#I also apologize if I haven't replied but I have read all the messages and comments🌱

[the-modern-typewriter]

Just wanted to say thank you so, so much for writing Fate's Favourite. I actually found and loved your blog before I ever found that fanfic, and it was a delight to know it was written by you, and it's so clear how you've improved. But Fate's Favourite will always have a part of my heart, because it's the first story I've read that just has a platonic friendship that feels as equal as a romantic one without being romantic? And as a lonely aroace that means everything. EVERYTHING. (1/2)

(2/2) I had a conversation today that reminded me that I'm never going to have the queerplatonic relationship I want that I've always wanted since I was a child, and how it makes me want to write one so much more, but then I've never managed to write the story I've wanted to write my entire life because I'd always be afraid of being accused of queerbaiting or people just going, 'but it's actually just a gay romance this isn't what friendship looks like' and just. Thank you for Fate's Favourite.

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Wow. FF is a blast from the past!

You are very welcome.

Apologies for the long, self-indulgent reply.

That story was one of the first things I ever properly wrote and my first (maybe second?) truly long-form story ever. I thus have a soft spot for it, even though in terms of craft and technique I can't so much as look at it without seeing all my numerous beginner flaws and cringing and can't bring myself to actually point people to it. Much improvement since then, as you say!

(An excellent reminder that writing is a learned skill.)

Anyway. The other interesting thing about that story is that I wrote it before I'd ever heard of asexuality or realised that was what I was. I was a very confused teenager being bombarded with this pressure to have crushes and date people and all that general societal messaging we have about romance being the most important thing ever. Especially in YA.

So I'd go home after school and write that story.

Obviously it's more unhealthy than what I'd want for myself in my real life, but the sheer intensity of feeling and importance of the platonic main relationship was something I had also never seen before but craved. And still crave, honestly. So I feel ya.

As for queerbaiting...

A lot of readers at the time told me they viewed the story as 'pre-romance'. AKA, it's a romantic relationship and they haven't realised it yet for whatever reason. They mostly didn't mean that badly, I don't think.

(Although I sometimes think though that if the term 'queerbaiting' was as broadly known and misused then as it is now that I would have been mercilessly lambasted out of ever writing again! And I wouldn't have known how to articulate the fact that wasn't, actually, what I was doing. I think we need to be kind to new writers. I think 'content creator' is gutting something vital in the ecosystem. But that's another rabbit hole.)

So I've been there. It happens. But other people's bad takes didn't change the story and what it meant to me as a lonely ace teenager or what it meant to you.

I have had readers before make a similar comment to you about how it was the first time they got to see something so important to their heart portrayed.

That matters so much more than whatever people say about your writing who don't need it.

Which is why we have to keep writing the stories.

Even if it's clumsy and raw. Even if it's the first thing you've ever tried. Even if it's (especially if) it's a messed up fantasy straight from the most primal part of your brain.

If we don't write it, it won't exist.

And that's so much worse.

The nay-sayers can come to the party, but it wasn't thrown in their honour.

#mentions of this story sure caught me off guard #though not in a bad way #I'm amazed it's still floating around #the writer's journey lol #the writing life #writing talk

[inkly-heart]

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#I'm so late with this but thank you so much guys for the support<33 #I also apologize if I haven't replied but I have read all the messages and comments🌱 #they all means to me so much<33 #I hate it that my head likes to fill my mind with all these negative things time to times #but your support has helped me a lot🌱 and I'm very thankful for it🌱

[natsglorifiedsimp]

Something Changed 2

A/N: You guys asked for it.

Taglist: @queen2234 @pipsipey17 @casquinhaa @natashajumpinoff @natsxwife @dark-hunter16 @i-lovescarlettjohansson @mrsrushman @tropicals-things @alianovnasposts @nova-kyle @jusnough @splzq @yellowthingsstuff

Part 1

Tasha's POV

"Hey, Maria!" Natasha called.

Natasha noticed the subtle eye rolling of Maria. She squinted her eyes. It was unusual for Maria to act like that especially cause she's been helping her get to date you.

"What do you want Natasha?" she grumbled.

Natasha was taken aback by this. "Jeez, I'm just asking about Y/n." another eye-roll was given to Natasha. "Have you seen her? I haven't seen her on campus."

"Glad you noticed, Natasha" she sarcastically said. Maria feigned a thinking posture and started to glare at Natasha, "Let's see hmm" Maria said with diction.

"How about the fact that you've been ignoring her since you and Wanda dated and now she's gone off to Los Angeles leaving us behind because of you!" Maria gritted her teeth trying to contain her anger because you were in the hallway where students were passing around thinking Natasha and Maria were doing a secret drug deal.

"W-what?" Natasha stuttered. "I-I haven't ignored her."

"Save me the drama, Natasha. All you think about is yourself." Maria said.

Natasha was so confused. She didn't know what she did to you. She hurriedly texted you, hoping you'd give her some explanation but all was left delivered. That's not usually you. You always reply as soon as you see the message pop.

Natasha back reads you guys' conversation. Seeing if there were any clues on when are you going to LA or something that would hint at anything.

But all she saw was how she neglected you. She could see in every message how much you needed her. She missed your rants, your rambles, and everything that you guys would do when you hang out.

She broke her promise.

Y/n's POV

LA was different. The school was fine so far. No one dumped milk on your hair yet. No one made fun of you yet. And you were hoping it would stay that way.

The new environment was hard for you. It is hard to start a conversation with people when you don't know who they are. Natasha always does the talking. But somehow in this world, you are the one who needs to adjust.

Even if the people were friendly, throwing a smile at you or saying hi, somehow you still felt timid and awkward. You were scared to make friends.

Cause you know they will leave again.

Natasha did. What could any of these peer's differences be?

You cried every night knowing you had no one cared. That even if you consider them your best friends they will never think of you the same way. You were an option. You are a pawn to someone's real agenda.

You cried because you knew how much you cherished friendships. You knew to yourself that you would care and love people and go out of your way just to be there for them.

But somehow with you, it was always the opposite.

You are left alone, and when you thought someone cared...

She never really was.

Natasha's POV

She tried calling you a million times, even called your parents just to have a chance to talk to you. To apologize. But you were too far gone.

She may have found the love of her life but she left you. She left you feeling like she didn't care. She disregarded your feelings and put herself first. She took advantage of you.

Natasha regretted everything that she did. Everything that she broke. She knew how much you value friendships and she also knew how to break it.

There were no more Y/n. The laughter you shared is now a glimpse of memories that she wished would last forever. Love may have come her way but she didn't have to run you over just to find it.

You were her person.

But i guess...

Loving involves losing right?

#Time to torture people #natasha marvel #natasha fanfiction #natasha alianovna romanova #natasha romonova #black widow #natasha romanov #natasha x you #natasha x reader #natasha x y/n #natahsa romanoff #natasha romanoff x reader #natasha romanoff fanfic #natasha romanoff #natasha romanoff angst #black widow x you #black widow x y/n #black widow x female reader #black widow x reader #natasha romanoff x you

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA for getting mad at a friend over Harry Potter?

🏳‍⚧🎊 <- for recognizing this later

I (15X) have this IRL friend who we'll call A (14X). A and I are both under the trans/nonbinary umbrella, which I feel will be important. A also suspects that they have autism, which I won't deny, I feel like they do as well.

A is one of my best friends, and I've known them since we were 8 years old. We generally know what types of media would be considered dogwhistles towards marginalized groups - or so I thought, which is why it surprised me when A said they were getting into a mild HP hyperfixation.

A tends to hop around from fixation to fixation, and currently has been into Percy Jackson for the past month, constantly sending screenshots of their favorite moments in different fanfics to a group chat, including me and another friend, J (14X). I'd been fine with that, as A usually did this with any fixation and I thought it was fine.

One thing I did know is that PJO and HP crossovers are really popular (or at least, they were - not so sure about now), but I didn't think that A would associate with anything relating to HP. But then one day, I saw that A was talking with J about sorting their favorite PJO characters into different Hogwarts houses. If you haven't read HP, the school is called Hogwarts, and there are four houses within the school that you can get sorted into based on personality traits.

This surprised me, a lot. I thought that we all knew HP wasn't the greatest series (romanticization of slavery, anyone?), and that the author herself was a complete piece of shit. But when I voiced this, A basically said that they were rewriting the series to be "gayer" and more trans-accepting.

