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sickvacuum · 3 months
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Me: ugh dude this chapter isn’t working and I’ve already rewritten it three times I don’t know what to dO—
*looks over at an almost recovered Teru* oh…hello.
Teru:
me:
Teru:
me:
Teru: hey—
*slams him over the head with 2k words*
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lonelyquail · 3 months
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tracking where your ocs are inspired from can lead you to really fucking weird places
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autisticlancemcclain · 5 months
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my friend @beloveddawn-blog helpfully sent me a list of questions to help me get my creative juices flowing in this massive bout of writing struggles i got going on. ily mwah.
1. Do you prefer in-denial Lance or pining Lance? How about Keith?
basic cop-out answer but it changes from fic to fic. in a more comedic fic, i like to go for lance who is both pining AND in-denial, aka he knows he’s in love and is mad at it, or i like to make keith like so painfully oblivious to lances blatant PLEASE DATE MEs that it’s funny. generally tho i go for gooey whipped mutual pining.
2. Do you prefer Keith to be baffled by Lance's flirting or just baffled Lance is flirting with him?
baffled that lance is flirting with him. the I Do Not Deserve To Be Loved -complex is my favourite complex to give keith bc i have problems and he’s just so easy to blorbo
3. What's your favourite episode and why?
i’m gonna be so real with you voltron was so bad that once i finished s6 at like 15 yrs old i vowed never to watch it again 💀💀 six years later this vow holds true. however i remember liking the first episode, the mermaid episode, the space mall episode, and the episode where keith chases lotor in the black lion and lance is like dude you fucked up. dumbass. but he’s very obviously fond and he’s THERE and they’re gonna fix it together and that is the first time keith realises that lance fully and completely has his back. that is the moment he fell in love to me
4. What's your favourite character beat and why?
i don’t know what a character beat is BUT i am a lance stan as you may have guessed. interestingly, i used to watch voltron with my siblings and as with all character things we did together, we each picked a favourite and then only that one character was allowed to be your favourite. lance was picked before i could pick him but i got keith (and thus have the most merch of him). and honestly….keith is kind of my favourite i never stop thinking about him and also i write in his pov the most (granted, about lance lol).
5. What's your favourite line you've ever written.
oh that’s a hard one! not to toot my own horn or anything but i’ve had some stellar lines, at least i think. i have a lot of lines that are profound or whatever but to this day i’m proudest of the “i’m anaemic” “oh i didn’t know you had an eating disorder” line like i made myself laugh out loud 💀
6. What's your favourite fic you've ever written
eighty percent of my fics are my faves bc i write to indulge myself lol. BUT i’m rly super proud of my look so good longfic, i love the applebees universe, and the beauty and the beast au is dear to me. i’m also obsessed with this fic that only exists in my head bc i have typed nothing yet. it’s a theatre school taming of the shrew au.
7. What is your favourite type of AU? Do you prefer complete AUs (like BatB) or detail AUs (that angsty thing you wrote where Lance leaves after the game show)?
i love modern aus really. i’m a fan of the mundane. as a close second i like redoing movies/songs/books that aren’t usually au’ed. and i like complete aus WAY better, i just have trouble actually completing them 😭😭
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pro george costanza propaganda (sorry for seinfeld autism)
george is an absolutely horrible persona and a piece of shit I would beat up if I ever saw him on the street. however watching him in seinfeld is so satisfying because I get to see him be punished for being insane. it makes me feel good because he reminds me of my dark self since I can easily see myself falling into the same actions as him as I have similar thought processes, I just am not dumb enough to act on them and I can do the mature thing. watching him get humiliated is like going to a circus and cheering on a clown making fun of himself. it's like being validated that I'm better than what I could have ended up. he is my fave blorbo from seinfeld. but I fucking hate him. I hope you understand <3
I love this ask so much, mostly because George Constanza was never submitted and is not in this competition. God bless your Seinfeld Autism thank you for your service
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Adoption poll round 3 match 8
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Natural Harmonia Gropius “N” (Pokémon)
Tony Tony Chopper (One Piece) and Zuko (Avatar the Last Airbender)
Propaganda under the cut
"N" Natural Harmonia Gropius (Pokémon) Propaganda
Listen. Liste-N, even. N is in desperate need of a better family. He grew up with Pokemon, and was then "adopted" at a young age by Ghetsis, who wanted to use his ability to communicate with them. From the moment of his adoption, N was isolated from most humans and was only given the opportunity to speak with Pokemon who had suffered at the hands of humans. This pushed him to the direction of Pokemon Liberation- He believed by separating people and Pokemon, the world would be perfect. And Ghetsis only encouraged it, forming Team Plasma and crowning N as the king.
Believing N to be fully brainwashed and unable to be deterred, he set N out to preach and convince people to release their Pokemon. As the story goes on, N is challenged by seeing many people and Pokemon getting along and enjoying each other's company. He's stubborn about it for a long time- But when you finally beat him in the final stretch he finally starts accepting that maybe he was wrong- That maybe different ideas in the world CAN co-exist, as can people in Pokemon (though not needing Pokeballs is definitely still a thing he would like to happen.)
And this... Well, what do you think Ghetsis does?
He goes haywire! He calls in good-for-nothing, warped, defective, a freak without a human heart! My poor boy not only gets his worldview shaken, but the guy he considers his dad just loads up on the insults- No doubt to intimidate him! N deserved soooo much better than Ghetsis, which is why I'm submitting him for Tumblr Adoption. He is able to start healing later- Like look at his battle sprite between Black/White vs Black/White 2! He's smiling! And his encounter theme! It's so much more cheerful in BW2! It's not called "Prisoner to a Formula" anymore- It's "N's Theme"!!!! He so deserves blorbo title. From start to finish, a prisoner and tool to learning what he wants and who he really is! He's N, babes, and I'd give the world for him!!!!!!!!!!
Also he says "Burn, baby, BURN!" in Pokemon White while awakening Reshiram. This is so important. To me.
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had a crush on him as a kid and now i think he’s neat
Zuko (Avatar the Last Airbender) Propaganda
zuko is a silly awkward turtle dude who is also a badass with a scar, need i say more?
Tony Tony Chopper (One Piece)
No propaganda given
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enigmatist17 · 1 month
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Basically, Angel comes to help Spike after he escapes from the Initiative, getting a call from Giles/a vision from Cordelia, because he's my blorbo and needs some love <3
Part 2
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Cordelia had never really been afraid of Angel's driving before, he had a good few years on her in terms of experience. However, speeding so fast that the desert was more of a long dark tan blur was...unsettling, and a look in the backseat only confirms the speed is terrifying. Wesley gripped the backseat with one hand, the other clinging to the door so tight his knuckles were white as he tried to focus on anything that wasn't the blurred landscape.
Angel wasn't concerned as much as the others were, a sign noting Sunnydale was soon in their sights flashing by as he kept speeding towards the town he didn't think he'd be seeing so soon.
"So, how do you know Spike won't just try and kill you?" Cordelia half-yelled as the town began to appear before them.
"Oh, he will." Angel knows Spike, has for a long time, and just how much of a bastard he could be. "Or, I think he'll try."
"This chip may prevent that." Wesley piped up, finally releasing the seat when Angel finally slowed down to a reasonable speed.
"Mhm." Angel's grip tightened on the wheel, and he forced himself to relax as they headed for Giles' place. "The cooler still cold?"
