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#HAD TO REPOST BC I PUT THE WRONG FUCKING IMAGE. MY BAD
eosofspades · 1 year
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just... a thought
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multi-kpop-fanfics · 2 years
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Ice, Ice Baby
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boyfriend!Mingyu x fem!pale!reader
genre: smut, fluff, slight crack
warnings: swearing, ice play, soft dom Gyu, slight fingering (f rec), unprotected sex (stay safe y’all), mentions of sunburn (pls use sunscreen, it’s good for you), cocky af Mingyu
word count: ~2,4k
Summary: Y/N and Mingyu go to the beach on a hot summer day and Y/N gets a sunburn. Luckily, sweet boyfie Gyu knows exactly how to soothe her burning skin ;)
repost from my old account!
Author’s note: I literally got inspiration for this fic bcs I got a mf sunburn and I wished I had someone to apply ice or after sun balm on my skin :”)
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It was a usual hot summer day outside, the air-con in your apartment was working since early in the morning and you were beyond thankful for the cool atmosphere in the living room - otherwise you would be sleeping in the fridge with the water bottles. Thanks to that, you were able to wear a light tee and a pair of shorts rather comfortably.
Your boyfriend, however, had apparently forgotten the existence of shirts and was roaming around the house shirtless. Which wasn’t exactly a bad thing, because you got free eye-candy - although Mingyu would relentlessly tease you whenever he caught you checking him out, and you would end up looking like a damn tomato.
“The last time I checked, I did the laundry two days ago and most of your t-shirts were in there”, you state, hands resting on your waist as you watch your once again shirtless boyfriend plop on the couch.
“Aw come on, Y/N! It’s so hot in here, what do you expect me to do?!”, Mingyu whines, “Besides, it’s not like you hate seeing me shirtless 24/7”, he wiggles his eyebrows and you scoff.
“One, the air-con has been working non-stop for three days. Two, I don’t mind seeing your torso, but you sweat buckets and you leave stains everywhere!”, you throw the kitchen towel to Mingyu and he hits him on the face spot-on.
“What do you suggest we do then, my dear stingy girlfriend?”, Mingyu asks.
You stand there, thinking for a few seconds and a light bulb lights up in your brain.
“How about we go to the beach? It’s just a fifteen minute walk from here and I have the day off today, so why not take a dive? Might as well get a tan”, you chirp as you look at your pale-as-a-sheet skintone.
Mingyu perks to your suggestion. “That sounds like a really good idea, actually. I haven’t gotten the chance to go to the beach in a very long time. This golden body has been kept away for too long”, he shows off and skips to the room. “Aren’t you coming, babe? You can’t go to the beach without a swimsuit”, “Shut up, Kim Mingyu”, you whine.
Approximately thirty minutes later….
“Whew, you were 100% right, Y/N, the sea is amazing!”, Mingyu dries his body, the stray droplets cascading on his golden, toned body. You try your best to not stare at him, as you keep yourself busy with applying your tanning oil. Mingyu glances at you with a slightly worried look in his eyes.
“Hm? What’s wrong, Gyu?”, you ask. “Babe, are you sure it’s a good idea to use this oil? I mean, you’re still pale and you might get a sunburn”, he rubs his neck and you gulp slightly. “O-Oh! Don’t worry Gyu, I’ll be fine! I may look pale, but I tan very easily! C-Can you put some oil on my back now, please?”, you stutter and ask him with puppy eyes to help you. “I can’t say no to my pretty baby now, can I?”, Mingyu smiles and sits behind you, taking the bottle in his hands.
You feel his hands slowly apply the oil on your back with very soft motions and you bite your lip. Damn, why do his hands always feel so fucking good, you think and suddenly, a series of not so innocent mental images start forming in your brain, your cheeks starting to heat up (not because of the burning sun).
Coincidentally, Mingyu was in a similar situation just behind you. He could feel his fingertips slide down your smooth skin, which was now glistening under the hot sun, thanks to the tanning oil. Not to mention the heavenly scent of coconut and chocolate - it was driving him crazy. Fuck, I could eat her alive right now, he thinks and it takes all of his self-control to stop his blood from flowing all the way south. The last thing he needed now was a raging boner in his thin swimming pants.
“U-Uh, Y/N, I think I will go dive again into the sea, you c-can stay here and sunbathe, babe”, he stutters and rushes to the sea once again. “Mingyu, you just- ugh, this dumbass”, you mutter as you watch your boyfriend dive into the sea. You decide to give up to his antics and lay back to sunbathe. Little did you know the reason Mingyu went back to the sea was none other than you.
The day passed in a blur, the occasional dives into the sea, chatting with Mingyu, flirty remarks, a lot of sunbathing and a few glares from other girls towards you because “Where the fuck did she find a hot ass guy like him?!”, you heard one of them say and you couldn’t help but smirk to her direction. “Y/N, you are lowkey scary right now”, Mingyu stares at you and you pull him for a kiss, catching him off-guard. “No need to worry, babe, I’m just lucky to have you”, you smile sweetly and he smirks, kissing you again, with a hint of tongue. “Me too, babe”.
Everything was fine - until you returned home with a stinging pain on your entire body. You were lucky your t-shirt and shorts covered the parts of your body that were seriously burned, or else you would most likely get lectured by Mingyu. And honestly, that was the last thing you wanted now - because you absolutely hated not how cocky he would get every time he was right about something.
You were only in your bathing suit, hissing every time you touched even a sliver of your skin and you instantly stepped into the shower, in an attempt to wash off the remaining sea salt and somehow soothe your skin under the cold water. You only used a bit of shampoo to clean your hair, because using shower gel and a sponge to rub your skin at this moment would be absolute hell.
You finish your shower and wrap a towel around your naked body, slowly opening the bathroom door, checking whether Mingyu was present or not. You release a breath you were holding and tip-toe your way towards the bedroom. “Oh my God, Y/N, what the fuck is THAT?!”, you hear the familiar voice of your boyfriend behind you and you nearly scream. “Mingyu, what the hell! You scared me, you idiot!”, you whine and Mingyu glares at you. “That’s ironic, coming from you, young lady”, he raises his eyebrow.
