck like Buck is endearing, something fond and sincere in a way that surprises him. “See you Saturday.”

“Saturday.” Buck repeats. It’s all he can manage to show any sign that he’s listening, that he agrees with the plan, because if he opens his mouth any longer he isn’t sure what’s going to come spilling out of it next.

Come back. Stay. Are you sure you have to leave?

Tommy does turn back around, and this time it’s his words that catch Buck off-guard.

“And for God’s sake please call Eddie. Now would be a great time, he’s on pain pills.”

With a laugh that echoes through the apartment, Tommy closes the door behind him, leaving Buck alone in his apartment once more.

He kissed Tommy. Tommy kissed him, and he kissed Tommy back. He likes Tommy… and if Maddie and Chimney’s comments about his earlier outbursts and actions are any indication, he’s shown it at least a little prior to the past 5 minutes, even if his brain hadn’t quite caught up with his emotions.

He has a lot to process, but for now, he just wants to appreciate the fact that everything that just happened felt so… normal. He felt safe, and cared for, and totally at ease in Tommy’s presence. Not just during the kiss, but before and after it, too.

No matter how things play out, he’s become aware of something huge about himself today. Something that’s probably always been there, even if he’s only just acknowledged it. And while he’ll never claim to have it all figured out, he knows enough to appreciate that this is big.

A tear wells up in the lower lid of his eye, hovering there, not quite falling as he realizes he feels lighter than he has in days. Possibly weeks. Potentially ever.

There’s no big deal, no declarations needed, just… him. Just Buck, being who he is, living the truth of his life in that moment.

#evan buckley #tommy kinard #bucktommy #kinley #kinkley #911 on abc #911 spoilers #911 fic #my spouse requested introspection so they got introspection #elle writes a few deadbeat lines #long post

[kravennagen]

Ok, so, I'm ecstatic about 7x04, I'm just so happy it happened. Of course, that's not my endgame relationship but it is perfect!

I just wanna talk about Maddie for a sec', like that girl knew all along that Buck was bi just not aware of it before now. With all her comments about bi Buck over the seasons: the boy crush over Eddie, the setting up with her coworker, the heart in the calendar... (So much more I can't think about right now) and I loved how she was not having Buck showing his jealousy with violence (she knows how that end, of course, she has some strong opinion about it)

And yeah the whole episode is about some kind of jealousy coming from Buck and it was greatly addressed. Because you can feel jealous about everything it doesn't have to be romantic jealousy (yeah I'm talking about the Buddie scenes) and I do think that Buck is really interested in Tommy and that makes sense! Most of us already have a crush, but that doesn't stop us from finding someone else to our taste. Plus Eddie is so out of Buck's mind about sexuality right now. When you spend that much time with someone and you put it in the friendship's box for so long, of course, it's gonna take some time to change your point of view on it. You can love your best friend and never take a step towards a romantic relationship even if somewhere in yourself you see it could be a beautiful romantic one.

We know both Buck and Eddie know they are co-parenting Chris, and spending a lot of time together. They are, they're perfectly in sync with each other so, yeah, when someone puts that relationship on the line you're not gonna like it, especially since it was just the two of them for so long.

And the relationship Tommy x Buck makes so much sense to me, I'm bi myself and I was mostly with the opposite gender because it's easier but when I searched for same-sex relationships I took experienced people for the first time (not everyone's gonna do that obvi) but it was reassuring for me and you can let yourself pushed in the right direction, you can take your time getting to know what you like, you let yourself be swooned by the other and it's perfect. Buck didn't fully know he was attracted to men apparently (even... Duh, you are dude, since the beginning, like just look at 2x01...) but guess what, people lie to themselves without even knowing they're doing it, so yeah. I can buy Buck not knowing men were an option. And then you have this beautiful opportunity with a great guy (super cool, good-looking, doing a lot of activities...) and this guy happens to be gay and out. (I think?) I love that relationship because I do think Tommy is a great guy, I do think he's gonna be perfect for Buck for his first-ever gay relationship.