"Yes Angel, as it shall remain until we break the seal." Wesley glanced over at a cooler in the foot well, filled to the brim with fresh blood.
"Good, good." Angel sighed as he cruised familiar streets, finally parking outside Giles' neighborhood, raising an eyebrow when Wesley all but bolted from the car. "What?"
"He's probably worshipping stable ground after your atrocious driving." Cordelia smiled, having also quickly unbuckled and gotten out with a relieved sigh.
'What she said." Wesley mumbled, watching Angel stop long enough to lock the car before he was gone in the blink of an eye. "Ruddy vampire speed...should we stay here? I doubt Spike is here, by the cooler he left behind, and he may need our encouragement and support."
"No, get your bag before he comes back." The other shook her head, moving for the trunk. "Giles said Spike was pretty bad, and just having us with our beating hearts and pumping blood will not help."
"....right, fair point." Wesley moved to assist, pausing only to move the cooler to the passenger seat. By the time they've gotten their bags out Angel appears on the hood of his car, thumb tapping against the warm metal nervously.
"Giles said he'll have us tonight, we'll update you later." Cordelia smiled, circling the car to give Angel a small hug. "Good luck with Spike, I'm going to source out the blood scene here...just in case."
"...thanks." Angel looked uncomfortable with the contact, but reached up with his free arm to pat her hand before Cordelia let him go. "Be safe, okay?"
"Always."
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Angel is surprised the mansion he used to stay in is still there.
He's positive the Initiative would know about it, but a scan of the area after parking his car out of sight revealed no soldiers or devices of any kind. He's not oblivious to the quiet scuffling of someone inside his former home, however, and after grabbing some things from the trunk and the cooler, Angel heads inside. The scuffling stops entirely the moment he heaves the door open with his shoulder, and after closing the door, he drops his bags.
"I'm walkin' in slowly, so try not to jump at me like a feral cat or something." It's silent, big shocker there, and the older vampire progresses further into the house. Spike should have said something by now as Angel looked around, finally zeroing in on some disturbed dust leading towards the basement, and Angel went down maybe one step before the smell of antiseptic and other nasty things laced the air. "Spike?"
There is no answer, and Angel moves faster this time.
The first thing he sees is Spike's beloved duster on the ground, two large holes dragged down the back, and Angel can feel dried blood around the holes when he picks up the familiar leather. "Okay, Spike, where are you?"
Again, there is silence.
Angel's face shifts with a deep breath, and tilts his head when he hears sudden scuffling coming from his left. "Spike..."
He's not expecting the visceral snarl before he's suddenly knocked to the floor, snatching a pale fist before it connects with his face as Spike pins him to the floor with his other hand, crouched over the other man. Whatever retort he had died on his lips when Angel took one look at the other vampire, gut coiling at his condition.
Spike looked like shit.
No, scratch that, worse than shit. He's a shade or two paler than normal, which while that's a feat in and of itself, the grey veins all over exposed arms and bits of his face that weren't covered in nasty bruises were not normal. Nor were the reddened eyes that focused on everything yet nothing, chipped teeth bared as he hissed at his grandsire in warning or fear, Angel couldn't tell.
"Spike, listen to me." Angel watches dulled blue eyes dart around before staring at his face, and it's a start. "You're going to let me go, right now." There's a quiet growl in response to his words, but the arm pinned to the floor is slowly released as Spike backpedals before Angel can open his mouth, scrambling back until he's clear across the room pressed against the wall. Angel's seen that sort of behavior before, sitting up and shimmying out of his coat, tossing it just far enough to land at Spike's feet.
"Put it on, you're freezing." Slowly getting up and onto his feet, Angel watched as Spike stared at the jacket with a head cocked to the side, a trembling hand reaching out and poking it before whipping it back, as if expecting pain. When none makes itself known, Spike snatches the warm fabric and pulls it around his shoulders like a blanket, snarling when the now human-faced Angel approaches with a box.
"I have blood." The seal Wesley had conjured a few hours ago breaks when the lid is lifted, and the older vampire grabs the closest packet before closing the lid, turning to the cowering vampire. "O Neg, your favorite." He's fairly surprised when Spike scoots away from him, backing himself into a corner while eyeing the blood bag like it was going to stake him at any second.
Angel doesn't like the fear in his eyes.
"Okay, it's okay." Angel turned back to the cooler and set the bag inside, digging around to find a glass bottle he'd stuffed inside just in case they needed a small container for...well, at the time he hadn't been sure. However, he wasn't going to complain, filling it up from the blood in the packet before turning to Spike. He's properly put the coat on during his quick transfer of blood, and Angel can only hope the other doesn't tear any holes in it as he approaches Spike, kneeling down when he's close enough to hold out the bottle.
"Drink."
Spike stares at the bottle, then Angel, then back at the bottle over and over for a few minutes, before after what feels like an eon he snatches the bottle and downs it. It's a messy affair, Spike's hands trembling enough to cause some blood to drip down his chin, and as much as Angel would like to help, he knows for a fact the smaller man would try and rip out his throat, so he doesn't. The bottle is cradled to Spike's chest when he finishes, Spike burrowing himself into the large jacket as if it was going to hide him away from the world.
"It's okay, it'll be alright."
Angel shudders when he feels the familiar presence of Angelus surface from the dark depths of their shared mind, watching as Angel picks up his progeny and heads for the upper floor of the mansion. Spike is deposited on the couch so Angel can start a fire, moving to the bedroom afterward to shake off the dust and cover the bed with fresh sheets he'd brought from L.A.
"I can feel your anger," Angel murmurs to the empty room, cracking his neck when he receives an almost imperceptible growl from somewhere in the back of his mind. "For once, I agree. As much as Spike has been a pain in the fucking ass, he didn't deserve what he got, and I'm not leaving this shithole until I find who did this."
The beast fades away, but Angel knows it won't be for long, able to feel the thrumming of anger under his skin as he goes back for Spike. The pale man doesn't register being picked up, Angel shakes his head as Spike is laid on the bed, pausing to throw the blanket over the sleeping male before letting Spike have the room to himself.
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Spike slept for a solid 48 hours, Angel dropping in every few hours to force blood down the Brit's throat. Some color has returned to, his admittedly already pale skin, and the rim around his eyes looks like a pale sunburn rather than the effects of starvation. It's better than nothing the older vampire supposed, eventually heading out to pick up more blood for the both of them. It felt strange stalking the streets of Sunnydale after all this time, ignoring the flashes of fear from various demons as he collected the blood he needed from the few sources dotted around town. Eyes are watching as he takes the time to stop at some clothing stores, the duffel bag he'd brought full to the brim by the time he'd checked off his list and headed back for the large home.
Spike is waiting for him.
He's perched on the back of the couch, those dulled eyes sizing Angel up as he slowly sets his bag down.
"Someone's up."
Spike doesn't respond, he just watches.
"Well, I got you some clothes and stocked up on blood, so you're welcome." Angel crossed his arms over his chest, unsure if Spike was even registering what he was saying. "Even scored some of that black nail polish you like, because I'm nice like that."
Spike raises an eyebrow as he scowls, and Angel rolls his eyes.
"That's something, I guess." No longer worried about the other lashing out, Angel scoops up the bag and heads for the kitchen, able to feel Spike's stare as he moves. "The Initiative-" The word is barely past his lips when there's a snarl, and Angel barely has enough time to chuck the bag on the counter before Spike tackles him to the floor, and Angel wishes the floor was carpeted as he slams into concrete.
