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cannibalisticskittles · 7 months
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grousing about my research paper when my sister came home, stressing about how i really need to be working on it and spending a lot of time on it and I'm anxious to get it done.
she asks me when it's due
october 18th, i say
i'll fucking kill you, she says
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blackpearlblast · 2 months
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on the day that we got the news of a trans teen being killed by their peers in a hate crime, the tumblr CEO decides to join into a transphobic harassment campaign against a trans woman who has been facing repeated censorship from this website. I hate this
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woman-respecter · 4 months
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i feel like a few of my recent posts are about to breach containment and get me dogpiled by tankies. but thats ok its entertaining to me and i am bored
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susansontag · 1 year
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how do any of you trust people? how do not worry that any of your close-ish friends could just decide to never speak to you again at any moment? how do you handle the possibility of that happening? how do you not crumple under the stress of that idea? I can worry about it, and do, even when there’s no discernible reason for any of these people to do that and absolutely no evidence to suggest that they will. and then I hate myself about it bc I actually do trust them, like logically I realise if a friend were to do this to me it’d be so unnecessarily cruel, I know I’d never do this to a close friend without reason, but it can’t stop the panic inducing levels of anxiety and feelings of worthlessness and self-hatred
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miodiodavinci · 4 months
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good news: we have water again ! ! ! a pipe had burst somewhere up the street so the city came out and fixed it today (we still need to run the tap to get rid of the air and muddy water but. it's something.)
bad news: i had to go to my partner's to do laundry and shower so i missed out on work time today (bad) (anxiety inducing) (i don't need this right now)
worst news: i have a killer headache and my throat is suspiciously stiff 👁 👁
#please please please for the love of god ; ; ;#i am begging and pleading do Not let this be a repeat of last semester ; ; ; ;#this is exactly how i felt last time i got sick with covid and i Cannot afford another late start ; ; ; ;#i am. suddenly stuck by The Unwelcome Guest last week cryptically asking me when you're supposed to test for covid#and then saying 'hmm. okay. good to know.' and then refusing to elaborate#i swear. to god if she got me sick i'm#i. can't even say. i'm suddenly struck by such helpless grief thinking about how little i can do to keep her from being in my life ; ; ; ;#we literally Evicted her she all but threatened my older sibling into letting her visit weekly to take care of her potted plants#and then in october last year she was like 'my roommate has covid and i don't have money for a hotel i have nowhere to go :'('#so the agreement was she could stay for One Week#and basically she has been. on and off our couch since then.#like. only going back to her apartment for 1 to 3 days at a time before spending another two weeks in our house.#with new excuses every time.#and literally Every Time I Say No And Put My Foot Down older sibling begs on her behalf because she's busy hounding and guilt-tripping them#so like. what can i even do if it turns out she infected me with covid because she didn't care to disclose that she was feeling sick#(and decided to come over anyway)#i'm just. overwhelmed ; ; ;#i feel like crying ; ; ;#i'm already busy pre-mourning the loss of my mental health and down time with my internship starting back next week#i don't need to worry about whether or not i'm going to be bed ridden for 2 weeks#and suffer Even More lasting lung and brain and blood and fatigue issues on top of that ; ; ; ;#a a a a a i just. feel like crying a lot ; ; ; ;#i'm already behind ; ; ;#i should ; ; ; try to work more tonight before the inevitability of it all hits me tomorrow ; ; ; ; ;
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skyloftian-nutcase · 2 years
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Fierce Meeting (Hyrule Warriors era Link and the Fierce Deity)
Summary:
At the end battle, Link finds that his young Forest Sprite is still wearing the mask of the Fierce Deity. Which leads to a whole host of problems, because Link's pretty sure that guy's bad news, right? Mask had said as much. But the Fierce Deity is still there and he is not going away anytime soon because he has a mission to accomplish. Warriors meets the Fierce Deity, and it doesn't go as he expected. But at least he gets to sleep, which is a miracle for him.
(Click here to read on AO3)
The young Hero grunted as he sliced upwards with his sword, cutting a beast clean down the middle. Its blood spilled in a smattering, speckles landing on the child and making him flinch. He stepped back at the monster fell and turned when he heard another one coming his way, ready to fight, when he instead saw a blade pierce through its heart before retracting.
