#I just wanna pass and get it over with

[emgoesmed]

12/20/22

As the barista said, everything tastes better in a mug :)

Since i had covid coffee has tasted bad so I've been having tea if I need caffeine, and this cafe makes delicious matcha drinks.

Only 2 more days and then I'm on vacation! Just gotta pass my neurology exam first.

#emgoesmed #studyblr #med student #studyspo #med school #med studyblr #productivity #matcha #cafe #winter #ms3 #neurology #exam in 2 days #I can’t wait to be done #my Uworld average is trash #but I don’t even care #I just wanna pass and get it over with #zero motivation but it’s fine #only 2 more days to go #and then it’s vacation #getting covid the day before i was supposed to take my exam #was not fun #tw covid

[lyriumsings]

the effort im making to trudge through this schoolwork is unreal rn

#after this quiz and exam i have 3 more assignments and i will officially be completely coauthor up before the 28th the i have 4 assignments #to do starting the 28th #this class ends dec 9th thank fucjing god #i just wanna pass and get it over with #lyriumsings txt #once i get the exam and quizzes out of the way i’ll take bit of a break for a day or two to work comms and then back to the grindstone #before the class ends

[bl-inkstone]

changed my tune so fast just bc of youtube autoplay lmao ok here have some sagau diluc thoughts

the player, diluc thinks, is an incredibly endearing being.

he's come a long way from the curt and wary attitude he used to put on around the traveler (and by extension, you), and today is one of those days where he finds himself privately thanking whatever powers there may be that allowed your paths to cross, with him staring at the reflection of you hidden deep within the traveler's eyes in the wake of his fight with the abyss that fateful night in mondstadt.

as one of the first people to have their constellations manifest in the sky of teyvat, diluc is more than aware that the fact that you still choose to ask for his company in your (or, well, the traveler's) journey is a gift he must treasure deeply. he knows that it is your presence in this world that gives vision bearers a chance to become something greater than they presently are. he also knows that he is no longer as impressive of a companion in battle as he used to be from back when the sky wasn't as bright as it is now (when the world you knew was smaller and he was still a figure that you could look to and proudly call "your main").

but you always come back to him. when he least expects it, you invite him back to your party and diluc can't help but privately think, privately wish, that it's because you're as fond of him as he is of you.

standing in silent prayer while you bestow upon him artifacts that thrum with divine power is an experience he can never tire of. the claymores you give him, the food he eats, all the materials he needs to reach a breakthrough in his capabilities... he understands that you aren't teyvat's creator, but this world and everything in it seems to exist just for you. you, the provider, the sustainer, the beloved of all. sometimes, diluc feels that everything he has and ever worked for have all been for the sake of one day meeting you.

he's not a religious man by principle, and he loathes people of absolute power. the only exception to this, however, is you. he's not foolish enough to believe you're some omnipotent, omniscient being that lords above all. no, you're not like that. he knows this because the longer he journeys with the traveler and feels their bond strengthen, the faint whispers he used to strain himself to hear grow clearer and clearer until finally, one day, he hears you.

you're both nothing and everything he thought you'd be. you view the world of teyvat with so much awe and joy that it's infectious, and he finds himself smiling more often than not to the privilege of finally hearing you. the traveler always looks at him with an understanding smile when diluc slows down in their travels to listen to you. he lives for the moments when you talk to yourself or to someone else (a companion of your own, maybe? from your place beyond the stars?) because this is how he learns. your favorite food, your favorite nations, your favorite "characters" and more. he holds every morsel of information you unknowingly give close to his chest where all his affections and wishes hide. he likes to think that this way, he can be closer and better for you.

but he knows he's not the only one who hears you, and it is the traveler that is closest to you out of all them. even so, diluc harbors no ill will to the avatar you chose to see and travel the world through. you're so fond of the traveler, and how could he ever come to loathe anything graced by your love?

he knows how to play nice. it helps that most of your other chosen are people he can find himself enjoying the company of as well. diluc understands that as much as he wants to be the sole holder of your attention, the world does not function that way. he's willing to extend an olive branch so long as they can all work together to keep you present in teyvat. he can worry about his more aggressive competition later when they aren't at risk of being caught in such an unsightly state by you — all that matters to him, right now, is how to keep your gaze on him for just a little longer and keep you from leaving him again.

