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notafraidofredyellowandblue · 2 years

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Durch die Nacht mit Flake Lorenz und Joey Kelly - Arte TV 2020

Documentary from german/french tv channel Arte TV, with Joey Kelly of The Kelly Family (for those who don't know them: An actual family who travelled around making music, all kids being part of the group from a very young age, and who where huge (Huge!) for many years, definitely in Germany, but also others parts of Europe and all over the world) and Flake, visiting Joey who lives near Cologne.

Joey nowadays is involved in extreme sports and also befriended with Till Lindemann with whom he did the Yukon expedition.

During clips of 'Deutschland' there is no audio otherwise the video would have been taken down.

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Some snippits:

What is striking straight away is that Flake is driving a car with the steering wheel on the right side (an 'english car', normally in Germany a car will have the wheel on the left), but there's a simple explanation: his hearing is pretty bad on the right, so with a 'normal' car, he would be sitting left and his wife on the right next to him, which means he can't understand what she's saying.

Before starting a game of car-ball, Joey asks Flake if he's allowed to do dangerous stuff, and Flake says no, Joey gets it: they can't risk having a Rammstein member less on stage. Joey doesn't have the same problem, his family was huge, so there would be loads of people on stage anyway, rarely one would be missed; Joey actually missed one show because he called one of sisters a 'fat pig' and got grounded and wasn't allowed to play that evening. Flake thinks in that case he should start calling people 'fat pig' too 😊

(0h12) Flake has brought Rammstein fan Joey a gold record as a present, only remembers it when he opens the back of his car to get out his laptop, the record is tossed in the boot. The awards where under a desk at home but got wet a while ago, so the one he gives Joey is a little bent, so now Flake is giving them away before they get ruined.

Both Flake and Joey give readings/talks about their life, Joey about extreme-sports (he hiked through Germany, north to south, without money, food or drink, no begging, only living of the land), Flake about himself (he starts his talk pointing to himself on screen "Normally i look like this, i play in a music-group"). Flake shows photos, starting with Feeling B, playing in the GDR where their biggest enemy wasn't the Stasi (east german police) but the alcohol, especially singer Aljoscha on occassion couldn't even finish a show. Later, at abt 0h30, he explains that because of these early years he always thought that musicians had to drink, that it was part of the job. Only when he was ill for a while and wasn't allowed to drink, for the first time he did a show sobef and hated it, it was so boring and lasted so long.. (in the end it was his wife who convinced him he had a problem, because he needed alcohol everywhere he went, and who told him she'd leave him if he continued drinking, only after he'd done more shows without alcohol he learned to like playing without a drink, eventually even better than with alcohol.

After Feeling B he was invited to a rehearsal from these 5 guys who played for hours on end, it was the best night of Flake's live, so he decided to join. Only problem was performing live, so their first record label sent them to play at a gathering of people who had been listening to talks all day, and then in the evening expected a little music. So the first night it didn't work out at all, the public wasn't paying attention, the band was bored and wanted to leave, but they had to play another show next day. So they went to the gasstation to buy a jerrycan of gas (Benzin), Till had a few sparklers left over from a party, so before the start of the show they sprayed the gas on the floor in front of the stage, and when Till started to sing he pointed the sparklers to the floor. Even the band was surprised how well gas inflamed

Flake never locks his car (0h25) because there's always a risk you can't get it open again. Besides, anyone who wants to steal one of Flake's cars must be crazy, so they deserve to have it.

At 0h27 Joey asks if in Rammstein they also have the problem that there's always someone being difficult, making drama (like they have in The Kelly Family), but Flake says No. 😊 (good boy Flake, for being loyal to his mates).

Flake's brother also has a band (Rammstein's first gig was as a warmup for that band), they mainly do parody, like 'Wie ein Würstchen' (Like a sausage) on Madonna's 'Like a Virgin'. And what does his brother think of Rammstein's huge shows? Don't know, says Flake, it's been a long time since he went to a Rammstein show. Joey is amazed, but Flake considers it a job; a plumber also doesn't take his family to work with him. (I'm sure Flake exaggarates here by the way 😊).

