#I thought I still had posts in the queue????

[do-you-know-this-queer-character]

Updates, Apologies, and Moving Forward!

Hello everyone! I am not dead, and this blog is not dead. I know I've been gone for a very long time again, and I'm very sorry.

I had to say goodbye to my cat, my emotional support animal, my baby. I won't say too much here, but she was suffering, and unfortunately there was nothing that could be done. My mental health is fragile at the best of times, and while I am okay and safe, it has been a difficult few months for me. I am also a full-time college student with a job, so all of my free hours were spent in grief. It's taken me a while to feel alright enough to come back, but here I am. I'm still passionate about queer representation in media, and I want to continue to share queer characters with the tumblr community. Starting tomorrow, I will resume the 8 times a day posting schedule that I was starting to utilize before my disappearance, as queueing posts makes my life much easier. I'm sorry if I don't respond to notes or asks left during my break. It's a lot to sort through and I value community engagement on this blog more than anything but I am just one person and I can only do so much. Feel free to re-send asks! Going forward, I'll be making a few changes. I am working on a publicly available google sheet of all characters that have been posted on this blog with results that I will link in a visible place so that people wanting to submit a character can (hopefully) quickly search to make sure that character hasn't been posted yet. I also will eventually be looking for another mod, although that will not be until the summer and I will make more posts when the time comes. I will personally be awol for the last few weeks of may and the first few weeks of june due to a job opportunity out of the country, but I am intending to have queued posts continuing to upload at the regular schedule during that time. Unfortunately this means I won't be able to edit mistakes or answer questions, but hopefully any issues can be addressed when I return. Thank you all for your patience, I'm sorry that this radio silence has gone on for so long, but I've thought about this blog a lot during my absence and I'm certain that it's not a project I'm giving up on any time soon.

#update #not a poll

[overheard-at-nrc]

Something or other about gamers.

#I thought I still had posts in the queue???? #Honey I'm going back to the cringe factory #(in the tone of a working husband telling his wife that he's leaving for work in the 1920s) #(as they do) #... I'll just tag the post #idia shroud #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland meme #twisted wonderland textpost #twst #twst meme #twst textpost

[ourstarscollided]

#julie and the phantoms #pls have this meme #woke up this morning and the news from the convention were REAL #and im still not okay about it 😭 #like WHAT DO YOU MEAN WE EERR SUPPOSED TO HAVE 5 SEsons. FIVE. THATS FOUR MORE SEASONS OF ORIGINAL MUSIC AND JUKE AND THE MOLINA FAMILY AND #SIGNS SISJJS #i literally found out the news last night while playing board games and drinking with my friends and straight up started crying because i wa #so emotional about it. i thought I WAS OKAY EITH NOT KNOWING HOW JATP ENDS BUT NOW IM EVEN MORE MAD THAT IT WAS CANCELLED AND KENNY WASNT #ABLE TO BUY THE RIGHTS TO IT AND I JUST. #but mainly im so happy we get this kind of closure and it must not have been easy for kenny and the producers to have had known this info #and idk. im just glad this is the closure we got. #also madi in the stand tsll jacket? ohmygod. #also hello from the dead aka my queue. #text post

[andrewscottsource]

Hey all! It's been a very long time since I made a post on this blog (I do keep an eye on everything from afar) but I wanted to share something really cool and very special that happened!

Over the weekend I went to MCM Comic Con in London and I had the privilege of meeting Andrew Scott (I still can't quite believe it!)

He was so SO lovely and the entire experience was just amazing. I got to gush about how much I love his work and how much it helped me through some of my own life experiences being Bi and Trans - he listened so intently to everything I had to say and asked me so many questions, it was just wonderful to have that time with him and I feel very lucky.

After we had a chat he signed the beautiful print above for me and took such care in writing me a lovely message that just really warmed my heart. He really is just such a wonderful caring person and I will pass on to you all what he said to me as I left his table: "Don't stop making your tribe bigger." Surround yourself with people who can support you and who you can support in turn, love people and be loved because there can never be too much love in the world. I know how kind-hearted you all are, and I couldn't be more thankful for this little space we've created in our corner of the internet.

Thank you all.