it's a daunting thing to be so close to your grace. you take diluc to lands he'd never thought he'd visit again, to ruins of civilizations long past, domains with unimaginable horrors and have him run, claymore and vision burning at his hip, into fight after fight at your command. it's tiring at best and painful at worst, but you always take care to heal him and his companions before leaving, and you always lead them somewhere safe to rest until teyvat brightens and you come again.

his current companions (his "supports", he inwardly preens) rest and talk amongst themselves once they feel your presence leave. it used to be something they, your chosen, would panic over, but now that they've gotten more used to you and all the signs that pointed that yes, this is your will, they've grown to be able to tolerate the harrowing chill that comes when your warmth leaves them. diluc leans back on his chair in front of good hunter to observe them. they're all people he's come to grow fond of in time: diona was prickly, yes, but ha become pleasant to be around once they grew past their misunderstandings. the young master of the feiyun commerce guild, xingqiu, was also a reliable companion both in and outside of battle, and for all his faults, venti has proven himself to be a devout believer, unwilling to be a burden to you or the party you've guided him towards.

under normal circumstances, he never would've met and forged such strong bonds with these people. if not for your own interference, he never would've bothered getting to know any of them at all. though he may have his own gripes and complaints at times of how their dynamic works when you're not around, diluc is still fond of them. he's grateful for the opportunity to grow close to people again, and traveling the world alongside them and the traveler has become one of the few things he's begun to look forward to outside of his duties as "diluc, master of dawn winery." when the day is done and he can sit and relax with them in the tables in front of good hunter, he can rest in the company of others who understand the near-maddening pull in his chest that draws him to try and get closer, closer, to you.

it's days like these where diluc quietly thanks whatever it is brought you to them, and prays that one day, he will no longer have to search through the traveler's eyes to see you.

#miyo.muses #diluc.togo #i wrote this all in one sitting please i love him so much #i hope my research did you justice sir #if he sounds awkward or anything id appreciate feedback on how to improve! #diluc is one of my faves honestly and i wanna write more for him #and as you can see #he is a very generous muse #this is worse than when i wrote for zhongli oml #i wanted to keep this short n sweet #just a silly little hcs or brainrot post #but no #this happened #but im not that mad lmao diluc gets a free pass <3 #also pls dont flame the team ok i asked a friend what their diluc team looks like and they said “diona + xing + venti” #dsdhewu i have a very skewed view on what's considered a long or short post but just to play it safe #i added the read more this time bc id hate to be the person who clogs up the tags with super long posts #ok thats it rambling over i hope u guys enjoy <3 #genshin impact #sagau #self aware genshin #genshin diluc #diluc x reader

[aimseytv]

i love zombie apocalypse related anything. writing? i eat that up. art? give it to me. heart breaking angst that’ll make me wanna claw my eyes out? more please

#there is just something so brilliant about zombie apocalypse related stuff #listen i know it’s so overdone but i will never get over the whole *someone is hiding their infection from the person who loves them* #person a is hiding their infection and their bite #person b has no idea #person b finds out #person b doesn’t have enough time to be angry so they just stand there like WHAT? WHY? WHY? #person a says they didn’t wanna hurt person b #but this hurt person b the most #because now person b will continue living once person a has passed thinking they didn’t trust them #but that was never the case #person a just loved them too much and couldn’t bare to see the pain in person bs eyes #ITS SO CORNY BUT OWWW

[skrunksthatwunk]

why the fuck did i write about birds this fucking sucks. i just found out birds only sleep for a few minutes at a time, hundreds of times a day. do you know what this is going to do to my structure? the logistics of their road trip? this is already like three days late and i've been fighting for my life to get A Plot Like Any Plot That Makes Sense out and now the birds fucking sleep for 5 minutes at a time.