And can we just talk about how great Tommy is, like yeah, he kissed Buck with his hand under his chin, just a peck but enough to make Buck feel things about it too! And he stopped there! He stopped, I'm sorry but I don't have that much strength in me, I'm not even sure I would have stopped and gone to work that easily... Damn! And even after the kiss, the man asked twice if it was okay? Well, my dude, if it wasn't I think Buck would have pushed you away wayyy sooner, that was a long as fuck kind of kiss! Buck being flustered right after is so cute, I love it, but just look at how Tommy is looking at Buck's shirt when he asks him on a date, yeah clearly Tommy wants a naked Buck right away but he still stopped himself! What a great guy, he knew Buck wasn't very aware of his own flirting (with all the smiles, the questions, the interest... Ah damn Buck you're so oblivious of yourself!). That's what makes it so special for me.

I really want this relationship to continue for the whole season, I do think it's great, that Buck gets the time to explore, and we see a bit more of Tommy (which I kind of like). Eddie's still in a relationship with Marisol and I don't want Buck and Eddie to jump their bones just because Buck has a boyfriend, I want them to find that: hey we do everything together already, I really like you and oh damn, lately you make my d*ck hard so why not try a romantic relationship together? Like, I'm pretty sure if Buddie becomes canon they'll see it doesn't change that much, they'll just kiss instead of tapping each other's shoulders...

What I want too in this season, is for Buck to notice other guys. So Tommy is kind of his type (no shit... Army guy, muscles, sporty blahblahblah) it makes Eddie his type too, I want some "oh moment" like damn, he's sexy, even if he's in a relationship (doesn't mean you can't look) and then guys on calls too. Because Buck just opened that door and now he's gonna see a lot of other people under a new light. I want that, I want him to explore, and find out what he likes or doesn't, I want a whole arc about Buck finding what was missing in him. Because it is a journey, it's not a one-time thing, it's a whole new world right in front of him and it's awesome!

Even if Tommy doesn't stay (no one said you can't be friends with your exes (especially in the LGBTQ+ community)... But whatever) and even if Buck ends up with a woman after (He Is Still Bi, it's a possibility) I'm already glad it happened, I want more obviously, and at some point I'd really like to have some Buddie even if it's gonna be difficult because Eddie has been straight his whole life and he does the "right thing" if you know what I mean: marrying the first girl you date, having a kid with that same one, going into relationships and staying in it because his son likes them... Eddie's open about other's sexuality but not so much about himself, plus what would make sense. I could see Bi Buck from season 1 (I don't know, the vibe maybe?) but in all honesty I see it less in Eddie, so maybe something like demisexuality? And even there it doesn't quite add up with the relationships he already had (except for Shanon but the others not so much, at least it wasn't shown that way to me). But guess what? I'm not the writers if they want to put Buddie (And I hope they do) they'll find a way (even if Eddie has just a thing for Buck it'll be fine to me, no one else but you) but if they don't I'm just gonna read and read some beautiful fanfic about them! Because they are together in my head and no one can take that from me. I want a freaking slow burn between them.

Anyway, I think I started to ramble a bit in this post. Look what you're doing to me ABC! You can disagree or not I don't care, in a few words: I think 7x04 was well-written and well-played. I want more of Tommy x Buck (because they're freaking cute!) and I want a lot more of self-discovering and I hope for some Buddie, can't take that from me too. So... Now I'm gonna re-watch that scene for the hundredth time...