Love and Hugs,

Max

#andrew scott #text #i cant remember the tagging system i set up for this blog sorry holly LOL #he truly is one of the most wonderful people ive ever had the pleasure to meet #also yes i told him about the blog #i mentioned it in passing and he asked me a few questions about it so he knows it exists now haha #thank you all for reading this post and still being here all these years after i made the blog! #i wish my thoughts had been more coherent when i met him yesterday #but thats what i get for standing in queues for a combined 9 hours the day before

[ghostoffuturespast]

Being a writer is weird.

#it's tough fighting that human visual bias on a platform like this #my queue ran out and i haven't posted any vp because i was trying to crank out that last chapter for my long fic #and like i get it maybe most people aren't interested in reading it #different strokes for different folks #but like the discrepancy between how people interact with photo vs writing posts is wildly disheartening sometimes #and i've been see-sawing back and forth all day about this #riding high and wallowing in the mud #this is literally the creative project that i've been pouring myself into for the past month and a half every spare moment i have #and i've been doing this for the past year and a half #it's weird pouring so much love into something when the vast majority of people won't even give it two seconds #i love writing but it is also a mentally exhausting craft and people don't seem to acknowledge that for some reason #it's why i try to reblog stuff from my writing mutuals when i see it because it's usually the artwork that gets the least amount of love #anyway just felt like getting that off my chest #i'm sure my fellow writers can commiserate too #i'm not mad or anything i just had thoughts and perhaps voicing them is better then stewing on them i suppose #also i feel bad for not reading more stuff from other people but i've got like zero beans to give atm #no need to worry or anything i'm still gonna keep writing and posting my shit #more vp comin in over the weekend #also god the new tumblr ui for desktop is fucking ugly absolutely atrocious #man i really don't want to have to set up shop on another social media outlet it's tiresome #i don't want to keep up i just want to blog in peace

[kellystar321]

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#periodical life updates #man the second artfight ends someone remind me to start working on my selfship blog FOR REAL. i keep putting it off but i have so many #things to post about my little f/os oguhg </3 wanna make it look all pretty first and draw all the little things for it :> #anyway hi happy artfight!! my drawing tablet broke </3 im working on attacks with my sib's tablet. i am trying very hard. #i have some things queued to post though its mostly easy things and things i already had tags for in my drafts #im so. tired. feeling a little inadequate because it feels like i cant keep up with anything. im behind on af attacks and talking to people #and my queue and sht (i have so many drafts) and i want to do everything and im gwaughhh that i cant #but i know its just ''dont trust anything after 9 pm'' thoughts. im doing well. im making progress. i literally made a spreadsheet and can #visibly track the progress im making. im working on 25+ attacks. im trying. i give myself a lot of work and im doing my best #almost 4 am oh no! still gotta brush my teeth; thats why im still awake really otherwise id be snork mimimi-ing it up <3 #changed my discord avatar to an attack my friend moss drew for me <3 its of my boy stickers i love him!! #tomorrow im gonna work on a background for one of my animated pieces maybe <3 #hm... do i have any other updates... man i guess thats it :P #i love you <33 hope you're all well <3

[usermoon]

and for you i keep my legs apart and forget about my tainted heart

#sims #ts4 #edit #ts4 edit #sims edit #anika dove #fun lil weird formatting mmmmm #idk thought id do something a lil different #i like it i think #ts4 photo #ts4 photography #ts4 photoshoot #ive been neglecting my blog #ive had story posts sitting in my drafts and ive just forgotten to queue them #and then i has an art/edit block for a bit until i thought this uo #still didnt go exactly as i planned #but then again almost none of my edits do and sometimes i like them more than the original idea #update from the day i finally decide to post this: it’s been sitting in my drafts for months so here i go #it’s not that great but here’s some content #myedits

[darkdragon768]

I think I'll take a step away from fanart and do more art of animals, creatures and the like.

I think it has been stressing me out and animals will help me calm down.

#dragon's stupid thoughts #I had planned to finish the bonus parts before I post other stuff but... #i think I'll just roll my queue out and come back whenever I feel like it #i will still consume and reblog fanart #just me as an artist take a step back #... #I still have some english homework I have to do oops

[crescentfool]

I BRIEFLY MISTAGGED A PERSONA 3 POST AS SPLATOON IM GOING TO MELT OFF THE FACE OF THE EARTH

knew it was going to happen one day 🤧 i fixed it now but because i’m losing my mind from embarrassment i’m letting the entire dash know of my misgivings 👍

also if any of you have ever mistagged shit while rb-ing from me don’t worry. it makes me laugh and sometimes we just are typing tags really fast that we forget to think.

