#I am still learning the lesson.

[bardicblast]

#dnd #curse of strahd #rahadin #dnd rahadin #dnd art #artists on tumblr #dnd character #dungeons and dragons #drow elf #dnd drow #i am goncharoving my way out here guys #wanting to do art featuring our rahadin but we dont know anything about him so im filling out the gaps vaguely #peeking just a little into his wiki page with half my eye so i can confirm One Thing #i am fighting the hardest battle over here trying to not spoil anything from how the original lore went down #i learned my lesson not to search for anything bc the guys on reddit wont bother hiding imortant details from the title #i am still laughing..when i was like collecting and writing names together i stumbled upon the name vasili which i did not remember where #that came up so i went okay imma just search it and a piano dropped on me immediately #i am still torn between: this detail fucks im glad i know vs it would have been bonkers if i experienced the piano drop during session #plus the amount im on the cos tag this info is everywhere so there is no way around it anyway

[linden-after-hours]

As much as most of us (I assume) found Joker Out through Eurovision last year and maybe are big fans of the contest (me included), please consider boycotting Eurovision this year!

Palestinians and allies have called for the disqualification of Israel but the EBU has refused. Now Israel is participating with a song that used to be called "October Rain" (the title has been changed) that is very clearly referencing October 7th.

Russia was (rightfully) disqualified for opening fire on Ukraine. Israel is allowed to continue, despite the year-long occupation and murdering thousands of Palestinians in the last half year alone.

Boycotting means not watching, not streaming the shows, not creating or interacting with any Eurovision content. You will miss out on a glittery night of music and it will suck, but it will help path the way to a free Palestine! 🍉

Read the BDS Movements statement from March 2nd 2024 here.

#Bojan being this involved kinda put a lil damper on the band for me #but he's such a teeny-tiny part in the entirety that is Eurovision #plus their fame is still kinda running off the event #so this is in no way me saying we should boycot JO #also iirc Kris shared a pro-palestine post in his story a while back (but i could've imagined that) #and i read/saw that Jan and Kris signed a petition to disqualify Israel #and also their lil no-war speech before Novi Val #afaik they haven't publicly stated any opinion #this whole Eurovision thing hurts tbh #I've been watching it religiously since I was eight #and i am going to miss it *so bad* this year you don't even know #but the safety of Palestinians is more important that a night in front of the TV #and the artwashing of the EBU fucks me up #i hope they learn their lesson #kick Israel out #apologise and show they've learned #so we can all have a great time again next year #with a free Palestine #linden talks #joker out #bojan cvjetićanin #eurovision #free palestine

[thisisadonaldduckblognow]

ik it’s probably a classic case of extrapolating way too much but... the way raph’s character design lines up w his whole arc and role and struggles...

like the fact that he is so so so much bigger than the others. raph is big, raph is strong, raph is steady and sturdy and he can literally pick up his entire family and carry them all at once. 

and like, when raph is so big and so strong and such a reliable thing. when raph is the protector, the one calling the shots on missions, the mother hen, the first point of authority. when raph is there, overprotective, when raph (for all that his brothers poke at him not being good under pressure) always always ALWAYS comes through at the end of the day when things are serious, ALWAYS gives it everything he’s got. 

his design and his learned role/behaviors in this family are just the perfect storm of why it took up to the season finale to drive home the issue.

so much of the series carries the default energy of “raph will handle it.”

raph will hold up the ceiling above you. raph will throw himself over you and take a hit and get back up and keep fighting. raph has a power that makes him even bigger and draws more attention and makes him able to carry MORE. raph will be the substitute parent. raph will be put into the mentor role through leo’s leadership arc. 

and raph is big. he’s built to carry heavy loads. raph is strong. raph is bold and loud and always ready to try to push on. even if he doesn’t know what to do or what he’s doing, he won’t give up and we’ll all pull together and things will turn out okay.

(his room is full of teddy bears. he dipped out on a mission to try to take a picture of a pigeon carrying a slice of pizza. he’s terrified of being alone.

he’s just as much of a kid as his brothers are. he’s just as new and inexperienced with the things happening to them as his brothers are. but for him, for some reason, there’s like this double standard where that becomes a huge glaring flaw.)

idk this got very sloppy and uncoordinated. i’m very in my feelings about raph right now though.