#eddie x buck #911 buddie #911 abc #tommy x buck #season 7 #911 7x04 #bi buck #911 spoilers #maddie buckley

[buttercupbuck]

Just wanted to say it’s nice to see that you’re open about Buck and Tommy and Bi Buck without Eddie. The things I’ve seen some people say, it’s just insane and icky. I’m not saying people have to love Tommy or even Buck and Tommy but it’s so strange how even the idea of Buck being into Tommy or figuring out and exploring his sexuality through Tommy is making so many people so upset. To me, this only increases the possibility of buddie while allowing Buck to have his own moment and hopefully, Eddie to have his own moment down the line. Also, frankly I’m excited about the idea of Buck and Tommy. Not as endgame but as whatever it’ll be. Just seeing Buck in that one clip with Tommy felt more exciting than any of his recent relationships. I’m so here for Buck facing the unknown and unfamiliar - challenging himself and going through the motions as they come rather than forcing feelings (as he’s done in the past).

yeah like i'm honestly shocked by how upset people are about this storyline and i just don't get it tbh. i don't get how buck discovering and exploring his queerness has been turned into this big bad thing, even though it's what we've been wanting for years.

the fact that he's not exploring it directly with eddie at the very start of it doesn't lessen their relationship at all, and it's just odd for people to have so much hate for a queer storyline for buck that doesn't involve him immediately getting together with eddie. i'd much rather give the characters the needed room and freedom to flesh out these storylines than just rush them getting together for the sake of it but idk. it kind of reminds me when people hated 'in another life' because it didn't have enough buddie, even though it was a great episode for buck's arc. at the end of the day, i don't think that a lot of people genuinely care about the characters, or honoring the queerness of it all, etc. they just want their two favs to get together and that's it

#also it's annoying that just bc things aren't happening according to THEIR plan they freak out #like you are not a writer for this show! and thankfully for good reason #the writers have to be concerned with ALL of the show's characters and making sure they honor those storylines #they don't exist to just fulfill your wishes on your timeline #ask #anon

[lover-of-mine]

Thank you! That helped sort out some of the pieces. I just keep going round & round in my head and then I'll read some new post with some new insight & it's great but also terrible because it's all making me crazy because I have no idea what's going to happen. There's so much potential for growth and like a really good storyline for both Buck & Eddie individually which could lead to a really good Buddie canon storyline but there's also, like, so much potential for that to not happen, too, you know?

And while I like Tommy & am interested to see BuckTommy play out more, I do ultimately still want Buddie. So I keep fluctuating between nervous excitement & nervous anxiety. (And feeling weirdly guilty about it all but that's whatever).

So, thanks for helping me feel less crazy & more validated. I appreciate it! Your insights are always more grounded and thoughtful.

Here's the thing, I don't care about Tommy, call me boring, yell at me for monoshipping, but this is a buddie only household, so for me Tommy is there and considering the way the show treats love interest for both Buck and Eddie, I have very low expectations, I don't know enough about him to care and I don't like some aspects that I will not discuss here, so he's there, so I'm trying to stay objective about the way he's gonna be treated. I'm also making my peace with the fact that there's a real chance the show is gonna fumble both bucktommy and buddie. There's a chance bucktommy will accomplish nothing besides making Buck make out with a guy and that they will address nothing that's wrong with buddie and just magically get them together towards the end. Because the show has not addressed big issues in the past, like all the work madney put into getting back together happened off screen. Sometimes you just gotta go the pessimistic route. This storyline has a lot of potential, but I'm not sure I trust the show to follow through with it in the most satisfying way possible, so I'm keeping my feet on the ground and enjoying the fact that Buck is bi. But I'm happy to provide a different perspective. Unless it's on something I really don't wanna talk about, because I've been getting a few asks that get me all "yeah I don't wanna go there" but I will try to help if I can.

#i really need a tag for asks #anon 😌 #911

[sevensoulmates]

so if tommy/buck is done after the next episode which is what I'm gathering based on what Lou said it begs the question why does Tommy decide to end it, could it be that Tommy knows who Buck is in love with and vocalizes it to him? I could see that happening, and then Buck spends the rest of the season trying to figure out his feelings for Eddie and Tommy may comeback to push him towards Eddie and by the finale he realizes himself he's in love with Eddie.

I think Tommy could come back later in the season but the Buck/Tommy romance is ending the next episode, why I got a guess based on how Buddie are in the promo all over each other during the bachelor party.