When the beast fell, Link appeared, blue scarf dyed red from the long battle. He gave a quick onceover of the younger Link and a pulled smile. “You alright, Sprite?”
Mask nodded, and the battle resumed.
As the fight continued, one thing became apparent to the Hero of Time: this was not a battle they were winning. He’d run enough losing scenarios before, had to escape within an inch of his life and a hasty magical song whistling through his ocarina, and start over. He knew when reinforcements were needed.
He’d honestly hoped he wouldn’t need the Fierce Deity mask this time around. He’d been using it so much it was draining him almost as much as his sleep deprivation and constant fighting. But he knew what was needed and he would do it. Perhaps the stamina potion in his system would help him not feel as terrible when he took the mask off.
Grabbing the painted wood, he felt its power surging through his arms as he pushed it to his face.
It’s up to you now, Fierce, he thought, hoping the dark magical deity encased in the mask could hear him.
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The battle hadn’t been looking good, Link had to admit grimly. There were just too many enemies. The Hylian army had no reinforcements waiting, and despite the outflanking maneuver they had pulled, which had temporarily given them the advantage, they were still being pushed back.
Until the littlest soldier among them put on that mask.
Link had mixed feelings about the Fierce Deity mask. He was a force of nature on the battlefield, and his prowess was certainly welcome. But he was menacing, unnerving, and worst of all, painful to Mask. Wearing the mask wore the boy so thin Link often had to carry him from a battlefield after he’d used it. The young Hero had started to resort to using stamina potions just to get from day to day, and Link hadn’t had time to address the issue yet. For that reason, he often argued with command on whether to utilize the mask or not. It made sense for them to push, to use such an obvious aid and achieve victory, but when the only person who could wield it (or at least Link assumed that was the case, no one had actually tried to put the mask on aside from the boy) would be weakened and ill after each use, it was not the most efficient way to handle this war.
And Link just didn’t like seeing Mask in that state.
The battle was over. Soldiers were regrouping and trying to help each other. Link had just carried one to the medical tent, but his eyes were searching for Mask. The boy no doubt had taken the mask off by now and was collapsed somewhere in the carnage. It made Link’s stomach churn just thinking about it.
The field where they fought had rolling hills, but nothing with such an extreme gradient that he couldn’t see clearly for miles. This made the tall figure stick out all the more.
The Fierce Deity.
Confused and wary, Link approached him slowly. Why was he still here? He usually took the mask off as soon as the battle was over.
Link cleared his throat, his body tense. The deity turned to look at him, towering over him. Link felt the slightest twinge of fear as the blank gaze pierced into him.
The deity’s fingers twitched a moment. He shifted his weight from foot to foot. Then he said, “There are no more injured over here. I already carried them to camp.”
Link jumped a little, caught off guard. He’d never heard the mystical being speak before. His voice was deep and smooth and surprisingly quiet, though it held an energy and power to it that made his skin crawl.
Most unnerving of all, it reminded him of his little forest sprite. Young Link’s voice was also soft and quiet and held power and authority that the boy shouldn’t know how to convey at his age. But it was much higher in pitch, still untampered by time and hormones.
Link swallowed, processing the words. “T-thank you. For all of your assistance. I… must admit I wasn’t expecting to find you out here still.”
The Fierce Deity stepped forward, his body radiating energy and authority, and it took all of Link’s willpower to hold his ground. Fierce reached forward, his hand passing overhead of Link, who watched with apprehension and bewilderment, when he felt the long, clawed fingers grasp the back of his tunic.
And pull.
Link yelped, his feet dangling in the air as he was suddenly, essentially, being held by the scruff of his neck.
“You look exhausted,” the deity stated, now at eye level with him.
Link flailed. “Put me down!”
“I’ve watched you,” the Fierce Deity said as he started to walk towards camp. “I’ve watched how you care for Link, and I’ve watched how you wear yourself too thin.”
Link halted his protests, bewildered. “What are you talking about?”
How much could this mystical mask see when his sprite wasn’t wearing it? All he really knew about the mask was that the younger Hero had said it was dangerous, held a mystical being, and shouldn’t be messed with. All he knew from the battlefield was that everything Mask had said was correct.