#i should've just bailed and written another story when i had the chance #i'm not joking i've never fought a fiction piece this hard before. usually because i'm not writing for specific deadlines #and not a piece so big. and not one that's gonna be workshopped. i wanna blow them away but if things keep going the way they are everyone' #gonna tell me the pacing sucks and it feels pointless and the characters feel really confused. I KNOW. I KNOW THAT. FUCKK #i'm the type to do about 15 passes before i let someone see my 'first draft' and i'm just not gonna be able to do that if i want to get it #in time for a workshop. every day i delay is making things harder for my classmates y'know?? but i've been writing like 1k words a day #and it's still not done. GUHH #I DON'T LIKE WRITING THESE CHARACTERS THAT MUCH THEY'RE NOT FUNNY OR ENDEARING AND THAT'S MY LIKE. #MAIN SKILL AND VIBE WITH SHORT STORY DUOS. BUT NOOOO I HAD TO MAKE THEM DIFFERENT CUZ I WAS SICK OF DOING #THE SAME DYNAMIC OVER AND OVER. BITCH THIS IS YOUR FINAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TRIED AND TRUE GETS THE BLUE (RIBBON)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #head in my hands head in my hands head in my hands head in my hands head #going to work on it some more. fuckk #the voices aren't consistent and i'm trying to make it clear that this is toxic bird yuri and not a mother/daughter thing but the maternal #themes are kind of fucking with that but they're important and i don't wanna get rid of them but it feels forced cuz im forcing it #sigh. i'm gonna have to cut the yuri. these two don't work romantically at all. what a waste of time. #i watched the entirety of mnthly girls' nozaki-kun in the past two days while avoiding writing. did you know that? the lengths to which i'l #go? anyway it was fun i appreciate fellow creative agony and i uh never knew how they did screen tones and wasn't expecting that somehow #so i learned something new (hooray). anyway back to. fucking. bird story stuff #i'm so mad i hate these two (<- lying. just pissy) i hate this story (<- mostly exaggerating. throwing a tantrum) #eughhhhhh i just wanna lie on the floor and cryyyyyyyyyy (<- completely deadpan irl. not That upset just kind of sick of shit) #i'm so burnt out and it's only gonna get worse. ughh #why can't someone just come in and write it for meeeeeeeeeeheheuhhh (<- would hate that)

[tricoufamily]

when taking care of yourself and caring about your clothes starts making you feel better and not the other way around

#NOOO I DONT WANNA #i’m kidding i’ve bought some new clothes they’re really cute very dysphoria easing #i’ve worn the same like 5 pairs of basketball shorts and 4 t shirts since like march #‘since march’ ok maybe it has been like three years. but #the dressing rooms WERE hell but i finally found the right size that doesn’t make me want to die #and they’re all men’s pants! men’s pants fitting well felt super super good! #i need a belt but they’re not tight on my hips #my hip and thigh ratio to waist ratio is Pain Agony Death (Pixar Mom) so pants are very very difficult for me #i actually think i pass kinda well from the waist up. kinda. on a good day #i’ve got my little pinterest board of baggy panted androgynous emo cis guys. i can do this #i’m excited to wear them like they look good they make my legs look straight up and down #i might just get rid of all my dysphoria inducing clothes and completely start over #i also have a slowdive shirt coming in the mail 🤸‍♂️

[yammoba]

"Transandrophobia discourse" really is just "ace discourse" all over again.

#oohh why do you need a word for that you just wanna be oppressed #yeah yeah passing privilege hm #internal community fighting doesnt count as -opression- #/sarcasm #i just wish we would like remember stuff #maybe everyone is younger than i think #im just annoyed bc i saw 'transandrophobia truther' listed with someones 'standard dni' criteria #i know i know 'standard dni' is pretty absurd so its really not worth being annoyed over #i just get the flashbacks sometimes #fun

[silenthillbunni]

☁️🌷

#ugh im so anxious and like i think i have more pains bc of it #i overslept bc ever since i got a new phone my alarm is so quiet i never wake up?? this is the third time this happens for this class #but i cant miss more bc if i have more than three weeks absence they'll fail me :< so i hurried and walked to school #i wish i had a bus pass T-T since they introduced civilian clothed controllants i havent dared taking the bus at all i dont wanna get a fine #so yes anyway. on top of that im pretty sure my sister stole my keys. bc they were in my jacket pocket yesterday and today they werent there #and she left somewhere earlier this morning. so now im anxious abt not knowing where they are + will i get inside?? my mom wakes up late af #ummm what else???? idk im just so stressed. i got to class and have been here for 40min now and the teacher left for lunch #i'll leave now bc i cant focus enough to sit here more. my tooth aches too :(( #i just wanna cry tbh #the entire way here i was like i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die #i feel so awful.. and stupd and worthless. why am i incapable of getting a job? or even studying at university? im so bad at everything #im like an anxious wreck who can barely function. everything hurts both physically and emotionally #i dont even wanna walk home im just sitting in my empty classroom bc i dont wanna kove #move* #what's wrong with me? how did i turn into this? i miss school. like i miss being able to actually do my work and talk to the teachers etc #im only a shell of what i used to be. and im scared i'll never be anything other than this :(((( #well i gotta move ig bc the sooner i do the sooner i can get home and lie in my bed & cry over how useless i am :3