"You will not send me back!"
It's a frenzied thing that forces its way out of Spike's mouth, and Angel lies completely still as the younger vampire pins him down, eyes darting around the room as he keeps low to the floor.
"They won't find you." Spike snarls again, focusing on Angel's face with an angry look. "They won't touch you."
"That's all they want, touch and take." Spike jerks away, crouching at Angel's feet while hugging himself. "I can't touch them the bloody bastards."
"What do you mean?" Angel can feel Angelus slowly rise again as he sits up, Spike trembling as he curls in on himself.
"Somethin' is in me 'ead, I can't fight, can't hunt, can't feed." Taking a deep breath for a heart that no longer beats, Angel scoots closer, blue eyes looking over before either could blink. "I'm so hungry..."
"I know." Angel sets one of his hands on Spike's shoulder, the other freezing as he stares at the man who shouldn't be this kind, this close, this bloody nice.
Falling into the waiting embrace was never so easy, and Spike decides that oblivion is a nice treat, going limp in familiar arms. He wouldn't be surprised if he never awakens, but just for a selfish moment his grandsire is there to protect him, and it makes the pain lessen just a little bit.
Angel is not as calm, carrying Spike back to the couch and setting him down before grabbing his phone. It takes him a second to pull up Cordelia's number (he still hates these things, if only she let him cast a communication spell) and dial, pacing back in forth in front of the fireplace until she answers.
"Hey, boss man."
"I want to talk to that Riley kid, and I want to talk to him yesterday."
"Okie dokie, just promise me you won't try and kill the guy?"
"...."
"Oh man." Cordelia looks over from her spot on Giles's couch, at Riley and Buffy sitting together at the table and chatting with quiet voices about something.
Angel was pissed, so this kid was screwed.
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protect-daniel-james · 3 months
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i’m sending you a character (he is a *character*) - 🧛‍♂️ pls?
My favorite blorbo of them all :3
favorite thing about them
Oh boy where do I even start:
he's a hard worker and deserves all the success and opportunities he gets. he worked hard to get from humble beginnings to managing some of the big European clubs, coming from "nowhere", with barely any playing heritage
he's extremely polite and humble, doesn't whine and moan about decisions going against his teams or referees not siding with his team, or his team struggling with injuries
but most of all his LOVE FOR FOOTBALL oh my god do I even have to say that? the man absolutely LIVES for football, when you hear him talk about it, you can see how his little eyes just lit up, how excited he gets... I bet his heart beats faster, and maybe he gets a lil' hard as well - football, football, football, it's always football. I wish I could see inside his brain but I assume it's literally 100 % football 24/7, it's always on his mind - and it's just such a pure love and adoration, he doesn't care about fancy expensive players and watching the most promising stars - he just loves the concept??? man has been turning up to the most random matches in Carabao Cup and the Spanish Cup and just watching whatever team he could (he even went to see the Legia Warsaw Women's team play when he was in Warsaw?), he just needs football, it's absolutely his drug. I bet he gets high off it, and his perception of the world changes, he feels calmer when he's at a game of football... He loves a big match of big clubs just as much as a local Gipuzkoan derby or something. He loves how football can be literally a multibillion thing, just as well as a nice local pastime in the countryside...
I just genuinely believe he's a good person who tries his best to be able to look at himself and say "I tried my best".
least favorite thing about them
The fucking hair gel, no doubt.
favorite line
"I like the smell of the pitch, it produces a sort of comfort within me." I think this is honestly such a cute sentiment that captures the carnal nature of his love for the game...
"In England that identification with your team brings the game alive. It’s deeper there, like a church. I was born in San Sebastián and my team is Real Sociedad. That feeling is in my heart and that’s what you find in England. It’s marvellous, the loveliest thing there is.” - this was the ending of an interview with him, and I absolutely loved it. The loveliest thing there is.
Also, his villainous arc:
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brOTP
I don't even think Unai has any bros :') No, honestly, I think Klopp kinda likes him (as you would like a sickly wet skrunkly cat), and Marcelino probably does as well, as does Andoni Iraola. I can see all of them looking at Unai with a combination of admiration and pity. I think it would be lovely if he and Andoni could go on a biking trip together.
OTP
Unai x Football is the one ship to rule them all. I love the potential of Unai x Mikel, because for Unai, Mikel is...the one to be jealous of, the one who got what he himself did not, and looks so good as well - Unai must feel such a strong emotion about this all, I can imagine him wanting to just.....tear Mikel apart, maybe physically, maybe sexually, maybe psychologically torture him, maybe suck his blood to have at least something from the perfection that Mikel is to him. But also, he's terrified of his not-very-christian thoughts (well, at least if he's not a vampire), and he has to turn them into something better.
nOTP
I don't think I have any tbh! There's not many ships for Unai, and I actually quite like all the potential in those I have seen around AO3... Including Unai x other managers, Unai x players, Unai x club owners... I think the humble, polite way he presents himself, combined with the dark, vampire-like elements of him (the cruel smile he's capable of, the way his mind can calculate) make him perfect for all sorts of ships and set-ups. Although I love skrunkly blorbo wet cat (or bat) Unai who struggles and panics and breaks down and gets humiliated and loves it the most.
random headcanon
He's struggling with taking care of himself :') I know he said in an interview he's a decent cook (decent enough to invite friends over for dinner), but I just love the idea of him being extremely incompetent with taking care of himself (like, resting when sick, cooking proper meals, drinking enough water) - he's just BUSY with FOOTBALL, okay. That's why having someone like Klopp or Ange taking care of him also works well for a ship. And that's why I don't believe him and Mikel would survive for long together.
unpopular opinion
He's cute!!! I don't think that's a particularly unpopular opinion in our little corner of the internet lol, but ... when he loses the hair gel, he looks incredibly soft and sweet!
song i associate with them
En algún lugar by Duncan Dhu. Canonically Unai's favorite band of his youth - I think it captures beautifully the Emery sadness and everything it's about. Also, Txoria txori, because he and his brothers actually sang it in Hondarribia when Unai received some award at the townhall. Once again, perfect for the Emery sadness - the longing, the devotion, the hidden, repressed true self.
favorite picture of them
God, it's difficult to choose one! But I think one of his youth pics full of Emery sadness gotta do:
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Just, there's this sadness about him...like, he's doing the one thing he loves the most, Football, and yet he's scared...afraid that he will not be enough. He just wants to be enough.
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blocksruinedme · 1 year
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About to go insane. Jimmy SolidarityGaming cannot catch a break in any of the series that he's in. Loser in Empire Smp. And as of yesterday, still a Loser in Life Series. And yet so many of us unconditionally adore him?
So last night, for reasons, I got into the shower to wash my hair at 3am, while decently intoxicated. While the water was heating up I looked at the mcc team list, and started thinking about Jimmy and mcc and the decisions he makes as a content creator and how he has to hustle because he doesn't have natural bonuses like "being good at minecraft" or "being booksmart" or "having a good memory". As I stepped into the shower almost said aloud "I'm worried people don't appreciate Jimmy enough." And wondered if I should go back a "Reasons Jimmy is Great #373-402" tumblr post.