“You are a capable warrior,” the Fierce Deity explained. “But you do yourself and your men harm by hurting yourself so. You need to rest.”
Now wait a damn minute, he was not—he was not—
Was this mystical dark being lecturing him?
“I can take care of myself, thank you,” Link argued, beginning his pitiful attempts to wrangle himself out of the deity’s grip once more. He couldn’t believe this; there was no way he was being hauled into camp like this. “Kindly take off the mask so I can have my Sprite back.”
“Link needs to sleep just as much as you do, Captain, if not more,” the Fierce Deity said calmly. “Foolish little Hero has been pushing himself far too much. And at his age that can be dangerous. He also hasn’t been eating enough, you know. I don’t think you’ve realized how he’s tried to ration out the meals provided for him.”
Link tried to get a word in, but now the deity was practically on a tirade, though his voice never changed in pitch, making the conversation bizarre but also eerie. Much to Link’s horror, he also heard the footfalls of soldiers and the sound of many voices and activities happening.
They were at camp.
Link twisted in the being’s grip and nearly landed a kick in his chest. The captain froze, suddenly terrified of retaliation from a monster that could annihilate entire armies, but the deity seemed unbothered.
Or, really, he just changed tactics.
Link felt himself get launched forward, and he got the wind knocked out of him when his abdomen collided with the Fierce Deity’s shoulder as he was draped over it. A strong arm wrapped around the back of his knees, locking him into place.
Somehow, this was worse.
Link was very tempted to just lay limp on the deity’s shoulder; at least if he looked unconscious, this pathetic position could be excused. But he was too proud to allow others to think he was knocked down in the battlefield and had to be hauled back to camp.
Not that his pride was going to survive this anyway.
“That’s enough,” Link said, trying to brace his hands on the deity’s armor so he could push off his shoulder.
“This is nowhere near enough,” was the deity’s rebuttal.
Link watched helplessly as they entered the camp. The soldiers watched them uncertainly, one dropping his sword with a startled yell. Fierce slipped his foot under the hilt, kicking the sword into the air effortlessly and catching it before dropping it back into the wide-eyed soldier’s slack grip.
“I need to speak to your chain of command,” Fierce said as he continued to walk.
“I am the chain of command!” Link snapped. “I’m the captain!”
“But you take orders from those above you.”
“I’m not telling you where they are,” Link huffed. He felt like a petulant child, but he didn’t have much else to barter with.
“I don’t need your input to locate them.”
Link scrambled for something to get him out of this situation as they attracted increasingly more attention. Thankfully the majority of the army was more in awe or intimidated by the sight than entertained. After all, they’d all seen what the deity was capable of on the battlefield, and none had seen him linger once the fight was finished.
Which still led Link to wondering how in the world this situation had occurred in the first place. Surely the Fierce Deity hadn’t stuck around just to humiliate him?
Then again, if his lecturing was indicative of anything, it was more of lingering concern for Mask than anything else. Which in itself was… interesting. It wasn’t something Link had considered, simply because it hadn’t even seemed within the realm of possibility. Who would assume a mask powered by dark magic sealing a mysterious warrior deity away would be anything but, well, dangerous?
The deity’s walking stopped, jostling Link out of his musings.
“Hylia’s offspring, I presume?”
Link jolted, completely bewildered by the term before it clicked, and then he started twisting and turning. “What? Zelda? Where?!”
There was silence as the deity seemed to be waiting for something, and then Sheik’s familiar voice broke it.
“My name is Sheik,” she said. “I am a Sheikah warrior.”
“A Sheik named Sheikah?”
“No. A Sheikah named Sheik.”
Fierce was silent, and Link could practically feel the deity judging the woman he was speaking to.
“Right,” Fierce quipped. “Anyway, whatever name you choose, golden child, I can still sense the Triforce piece and the bloodline. So I assume you’re in command.”
Sheik was silent, as was Link. He tried twisting again, still attempting to piece together what he’d just heard, when Fierce spoke up again.