[hauntingblue]

Try not to make fights between two women look homoerotic challenge level impossible

#if franky isnt good with swords why does he have a sword on his mecha 💀 just for the shogun bit #inu inu fruit??? he is just like inuyasha... omg.... crossover of my favourite things.... yamato i love you..... #yamato eating the protector deity of wano fruit.... calling himself oden.... his father must be fuming he is the antithesis of his person #obv its very much on purposes but lmao rip bozo (kaido) you didnt think much about that one.... maybe the deity of wano wants its people to #be free and not slaves of a weapons industry idk.... #not olvia omg... and saul.... and clover... they changed little robin's name.... and her mom's voice is the same as hers lmao it's too much #robin said this is way too nice.... can't be real #once again thinking about robin holding her mothers hand..... and becoming an archeologist to make her proud.... the hands.... #but now it's not about her mom now its about her friends.... also her childish heart omg.... truly #talking tag #watching one piece #episode 1042 #robin defending sanji's honor akdjsks #robin that was so slay... take care tho.... ily.... until next time #luffy on the floor passed out having a tantrum about food. incredible #fucking caribou again.... DIEEE!!!! #MOMO FLY AGAIN!!!! GET OVER YOUR FEAR OF HEIGHTS #also yesterday i was showering and thinking about like dying like this cant be right... i am on thay level.... #episode 1043 #'i am not soft on women' oh yeah i bet... #see how good armor haki would have been here..... i have been saying this #robin's face..... strongest element in all of one piece..... #robin wanting to become strong for someone else.... just like nami..... #OHHHH SHIT!!!!!!! she said i wanna be with my friends 😁 -> 😈 #that was so cool. also black maria is DEAD. that was a CLUTCH WWE STYLE. DAMN. robin getting there by thinking about his friends :))) #what love and human connection do to a mf (positively) #OH SHINOBU'S ABILITY.... MOMO..... OMG #episode 1044 #robin ily that was so cool. call me any time btw.

[daz4i]

how and why is there discourse about whether or not certain queer identities exist/if people should be allowed(???) to use them. why is "people know their own identity better than you ever could, and they're the only one who get a say on what they are" such a tough concept to grasp

i think if you find yourself offended by the label someone uses (especially if they're a stranger) or think it invalidates your own, it's a good idea to look inside yourself and question why that may be. more often than not, it's a result of insecurity or uncertainty of your own identity (or many other things, but i won't make a whole list here). whatever reason it is, until you resolve it, you shouldn't take it out on people for having an identity you don't understand

many have said it before but it's worth saying over and over. infighting only helps our oppressors. conservatives don't care if you're a cis gay or a xenogender aegosexual aplatonic lesbian, they hate all of us either way. trying to fit in by going for people who are easier targets for them isn't gonna help you, it'll just alienate you from your own community, and you're never gonna please them. the momentary rush you get from hearing you're not like "one of /those/ gay people" is not worth it and is gonna do more harm in the long run, i assure you

also, it is important to me to say this, but having some less than nice kneejerk reaction caused by confusion about an identity you don't understand doesn't mean you're a bad person or anything. as long as you aren't mean to that person, and you take a second to think smth along the lines of "wait a minute, this isn't any of my business" after having said reaction, you're good 👍 a lot of reflexive reactions we have to things are ingrained into us simply by. well. living in a society 🤡 and you're not terrible for having those thoughts. it's your actions that matter, and your second thought (the "wait, why did i just think that?") is more defining of your actual character and morals than your reflex. i know that having thoughts like this, even tho they're unwanted, can very easily make one spiral, so it's important to me that whoever needs to hear this knows this doesn't make you a bad person 🙏 you're good, keep taking actions to be good, accept other people even if you don't understand them, and you're on the right track :)