#lizzy speaks #I HAVE ALWAYS THOUGHT 'ONE OF THESE DAYS IM GONNA MISTAG PERSONA 3 OR SPLATOON OR FE3H AS ONE OR THE OTHER' #IT FINALLY FUCKING HAPPENED AND IM GOING TO CRY. SORRY TO THE OP OF THE POST WHO HAD TO SEE THAT. #the things mass rb-ing does to a mfer #but in other news i finally got rid of all my tumblr tabs! did you guys know i had like 100 tabs of tumblr open for like several months. #love this site though its the one place where its socially acceptable 2 come across an old post and reblog it or queue it months later #anyway to shed off my excess energy im going to slap people with my inkbrush in the funny lil squid game yipee #i promise im still alive im just tired and always in a washing machine

[blackbutler-readerinsertsandjunk]

I haven't done anything tonight yet bc I rediscovered Guitar Hero (damn I feel old XD)

but good news is I've only got 16 things left to do! by tomorrow, I should have more things in the queue than are left to be done, which is always a good feeling

I still have a little ways to go but DAMN I should have the askbox open in about a week! I'm so freaking excited <3

#mod post #my hands hurt tho idk if it's still eczema or if it's dry skin or what but they're cracking and painful #esp across my palm and on the webbing between my thumbs and first fingers? it SUCKS bc like obv you use your hands for everything #I'm a lil angy about it but I'm managing #also on shark week AND haven't had any ibuprofen in almost a week when I used to take it at least once a day for headaches #so I'm in a little pain but I'm trying to power thru bc I'm worried that my headaches are rebound headaches from taking ibuprofen so much #ALSO BITCHES????? BITCHES FNAF MOVIE DROPS ON FRIDAYYYY #me and Mom are gonna watch it on Saturday after I get out of work... WITH PIZZA AND WINGS!!!! #that thought is getting me through the rest of the week dammit #really looking forward to it #ANYWAY SORRY I RAMBLED IN THE TAGS BUT I'MMA TRY TO GET SOME HECKING THINGS DONE!! #should be able to manage at least two tonight <3 #but I'm tired so two mmmmay be the most I can muster up tonight #but that'll mean the queue and my drafts will be tied at 14 each and that will feel HUGE #love you guys pls take care of yourselves!!!! practice good self care drink water take your meds go have a snack and watch a show!! <3

[redbootsindoriath]

Seeing as how it’s still July 4th in much of the western hemisphere, Happy Independence Day to those of my followers who live in the States!  And happy...uh...bald eagle drawing to everybody else...?

#the world isn't in your books and maps #my trash #/end classification tags #the fun thing is that i'm queueing this ahead of time and will be camping when it goes up #so there's a chance i might actually be seeing a bald eagle in the wild as you all are seeing this #which is kinda cool #next up: seeing a hobbit on the day i post a drawing of a hobbit #or even better posting a picture of a hobbit on hobbit day and then seeing a hobbit on that same hobbit day #what do you guys think are the chances of that happening? #i'm going to say about 1% because you never know #i actually remember the first time i saw a bald eagle in the wild and i was like ''???!!'' #for some reason i didn't realize they had such a large habitable territory and this one was just chilling #i thought i was seeing things #in all the photos you see they're soaring above majestic mountains and evergreen forests #and this one was just gliding along over a highway in the middle of a swamp #it wasn't quite the picturesque setting i would have expected to see one in #but it was still really striking because their white feathers are SO WHITE

[sillyfudgemonkeys]

Atlus: Persona is about community and sharing. Look at PQ! Even tho the Wild Cards are mildly uncomfortable, everyone is happy to have a piece of the wild card ability! :) What I want: The second two wild cards interact, they start fighting because the other might take up a valuable resource. Bitch mode is activated. PQ2 doesn’t happen cause Goro’s having a mental breakdown.

