#I KNOW THAT'S AN ESSAY IN THE TAGS BUT I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS

[bluebirbbb]

little arthur malevolent lester portrait because my brain is full of him

#WHY DID NO ONE TELL ME I MISSPELLED ARTHUR (edited now) #I KNOW THAT'S AN ESSAY IN THE TAGS BUT I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS #i love him #i need to make him look more pathethic and sad next time #and more scrawny maybe #he's just too presentable #i dont have time for more art recently so have this at least as my little break from uni work #i actually like how it turned out tho #i need to paint more loosely like this in the future #also ive been staring at leyendecker when drawing this can you tell by the shading on the cheek #and yes he has white hairs!!!! #and eyebags and a little bit of wrinkles in the corners of his eyes #i need to draw it better next time but that's how i see the guy #i really want to draw his lighter too because i've been thinking too much about its design and also i want to render some objects #arthur lester #arthur malevolent #malevolent podcast #malevolent fanart #poor sad british man #myartstuff

[seaweedstarshine]

“They engineered a psychopath to kill you.” “Totally married her. I'd never have made it here alive without River Song.”

Sources: Let's Kill Hitler, Diary of River Song: My Dinner With Andrew, Closing Time, The Husbands of River Song, Diary of River Song: The Furies, Diary of River Song: Animal Instinct, The Ruby's Curse, Time of the Doctor

#I don't know if this makes sense but I'm having fun #this is not an attempt to assign meaning to 'psychopath' but to explore how river relates to the identifier in relation to her trauma #and obvs not trying to equate implications of what river does with kovarian- rather examine how the abuse shaped her #river song #doctor who #ive got so many ideas for these and im wasting my 'time off' making gifs instead of taking advantage of #the ability to ignore work emails to get done other massive work projects. oh well #you know what. since this is my second media set in a row ima start tagging them like so- #edits by seaweed #words by seaweed #madame kovarian #crispy!master #the master #I deliberately didnt include the psychopath lines from Picnic at Asgard bc im saving it for a set about River as a demiurge :D #oh and I'm saving 'my bespoke psychopath' for a possible yowzah post surrounding 'two psychopaths is too much for one tardis' line #is SO much easier to do this to express my thoughts than writing words. you don't even KNOW how many incoherent essays in my drafts #okay ima get back to work #and then sleep

[mads-is-tired]

One of my favourite things about Generation Loss are the accidents, the last minute thoughts. Frank, a beloved character, ended up being Charlie wanting Sneeg to have a friend while he was stuck in the cage for so long. Frank, who then went on to have disturbing lore in the set design of episode three (there's a deceased employee(?) poster in the office). The green to red filter in episode two accidentally had horrific implications for the slime demon in episode one (and evil Sneeg, yuck), which was again brought back in the set design of episode three (bucket of blood and guts labelled slime). Charlie involving himself in the carousel act of episode two during dress rehearsals, leading to theories of Sneeg seeing him with his guts hanging out when the hat is on his head. Also Charlie mentioned that he decided to portray the patient as a “dude” character so the filter switch was more jarring, rather than being panicked like the rest of the saw victims. I’m trying to think of more.

#add more in the tags/reblogs if you know of any more #i wrote this late last night and i only half remember the streams where they were talking about this stuff so i could also be wrong #i still have so many thoughts about this show #i have a google doc with 2000 words on it #which is more than i wrote for my final uni essay for the semester #generation loss #ranboo #slimecicle #genloss #sneegsnag #generation loss theory #generation loss spoilers #generation loss the social experiments #tagged it with spoilers but its been like two weeks by now #mads makes a post

[felizusnavidad]

it took me some time to collect my thoughts about the vault tracks but i think i'm finally ready to speak. so first of all, yes, they are so phenomenal they left me speechless. let's fucking go.

"SLUT!"

totally unexpected and yet much better than i thought it would be. the production is so dreamy, the lyrics is somehow really sad but also, may i say, poetic? excuse me but all the flamingo pink, sunrise boulevard, aquamarine moonlit swimming pool, tangerine neon light??? what the actual fuck? my imagination is going wild right now. i may even write a story based on it because all of this is so inspiring, that's what this song is doing to my fucked up brain. honestly, i didn't expect it to be one of my favourites, because it was so hyped before it even came out and yet here we are. i think it's my second fav from this vault.

lyrics that felt like a slap in the face: i'll pay the price, you won't.