#i considered adding that last part in the tags but i figured it'll be too long for that 😭 #i noticed i'm posting a lot of rants lately. sorry. but i do wanna make sure no one's actually feeling bad over them #if i complain about something that you do or call it mean and such. that doesn't make you a bad person #you can always work to change and grow 👍 it's not easy but it starts with smaller steps than you'd expect #and now i just switched to a whole other topic from my original point. oops #i do firmly believe that any discourse about someone's identity is dumb as fuck #seeing it in poll blogs always makes me 😐😬 like how is it any business for any of us. why is this up for debate #if a person says they're queer then they are. they don't need to pass some test or go through initiation to be accepted #if they feel comfortable with a certain word that's awesome. why does it matter to *you* which word they use #'they're only using this microlabel to feel special' so? is there anything wrong with that? #'this label contradicts [insert other identity that falls under the same umbrella]' ok. but does that hurt anyone in any way #a lot of identities can even be self contradictory. does it matter tho? does it affect anyone in any way? #'they might realize that label is wrong later' again. what's the harm in that. #i don't blame anyone for these thoughts bc like. this is how cishets view a lot of the even more common labels #so you're basically taught to think this way from day one. that doesn't mean you need to stick to that thought process #you might have these reflexes forever no matter how hard you try. but you'll get quicker about moving on from them #but you do have to try. you do have to realize that other people's identities aren't about you #anyway. this post feels like batting at a hornets nest. really hope i don't get some bad faith readers here lol #(i noticed a lot of places one could apply bad faith but like it's 3:30 am i'm too tired to add this many disclaimer. #so i'm gonna trust you to not jump to conclusions and to approach this in good faith okay? mwah 🖤) #also my whole ramble abt morality (in the tags too) is relevant to. any topic really #i may just make a separate post about it really. .....tomorrow tho.

[seven-stars-in-his-palm]

Ford pines for headcanons?

YES FUCKCING YES GIRL!!!!!!!! LETS A GO !

A (Realisitic): lovessssss doodling on paper. has an affinity for eyes (;]), swirlies, scribbles, and creatures. whatever he can get his damned hands on he will doodle on it and he will do it happily. my boy's an artist ❤️❤️

B (Not Realistic But Funny): honestly in canon ford's probably into music too much but i can see him being an period music fan. abba, queen (teehee), freetwood mac, david bowie, etc. that's just his VIBE to me, not in the crowley way but in his own strong inks and cigarette smoke way. i associate thoss things with him as well as anythinf existing before 1982 with him alot if u didnt know. i still see something and go "ford missed this 😔" or "ford didn't miss this! 😁" in a sad or happy tone at least once a day /srs. oh i love this guy

C (Heart-Crushing): this kinda collides with D but im keeping it in that category. soul crushing? ford never knowing what to hope for in regards to stan on the other side. whenever he has time to think about it, he isnt sure whether to imagine him in his house or dead in a ditch, and the mystyer honestly scares him more than he'd like to admit. ford kinda treats it like schrodinger's cat in a way--as long as he never confirms, it could really be anything, and that absolves him of any potential guilt. so. (also: that he celebrates holidays out in the multiverse too, when possible. makeshift menoras, pastries in substitute of bday cakes, lighting sticks during new years. just for the sense of grounding. ALSO alsohe's spent at least 3 birthdays in a prison cell or very hurt. so. yeah)

D (Unrealistic but FUCK CANON): has always stuggled with addiction, especially with antidepressants or alcohol. thus sort of snowballs into a whole "if this makes me feel good i cannot have for more than needed" but still ends upgrappling with it anyway. he suffered MAJORRRR withdrawlel when portal stranded and since then swore off it bc he drank the most under bill's influence. it's very important to me and i need more fics about it sooooooo bad, bc while i HAVE written my own, i think someone else is needed to do it justice. now that im remembering this i HAVE read some with this hc and they were beautiful and i need to reread them again and i need to REWATCH THIS DAMN SHOW SO I CAN READ AND WRITE SOME FIC AGAI .... also there IS some evidence as extracted by @/callipraxia (need to find that meta again) but i DOUBT that would ever be canon bc of the kid show rating. (watch the book of bill canonize this seven fucking months from now. i swear to god..../j)

