like out of all the many, many traumas ive given elspeth my favorite has gotta be the deep roads lol. and specifically the way she never really got OUT of them. yeah so maybe her body did but not HER. shes still down there with ruck and helspith every time she closes her eyes. and during future expeditions when she goes down into the deep roads for real, it doesnt feel like some horrible nightmare it feels like REALITY and its the surface and love and warmth and alistair thats nothing more than a pleasant dream. one shes always going to wake up from. bc even in her happiest moments she's never not aware of the darkspawn digging up towards her just a few miles under her feet. and never not feeling the eyes of the deep roads looking at her, gleefully waiting for her, and knowing its not going anywhere
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I'm back home, showered and in bed with my heating pad. I did not murder anyone at the event, which is good. We were lied to however, about what was required for us to bring, which I'm not surprised about. I don't want to have to repeat it all tomorrow, even if it's on a smaller scale. I'm tired.
But at least the ham tasted good and the crumble, while much less sweet than last time, was good and I didn't have to stay until super late. Small victories.
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Danyal al Ghul knew his family loved him.
There was no question about this. Mother would not have spent so much time comforting him if she didn't. Grandfather may be harsh, but his lessons were only so that he may become strong. Weakness would only get him killed, and Grandfather would loathe to see his second favorite grandson die before his time. And of course, Damian. His twin, his confidant, the one who scared away the nightmares and for whom Danyal would give the world. Danyal loved his family deeply.
He just wished his love was not a weakness.
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Love; Disconnection and Connection
I am a matryoshka doll
Inverse
Within me I hold
My mother
My grandmother
My great grandmother
And her mother
And her grandmother
But I am not my mother's
Daughter
Does that line end with me
I remember
Going to my grandparents house
And taking those matryoshka dolls
Apart
It felt like love
To take someone apart
Want to see all of them
It's all the matryoshka doll knows
What comes before them and
What comes after
Do I hope for that kind of love
Or do I hope
To be held so tightly
Crushed and put together over
And over
Again
What love do I want
Need
Deserve?
What love will finally (finally!) fill me
I know love because
I hold it within me
So why
Why am I still
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Welcome back bestie!!! How was the vacation ????? Missed ur ass on my dash!!!! ♥️☀️🍒✨
oh please, the only person that noticed i was gone was my cat, let's be real <3
it was good though! Managed to get my dumb ass sun burned by the hands of God Himself and now laying down is hell in its purest form, but besides that i had a great time!!
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