#I guess I’ll see you in hell

[lostinw0nderlandd]

I’m apparently extremely committed to going to hell

#personal. #oh well oh welllllllll #I guess I’ll see you in hell #🙃🙃

[ash-and-starlight]

guy of all time

#id in alt text #what is she wiping from her mouth i’ll give you three guesses #we’re still in wip hell but do u know. that i love her. #do u know that she’s my sunshine literally and figuratively #(and spec….. if u see this. …… hi <3 👀) #zhu yuanzhang #the radiant emperor #she who became the sun #he who drowned the world #my art

[fandom-draws]

Misc stupid stuff I’ve drawn over the past month

#there would be more but I don’t think rainbow dash committing 9/11 would be a good first impression after a while #blood tw #undertale #undertale fanart #omg it’s been so long since I’ve posted the art of tagging this shit has completely left me #ut #undertale flowey #flowey undertale #undertale frisk #frisk undertale #mettaton undertale #undertale mettaton #mtt #man can you guess who my favorite character is. it’s impossible to know honestly #maybe I’ll post the serious stuff separately but idk #I just felt like I should start trying to post again even if like 20 people max see my stuff #I do need to change this blogs theme it’s outdated as hell

[alienpussycat]

Need them in a room together in which they are no others…👀These voidstrike drawing might stall a bit because guess who decided to take a 5 week trigonometry summer course with the worst teacher possible so she could graduate early 🤩

#this is my 5th attempt at drawing voidstrike since my last drawing #can you believe I spent 5 days on a background just for me to realize I hate it and scrape the whole thing #tbh I don’t even know what the hell going on in this pic it’s up for interpretation 🤷🏾‍♀️ #this isn’t what I imagined Wraith to dress like but I wanted you to see her muscles #also guess who has an exam on Tuesday but spend her off days finishing this #pray for me #I don’t plan on digital drawing forever so if one day they just stop out of nowhere umm sorry #also I learned that I am more of portrait artist so this is probably the last time I’ll draw something like this sorry #anita williams #wraith x bangalore #apex legends #apex bangalore #renee blasey #apex wraith #bangawraith #wraith apex legends #apex fanart #apex legends fanart #voidstrike #bangalore x wraith #apex legends art #apex #bangalore apex legends #wraith #bangalore #okay gotta study #I’ll add more tags later

[judasisgayriot]

i promise I’m a huge proponent of blocking and curating your experience etc and yet it also seems like I complain all the time sorry asdgjkhkl but this fandom has genuinely made me paranoid about following or reblogging anyone new lest I be blockt n cancelled yet again for the associating w the wrong ppl crimes I seem to have committed several months ago when I got into foblr. which is kinda a bummer

#sorry I genuinely feel like I whine all the time and I really do believe in blocking n curating lol #but like I’m a chill nice person I just want to see content of the thing I’m into and I’m getting gradually cut off from a huge chunk of pp #so its just making me feel like a crazy person man!! #Truly I have block me if you want in my bio and I stand by it lol but it feels like it’s never ending and idk man #i maintain my relative innocence here! I’m just here for a good time! how did I end up at the pariah table #sigh thanks chill freaks n weirdos for being chill. promise I’ll shut the hell up now don’t get hurt don’t u get hurt. lol #also sorry if I like reply to your posts n act like I’m your friend but you’re actually like uh stop #talking to me you’re not my friend go away. i just like genuinely want to have friends and I’m awkward as hell #god this is so stupid and long and I feel like a cringefail fool but what can you doooooo #I’ll make some gifs or something this weekend. i like making things I like being in fandom! but man. it’s been a bit of a struggle here #(foblr lol) #anni rambles #I’m not actually sarcastic and cool and disaffected enough to fully be like LOL WHATEVER IDC even though I partially have that spirit #I’m too earnest and soft for the real haters n freaks n too much of a freak for like. the clique I guess lol

[crackinthecup]