“The captain will be unavailable for the remainder of today and tomorrow morning. In addition, the one you call Mask will also be unavailable for that period of time. I will be inspecting your army to ensure proper form and combat skill. Have a good evening.”
Link felt himself whirl as the deity twirled on his heel and headed in a different direction. He locked eyes with Sheik once she came into view, and he saw her staring, her visible eye a little wider than normal, though he wasn’t sure if she was dumbfounded by the being’s words or if they rang true.
He’d have to investigate that… once he managed to detangle himself from the Fierce Deity’s steel grip.
“That isn’t Zelda, you know,” Link informed him, giving up on fighting him off for the time being.
Fierce hummed, clearly unconvinced. “Whatever you wish to call her, I know of what I speak.”
“How can you sense the Triforce?” Link asked.
“I am a being of greater power and ability than your meager fleshy mind can comprehend.”
“Meager?!”
“Be quiet, little soldier. You need to rest.”
“Hard to rest when I’m shoved against full plate armor,” Link muttered irritably.
Apparently the Fierce Deity heard him, because before he knew it he was slipped off the deity’s shoulders and secured snugly in his arms.
“W-what are you—no, this is not—put me down!” Link hissed, his face flaming red as they passed more soldiers. “What is wrong with you, you’re supposed to be this super soldier who goes away when the fighting’s done!”
The Fierce Deity paused from his quick stride, staring at Link. The captain shriveled into the cradled hold a little at the intensity of the stare, sufficiently guilty at the assumptions he’d just stated aloud.
After all, the deity did seem to care… even if it was on the overbearing side.
“I wouldn’t expect you to understand,” the deity said softly before resuming his pace.
Link remained still and silent, regardless of the shame his situation brought him. When they reached his tent, he said softly, “I’m sorry. I… nobody really knows much about you aside from what we’ve witnessed in battle.”
The mythical being halted in the middle of the tent, looking at Link once more, though this time his stare was less intense, his face softening. “There is far more to me than battle, Captain. Just as there is far more to you than your title. But you should be aware of my status and abilities. I am not some lowly soldier for you to order around. I once ruled over a land in an age before your people even existed. That is to be remembered and respected.”
Link swallowed and straightened, nodding in acquiescence and acknowledgement. He could understand that much.
“Now, it’s time for you to rest,” Fierce continued.
Link blanched. “Wait, what? Are you kidding, the battle just ended, I have reports to write, meetings to attend—”
“You will do no such thing.”
“With all due respect, I am a captain and have duties to fulfill—”
Fierce finally plopped Link onto his cot, and the captain landed with a decidedly undignified OOF, bouncing on the mattress briefly.
“Honestly, I am a deity and a warrior and I’m relegated to babysitting because certain heroes can’t be bothered to take care of themselves,” the deity muttered, disregarding Link's earlier words and poking Link so forcefully that he collapsed onto the bed entirely.
“Hylia only knows why I ended up with such a fate,” the deity grumbled, grabbing Link’s armor and slipping it off with practiced ease before the captain even had a chance to protest. “I still haven’t even gotten any word about Hylia, how does an entire people just forget the woman they’re named after—”
“Will you stop it—” Link snapped as his boots got yanked off.
“As you said, you are a captain, which means you should know better, how are you supposed to lead troops in a state like this—”
“I can handle it!” Link yelled, standing on his cot to be at eye level with the mystical overbearing mother hen.
Fierce huffed, grabbing the clothes and armor he’d managed to obtain and folding them, placing them in a neat pile in the corner of the tent. Then he proceeded to grab other items that were discarded and started to organize them.
“What are you doing?” Link asked, exasperated.
“This place is a disaster,” Fierce replied.
Link stared at him. This was—he didn’t—all right, this was ridiculous, the being had just emphasized that he was a former deity of immense power and he was playing housekeeper and where was this coming from—
Wait a damn minute.
Link squinted, and horror chilled his blood. “Mask drank a stamina potion.”
“Yes, he does that far too often—”
“No. He drank one before he put on your mask.”
“I don’t see how that makes any difference.”
“Your hands are shaking.”
Fierce looked at Link, his blank eyes narrowing as one of his eyebrows rose. “Don’t be ridiculous, my hands never shake.”
