I need to put extra effort into not falling victim to the whole misery loves company thing because I truly do teeter on the all too precarious edge of thinking that at times the universe does truly conspire me against me and do its all to ensure that every single thing is a struggle. That is not true at all but the momentary comfort of throwing your hands up and going “well this is the way it’s meant to be so why fight is” can be so tempting
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You may not be "allowed" to think about Eclairette in the tags, but you're allowed to think about it here, so speak up/lh
They exist at all times in my mind, Mape 😔 they never leave now
I can't stop thinking about the way she teasingly calls him mon vieux. Can't get over how he's become so fond over it and how deeply it touches him. Just a silly little name; an acknowledgment that she sees him as something - someone - other than "Monsieur Neuvillette". The ease in which it rolls off her tongue whenever she greets him or in the midst of their lighter conversations always makes him feel a little brighter. A little more...human.
And I can't stop thinking about how it was that comfort, that lightness, that humanity Eclair makes him feel that eventually led to him settling on a name for her. Not the public and (presumed to be, based on his tone) impartial "detective", but pluie. To associate her with the rain, that which has always brought him comfort, it's...I don't even think he knows how to describe it. It wasn't something he spent very long thinking about - he's never been one to even consider terms of endearment for himself. It just slipped out one day. Before he even knew he'd said it.
But the weight of it, the way it just...clicked. He felt that the was the only thing he could call her. Pluie - his rain, his beloved. Even if he still defaults to "detective", especially in public, his name for her still rings true above all others.
And it just. It just!!! I can't stop thinking about it!!!!
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i understand donnie darko better than anyone else in existence ok. that one’s for sam.
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people think i'm "rude" for being too blunt/too honest but if i took some kind of uncontrollable truth-telling serum i would be actually suicide-inducingly horrible to be around. i'm honest but trust that i take care to be much more polite, fair, and controlled at most times than I want to. you could not take 5 minutes of me blurting out everything that goes on in my brain in gruesome detail, especially pertaining to You specifically. kindness and courtesy are neither a weakness nor proof of some inherent purity. they are a bore of a chore. and while it is an incredibly irritating chore it is required in order to exist (less) hassled by society.
idk. it's truly annoying to spend much effort and energy on all of everything alone. and after accepting no help will come your way, no ackmowledgement or reward for your work comes either. and not only. instead comes punishment. punishment for the grave sin of not being good enough at pretending like i love small talk and not being good enough at kissing ass and not being good enough at neither keeping my head down and doing nothing nor making waves. not being good enough no matter which way you turn, what weight you pull, how much pain you opt to ignore in favour of pushing onward. there is no prize, no safe space, there is only the anger in the meaningless and base fight to survive. hatred, death, despair, the deep wells of agony. and within it all a part of you screams itself hoarse and then quiet to break the dam. at such high capacity, it doesnt matter of its toxic sludge or just water. "just water" kills everything in its path. tsunamis, typhoons, tropical storms, rainstorms, deadly hail... a little bit builds up and in the right place it can be cried out, or redirected, or simply evaporate in the warm, kind, invigorating rays of the sun. but what then if there is no place for that kind of thing. you are the river above a city and you grow and you grow and come the next storm you may just flatten it all to nothing with everyone inside. the dam allows no space to move or grow smaller. you grow so big you don't know if it's even a river anymore. what you are is some strange unnatural body with a riptide so intense it rivals the wildest ocean tides.
i remember the time i almost got swallowed by a storm riptide clearly. it took just a touch of the water and i am being pulled by a force stronger than anything i have felt before or again, something wild and so much bigger. a storm that no longer wants or has any purpose or even one clear cause... without reason, it doesn't *want* to destroy ships and tug people to their crushed deaths. no. it just-- will. it will do that. it has no will but it will kill you. it will destroy everything. what a beautiful terror. but why in me. tugging tugging tugging. sometimes i wish my weak little kid body got seized by the riptide and that i could not break free at all. that would be an epic death.
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Hi, MochiMunckin here. So, I've seen the recent "complaints" and I must say, "Stop pestering her!". Miss Emelin has a great AU that many people love. She literally explained the AU either twice or three times. The branding may seem confusing at first but once you ACTUALLY read what she wrote to explain it, it'll make sense. Again, no hate or rudeness in my words. Just truth. And, Miss Emily, have a mochi and relax. Goodbye! (And a question for Emily: What made you have so much creativity?) 🍡🍡
Hfbfdgdfbdf 🍡🍡 Thank you!!^^
And I guess my own creativity comes from all the media I've consumed- Also the years of experience I've gained through my years of reading and writing X Readers since I think 2016, due to how many good stories are out there, and I've been analyzing how they work so well. But I guess it's generally due to my Asperger's and my hyperfixations. My current main hyperfixation is LMK so that's where most of my brain is currently at. :D
But it's also somewhat on my own OCs, so I've tried to figure out a way to introduce them- And thus, ESAU was created due their influence on it. And one Anon is actually genuinely interested in them already, which is something I didn't even expect with how little I've even shown of them fhgnfhghfg
Shoutout to my lovely Oracle fan! c:
Actually smart pick though with how they hint at more lore of the AU than most of the doodles I do of the champions themselves-
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霧雨降る曇り空の下、永眠の安堵を胸に、一筋の涙とともに、果てることができたら…。
If only I could to meet one's end with a single tear, under a drizzling cloudy sky, with the relief of eternal sleep in my heart….
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elden ring is in no way more "hopeful" to me than any of the other games if anything it's significantly and noticeably less . Hopeful than say. Sekiro. I think the only difference is that characters seem to have more agency and direct contact with the player, and there's More Of Them around.
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Started watching the Bloodhounds kdrama and it’s so good so far!!! I love Woo Dohwan’s acting in everything he does and this is his first major project since coming back from his service and it’s really letting him shine. Love him, love his chemistry with his male costar, love the setup I see coming with the spunky female lead, love her pixie cut and biker jacket.
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