This troubled me. For one thing, as we were all trans, I thought they would know not to associate with HP in any way, shape, or form. I replied with, "You know JKR thinks people who support her books are transphobic, but are just too afraid to say it, right?" (Yes, I'm fairly sure she did actually say this. I wasn't lying.)

A responded with, "Who cares what JKR thinks? She's a bigot. Separate the art from the artist."

I couldn't do that, personally. HP felt too tainted by JKR's actions and words, and it felt wrong to come up with an excuse to engage with the series. I told A as such, and they replied with, "okay" and haven't responded to me or to the group chat since. J has spoken in the group chat, but hasn't said anything about our debate over HP.

Immediately, I was worried I had upset A too much. I thought they would understand, but I felt like I had accidentally crossed a line with them. I sent them a private message telling them I apologized for upsetting them, but I'm not sorry for what I said about HP. And I can't go to apologize to A in person, because I live an hour away from A and J. J hasn't updated me on A's position at all, and I haven't asked.

So I'm not sure. HP sucks, and I thought A would realize that as a trans person as well, but it also felt like I had personally insulted them by insulting their side fixation.

AITA? TL;DR My friend, A, got a side fixation into Harry Potter. This troubled me, as we are all trans, so I told them off for it, and now they won't talk to me.

What are these acronyms?

#aita #am i the asshole

[pandorasprongs]

INTERLUDE | are we still friends?

'it's nice to have a friend' fic masterlist + playlist | previous chapter

PAIRING: jamie tartt x fem!reader

WORD COUNT: 3.2k

SUMMARY: after months of ghosting, reader finally gets to talk to jamie again at the end of her second year.

WARNINGS: language

A/N: so we're going back in time to when reader's in uni and early in jamie's man city career :) hope u all enjoy! (also i know frats aren't a thing in the uk but i didn't find that out till after i published the prologue rip) i'd also suggest listening to 'are we still friends?' by tyler the creator for this chapter too just for the vibes — also!! thank you so much for 200 followers it's insane so many of you enjoy my fics :))

Age 19

"And that's it for this semester! Congrats everyone!" Your professor greets the room as the last person finishes their presentation. The room cheers, — albeit weakly given that most of the students there were coming down from their finals week caffeine addiction, — and everyone soon starts filing out.

You pass by your professor on the way out with Liv and hand her the trinket that the two of you planned on giving out to all of the professors you've had this semester. Some out of gratitude, some to make them feel guilty for the low marks they've given. This certain professor, a lady in her mid-40s who has been in the STEM area of research for years, had designated the two of you her favorites.

"Thank you so much, ladies. It was such a pleasure having the two of you in my class." You both give her a warm smile before heading into the hall. 

When you make it outside of the building, Liv lets out a cathartic scream of relief. "It's finally done!" You laugh at your friend's reaction. You were glad too, but not enough to yell in public.

As you headed back to your student hall, you pulled out your phone. It had become routine to message Jamie every time you were heading back to Manchester, which you were the next week when your parents picked you up.

Hey Jamie! How've you been? How's Man City? Saw the match with Cardiff, you did great.

You press send before adding on, If you're still here, maybe you want to meet up before you go back? I'm heading back to Manchester next week too if you want to meet up then instead. 

You send that too and type out I miss you, but after glancing at the rest of your unread messages, you delete it and sigh in defeat.

You don't even know why you're still trying. You haven't spoken to Jamie in months. No, it's almost been a year. The last time you did was when you went home for the summer holiday after your first year of uni, but even then, Jamie seemed distant and cold. He left the lunch early too after he got a call from his manager, much to your dismay. Even before that, his messages to you were getting less and less frequent till he finally stopped replying a few months into your second year.

Maybe it stung more knowing it was around the time you left that you realized how really felt about him. It wasn't just platonic love anymore; you might've actually been in love with your best friend then. But those feelings have since disappeared, at the same rate that Jamie disappeared from your life.

So now you were in a pub, supposedly celebrating the end of your second year in uni, but you couldn't stop staring at your phone, waiting for a reply. You've been re-reading your message to him and staring at that delivered in the corner until you finally broke out of the trance thanks to one of your friends calling out to you.

"Oi! You're not even tipsy. Are you playing or not?" Tina asks and you shut your phone before shifting your focus to the conversation. Right, you're playing Never Have I Ever.

"Shit, sorry," you apologize before lifting your hand. "I am now. What's the last one?"

"It was never have I ever slept with a footballer," Liv explains quickly, but the entire group had this knowing look on their faces that told you everything they thought of you.

Maybe it was fueled by the anger directed at said footballer or the fact that you knew they all thought you were a prude for not having hooked up with anyone the whole time in uni, — as far as they knew, — but you give them a knowing look that caused everyone's expressions to shift.

"No fucking way, you have?" Sam asks and you take a shot as confirmation.

"Technically yes," you explain but decide to hide which player it was. Because if they knew it was one of the up-and-comings of the Premier League, you'd never hear the end of it. Plus, one of them was bound to snitch to a newspaper for sure. "Back when I was 17 and before I left for uni, I slept with someone who ended up getting scouted." You neglect to mention that someone was your best friend, who agreed to be your first time because you were sure you'd make a bad decision the moment you stepped foot in a uni.

If they knew where you were from, they would've figured it out instantly. But you didn't have a Mancunian accent and none of them had ever bothered to ask where you were from over these two years — except Liv, who was no longer paying attention to the whole game and just scrolling on her phone, — so you were basically in the clear.

They moved on from your grand revelation quickly and continued with the game. At the end of it, you were probably the most sober out of all of them, so you ordered a Cosmopolitan. Maybe alcohol led to bad decisions, but at least it kept you off your phone.

You continued to talk with your friends till Tina gasped. You all turn to her to ask what happened when she exclaims, pretty loudly, "Looks like all of us have a chance at checking 'hooking up with a footballer' off our lists tonight." She giggles before leaning back into her seat.

You join the rest of them to look at what Tina had just seen and realize that not one, but two teams' worth of players had just walked into the pub. From Cardiff City and... Man City.

You already feel your heartbeat quickening and your eyes instantly start looking for Jamie in the crowd. The thoughts of 'he has to be here,' and 'he can't be here,' battle it out in your head, but when your eyes finally land on your former best friend, you don't know if the butterflies in your stomach are a good thing or not.

"Well, fuck it." You hear one of the girls you're with say as she downs another shot and gets up from the table. Some of the others join her in the group, but you're still frozen from nerves. Best way to heat up? More cocktails.

You watch with the other girls from a distance as the braver ones take their chances with the footballers on the other side of the bar. But for most of it, you can't take your eyes off Jamie. 

He looks really different, like bad different. He's loud and boisterous, but not in the way he was before. You watch how he talks to his teammates and you can almost see how his overconfidence masks the level of insecurity he has with much older players. Or maybe you're overthinking it. You haven't seen him in a while.

When your friends get back to the table along with some new drinks and stories, you try and listen intently. But you really couldn't stop looking behind them.

You don't think Jamie's felt your eyes on him, so you weren't worried he'd turn and see you staring. But if he did, you wondered how he'd react. Would he go wide-eyed and stare back or just look away as if he didn't just spot his best friend of a decade at a pub? You were about to find out.

After downing one of the drinks in front of you, — you weren't even sure if you were the one who ordered that one, to be honest — you excuse yourself from the table. When they saw where you were walking over to, they decided to start cheering. It did help your nerves, even though you were approaching them for different reasons.

"Jamie!" You get his attention and the moment his eyes land on yours, shock fills his face. You almost scoff at that. He goes to the place where you're studying and assumes that he wouldn't run into you?

You didn't even plan out what you were going to say, so instead you sarcastically greet, "Nice to see you here. In Cardiff. Where I go to uni."

Jamie doesn't say anything and just continues to stare at you. His cocky facade almost slips too, till one of the other Man City players rests his arms on Jamie's shoulders and he suddenly tenses. You've seen him before, probably in one of those tabloid articles, judging from his overall demeanor. He seemed like the type to get into those scandals.

"Ah fuck, I thought we got rid of you lot already. Don't you have enough drinks from your friends over there?" George, you finally remembered his name, states and you're taken aback. He must've seen you coming from that direction.

"No, I'm not here for that." You answer bluntly before turning back to Jamie, starting to get annoyed. "Are you seriously not going to say anything?" 

The Jamie you knew would be the first to defend you, even if it was just over someone knocking into you in the halls or stealing your pens. But it wasn't that you were after, honestly. You just wanted him to say something, anything at all.