But there I was just standing in the water in the middle of the night afraid[1] people don't appreciate Jimmy. I soooorta thought I would have chilled out about this (gorgeous) wet paper bag of a man with (charming) loser boy swag (and great comedic timing and a kind and loving personality and big heart) nine months later, but *apparently not*.
Anyway to address the ask - I like Jimmy winning things cause it makes him happy. It does not affect how much I adore him, because... I don't care about winning? I'm thinking about why.
I grew up in a Sports Household that was devoted to a team that has not made it out of the playoffs since... many decades. This both gives me "caring about winning is bother a sucker's game and setting yourself up for misery and meh" and "if you drop your team/blorbo because they haven't won in a couple decades, you're Not A Real Fan".
I am very competitive in some ways, but only a few really translate out of "I want to personally excel". This is hard, actually, to think about why I don't care when my first though was "but why would I care?"
Also coming in 40th at mcc makes the 1v3 dodgebolt wins so much sweeter
In the end what I care about is that I adored watching the Bad Boys and Jimmy had a blast. Would I have enjoyed him beating the curse? Yeah! Am I sad he looked so bummed? Well yes for sure. But my boy chose to be silly and jump off bridges *so many times*, I don't even want to count how many times he did it total. He made his bed, and he fell off a bridge into it.
Meanwhile Empires... yeah there's no "oh poor Jimmy" when the whole thing is what he wants. I listen to a lot of streams, mostly of him but also other people, and he's literally asking for it. fWhip once said it's because Jimmy's much more comfortable roleplaying/acting reactively, instead of coming up with the thing. He loves making his shocked faces and using his affronted voice, and he asks his friends to do things for him to react to.
PERSONALLY I'd love if they expanded Jimmy's empires reactions to be less about other PCs being mean to him, I'm hopeful that this fae can expand to a huge disaster where he's totally fucked but it's all by NPC/environment and his friends can help him. (As someone who used to play/run boffer LARP campaigns, it just feels SO larp. spouse and i sit around and point and shout about how we would do these things. 100% the reason i started going here was because last life felt like an awesome larp.)
So my love is unconditional because it's for a silly guy in London who loves his friends and minecraft, is kind to his fans, and makes me smile every single time I see him. If I'm sad, the best thing to do is put on the intro to any Jimmy stream or video, it's his big hello everybody! smile that warms my soul. He makes me happy and he makes me laugh and he could be the worst at everything and it would mean nothing. He is my blorbo, my special little boy, my wet paper bag of a man, and even my therapist thinks he has a good effect on my life. <3 <3 <3
...though I do hate watching him be inefficient at stardew valley, I don't play minecraft but i'm good at sdv and now I think I get the pain of watching him play minecraft. But I'm there for Jimmy, not the games. <3
[1] note: you do not have to appreciate Jimmy! It's fine. Trashed Vee really wants you to, and sober Vee thinks it makes life better to love Jimmy, but please don't take this post as weirder than it already is.
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sonicgirlsmackdown · 1 year
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It all starts with Round 2. Marine and Rouge started the competition as part of the group that entered round 2, and fear was struck into the hearts of Marine fans when they saw who she was put up against.
414 people voted, and Rouge swept with a score of 15.7-84.3.
It was on to Round 3.
Cosmo, after easily beating Amy Doll in round 2, had so much on the line, but most importantly, wanted to win for Tails, who was cheering him on the whole competition.
Unfortunately, Cosmo's second chance at life was short-lived, as 273 people voted for Rouge to take her down.
Round 4 was when things got interesting.
Maria, who had already beaten a version of Rouge in the competition already, somehow found herself in the ring with the original. Both found themselves conflicted. Shadow had a deep relationship with both of them, how fair was it that only one of them could go on and the other couldn't?
The fabled Maria Robotnik, everyone felt a twinge of hurt in their hearts when she just barely got 1/3 of the votes, declaring Rouge to go on with Maria in spirit.
With 8 remaining, Round 5 was intense, but only four three of the four matchups.
Amiss the war and divorce, Rouge was put against Jojo, the last remaining Sonic Movie rep, and the last human in the competition. Not much was to be said about the battle, and Jojo took it in stride. She had almost made it to the semifinals, and that was a good enough accomplishment for her. Rachel would've been so proud.
With only a quarter of the votes, Jojo accepted her defeat and allowed Rouge to continue onward.
Tension built in the semifinals, as the next person for Rouge to face was Cream.
Cream was an unstoppable force, breaking the hearts of oh so many as she so easily plowed through Wave, Sticks, Rusty Rose, Surge, and most recently, Tangle. Cream fans were strong, but it appeared that people wanting to avenge their blorbos were stronger.
Rouge won with 60.1% of the votes.
And so came the finals. The winner was to face Knuckles, winner of the sonicmalematchup, and everything was on the line.
Blaze the Cat vs. Rouge the Bat.
The competition was to last a week, and everyone was on the edge of their seats for the entire thing. Rouge was quick to take the lead, but Blaze was right behind. The two were neck and neck the entire run, Rouge only staying ahead by one or two percent.
On both sides, fans were happy and cheering on their faves. People proud of others appreciating Rouge's character, people presenting character analysis, it was a fun time all around.
Blaze had high stakes in this round. She vowed to avenge Marine, who Rouge had taken out so early on. Rouge, on the other hand, did have any big motivations against Blaze, just her iron will.
And maybe that was strong enough.
With extreme cheering from the stands, it was a score of 1339-1451 that decided the winner: Rouge.
The master thief and treasure hunter, receiving a prize that she didn't have to steal. Not only that, but it was given to her. Maybe that was the real treasure.
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Congratulations to Rouge!!!
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can anyone recommend some affordable games with really good character customization, so much so I can make my blorbos, but also good gameplay too?
stuff I liked in the past for reference, and reasons I stopped playing as well:
Miitopia: ngl I wanna do another playthrough with an Everhood cast, but my main problem with this game is it loses replay value IMMEDIATELY after you beat it. The gameplay is pretty shallow aside from the customization aspect, and the story you already know so it won’t hit differently when you restart of course. Now onto the good: The customization in the switch version is god tier, the story with everyone being miis you cast in each role (excluding our best boy Dominic <3) is amazing, I love playing a fanfic basically!! The personality quirks and relationship aspects are also really fun!!
Cult of the Lamb: more focus on gameplay than customization, but in every damn save I GOTTA make my Everhood blorbos!! For now the little animal followers do well, but I wish modding becomes easier in the future for custom follower forms </3
Flight Rising: I REALLY REALLY want to play this again, but I can’t because the only legal way for me to play it is to use my shitty account I made when I was 16 which used up all username changes and has a TON of shitty cringeworthy forum posts attached to it because it was the pandemic and my social media was extremely restricted with parental controls……. I don’t feel comfortable enough with the moderators and their extremely strict attitudes and rules to just make a new account and not touch my old one.
Sims 3: I wanna play this again so baddddd… I stopped playing sims 2 tonight after a few minutes because tbh? Modern game customization (mainly sims 3 and miis) have absolutely spoiled me to death and I can’t stand having to download a mod for every. Single. Customization I want. It’s so painful.