TY FOR THE ASK!!!!!! 💖💖

#this mightbe unprompted but i just wanna preface this saying #just becauss you see gomens on ur dash almost exclusively now doesnt mean im just a gomens blog #like i still love gravity falls SOOO MUCHHHH like ur never gonna get rid of that that was my FIRST fandom #thats the one where i found all my friends!!! thats what we bonded over and still talk about!!!! i am still the ford person #(if you'd like me to be!) #and im likely never gonna let that go regardless of how far it may slink in the background #i still have a whole shelf dedicated to my merch for it for FUCK'S SAKE #i just reallyyyyyyy need to rewatch it. but im scared of rewatching things especially since theyre so long lmao #i also.need.to continue my fic! and get stanuary up and running GOD DAMN IT! #wait FICS. its TWO gf wips i have AURGHHHHHHHH #i need to revive my love. i can feel it on the precipise but im not yet in touch. i'l get back there i PROMISE !!! none of u are safe >:))) #ask game #the guys (with a z!) #sorry for the long text jacky i was just unloaded djbdndndddjs #god man now that im thinkinf about it again there some damn fics i need to read/reread. I NEED TO REWATCH GRABITY FALLS #I WILL. STARTING TOMORROW. I NEED TO DO IT TO REFRESH ON MABEL AND STAN FOR STANUARY AND THE FIC PASS THING ANYWAY. IMA DO IT.... PROMMY

[littlegalerion]

Some little tid bits about Dragonborn lore that hit hard for my Dark Urge Dragonborn:

Clan means everything. This is referenced so many times in dialogue options for a dragonborn player. I always have Moon choose it, but in a sarcastic or dreadful way. Her only sense of "clan" is Bhaal's cult, most likely a deeply seeded notion given to her by her mother. Even her own mother would have chosen the cult over her, and Moon is aware of this. Always was. It wouldn't surprise me if Moon eventually killed her, either out of personal pleasure or as an act of offering towards Bhaal- maybe both.

I like to think Moon was raised on a twisted version of this. That she was taught all her "playthings" were to be "respected". Given her druid class, she was always directed at how predators treated their prey- a meaningful hunt. But again, with a cultist twist on it. All of Moon's victims were a boon to her father, so all held meaning. All deserved her utmost attention and time. Though most probably wished she had just ended it quickly...

This has always been my canon for Harvest Moon from the start:

She was always desperate for approval from Bhaal, conditioned to desire it more than anything else in her life. She was born for the sole purpose of pleasing him, a faithful child, and if she fell short in any way, she was a waste of resources and time.

When the events of the betrayl of the Dark Urge took place, and she ended up with a tadpole plus amnesia, for the first time, Moon has that conditioning shoved aside. She was actually allowed to think for herself and what she wanted. Sure, Moon still felt the conditioning affects- hence the "urges"- but she was at last an individual. A very smart individual. One that quickly began to enjoy her newfound freedom.

This is all VERY against how Moon was raised. She was taught to always safeguard her emotions, always prove calm, collected, and precisely emote nothing unless in the act of happily slicing through a victim. Such strong shows of emotion could either be used against her or be undesirable to her father, in which case she would be rightfully punished.

All her life, Moon has been fighting against her own nature. Very ironic, as she'd, as an adult, take on the druid class.

A very small thing, but Moon does have a tail, and she does get a lot of looks from other dragonborn for it. One more thing that separated her from her kin throughout her upbringing, I suppose.

#my oc harvest moon #i love dragonborn lore #tbh i was really worried theyd botch it in bg3 #for the most part they did okay #the tails at first worried me but given the default is no tail it gets a pass #i mean i gave moon a tail TAILS ARE FUN #but my friend and I always joke about how half dragons and dragonborn are always mixed up #total life saver could be seeing the tail and #“oh that is not an honorable red dragnborn THAT IS A RED HALF DRAGON USING DECEPTICON ROLL FOR PERCEPTION* #half dragons need more love theres so much potential in them #i love the idea of their draconic's side's natural allignment is forced onto them and its a major fight to overcome it #or if some just give up and give in #literally the dark urge #alsp the image of gale helping moon to reconnect with her dragonborn nature after the connection #between her and bhaal is forever cut #i wanna scream #him seeing her genuinely laugh in out in public for the first time #and not over something dark humored #bg3 #bg3 spoilers #baldurs gate 3 #dragonborn #dnd #dark urge #bg3 dark urge #bg3 dragonborn

[crybaby-bkg]