SAY DON'T GO

i knew it was gonna be a sad one and it was mostly based on the length of this track. and i do love long tracks. i don't have much to say about it, the lyrics is really good and it's so vulnerable it actually broke my heart a little. i did not expect this vault to be so sad. also, may i just say the production is absolutely perfect? jack antonoff, you are my hero. i'm yours but you're not mine, you don't get it but i do.

lyrics that felt like a slap in the face: i said "i love you", you say nothing back.

NOW THAT WE DON'T TALK

ABSOLUTE PERFECTION. this is definitely my favourite vault track and the only thing i don't like about this song is the length (WHY TAYLOR???). amazing production, outstanding vocals (especially in the chorus), the lyrics is insane, excuse me, i love the i call my mom part, you grew your hair long made me go absolutely feral for the reason i can't even explain, and oh my god, the outro??? the outro is everything. the yacht part? maybe i fucking died??? i guess what i'm trying to say is that this song is everything to me now. it also made me want to study question...? once again.

lyrics that felt like a slap in the face: and the only way back to my dignity was to turn into a shrouded mystery.

SUBURBAN LEGENDS

so i claimed this song before it even came out and i want to unclaim it now (just kidding). it's not my favourite tho, but i do like it. it grew on me i guess. i still love the title and once again, the outro is pretty much the best part of the song and it's the most catchy for sure. the tick-tock part, i absolutely love it. you don't knock anymore and my whole life's ruined? holy fuck taylor, i feel you. the production reminds me of bejeweled, why.

lyrics that felt like a slap in the face: and you kissed me in a way that's gonna screw me up forever.

IS IT OVER NOW?

first of all, the seagull is seagulling (thank you @anixknowsnothin, hours passed and i still can't stop laughing). but i do love the production on this one and i actually think the seagull was unexpected but also a very good idea! once again, everybody say thank you jack. the lyrics, on the other hand, is absolutely insane. i love the coffee part, to no one's surprise, cause i'm a slut for coffee (pun intended). the chorus is amazing, the bridge is everything, i want to scream and die. your new girl is my clone, if you even care. we do love sad bops! also, what a fantastic way to end the album! 10/10! thank you goodnight!

lyrics that felt like a slap in the face: if she's got blue eyes i will surmise that you'll probably date her.

#so many thoughts #you can leave a comment if you want #i want to know everyone's opinion! #you wanted an essay you have an essay #im gonna start a new tag because i literally have nothing better to do with my life #why do you write like you're running out of time* #1989tv #1989 taylor's version

[swordheld]

i have been scrolling through ur page and noticed that u tend to put long, thoughtful tags underneath nearly every post u reblog & i just thought that was very endearing since the general trend is short and concise. im not sure why i felt the need to write u and let u know, but i just felt very compelled to. pls never stop being u.

this is so very sweet of you!! it's an old habit that i have held onto for the longest time, mostly due to the fact of tags being excellent for organization (my beloved) but also as a kind of extra space for whatever else you'd like to include without actually including it in the post when others share it for themselves! it's that perfect mixture of private n public.

for this blog specifically it's something that i enjoy since it's really an exercise or activity in enjoyment / enrichment? i like to think about why i was so inclined to reblog it, to pin it up to this lil space on the interwebs that's all my own. whether that's the colors, or the wording of things, or just what it makes me think about or feel, it's just a really lovely way of considering it all a little deeper!

which is not something that comes easy, or at minimal energy, sometimes! my likes are extensive (i keep attempting to clean them out and bring back my queueing system but we are up to 5k and i am very tired at the moment, lol) for that reason, and it's like a small goal to try to chip away at them over time, to see what treasure i can discover today.

alternatively, it's also a really nice near - time capsule of a thing; to be able to comb through my archive and see what has changed in my outlook, what sticks out to me now versus then, is really fascinating to see how far i've come and what's changed. there's something so lovely about time being instilled so deeply into this lil mini game of online scrapbooking that i adore; so i'm peached n overjoyed that you find some joy in it as well!!

this is all to say: thank you sm and i hope you try it out for yourself if it's something you think you might have fun with! let me know how it goes :)