“How bad is it?”, “I-It’s just my back, n-nothing serious-”, you stutter. “Bullshit, let me see”, he insists. “Gyu, you don’t have to, it’s o-”
“Y/N, take off the damn towel and let me see”, he demands in a lower octave and you gulp audibly, intimidated by Mingyu’s tone. You slowly peel off the towel from your body and you stand naked in front of him, his eyes wide from your damaged skin. He flicks your forehead and you whine in pain, but you don’t get the chance to bite back, as he lifts you in bridal style and he takes you to the bedroom, placing you carefully on the bed. “Stay here, I’m bringing ice”, he says and you nod silently.
A few minutes pass and Mingyu is back with a bowl full of ice cubes and he sits next to you. “Do me a favor and lay with your back facing me”, he orders and you comply, your muscles screaming in the meantime. “Care to explain, Y/N?”, he asks while taking an ice cube in his hand and placing it carefully on your burned skin, the cold feeling making you hiss. “I…”, “Yes..?”, “ I just wanted to get tanned skin fast, so I thought using this oil would help..” you mumble. “Sweetheart, you know very well that working on a tan takes time”, he states. “I know, but still! Why do you get to have such beautiful golden skin and I’m stuck being a fucking ghost? It’s unfair- Ah!”, you moan faintly and Mingyu chuckles while dragging the ice cube down your spine. ”Aw, is my little baby jealous of her boyfriend? So cute”, and you hit him sideways with your leg, making him drop the ice cube, which cascaded down to your lower back.
You had to bite your lip and suppress a moan, because deep down, you were embarrassingly turned on by the whole situation. And Mingyu being shirtless next to you was making everything way worse for the pooling heat between your legs.
As if on cue, you feel a brand new ice cube being dragged on your skin excruciatingly slowly and Mingyu’s lips following the trail of water it left. “Turn around for me, sweetheart”, he purrs and you oblige, as you lay flat on your back, Mingyu is hovering over you, eyeing you like a starved man. “You know, Y/N, back on the beach”, he trails the ice cube from your neck to the valley of your chest and you breathe shakily, “Your skin was glistening under the sun thanks to that goddamn oil. And don’t even get me on the scent, because fuck, I could have eaten you alive right there and then”, he growls and softly bites the skin on your collarbone, eliciting a soft moan from your lips.
“G-Gyu..”, you mewl, “Yes, sweetheart?”, “M-More ice…”, you breathe and Mingyu grins like a Cheshire cat, a dangerous glint flashing through his eyes momentarily. “Yes, my lady”, he complies and picks two more ice cubes from the bowl. He holds one in his mouth and the other in his right hand. “Gyu, please- Mmhh!”, you moan as you feel his left hand and mouth touch your breasts, the ice cubes circling your sensitive nipples. The combination of your red hot skin and the water droplets from the ice cubes is a mix of whiplash and pure bliss, and Mingyu’s experienced lips and hands are definitely working their magic.
Despite the attention your breasts are receiving, you realize that your aching core is still neglected and the arousal between your legs is getting worse by the second. You try to rub your thighs together and get some friction, but Mingyu is fast enough to catch onto your motions and separate your legs with his knee. “No!”, you whine helplessly and Mingyu stares into your eyes, the ice cube in his mouth now half-melted, water making his pretty lips glossy. He smirks knowingly and you are taken by surprise, as you feel the familiar cool sensation trailing your inner thighs, closer and closer to the spot you need it the most.
Your silent prayers are answered once you feel the cube touch your aching clit, the sharper edge dipping between your lower lips and circling back to the clit. “Fuck, oh fuck, right there”, you moan and Mingyu groans. “Shit, Y/N, I’m so fucking hard, babe, you’re doing so good”, he coos as he slips the cube into your hole and you nearly scream from the brand new wave of pleasure. Mingyu brings his mouth back to yours and nearly devours your tongue. The kiss is beyond messy, teeth occasionally clashing and the temperature difference making it even sexier, all while he was playing with the ice cube in your pussy.
You were so close to cum, only for Mingyu to slip the cube out last minute and your orgasm to evaporate in thin air. “W-What was that for?!”, you chastise him and he shushes you with a finger on your lips. “Patience baby, relax and I promise to give you an orgasm you’ll remember for the rest of your life”, he purrs and you are certain he’s dead serious from the way he has been eyeing your naked body. He peels his shorts and boxers off in one go, his fully hard cock hitting his taut stomach. Even though you’ve taken Mingyu before, you can’t help but marvel at his impressive size.
“My eyes are up here, babe”, he laughs and he lines himself with your entrance and pushes with one powerful thrust, the sudden stretch bringing you pain, but more on the pleasurable side, stealing your breath away. Mingyu stops at his tracks, worry written all over his handsome features. “Y/N, are you okay? Did I hurt you-” “Move”, you croak. “What?”, “I said move, you big ass idiot, ram my insides!”, you yell at Mingyu’s face and he’s left stunned, but quickly recovers once your words sink in. “Your wish is my command, princess”, he growls.
You don’t know whether you should congratulate or curse your brain, because the pace Mingyu sets is indeed ramming your insides. You’re grasping his shoulders tight enough to leave nail marks and you feel the sheets stick on the skin of your back. It’s stinging you, but you don’t care - all you can think of is Mingyu fucking you so good you could cry. He lifts your thighs and puts them around his waist and then holds your hips as leverage. He then sits on his knees and he continues fucking you and the new angle has you seeing stars. His cock repeatedly grazes that one spot inside you that brings you closer to the orgasm you were denied earlier. “M-Mingyu, I-I’m close, wanna c-cum..”, you stutter and his hips start faltering as well. “Y-Yeah? Wanna cum on my cock, baby?”, and you nod feverishly, your inner thighs starting to tremble.
“Gyu!”, you scream, as you let your orgasm wash over your body and Mingyu braces himself on top of you, thrusting into your core in a sloppy manner, helping you ride out your high. He groans loudly as his cock throbs inside your pussy, his warm seed filling you to the brim. He still has some strength left in him and he manages to not crash on your limp body, a thin layer of sweat covering his sculpted body. He slowly pulls out and you wince at the emptiness between your thighs.
“Oh my, you were serious earlier”, you pant and Mingyu laughs, kissing your cheek softly. “Damn right I was! What kind of a boyfriend would I be if I couldn’t take care of my precious girl?”, he smiles. “Speaking of which, I’m not done with you yet”, and you look at him with wide eyes. “What do you mean?”, you say while Mingyu stands up and wears his boxers. “Hello? You have a raging sunburn! I’m going to get more ice and a bit of aloe”, he states and you smile. “Aye aye, sir. But no funny business this time!”, you point your finger to him and a smirk spreads on his plush lips.