Link crossed his arms and gave the most stubborn look he could possibly throw in an overpowered mystical being’s direction. The Fierce Deity looked back, unimpressed, and then looked down at his hands, which were, in fact, trembling.
Fierce blinked.
“Oh,” he said.
“Told you,” Link confirmed. “Now take the mask off and let Sprite come back.”
“Link is resting.” Fierce emphasized, returning his attention to folding the captain’s laundry. He curled his lip in annoyance. “What sort of military training breeds such slovenly accommodations?”
Link blushed. “I usually am better organized, but we’ve had four days of fighting on and off and I hardly have time to even see the tent let alone get in, strip, and pass out.”
Fierce shot him an analytical look. “You haven’t bathed in four days?”
Link immediately felt dread fill him. He didn’t know where this deity drew the line and he was not testing it. “No, no, don’t you dare. I’ll sleep, I promise, I promise!”
True to his word, Link scrambled under the thin blanket provided to him and watched the deity with a near panicked gaze. Fierce continued to look at him for an agonizing moment before continuing his ministrations.
Link didn’t honestly realize just how bone tired he was until he laid his head on his pillow. His brain went from this is insane to wow this bed is amazing, this is so comfortable, just wow to nothing at all as pure exhaustion overtook him. He felt another blanket get tucked around him, long, calloused fingers smooth hair out of his face, and then he felt nothing at all.
Honestly, he didn’t regret the sleep he got. He woke up mid-morning the next day, feeling far more refreshed than he had in a solid month. He didn’t regret the sleep at all.
Until he went out into camp and found half his healthy troops passed out from exhaustion after being drilled all night by “the Old Man with tattoos” and had to get an earful from Impa about letting Mask run the camp with his magical artifacts. Mask himself was wrapped in more blankets than Link thought were even in the camp, sound asleep and at peace.
Sighing heavily, Link carried the boy to his own cot, tucking him in. When he caught sight of the Fierce Deity mask hanging on his belt, he scrutinized it carefully, scrunching his nose. Picking up the object like it might burn him, he plopped it on a pillow beside the boy and sighed heavily.
What a bizarre encounter. But he’d be lying if he said it had been all bad.
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savage-rhi · 5 months
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#lucid dreaming is the most epic and teriffying thing sometimes#I've been building it up over the years and i feel like im getting to that point where when i feel that space between sleep and alertness#i can push myself into whatever is happening and mostly be in control#for me it literally feels like im walking through a heavy veil#like that tingling static you feel when your foot falls asleep#its like you're detaching from your body and going somewhere else#i can't pick how my dream turns out i kind of just walk through and deal with whatever I'm dealing with#earlier while napping i did it and i was like in my 50s or so checked my mirror and saw my wrinkles then i went out to my car#lived somewhere else entirely and i get in the car and im going down the highway and I'm in the left lane going the speed limit and this#older guy with curlyish white hair and a peppered beard black sunglasses and a white dress shirt is driving a convertible#and he looks over at me and gets pissed that im “trying to pass him” and proceeds to try and run me off the road#my car starts to begin to flip i can feel this whoosh of air in my face and hair and right before i start tumbling i shoot up from bed#like ive had an exorcism and my hearts going like 90 bpm#it felt so real like you couldn't distinguish if it was a dream even if you tried hard enough#touch taste sight smell its all there#i stg for me lucid dreaming feels like im highjacking the bodies of alternative mes in the universe and using them as temp avatars#to experience some weird shit#lmao 😂#I don't have apnea or anything else like that so not worried there#but shit man#these have been getting pretty intense over the last few months as ive gotten better at it#ted talk info dump#no magenta here#i feel like i need a safe word for these types of posts#magenta has already taken the mantle of complaining/venting
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shadowxamyweek · 1 year
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don't it say something about shadow that he's at his best, most enjoyable moments when Amy interacts with him XD he takes himself so seriously with others, but around her he drops the act a bit and flusters, it's very cute
XD XD XD It does. It very much does 💖🖤
I'd be remiss to fail to add onto this, however, that I believe Amy brings that out in everyone.