Rain World: I wish I could play this, I have tons of skin mods including an Everhood one, but it’s too damn hard for me to play (yeah okay Leaf sucks at video games and just needs to git gud and stop whining). The hardest games I play admittedly are Monster Hunter and Everhood’s battle replay, and I absolutely cannot STAND video game time limits. They stress me the fuck out every time and I can’t deal with them at all (shoutout to Mix quitting the call with me fighting the splatoon 3 final boss because I was screaming my guts out and I ended up having to hand the controller to them for me to beat Grizz), and on top of it I have to use a map in order to beat the game, pre-planning my routes every time and not making a single mistake lest the rain get me. I hate it. I hate that I can’t be good at games for fucks sake ughhhhhhhhhhhHHH
Lobotomy Corporation: I like the customization and modding is rather easy but. Come on. It’s lobcorp no fan has beaten the game its even a fandom in joke LOL (though I’ve definitely gotten farther in it that Rain World. CURSE YOU, TIME LIMITS!!! The thing also keeping me from beating Wandersong….)
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Tumblr Sexywoman Poll: Final Roster
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Alright folks here's the final roster for my Tumblr sexywoman poll. Other people have done this but I want to see what kind of drama I can stir up this time. This will be a poll on which sexywoman is the most Iconic TM. What that means - if she's actually sexy, if she had cultural impact, if you just like her character, etc - is up to the individual voter.
Polls for each round will be up at 8 AM PST, with round 1 starting on February 7. Rounds 1 and 2 will last for one day each, rounds 3 and 4 will last for 2 days each, and round 5 will last for three days. Just to build dramatic tension. (EDIT: I checked and Tumblr is lame, unfortunately, so my only options are to keep the poll up for a day or a week. I will keep the first three rounds up for a day each. I'll probably have the last two rounds up for a day too but if enough people thing keeping one or both of them up for a week is good for dramatic tension I will do that.) I will also have a one-day buffer between each round to prepare for the next one. (Please bear with me - I'm a student.)
A disclaimer: I don't know almost half the franchises on this roster. I only know them from the sheer volume of horny fanart of said characters that crosses my dash via osmosis. I am aware some characters on here are minors in canon, and there may be more in the franchises that I don't know.
The inclusion of canonically underage characters does not reflect my values, only that I've seen a lot of people on Tumblr sexywoman-ify them. Regardless of whether it was right in the first place, I've seen people on Tumblr be horny about all the characters on this list. To not include them on this poll would be disingenuous.
This post will be pinned and updated with links to the polls for each round. All polls will be tagged "tumblr sexywoman poll" on my blog in case I don't get around to updating the links right after the polls are up. While I LOVE to see people arguing over their blorbos this poll is just one elaborate shitpost on my end so I hope everyone keeps it lighthearted and fun. May the best Tumblr sexywoman win!
Pandora
EDIT #1: Polls for round 1 are linked here. Sorry for the delay, everyone!
Katya Goncharov Vs. Vriska Serket - Winner: Vriska Serket (59%)
Catra Vs. Bowsette - Winner: Catra (61%)
Sally Vs. Queen - Winner: Queen (69%) (nice)
Malfina Vs. Ianthe Tridentarius - Winner: Ianthe Tridentarius (54%)
Loona Vs. GLaDOS - Winner: GLaDOS (77%)
Marceline Vs. Cassandra - Winner: Marceline (74%)
Doc Ock Vs. Princess Luna - Winner: Doc Ock (67%)
Jessie Vs. Riza Hawkeye - Winner: Jessie (54%)
Hornet Vs. Eda Clawthorne - Winner: Eda Clawthorne (58%)
Rouge the Bat Vs. Shego - Winner: Shego (66%)
Zarya Vs. Hatsune Miku - Winner: Hatsune Miku (66%)
Monika Vs. Lord Dominator - Winner: Monika (63%)
Ena Vs. Franziska Von Karma - Winner: Franziska Von Karma (55%)
Isabelle Vs. Lady Dimitrescu - Winner: Lady Dimitrescu (85%)
Lusamine Vs. Junko Enoshima - Winner: Junko Enoshima (69%) (nice)
Lapis Lazuli Vs. Yor Forger - Winner: Yor Forger (68%)
EDIT #2: Roster for round 2. The polls will be up at 8 AM PST on February 9th.
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EDIT #3: Round 2 polls are up!
Vriska Serket Vs. Catra - Winner: Catra (56%)
Queen Vs. Ianthe Tridentarius - Winner: Queen (50%) (holy shit)
GLaDOS Vs. Marceline - Winner: GLaDOS (69%) (nice)
Doc Ock Vs. Jessie - Winner: Jessie (58%)
Eda Clawthorne Vs. Shego - Winner: Eda Clawthorne (64%)
Hatsune Miku Vs. Monika - Winner: Hatsune Miku (60%)
Franziska Von Karma Vs. Lady Dimitrescu - Winner: Franziska Von Karma (51%)
Junko Enoshima Vs. Yor Forger - Winner: Yor Forger (73%)
EDIT 4: The age of Junko, Vriska, and Resident Evil big lady ends now! The classic Tumblr sexywomen have been massacred this round. Special shout out the Ace Attorney fans for getting Franziska Von Karma to just barely beat Lady Dimitrescu. It can't have been easy. Also special shout out to Deltarune and Locked Tomb fans. there were 127 votes on that poll and Queen barely just beat out Ianthe. I did the math and if the votes were split 50/50, then Queen only got one more vote than Ianthe. Every vote counts, people!
Roster for round 3. The polls will be up at 8 AM PST on February 11th.
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EDIT #4: Round 3 polls are up!
Catra Vs. Queen - Winner: Catra (52%)
Jessie Vs. GLaDOS - Winner: Jessie (59%)
Eda Clawthorne Vs. Hatsune Miku - Winner: Eda Clawthorne (70%)
Yor Forger Vs. Franziska Von Karma - Winner: Yor Forger (53%)
Also, nominate someone for my Vriska poll coming next week!
EDIT #5: Roseter for round 4. Polls will be up at 8 AM PST on February 13th.
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It is with a heavy heart that I announced that Franziska Von Karma has been defeated. Kudos to the Ace Attorney fandom. You tried your best. I've been told that since like 50% of my followers followed me for The Owl House, that this poll was rigged. Maybe I should have made this poll on a side blog to distance it from all the TOH stans for a fairer poll. Guess we'll see if Eda likers or Yor likers come out on top this round. On the other side, I didn't expect Catra OR Jessie to make it this far. Props to Catra for defeating Vriska AND Queen holy shit.
EDIT #6: Round 4 guys. Sorry for the delay:
Catra Vs. Jessie - Winner: Jessie (64%)
Eda Clawthorne Vs. Yor Forger - Winner: Eda Clawthorne (52%)
EDIT #7: Roster for round 5. This is the final round, so I'll put the poll up for a full week. The poll will be up at 8 AM PST on February 15th.
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EDIT # 8: Final Round! This poll will be up for a week. I'll probably unpin this post in favor of the Vriska poll roster when I have that up. Probably around the 18th. The winner of the sexywoman poll will crown the winner of the Vriska poll when that ends.
Jessie Vs. Eda Clawthorne
Thanks for voting, everyone!
Pandora
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Como dientes en el alma
Song that inspired the title, idea is from this and the one post I made about wanting to write a prompt based off "you drew stars/around my scars/and now i'm bleeding"
This is so sweet and emotional, it made me miss writing angst and killing blorbos.
Have fun and don't get used to it <3
Lan Wangji passes by that place every morning when he takes A-Yuan to school. It's still the same as always, the same as back then, a little shop facing the main street, high windows with tattoo displays on them and a light up sign that hasn't flashed in over a decade.