"You know her, Tartt?" George scoffs and looks at Jamie. When Jamie continues to stay silent and just looks down at his feet, he chuckles and nudges the younger footballer. "A past hook-up, huh? Judging by your reaction. No need to be embarrassed, Jamie," he glances back at you and tries to whisper, "She's quite fit. Well, by your standards."

You roll your eyes, the anger starting to bubble. Now, Jamie had to say something right? But seeing no reaction, you correct him yourself. "Look, I'm not one of his bitter exes. I'm his..." You actually don't how to end that sentence.

George takes advantage of your pause and by now, some of the footballers around them had turned their attention to the scene. "Look woman, I don't care who you are to him, but take. the. fucking. hint."

You still don't remove your eyes from him. "Jamie," you whisper, almost pleading at that point.

Jamie looks up and seeing the multiple eyes on him at the moment, he finally speaks up, "You want an autograph or something? We're trying to enjoy our night, so I'll sign a napkin for you and you can be on your way."

The coldness in his response causes you to stumble and you take a step back. What did he just say to you? You try and search his face for any sign of remorse or guilt. Something that says, 'Please don't hate me, I didn’t mean it.' Nothing.

The sounds of the other footballers laughing don’t help either; it only contributes to the rising feeling of heat and embarrassment in you. You can feel the tears starting to form. There's no reason for you to break down in front of all of them, so you answer quickly, "Right. No need. Sorry for disturbing your night." 

You turn around quickly, but not without hearing George ask Jamie who you were. For a second, you almost thought he'd give him the truth.

"Dunno, probably some fan I met before." That breaks the dam and the first few tears drop to your cheeks. A crying girl isn't an irregular sight at a bar, but you really didn't feel like staying in the same place as Jamie anymore.

You approach the table to grab your things when you notice that most of your friends had already scattered across the pub. The only one left there was Liv, — who was the designated driver for tonight despite your university being a 5-minute walk away — who notices your tear-stained face and is quick to rush over to you. "What's wrong? What happened?"

You shake your head. "Don't worry. I just want to head back." Liv hadn't even known you for two years, but she knew that you weren't one to talk about your feelings. Instead, she nodded and offered to help you out of the pub, but you shook your head once again. You had a relatively high limit and partner it with what just happened with Jamie, you were practically sober. You grabbed your clutch and coat before rushing out of the place, furiously wiping the teams from your face.

Fuck Jamie Tartt. Fuck those Man City losers. Fuck everyone involved in turning your best friend into whoever that was. The boy you once knew was gone. Fully and completely gone. You had to accept that.

But even then, you thought you'd hear the door open behind you. You thought it would be Jamie. You thought he'd chase after you. You thought he'd pull you into a hug. You thought he'd apologize for what he did and for everything. You thought he'd cradle your face as he did so. You thought he'd plant a tender kiss on your lips as an apology too. You thought he'd re-enter your life as if nothing had changed.

But he did none of that. 

And you went home alone.

—

"(Y/N)? It's Liv, again!" You hear from the other side of your door, but make no attempt to move from your position in your bed. It was just too comfortable, perfect for wallowing in when you've officially ended the longest friendship you've ever had. Liv continues, "I'm heading home soon, but I asked Donna if she could keep bringing food for you to your door till you head home."

You were touched by the gesture but knew you weren't going to touch any of those bags till late at night when the hall was completely deserted. Till then, you'd be sleeping. Your parents had delayed picking you up till the last day and you've never been more glad about that.

"See you next semester! Love you!" were Liv's parting words and once you heard her footsteps recede, you fell back to sleep.

In all honestly, you've lost track of time at that point. Yeah, it was pathetic sitting in your room as if you were mourning the death of a loved one, but it's not like anyone cared. Well, Liv did, which is why she started bringing you food when she realized you weren't leaving your room, but she was heading home to London. Your parents had no idea what happened and you intended to keep it that way. The rest of your friends were off with their own lives, not even giving you a second thought. Jamie sure as hell didn't care what happened to you. He made that clear.

So for the rest of your time left in the hall, you just stayed in your room. Like a hermit. Jamie would've found it funny, you thought once, till it caused you to burst into tears once again. The more you tried to forget Jamie, the more you thought of him, which was the worst loop you could be in.

He's even in your dreams. One of them felt so real because you were in your exact position in reality when your phone rang. You saw his name as the caller, but 'dream you' just pressed decline. Even deleted the missed call notification. Good for her.

Then, you wake up to a missed call and a text from your mom. On route to Cardiff! Can't wait to see you, sweetie. 

Ah, fuck. Had that much time really passed? You jumped out of your bed and start fixing up. Technically, you had 3 and a half hours to do so, but counting showering, cleaning up your suitcases from your dusty closet, and shoving almost a years worth of items into said suitcases, then you were in a bind and never prayed for traffic more in your life.

And from the sheer fear of your parents giving you a sermon in front of the entire building, you almost forgot about your former state of wallowing in self-pity. Then you were faced with taking down the decorations on your wall. 

There was a mix of everything from school banners, even flyers, and pictures you'd taken with your friends and parents. You started with those first until the only ones left were the ones related to Jamie. You had pictures with him from multiple stages of your life. There was one from the first football match of his you ever attended and one from your graduation, too. 

You had kept the note he made you when you were 16 and you joined your first individual debate tournament. ‘Fucking smash it!’ was scrawled in his handwriting on a post-it note, which you've hung on your wall since your first year of uni. 

Even the rings he used to buy you for your birthday till his mom told him to find something new. You slowly pulled them from your desk drawer and realized there were only four. One missing. They were old anyway. You end up shrugging it off and placing them into your suitcase.

When you started inserting the rest of the items into an envelope, you continue to look at that picture with Jamie from when you were seven. Suddenly overcome by an emotion — rage, pity, nostalgia, you're not really sure, — you crumple it with your two hands and hold it like that for a few seconds. 

You finally let go and see the two distorted faces, you're suddenly overcome by feelings of guilt. 7-year-old Jamie didn't do anything wrong; what was the point of taking your frustrations on a picture of him? Maybe you can throw darts at a printed photo of the current Jamie when you get home instead.

You flatten the picture as best you can before putting it back into the pile in the envelope. You finish packing your desk and place all the items into one of your suitcases. You look around the room, satisfied. Sure, your sheets weren't made yet, but you were going to leave the place anyway and you needed to shower. It was 40 minutes till your parents would knock on your door, — as seen in the picture they sent of the GPS — so it was more than enough for you to get ready.

Time passed by quickly and soon, your dad was helping bring your bags down to the car while your mom talked about how much weight you've lost while you were away, like they always did. 

"Oh! Jamie, he had a game against Cardiff last week, right?" Your dad remembers as he starts the car. You almost freeze at the name, but turn to look out the window to avoid your parents catching whatever expression you had on your face. You were too tired to mask it properly.

"Yes, he was amazing!" Your mom exclaimed before asking. "Georgie said she told him to meet up with you here. Did he?"

"No," you answered quickly. You never lied to your parents, which is probably why they accepted your response so easily. You don't look back at them and continue to look at the passing trees. "Must've been busy."

A/N: yeah... and there you go! here's what happened that night in the pub and hopefully it makes me much more clear why reader still holds something against jamie! we're going back to the present day timeline for the next one so stay tuned!

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[renchant]

What's happening?

heres some context before i get into what happened november 23rd

delilah made her tweet about quitting content creation about a month ago

(she did come back but its still important she made this post at all.)

people noticed she had unfollowed zam, wasn't friends with him on discord anymore, etc. which was very surprising as they had been very close before as far as we could tell.

she even left the kaboodlesmp without, as far as i know, a proper goodbye stream within lore. the account just quietly unfollowed her in october and said goodbye to her alongside ivory and ivo in a tweet made at the end of the season.

we didn't know what was happening, but it was clear (atleast to me and my friends) that SOMETHING was going on behind the scenes.

exactly a month after delilah made her tweet shown above, which was 2 days ago as im posting this, delilah posts this tweet about princezam being emotionally abusive.

im going to be including alot of interactions that happened under this tweet, and related things, because i think its important to see EVERYTHING.

I apologize if the formatting is messy and hard to follow, tumblr doesn't let me properly rearrange images for whatever reason.

bormethius immediately replied with these tweets

he also had this interaction with someone under that tweet

& posted this on his alt

Delilah and Bormethius had this interaction under Bormethius's original reply to her tweet

Thats where Bormethius's response ends currently.