This may be a bit of a ramble (for that i appologize), but Amy Rose... She has a great capacity for helping people understand that they are loved. Whatever argument or playful ribbing or conversation or moment or joke or anything- ANYTHING she and another character are involved in- that character never questions whether Amy cares for them or not.
Amy cares deeply. Fervently. Frightfully. It's why we love her, too.
That character knows they are loved. Whatever context or interpretation of 'loved' you have based off of headcanons and ships and friend dynamics- it doesn't matter. They know they are loved.
And that... can flustered people XD
But of course, we ship Amy and Shadow XD we notice it more with them (also, we've been starving for them to talk to one another for nearly a decade. The Shadow the Hedgehog game, the last time I believe they spoke, came out in 2005... it has been a hot minute.)
I will add on and clarify- she's not the only person to get past his walls (though she IS the only one who we see do so in The Murder of Sonic). Rouge and Sonic can also get around Shadow's defenses in one way or another. The way each character successfully maneuvers this will obviously get a different reaction from Shadow (we as people are different and react differently to different people, yes? Even our own friends.)
But I do love, as you said, how flustered Shadow got with her specifically, and it IS different from how he responds to others by a large margin. It is in such a way and manner that I haven't seen any other character pull off, and it makes me so happy 🖤💖
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front-facing-pokemon · 11 months
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Now i know this blog is obviously for.. well. Front facing pokemon, but your tags are always super interesting. I think your opinions on pokemon are pretty neat
i've gotten a few asks like this so far, and it's always nice to see that folks aren't annoyed about how much i talk in the tags. i have lots of opinions on lots of things! and i like to talk a lot. the reason i started talking more in the tags is actually because of asks like this—folks saying they liked seeing what i had to say on particular pokémon has encouraged me to actually talk about my thoughts more (although if you regularly read my tags, i tend to get off-topic pretty quickly. i queue these up very early in the morning, as soon as i get up, and i'm usually a little delirious), especially compared to my first early posts on this blog which didn't even have any tags at all, beyond the names of the pokémon. you're one of the like 4 ffp-mod likers how's it feel
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elliesbelle · 9 months
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#humungous trigger warning for the tags in the post#but i just need to vent somewhere and i don't want people irl to be in my business about this#or to get too worried and all...#tw: mentions of death and weapons and mental illness and suicide and sh-ing and abuse etc.#please feel free to ignore like i said i just need somewhere to vent#anyway i'm just so sick of being alive fr i've been so massively suicidal this past week and i'm so tired#having bpd AND bipolar AND depression AND ptsd and etc....#it really hurts so much#and my personal life is in fucking shambles like i just don't know what to do anymore#i feel so fucking alone all the goddamn time#so many friends don't give a fuck about anymore like they straight up just don't check up on me or anything#and my ex... i just. why can't you be more fucking understanding of what i'm fucking going through because of you#how the fuck did you turn my months-long depressive episode into me not caring about you cause i couldn't open about what i was going thru#i get you were fucking lonely but i was trying not to fucking die i was over here being talked off ledges#and then sending me a voice memo saying that you were lonely and trying to make an effort but i just didn't care about any of it#it's not fucking about you!!!! i didn't even let my own girlfriend or best friend in!!!! that's what fucking mental illness is!!!!!!#you promised that you'd be more understanding about my mental illnesses when we started talking again#what the fuck is this then?#why am i breaking down every time that you ignore me or take forever to text#like... she's gone back to calling me by my name instead of calling me 'baby' like she always has#she hasn't called me by my name since we first started talking it's been literally fucking years#and not saying i love you to me anymore...#and how can you fucking promise to stay in my life and still be my 'friend' and then fucking ignore me and don't answer my text messages#how the fuck am i supposed to feel that you haven't responded to me in over 24 hours but you react to days old ig messages from me#i fucking hate having borderline for fucking real i hate that she's my fp it hurts so fucking much#i feel like a fucking child i can't deal with this#i literally woke up from my sleep at like 3 or 4 am this morning nearly screaming#and then my gf found me on the living room couch crying and cuts all over my arm and a kitchen knife next to me#my left arm has been stinging all day from the fresh wounds#too painful to bandage them at the moment
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bumblingbabooshka · 1 year
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That’s her father, thank you very much.