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#trying birth control to help with what is quite possibly pmdd #and boy oh boy it’s hit me with ALL of the mental health stuff #extreme anxiety? check #low mood? check #numbness? check #lack of motivation? check #what the hell man #i guess i’ll stick with it a bit longer and see if it evens out #but if it stays like this then no thank you #i’d rather have 1 week out of 4 of shitty mental health than 4 weeks out of 4 of shitty mental health #about yours truly #mental health cw

[hanzajesthanza]

growing up with sapkowski’s works timeline (teen to early adult)

13 — ciri age (BoE)

14 — ciri age (ToC)

15 — ciri age (LoTL), pavetta age (QoP)

17 — shani age

18 — essi daven age, nicolette age (ToF)

19 — angoulême age

23 — reynevan age (ToF)

24 — condwiramurs age

25 — cahir age, reynevan age (WoG)

27 — reynevan age (LP)

late 20s — milva age

#just putting this… out there into words. because i must say it #i was feeling shitty that i would have a birthday and havent accomplished anything #but then i thought about it and realized 23 is officially the age where you have a free pass to be stupid as hell #a la reynevan in narrenturm. so good job #‘haha i get to grow up with reynevan. that’s crazy dude [falls down the stairs]’ im going to be here forever. :| #i put essi and shani in here just to make everyone want to gouge their eyeballs out 👍 #essi is ‘barely eighteen’ so i will just say: eighteen #txt #the milva age is me guessing/approximating. don’t sue me #she was 16 when she left home and then she hunted for a few years by herself and then the dryads caught her and she hunted for them #and she just acts like someone in their late 20s so there plus she is protective of cahir who is youngest #also i had to look up reynevan’s age in LP because i haven’t gotten there yet and i was dodging spoilers like in the matrix #and because it takes place in 1429 i just deducted #and because i know he is 27 now now i am thinking of him and nicolette as that vine #‘babe. happy one year’ ‘awww :D … i’m 27??? O_o??’ #i’m not putting adéle age because um. her qualities and her fate aren’t exactly inspiring #alsooooo seeing adéle age and reynevan age next to each other. it’s kind of **FBI OPEN UP** #i’ll say ok because it’s a historical fantasy. but i still don’t like it lmao and that’s my right

[fingertipsmp3]

I’m not sure if the seasonal depression is hitting especially hard this year or if I’m just grieving for Mabel or if I’m finally going irreparably insane or if life/people is being unfair towards me or all of the above

#i cry super hard every day now. sometimes multiple times a day #sometimes something sets it off specifically (like arguing with my mom earlier) #but sometimes i just think about mabel too much and start sobbing #i thought i was okay. i mean i knew i wasn’t okay but i knew time would do its thing #the first few weeks were the worst but earlier this month i felt like i’d kind of plateau’d #like i was still sad but i could look at photos and videos and talk about her without crying. i was even laughing #now… now i can’t even think of her. again #it just feels so fucking unfair that i’ll NEVER see her again. like what the fuck do you mean. what do you MEAN #what do you mean i have to live out my whole life… god knows how fucking long i’ll live; and N E V E R see her again. shut the fuck up. #that’s so fucking unfair. and everyone else is okay. i’m like how can you POSSIBLY just go about your life #the best dog in the world is dead and she’s going to stay dead and i won’t see her again for however many fucking stupid cursed decades #i live and i might not even see her when i die. how the HELL am i supposed to be okay with that. is that a joke #and there’s a part of me that’s like ‘maybe i could adopt another dog’ but i don’t know #i think i’d feel better and worse at the same time. i wouldn’t feel so alone but they wouldn’t be mabel #i put in an application for a terrier that’s at a local rescue but if i don’t get him i’m not trying again. i’ll take it as a hint #cats aren’t an option btw i found out i’m allergic. which was brand new information.. i’ve been around cats that didn’t set my allergies #off at all. but i guess there’s a difference between spending an hour at your friend’s house who has one cat #and living 24/7 with a cat that gets fur and dander and saliva everywhere #and i don’t think other pets would suit me. i just don’t feel comfortable caring for any animal i haven’t done research on #i had hamsters when i was a teenager but… tbh never again. they are so much fun but i have anxiety dreams about them now #so it’s dogs (well.. one dog) or nothing #i do have plans to speak to my doctor about my depression btw because i genuinely find this unsustainable #like i do think it’s situational (seasonal/grief/everyone around me seeming to want to argue with me lately) but i still need #mood stabilisers while i’m in this situation lol #personal