Again, gotta reiterate that we don't fully know bucktommy is done in episode 6. It could be, or it could just be them being like hey let's slow things down, or it could be just that Lou hasn't had the conversations yet about additional episodes. I really don't know.

We also don't know if TOMMY is gonna be the one to put a break on things. It could be Buck, we never know.

And if it IS Tommy, his reasonings could be that Buck has feelings for someone else, or it could be more vague along the lines of "you're heart is not fully in this". 911 is being very vague about everything regarding bucktommy so I can't really say for sure.

But in the end, I think it's more going to be about how Buck has never fully been "in it" with Tommy. From "my attention?" to "Yeah, I guess so" to everything we just saw in 7x05, I think Tommy's going to realize that Buck's likely not his forever person and he doesn't want to continue in a relationship that's going nowhere. I think that's a great lesson for Buck (Eddie too) to learn, and I'd be proud of Tommy for doing it.

#911 abc #speculation #it's really hard to guess about what's going to happen with bucktommy in the next episode and beyond #but I do think they'll end at some point this season #bucktommy

[miggydiaz]

An additional thought...

Even though Buddie still is my endgame, I am pretty sure I would've been more on board with EddieTommy than I am with BuckTommy in the short term.

Not to say I am anti BuckTommy because I'm truly not. I think in another time, they could be really good together. But honestly, I think Buck needs to not be in a relationship for a little while. It's been Abby, then Taylor, then Ali, then Taylor, then Lucy, then Taylor, then Natalia...

And one of Buck's biggest character traits is that he feels he needs to go above and beyond to make himself worthwhile of love and attention. He thinks that if he's not giving all of himself to someone/something, if he's not doing THE MOST, that he's expendable. IMO, I think Buck really needs to work on learning to love himself and accept that other people can love him for just being him, without him having to turn himself into whatever he thinks they need or risk life and limb to earn that love. And that's a journey you take on your own, with your therapist, with your chosen family and friends who have been there to love and support you... it's not something you figure out through romantic relationships.

Buck's issues with relationship aren't that he can't find someone who will love him and appreciate him for who he is. It's that Buck hasn't figured out how to love and appreciate himself first. And no romantic relationship is going to fix that. It could *help* him figure it out, especially if he's with someone who has bore witness to Buck's chronic low self-esteem and has always (although maybe not always as gently as he should) tried to dispel Buck of those notions... but in the end, that lesson has to be one that Buck learns on his own. Which I don't think he's ever going to do, especially if he keeps looking for love and acceptance from romantic partners to fill that void. I think EddieTommy would've worked better just because Eddie is at a different place in his journey than Buck is. Eddie's problem isn't feeling like he's not enough anymore. Once upon a time, it was (his conversation with Bobby after Shannon died and his devastation that before she died, she told him she wanted a divorce). But now, Eddie's issue is he keeps trying to recreate the same dynamic he had with Shannon because he thinks that's what is correct for him. He's romanticized a lot of his relationship with Shannon -- and I say that as someone who truly believes he loved her and was in love with her -- and he's trying to get back to that brief stint of time where the two of them and Chris were happy. And because that looks very specific to him, he's trying to find a woman who can slide into that place in his life. The one who makes him want to wrap his arms around her and his boy on Christmas morning, and makes his heart squeeze every time he looks at pictures of her.

But Eddie's trying to recreate something that never existed in the first place. Not in the way his brain has romanticized it anyway. Because underneath those feelings of wistful melancholy, he and Shannon still had real problems that they never worked through. Shannon knew that, which is why she asked for a divorce. But to Eddie, who was ready to re-propose to her, things were good again. If Shannon hadn't have died, I think Eddie would've realized that wasn't the case, but since she did die... he can just hold onto that idea of them. The one where things were good and could have eventually been perfect, just like things could be perfect again if only he could find a new Shannon.

He needs someone to shock him right out of that 'doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results is the definition of insanity' situation he keeps finding himself in, and you know who would've been really great for that? Tommy. Full on record scratch moment for him. Simply *because* Tommy is a man.