#literally the entire thought behind this was (verbatim)#'what if Tuvok's kids were haters'#hehehe...he's LIKE a dad to you?? he /IS/ my dad. - Tuvok's kids#Asil wouldn't actually act like this she'd be like Pretty Women.....and be very gallant as is her way#also idk when/if I'm gonna draw or write this#but I've had this persistent scene in my head#wherein Tuvoks kids meet the Voyager crew upon their return to the quadrant#and Tom challenges Elieth to a drinking contest and Elieth accepts#he wins without much effort (but with a LOT of booze) and after Tom is like completely knocked out#Harry's like wow. I can't believe he forgot Vulcans don't get drunk off of human alcohol.#and Elieth's like 'Indeed.'#also while that's happening B'Elanna is worried that Asil is flirting with Seven and getting all in her head about this beautiful Vulcan#stealing her away but it turns out Asil isn't interested in Seven at all - she thinks B'Elanna is the cute one v_v (nothing comes off this)#bea art tag#st voyager#st voyager art#B'Elanna#Seven of Nine#Kes#Asil#[REDACTED] family shenanigans#also I don't really see a father-daughter relationship between Tuvok & B'Elanna/Seven nor do I find it particularly interesting#as having every relationship between Tuvok and another person being 'mentor-mentee' is boring & a bit reminiscent of the magical n trope#really the only person I see him in a consistent 'fatherly' or 'mentorship' role with is Kes#You could argue Janeway but I'll argue that when it's shown he's more her friend and advisor than a mentor to look up to + be taught by#I wrote about my ideal seven-tuvok and b'elanna-tuvok relationships here but it got SO long that it wouldn't let me put anymore tags RIP#HEHEHEHE
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pokeharvest · 6 months
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um. Really scared about my laptop right now
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piplupod · 1 month
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spider bite + counselor seeming to forget abt me entirely (cancelled my appt last monday, has not phoned to rebook still, even though secretary said the counselor would phone the next day)
blinks. hm! interesting!
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moregraceful · 10 months
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I like legit have no desire to get to know Waldorf and Statler outside of the arena but catch me rolling up to opening night for the Cuda in the fall with needlework where I am inventing a new form of witchcraft to set the UC Berkeley hyenas on Jonathan Becher, being like, okay fellas, you've been season ticket holders for both the Cuda since the beginning and for the Sharks even longer, tell me what I missed on Glee, make it make sense.
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cinnamon-phrog · 3 months
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How's your day going on tumblr
My day has only just started [EST timezone you see, I am so sorry if I'm incomprehensible] but it's going well, thank you!
I was a bit sad because I chose to give the benefit of the doubt to someone someone else was being mean to, but the person I gave the benefit too turned out to be exactly who I hoped they weren't.
That red x yellow shipper turned out to be a pr*shipper but just didn't say it, a friend of mine told me about their gross twitter acc, as well as the other shipper who sided with them. The only thing they're right about is yes it does indeed look like it's 2022 again :c
It makes me sad to see nothing but gatekeepers and pr*shippers in the dhmis tag so I'm just going to not bother looking anymore, you all had your chances.
It's very messy and has upset me for a bit, but I went offline to go to town and I felt much better!!