"You don't look like the tattoo type." He laughs, and it lights up his whole face, his handsome features softening. His lip piercing glistens under the white neon lights, and for a moment, Lan Wangji forgets he's nervous at all. "Is there any occasion you're doing this for?"
"For... my mother, she's... gone."
There have been many rumors. Some said he ran away, others said he killed himself, or was disposed of. Most people shook their head and moved on with their lives.
Sometimes, Lan Wangji wishes he did too. Wishes he could.
It's been so long.
"Have you thought where you'd like it done?"
"It must be somewhere hidden. My workplace is...strict. As is my family."
He laughs again, and Lan Wangji finds himself yearning for the sound, wanting to remember it forever, melodious, sincere. Light shines on his face, his stormy eyes glistening with mirth, and Lan Wangji irrationally wonders what it would be like to hear that laughter forever.
"How about your arm? There's plenty of space there, I see." a wink, and Lan Wangji's ears flare red.
"Alright."
"I'll do my best so it doesn't hurt too much, but you'll hate me when I'll start to color it in, so heads up for that."
"It is fine, I am used to pain."
He smiles, but this time it's in sympathetic understanding, hiding something dark and painful beneath, "I am too. Doesn't mean you have to like it."
The tattoo is still there, beautiful etched into his skin. It hurt, but not nearly as much as everything else in his life - before that, and after - did. He still catches himself admiring it in the shower, or as he's getting ready in the mirror.
"Do you want to talk about your mother? It'll help distract you, you seem tense."
Lan Wangji was tense, but not because of the procedure, the other's touch electrifying, the closeness, intoxicating. But, indeed, this was about Lan Wangji's mother. And he never really got to talk to anyone about her.
It's comforting, to know there are still pieces of him into the world, scattered in the crowd, carrying his mastery, his touch, his soul, his creativity.
His love.
"My mom died too. Both my parents did. And I... I don't really remember them anymore. I was 3 or 4 years old when it happened, and then I lived on the streets for a while before uncle Jiang found me and took me in. I always wanted to find a way to make sure I wouldn't ever forget important things again and... well, you can never forget to look at your skin, right?"
It was impossible for Lan Wangji not to fall in love with him. Anyone would have. Such a kind, considerate, playful person, so beautiful, so artistic with everything he did - it was as if, with every move of his tools, Wei Wuxian didn't just leave his mark on Lan Wangji's body, but on his soul too.
"I...this is really unprofessional of me and I really shouldn't be doing this, but... frankly, I like you." The blush decorates Wei Wuxian's face so beautifully and Lan Wangji feels his own cheeks burn, his heart beating wildly in his chest. He smiles, shy, but with a glint in his eyes "And I think you like me too, because you've been here almost every day, and the 'I'm worried about healing' excuse is getting old."
Busted - but Lan Wangji knew it wasn't that good of an excuse anyway. However, he's done with excuses - and he pulls Wei Wuxian into a kiss instead, fully accountable and open about his intention.
And so incredibly happy.
Lan Wangji has three tattoos. The gentian flower, in memory of his mother, on his right arm, a pair of bunnies, a tribute to the love he and Wei Wuxian shared and...
Lan Wangji traces his fingers over the crudely drawn brand on Wei Wuxian's chest.
"This isn't yours." He says, and kisses over it, softly, as if the skin had yet to heal.
"No, it isn't... It was a... punishment. I pissed off the wrong people and I paid for it."
"Why didn't you remove it?"
"There are some things you can't erase, Lan Zhan, regardless of whether they show on your skin or not."
Lan Wangji remembered the symbol precisely - the lines, the contours of it, the sun it supposedly represents - and had it done too. Wanted to do it himself at first, drunk and mad with grief, but ultimately decided against it. Wei Wuxian wouldn't want him to die the same way he almost did.
"How about we get matching tattoos?" He asked one morning as he hopped onto the kitchen counter, coffee in hand, all but inviting Lan Zhan to kiss him.
He did, hungry and wanting as always, but Wei Ying seemed insistent on having a conversation right then, pushing Lan Zhan away enough so he could catch his breath. "I'm being serious, Lan Zhan, come on."
"So am I." And he kissed down the column of Wei Ying's neck as if to prove a point, hands sliding over the painted skin of his thighs.
"Lan Zhan, you're - ahh...- you're not listening to me!"
"I am. You sound pretty."
"That's not - mmh! - you know what, we should just get bunnies, since we're fucking like rabbits anyway!"
Sometimes, Lan Zhan can almost feel it, the gentle touch of Wei Ying's hand, the pinching of the needle, the warmth of being so close to the love of his life and distracting him with kisses when he shouldn't.
"Lan Zhan. Stay still, I mean it. I could really hurt you, and that would break my heart and my license!"
"You should not look so beautiful then."
Wei Ying lifted the tattoo gun off his skin and sighed, loudly. "Mister Lan, I may have to ask someone else to finish your tattoo, because you'll kill me with those words of yours."
Lan Zhan took advantage of the break to get into kissing his lover properly, smiling to himself as they parted and Wei Ying appeared entirely lovestruck, lips kiss-bruised.
"Okay, I'll behave. I don't want anyone but you."
It's been a long time since Lan Wangji has felt anything but hollow. He's been unable - and unwilling - to love anybody else other than his Wei Ying, and he's long resigned to a life of loneliness because of this conviction.
But he does dream, still, of a day when he passes by the old tattoo shop and the neon sign is lit up, the door opened wide, and Wei Wuxian rushing out to greet him, latch his arms around him and give him a sweet, smiling kiss.
Every morning as he passes by the place, his heart stutters with the tiniest surge of excitement.
Maybe there will be someone there today. Maybe, somehow, Wei Wuxian has returned, and he's still pursuing his dream and he still love Lan Wangji.
But the building stays stubbornly empty no matter how hard Lan Wangji hopes it not be so.
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But one day, 13 years later, the neon sign is lit up and the door is opened. Lan Wangji nearly stumbles out of skin at the sight of the decrepit shop suddenly teeming with life and the distant sound of buzzing needles.
He rushes in, shaking with so much emotion he feels his knees might just give out.
Wei Ying!
The young man at the register glances at him curiously. The name badge on his shirt reads "Mo Xuanyu", and, as if awoken from a dream, Lan Wangji blinks once, twice, and realizes he doesn't recognize anything or anyone in the old establishment.
"Can I help you?" Mo Xuanyu asks, though Lan Wangji feels too shattered to do anything but shake his head.
How could he be so stupid? Of course he won't find Wei Wuxian here. There are other tattoo artists and the building couldn't have stayed abandoned forever.
The world has long moved on.
And Wei Wuxian is...
A voice calls from somewhere deep in the store, and the closer it gets, the more tears gather in Lan Wangji's eyes.
"Xuanyu, did the 10 am appointment arrive yet? I want to go get some co..."
Wei Wuxian stands frozen in the middle of the shop's reception, eyes wide as if unable to comprehend what he's seeing.
The stranger - no, not a stranger, not at all - smiles at him, honeyed and tearful, and Wei Wuxian's body moves before he realizes.
When he's finally in Lan Wangji's arms, and Lan Wangji is in his...
"Is this real, Lan Zhan? Tell me it is, tell me you're really here."
"I am here, Wei Ying. I've always been."