Subz's replied to the original Delilah tweet with this

And replied to her tweet asking Bormethius what she lied about with this.

Subz said these things in his discord server. These screenshots are from my friends so I don't know the full conversation or context, but I think they're important to include regardless. These are taken November 23rd/24th

That's what Subz has said. He might've said more in his discord but I'm not going to go looking for more. If anyone wants to look for more, you're welcome to.

vPluto replied this to Delilah's original tweet, which Delilah later hid.

Delilah responded with this

Delilah had this interaction with someone under that tweet

vPluto also retweet Bormethius's original reply to Delilah, and that's where his response ends.

Coinmonke replied to Delilah's original tweet

Delilah responded with this

These are screenshots of messages between Delilah and Coinmonke

Do with this information what you will. Zam has yet to say anything about all of this, and Delilah & Bormethius both seem to be making documents about whats been going on the past few months.

There are some people claiming to have known Zam in highschool and that he was a massive bully, but I will try and add that in a reblog, or a seperate post, at some point since I personally haven't looked at all the information there and wanna make sure I get that all down accurately and this post is already getting really long.

UPDATE NOVEMBER 26TH: Zam has released a statement saying that Delilah was the one who emotionally abused him and has provided screenshots in his statement. You can read it here.

#tw abuse #tw emotional abuse

[the-bloody-sadist]

#we don't support peer preasure in this house

Love your hashtag above.

Can I ask how do you deal with hurtful comments on your fanfics from someone you consider a friend? Like I know if some stranger send hurtful comments it felt bad but damn when someone you know said the same thing it felt worse. Early this year I was kicked out and blocked from an animanga lover group when they find out that I wrote mlm fanfics from major shounen series (naruto,bnha, aot, jjk). This what they said :

“I'm convinced you must have never had friends before because all of these relationships are perfect depictions of what PLATONIC friendship is. If you want a gay story support ACTUAL gay couples like in BL & GL manga. Do you know how frustrating it is to see people move mountains for a non canon ship that’ll never happen then ignore actual gay manga’s and anime’s in BL & GL anime/manga...."

What do you think? Even until now, I'm still feeling a bit guilty for liking non canon mlm and wlw ships from shounen series. But when I found your blog and read your posts, I felt way better. Especially that answer of yours to anon who asked is it weird to love mlm& wlw more than wlm. Thanks for sharing your hard work (analysis, fanfics, arts, reviews).

Sorry for my rants and for my weird feelings.....

Ohhhh this is so precious please don't apologize for sending me this ask, I love feelings and hearing about other peoples' experiences with them and how my art/accounts have somehow been relatable because of that.

The peer pressure in fandoms is absolutely insane and convinces me that the social aspect works the same as any high school full of bullies. There WILL be mean girls, there WILL be cliques, and if you're a creator like me, you're going to be a MAGNET for like ten different types of them.

As for how I deal with hurtful comments, I was raised in an environment that constantly shamed me. I was controlled from all sides on what I could draw, write, and consume, so I'm used to being shunned by those who "love" me because of what I'm interested in! Because of this, the hate comments were what I EXPECTED going in and the positive comments were actually the things that threw me for loops. Hurtful comments only had the power to nag at me when I didn't have an audience (or friends) to bounce them off of so they wouldn't keep popping up as a "do I actually do this, though?" "am I actually bad for this?". But now they don't bother me; they give me the chance to either make a troll reply or spice up my friends' group chat for the day.

As far as a FRIEND leaving a hurtful comment??? I have so much sympathy for you. I am SO sorry they treated you that way.

When I make friends, I tell them openly what I do and to what extent. This way, I gather the type of people I want and push away those who don't. If they think it's not okay, they're silly.

Those friends who kicked you out of their little club? SILLY. They think they're so pure and moral for gatekeeping what can and can't be done with creativity and passion. They won't ever know what it feels like to live as freely as you do. In the end, their opinion is an opinion that is largely not shared by the logical, rational public. Any professional in the art/film/writing industry can tell you that much. How else are we supposed to make stories? Have a little IMAGINATION!! DAMN!

I'm saying a lot of this because it's the best thing to tell yourself when you read things that are clearly meant to make you feel shame when you haven't done a single thing wrong. Since this is Tumblr and I can ramble to my heart's content, maybe it'll help you if I also point out the specific tools that have been used in that message they sent you. Sometimes a good breakdown of tactics is all it takes to remind yourself you're not in the wrong.

"I'm convinced you must have never had friends before" AKA "you're so ignorant" - invalidating your experiences to crumble any foundation you might've had to stand on if you wanted to argue back. Starting off with this helps them cut you down so your self-esteem is lowered.

"these relationships are perfect depictions of what PLATONIC friendship is" - their opinion is being stated here as a fact, as if the entire world agrees with them and there's no other way to see it. First of all, this means NOTHING to the shipping world, since it exists largely to turn friendships into romances. Idk what they wanted to do with that one.

"If you want a gay story support ACTUAL gay couples like in BL & GL manga" - I'm not sure what kind of burn that is. SUPPORT ACTUAL GAY COUPLES LIKE THE REST OF US!! Okay snuffledumpkins. Guess nobody taught them how to MULTITASK!!! GUESS WHAT? I CAN SUPPORT ACTUAL GAY COUPLES *AND* NON-CANON GAY COUPLES, FREAK! WHAT NOW, HUH??? Being serious though, this is an attempt to define for YOU what ''''''true gay couples'''''' are (ACCORDING TO THEM), when this is an entirely fluid meaning and can be applied to whomever you'd like in fiction. This is THE PURPOSE OF FANFICTION.

"Do you know how frustrating it is to see people move mountains for a non canon ship that’ll never happen then ignore actual gay manga’s and anime’s in BL & GL anime/manga...." AHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHA! (inhales) AAAAAAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAH imagine being so stupid that you don't know how much better LGBT representation can be in fanfiction and non-canon works than in actual BL/GL works. Imagine thinking that the only way you are allowed to enjoy BL/GL relationships is through canon couples, otherwise you're not helping the cause. Here's the biggest thing to remember: they don't give a fuck about the cause. They are using that language as a way to shame you. Oh you think these friends are in love??? You must not support LGBT people in real life. You must not support ACTUAL stories about ACTUAL gay people.

The logic jump is LAUGHABLE.

Ughhhh, what a long rant from me. But your last paragraph absolutely WARMED my heart, minus the part about feeling guilty. Let me just...[shines spotlight down on you][metal screech][picks up megaphone] YOU ARE NOT IN THE WRONG FOR WANTING FICTIONAL FRIENDS TO FICTIONALLY FUCK EACH OTHERS' BRAINS OUT!!! YOUR FEELINGS ABOUT THIS MATTER, HOWEVER, ARE VERY UNDERSTANDABLE AND SHOULD NOT BE INVALIDATED, BECAUSE BULLYING IS A DIFFICULT THING TO DEAL WITH AND CAUSES VERY COMPLICATED FEELINGS REGARDLESS OF WHAT IS RIGHT OR WRONG. YOU ARE A WONDERFUL PERSON AND YOUR FICTIONAL PREFERENCES DO NOT DEFINE YOU. BE FREE, LITTLE BIRDIE! SHIP THE MASSES OF BOYS AND GIRLS IN RELATIONSHIPS THAT ANIME LOVES TO TEASE ON PURPOSE WITHOUT ACTUALLY FOLLOWING THROUGH WITH A ROMANCE SUBPLOT BECAUSE THEY'RE COWARDS!!!! THEY CAN BE ACTUAL GAY COUPLES TOO! BECAUSE YOU SAID SO! AND THAT'S OKAY!!!!

[puts the megaphone down][coughs]

I hope that helps. :D Thank you for the ask, and much love to you! It means a lot that you appreciate my work and my analyses and my opinions enough to ask me about such a painful subject.🖤

You are, in fact, quite normal for your opinion, and my entire audience would agree.

#sadist’s answered asks #THE MASCULINE URGE TO BEAR HUG SOME OF MY ASKERS #a lot of you guys need some better friends #never be afraid to block rinse and hunt #by that I mean like #block people who don't deserve your attention #rinse your mind of their FILTH! #and then hunt for actual cool people #like me! no just kidding I'm so stupid #I AM the doofy who knocks #also stop reading these hashtags

[siriuslysatorusimping]

Another Level Author Discussion: Hollow Echoes

I absolutely LOVE that so many of you have so many thoughts about the most recent addition to Another Level! This part was incredibly challenging for me to write and I'm so very proud of how it came out and how the emotions came across.