0h39 they talk about Till cooking Flake on stage, Joey asks if this isn't dangerous, how do you breathe? Flake: "I don't breathe, because the flames take away all the oxygen". The dangerous stuff happens when they are rehearsing, because then they don't know yet what the best way is, one timeTill and Flake had practised a lot with the kettle, Till shooting flame after flame, and when Flake got out, he grabbed the rim of the kettle, that was red-hot, and seriously burnt his fingertips.

At 0h41 a Kelly-fan asks a photo with Joey, to which he kindly obliges (joking "you're probably a fan of Paddy or Angelo" (his brothers, generally the fan-darlings of that band), but she ensures him she's a fan of himself 😊 Joey then says "And here is Flake from Rammstein" but the fan admits a bit embarrased that she doesn't know him 😊 Earlier Flake talks about going walking for hours every day, when they are on tour as well, to which Joey asks "is that safe? don't you take security with you?" and Flake says "If i'm on my own no one recognises me.." (again showing how much bigger The Kelly Family is in Germany 😊)

Around 0h50 they visit a motorbike show, and Flake and Joey are invited to enter the dome the bikes ride in. Again they ask Flake if he's allowed, and he mentions he isn't really allowed to do anything dangerous; before they go on tour they have to sign an agreement to be careful of their health, because if one breaks a limb or something and a show has to cancelled, insurance doesn't pay, so that costs a lot of money.

Did Flake ever meet his favorite band Rolling Stones? (0h53) No, he was at a show of theirs only one, 1990 or 92, and he thought they were ancient back then, almost mummies. Only recently Flake realised that he is older now than they were back then, even over 10 years older, he feels like a total granddad and shouldn't even be allowed on stage anymore. He wonders why nobody has noticed it yet. 😊

At 0h57 they play a couple of old songs, like Kelly Family's first single 'David's song' which was a huge succes but they didn't earn much out of it (back recorddeal, Flake knows the feeling), and 'Kim Wilde' by Feeling B, on which Flake does the vocals. Joey: "That is you?" "Yeah" "You sing better than Till" Flake chuckles "Well.." 😊

And at the end, Flake gets a Kelly Family record in return, a new one, of the latest Kelly Family album, that went straight to Gold again 🌺

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okay 'some snippets' turned out to be 'lots of snippets' 🍀

#durch die nacht #joey kelly #flake lorenz #kelly family #rammstein #in a way i'd love paul to do something like this..😊

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nilesabbott · 4 months

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It's now some time ago, since I posted here. I mean, nobody seems to read my stuff anyways, so it seems to don't matter 😅

Anyway I want to give a update on myself and things around me.

My weight loss journey continued. Meanwhile I lost over 55 kilos since last year and even build muscle. I even developed a slight hint of abs 😂

I cut my beard completely down to a goatee. I felt, that I was hiding behind the full beard. You know, it became kinda a mask for me. A shield to hide behind. Now I lowered at least that shield and discovered, that a young and kinda handsome face was hiding behind it.

And I start to let my hair grow out on the sides too. My goal is a haircut like Health Ledger, Brandon Lee or Ville Valo had. It definitely will look great on me.

Unfortunately my face and new body wasn't helping to find a new partner. That is the most frustrating part, you know? Most other gays are just looking for fun, a non-monogamous relationship and such. Especially that guys in my near. Plus mostly guys over 50 try to hit me up, while I just look for guys between 21 and 35 and have that written in my profile also.

To be honest: Being alone makes me kinda sad and feeling like I don't deserve to be happy.

It's a "problem" that I am not into bears and older guys. But bears always remind me of my dad and I don't feel attracted to my dad romantically or worse 😅 And similar with older dudes, especially since I don't feel like my age.

Honestly: I feel like in my mid 20th, especially since I wasted my 20th on my ex wife. I just NOW have my glow up and try to put my life together. At the same time, it feels like time is running out to find a partner. You know, I do not want to become that old guy creeping up to younger folks like these guys who write to me now.