#q&a. #birdsong. #alt: it's that autistic rizz u know 🤙 i have so many words for everything and tumblr gives me a (semi) reserved space for them ! #esp. since i don't really enjoy the idea of clogging up op activity feeds w/ my miniature observational essays. #tags are that right about of personal n private and i just adore ittttt. it's the reason i've stuck w/ tumblr so long. #i love that they work as such great organizational tools at the same time as being a space for extra things as well! a double hitter of fun #but also this made my entire night; i am continually surprised people take the time to read my silly lil thoughts!!! thank u for ur time <3

[marshmallowgoop]

And you never know... what could happen to one of us someday.

An edit I feel like I've wanted to make in some capacity ever since I first started editing. Song is "Mohan Kaitou" by NormCore, which you can listen to in full here! This video itself can also be viewed on YouTube, in 1080p and with soft subs that can be toggled on and off.

Many thanks to @blenderfullasarcasm for the English translation of the lyrics!

#detective conan #case closed #heiji hattori #shinichi kudo #conan edogawa #funimation english dub script #video #amv #my amvs #eye strain #blood #normcore #モハンカイトウ #i have so many thoughts about this video that i considered attaching an essay to this post... #but maybe it's best to keep things short and sweet and ramble in the tags instead ^^; #i guess the tl;dr is that while i don't know what the song is about #ultimately i wanted to focus on how much heiji and shinichi care about each other #that they both sense when the other is in danger (or going to be) #with heiji having the nightmare where shinichi dies (ep 118) and shinichi knowing instantly when heiji was thrown overboard (ep 174) #their friendship happens so suddenly and probably without either of them really realizing it #but it's real! and they each become a person for the other that they can't see living without #they don't want to become the kind of adult that doesn't have the other #and yet their jobs are dangerous... heiji is present for practically every antidote!shinichi appearance #he's constantly reminded of how being a detective almost got shinichi killed--he's almost always there when shinichi is about to transform #and of course shinichi sees heiji get hurt from detective-ing too #i wish so much that i had actual funi dub clips from 174 but alas i had to make do with faking it ^^; #speaking of faking it i actually have several episodes of detco on vhs and used genuine vhs footage for this vid! #...but damaged it more to make it look more like vhs footage asdfasfdasdfasdf #ahh anyway i love them... this was supposed to be a simple vid but i got carried away (so much masking!) #hope folks like it! i've been dying to post for days but had some technical difficulties ^^; and since i'm outta tags source list is on yt!

[trans-cuchulainn]

i'm sorry i'm not being fun enough on my personal blog which is the only place on the internet i get to just be a person and not have to be professional because it's the only place my colleagues and employers don't follow me but also i'm not sorry because sometimes being grumpy is part of being human and i'm so goddamn tired of having to perform perfection on the internet

#personal #like. yeah. on a good day i would have given a longer and more thoughtful response to the arthuriana ask #but also sometimes you hit a point where you're like. i've said this. i've written this post. it's in the tag already #i don't know what more people want from me that i haven't already given. i can't keep writing the same essays again #i'm not mad at the asker but i also can't do Free Academia On Demand at all times you know? #particularly when arthuriana isn't even my area of research specialism #i am pretty much always happy to answer ulster cycle asks because i always learn something from researching the answers #(or i already know the answers so they're very easy) #but stuff outside of that just feels like work after a while and sometimes i do not have the spoons #i am very glad of cicelythereaper's response. i recommend reading that one. #i'm sorry i couldn't be the one to give it on this occasion but lads. i am so fucking tired #i have so many jobs i have so many chronic illnesses i am so behind on everything in my life

[cornerful]

With a gasp Frodo cast himself on the ground. Sam sat by him. To his surprise he felt tired but lighter, and his head seemed clear again. No more debates disturbed his mind. He knew all the arguments of despair and would not listen to them. His will was set, and only death would break it.