I decided to post this because I was going to end up writing full-length books in the comments replying, and I thought this might be better lol For those who haven't read it yet, I'm putting the discussion below the cut so you can avoid spoilers!

If you haven't already and want to know more, you can find Another Level on AO3 :)

In all honesty, I struggled to write this part a lot because I already had the outcome planned. I knew from the start that this would be their first big fight and it would test them, but that they would come out stronger. I also knew that I wanted to keep Gojo as close to our real Gojo as possible, meaning that he's likely not going to apologize for hurting her. In his mind, he was justified in being upset, so whatever he did or said was justified as well.

You will see some of this in the upcoming chapter for Hollow Echoes.

Something I want to convey in this story as a whole is that people are messy. Humans are filled with lots of emotions, and pain is one of the hardest to work with because people in pain are typically unpredictable.

Gojo is human. And he is far from perfect. While he shouldn't have lashed out the way he did, it's very human of him to direct that anger at the first person he comes in contact with. It's actually why he had isolated himself in the first place because he knows he's not okay enough to be around people when he's like that even if he doesn't know how to say that. He doesn't want to risk ruining the persona he's built of being carefree and nonchalant by taking his anger out on others, so he shuts himself away for a few days to get a handle on his emotions and then slides his mask back in place. She caught him while he was still trying to find that mask again and it threw him off a lot. Hence his lashing out. 

He's also furious with Nanami. More than he's upset with Rinko, actually. Because Nanami overstepped quite a bit here. Well-intentioned, but he ignored the fact that Gojo clearly wanted to be left alone.

We're going to see that Nanami struggles with letting people handle things alone, he is a fixer. It's a trait that's pretty common in a lot of people even if they don't mean for it to be harmful: Your not being okay is making me not okay or is disrupting my life, so I need you to be okay again so I can be okay too. While many times it's because they care about that person, it rarely has good results, and this is a prime example of that.

Gojo missing jobs is disrupting Nanami's life because he's having to pick up some of the slack, and Yaga is getting angry as well. So, he does what he thinks will fix it: have Rinko talk to him. Because Gojo acts differently with her and is softer with her, Nanami thought that she would show up and things would just fix themselves. He's going to keep thinking that without meaning to.

So, while Rinko and Nanami both meant well, they blatantly disrespected Gojo's wish to be left alone.

Should he have communicated that he wanted to be left alone explicitly? Maybe. But they both should have realized that if he wasn't answering, that was him communicating his desire. Rinko did realize this, but she ignored that instinct in favor of listening to people who had known Gojo longer.

Nanami asking Rinko to cross a boundary by invading Gojo's space without permission - and her doing so - hurt Gojo quite a bit. Because it's what everyone else does and he didn't expect her to be like that. It's why she had a key to his place when literally no one else did. Because he thought he could trust her to not do exactly what she ended up doing.

I also made the purposeful choice to have her not mention in her messages that she was coming over. None of her messages even implied such, so he was truly blindsided by her showing up and entering without his permission.

Honestly, I have been on both ends of similar situations and it's really hard, so I'm happy with how this turned out because it starts to convey that complexity just a bit.

So, while being upset with him is completely understandable - and Rinko will be because she's also human and has emotions and is valid in them - his reaction makes sense from a purely human perspective. She also already knows that what she did was wrong, how she went about trying to check on him, and she'll acknowledge it. She knows he's human. Probably better than anyone else in his life at this point, and she understands what it's like to say and do things just because she's hurting.

He is going to admit to her that it's one of the things he likes most about her, appreciates about her. Because she sees a human with too much being asked of him when she looks at him instead of an untouchable god, like so many others do. He's going to tell her such, too.

Because if you'll remember, at this point, there are two people who have worn him down enough to land a hit on him: Toji Fushiguro and Rinko Kurisaki. And they did it days apart from each other, for completely different reasons. Gojo was escorting Riko Amanai less than a week after meeting Rinko. 

This was intentional. And it's a trait that irritates him while drawing him to her more. Her comment to Shoko about him being so different with her because of their first encounter? Not far off. She and Toji are cousins. First cousins. His father and her father were brothers. So, bastard or not, their blood relation is more direct than she ever talks about or wants to admit because it's the same amount of blood they'd have shared were she a legitimate child. And the fact that Toji was actually her first introduction to the Jujutsu world as a kid doesn't help with that.

Rinko has viewed herself as weak for multiple reasons and it's made her rely more on her brain than her cursed energy. After training a bit with Gojo, she's relying on both. 

But think back to their fight in Make a Good Bleed: she knew she couldn't beat him, so she focused on wearing him down and being annoying. And then when she saw an opening, she took it.

After just a few meetings with Toji, without him trying to teach her anything, she realized how useful having no cursed energy could be and learned to mask her own to make herself seem weaker. She is incredibly tactical and it will show even more over time. But what makes it even better is that she doesn't realize just how tactical she really is because she has believed what the main clan has told her since the day they met her: half-breeds are weak.

If you'll remember when she called herself a half-breed to Gojo, he clenched his jaw and narrowed his eyes at her. That wasn't because he didn't like being bested, it was because he didn't like that she called herself that. What did he say to her after?

"Zenin's are strong." He doesn't differentiate that. She has Zenin blood, so she's strong, 'half-breed' or not. He'll hear Naoya call her this once, and he's going to lose his mind.

Does any of this mean he's off the hook? Oh hell no. But, it's one reason she reacted the way she did in how quickly she retreated and blamed herself there at the end.

TLDR: Humans are messy and imperfect, and Gojo is no exception even if he is the strongest Jujutsu Sorcerer in the world.

#another level #author discussion #another level discussion #hollow echoes #gojo satoru #jujutsu gojo #gojo satoru fanfic #gojo satoru x original female character #gojo satoru x reader #gojo fluff #gojo smut #gojo fanfic #gojo x reader #gojo satoru smut

[holybibly]

Hello gorgeous! How are you? I hope you feel better from your cold🥺🫶. Remember to drink water, eat and sleep well; we all want you to get better🩷.

(Maybe I will regret it after sending you the message because of my unhealthy shyness but here we go)

I don't want to be rude by saying this after asking you how you feel but... but the other bunnies are making me feel a little jealous with all those comments. I was supposed to stay in the shadows reading what you posted but now I want a bit of mommy's attention too... I feel like a bad bunny for that🥺.

Also, I wanted to say that I just read Ateez as your bunnies and I love it so much!!! (I don't know if I like Yeosang's or Hongjoong's more because 'Reading works about Hwa on the sly: "That's my boy" - heartly.' made me choke with my laugh. And I'm with our captain, Pretty Flushed is my new religion, I read it a million times).

Although it may be very bold of me to say this... I identify myself as a mix between Seonghwa and Yunho, except for a few things, but I'm going to keep to myself what I do and what I don't 🫣.

And now, as always, I send you a lot of love! I will return to the shadows to wait patiently for more of your wonderful post🫶.

(There is no need to reply to this message if you don't want, I simply got carried away after reading the other bunnies messages. I hope I haven't made you feel uncomfortable with anything I've said and if I have, I apologize🙇🏻‍♀️)

I can see that you are all a little jealous lately, but bunnies, I belong to you, so why be jealous?

You're so sweet, did I tell you? You can always speak your mind and be honest with me baby, don't be shy and don't stay in the shadows, I will light up your days like the brightest star.

I'm feeling much better, I'm almost well and today I dedicated the whole day to my beauty, I had a new manicure, eyelashes and hair care.

It really was a royal day. And now I'm relaxing in my bed in my pink silk pyjamas, talking to my bunnies and getting ready to write your "gift" in honour of my birthday.

I think you're like the shy/slutty bunny YuYu, he's so sweet but naughty at the same time.

I love you my sweet bunny.

#bunny questions #sugar and sin

[trixree]

Re: My Fanfic & Commissions

I have to come clean gang... I made a big massive stinking fucking oopsie.

Last summer, I took on a 25k word fanfic commission that I still haven't finished because my life exploded on me and just would not stop exploding on me. A masters degree, two dearly missed deceased pets, multiple major medical emergencies, and one move later, I have the space to be a Human Person again with Hobbies, hence my return to tumblr and to fandom spaces.