To be honest: At the end, I kinda gave up already. If every Jack has his Jill, then I am Zachary 😂

Besides of that: I quit my therapy. Not because I think I am above that and don't need it. No no, I definitely need therapy. I quit it, because my therapist was an arsehole. She not wanted to help me getting along with my trauma. Instead, she wanted to help the insurance company saving money on me. I tried to tell her about shit that destroyed me, her reaction was "But that shouldn't stop you to go to work. How many job applications did you wrote? Where did you applied to?" and such. Totally ignoring stuff which is bothering me and acting like she isn't my therapist but a worker from the job department of government. That really made me feel like "Ok, if even my therapist don't care about me, why should anyone else?". The final moment, which made me quit was, when I told her about my strong fear looking at the political situation in Germany, with growing percentage of Nazis and shit. I told her I fear more violence and such. Her reaction "No, Nazis won't harm any queer people. It's only the foreigners who harm queer folks, I read a statistics about it.". Like ... WHAT?! I have friends who got attacked by Nazis, pride events received hate and you only have to look online to see the hate from the Nazis towards the queer community. Idk where she read the statistics, maybe on the AfD homepage. Or she is one of them too, Idk.

So all in all it wasn't a help at all and only fed my trust issues even further. Now I can't even trust therapists, which makes it kinda impossible for me to seek help.

But something positive: I quit drinking about a year ago. Not 100%. But it's now only one bottle of beer in a few weeks, which is really nothing. And my January was, in fact, completely alcohol free. That stuff helps me to get my body in a better shape and will help my mental health too.

And I kinda "rediscovered" some music. I listen again a lot to HIM and VV (Ville Valo). I was a giant fan in the 1990th/2000th and kinda stopped following a few years ago. Even though I had a hughe crush on Ville and still have. He is the only older guy I would like to be with 😅 But it isn't just about him (pun not intended 😂), it's the whole music and lyrics. Love can hurt, but at the same time, it can be something absolutely beautiful too. And at all: Self growth is important.

So ... what else? Idk 😅 I try to be somehow positive, find a job again and to make my own luck.

By the way: In the pics you see how I look now 😂

#gaypride #gaymen #gayhot #gaygoth #gothgay #gothic #goth aesthetic #gaysingle #gay single #queer #queer community #homosexuell #pride #lgbtqia

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midnightswithdearkatytspb · 5 years

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Everything’s Gonna Be Alright

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x OFC Stark

Rating: PG

Warning(s): Mentions of Character Death, Fluff & Angst

Word Count: 2,235

Info: I entered @littledarlinhavefaithinme Sebastian Stan Summer Song Writing Challenge. I choose to do it based off of Lullaby by Shawn Mullins. So I loosely and I mean loosely based it off the song, where she grew up with Tony, and Bucky does quote my favorite line of the song at the end. Also big thanks to @coffeebucko for making my moodboard!

Synopsis: Bruce snaps everyone back into existence and Thanos is gone. 5 years have passed and many things have changed for Remedy Stark, she’s an older sister, her dads gotten married to her mother figure and she isn't sure where she fits in it all.

Remedy Stark was born at the tail end of the ’80s, her father couldn't tell her much about how she was born but he could tell her about her mother and the story of how she was brought to him. Remedy could recount the story of being dropped off at her dad, Tony’s front doorstep by her mothers grieving friend. How Tony took one look at six-year-old her and cursed under his breath.

Remedy started showing her mutant abilities just a few months after she had moved in with her father. Tony had been working with some tools when he cut his finger open, feeling bad Remedy walked over grabbed her father's finger and kissed it. After telling him it was all better Tony looked down to find it healed with not even a scar left behind. That night they sat at the breakfast nook where Tony made Remedy promise she would keep her powers to them, and she did till she fixed Uncle Rhodey’s broken arm.

Tom Cruise, Johnny Depp, Bono, Mariah Carey, 2Pac, Elon Musk, Madonna, Michael J. Fox, Kevin Costner, Liv Tyler, Whitney Houston, Richard Branson, Steven Tyler, Bruce Springsteen, Celine Dion, and Leonardo DiCaprio were among the few who partied at the Stark mansion, getting to see Remedy Stark grow up. She learned to speak many languages, her best friend was an artificial intelligence named Just A Rather Very Intelligent System, or Jarvis for short, her father created, till she went to a private charter school.

Now Remedy, wasn’t as smart as her father, but she did skip a few grades here and there, graduating at the age of 14 in 2001. The same year Pepper Potts entered both her and her father's life, she watched them dance around each other in fawning, praying for the day when either her dad grew mature or one of them made a move. That was also the year her second mutation activated, all Remedy had to do was think of a place she wanted to be and she would end up there, unfortunately, it happened in front of both Pepper and her father. It became a family secret.