Now, do I think Eddie also has a notion that he's in love with his best friend? Yeah, I do. I just don't think he realizes that's what it is yet. Right now Buck is... Buck. The person who shows up for Eddie, and for Christopher, the person who dragged him to safety after being shot, the person who was there when he had his breakdown, the person he couldn't even look at when they were dying in the hospital because he cannot deal with that level of loss again. I think, somewhere in his mind, Eddie knows that Buck is MORE than just a best friend... he just doesn't have the vocabulary to really name what that thing is. Primarily because he's trapped in this very Catholic idea of what sex and family and romance should look like for himself.

Tommy would've been a safe person to jar him out of those notions -- that his family and his romantic life has to look this certain way because that's what it looked like before -- because Tommy already disrupts that thinking just by being a man. It forces Eddie to consider that maybe his ideas of what a perfect family for him should look like aren't the end all be all. And, if Eddie freaks out, or it doesn't work out, it doesn't hurt his friendship with Buck at all. It may, in fact, help Eddie figure out that while he's not going to have that kind of relationship with Tommy, he's already got that relationship he's been looking for... it's just with BUCK, who he never consciously considered as an option because Buck is a man. I know there's no going back now, because BuckTommy is a thing, and Eddie is trapped in Catholic hangups hell with M*risol, but the more I think about it, the more bummed I am that this wasn't the route they took. I hope Eddie still gets a queer story arc, and I obviously hope Buddie is endgame, but damn, we really could've had EddieTommy helping Eddie figure out how to put a name to the thing he's had for Buck forever and Buck acting like an insane person until he figured out that who he's really in love with is the person who always makes him feel like he's enough and not expendable, the person who accepts him for exactly who he is and indulges all of his quirks and doesn't ask him to change a thing.

#911 #buddie #eddietommy #teddie #anti bucktommy #eddie diaz #even though it's really not because I do think they're fun together #I just don't think it's as strong as a narrative as the other way around would've been #but maybe it'll grow on me more

[glorious-spoon]

to loosen his grip [9-1-1 | Buck/Eddie]

~1k words | eddie & tommy; pre-relationship eddie/buck

spec fic for 7x04

-

The thing is, Eddie's not stupid.

Eddie's not stupid, and Buck's about as subtle as a brick to the face on a good day. He can't help it. Everything he's feeling comes spilling out of him; keeping it inside seems as impossible for him as holding the tide back with a leaky sieve. It's not something Eddie relates to that much, honestly. If anything, he's got the opposite problem. He crushes everything he's feeling into a tight little knot and holds onto it with white knuckles until he can't hold on anymore. It lost him Shannon—would have lost him Shannon even if she'd lived—and it nearly lost him both his job and his sanity in the end. He's still learning how to loosen his grip.

Buck still needs to learn how to get a grip, like, at all.

So yeah, Eddie knows. Not right away; he doesn't really think anything of it when he picks Tommy up from the hanger and Buck is there. In the truck, he watches Buck's receding figure in the rearview mirror for a moment before Tommy says, "Not trying to poach Evan from the 118, I promise."

He's laughing about it a little bit. Eddie scoffs and says, "Buck? You'd have to pry him out of that house before he'd go anywhere else."

He doesn't mention the lawsuit. That's water long under the bridge now, and it's not a time in his life he likes to think back on that much. But he knows it's true; Buck can say whatever he wants about keeping his options fluid, but when he finds people and a place he wants to keep, he hangs onto them.

Tommy is good company, anyway. It's something he's missed, since the Army: the easy camaraderie over beers, sitting in a shouting crowd in Vegas, shooting the shit in a bar afterward. Tommy's got a lift, and he brings his abuelo's Chevelle over, and it's an easy slide from that into a half-casual bout of muay thai, and Eddie has missed that, too: sparring just for fun, just for the hell of it, not for the money or because his demons were going to claw themselves out of his chest with bloody nails otherwise.

"See you've caught some lead," Tommy observes once they're done, bruised and a little breathless, shirtless on the bench in his garage. Eddie caps his Gatorade and glances up, and for a second he doesn't even know what Tommy is talking about until he nods at Eddie's right shoulder and asks, "That from overseas?"