#rottmnt #rise of the tmnt #rottmnt raph #rise raph #rottmnt raphael #honestly i could go on forever and ever about the double standard thing where raph is concerned #like. w movie leo especially leo is learning lessons raph also had to learn in the series! making very similar mistakes! #but you never see analyses or essays pointing to those bad calls as signs that leo isn't up to the task... #(i mean there are some clear Reasons why that happens.) #(its the reason why raph and mikey are the bros who get the least content by a MILE. but. not the point of this post.) #the whole point is just the idle subconscious assumption and associations of it being fine to let raph carry everything #literally physically sure but also metaphorically #and the plight of the child who seems to Need Nothing (all children need; some sadly learn not to appear to need) #even my tags are incoherent rn clenches fists i love him so much is all #like there is a reason it takes to the series finale for him to have a proper breakdown and get actual support from his bros #and i am still mad we never got real good content for him and splinter #considering how similar their arcs ARE.... #thats a whole other thing whatever

[safewavess]

I love love love that the ccs will be forced to use the translator in order to communicate with the new ccs joining qsmp because that’s what it’s there for!!!!! it’s a translator!!! use it to translate, even if both of you are able to speak the same language!

I don’t see enough people use the translator, especially when the ccs are both able to speak (usually) english, and it’s still great that they can speak easier if they speak the same language, but the language barrier is one of the causes for the creation of the qsmp! Let the language barrier be a barrier in the first place, and let the translator do the work it was meant to do!

Let people who physically can’t speak the same language interact! It’s part of what makes qsmp qsmp, and even though it has impacted hugely just from adding people who generally create content and talk in different languages, I do think it somewhat lacks in the people speaking different languages category, because while that is true, it is also somewhat untrue in that all of the ccs can speak one of the same language (usually english), even if they’re not a natural at it!

Now, that’s not a bad thing at all! But, it does blur the speaking different languages problem that was meant to occur in qsmp. They speak different languages! Let them speak whatever language they want and let the translator do the work! Again, that is what it is there for! It is a translator! (I’m looking at you twitter)

And even if it takes a million repeats of the same sentence for someone to finally get what another person is trying to say, a hundred fuck-ups of the translation or a thousand language barrier/cultural miscommunications, again, qsmp was made for this to happen! It was made so people who come from different backgrounds and are usually unable to interact because of cultural/language barriers can interact, whether it start out negative or positive!

And I trust them (the ccs and fans) to communicate if controversy/confusion happens culturally and language-wise, and (hopefully) for the fans to not turn anything minor** into a huge drama, so I am extremely excited to see the ccs be forced into using the translator!

#I love love love when people use the translator so much like YOU CAN SPEAK DIFFERENT LANGUAGES AND STILL UNDERSTAND EACHOTHER #I just find it so fucking cool as someone who can only speak english fluently #qsmp #qsmp 2024 #I love hearing people talk in their native langauges even if I don’t understand shit it’s like woah you can speak and understand this whole #vocabulary without a second thought and I can’t??? Speak to me more in hopes that I will someday because I WANT TO #I want to learn languages so bad but I am caught between two to learn first because i cannot speak my own secondary language that more than #50% of my relatives CAN so I’m like I should learn that first but also spanish french and portuguese is RIGHT THERE and the one I should #learn first is so much harder to learn because of accessibility to lessons and just people who can teach it in general and also school lol #I’m not gonna say the language because I’m 90% sure nobody will know what it is but it is a tonal language which makes it much harder to #learn

[echotunes]

having busuu explain cases without actually explaining cases is kind of wild to me. like yes this is dative. this just makes sense to me, a person who speaks a heavily case-dependent language. however hearing it explained as "we are performing and receiving the action of looking into the mirror" is like. well i suppose this is correct yes but what a way to phrase it

#like i think this makes 100% sense i am not saying they should do it differently #especially when explaining it in english. while presuming that the person learning this is primarily an english speaker #but it's like. huh. yeah i suppose that is what it is. but to me it's just. sich anschauen. dativ. reflexivpronomen! been there done that #echo.txt #(also well i haven't touched busuu in like three months whoops. haven't been Actively Trying To Learn in ages) #(like i've still learned things but not via Doing Lessons i've just been. passively picking them up. you understand) #(read that fuga comic the other day and that taught me some new vocab. and also ordem now that i'm watching it again. and twitch chat) #but. well. figured i should get back to it maybe. can't hurt! #languageblogging

[vsaintsin]

A trend I've noticed in most online writing communities is that people HATE the editting/revisions stage of writing. Often with a passion, almost? Maybe it's just my hyper-literal brain misunderstanding a bunch of sarcastic jokes but idk?