[i-legitimately-dont-know]

current mood :/

#just feel like being dramatic pay no mind #i truly just need to go to sleep and i’ll be fine for at least a little while #i’m just frustrated with myself i feel so fucking stupid all the time and then keep putting myself in the same situation over and over again #insane shit #also just like motherfucker how are you so unaware of the shit you do and say like fucking hell #and like do you even give a fuck about me in any meaningful way or am i just an npc you can summon when you’re bored or need something #but at the same time i feel like i’m always bothering you god everything is so fucked #BUT YOU’RE LITERALLY SO CONTENT AND THAT’S WHATS REALLY FUCKED #quite literally how the fuck am i not over this i’m so tired and maybe i should’ve taken some space in december #but if i had i feel like we would’ve lost touch #and now we’re way closer than before but i can’t stop wanting shit that i can’t have and it’s pathetic #so i guess im just doomed like holy shit i want to be dating someone to move tf on but i truly don’t give a fuck about these tinder people #and like i said friends is fine and i meant it but i didn’t think it’d be so fucking hard #and with all the time we spend together like why tf don’t we just give it a shot just to see like fuck you’re not even a little curious #like am i that awful #i just wish i could care exactly the same amount as you do #i don’t wanna not be friends i’m just sick of feeling guilty cause my brain keeps saying like oh you’re a terrible friend #cause you only do xyz cause you think it’ll make them want you #and that’s not true #for the most part 🫠 #but also fuck maybe i just should not be around as much and like quietly get a little bit of distance #but i don’t want that shit lmao #wtf do i even do god i hate thisss #also fuck you cause you really have me going sometimes like things are different #but in your head you’re literally just saying things #FUCK UGH #anyway this should’ve been typed in my notes app lmao #but it’s already here and it’s almost 5am so presumably no one will see it

[theamazingannie]

I want to reread Six of Crows so badly but I lent my copy to my sister months ago for her to read it and she hasn’t given it back yet😭

#six of crows #she hasn’t even read it yet cuz she’s too busy/tired #(she’s a teacher so I forgive her lol) #but she told me a few days ago that she’d being it back and she hasn’t #she better have it with her when she comes for Easter I stg #Im about to see if the library app has an available ebook #i want to see my children so badly #you know what? I’m gonna do it I can’t wait I’m VIBRATING #edit: I forgot my library card expired when I was away for college and I didn’t renew it #and my sister’s id apprently also expired so I can’t use hers😭 #hell world #guess I’ll try to find a pdf online

[off-brand-adorabbit]

Holy hell, I’ve finally sat down and finished the Skyward Flight novellas and I’ve just got to say... I love these slugs so much they are doing so much and they deserve all the caviar in the world no questions asked.

#I loved vibing inside FM’s head for a while. Seeing how other people in Spin’s flight have learned to cope from the inside is great #and I enjoyed Rig getting some wonderful moments to shine #Cuna... keep being you I guess #aaaargh and getting to see some more planets? Yes. Please. #that was excellent love it 10/10 holy hell #I want to sit in the slug room and talk to them they just seem like so much fun #sad we don’t have the next book NOW but I guess it’ll show up when we’re ready for it #and I’ve been waiting on TLM for so long that I still don’t know that I’ve accepted it’s coming out #I don’t know what I’ll do next #maybe read the next two Locke Lamora books since I finished Lies earlier this week #non-cosmere #cytoverse #skyward flight

[lostinw0nderlandd]