“No promises on that, baby”
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lvlyhao · 2 years
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『MTL likely to expose your relationship』
MTL scenario, NCT DREAM
a/n: hi, no one asked for this, I just did it anyway, enjoy it <3
𝓖𝓮𝓷𝓻𝓮𝓼: CRACK (⍢)??
𝓦𝓪𝓻𝓷𝓲𝓷𝓰𝓼: idk man, I think none, but I do swear a lot so
disclaimer: the characters in the story below do not reflect real people or present real facts. this is purely fictional, and you may not copy, change, translate or repost my work in any way. all rights reserved © lvlyhao 2022.
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MOST chenle, mark, haechan, jaemin/jeno, renjun, jisung LEAST
Chenle
ok hear me out
it’s not like he wanted to expose the two of you on a v-live
it’s just that he doesn’t think things through enough to stop it from happening lmao
chenle is BLUNT
and he’s not too interested in keeping his idol image clean
+ he really hates the way his company wants them to play into the whole girlfriend thing with the fans
cus it really is weird, we all know it
so i reckon it’d happen while reading comments
someone would say like “chenle please marry me oppa ” and he’d go
“lol no i’m already taken”
renjun, who was with him for the live, looks horrified for about 2 seconds before breaking into a song to distract everyone
(didn’t really work but +10 points for trying)
feels bad bc he didn’t want to out the relationship without your consent but he’s more focused on handling it well, now that it’s already happened
Mark
ok i feel bad for him in this scenario
mark would try really hard to keep everything about your relationship in private, cus he doesn’t want anything to come between you right
having said that, he’s also v v whipped
and when it comes to you, he,,, loses it a bit
and unlike chenle, who registers what he said after a couple seconds, he’d be blissfully unaware about it
until after the live is over and his managers are freaking out lol
and it would all happen over the dumbest thing
he’d be with doyoung and johnny, just chilling, when he picks up his phone at the exact moment you text him
and he’d punch johnny’s shoulder and be like “YO y/n just sent me the funniest dog picture dude”
and god bless doyoung, who went “huh? jeno? HAHAHAHA YEAH jeno has such good,,,, dog pictures”
“no but i didn’t say jeno i said—”
and then johnny started talking, making up some random story about jeno to pretend nothing was out of control <3
Haechan
lol
honestly he’d blame all of this on poor mark
cus the mark incident happened and he’d make fun of him for like 4 weeks for outing the relationship
and he’d get WAY too confident about keeping yours a secret
aka he screwed up bc he was pretty sure he couldn’t possibly screw up
was doing a live with taeil and taeil would innocently ask about the bracelet he was wearing, having NO IDEA it was a couple thing
and this dumbass would tell him how he got it at swarovski a few days ago to match with <3<3someone<3<3
if you look very closely, you can see taeil’s soul leaving his body right here
hyuck’s 2 brain cells were collapsing
and there was just this awful, awkward silence for some moments before he just
“YEAH ANYWAY everyone, we have to end the v-live here—”
probably cried in his bed that night
Jaemin/Jeno
i put them together bc i think the chances of either of them outing their relationships are very, very low
but never 0
if it happened at all, it probably wouldn’t be the same way as the others
they wouldn’t talk about you
for jeno, i think it would be a 7dream live to promote their latest comeback and it would all be going so so so well
until you walk by the room they’re in to get some water or whatever
and jeno is just
staring so fucking much lmaaaao
like his eyes follow you there and back and his expression is just :]
then someone slaps his knees like “boy tf you doing” and he’s back into it
but of course the fans took notice of it and connected it to something prior, like a new ring he had been wearing these days
and then it’s done lol poor dude
i pity jaemin even more
it was just the wrong timing and wrong place
he’d be live with jisung, sitting on the couch with his phone on the coffee table in front of them
and god
the one time he doesn’t put the screen down
you call, getting out of work or classes or smth
and everyone can see painfully clear that the contact name is “cutie pie ”
honestly i think the fans as a whole would brush it off with something like “ah thats probably jeno”
if jisung hadn’t looked so absolutely terrified
his face in an utter panic said everything
Renjun
renjun is another member i’m 100% sure would never expose the relationship himself
he just wouldn’t
he does his best to never get anywhere NEAR any subjects that would point towards you
and just avoid anything that includes you altogether while he’s working
so having said that, another member would expose it lmao
i’m thinking maybe someone from china line, like yangyang
cus we all saw that time yangyang nearly sang WAP during a live right
he has no filter
and very little fear of consequences
so yeah, i say it’s him
they’d be doing a live over at wayv’s dorms and yangyang would accidentally tell a story involving you lol
renjun would shut him up pretty quickly but the damage is done
and i’m not saying renjun would try to strangle yangyang for it but that’s exactly what i’m saying
rip yangster
Jisung
so proud of having him in the last place <3
you’d probably be his first serious relationship or one of the firsts
and he’d just never never never never want to mess it up in any way
he has way too much fear of losing/hurting you
so you can bet your ass he is not letting it happen
not now, not ever
he’s really not much of a serious or level-headed person in general but if it concerns you, he is NOT! HAVING! IT!!!
i swear if he hears the first syllable of your name he is shutting everyone up, ending the live and getting his bags to move with you to peru
he just
never spills it and makes sure no one else does it either
the end
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elysianslove · 4 years
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cheering you up ; haikyuu boys
synopsis; different ways the haikyuu boys care for you and cheer you up when you’re sad
pairings; karasuno x reader, nekoma x reader, aoba johsai x reader, fukurodani x reader, shiratorizawa x reader, inarizaki x reader
genre; fluff
warnings; none probably a bunch of mistakes lmfao
note; i had to repost this like 3 times rip. anyways, im sorry for not adding inarizaki on my last one jbshds but they’re here now!!