The first draft is always where I feel least at home with a story. It's messy and too cramped and too open and I wind up with 600 separate docs containing various versions of the story and I'm mostly puzzling them all together but sometimes I can't even be all that sure they're in English because they're such nonsense to my language processor. God Forbid first draft V remembers that settings exist at all or that anything might need to be described in ANY WAY.

I love editting and revisions. That's when I get to watch my stories turn into SOMETHING and not just a garbled string of consciousness desperately trying to cling to themes and context and continuity.

My first draft is just stick-built suggestions of a house, editting and revisions are the walls and the flooring and the furniture and everything that makes the story feel like home. I love that process. It's where I strain all my confidence in my work from, when I finally feel like I'm doing more than yelling into the wind.

Maybe that's the artist in me that dreads starting any kind of illustration but loves the rendering process. Maybe it's the part of me that knows that the life of the work is in the part that AI just can't do - the human hand that adjusts and tinkers and is thoughtful of single lines that maybe nobody will ever notice.

Probably though I'm just a chronic over thinker who likes to be able to find a practical application for something that usually causes me so much trouble.

#booklr #The Suffering I guess #writeblr #I still don't know how to use hashtags #I am the worst millennial to ever millennial #am i just an alien amongst my own kind who has yet to learn the lessons that make us who we are

[yuckydraws]

(Click for better quality)

Healing & Growth

(gif made by my friend @robanilla-arts is below - slight warning for flashing! Thanks again, Rob!)

#if you feel like reading it - I'm gonna ramble in the tags. #Don't really feel like having it attached to the post for forever... cause what if i just wanna reblog some fairysona art?? #anyways #this year sucked a lot. in a lot of ways. but im grateful for it. #healing is stupidly hard and annoyingly enough? not linear in the slightest. Yet infuriatingly - it is worth it. #I am far from done with healing. I've barely scratched the surface. #but im learning and connecting with myself along the way. #The biggest step I've taken this year is working on my people pleasing ways. it's a bad habit birthed from a lot of different traumas. #but it no longer rules my life. #I am not passive anymore - and surprise! that doesn't make me a horrible or evil person. #my kindness is no longer a weakness. its still a part of me and always will be. i won't let go of it. #but it is no longer to a fault #there are people undeserving of my kindness... i realize that now. I know what i will and will not put up with in every kind of relationshi #im still learning and exploring - and i've said a lot of goodbyes this year. I'm sure i will say more. #but that's okay. #some relationships are forever - some serve you for a while and teach you a lesson when they end. #and some relationships stick around and don't *have* to have a deeper connection #and that's also okay. #I didn't think I'd make it through this year in all honesty. I was very close to ending it all on multiple occasions. #But. for what it's worth - as of now im glad im here. #i will continue to struggle and have my hard times. im not naive enough to think depression just goes away. #but im okay for now and im moving forward. #there will be pauses and abrupt stops and likely some good ol' rotting involved. but when i can - ill be moving forward. #i will not speak a word of 2024 because no matter what it will have it's ups and downs. #but i will continue to keep working on myself. and that's all anyone can do in this weird life. #if you made it through all of that... uhhhh wow you got a crush on me or smth? /j/j/j/j #but fr - if you read this far... thank you. i hope you're faring well and that you have a happy celebration tonight. #sleep well and dream well when it comes to you #yucky draws #my art

[sexygaywizard]

Love having new life experiences. Almost passed out from blood loss today 💖

#i did not eat and hydrate enough before donating blood. but please enjoy my blood babies #i felt fine and got all the way home and was still fine for a while and then it hit me like a brick #i got nauseous and dizzy and everything was blurry and i was sweating like crazy #but then i lied down for a bit and was fine so im fine 💖 but lesson learned! #i usually am good about it but i was so busy i didnt have time to eat a lot today #i talk

[nightofmiracles]

i kinda agree with the popular theory of Tai guarding the Crown but, if that's the case, nothing has changed, has it?

like, it's sort of implied Qrow knows the mission Tai is in charge of. if it's relic related and he didn't disclose it...? still half truths in Oz' circle?

even if Qrow doesn't know more than "Tai is doing his own thing", Oz WOULD have that knowledge. yeah?