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Looking back at all the “every version of me” posts I’ve made since I started talking about it on here, and I think it’s kinda funny but also sad that the blogs I followed when I first got into this hellsite are blogs I don’t interact with anymore because I’ve drifted away from Marvel
I mean, I still love the Marvel fandom, but it’s just not my thing anymore, you know? And I’m getting so into DC, and I’m really hoping I don’t have that happen again
But that’s not why I wanted to make this post, I wanted to look back at the original idea of Every Version of Me, back when I was just seeing a bit of batfam stuff in my feed and I was just curious (help I’ve been yanked down the rabbit hole)
The original document, which is what I use, but I basically erased it and rewrote it, bc at the time I really started getting into this fic was like early/mid last year, and I wanted to just have a fresh slate
The original idea/doc was put into words in October of 2022 (wow over a year ago) (no, that’s not my real name, deal with it)
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And the first picrew I ever made of Skyler (which I still have) was made on May 11, 2023
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The original idea of Skyler was an AFAB transmasc with anxiety, depression, ADHD, possible PTSD, asexual, bi-romantic, and a lot of trust issues
His biggest fear was never being good enough, and that Bruce would realize that Skye wasn’t “perfect” aka good enough, and would toss him aside, like everyone else had done
He had trauma from being raped as a kid multiple times and nobody believing him
I think he had an eating disorder? I’m not sure anymore, it’s been practically forever
He had tried to kill himself before, he’d been shoved into hundreds of foster homes between the ages of 7 and 13, bc almost none of the foster homes lasted more than a week. He still has the pocket knife he stole.
He idolized Red Hood, bc that’s who saved him one night when it was cold or he was getting beat up by bigger and stronger people. I don’t really know how or why, but I know that Red Hood saved Skyler, and now he idolizes him, he wants to be just like him. (Think the “big brother I wanna be just like you” edits)
Skyler never changed his name, because it’s something his parents gave him, and it’s one of the only things he had left of them, besides the languages they taught him when he was itty bitty.
Skyler was (and is) Italian and Russian, and knows how to flip you off in more than 3 languages.
Skyler is one of the blorbos that has lasted the longest, even if they did take a back burner a few times, but they never left.
I love Skyler, and I hope you do too.
❤️✍️
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It's time for Bob questions 'cause he's the new blorbo in town lol
Did he always want to be a mechanic or did he want to do something different as a kid?
Does he have a favourite colour?
What does he like to do in his spare time? Does he read books, play games, watch tv?
What was he like as a kid? Was he less grumpy back then?
Does he have a favourite hobby?
Did he always like robots?
Bonus joke question:
On a scale of 1-10 how gay is he for dadler lol
BOBERTTTTTTTTT!!!! <3
Glad I'm getting Bobert questions. Lol I like the grump a lot.
Did he always want to be a mechanic or did he want to do something different as a kid?
I'm not for certain if Bob always wanted to be a mechanic or not. But I don't think he ever planned on working for Fazbar Entertainment. While Ted had childhood nostalgia for Foxy, and wanted to work with his robot blorbo, Bob doesn't have the same attachment for the place.
I don't think he went to college like Ted. If anything, the guy probably went to trade school or vocational school to get a practical job with a steady income and good benefits.
It wasn't really a "dream job" for him. It was more, "I'm good at fixing shit, and this is what I'm good at, so best to go all in than not"
I could see him being a guy who fucked around and modded with older cars a lot rather than invent anything himself.
He figured he would have probably worked as a factory mechanic fixing their automated machines but the Pizzaplex was hiring and he figured “working on robots would be cool”
Does he have a favorite color?
Pink...
Yes, really.
What does he like to do in his spare time? Does he read books, play games, watch tv?
He likes to read on occasion and watch TV about as much as the average person.
He likes watching crime drama shows and sitcoms. Sometimes those animal cop or I shouldn't be alive shows and documentaries.
He's more a casual gamer though. he doesn't own any major consoles or any major things on his PC or anything. He's more a guy who's into those little farming simulators he can have on his phone.... He avoids the monetary purchases tho.
He also likes to go on long walks and has recently taken up cooking a bit more.
What was he like as a kid? Was he less grumpy back then?
He was definitely MORE grumpy back then. Lol well, grumpy isn't the word for it.
More like, FULL OF RAGE.
He would often get into fights at school and had a lot of anger issues.
But he also had a magnetic personality that made you feel good being around him. Like if you were on his good side, and he liked you, he'd probably beat up whoever you asked or was picking on you. He usually beat up bullies and didn't hurt anyone for no good reason.
He was an alright student. His grades weren't honor roll or anything, but he passed by okay.
Does he have a favourite hobby?
Spoiler. :3
Did he always like robots?
He thought robots were kinda cool, but he grew a deeper appreciation working with Fazbear Entertainment and finding out all their little weird personality quirks.
It takes him a long time to start treating the Animatronics as people. (Like it's a multiple year long development that happens of screen) And you can see his dismissive attitude towards Sun and Moon in the first chapter of Lofi.
He gains a more deeper appreciation for the AI as time goes on.
On a scale of 1-10 how gay is he for dadler lol
Fucking 11.
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Poetry and Proper Hydration
“There's a poem for this!” Stede exclaims.
Ed smiles. “Of course there is,” he says, delighting in the power of words to ground his sweet man.
—Tango
Reading poetry feels intimate to me, like a deep conversation. Poets let me into their innermost world, and all I can offer is my close listening. Putting poetry in Proper Hydration feels like another way I get to continue the conversation.
The idea for including poetry in PH emerged organically as I wrote the very first chapter. PH1 is all Ed POV, and I wanted to be sure that I showed as much of Stede’s interiority as I could even without access to his perspective (which felt too close to home to write, lmao). As Ed & Stede’s first evening together wound down, I was like, fuck yes, I’m going to give this blorbo my cluttered-ass nightstand poetry pile, and then Kayleb Rae Candrilli’s poem “Water I Won’t Touch” fluttered up to the surface of my consciousness and offered itself, and I was like, wait, no, I can’t put a poem in a fic—and then I was like, YOU CAN DO ANYTHING IN FIC, and it felt so good to let this be a way that Stede could share inner feelings with Ed, and Ed could receive them through his own filters but always with appreciation, which would in turn encourage Stede to share more of himself—and then it was just natural to continue that ritual. I mean, I literally do it every night, myself. (I don’t usually read them out loud to my co-captain. He loves it when I do, though, so, shit, maybe…)
My writing process is: 1. scenes drop into my head 2. outline a few beats I want to hit, a theme I want to explore/question I want to ask (and many emerge as I write, so this one’s also nonlinear lol) 3. insert the scenes I can see in my mind already, and then 4. go. The first draft is basically me finding out what the story is (thanks @gaypiratebrainrot for that language), so I tend to write a piece in order from start to finish. Which means that as I’m writing a Tuesday day for them, I’m sort of percolating on what the Tuesday night poem should be.
Sometimes the poem just bubbles up to the surface, like the way that you’ll be going on about your day and find that a fitting song has popped into your head. Sometimes I [re-]read a collection from an author I’d particularly like to feature in the installment to see if anything fits or jumps out at me. Sometimes I have to go hunting, especially if I know that there’s a specific emotion or question I want to play with and nothing’s already come to mind. Sometimes I literally google “queer poems about X” and go down a few rabbit holes. I encountered Michael Field on one of those lil trips, for instance.