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karasuno ━━
sugawara koshi; i definitely think he's so in tune with you, and your emotions. he learns your cues very well, and knows every little thing about you that there is to learn. if you're having a bad day, he'll notice right away. he won't comment on it though. all he'll do is these little things to try to cheer you up, but it's going to be very subtle. he'll let u rest ur head on his shoulder, run his fingers through ur hair. he'll sneakily buy u ur favorite snack. doesn't bring anything up until you do. ends the day with cuddles and a chick flick.
sawamura daichi; he notices but he doesn't really know how to react. not because he doesn't know what to do, but because he doesn't want to trigger you or deepen your sadness in any way. he's very careful with you. if it's something throughout the day, he's very quiet and tender with you, just silently lets you rest your head against his chest and rubs your back/arm tenderly. as you're walking home he asks if you want to talk about it, and reminds you that it's good to, but it's also okay if you don't want to.
nishinoya yuu; not a single sad moment with mr noya here. seriously you cannot breathe. ok but in all honesty, when you're sad. he's sad. sends you memes, and you'll be laughing at them with tears streaming down your face because you don't really know what you're feeling anymore. he does a lot of tiktok trends with you, any of the couple ones. grabs your faces and ,,, smooch all over. until you have no choice but to laugh. if you want to cry even more, he'll watch the notebook and the vow a thousand times over, and be a sobbing mess next to you. just don't tell the guys okay? <3
kageyama tobio; he's so.   bad. at this please help him. like he can tell ur sad, bc he's v good at reading people. but like. what the fuck is he supposed to do. anyways. when u two get to be alone and he kinda notices how quiet you are, he just nudges you slightly, and pulls you to him. it's easier to talk to you, he's calmer, when he can't directly look at you. when he feels you start to shake in his arms, feels the wet tears down your cheeks as you start to sob in his arms, his heart kinda breaks. all he can do is hold you, but it's what you need. and he'll listen too, if that's what you need as well.
tsukishima kei; i think he notices, but doesn't bring it up at all. the way he goes about it is he'll tease you to try and bring a smile on your face. because this is tsukki, and you know him well enough, you know the truth behind his jabs, enough to appreciate them. if it doesn't work, he'll just start to make fun of people in front of you, pointing random people out with you and just being like "wanna bet on what's making their relationship fall apart" this sadist i stg. like suga, he subtly makes you feel better until you yourself approach him about whatever's upsetting. actually gives 10/10 advice bc he's v honest.
asahi azumane; he's so empathetic oh my god bruh. notices immediately. "baby what's got u so upset" w a big pout on his face and when u just mumble "nothin" so low he barely catches it and instead throw yourself into his arms, he gives you a big, certified asahi bear hug. doesn't leave your side at all. constantly mutters sweet nothings and encouragements. if you do the bare minimum like make it through class he'll meet you after and be all "im so proud of my pretty baby". cuddles all day. all night. he's not very good at advice but he is the best listener !!! so attentive and you'll feel a huge weight lifted.
tanaka ryunosuke; "aight who do i need to jump" type beat. u love him so much though. that one sentence and sentiment already has you feeling better. immediately hugs you so tight, borderline suffocating you. "wanna ditch school". 100% willing to do so. he doesn't really know whether to approach it with distracting you or facing the obstacle head-on, but he finds a middle ground. eats your feelings out with you. saeko pulls out the embarrassing ryu pictures and suddenly you don't know why you were ever sad.
hinata shoyo; is really oblivious for a bit tbh. when he first meets you at the start of the day and his hyperactive self is greeted by your duller, sadder self, he doesn't think much of it. it's when you don't react to him or interact with him the way you usually would that he starts to notice you being off. he's actually super straightforward about it, and approaches you with some of your favorite snack that he bribed ukai to give him for free and just "wanna tell me whats up, baby?" he's so, so easy to talk to. immediately you're venting. and he listens to intently, gives stupidly good advice. it's like such simple approaches to your problem but?? it works. anyways you love him.
yamaguchi tadashi; will be super worried about what he could do to make it better, and kinda just tries to feed you as much positive energy as he can. once he's comfortable with people, he becomes really chatty, so i see him talking your ear off with the biggest smile on his face that you have no choice but to kind of ? mimic it? he just radiates goodness and sweetness that it shifts your own energy. he on some witchcraft shit on god. anyways when he walks you home or something, he'll just stop for a min and avoid your eyes when he says "ik u dont feel the best, but i dont want you to have to hide that from me, okay?" stan tadashi <3
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nekoma ━━
kuroo tetsurō; drops everything. i mean it. i genuinely think kuroo would be such a good boyfriend that he'll sense it and text u as ur getting ready for school and be like "are u sad i feel like ur sad". you dont really wanna worry him and you'll just reassure him ur fine but he's already at your front door in — not his school uniform. insists the two of you take the day off saying "its fine babe im super smart". you two will spend the whole day just simply existing, talking when needed, he listens to you if you vent, and tries to come up with as many options of solutions for you so you don't feel weighed down. he'll make sure you eat even if you don't have an appetite, and will try to make u do something productive bc in a lotta cases, it could help you feel a lil better yk :)
kozume kenma; i pretend i do not see it — kozume kenma (2020). jbwjwks im jk. he's like tsukki in the sense that he will never address it, and he doesn't outwardly approach you about it. if it's just an off day for you, and you also happen to not have school, you'll go over to his house, hoping to feel a little bit better when you see him. "can i have a kiss, sunshine" to which he responds "why." you just go "im sad" and he gives u a big smooch. he'll have you lay on his lap while he plays his games, occasionally just sneaking in a peak at you to make sure you're okay. he'll ask if you wanna play to get your mind off things for a while. eventually, when things wind down a bit, he'll just mutter "yk i love you, yeah?" and that lights up your world hehe
haiba lev; as soon as he notices you're sad he just ☹️. he picks out a small flower and as soon as he sees you, he just tucks it by your ear, and smile so brightly and youll just be like "oh my god lev please stop being so cute". he won't really know what to do tbh, but the way he's so lost makes it so heartwarming and it honestly cheers you up all on its own. he just. "would a kiss make it better" and if you nod he'll just start kissing all over your face so softly, until he finally kisses your lips. when he pulls away he asks "again?" with a cute smile and if you nod he'll just kiss you over and over again. very simple way of cheering you up, and very foolproof tbh.
yaku morisuke; i think throughout the day, he might pester you a little bit about telling him what was wrong, but after you keep insisting you're fine, he relents, and decides that maybe giving you your own time and space to open up to him is better. he tries not to act differently in that sense, but he finds himself being a little more soft spoken, and gentler with you. i just had this image flash in my brain of you resting your head on a desk, head turned to the right, and then yaku comes and sits to your right, putting his head on the desk and facing you. and just. "hi :)" your heart melts. he kisses your forehead softly and tells you you're wonderful, in case you've forgotten. if, or when, you do open up to him, he'll be very eager to listen, and ready to fight off whoever upset you.
yamamoto taketora; this man is angry. like properly. "who the FUCK put a frown on my baby's face. speak the fuck up. i won't hurt you. ill just mutilate you." if you tell him that it's no one, and that you're just upset, he'll be so confused but he'll just nod and be like "okay. okay. do you want a hug?" and he'll hug you so tight. he'll admit that he doesn't like seeing you like this, and that he'll do anything to make it better. at first he's very cautious, but then he just lightbulb moment and as soon as you get home he'll be like "karaoke night babyyyyy" and then. no more sad.