#rwby #rwby beyond spoilers #i sort of got the 'we are still being sneaky like we have been for nine volumes' vibe from the first episode as well but like #really. no lessons learned uh? #why hide it if it's Crown related? #' if it's not Crown related than what is he doing? ' i don't know !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #i'm not saying it isn't that. i'm just saying they are still being dumbasses if that's what's going on and they are being secretive over it #tell Yang and Ruby at least!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! they have been through enough they can understand it if that's what's going on #am i being dense? is this the wrong thought process to make

[pfhwrittes]

For a second I thought the cow incident was over the weekend and I was about to book a flight to the UK to tuck you into blankets and make you huge piles of food and treatos.

Also thing. So I have zero and I do mean zero filter on my mouth. Mum likes to say the shit I say is why she has so many grey hairs. Now this isn't to say I'm a jerk or anything close to that. More that I'm a sassy thing and it's amazing that I still have a job. Example, yesterday at work my supervisor and an educator were showing these two students we have proper body mechanics for lifting heavy surgical trays.

Educator "just remember to bend and lift with your knees."

Me walking behind them "pop it like you want that anaconda to get some hun."

Educator and Supervisor "MA'AM" and government name while laughing.

Me walking away as I shake my ass "am I wrong?"

Anyways somehow I still have a job and I'm not entirely sure how. One supervisor wanted to get me drug tested and like 3 weeks later I accidentally gave him nightmares.

Love you hope your week going fabulous ❤️

stigy oh my god i am trying so hard not to cackle at your lack of brain-to-mouth filter right now.

i am fully high-fiving you over saying weird shit at work and somehow still keeping a job. i was well known for saying some truly off the wall shit at my last job (never mean or malicious, just stuff that made people go "parker!" in a scandalised tone while also laughing).

like that time one of my favourite co-workers came to find me in the stockroom and i said "i wish i was getting fucked as hard by dickheads in charge outside of work as i am inside of work" and i made her think she'd gone into premature labour because she was laughing so hard. i am very pleased to tell you she didn't go into labour because i would NOT have handled that well let me tell ya.

lmao i can promise i haven't been getting up to (many) antics at the moment. i've been good! just a few harmless pranks on my mum and an accidental midnight spidering.

love you too! and i hope your week goes most excellently! 💜

#pfh answers #friend tag #i am taking a break from writing my soapgaz nonsense so i've remembered to reply to you this time! #tw spiders #i guess? i'm talking about spiders in the tags it's not actually relevant to the ask whatsoever anyway #a “midnight spidering” sounds exactly like what you think it sounds like (unless you're thinking it's something freaky) #i uh may have COMPLETELY ACCIDENTALLY thrown a spider at my mum while i tried to rescue it from my room at midnight #in my defence - she startled me #and in her defence she wasn't expecting her fully grown child to be sneaking across the landing with a spider in their hands so #we both learned an important lesson that night #for me it was the fact that i will still think about climbing out my window and onto the roof when she uses my full name #for her it was the fact that i will somehow make a situation where there shouldn't be spiders more spider-y

[loveofastarvingdog]

forever grateful for destiel

#timothy's txts. #this is specifically about learning that desire is okay.......... still learning the lesson but i am learning

[ziipzeepzop-eez]

I took adult multivitamin and now I have adult chest pains help me why does it still hurt why I am an 💥adult💥 arent I the gummy teen vitamins am I supposed to still take them help me why does it feel like a. heart burn.

#I AM DANG NEAR 20 #WHY DOES IT PHYSICALLY AIL ME TO TAKE ADULT MULTIVITAMINS??? #WHAT'S GOING ON #AM I STILL A BABY IN ADULTHOOD OR SOMETHING #OR IS MY IMMUNE SYSTEM JUST QUIRKY #I FEEL THE CRAMPS IN MY SHOULDER BLADES #this has happened multiple times #will i ever learn my lesson? #stay tuned to find out

[crybabyboyscout]

From the bottom of my heart, I am muthafuckin tired.