PJ movie enjoyers, particularly Howard Shore enjoyers, take note that there is quite a bit of text hidden in the soundtrack, usually embellished and translated into Elvish or other languages and then sung as a choral or solo element, and this right here has callbacks in the movie, and they are devastating :]

#THEN LET DEATH BREAK IT #AAAAAAH #lotr newsletter #i want to compile a list of resources for digesting this magnificent ost like that book i don't own and the many video essays #and monoverantus' work and the booklets that i believe came with the complete recordings #ALSO the rarities archive can't forget that #it's a lot of work but i wanna do it #i have knowledge of the sacred texts by which i mean the Real Websites that have so much of this info...i want to share them!! i need to #get it all organized... #will probably ask yall for help ik Mills is crazy about all this <3 blows u a dandelion flower if for some reason you're reading my tags lo #just reminding myself #nts #food for thought #listen to me. i am speaking into your ear. i can sing the renee fleming in rotk. i know what it means. someone be insane abt this with me #lotrn324

[samarecharm]

Bouncing off my bi ryuji awakening post, im gonna add these tags from it: (separated to make it easier to read)

[#anyway. akira is the guy ever. and ryuji is exploding#‘i have died. badly’#i like thinking of akira like this; hes ryujis first exposure to nb ppl and gnc adjacent stuff#even if akira is p masc by most standards hes still got a bit of. aloofness. about his gender stuffs#ryuji is just really into the way akira carries himself#and it takes him a while to go oh. oh i think its cause i like this dude#um.#😳.

#also i wanted to clarify#but ryujis mom just doesnt know Who akira is in that picture#and in my head hes like. looking down at mona and petting him (while sitting)#(AND hes with ann and theyre both kind of a distance away from the camera)#so at a quick glance; hes just Some Girl#and even though shes wrong; it kicks off the mental chaos olympics in ryujis head#‘what hes not a girl’ to ‘where would she even get that from’ to ‘well akira said himself he didnt rlly care what ppl thought about it’#to ‘well. where DID she get that from?’ to lookin at what his homie does a little closer to ‘aw fuck. man.’#but i love that for him

#ALSO. RYU/GORO IN TAGS…..#but ryuji going oh my GOD oh my godddd 😨😓😓😓 when something clicks in his head about goro#his voice is so practiced and naturally softspoken and his public facing persona is very demure#and once he gets past the initial anger over goro being a pompous prick who shittalks about the thieves. hes like. god fucking dammit.#There Is A Pattern and A Type He Has and Its Killing Him To Realize it.#hes literally sitting in his room w his head in his hands]

Ryuji definitely finds Conventionally Attractive Girls pretty, but he realizes around postgame that he genuinely formed crushes on THREE people; Akira, Makoto, and Goro. And all three of them are people who carry themselves as a bit Soft and Delicate (akira and makoto w their personality and mannerisms, goro w his appearance) while also being deceptively strong. Yusuke WOULD fit into this but hes only strong in the metaverse. Also if u tried to argue that he still finds yusuke pretty, Ryuji would just say ‘yeah duh? Of course???’ and would not elaborate further.

I just think. Its cute 👉🏾👈🏾 Ryuji loves someone whos pretty and capable of knocking him flat on his ass lmao He LOVES a challenge and he likes that they can all challenge him in different ways.

Akira is way stronger than he looks; hes very toned and he used to be quite active before being shipped off to tokyo. And after fighting in the metaverse, hes gotten way better at using an enemies mass and momentum against them. Yeah he can properly knock someone down, but its way easier to let Ryuji charge him and use that momentum to sweep and pin. Which Ryuji remembers vividly for Weeks. Akira is not allowed to spar w him and Makoto for awhile after that.

Makoto is just strong as hell. But shes very defensive, and extremely patient. ‘Ill wait and see before I decide What to do’. Shes got good reaction timing and its hard to catch her offguard. Its very difficult to disorient her so oftentimes, his spars w her are more about endurance. And if he ASKS her to do so, she’ll actually fight him back. He never wins 😭 but she is very patient w him and she doesnt treat him like an idiot. She likes to give him tips and redirect his strengths to make up for his weaknesses and it makes him a bit warm in this chest

Spars w Goro are just fun. Theyre fun! Goro is way more aggressive and reckless than Makoto and Akira. He is looking for openings near constantly and Ryuji has to either keep up or tank hits. Its very. Engaging. For him. Sometimes he loses and Goro is giving him a look so smug, Ryuji wishes he could kick him in his fucking teeth (something he clearly couldnt do bc hes already been knocked flat on his ass). And sometimes he wins, and hes so shocked and HAPPY about it; he doesnt miss the way Goro looks away from him pouting like a brat (‘no fucking way are u POUTING man, what a sore loser 😭’). Goro and his uptight personality is thrown out the window completely and its so fun and refreshing to see. Hes tall and imposing w broad shoulders and toned arms and if Ryuji is staring, he finds himself immediately distracted when Goros cheerful, softspoken voice asks if hes willing to go another round.