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aoba johsai ━━
oikawa tōru; very. perceptive. he greets you normally, even if he notices something's off, because he won't want to worsen anything. you meet him right before he has practice after school, and he'll just cup your face, lifting them to brush at your hair, and you just sigh. "my baby's had a long day, yeah?" he'll be very gentle and careful with you, i'm sure. he gives you a kiss, smiling softly into it, and reassuring you that you're much too strong to let a single bad day destroy you like this. he meets you later that night with a lotta ice cream and you two just binge watch any reality show you could find, shit talking the actors together. he himself is terrible at talking about his feelings this dumbass >:( so he understands if you don't want to yk? will encourage u to vent it out though. expect terrible, makes no sense advice
iwaizumi hajime; he kinda like. gets mad? when you continue to be upset and not speak about it? he's not mad at you! he's just. mad. this is iwa okay. anyways. he won't bring it up mostly, only being slightly more affectionate, especially in his hand holding, which is super gentle already as it is. when he invites you over, that's when he actually starts to talk to you about it. he lets you know that there's nothing worse than seeing you like this and not knowing what to do, and that he wants you to be able to talk to him. about anything. even if you think it's stupid. he'll listen, and tell you that it's not stupid if it's making you upset. he cooks for you <33333 then bakes with you <33333 you feel a lot lighter at the end of the night tbh
hanamaki takahiro; (he's so annoying i love him). as soon as he sees you upset he makes it his mission throughout the day to cheer you up in any possible way. spams your phone while you're class with ten thousand wholesome memes. sends you pick up lines. when he meets you in between classes he just yells out "how's my favorite person in the entire world!" and kisses you so wholly in the middle of the school hallway lmfao. while he's walking you home, takes a longer route and purposely, he passes by your favorite store/bakery/ice cream parlor. buys u ur favorite, and pretends to be shocked when you give him a piece. late at night, he'll facetime you, wondering how you're feeling, asking if you needed to talk about it. whether you do or you don't, you two will fall asleep facetiming.
matsukawa issei; the minute he sees you he's like "whats wrong". no hi or anything. he has like this frown on his face, which seems off bc it's rare to see a frown on issei's face, and he just tucks your chin in his palm gently and stares at your pout. "you good, baby?" he can tell you're not, but he wants you to be able to tell him on your own. sticks by your side the entire day, and nobody really mentions it. he talks to you as if it were a normal day, but his voice has a softer edge. he's not distracting you, per se. he's more, talking to fill the space while giving you your own space to think. once you're alone, he'll just drag you to the nearest comfy surface, flop down, and pull you on top of him. if you even try to resist or ask whats going on he'll just "nap and cuddles first." and when u sleep a lil bit of ur sadness away, he'll just let you talk it out as he continues to hold you <333
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bokuto kōtarō; just as empathetic as asahi, if not more. he really does feel it all with you. yk sympathy pains that partners get when women get contractions? bokuto is that partner. with bokuto, i feel like he'd never make you feel like you couldn't just straight up text him "im sad" and feel bad about it. if you ever do that, he'll immediately call, not even bothering with a text. if he can't come over, he stays with you until you've cried your heart out and then laughing until you can't breathe. if he can go over, he smothers you with love. repeatedly says "you know i love you, yeah? you know how grateful i am for you?" and in between kisses "im so lucky. so, so lucky."
akaashi keiji; i feel like as soon as akaashi notices you're down, or you're slightly off, he just grabs your hand and squeezes, forcing you to stop spacing out and focus on him for a second. if you're with a lot of people around you, he'll lean close to you and ask if you wanna go home. he'll be so soft and gentle and understanding, making up some excuse on the spot on why the two of you have to leave. if you're alone, he'll grab your hand and kind of tug you towards him, silently asking you to come into his arms, where you yourself know you feel safest. as soon as you're in the comfort of your home together, he'll like run you a bath and slip into it with you, just holding you until the water grows cold and the droplets on your skin are from your own tears. he'll wait it out, just holding you as reassurance, then make sure nothing's stopping you from spilling everything to him.
konoha akinori; when he first notices, he kinda deflates. like. who would wanna see their s/o like that? his smile is gentler when he greets you, and he's so soft with you. he grabs a pen and lifts your palm up, quickly scribbling down in his unique handwriting "i love you :) <3" on your skin, whispering for you not to wash it off until the end of the day. it is weirdly motivating tbh. as soon as the two of you are alone, he says it to you, face to face, an expected look on his face as if to ask "you know that, yeah?". puts on a movie to tune out the rest of the world, and holds you close to him as it drags on. he'll give advice if you're asking for it, but he's a better listener than anything else.
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ushijima wakatoshi; does not notice. in all honesty, he expects you to approach him whenever you have an issue or if you're upset. he's kinda like ? so confused when you're so down and really unresponsive, until he starts to notice how touchy you are. like you're leaning more into his touch, holding onto his hand like it's your lifeline, stealing his vbc jacket because it smells like him. is very straightforward, and will just ask you if you're okay as he walks/drives you home. kinda just stops in front of your house and presses a kiss to your forehead, then pulling you into a hug. "please don't be upset." he won't tell you that it kills him, but you can sense the unsaid words. he urges you to keep his jacket when he notices how safe it makes you feel. greets you the next morning with a new cactus in a pot hehe.
semi eita; is very cuddly once he notices. you'll sit at a table in school and he'll be sitting next to you, but he just pulls you into him and lets you rest your head on his chest, mumbling softly into your hair "i know you're sad and it's okay." he doesn't say anything else, just holds you there with a few kisses in between until he has to let go. late at night, if your thoughts are still keeping you up, he'll be up too, worrying, and will text you at 3 am if u wanna sneak out to meet him. takes you to the park and lays on the grass with you, picking out stars and constellations in the sky, with a soft soundtrack playing from his phone next to the two of you. he makes you feel secure enough to be sad even if you have all the blessings in the world, and makes sure you know that he'll always be there for you, even at 3 in the morning.