#this isn't my idea #but i've latched onto it like oxygen #silly talks #this is the plot of The Fools' Tournament btw #i want my wild cards to be bitches #theory: this is why Adachi/Sho/Goro are cunts #even better if the nice chars are TRYING SO HARD to stay the same but something inside them just wants to TEAR THE OTHER APART! #queue #q #I LEFT THIS IN MY DRAFT FOR LIKE A YEAR WHY FSADFJSLJF #I STILL WANT THIS #CAN THE NEXT PQ GAME HAVE DRAMA? #JUST ONE PQ GAME TO HAVE DRAMA ABOUT THIS THEN WE CAN GO BACK TO THE STATUS QUO SDKAJFKJAF #ksadjfa or have a game similar to pq in this regard (forcing two WC together) and deal with the drama that way?? klsdjfkljafl #PLEASE?! #this might be why i keep going back to TFT lkfjasdkfj TT0TT #in case Shenjay sees this: Hi Shenjay! ;w;/ don't mind my brainworms! the be wormin' #i can't believe i had this in my DRAFTS klfjsakf i thought i posted it already fkldjsafjla

[monimolimnion]

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#mmm spoke too soon about the existential crisis #even with everything i've accomplished it's still hard not to feel like ive lost a year #my birthday last year i was an invalid but i still thought it was temporary #it's still possible i could get better but ive spent so much of this year just. waiting. #in a queue to live a life #havent checked facebook because none of my irls have recent photos to post on my wall #they never had many before but at least they had some #my brother texted me like 'hope ur doing something fun!' and he can't know how tone deaf that is but it makes me want to cry #no im not doing anything fun. im doing the same shit i do every day #and i am irrevocably alone #ok crying now shouldnt have written any of this down lmao #i'll be fine. i have no choice #momo talks #vent

[omni-scient-pan-da]

Happy Two Year Anniversary to my pinned post, apparently I decided to start organizing my blog August 15th 2020 and never changed the pinned post so now I'm going to just... Constantly edit that one instead of making a new one

#panda posts #panda practices patience #im scheduling a bunch of tumblr anniversaries because i can and i don't want to forget them #i still need to find the ana mutualaversary post hmmm #i thought i had scheduled it but i don't see it in my queue #panda's parties of rememberance

[snakerooted]

MY BEAUTIFUL PROOF LIES ALL IN RUINS.

Headcanon ; a  ( somewhat )  brief explanation on the work and pursuits of safin’s family

1960s: The birth of a pharmaceutical enterprise nurtured in the city of Kazan's lively industry was promising as soon as it was conceived. Gostan Safin, a young and passionate chemist, had built up a chemical enterprise after the ban on the private business sector in the USSR was lifted in 1964, leaving the field in shambles. Though it was a legitimate production cooperative on paper, much of Gostan's association thrived on the  shadow economy and black market  that had quickly inflated during the ten years that the private ban was in place. Gostan worked with other individual entrepreneurs in this cooperation and refined raw materials to be sold back to the state. The enterprise was unique in that it saw the product move through its entire life cycle: from the germination, growth and harvesting of the source plants to their refinement into several products of various uses.

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1970s: The enterprise quickly rose to high prominence and prospered financially during its early years in the Brezhnev Era. Soon enough, due to policy changes, national stagnation kicked off in 1975 and Gostan and his associates made the move to begin producing not only medicines but now bio-weaponry for the state. This decision was made after they saw that the industry had been prioritised and military spending was  skyrocketing  as the Cold War continued. This is where he made most of his profit — chemical warfare. Around this time Safin began supplying SPECTRE, an international terrorist organisation, with various poisons and chemical products.

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1980s: By the time Lyutsifer was a young child, the Soviet economy had taken a  drastic  dip to rock bottom. Failed reforms and political turmoil saw the USSR in its Era of Stagnation. Times were tough for the Soviet people, though it was especially difficult for industries that hadn't capitalised off the spike in arms and heavy industry demand. The enterprise's profits slowed, but, fortunately, it survived off its various connections as a weaponry supplier.

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1990s: The USSR's turbulent history came to an end in 1991. The Russian Federation took its place and immediately began moving towards a market economy once again. Foreign trade was properly reinstated and the privatisation of state enterprises completely changed how the new Russian society would function. Assassinations and corruption became commonplace in Russian businesses after state enterprise stocks were released, essentially redirecting large sums of money that had once belonged to the community into the hands of a  select few people. Gostan's former partners whom had primarily been involved with the business in order to avoid being prosecuted by the Soviet government seemed to either mysteriously fall ill or leave the country, fading into the background and leaving one man as the victor. Safin maintained his  iron grip  on the enterprise and remained in his position as the sole executive, immediately buying out the now available stocks and investing in foreign assets and watching as profits soared. Many of his produced poisons were used by the state in assassinations and cover-ups that occurred around this time of uncertainty.