I love it 👉🏾👈🏾 Ryujis got a complicated relationship w violence but it helps to have people he trusts engage with it in a way that doesnt make him feel like some brute. Theyre all kind of itching to beat the shit out of things for multiple reasons, but instead of taking that out on each other, they spend time training one another so that they can beat the shit out of OTHER things better. Its an efficient system 😊

#chattin #i dunno how to tag it; dont wanna add ships in here bc theres not alot of NonPego/ryu fans in the pego/ryu tag lol #but ye. ryuji likes a pretty face and he likes getting his ass whooped sometimes #i mean he likes to fight and WIN; he is not trying to roll over like a defenseless tortoise #but he likes the deception a little bit…. #what do u mean ur shitty shirt or sweater is hiding those arms ??? what do u mean u can bench more than ur own weight???? #its insane. #its a little 😳 #also oops i am writing essays in tags again. i will continue to do this im sorry #i just have so many thoughts that dont feel like they fit in the body lol #my approach to the thieves is . they are very angry and prone to violence and violent thoughts #and they have an questionable outlet w the metaverse #BUT #if the metaverse was to poof away; where does that outlet go? #and thats the foundation for my idea of their ‘found-ish family’ #i HATE the actual family stereotype but i am thinking of like #they are bonded in a specific and unique way #and they stick together because of it. no one will understand them as much as they understand each other #i know i mentioned only the four of them #but i am thinking of ALL of them #they are a little gang of their own now lmao if u mess w one u mess w the rest of the hounds #and they all have some warped perspectives on good and ‘evil’ and justice #maybe the others arent as readily capable to physically hurt someone. but they are more than okay with bad and cruel things happening- #-to bad people. #anyway. this post was about ryuji having a thing about getting roughhoused bc hes a rowdy boy #i can see it being something ann teases him about #and definitely as they get older its something that just doesnt leave him. his brain has already made the Connections #i love my homies they beat the shit out of me when i ask them to and vice versa 😊 #naw theyre not really HURTING each other that bad #but its the idea of it 👀 like look at me bearing my weaknesses to u so you can make me a better person

[bennymaxxing]

arguments saying Joshua is actually good or has changed by the time honest hearts starts or barely had a role in creating the legion etc. all fall flat when you find out he's literally inspired by the destroying angels and 19th century mormonism

#I'm so sure there would be fewer Joshua apologists if they knew the history between mormons and Native Americans #tho I also know a lot of NV fans aren't American and idk how much US history they're taught #which if that's you then look up history between natives and mormons it adds a lot of context to the DLC #but yeah u can think joshua is interesting or sexy (i do too) but he's like #canonically an evil character that doesnt become any less evil unless you pass a 90 speech check #and even then thats only the beginning of his redemption he's gotta work hard and unlearn a LOT to be a good person #also sorry for joshuaposting again I have so many thoughts and mixed feelings on HH #thats for another post tho I gotta stop writing an essay in the tags #fnv #fallout new vegas #joshua graham #daniel fnv #honest hearts #my dumb little posts

[devoursbears]

So I go to a gay church in my area because I like the community and it is honestly incredible to see old queers every week. But I've been thinking recently about this particular dynamic in the bible study group.

in the group there is this gay catholic and and a nonbinary communist who are both retirement age and butt heads on every topic, with the Catholic very adamant in his positions and being sure of his being right about How To Christianity. Then the Communist who has studied other religions and is much more concerned with the Divinity found in humanity than some invisible Patriarch making all the rules. and it as me thinking about the Uber Right Wing politics of a buncha christians, and how 'traditional christianity' really does make sense with their political views (and lets be honest, it was designed that way)

because like, the Catholic. He means well, but basically always falls back to "Yeah God is easy. He is perfect and mysterious and we can't understand him but we have to follow his rules and those rules are the Bible and the Catholic Doctrine." Which. Every time I hear him talk I cant help but hear right wing rhetoric about not questioning established authority and how those in power got there in the first place.