Eddie touches the bullet scar, a long-healed dimple by now. It's not that noticeable anymore, at least from the front. The surgical scars from his thoracotomy are still more obvious, but even they've faded.

"Oh, no," he says. "I mean, yeah, I did, but this one was right here in L.A."

"Right, the sniper," Tommy agrees. "Shit. I remember seeing that Captain Nash caught a bullet. Didn't realize you were the other one from his house that got shot."

"Yeah, well." Eddie shrugs, uncapping his Gatorade again. "It was a long time ago."

He likes that, too. Talking about it with someone who never saw the bullet hole, only the scar. Talking about it with someone who's never had his blood in his mouth, who never knelt above him in a speeding truck and begged him to hang on.

He lied to Buck about it, because Buck's so close to it that he might as well have been shot too. It's easier like this, because Tommy isn't wounded by the memory; Tommy shrugs and asks if he wants to grab a pizza after this, and Eddie slings a towel over his shoulder and lets Tommy pull him to his feet, and they have pizza and a couple more beers, and it's easy. He's missed easy. He thinks he deserves to have something easy, for a change.

-

"I mean, I think it's great," Buck says, apropos of pretty much exactly nothing a couple of days later. "You can never have too many friends, you know?"

He's vibrating with that exact same anxious energy that Eddie remembers from his first day at the 118, when Buck seemed one wrong move away from pissing on the exercise equipment or maybe shoving him down the stairs. It awakens some puckish little part of Eddie that can't help but needle him. You're standing in the wrong light, man, as if he's ever in his life had an opinion about photography lighting, but it got Buck to bristle and snap like a wounded dog, all electric fury, and Eddie liked that, too, for reasons that he understands better now than he did back then.

So he shrugs, and he says lightly, "You know, it's like that thing when you meet somebody and you just click. You know what I mean?"

It's a jab, and not a very subtle one. He still remembers standing in the sunlight and listening to Buck tell him that Natalia saw him, after Eddie watched him hang there in the rain and felt his chest unmoving beneath his palms and sat through those endless hours in the fucking hospital waiting for him to wake up. After Eddie brought him home, and listened to his quiet confession in his kitchen, and tried as well as he knew how to hold Buck's still-beating heart gently.

But sure. Natalia saw him. For all of four months, apparently.

He thinks he wants Buck to flinch and snap back, just a little. It's not the place for it—they're in the middle of a goddamn call—but he's stupid about Buck. Always has been.

Buck doesn't flinch. He sags instead, his mouth downturned, and he mutters, "Yeah. Yeah, I really do."

And it's something they should talk about, maybe, but then Ravi calls up for more slack, and there are other things to focus on for the time being.

#911 #911 spoilers #911 speculation #buddie #eddie diaz #evan buckley #tommy kinard #petty eddie? petty eddie #sliding this one JUUUUST under the wire lol #my fic

[ickletheficklepickle]

Okay-

I love Buddie, Buddie Stan here. Fan. Love this ship.

But at the moment I am totally loving Kinkley (looks like that’s the name we have gone with). I kind of like that Buck is going through this journey but it’s not with Eddie.

Prepare for a tangent and some overshare.

1. Because right now Eddie has his own shit to work out. Which really isn’t fair to Buck, who just uncovered something new about himself. And Eddie needs to catch up. I would very much like Buck to be able to show that this is who he is. Not that Eddie would make Buck hide this part of himself. But he is a walking disaster, who I think would freak out and pull away, simply out of fear.

As someone who is a late bloomer and had a crisis at 26, then tamped that shit down, because this occurred to me after Easter Vigil Mass and I was like “NO, no way” that was mostly the fear. And this was around the same time I started to pull away from the church. That Catholic Guilt hits you.