Years went by, she watched the only woman she ever saw as a mother figure dive in love with her father, while he became a superhero. Aliens it turned out were real, a frozen super-soldier her father spent his entire existence in the shadow was alive, assassins could have their own family and be a damn good friend, also Nazis it turned out were still around.

Being called an Avenger was pretty amazing, but what felt even more amazing to Remedy was saving lives. Fixing the wrongs in the world that you could. Remedy found a family in the Avengers. Wanda was someone who was her own and that could relate to the pressures of being someone with powers. Steve soon after the battle New York, became her best friend, a brother she never she wanted, along with Clint and Sam. Natasha, well she was another Aunt and another mother figure of sorts who brought along Bey. Bey was Natasha’s child, her pride and joy, but also Remedy’s best friend.

Turns out when you get shocked by Thor when trying to save a small nation, well it can awaken hidden powers where you can open portals. Soon everyone knows your secrets and governments well they don't care that you are a Stark, or that you save lives, they notice the fallout you leave behind.

Remedy knew Steve and her father Tony getting along was never going to last, they always had a fallout but they always came together in the end. This time Remedy wasn't able to foretell the destruction, Thunderbolt Ross would have on the group. Remedy left to go bury her Godmother Peggy Carter, then the next thing she knew she was a wanted fugitive.

Tony wanted her to hate Bucky, for killing her grandparents she barely knew, but she couldn't find it in her. It wasn't Bucky’s fault it was the men behind the controls. She could be angry at Steve for not telling her father but she could easily forgive him attempting to protect his best friend, she would do the same for Wanda and Bey.

When it was all over, said and done, T’Challa welcomed Remedy along Bey to lay low in Wakanda when they weren't trying to be vigilantes. Pepper would meet up with Remedy behind Tony’s back, updating her on her father as well as her godfather. Always going their separate ways with a hug and tears in their eyes.

Than Thanos happened and one moment she was assisting Natasha to get up after healing her broken arm, getting ready to open a portal, next she saw her body turning to ash before her very eyes. Next, she was standing between Sam Wilson, Bucky with Bey who was transformed into a Mammoth with both Princess Shuri and Spiderman on their back, as they were being portalled back to New York.

Remedy fought long and hard, the burning feeling in lungs, long since came a constant reminder she was alive. Working back to back with Wanda most of the fight, sending people her way, or defending Spider-Man, or well Peter, he had stopped to introduce himself and to apologize for the black eye back in Germany. Yeah, she could grow to like the kid and could see why her dad did too.

Seeing her dad again for the first time in what felt like forever, was crazy, especially when Remedy half expected him to yell at her, instead he hugged her. Remedy honestly couldn't remember the last time her father had hugged her. He held her tightly to the metal suit he had long lost his helmet it seemed, Remedy could have sworn she felt tears hit her scalp.

“You are so grounded young lady, I don’t care if you are 30 years old, you are grounded! No television, phone, no boys, we are going to have a long talk about what it means to be a vigilante and not talk to our parents.” Tony broke the silence that surrounded them, trying to make his daughter laugh, while she tugged him down to dodge a laser beam heading their way.

Remedy wasn't sure how long the fight even lasted but for her, it ended with her on Bey’s Polar Bear form a few yards away from Bruce Banner who was in possession of the gauntlet. Bruce snapped and the next thing she noticed was the aliens they had been fighting were turning to dust. Thanos was defeated and all of a sudden it felt like a weight was lifted off their shoulders. Exhaustion hit Remedy hard and it was expected so the last thing she remembered was the white fur, hitting her face before she was caught by Clint.

The drive to wherever they were going seemed to drag on as Remedy got stuck between the two super soldiers, a guy named Frank Castle was driving and he wouldn't let anyone touch for stereo. Somehow Sam had won a coin toss and got to ride shotgun, while in the very back Bey was sharing their iPod with Wanda and Karen Page, was snoring.

When Remedy came to in the back of a truck that belonged to Castle, Pepper had been pushing her hair back. Tears had been cascading down her face even though she was smiling, Remedy had tried to smile but everything in her body has hurt. Pepper was in her suit of armor, Remedy remembered choking out the colors were far better than Dad’s, making Pepper laugh. Tony had leaned over the side of the truck kissing the crown of her head, reminding her favoritism sucked.