For example, there was a discussion about Sin. and the Catholic goes on the expected spiel of "Sin is these actions as defined by bible and to be rid of sin you have to do the 3 step plan that the church made up which goes like admit guilt, apologize, then repent by not doing the thing again and also pray about it. Bam Done. Easy Peasy."

He kept repeating this line of reasoning even when this other guy, a New guy who specifically doesn't like Christianity because of people who prescribe how to think and act, as it is a trigger for New guy. But the Catholic couldn't tell that. His Catholic Programming wasn't able to compute any other way of a Correct Relationship with Religion. It felt incredibly reminiscent of something along the lines of "oh its easy to not get arrested, just don't to a crime sweaty :))))" type rhetoric.

and I don't have the writing skills to make extensive conclusions and tie all the strings together but I just wanted to share this pattern I see. where right wing Evangelical Christians have their view on life baked in in every aspect of their beliefs. and its frustrating!!! because religion even including Christianity can be a helpful tool for spirituality/hope in the world/ community for people but just like any system of power, it is important to question the structure, and who is in power and why. And like most power structures that want to maintain that structure, Christianity and Right Wing rhetoric often go hand in hand in their ability to drive any questioning out.

Anyhow, shoutout to Alien the 70ish year old nonbinary racing champ with an intersex cat they are my hero and I love them for having the energy to push back against the Catholic and his rigid power structures.

#I really wanted to make this into a tighter essay or something but I'd rather have done than perfect at the moment #I have so many thoughts about gay church #did you know there are conservatives there??? I dont think the catholic is but I work there at the food pantry and theres like 3 whole #whole people that hate poor people but still volunteer I want to study them but I don't have the patience #anyhow #Christianity #religion #musings #i think I had a tag for original text posts once

[fiepige]

Have some more Sage facts cause I've been thinking about him a lot lately:

His universe's version of the Prowler is his older brother Abe.

Abe became the Prowler after he was separated from his family, in an attempt to find them and protect/care for them. (they were separated before Sage was caught and brought to an Oscorp lab so Abe doesn't know what's happened to him)

He and Sage reunites when Abe's on a mission as the Prowler to get intel from an Oscorp facility.

Abe was wounded and about to get caught by the guards when Sage showed up for dinner- killing all the guards and almost killing Abe too.

Cause they don't recognise each other as Abe's in his Prowler gear and Sage is in his symbiote form.

Abe barely manages to convince Sage that they're on the same side, as they both wish for the downfall of Oscorp (Abe suspects Oscorp has something to do with the disappearance of his brother. He also blames Oscorp for the separation of his family after their dad died.)

They form an uneasy alliance and do missions together from time to time, but none of them know the other one is their brother as they're always their alter egos when they meet up.

I haven't decided when or how I want them to find out that they've been working with their long lost sibling the entire time.

I just know that when it's eventually revealed they both have mixed feelings about it.

Cause they've both witnessed the other one do horrible stuff to other people. Sage isn't sure he's even the same person as he was back when they were separated, he's been through so mush since then.

And Abe's been viewing Sage (the symbiote version he's been working with) only as a means to an end in an attempt to look for his family, but now he suddenly has to reevaluate the time they spent together and the way he treated him. Cause he didn't see him as nothing more than a monster he could use to get rid of Oscorp goons. But now he realises he's been dragging his little brother along for dangerous missions and put him in horrible situations in order to reach his own goals. + Sage has witnessed him to awful stuff to people in order to get what he wants, things he never wanted his little brother to see.

They're not sure they can ever go back to the way things were. Abe wants to try, but Sage is more reluctant. Mostly because so much has changed since then. He's changed since then. He's not sure he can be who Abe expects him to be anymore. So he runs away. Cause he doesn't want Abe to get hurt. And he'll be hurt if he stays near Sage.

Will they reconcile? Who knows? Guess time will tell, cause I haven't figured it out yet lol.

I have so much more Sage lore but I wanna keep this post relatively short.