I’d say 40% of the poems in PH bubble up in my mind as I’m writing. Another 40% are deliberately sought by choosing an author I want to include and [re-]reading their work, and the other 20% is from a hunt by theme or feel (the poetry foundation website and poets.org are super helpful—you can literally search by theme on poets.org, which is fuckin fun as fuck). I hang out with the poem, let it sort of marinate during my processing time, and see if it fits the vibe; like, I’ll read them poem for myself, and then I’ll read it again and think of how it would hit the PH guys. Does any of the imagery fit the theme, etc. (the first poem in Buttons [Ars Empathica by Donika Kelly] includes the mention of a man with metal teeth, which in the poem is referring to a fuckin chainsaw, but it also made me think of OFMD Buttons and his fuckin metal teeth—my dot-connecty brain looooves this shit—retconning canon references in poetry YES HELLO CONVERSATION WITH POETRY AND CANON AND MY FIC THEMES GAAAAH SO FUN BRAIN GO BRRRR).
And sometimes, I read something and am just like must give to blorbos STAT.
How I Got Into Poetry
“Years ago, [Stede] had turned to poetry to explore the mystery of emotion, to increase his tolerance for the ineffable. It always seemed as though poets were able to show him things that he didn’t quite have access to within his own experience. He often felt a bit like an outsider as he read—hell, as he went about his life. Lately, though, each poem resonates with him in a profound new way, revealing a depth of emotion inside him that he didn’t even know he had the capacity to feel. It's like he’s reading these poems for the first time, now that he's reading them with Ed's arms around him—now that he has a clearer sense of himself.”
—Buttons
It me, lol
Poetry as a means to explore the mystery of emotion has always been a thing for me, and actually most of my journaling/personal writing over the years has been in free verse. But I had some traumatic shit go down in my life a few years back (2016ish), and on the other side of it, I couldn’t really tolerate big feelings, especially the ineffable shit. I couldn’t even read shit with feelings in it. Like, even chill fiction was unsafe. I read nonfiction for a while, and then little by little, as I found my way back to myself, I could tolerate a little more. Not an entire novelsworth of feelz and interiority, but… a page. I could do a page. And it felt *good,* and omg actually you can pack an entire novelsworth of feelz into one fucking page. And I know that there isn’t necessarily a conclusion to the idea/experience/feeling that the poet is writing about, but they were able to integrate it enough to a) write it down b) workshop it c) submit it to a million publications and then d) publish it in a collection. Made it feel kind of safe to read. To be clear: that’s not because said poem was "good enough for publishing" (because lol fuck publication as a sign of good/worthy reading) so much as it probably meant the content was integrated enough for the writer to look at it a million times in the process. I don’t need a happily ever after, or an integratedly-ever-after in a poem. I just need to know that the poet was able to fathom integration—or their survival of the un-integratableness—of the subject matter.
So I started following poetryisnotaluxury on Instagram and my tolerance grew further. That account made me remember how much I love poetry, so I made the conscious decision to start reading more. Worked out well cuz around that time (2019ish?) my shoulders and connective tissues were like FUCK NO to holding up larger books, so I kind of went for it. I had also just come out as trans, so I decided to focus my reading on queer poets. Little by little I found myself with a bedtime poetry reading practice that continues to this day.
How Do I Find Shit to Read in the First Place
poetryisnotaluxury is still a primo source. I also now get POETRY magazine and American Poetry Review, and when I read something in there that hits me, I track down the writer and explore their other works, too (and sometimes I search their name in [podcast app] and listen to any interviews they’ve done!). I also listen to the Poetry Off the Shelf podcast (I HEART Helena de Groot) and get a lot of my reading recs from there. If I really vibe with a poet, I’ll look up poets they’ve named in the acknowledgments section of their book, or see who they’re quoting in their socials.
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tbh i did not know who cyrus borg is nor have i ever interacted with the ninjago fandom but i am obsessed about him. blorbo via osmosis.
anyways if you have any headcanons about him i would like to hear them :3c
cyrus borg my beloved blorbo babygirl <3
thank you for asking about this man. he is like a chew toy for my brain. hold onto your butt bc it’s 2 am as of writing this and that’s when all the big brained stuff happens 
in his mid/late thirties and slaying <3 he started his tech business at about 17 and now he’s got a crazy monopoly on like half the city but it’s okay bc he’s a kind philanthropist and actually treats his employees like human beings so no one cares that he’s effectively one of the most powerful men in the city lmao 
i see cyrus as autistic and adhd tbh. the way he gets so hyper focused on his work that he literally does not perceive anything else around him is a bit too relatable, and he strikes me as a very brilliant man who simply does not retain information unimportant to his interests. he could tell you the precise components of the most advanced computers and explain their relationships with one another, but hell if he knows who the president is. you’re lucky if he even remembers what day it is. this man constantly uses reminders and alarms for sure. 
he’s on the aroace spectrum i think. i’m not exactly sure how but he just gives me those vibes. 
also transmasc swag tbh?? i think i’ve seen that hc around and it goes hard 
hear me out. cyrus listens to rap. this is based on absolutely nothing at all i just know it with my very being. he likes stuff with fast, predictable and heavy beats. would totally blast shit like masquerade by siouxxie sixxsta at full volume in his office. it helps him get in the zone. idk what to tell you man [<- 100% projection] 
cyrus is like. absolutely fascinated by zane. he admires dr julien’s work so much and wants to study zane under a microscope. as he gets to know zane better personally though, i think he would realize that he has been looking at things through the lense of an engineer for so long that he forgot zane was just like his human family. it’s not that he ever viewed zane as simply a machine, quite the opposite - he fully acknowledged that dr julien had created a full person, and an incredible one at that - but cyrus still has to remind himself that people don’t like being poked and prodded. [the moment he makes the mental connection between zane getting put on an examination table and himself getting operated on by the overlord against his will, he realizes the error in his line of thinking] 
oh yeah. the trauma! yeah cyrus might be just a little bit majorly fucked up over the overlord thing. the overlord did amputate his right arm after all, which leaves him with only one fully functioning limb. he still has nightmares about it. getting used to a prosthetic arm wouldn’t have been such a hurdle if the overlord had put any sort of thought or care into the operation, but it left him severely scarred up and just fucked in general. however! as the years pass he becomes pretty much fully accustomed to his situation and doesn’t let it inhibit his creative passions. 
also when zane died in s3 cyrus was super broken up about it and blamed himself for it in part. then, not days later his daughter disappeared for reasons he would not understand until like a year later, which totally messed him up. he inevitably threw himself into his work in an effort to not feel anything. he didn’t take very good care of himself during this time. when zane returned from chen’s island, he let pixal explain everything to cyrus, who was just glad they were alive, but the whole situation took a really long time to get over. 
when he’s hyper focused he forgets to eat/sleep etc and can run on fumes for hours before his body suddenly becomes a wet paper towel in a parking lot at 3 am and he has to konk out at his desk. thankfully he has people looking out for him, and he’s slowly getting better about it, but once he gets started sometimes the only way to stop is by brute force. 
i absolutely love @alanshee’s amazing cyrus headcanons, so you should totally go check out her takes. she has some really cool headcanons about his 16 robot children [in reference to a line where cyrus mentioned pixal was the 16th iteration, i believe] and they always make me smile so big. a lot of my headcanons are inspired by her stuff! 
[sorry for the late ass reply it’s been a crazy week and then i forgot rip but thank you sm for the ask!!!]
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