Soon they were invited back to Stark-Potts household because of course they got married, but it turns out they no longer lived in the city but out by Lake George. The two-hour drive listening to classic rock and alternative rock, barley any legroom, the constant sniff, and cough was starting to get to Remedy. Almost making her wish she had taken up the Peter Quill guy, or even Scott Lang offers up for a lift.

As Hozier’s voice crooned about how he should have taken better care of his lover, the road Frank had turned on to suddenly became bumpy. Steve sat up straighter, suddenly elbowing Remedy in the ribs with his sharp elbow, causing her to take a deep intake of breath. Bucky reached around Remedy smacking his best friend on the back of the skull, getting a laugh out of Wanda and Bey in the back. Steve gave her an apologetic look as they drew closer to a cabin that looked almost luxurious, right away Remedy knew this was one of her Dad’s places.

As the Range Rover came to a slow stop, Remedy noticed Happy, Pepper, and Rhodey standing on the porch together, with drinks in their hands. Remedy followed Bucky out of the car and saw the lake to her left, it's beauty was serene, she could see why Pepper and her Dad would settle here. Suddenly arms were around Remedy’s legs and holding on tightly to her, with no foreseeable plan to let go it seemed.

“Remy, Daddy said he would bring you home and he did! Mom said you would teach me how to play guitar and you’d Dutch braid. I’m so happy your home.” Remedy stared down at the little girl at her legs in confusion before she heard footsteps nearing, and a hand was placed on top of the little girls head. That hand is turned our belonged to her father and beside him was Pepper, both of which were smiling at her.

“Remedy, this is Morgan, we had her shortly after the snap. Morgan this is your older sister Remedy.” Tony was now holding Morgan in his arms, who continued to stare at Remedy was adoration.

“I know who Remedy is Daddy, I have her picture at my bedside, I tell her goodnight every night and I read to her. Well not her, the picture of her, but now I can read to her because you brought her home to us, as you promised!” Remedy felt her heart rate skyrocket, she had a sister, she had been gone five years and so much has changed. To the right, she could hear Bey screaming no, as Clint was saying sorry, everything felt louder, her breathing more shallow.

“Remy?” Pepper put her hand on her shoulder like she used to do when she was a teenager, and she felt the world was out to get her, but Pepper always reassured her, she was stronger than those who brought her down. Remy tried her hardest to smile at Morgan, but she felt perhaps it still came out more like a grimace than anything else.

“Morgan, it's so good to meet you. If you don't mind, I just need a second to catch my breath.” Remedy had reached over and squeezed her little sister soft delicate hand in a loving gesture before she turned away from her family. Her legs taking her out towards the edge of the dock of the lake, hands-on her hips she found herself struggling to breathe as her mind raced.

Where did she belong now? Why did she have to leave all those years ago, she should have come home with the tail tucked between her legs and signed the accords, they could have been a family. She had missed out on the wedding, the one she had wished for since she was a pre-teen, on her birthday cakes and falling stars. Tony had taken in Peter Parker, Spider-Man who was a pretty cool kid, but still, she missed out on seeing them interact. Here she was a big sister and she missed five years of bed life and yet she seemed to know everything about her, acted like she was the best thing in the world. What would Morgan think when she found out that she wasn't all that great?

An arm around her shoulder, the scent of metal, tea tree, sandalwood, amber, leather, and moss hit her nose, indicating Bucky was the one at her side. He ran his flesh hand up and down her arm, as he put his face in her hair shushing her as she began to cry. Remedy didn't need to be told that Natasha was also gone, along with Vision, people they lost in the war. Her family was falling apart and she felt so broken, yet here was a man she spent weeks on the run, months in Wakanda with, comforting her.

“I’m not sure about you, but I feel a little lost right now, but that's because we are in a strange place, but I promise you Remedy, you got me. You aren’t alone and we’ve got Sam and Bey as well as Steve.” Remedy kept her head in the crook of Bucky’s neck as the vibrations of his voice soothed her along with the smoothing up and down motions of him rubbing her back.

“Everything’s going to be alright.” Bucky kissed the crown of her forehead and looked out at the water while he just held Remedy in his. He vowed to keep her safe and maybe they could help each other piece themselves back together in this messed up world.

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