I think I might take a break from writing on here (quite possible a lie) </3

#mainly bc I won that publishing deal #so I have to finish the book I’ve been writing #and I find myself prioritizing writing fics over my book bc I’m like ‘oh there’s no rush to finish my book’ #but now I’m like. I don’t know how much time has to pass before my opportunity expires LOL #I’m about 60% finished with it im pretty sure #but I just need to focus all my attention on it #also my writing on here has been flipping lately and I feel like boo-boo about it LOL #FLOPPING not flipping #I said possible lie tho bc I wanna take a break but knowing me #I’ll get an idea and be like wow x person on tumblr would love this actually lemme write it lol #so I might still write small short blurbs every now and again #but probably no long fics and stuff for a while #…..after I write my sex toy store worker Hitoshi AKSHDKFJDKFJ #this is why it’s taken me three years to write 75k words LOL #sorry I’m rambling i just feel a little guilty #also feel bad bc I think I’m allergic to steroids lol everything sucks #—in store chit chat! 🍫

[hyp3rfixation-h3ll]

burgertron HATE ged prep . burgertron PILEDRIVE WHOEVER MADE IT SO THAT YOU HAVE TO TAKE 4 SEPARATE TESTS TO GET A PIECE OF PAPER THAT SAYS YOU DID IT into THE FUCKING DIRT!!!!!!!

#the captain's rambles #if you couldnt tell im having a bit of a rough time <:'] #my mom is like “oh well youre Making it stressful it's gonna be okay” I HAVE TO FUCKING DO SHIT WITH VARIABLES #THIS SHIT WOULD BE STRESSFUL EVEN IF I *WASNT* ALREADY DREADING DOING IT #i HATE education i HATE SCHOOL i hate everything this STUPID SYSTEM STANDS FOR and most importantly I LOATHE VARIABLS #whoever put LETTERS ?? in MATH??? Die. #because now i have to fucking figure out what x and y are on a practice test #i dont even HATE math normally. in every other instance of math im actually okay w/ solving questions #ged math ??? is on some shit #FUCK geds man i hate it here . i wanna just fuck off and go do whatever and be productive with something i Actually Enjoy Doing #not having to sit here and do tests so i can get a piece of paper that does nothing but allow me to apply for a community college #<- a place i am EQUALLY unexcited for and dreading #miserable fucking books i have to do work in. and then i gotta do like 4 different equally fucking miserable tests for each subject #and then i have to pray to god i didnt fail and i got the minimum passing grade of AT LEAST 145 out of *200.* #im going to destroy Everything. #i dont want congratulations for doing this shit either because i didnt wanna do it IN THE FIRST PLACE !!!!!! #im only doing this because i HAVE TO to get my parents off my ass about it not because i WANNA #if it were up to me i'd be doing just art and collecting or other hobbies i ACTUALLY ENJOY and i wouldnt be worrying about academics #but we cant have nice things so now i have to stress abt this shit like a college student studying for midterms #rant over. im gonna go eat now . pray 4 me that i dont kill someone /lh

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the "I already bought tickets to go see Indy again next week" moodboard

#actually factually finalized the purchase it's happening same seats and everything lmfao #I am being very irritating abt this I'm not sorry I had so much fun today and I loved this movie to bits #and I'm so happy this is how we as fans get to close Indy's adventures like. #it didn't just feel like half-hearted fan service bullshit it was really well done which I'll be honest #I was not expecting. there are def call backs of course to the previous films #but it didn't feel like heavy handed or cheap #they really did a good job of like. making it feel authentic like. not just a shitty rehash idk for me #it felt like. so appropriate. like he's an old man now. time has passed. they don't just like wallpaper over that #it just has idk so much heart. like the old og movies it's fantastical but there's so much heart #idk I really liked it. it felt like watching the old ones. the old ones had so much heart. that's why you loved indy! #he was a smart ass but he was earnest too and he had heart and he cared and like ahhhhhhhhhh!!! #it's just. idk idk idk I feel like it's such a great close to the adventures for massive Indy nerds like myself #lmao I asked my mom tonight like when was the last time you watched any of the movies #cause you mught wanna rewatch before we go #and she was like well it has been a while cause you don't live here anymore #and I was like I know. I'm never like six months removed from the last time I watched an Indy #and she was like I know it's your religion I know #I just. I loved it. a lot. I really did. as a massive Indy nerd I really did just enjoy it a lot. more than kotcs #but I firmly believe w/o kotcs it wouldn't have been so fuckin good like omg #erin explains it all