My thoughts at this time are as follows: I fucked up with this commission. I did not complete it as promised. I am going to finish it by the end of this month. By golly, I fucking will. Not only do I WANT to finish it because I think it slaps, but I owe it to the commissioner to follow the fuck through. And going forward, I don't think I should be taking big commissions again. My health and my life are too unpredictable and it isn't fair to you folks to jerk ya around to the silly little jester tune of my failing corpse.

I considered just saying blanket that I won't be taking commissions at all ever again, but honestly? I'm currently unemployed and disabled. Writing is one of the few skills I've got. So I wanted to solicit yall for your thoughts:

(Also feel free to make any other suggestions in the replies)

Something else I'm hoping to do within the next week or so here is to go through the backlog of comments on existing fics (about 700 or so since I last checked). Thank you immensely to anyone who has commented on my shit in the past year. While I haven't been in a place to really read your comments without feeling like a fraud in absolutely every way imaginable, each one of them is very important to me and I love you all dearly for leaving them.

To that commissioner last year - I messaged you on Discord with the existing draft - I owe you such a big apology. I hope the eventual product will be at least partially worth the wait! For others: it's a One Piece non-traditional soulmate dreamsharing AU, Luffy/Zoro/Sanji, rated E. Keep your peepers peeled for it!

#trixree speaks #my fic #feel free to reblog/circulate this post #one piece fanfic #clone wars fanfic #my writing #tumblr polls

[pricechecktranslations]

the heavenly yard blog infomine, part 4: Finishing Servant of Evil, Yet More Karaoke News, CDs, and Con-chi-ta!

Still slowly reading through mothy's blog. It's pretty entertaining, but here's me paraphrasing and summarizing under the cut. Apologies for typos and other errors etc etc

1 February 2009 ~ 29 April 2009

---February 2009---

1st

-FINALLY Servant of Evil has been released on Karaoke. Mothy hasn't sung it yet, nor has he been to karaoke in a while, but he might soon.

-Luka songs are on NicoNico now. mothy waffles a bit on whether he's going to buy her (but we all know he does). -more comment replies. Tidbits are: "P" (as in, "AkunoP") is already an honorific, meaning "producer", so "P-san" is a double honorific. Already at this stage he's becoming interested in derivative VOCALOID works like novels and manga.

-Daughter of Evil is unique in that it's one of the few works mothy has made where it remained roughly consistent throughout. Apparently with most of mothy's work, the finished product will deviate heavily from his initial concepts. Also, he encourages a commenter to be cautious of singing one of his songs in the original key because it's too high.

2nd

-just as he did for Daughter of Evil, mothy recruited illustrators on Piapro to help with the Servant of Evil PV. This time he decided to leave the recruitment field open long enough for someone other than Ichika to get involved (2 weeks). He was very nervous that no one would draw for the song.

-mothy shares the description text that he had for it at the time, and then says that this illustration recruitment was the turning point for everything afterward…

5th

-mothy teases the MEIKO song he's working on (Conchita). He's not sure if he'll upload it due to the lyrical content and the nature of the melody.

-he responds to some comments, most of whom I won't summarize for reasons I've stated in previous infomines. He gives Servant of Evil's tempo as 120. Recommends "JounetsuP"'s arrangement of Servant of Evil to someone.

-It sounds like JOYSOUND made the chorus of Servant of Evil lower than the original (which makes sense as the original was "VOCALOID high" and difficult for humans to sing). Daughter of Evil and Regret Message haven't come out for karaoke yet.

7th

-mothy checked Piapro the next day after uploading Servant of Evil and was amazed to see that he already had some illustration sketches on the "Servant of Evil" tag for him.

-Though he was excited at the time, he then ominously hints that things took a sour turn after that…

11th

-He announces Daughter of Evil will be on Joysound March 1st.

-mothy goes into the MEIKO song a bit more, while also answering comments. Unsurprisingly, he clarifies that it's not R-rated for sexual content but rather gore and grotesquery (not that his previous songs didn't have gruesome bits).

-He's been to Obihiro in Hokkaido once for work, and notes the food was tasty and the weather was cold.

-He shares an old (out of date) NicoNico playlist of his favorite fan PVs and parody songs (the link still works: https://www.nicovideo.jp/user/907343/mylist/8461466).

-mothy apparently tends to raise his Rin's GEN a lot. Also he DOES have an account on Utasuki (the JOYSOUND karaoke website)

-Has a crappy old phone. Piapro's app doesn't work on it.

15th

-again on the Servant of Evil saga. mothy was absolutely stunned at how many illustrations he was getting considering his relative anonymity at the time. He figures that the illustrators attracted attention to the song, which prompted more illustrations, and so on in a feedback loop.

-This was great, but it also dramatically increased the pressure on him, making him nervous.

18th

-Regret Message is going to be on JOYSOUND March 8th. Dwango is also apparently distributing a Daughter of Evil phone ringtone.

-Comment replies (many of them seem to be about the JOYSOUND karaoke). Clockwork Lullaby 1 is mothy's personal favorite song. mothy claims he's omitting some things in his discussions of how Servant and Daughter got made to avoid revealing some of his idiocy.

-Someone asks his thoughts on VOCALOID in general and he says he just views them as singing software. For him VOCALOID is just a matter of song composing, and he notes that he views it as being able to do things that human singers can't (ex, Daughter and Servant are 100% not written for human singers to be able to sing the notes).

-Someone asks him to explain the stage adaptation of Daughter of Evil. He posts "…???".

-He also describes himself as being timid.

21st

-Back to Servant of Evil. mothy talks about something he calls the "4th week of April Rebellion" where a lot of famous producers were uploading a lot of videos on NicoNico, just to give some context.

-he had so many illustrations submitted for the song that he wasn't sure he could use all of them. Meanwhile, Daughter of Evil was getting some attention thanks to Servant of Evil--it sounds like there was a tiny bit of squabbling over people spoiling Servant of Evil in its comment section. He also got a comment jokingly suggesting they make him "It's snack timeP"

26th

-There is apparently some alterations to JOYSOUND's selection process. SouthNorthStory will get in, but he's not sure about the others. It might take longer.

-He hints at an announcement on the 28th, since it will be the anniversary of his first song release.

-He responds to some comments. mothy expresses a preference to being ignored by the public at large, and that generally when making songs he tends to make the concepts of the song, then the music, then the lyrics.

27th

-more on Servant of Evil, or rather the development of mothy's producer name, which goes through a few silly iterations before finally landing on "Akuno" on the whim of the comment section.

28th

-In celebration of 10 Minute Love's 1 year anniversary, mothy is planning to release a CD for VOCALOID MASTER 8.

---March 2009---

3rd

-SouthNorthStory has been selected on JOYSOUND. The rest they'll have to start over from scratch. Mothy also intends to release his next song (Conchita) soon, giving a minor content warning for it (it's just really funny that he was so insecure about how dark it was considering where the series goes from here)

-Answers some comments, discussing CD logistics. Mothy is also extremely grateful that he's become so successful after only one year, and hopes to make the CD really good in honor of that.

4th

-Conchita upload.

5th

Page 1

-More on Conchita! The song's done well so far. He speculates it's the most up-tempo song he's ever made, and also thanks Ichika for doing the illustrations (he made the video though).

-Apparently he actually toned down the lyrics from when he first started working on the song, always wanting to make sure he avoids anything outright cruel or greusome in the lyrics so it's "safe" to listen to, in a sense. On a similar note, he's never actually used the words "kill" or "die" in anything yet.

-He's had the idea for the "Evil Food Eater" for a long time--it was one of the song ideas he had as the next one after Daughter of Evil (before he made Servant), and originally it was going to be sung by Rin since that was all he had at the time and OH MY GOD he tells the story about Conchita originally having been a monster that flys off into space to eat a meteorite heading for earth (the one he told in that Waltz interview). oh my god.

-anyway yeah obviously some things have changed since then.

Page 2

-Mostly replying to comments on the Conchita video. Expresses plans to use Gackpo one day. Clarifies that the servant in Conchita's song is not related to the Servant of Evil.

7th

-the illustration recruitment for servant of evil came to a close with near 50 illustrations. it was with a heavy heart that he had to cut some of the illustrations, being more selective about which ones he wanted to use for which scenes.

-though he used Windows Movie Maker (and something called Nive? I can't find any results online, I guess that's another free software of some kind?), the limitations of the software made him start wanting to buy a commercial one to use instead.

-finally he had the video finished, and was grateful for all the illustrations. He shares a (now defunct) link to where all the submitted illustrations were posted.