I need to allow myself to truly rest and relax. I need to be taken care of, the same way that I take care of myself. Self love is beautiful but it’s time for communal love. I’m grateful that I am learning to let myself be loved. I deserve the same love I give.

#oracle to oracle #the greatest lesson I will learn is to be still. to be present. to know that I deserve peace and stagnance and relaxation #and naps bitch. and for someone to cook dinner for me and give me back massages #and to make me a priority in the same way that I value myself #i am a being of love and a beam of love #a beacon of light #steadily forward

[hellcifrogs]

Any tips on how to get better at art?

Draw a lot. A LOT. Find something you enjoy drawing, something you have fun with and DRAW IT A LOT! Draw and paint, and study models online, tracing helps to start and with poses, but practicing from observation is also good. Try different things and find what you really have fun making, go from there. (I love coloring and adding effects so that's almost the same as playing for me, meanwhile I struggle a lot with backgrounds and scenery so recently I'm focusing on that, trying to find something I like about it too)

Have a little patience with yourself too. Let yourself be bad at it. Also please don't compare yourself to others~ Do pay attention to styles you like and admire and try to learn from them, but don't compare your results to theirs. You'll always see all of your own failures, but only the best of others results so compare your processses <3

#ask #these are both things i have done and still am doing and trying to learn #on bad days ill look at other artists and feel really bad about my own style #other days ill look at something ive done recently and go #fucking hell this rules i love what i did here #DESPITE still finding mistakes and things to fix #those are lessons for future drawings #anyway hope that helps :)

[i23kazu]

idk ab yall, but i fully believe that everything happens for a reason :-) life is interesting indeed

#and whether that is to teach you a lesson #or to help you get revenge #or to punish you #or you bless you for deeds #idk! life is a pretty funky thing #but the most important thing ive learnt in my 18 years is that #maybe sometimes ; you ARE the problem. and thats okay #sometimes its not bc everyone hates you. maybe its because you truly did something wrong and you need to learn from your actions #and its important to evaluate as well ; dont just blame everything and everyone else for things that happened that gave you negative emotion #-emotions! #its okay to be the problem. no one faults you entirely. but you learn and grow like everyone else #but thats if you’re willing to learn and grow like everyone else :) #you will never truly grow if you stick with a victimising mindset #and you will never truly find what you’re seeking with a victimising mindset #wow i rly went on a tangent here sorry yall hehe im being reflective tonight #genuinely 18 years have passed and sometimes im like!! why am i still here!!!! but then i remember im here for a reason too #and i hope to find the reason one day

[moregraceful]

Did not fall at ice skating AND I sweated all my rage out at one of my specialists 😎 He gets to live another day and I finished my first session at this rink! I think I made it hmm 6 out of 10 lessons which isn't GREAT, but also. What can you do in these unprecedented times. I remain as ever unable to do a crossover, however a friend I made in class decided the two of us are going to try the next group up in the next session. So at least I'll be learning new stuff and not be bored failing at the same things I've been failing at since 2018. I get to fail at new stuff!

I do think my parents maybe missed the mark not forcing me to do sports as a kid...appreciate them encouraging me to be a sensitive and tenderhearted poet and I think I excel at it, but every time I go ice skating for an hour or go hiking for a couple hours or just move my body in a way that creates endorphins I'm like damn, you guys hear about this?? If you move your body, sometimes it clears your head and makes you feel more hopeful about life?? What?? Amazing.

Anyway, excited to start the next session in July. And if work does change my schedule and I no longer work Saturdays I'm thinking of trying a softball clinic 🤔

#like i was so nervous taking lessons at an nhl practice rink but they take it so much less seriously than the community rink i was at! #the other rink would test you before they'd let you level up! #our teacher today was like in july you can try the next group up and if it's not the right fit come back and see me. just try it! #i think legit the only thing sharks ice does similarly is if you get up to freestyle-level skills they start encouraging you to take #actual freestyle lessons so you're not just stunting on the 30yos tripping on thin air lmfao #i also learned today there is a learn to skate school figures class which i am so tempted by except i think i'm still a little too unsteady #but maybe later. it would be so cool to learn school figures. the teachers were always doing it before class and i was like 🤩🤩 #people are always like oh you love hockey! you must want to play hockey so that's why you take ice skating lessons? #i'm like NO i take lessons because i want to DO COOL SHIT (<- unclear what the cool shit is) #fresno oilers.txt