Then like 10 years later, I had a revelation with my friend who helped me realize this part of myself, took some liquid courage to have this conversation. But even after i hard this revelation, it took another couple of months for me to be “oh! That makes so much more sense.” Then thanks to the power of TikTok, hearing it from someone else and have them explain it, the light bulb went off. And I was like, “yeah, yeah that makes so much more sense!”

But my friend that day i had that revelation was like “be proud of you! Fuck other people and what they think!” But for me that really a hard thing to unpack and uncover at first but then as we got talking, it all made sense. And even then when i discovered that part of myself it took time for me to actually say that shit out loud, because it was so new still. I still haven’t let all of the people in my life in on this part of me yet, but it’ll come.

I’m loving that Buck is on this journey and had this realization and he is happy. Like look at the difference with him with Tommy vs. past relationships. He seems so different.

I truly hope that they go this route with Eddie and have him go through this epiphany. I still think the chemistry between him and Marisol is so weird. At first I thought it was adorable, but he still often looks at Buck with heart eyes. But for now, I really want Eddie to figure himself out first before he and Buck become something.

2. Yes, Tommy did leave Buck standing there, but Tommy did it for Buck’s sake. He could see that he is still figuring things out and doesn’t want to pressure him. Which excuse, me, how cute is that. He didn’t want Buck to feel uncomfortable. Like, as someone who has a hard time standing up for herself, I wish someone would be like “if you don’t want to do this, it’s okay I won’t be mad!” And then truly not be mad. Cause that’s a whole another thing to uncover- different tangent.

And Buck likes Tommy, he is smitten with him and vice versa and they are cute together. It’s not the same feel and chemistry that Buck has with Eddie but I think this something that could be great for Buck. If they end up being Endgame, i wouldn’t be disappointed, because we still won in the aspect, of Buck being Bi as a canon event.

3. And Tommy is great, because is very much interested in Buck, whom he calls Evan. Which is a totally different thing to unpack here because notice how Buck never corrects him. Like why is that?! Do I hate it! No, I don’t. I need him to call Buck, Evan in front of everyone else and have them look affronted because they are like “Wait! When did you get EVAN privileges!”

In conclusion, Tommy is smart, he picked up on Buck and his comfort level. Was confused for a second when Buck was like “your attention?” Because i mean we all thought he was trying to get Eddie’s attention. And I’m sure Tommy thought that too, and then was like “oh, so it was me, I’m going for it then!”. I’m sure he will pick up on this energy/charge/thingy/look that Buck and Eddie have. That they probably don’t even realize. Also because Lou is a menace and doesn’t know how to handle interviews it looks like he isn’t sticking around for long (4 episodes coool, I’m down). Which makes me sad.

I think Tommy will notice that, and be like “Evan, I like you and it’s clear that you like me, but are you sure you aren’t in love with Eddie?”

Which would be a nice “oh” moment for Buck. Then Eddie will catch up, which is my hope.

Ryan has been a menace to when it comes to interviews. They are about to lock these men up in PR jail haha.

ALSO! I DO NOT WANT BUCK TO CHEAT ON TOMMY! OKAY! THAT IS NOT OKAY! AT ALL!

That’s it, that’s my soap box. My two cents.

#911 abc #911 spoilers #ickle rants #tangents

[youngbloodlisk]

9-1-1 and Lone Star reactions (2 days late cause i was so busy this week)

5/11/22 (aired 5/9/22)

9-1-1 (Hero Complex)

GUILLOTINES ARE COOL AS HELL actually

banger music man

captions just said "Young Jonah" YO? Okay

oh my god yeah i just remembered how last week's episode ended OH MY GOD IM SO EXCITED

god corinne massiah is so pretty

"Feels like it should be somebody's fault" and judging by the preview for this episode last week i'm gonna guess it is !

chim and hen my fave bffs i wanna be their friend

OH THE SPIDER GUY OH YEAH...... oh my goddd

UGH I MISSED THESE TWO TOGETHER when chim wasn't on the show while he was looking for maddie i missed him and hen being the best friends EVER soooooo much

no I'm never gonna not mention the chemistry and tension between eddie and buck Sorry

PRE LONE STAR COMMENT CAN I PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE GET SOME MARJAN THIS EPISODE I FUCKING MISS MY GIRLFRIEND....,,,.....back to 9-1-1

wait wtf is bobby's password rewind

NashBby_118 i mean okay but- Yeah. Okay

chim wiping the desk of prints with his sleeve is so funny

"You're a terrible liar."