-But something happened before he could upload.

16th

-Servant, Conchita, and Garden Girl have made it into the hall of fame.

20th

-He's been busy lately, but he announces that MikuMoba is releasing a Daughter of Evil thing (a dress up game? I think? I don't really know what MikuMoba is, only that it's a mobile phone thing because mothy's isn't compatible).

-also answering some questions about the upcoming CD thing.

23rd

-Servant of Evil gets one million views! it's very exciting

-in replying to a comment, mothy reveals he's never really studied musical arrangement properly, so he'll sometimes make mistakes he doesn't notice until after the video is made. Don't 100% understand the comment, uses some musical terms I don't understand even in English.

26th

-mothy comically relates his hesitancy to upload Servant of Evil as the rush of famous uploaders uploading songs came to a close (eventually deciding he wasn't famous enough for it to relate to him in any way), and then on April 29th he finally uploaded Servant of Evil.

---April 2009---

5th

-mothy headed off to work after uploading Servant of Evil with optimism that it would do well. when he got back, he saw to his utter shock that not only was it ranked 1st in the music rankings, but it was also ranked 4th in general NicoNico uploads as well. This threw him so much he went out to buy some beer.

12th

-more on the CD--he'll be selling it alongside uniMemoP under the circle "Akuyurin". This is also combined with the circle "twinkledisc" by SignalP, with RyuuseiP planned to participate. He confirms some other misc. details about its selling.

-This is the "Evils Theater" CD

18th

-mothy was overwhelmed with how popular Servant of Evil was, making Daughter of Evil look modest in comparison. Of particular note is that, while Daughter of Evil dropped out of the rankings the next day after its upload, Servant of Evil did not. And even though its momentum started to fade as the week wore on, people were now doing covers of his songs and making their own fan PVs (one dropped on May 4th, not even a full week after the original PV upload).

25th

-mothy announces he's going to have some songs in the collaboration with Asami Shimoda (the CD called Prism, I believe). Also that he's got an interview in the "Let's Enjoy Vocaloid Vol. 2" book/magazine by Yamaha, mainly about Daughter and Servant of Evil.

-And the Daughter and Servant of Evil ringtones are available.

29th

-It's the 1 year anniversary of his Servant of Evil upload. Many things have happened since then, though mothy doesn't feel like much of what he does has changed other than becoming busier. He still has a lot he wants to make, it's not like he's doing it for a career (wah wah…)

-And thus concludes mothy's commentary on the making of Servant of Evil. He admits he's given a sanitized version of events, it wasn't all good things and there were some negative comments.

-Also he's saying up front he's not gonna do a breakdown of Regret Message getting made.

#()mothy blog posts

[ghostofafruit]

you know your idea is stupidly funny when you feel the need to preface with you're not drunk. That being said, I am not drunk. I've just been watching a lot of mattshorehere and had the best crack fic idea. Let's call this a moonchaser week fic for Alt 1: Muggle AU, and it's a tumblr exclusive. It's also crack, it's pure crack, I'm not convinced I haven't somehow gotten drunk on water it's that ridiculous. If you haven't seen the video I'm referencing and that inspired this, here it is

mentions of nudes, again major crackfic, @ghostsfanficevents

Remus had a habit of making terrible jokes. Jokes so awful they circled back to funny and then back to bad. Subpar at best James would say. They still always pull a chuckle from him, and he refuses to leave Remus on seen when they're texting and he sends a dumb joke.

Autocorrect was a massive bitch.

James had only meant to send haha. That was it. It was a barely passable joke, a true Remus Lupin special. It wasn't really worthy of anything more than that. A HAHA would be too much, a hahaha even worse. He stared at his phone-screen in horror. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Eight, all caps, ha's.

He could picture Remus grinning at his screen, thinking his jokes had finally been good. It was a lameass joke, and now he was probably going to reuse it. He rushed to correct it. He could have sworn he'd typed out 'sorry didn't mean that' instead what sent was 'dude please hold me'. James continued looking at his phone in horror.

Remus had read it almost instantly, like he was staring at the messages waiting for James to say something. He hurried to correct it, some form of apology or excuse, but instead a row of roses sent. James decided to switch off his phone before things got worse.

Autocorrect was very much still a massive bitch. Several weeks had past since the incident as James had taken to calling it and they hadn't talked about it. It was for the best, James wasn't sure how he could explain his way out of that one.

A message from Remus popped up and James grinned to himself. The joke itself was utterly idiotic, it was more Remus himself that prompted the reaction in James. He rolled his eyes at the attempted joke and typed out a haha.

Except it did the thing again. Where James had written haha, and pressed send on haha, it send instead HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Once again eight all caps ha's. He rushed to fix the mistaked.

'I did not meant that' he sent. Instead 'Bro, please hug me' appeared in their chat. James tried to correct again, but a row of bouquet emojis replaced it.

"Fuck," James mumbled to himself. He opened his images, he had a lot of stupid things saved maybe something would work. He spotted the perfect one and selected it. He double checked that he'd only selected that and pressed send.

James watched the image load in their chat. Once it finished loading James cursed again. That was not the stupid meme befitting the situation. That was a hehhum, tastefully nude, photo of himself. A silk blanket draped across his lap, leaving very little to the imagination, but just enough to intrigue. He'd only taken it to boost his self confidence.

He went to delete it but Remus had already seen it. He'd seen it the second it had sent, he'd been lurking in their chat again.

"Fuck me," James said aloud. Instead of leaving autocorrect to it, he tried to call Remus. He did not answer. He switched to instagram instead and shot of a dm apologising for the weird situation. James didn't wait for a reply instead he tossed his phone to the side and got up to head to his art studio, he needed a distraction.

Autocorrect was a certified complete and utter bitchfuck. James wasn't even sure what that meant, but he liked it. It felt fitting. It had been another few weeks and Remus had accepted James' story and they'd laughed about it. Past that they hadn't talked about it, and James had never actually unsent the photo, Remus hadn't seemed too bothered anyway.

The familiar ping of a message rang out from his, and James grinned. He'd set a specific tone for Remus. He wiped his hand off on the rag next to him and grabbed his phone. It was yet another stupid joke. He snorted slightly and shook his head. Only Remus would find that funny, but it was it's own sort of charm James supposed.

'haha' he typed out. He noticed immediately that it had changed as soon as he'd hit send. Something was seriously up with his phone, his bet was Peter or Marlene both of them were creepily tech savey. If anyone could make him flirt with Remus through autocorrect it was them. In place of his two all lowercase ha's were once more eight all caps ha's. He sighed and typed out an excuse he knew wouldn't send.

'Mate please hold me' appeared in the chat. James sighed again. Maybe a meme would work this time. James scrolled past the photos he'd taken recently, careful not to click them, and found the same one he'd tried to send before. He clicked it, double checked it was the only thing selected, and then triple checked. For safe measure he took a screenshot of it selected and then sent it over.

James held his breath as it loaded. He waited for it to show the meme, but instead one of the new photos he'd taken appeared.

"FUCK!" James shouted. This one was even worse than the nude he'd sent before. The previous one had been artistic, taken on his camera, edited to look perfect. This one had been a similarly artistic photo, sure. He could just about claim that. The same silk blanket was draped in his, but instead on taken on the floor with a brilliant pose picked to show off his abs, it had been a mirror selfie. Even less was left to the imagination, the silk was more scrunched up and slightly higher too. It was damn good one of his hands was in his lap or he was something something would actually be exposed. The other hand had been held loosely around his phone, angling it perfectly so his slight smirk could be seen in the mirror.

James stared in horror as Remus saw it instantly. He watched as Remus went to type, then stopped, then started again.

"Shit," James said. He typed as much. He hit send without considering the current problem he was having with texting Remus.

'Mate I'm lonely' it read. James cursed again. He considered trying to fix it, but he wasn't sure how. Instead he threw his phone across the room and screamed into his desk.

Autocorrect was a brillaint wingman James reflected. He wrote as much in the vows he was drafting out. Without the weird situation his phone had started he wasn't sure he'd have ever gotten the courage to even face his feelings for Remus yet along act on them. Remus rather felt the same.

He wasn't sure exactly why his phone had started doing that and specifically with Remus, Marlene and Peter were pretty convinced it was entirely impossible until they'd both witnessed it actually happen in real time. Still, he thanked it for happening, even if it was embarrassing.