Well that’s just depressing but I suppose it’s to be expected 🤷🏼‍♀️

#personal. #oh wellllllll #oh welllllll #I guess I’ll see you in hell

[win-inthedark]

hey lol

#yeah idk #this season was…..nearly a disaster you see I stopped posting cause wtf lol #s/o to the 45 on one hand tho #idk what to say #im assuming he’ll play again in December or January #i guess I’ll see y’all then #idk #lost for words #confusion also #is Nike still going thru w the shoe? idek #s/o to Tyus Jones #i’m disappointed #ngl #what the hell happened fr like listening to him on the pivot podcast this summer nothing could’ve prepared me for what was to come lol #it’s like…girl what #these r two different ppl? #DTAP is going to hell #ja dumb af but we gon figure something out idk #ja morant #nba #memphis grizzlies #offseason #unfortunately #prayers for JJJ and Des it’s their team right now

[selfconsumerofmywoes]

kind of miss working in a cafe - would love to work in one a few hours a week but i literally have no idea how to go about getting a job in a city

#like rural town was just - hey you want work this summer?? i’ll see you saturday 11am for your first shift #and you’re like okay i just came in for a coffee guess i’m a working man now #city jobs no idea #like online chain places are hiring but i’m sorry there’s no way in hell i’ll be able to work in starbucks or anything #i can’t hear in any of them #i just miss my little independent coffee shops #with their simple menus #where i can froth all the milks right #instead of making every coffee a flat white (looking at you costa you latte butcherer) #i talk and its probably something weird

[caesurah-tblr]

Went to write @mythicalheartbeat a Radioheads fluff fic and it somehow turned into 4800+ words of the spiciest thing I’ve ever written.

#the quarry #it’s not done yet #I’ll write you fluff myth I promise #I don’t know what came over me lol #I’ll see you guys in hell I guess

[lionblaze03-2]

I keep hearing people saying that nobody cared that to break in a glove was cut from the deh movie alongside other way more important songs but they’re wrong. I care. I’ve always cared. Larry my boy what did they do to you

#I guess it’s finally time to come out of the woodwork and admit I enjoy this divisive trash heap musical that almost no one can genuinely- #Be caught liking anymore because it’s toxic or creepy or whatever and not a story of a ton of fucked up people lying to both everyone else- #And themselves #So unfollow me if you’re deeply disappointed by my morals for enjoying deh #I’ve been. To see it. Second row. #Best decision ever because I could see pins on bags and shit. Connor likes Misfits (band) it’s literally canon for the 2019 tour cast #And I’d never have that without being so close #Anyway if you’re still here and not in full attack mode at the name deh. maybe I’ll make more takes idk #because I’m not saying it’s flawless and hell half the ideas that really bring things together are fanon that then get butchered in- #The adaptation to try and please people #Kinda like the bmc Broadway problem where michael acts like an uwu soft boy because of fandom interpretation #I also saw THAT live. I promise I’m not rich 2019 was just a horrible year for me and I compensated by seeing all my favorite shows ig #ANYWAY yeah this is far down but I guess I’ll finally say what my actual issue is #Larry is so important to me man #And they fundamentally butchered his character in the movie by making him a stepdad. Yknow people who commonly have trouble- #Connecting with their step children #No dis to stepparents but that’s like normal. The fact it’s his actual bio dad and these are the parents he’s stuck with is kinda important #And also the way Larry and his grief are handled extremely subtly in the show #Like you will be found is honestly kind of a slow song to me usually BUT when I saw it on stage I broke out weeping #Not because of any other reason but it’s when Larry’s facade finally broke where he stops being put together and breaks down and weeps #In his wife’s arms. And like. Damn did I see me at my cousins funeral also dealing with a similar grief and trying NOT to #For so long to keep the rest of the family together #And that moment of breaking was so fucking real and I just started sobbing #Deh NEEDS to be seen on stage to possibly comprehend it and it’s weirdo story and that’s kinda it’s biggest flaw lmao #The synopsis and the actual intricacies of the emotions in the show are so far off. And the movies a terrible example #So now it’s just a universally hated thing #Anyway #number 1 Larry defender #Until the end of time #also the fact they cut any songs and add their own is deeply insulting when they cut two of the universally best ones. Good for you IS the