"And you're too good." LMAO

chim and hen are so funny

"They never start with murder."

"I'm sorry, Pat, I'm gonna need to buy a vowel."

THEYRE SO FUNNY I LOVE THEM 10/10 comfort characters right here

this is such an interesting plotline I love it

no cause honestly? go off eddie speak the truth good job

taylor annoys me more every goddamn episode!!!

please tell me she runs the story and buck gets rightfully pissed and he dumps her PLEASE I WANT TAYLOR OUT OF HERE

wait but that would probably lead to buck and lucy being a thing. nvm there's no win here

OHMYGOD HEN

CHIM?? OH NONONONONO

Stop Oh no no no no

i always forget that kenneth choi has 사랑 tattooed on his chest but i love it every time i see it the font looks so pretty

this guy is so unbelievably psychotic my god

yes chim YES CHIMNEY YES

GO HOWARD

okay actually crying i love these two

BEAT HIS ASS BOBBY

taylor you BITCH.......

chim sucking down a capri-sun yes sir!

"You're the best friend I've ever had, Chim, and I can't imagine my life without you."

"And you're never gonna have to."

cue the waterfalls from my eyes

9-1-1: Lone Star (Spring Cleaning)

okay the ad before the episode is playing. cmon marjan give me marjan please even just a little bit of marjan. please let this episode have some marjan

oh i have a bad feeling abt this trash chute.

oh no no no Oh no dude don't do that- and down he goes

MARJANNNNNNNNN MY LOVEEEEEEEE

one second of her beautiful voice and i am a happy person

OH GOD OH NO THE COMPACTOR?

mateo with the fix thank god love him

OH MY FUCKING GOD IS THAT COACH BOLTON.

BART JOHNSON?? It says 2 episodes on IMDB did i just totally MISS him being in another episode idk whatever IM SO EXCITED BART YOU KING HI

nANCY? can i call this wlw erasure cause she's so absolutely a lesbian (im playing around dont jump me)

mateo ✨avoiding✨

CATANNNNN great game. Great game

damn maybe if mateo and nancy communicated like couples should do idk

tommy???? goddamn???? alright maam go off

catan IS spicy tk you're so right

oh this is already terrifying my anxiety is already through the roof this seems like a bad bad bad situation

OH NO ITS IN NEUTRAL oh my god

"Hulk smash." MATEO 😭

oh that was so clever. getting him arrested that was so clever thank god

wtf why is he getting picked on for dressing nice 😭 better to be overdressed than underdressed ur not too good for a suit man cmon

i need to kiss marjan on the mouth

HELP THEYRE ALL LIKE didn't see that coming uhhh

this is so sweet

"coffee" yeah okay go on go bang it out

julius is sweet :(((((

judd what on earth are you abt to do.

oh bad feeling. gas leak + judd in the elevator ? Sounds like a recipe for a stuck elevator?

THE BUIKDING JSTFUCKINGGG COLLAPSED okay so I was a LITTLE UNDERESTIMATING THIS CLIFFHANGER.... WOW

goddamn

Final Comments

right okay so next week's gonna be a fun week i am excited

i got to see two of my favorite things:

- chim and hen being the iconic duo they are

- marjan

good week of 9-1-1 for me !

#gay firefighter show #911 on fox #911 lone star #may grant #howard han #henrietta wilson #buddie #911 buddie #evan buckley #eddie diaz #bobby nash #marjan marwani #did I mention marjan is my girlfriend #cause she is #anyways back to tagging characters I mentioned #mateo chavez #bart johnson #coach bolton the legend #anyways #nancy gillian #tommy vega #tk stand #wyatt harris #judd ryder