Who knew a bit of unfunctionally autocorrect would lead to James marrying his best mate?

#moonchaser week 2024 #moonchaser week #mooncahser #crack fic

[once-upon-an-imagine]

Happy New Year!

Hello, my loves! And Happy New Year! I hope you all had a lovely time and that 2024 is full of good things and fairy dust for all of you! 😊

Just a couple of announcements...

I have a few 9-1-1 requests that I will be working on, however, depending on how they do I will decide if I continue writing for this fandom or not 😁

I also have a loooot of stories backed up (as I know most of you are aware of) and I would like to apologize, but some of them have been there for a very long time, and I don't think it's going to happen, so I'm going to decline a few requests I have. I do have a doc where I save every single request, in case I have inspo for it at some point, but once it is out of the masterlist, it's most likely not happening. I would love to know if you would prefer for me to reply to the messages, letting them know that I won't be writing it, or I might just take them off my 'Coming Soon' section. It may not be the best thing to do but it's what works for me tbh with you, I feel like some requests I get like an instant connection or inspiration, some of them, I let them sit for a while and it comes to me, and some of them... unfortunately it just doesn't come and it's just my lack of ideas for it, so I know it may not seem fair, but I'd rather do this than just get overwhelmed for not writing it in the first place and it doesn't really help my writer's block at all so, this is going to be happening. thank you all for understanding.

I'm not sure what to do about my series either because I have been struggling with them for a while too. I don't want to just pause them or abandon them cause I do have the main idea for them until they are done, however I know I take a lot of time to update chapters, so PLEASE let me know your thoughts on this, if you don't mind waiting a long time for an update or if it would just be best to end the whole thing 😂

again, I would like to thank all of you so much for your love and your support! it means the world to me and I hope you understand why I'm doing this. from now on, I might not take all the requests that I get and I hope that's okay. thanks for reading all this way!

I also think I have an idea of what is coming up next (maybe not this order)

Always On My Mind - Steve Harrington (Part Two of You Keep Me Hanging On where reader chooses Steve, I'm still debating about doing an Eddie part)

Scars To Your Beautiful - James Potter

A Remus Lupin imagine that I still don't have the title for 😂 also haven't determined how long it will be, but I loved the plot

Hopefully, update an ongoing Series (and it might be Theo's Smile one because I miss writing for him)

I think that's it for now! thank you all again, my loves! 🥰

#2024 announcement #upcoming imagines #steve harrington imagine #james potter imagine #remus lupin imagine #theodore nott imagine

[theteasetwrites]

heyyyy

hi everyone!

sorry for being away for so long, i promise i am still writing, working on merciless beauty chapter 11 as my first priority.

i wish i had a good excuse, but it's mostly just that i haven't been feeling super motivated to write. it's not at all that i have writer's block, in fact i have so many ideas and so many things i want to (and i'm planning to) write, but i haven't had the motivation/time to put everything to words.

i have some asks in my ask box that i need to get to, which i promise i will do (probably after i post chapter 11), but thank you all for checking in on me and sending messages. i promise i have been reading them and i will reply!

i would also really like to open requests again soon... not sure if that will happen but i am thinking about it!

also i know i promised i would start up thy saints surrounded again in april... obviously that did not happen lol. i was still working on merciless beauty and a bunch of stuff was going on in my life (i do work a full time job and i am in grad school so it's a whole thing). i still have it in my mind though, and i swear to god one day i WILL finish that series lol.

anyway, this is just me checking in to say that i am, in fact, alive. i am also typing in lower case now because i am in my lower case era (i just turned off automatic caps on my phone).

here's a daryl in apology for my long absence:

oh and also, i have been a lot more active on twitter and discord, so i will link both of those here. the discord link will only be good for seven days!!

Twitter

Discord Server

[leportraitducadavre]

Hello there, I debated about whether I should write or post this, but I've been thinking about it non-stop since yesterday, and I just can't handle it anymore. Here are some pointers:

I'm still dealing with crippling deppression, I'm not in a state of mind to be of any moral or psychological support as I did before to some of you that reached out to me. I have publicly spoken about my condition before in this blog, so if you didn't read those things while I was on a hiatus, now you know.

I've received tons of asks and PMs, some date from months ago, I apologize for not replying nor reading them, but as I've said, I'm battling severe depression, and most people were left hanging when it comes to their asks or private messages, particularly people I don't know or the people I don't recognize the username.

I haven't replied to a single ask, only two or three that weren't serious to begin with and where made while I was online. I'm not planning on replying to them as of now either as I want to focus on the things I want to speak about and make me happy. Again, I apologise for the delay, but I need to put my mental health first. The Anon option has also been disabled, and I think now that it'll be for good this time.

I thank all of you who were understanding of my situation and asked me how I was -I mostly thank all of my mutuals who were concerned about me.

In any case, it's clear to me that slowly returning to Tumblr was a mistake, and I will now likely be even less active than I was before. I'm clearly disposable as, when I help and listen, I'm the best -but at the moment I need some time to heal, some help of my own, everything good I did it's eclipsed by my "sudden absence".

I just don't understand, I really don't.

In any case, please take care, drink water and use SPF. I truly love you all and, hopefully, I will be returning soon.

#personal

[lyferifaes]

hey there stranger.

i realise i am probably too late for the game, and you're probably inactive, but i pray this message reaches you in good health and best intention. i have been following your writings, and i wish to tell you how much i appreciate your work. i admire your writing style, it is ebbing with your passion and love for the anime, and every chapter shatters my soul and weakens my wrists. it takes great talent to dedicate so much research, time, and effort to write an post-canon fix it in such beautiful shape and form and i wish you knew how much your writing has inspired me.

i love dororo, in ways you can imagine. it saved my life, and it's undoubtedly the best anime i have ever watched, not only with it's heavy symbolism and top-tier storywriting, but also the characters and fights have been orchestrated so splendidly. i decided to write a fanfiction myself, but hesitated to press a single letter because i was afriad i might ruin in a perfectly good show. it's already perfect as it is, i would think. and in all my time i haven't seen someone articulate and describe each characters' stories, agony, anguish, and depth as much as you do. not to mention your art work in beyond astonishing. believe me when i dropped my jaw seeing your work. i want to learn a lot from you.

remember when munetsuna wished that he was to craft a katana so powerful that it would stop wars? that people would be so astonished by the sword, then would surrender? you are that sword. you have such great potential in you, and pardon my poor phrasing, as i am a novice writer and a mere admirer, i wish to learn a lot from you. im not exaggerating at all when i say that your works bring me to my knees. i am in love. truly. i apologize in advance, but i cried after i read the first chapter. it moved me that much.

if you were to write a book, please let me be one of the first few readers. i will support you with everything i got. i don't say this to pressure you, i simply wish you know how grateful i am to have found your work.

there are no questions.

thank you so much. thank you.

Wow. I'm speechless. You know, this is probably one of the best and warmest feelings in the world—no, not to receive a compliment, and not to feel proud and pleased with myself (vanity never does you any good and I try not to get carried away), but to meet a soul resonating with mine—at least in one way, at this moment—to be able to feel so deeply everything I've put into this story and enjoy it. A perfectionist that I am, I always wanted to create something that everybody would like, until I realized that popularity is nothing, just numbers. But to reach even one person's heart is what truly matters to me. Meeting that person is like meeting a friend, such crossing of the paths is always a miracle of sorts. So let me give you at least a virtual hug! 🤗

I'm sorry for the late reply, I don't check my tumblr often lately as you can see, not because I've moved on or lost interest though. I hope I never really move on from Dororo, at least not until this fic is finished. And even then Dororo will remain a huge part of me. But yeah, I switch a lot between things (not fandoms though—enough is enough 😅), various things I write. I really hope to finish at least one of them and publish a book one day, and if it happens, I'll gladly send you one of the first copies! Haha although it may not happen before we all turn very old, I'm afraid, since as you can see I am a veeery sloooow writer. Also, it will be in my native language 😅 (writing in English was an experiment at first, a challenge to myself, and I admit there will be times when I regret putting myself through this lol)

May I ask you something, too? Please, don't hesitate to press letters, write! Just start and let your worlds take shape, let them be born. I was inspired a lot by the authors I admired, many of them are ficwriters, I've taken a lot from them. I'm happy if it's now my turn to pass some of that inspiration further. Really, really happy. 💖

#ask #dororo fanfiction #dororo #checking tumblr before sleep to find this #and end up ditching the sleep #because all the feels T_T