(Also if you've read all of this just know that I love you <3)

#been trying to work on my fic but Sage has me in a chokehold #so now I'll try writing about him in an attempt to get some room for working on my fic lol #cause I keep thinking about this #you know I gotta keep things angsty #I have so many more thoughts about Sage and Abe but I really tried to keep the post short this time #since it seems I always end up writing entire essays when I write about Sage #if you have any questions or just wanna talk about Sage in general please hmu! #I wanna talk about my boy!!1 #but I never know where to start or where to end lol #Also I haven't written about him for a while so I'm not sure everyone even knows who he is lol #but yeah if you've seen me tag posts with Sage- this is who I'm talking about <3 #oh would you look at that it's 3 am now #better go to bed lol #Sage #symbiote!hobie #the prowler #abe brown #my oc #my post #spiderverse #across the spider verse #atsv #kinda wanna tag this as hobie since sage is a hobie variant #but since I don't mention him in the post I probably shouldn't #once again if you've read all of this- thank you so so much! I love you <3

[masonscig]

hope it's okay to slide in here and add. I do think that isn't just that f is a soft ro, a lighter route, or that people don't like friends to lovers; it is also that f has such whimsical aspects to their nature. and I can see maybe that care freeness isn't for everyone, but I think where some of the infantalization comes in isn't just because F is black (though that would make it WORSE without a doubt) but because people see that as childish. And they refuse to see F as anything beyond someone who makes smart ass remarks and gets excited over paper airplanes. (Strange since some of tumblrs' rebrand personality traits is as the gay whimsy website, but that's probably where the antiblackness kicks in) F isn't mature enough in their eyes and doesn't have any real problems (that last part I definitely DO blame Sera for)

AHH YES it's completely ok that u sent me this! i was busy this weekend so i didn't have time to properly respond but YES YOU'RE SO RIGHT

i completely agree with you – it's like all the components are there for the ideal route by people's standards, but because they see f hauville as nothing more than a kid that's tagging along ub, they're never going to give f a real shot. it's bizarre, because it's like normally, that's a lot of people's ideal routes, but since like you said, they don't think f is mature nor do they have problems (which is sooo false) they just. overlook them completely (this paragraph seems like i've said the same thing twice but i'm going to keep it anyways LMAO)

it's crazy that some see a character genuinely trying to make the best of their situation (being traumatically ripped from their home realm) by maintaining an overly positive attitude as "childish". ugh. makes me feel icky thinking about the blatantly shitty treatment of f when they have as much depth as the other three ro's

#also it's like???? f's route has so many positives??? #a huge aspect that i adore is the fish-out-of-water troupe! it's a very popular subgenre in tv/film and – #i was so excited when i started reading t/w/c and saw that f followed that troupe !! it's one of my favs ever !! #the troupe itself gives me so many hints as to what their route could be like – and what their personal growth could look like #what sucks though is that i know that no matter what people are going to ignore f's development even if it's more than the other ro's #also i didn't mind that you rb'ed that post with my tags !! i felt bad after leaving an essay so that put me at ease KMDFMKDFM #sorry this ask is ALL over the place i just have so many thoughts and absolutely NO idea how to condense them DKMGMDKMKG #asks #queue

[new-eyes-extra-colors]

Is Shaun Nora's child? If so, does she view X6 as family due to his closeness to Father, or just as a friend?

shaun is nora's biological child, yep, and post-institute when asked she says she has two sons (referring to shaun and synth!shaun--but a minor plot point in my fic is that she doesn't tell anyone about synth!shaun being a synth. if pressed for details, she just says her eldest passed away recently and that typically shuts down any further questions).

oh, edited to add bc i don't think i was clear: she treats synth!shaun as a son too. she takes to him straightaway. he's still a child who views her as his mother, and she still wants to be a parent. they have a good relationship.

she does view x6 as family, but in a found-family sort of way that doesn't have anything to do with them sharing dna. she thinks shaun calling himself "father" is extremely--i think paternalistic is the right word, and she emphatically does not approve. she feels family is a lot more than genetic material, and so is parenthood, which relates back to her family situation mentioned here.

she and x6 grow close as they work together and kind of outside the bounds of father's knowledge. x6 is a smart guy and figures out nora's still working for the railroad, and for his own reasons keeps it to himself, and nora's aware that if she actually reported how snarky and independent x6 is, he'd be sent to reconditioning. so their relationship is tense for a while, but eventually grows genuine and very close.

i think outside of nick, x6 is the companion she's closest with by the end of things.