Though profits were at an  all-time high, inflation in Russia was as well. Gostan had become somewhat of a business oligarch, leading the chemical industry in Russia as profits landed in the billions and found himself with more power and influence than he  had ever thought possible. Unfortunately, his reign came to a swift end as he and the majority of his family were killed by SPECTRE with poisons of his own creation under  Ernst Blofeld's  command in 1994. The murders were painted publicly as an accident, and Lyutsifer was left seriously damaged and hospitalized — the only one alive.

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2000s: Lyutsifer Gostanovna Safin, having been sixteen at the time of the incident and hospitalized for nearly the entire year of 1995, was in no shape to continue his father's legacy, so it sat in limbo. Having been the youngest of four, he was never prepared for such a task, aspiring towards more academic and humanistic pursuits under the assumption that his older brother, Vadim, would take over the company when it was time. Unfortunately, it seemed that if Lyutsifer didn't take up his father's enterprise, the assets would be lost to someone else, essentially ruining what his family had dedicated their lives to. Pressured by this, in 2001 at the age of twenty - three he had formally become the company's overseer, just as his father had been.

It was obvious that running his father's company had  never been his desire,  and the enterprise adopted a group-based administration in order to let it function more autonomously. Investments were put back into chemical warfare and quietly produced for multiple foreign powers. All ties were cut with SPECTRE and it seemed that Lyutsifer had decided to cease any sort of involvement with the group. Their conflict would remain a secret.

Despite his introverted and idiosyncratic nature, the youngest Safin proved himself to be a calculated and effective businessman. His father had been a charismatic socialite, and it was to that of which he owed much of his success. He knew how to lead a group and turn a deal in his favour. His son would take an approach with less of a social factor, running the company covertly and making appearances only when it was needed. Instead of being respected for his confidence and likeable nature akin to the man before him, he was a  quiet leader;  not a necessarily meek one, but a sort of unseen draconian power that commanded silent respect.

#cw familial death #twirls hair.. umm hiiii....... #sorry long post #running a 'business' in the ussr was WEIRD so i thought this would be neat #did i spend 4 hours straight writing this? yeah. #randomly came to me #anyways. very important to safin as a character #he's very detached from the business but its still really important #▸ HEADCANON || i lived like a man who wanted to die but who had no courage to do it himself #gonna put this in the queue me thinks

[utvarpcity]

was SO stoked about seeing mcr again i queued for 7 hours (which was very little compared to the hc fans in front of me), secured a spot fairly close to the stage, then like 20 minutes before the show started everything went black and i had to wobble out of there, get into an ambulance and spend the night at the hospital :))

#i was SO sick and i hadn’t even noticed... #high fever and irregular heartbeat and all #which i hadn’t felt at all before that - just a lil tired which i thought was explainable since i had queued for so long #i left the audience and stood at the very back for a few of the first songs then i HAD to go get help i wanna die #i saw them back in 2011 and stood all the way at the back and was a literal child still so i saw nothing #and this time... saw nothing and had to leave a few songs in #what a disaster... me and mcr just werent meant to be #though the staff did take me to this backstage area to speak to the medical team so ig that’s as close as i’d get #two others were dizzy but were fine but as for me... they were like ‘ok heres an actual serious case lets get her to the hospital asap’ #ive had a weird problem with tiredness and irregular heartbeat this whole year and i’m trying to get it looked into but #the queues in our healthcare system are not to be played with #and i’ve been to the ER two times before but they’ve concluded it’s nothing life threatening so #might be post-covid? bc ive heard of similar things happening to others and it did start after i was sick one time in january #anyway it got really bad for me today because i was really ill on top of everything #i’ve never been that close to fainting before which was just about the scariest thing ever #like ur eyes are open but everything is still black... and u lose all ur sense of balance #but i’m home now and resting after a long night at the hospital lol #funny thing is i went to a festival in may... and a concert last saturday... and was standing up queueing and jumping around for hours #and was fine #so i didn’t expect this to happen at all but i have a pretty bad fever after all (was so surprised when they told me so though) #but yeah my disappointment is beyond fucking words. i was so close to the stage and finally seeing them again after 10 years... #i hope i’ll be able to see them another time #shoutout to the theme park staff for handling things well though #oh yeah also gerard kept telling ppl to stay hydrated and literally told ppl to get out of the audience if they felt shitty #so i was just following his orders...