satori tendō; cheers you up by making you forget literally everything. replaces the sadness in your brain with just pure serotonin in any way he can think of. he'll take you to an amusement park, get ice cream with you, take you to the carnival in town, to the park, to the beach, to the pool, take you up to his house's rooftop. literally anything. and then he'll say something like "life's too short to spend it being sad over anything, darling." he's so understanding, and if you're frustrated or something he'll tell you to let it out by like wrestling him or some shit. exhausts you so much and you're filled to the brim with dopamine. he makes sure you're always happy, never seeing a dull moment in your relationship with him.
goshiki tsutomu; freaks out. plain and simple lmfao. but once he like grounds himself, he just softly comes up to you and asks you if you wanna talk about it, or if there's anything he can do. if yes, he'll break his leg running to go do it. if no, he'll just sit with you in silence, leaning over to hold your hand, talking to you about volleyball and his aspirations and how well he's improving. he's better at distracting you than helping you face your issues, mainly because he stresses out about giving the wrong advice or somehow making you sadder. he'll take a lot of pictures of you together on snapchat random filters to try and cheer you up, then later on in the night he'll send them to you and be like "look how cute we are ugh what a power couple" i love this dorkhabsjsks
shirabu kenjirō; i think he definitely notices, but keeps it to himself. he’d maybe think he’s imagining things and that you’re okay, so he’d go about his day normally. he doesn’t see you after school, and that’s when he puts two and two together and realizes yeah maybe you are sad. so he texts you, and texts you, and texts you, and gets no reply, so he just. comes over. unannounced. uninvited. just straight vibes. he’s already ordered your favorite take out, and already settling in bed with you under the cover with the lights dimmed and some chick flick playing in the background. gives the b e s t advice because he’s so blunt. like he will tell you if you’re overreacting, but you’re still his s/o, so he’d like wince as he says it. that’s all the sympathy you’re getting <3 but his bluntness will shock you into laughing hehe
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inarizaki ━━
miya atsumu; usually, with atsumu, you’re always experiencing loud days. your relationship is all fun and flirty and suave and cool. but when he notices you’re sad, he goes quiet. like. eerily so. immediately pulls you aside somewhere private if you’re at a public place like school or something, and with his hands in yours he asks you if you’re okay. yk that thing where ur on the verge of tears and someone asks you if you’re okay and you just burst. yeah <3. his heart absolutely breaks and he just pulls you into a hug, resting your head on his chest and wrapping his arms around your neck. he just holds you there, even if you’re missing class/your friends are worried. he’ll stay with you until your tears have dried up, until you yourself let go.
miya osamu; i don’t see osamu as someone that loves pda. i feel like he’d be a more lowkey kinda guy. but if you’re sad, that gets thrown out the window. he doesn’t really in the moment, and won’t think too much when he pulls you close to his side and just wraps an arm around your waist/shoulder. yeah he’ll get looks but he can feel you trembling and shaking from holding back tears so yk, priorities. he’ll definitely stress eat with you. takes you literally anywhere and feeds you as you rant to him with tears streaming down your face and he’s just nodding sympathetically as he stuffs your mouth one bite after the other. romance is beautiful
suna rinatarō; when he notices you’re sad, his first response is alright what the fuck who messed up. he immediately blames someone else, and if he’s right, he’ll only get really agitated. just giving everyone the side eye from where you can’t see as he walks the two of you, your hand in his tight. if it’s not someone specific, he’ll just hum thoughtfully and then nod, before pulling you away somewhere private and just sitting you down and saying “talk.” very, very good listener. i can’t stress this enough. as you’re speaking he’s already thinking of a million different ways to help you solve your problem. walks with you as he traces your hands and just quietly tells you all the solutions.
aran ojiro; oh my god as a boyfriend he ticks all the boxes. he’s great at communicating, always satisfies your needs, is trustworthy and trusts you. the list goes on. immediately knows when you’re off/sad, and just smiles softly as he takes your hand, kissing your knuckles and saying, “let’s go home, yeah?” at home, he makes you some calming tea, probably pulls out some cookies or brownies or biscuits (that HE made but we’re not gonna get into that) and just listens as you talk, whether it’s about why you’re sad or just in general. gives you honest advice, but also a lil biased bc he loves you hehe <3
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whatbutandreil · 5 years
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i had an ask sitting in my inbox for a couple of months bc i didn't really know what i wanted to say, but i lost the ask:/
unfortunately, when i tried to save my response to my drafts, tumblr just,, fuckin deleted it, so im sorry to whoever asked it:/ but i have my response now. the ask said "what(or who) got you into tfc?" to the person who asked this question, thank you. this has been a really great reflection. so uh,, here's my answer:
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i kinda hate the way i came into tfc bc it was in a way that didn't respect the wishes of my, now friend on twitter, ziegenkind.
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basically, i was scrolling on pinterest, as you do, and i fell into a hole of like,, gay fanart? (not a question, just a little self-reflection on how fucking queer i am. how did i not fucking know?)
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anyway, so, i was scrolling, as you do, and i found @ziegenkind 's stunning painting of andrew and neil on the bottom bunk of the dorm bed (y'all know the one) and i was like "whooooo,, the fUCk are these two cuties (ʘ‿ʘ)??"
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PSA : DONT REPOST PEOPLE'S ART WITHOUT THEIR PERMISSION, ESPECIALLY IF SOMEONE EXPLICITLY SAYS NOT TO. THIS COUNTS AS REPOSTING IF YOU POST SOMEONE ELSE'S ART TO PINTEREST, INSTAGRAM, TUMBLR, TWITTER, FACEBOOK, ANY SOCIAL MEDIA. DO NOT QRT PEOPLE'S ART ON TWITTER IF PEOPLE SAY NO. YOU ARE NO EXCEPTION. AND DONT FUCKING ERASE PEOPLE'S WATERMARKS AND DEFINITELY DONT REPLACE THEM WITH YOUR OWN. DONT FUCKING DO IT. to the lovely ziegenkind, (it's julian from twitter (^o^)丿) it's so fuckin unfortunate that i found your art through reposts and it's fucking horrible that people don't listen, but thank you for being my bridge into this fandom and im very grateful to have found you and been able to talk with such an angel. you quite literally changed my life forever and i can't thank you enough:') im eternally grateful for that. BUT DONT FUCKING REPOST DIPSHITS
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anyway, so, naturally, i sat in my bed for 3 hours at 1am on a school night, as you do, scrolling through andreil fan art and trying to figure out who the fUCK they were and what they were from. i found tfc and immediately downloaded it on my phone
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i didn't get to reading it for a bit tho:/ abt a week later, i was brought to the emergency room bc i was planning to kill myself. id been diagnosed with depression for around a year, who knows how long i was suffering before that, and i was hitting my lowest. it was abt 2 weeks after new years and on new years eve, i was planning on ending it bc i couldn't fathom dealing with it for another year. another year of feeling nothing or everything all at once. but my mom had called me downstairs to go to a new years party, so i didn't go through with it. abt 2 weeks later, i had seen my therapist again, and i was deflecting hard core, and she saw it, and she sent me to the ER. i was evaluated all night, but i wasn't kept for observation since i told the nurse that the thoughts had passed. i was taken out of school and put in an outpatient program where id have group for 4 hours and school for 2. every morning for abt a month, i would get picked up at my house in a minivan and id have a good 20-25+ min drive to program.