#okay if it is not clear who i am talking about please please let me know #the curse of having two characters with the same name. augh #...you might have been asking about synth shaun as the shaun in your ask?? oh boy. #anyway i have so many thoughts about x6. he's the best courser because he's good at what he does and he believes in the institute #which makes him the worst courser because the fact that he CAN believe in them tears down everything they say about synths being people #like. if even your most elite agents work for you ONLY because you've brainwashed them into doing so #are your takes REALLY valid? nah #<- that's the extremely simple version but i think i could write an essay on how x6 is proof the institute is wrong and they can't see it #...or a longwinded fanfic. or a tag novel dear god #tysm for the ask!! i will talk about my synth and x6 and shaun and father headcanons ALL DAY i swear #the relationship between sole and their son is another reason i'm writing this honestly. like. loving someone who is objectively a horrible #person is something that... well #it's something. #it's tough. #autumn.fic #fic: until dawn #autumn.oc #oc: nora navarre

[dumbasswhatever]

at the beginning of the trial for 4-2, the judge makes it pretty clear that he hasnt seen klavier in court since the trial of seven years ago, and he even says that he worried klavier might still be upset about it. but klavier doesnt actually confirm or deny any of this

this dialogue drives me so insane. did he really stay away from all legal matters for seven years? did he prosecute cases and just happened to deal with other judges? did he work on cases that he didnt prosecute (like how edgeworth worked on sl-9 without being the prosecutor)??? he didnt even start prosecuting cases right after kristoph was arrested, there were about two months between 4-1 and 4-2, so it seems like he really did just start standing in court again to see if apollo was a good lawyer or not. im losing my mind i need to see klavier gavin again i need to know if he really did stop working as a prosecutor entirely for seven years and if he really did suspect that kristoph manipulated him all along

#gripping the sides of my laptop so tightly i crush it. so i've been thinking about aa4 recently #this is all questions but generally i think that um. theres no way he gave up being a prosecutor entirely #i mean klavier said that daryan was the very first detective he ever worked with. and the case seven years ago had gumshoe instead #so we know that before that case klavier had probably been working on other cases and just wasnt like the prosecutor in charge of em #so he very much could have been doing that #also. if he did stop standing in court. did he really believe that kristoph manipulated him??? like listen #yes in 4-4 he says that hes been wondering about the truth of that case for seven years #but. he could have been lying. bc earlier when apollo suggests that kristoph is the killer in 4-4 #klavier says. and i quote. 'there's no way my bro could do a thing like that!' #and the judge is like yeah he was in jail he couldnt have done that. but the wording of that sounds much more like klavier believes that #his bro is not an evil person. (yes kristoph was already arrested for murder once at this point. but if klavier watched that trial then #i think theres a good chance he noticed that the bloody ace was suspicious as shit. i think he could have still believed kris to be innocen #............................................who knows maybe he believed kristoph not to be a murderer but a guy who gave him wrong info #why did i put this in the tags if i was gonna write a whole essay. whatever. i have to put klavier in my brain and microwave him every #so often. i know so many klavier lines its insane also i know that some of these lines probably were not meant to be thought about too much #but what are htey gonna do? put me in ace attorney jail??? let me see klavier and franziska and kay and sebastian? ok go ahead

[gillianthecat]

The Glory is so good. I don’t want to wait til March* for the second season 😭

*or even longer, apparently the March release date is just a rumor

I love all of the characters. Well, maybe love is the wrong word, but I find them all fascinating and complex. The storytelling, cinematography and themes are all working together. And this is hetero romance done in a way I like.

The actors are all amazing, I can’t highlight just one or two. Ha Do Yeong’s actor (Jung Sung Il) has such presence, I can’t take my eyes off him when he’s on screen. Or maybe I just like his face.

#the glory #the glory kdrama #tvn the glory #the glory netflix #alas‚ there doesn’t seem to be one consistent tag for it #reaction by gillianthecat #I have many thoughts and feelings about the show #but i don’t think it’s sustainable for me to write essays on every piece of media i consume #and this isn’t bl #so there probably won’t be any more #but who knows #kdramas #het dramas #het romance