[I go off a lot more in the tags- like a LOT a lot. A sort-of vent/complaint but not an ooooooh look at me vent just a few things that've happened in the past that made me who I am now]
#i get worried that i complain too much so i try to bring the positive. because there IS always a positive#i bought a froggie eye mask for one. it matches my 5 quid frog snuggie <3#and i got a free blocklist yayyyyyyy happy days#it's sad that most people who i think might be like me and see the trio as ageless/adults and wholesomely ship them turn out to be prroshit#but i keep looking! i know two or three who have but got chased away by the gatekeepers who mistook them for proshits#i honestly don't blame them for being so mean now. anyone could be anything and it's hard to know if it's not directly stated#and i used to assume a lot. i still do but i want to use my assuming to assume good#and i think i only caught my assuming bug from others since i came into the dhmis fandom quite young [sadly]#god 2022 was bad. at least june-august felt like it's never end. gross people everywhere and i had to be an agony aunt to 20+ year olds-#when i was only 15. actually who fucking does that. i'd gone through the worst of the toxicity#forced to see yellow as a child or i was afraid i'd be excluded. treated weird when i admitted it. a good friend turned out to be a pr*.#i felt i HAD to get involved or i'd be told i wasn't doing enough. i was a child. a baybee. i just wanted silly puppets and to be funny#now i worry i'll be 'called out' for nothing and everyone is two faced#can't try to make dhmis mutuals without checking their blog and seeing how mean they are to people like me#and it's so stupid. you guys can all be so stupid. i can't make friends because of you because i'm afraid#everytime i post art or gush about the characters that bring me a comfort you wouldn't believe i worry i'll be told off from it.#i talked about yellow once on my old sideblog and some bitch whined about how i felt for him and how it was wrong#how they told their friends and they all agreed i was a freak for it. it's not that dramatic. not everyone sees him as a baby#like what was the point of that. maybe check my blog and you'll know how i see him.#i'm glad someone came to my defence.#someone once got into a post i made for fun which explained how i saw him and oh boy they infantilised him and went off-#about how he's their baby brother. good for you /gen but can you do that somewhere else i love your art i know your famous but that's no-#excuse. i see more popular palatable artists get away with worse shit like this and it's saddening and i make sure to get away from it.#it's hard when i want to see art of my loves and only see two of them together. it's bittersweet and feels incomplete.#without them i feel incomplete. finding them was like finding three quarters of me that were lost to make me whole.#i bought badges of the trio on etsy and i lost the yellow one. i sobbed. i had to be consoled. i couldn't even do my math exams#because i got a taste of what a life would be where just one peice was missing.#any moment any of them can be taken away from me. that's selfish because they're not even mine and they're not even real.#i went off a bit. i AM happy. i am on my way to be happy. that's just something i needed to get off my chest
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#Seven’s Public Diary#vent post#cw vent post#vent#cw vent#wound mention#sighs deeply#had to take my shirt off for someone recently for medical reasons and while 'oh you poor thing..' is far from the worst response ive gotten#it's definitely still strange to hear. like i'm not rlly surprised‚ i am aware that i'm an upsetting sight#and i keep myself covered all the time to avoid upsetting people that can't handle the sight of marred skin#but i've grown so comfortable in my body over all these years that an interesting side effect of that is that i tend to forget#just how shocked and upset and worried ppl tend to get when they see me. it's almost funny. the sad kind of funny i guess#guess i'd rather laugh than dwell on the knowledge that i'm a set of walking trigger warnings that must be censored#anyways. that experience combined with the stressful and tiring process of tending to a wound on my back for the last 2 weeks#has me thinking about Ch. 5 of AEIWNF. for... reasons. so maybe i'll finally make myself draft and post that today#there's so many things i need to make myself do but the appeal of just sitting alone weaving bracelets and binge-listening to TMA is strong#the urge to be alone and craft things while listening to stories told through a lo-fi medium... where does it come from#that's a rhetorical question i know exactly where it came from. i'm just turning into both of my grandmothers lmao#what's the line. 'i've got my grandmother's veins in the back of my hands' what's that from. it's a Wonder Years song right#Hoodie Weather!!! yeah that's it. man i haven't listened to that in ages. maybe that'll be today's weather report#anyways. what else can i vent about. uhh. it's getting harder and harder to put my thoughts into words and that's concerning!#i'm fighting the desire to push everyone away again even though it feels like i should. i'm too toxic of a person#like. talk to any of the people that have ghosted/blocked me and they'll likely tell you to stop wasting your time on me lmao#and they'd probably be right. i'm so caught up in my own issues that i feel bad for anyone that tries to be friendly to me#everyone gets sick of my shit eventually. i'm overbearing and self-centered or you don't hear from me for months. there's no inbetween#i wish there was. god i wish there was#i'm never active on here anymore bc i feel like if i am then that's disrespectful to everyone waiting to hear back from me#but it's so much easier for me to post and reblog stuff than it is to talk one on one with literally anyone#it's not even social anxiety atp there's just something wrong with my brain. like not to self diagnose but Something's Wrong#okay that's enough whining. gonna go try to do something productive to make myself feel less useless
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