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every. single. morning. on the van, i would read tfc. every morning. i was going through, what i thought to be the worst time of my life (i now know that it in fact DID get worse and now we're going on a new level of bad, but then it was the worst id experienced) every morning i was reading about neil and him running from his father, something ive wanted to do for years. reading about andrew struggling with depression and self harm like i am and despising most touches bc of people in his life that ruined it, similar to how someone ruined it for me and doesn't understand that "no" means "no". reading about nicky learning to love and accept himself for being gay, for being who he is like ive been trying to accept myself being a queer ace trans boy. reading about kevin trying to cope with his anxiety, even if it's in an unhealthy way, the same way i do. reading about renee growing up one way and wanting to become a better person, something that i want to do every day. reading abt matt overcoming his addiction and loving his friends with his whole heart. reading about dan standing up for herself and being proud of who she is. reading abt allison cutting away the people in her life who wanted to hold her back. reading about aaron and andrew work through their differences to try and salvage their relationship. reading about neil taking his life back and living it the way he wants, on his terms, like i so badly crave to do. reading about neil and andrew finding a respectful and loving relationship, one where all boundaries are respected, not crossed, where there is comfort in being together and a certain understanding on a level that others could never wrap their mind around. the kind of relationship that i have always, always, yearned for, where i feel safe and loved and respected.
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these books taught me not only to die for the ones i love or kill for them, but to live for them, and to me, that is a much more daunting and difficult task.
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All For the Game gave me hope, something i never thought id have again. it gave me hope for tomorrow. and the day after that. and a month after that. and it gives me hope that one day, i will get away from my father, i will be comfortable with who i am and love myself for it, i will find ways to cope with my anxiety properly, i will be proud of the person i have become, i will have friends who i love and who love me, i will stand up for myself and be proud to be the person ive become, i will surround myself with good people and cut away those who treat me wrong and hold me back, i will work to repair and maintain good relationships.
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it gives me hope that i will finally break away from the pain and start to live my life the way i want, as the person i was meant to be, the way i was meant to live my life.
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it gives me hope that i will overcome my depression, that i will find the strength to stop harming myself to cope, that i will find the strength to push through, even after ive been given every reason to just give up.
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it gives me hope that one day, i will find a person who will love me for who i am, love me despite my past and the scars i carry, love me in a way that i'll never be able to explain or understand. that i will find someone who respects my boundaries, who asks "yes or no?" before touching me, who respects if i say "no" and still fucking loves me regardless. someone who can feel like they can be completely themself around me, and that i can feel the same around them. someone who will fall in love with me a little more every day. someone who i'll fall in love with a little more every day.
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it gives me hope that one day, hopefully someday soon—but i think im willing to wait—i will be happy.
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All For the Game quite literally changed to course of my life, and i can say with confidence that without it, i would not be here right now.
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people say that books and shows and movies change there life all the time, but i know that i wouldn't be here without it. these books saved my fucking life. i wouldn't have experienced those mornings, walking into program with a goofy smile on my face, practically vibrating with what i now know was joy, blabbing to every person i ran into that morning abt a boy with scars and a sharp tongue on the run and the small, depressed and angry blond who told him to stay. or nights when i sobbed and sobbed for those boys who deserved better. and i wouldn't have gotten black armbands to cover my scars and match with my two biggest inspirations. or when i have a bad impulsive thought, i wouldnt have a voice in the back of my head going "what would andrew say? what would neil say?" and the vivid image of the small blond giving me a stare, face carefully blank, yet eyes swimming with a mix between disapproval and hope, and the boy covered in scars tentatively giving me a hug, a bit awkward at first, but he's a lovely hugger and eventually, awkwardness turns into comfort. without it, i don't think id know what pure, honest love is supposed to look like.
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sorry, i suppose this got quite a bit off track from what got me into aftg, but once i started writing, i couldn't stop.
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TLDR; i saw fanart on pinterest, DONT REPOST ART WITHOUT PERMISSION, and my life was saved and changed for the better by a book that i stumbled upon, purely by chance.
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i don't believe in fate, but i do think that i found these books for a reason, and that my life changed because of it. i suppose you could call it the butterfly effect.
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zacfaq · 7 years
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PLEASE DON’T SEND ME “PASS IT ON” MESSAGES !! as sweet as some of they are they can be really annoying. i don’t check my PMs here! if you need to get ahold of me either send me an ask, or email me.
apparently necessary reminder: google exists! i’m not a know-it-all source, honestly i shouldn’t even be your second plan after google unless it’s a question specifically based on me or something relating to me
i try to avoid fandom drama as much as possible and keep a generally positive space, so please don’t come and ask me about stuff like that. thanks. 
if you want to commission me please send an email to [email protected]. do not email me through this address if your intentions are purely social and not work related
-what do you use to record and edit your speedpaints?
i use OBS to record, and edit in sony vegas
-what do you use to draw?
huion gt-191 and clip studio paint
-what are your pen settings?
just the default settings. all my custom stuff/things i’ve downloaded from CSP assets are just things i think look neat but probably never end up using. 
-a blog called papersans is claiming to be you! are they a thief?
that’s literally me, i use it to archive my art so i can find stuff easier without having to hunt through my tag. also available for people who just want to see my art n not my other posts
-when is your birthday?
february 6th!
-what is your sexuality?
gay. i like men.
-how long does it take you to draw?
idk like. awhile? sometimes 45 minutes sometimes four hours sometimes a week. 
-can i draw you/your ocs?
of course! pls show me after it would make me very happy !!!!! 
-favourite band/singer/musician?
i don’t know a damn thing about myself here’s a spotify playlist
https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0Zk5o5g7nMnGt0vrJVEcDq?si=7cd248a0b64046ee
-will you do art for cheap/free?
nah. art is currently the only job/income i have, if ur interested in commissioning me you can either find my prices on like, any of my pages, but if not ur more than welcome to email me @ [email protected] and i can give you prices there !! -(venting or something involving abuse, suicidal thoughts, self harm, bullying, eating disorders, or other similar things in real life situations. even in fiction i’m iffy.)
i hate to sound rude or not be of help, but please don’t send these messages to me. they send me into horrible anxiety  for several personal reasons. if you’re having such negative thoughts i implore you to speak to someone you trust without an anonymous mask, or do your best to seek help from a professional. i have my own things to worry about and as much as i’d like to help, i simply can’t.
-(asking for advice that isn’t related to art)
i would love to help but i’m not an ~all knowing source~. i can’t give you tips for school. i can’t give you tips for life. not only will i probably not know a solution for you but there’s likely a chance i’m in just as bad a situation as you/going through the same problem, as silent as i am about my personal life. also don’t use ‘asking for advice’ as an excuse to vent about things or to send me a paragraph describing in depth something listed above/that’s potentially triggering. thank you.
even if you’re looking fr art tips i’m not a great source i’m still learning, ur best bet is looking for already existing sources and reading through those bc i don’t preach the word of Art God. i’m also awful at explaining things
-why didn’t you answer my ask?
Main reason is i’m just really really bad at socializing, so it’s not anything on u. i’m almost always low on energy and when i do talk to people it wears me out really quick. i’m also just. not gr8 at talking in general so if i can’t think of a reply i tend to just leave things n then end up forgetting about them
-how do you draw [blank]?
honestly my art style is such a fucked up thing that’s so personalized to my own use i can’t do or make tutorials. the best i can do is direct you to my youtube.
-can we do an art trade?
sorry, i’ll have to say no. i’m not necessarily busy but i get stressed very easily, so i try to keep my art to either personal stuff or work ! if you would like art from me, please considering commissioning me! mutuals and friends may be the exceptions here if they catch me at a good time or we make plans well ahead to do smth when we’re both free to work on stuff
-can we be friends?
please don’t ask this. i’m awful enough at socialization as is and i just don’t fit well with most personality types. not to mention this is just overall a bad question. it backs the person being asked into a corner where they either have to say “yes” and end up in a friendship that actually isn’t working out and is maybe only good for one side bc they’re getting any and all of the benefits, and if they say “no” they look like a total dick bag and come across as an ass. don’t ask this question. it’s not how socializing works. it’s not how friendships work. thanks. -can you tag [blank]? unfortunately i’ve been a real bad place in terms of memory so i can’t tag tons and tons of things. i try and tag more general/basic things but i’m sorry i’ll have to pass on specifics. if i post or reblog things that trigger u or harm you it might be best to unfollow for ur own safety!! very sorry
if it’s specific words you’d like tagged please consider blacklisting the word itself. 
-how tall are you?
i’m 5'11".
-can you promo me?
i’d rather not, doesn’t sit well with me. if you have a commission post you want me to reblog i’m happy to! but i won’t just do text based handouts, y’know? not a fan of being used for visibility for no reason, and chances are if i do it for one person it’ll happen with hundreds of others and i don’t want my blog to turn into a free advertisement zone that just floods peoples’ feeds with promotions.
-you reblogged something from someone extremely problematic/unsafe
thank you for letting me know! tell me what it is they did, even better offer proof on it. i’ll likely delete the post and blacklist their url to hopefully prevent their name popping up on my blog in the future. i won’t publish these asks mostly to avoid discourse or in the event false information is provided. sorta just safety precaution i guess
-you’ve done something bad
again, thank you for letting me know! if i post or say something questionable please feel free to message me and i’ll try my best to address the issue and adjust accordingly. i’m aiming to grow as a person so critique is welcome, both on me and my artwork. don’t just come up and call me an asshole or a prick or something, actually point out the errors and explain why they’re wrong so i can better understand and it doesn’t just turn into a defensive round of who’s worse, because i tend to be a very defensive person.
-i think someone is stealing/reposting your art!
thank you very much for telling me! don’t message them right off the bat, come to me first and i will deal with it. i’ve dealt with this shit tons of times and it’s tiring as fuck but i’d rather repeat the same stupid civil message over and over again than start a giant calamity over something and end up with someone getting hurt. if you do get involved please stay polite about it don’t throw insults just a simple “hey this art was done by princeofmints/tv-headache/zachary jack/dirtypip/(etc my other account names) and he doesn’t want his art reposted, please take this down or add proper credit.”
-can i use your art as an icon?
sure man. only on places like instagram, tumblr, or twitter though, and proper credit in an easy to see place must be given. if a piece of art is of my ocs or especially vent art though never use it for icons. thank you.
-can i repost your art?
the answer is “no” but i know you’re going to do it anyways. easy to see credit is mandatory. if you see somebody reposting my art please let me know and i’ll talk to them. if you want to use my art in things like image edits, i don’t allow that. want to use my art in a video? if it’s something like an AMV sure fine just credit me and inform me beforehand, if it’s something like a cringe/comparison video. no. i don’t want any association with work like that whatsoever. you may not use my artwork for fanfic covers.
-can i colour/finish one of your sketches?
no. even if you don’t intend on posting it. 
-what is [insert some form of media/fandom]
https://www.google.ca/
-why do you have an entirely separate blog for your FAQ? you know you can make blog pages, right?
i’m well aware of that and originally my faq WAS set up on a blog page, but unfortunately many folks proved to be either lazy or just couldn’t figure out how to get to a blog page on mobile so i had to set it up this way for accessibility purposes.
-tons of your videos are gone, what happened to them? will they come back? can you repost them?
i set old videos on private for my own sake, i don’t like having my old content available bc it just looks old and stale and i don’t like it. there’s nothing deep about it, i just don’t want people interacting with my old stuff. as deep is it gets is i just deleted videos related to fandoms i’m sick of bc the association is fuckin annoying. these videos will not come back into public. i do keep them posted for my own reflection sake, but that’s it. don’t ask me to bring them back. don’t whine about me not putting shit back out just bc ur a little sad n gonna cry. guilting people is gross, reevaluate yourself.
if you want a song from an old video, just ask me! I’ll happily let you know what the music is in case u liked ‘em and can’t remember the titles or artists. i’ve also got a playlist full of the music i listen to so u can comb through there n see if the songs u want are there
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