#Densi Fanfic

[glenncoco4]

Unexpected

Was trying to decide if it’s before or after the wedding. Went with after. 

••••

As he lays his jacket across the dining room chair, the sound of Kensi’s heels clacking getting closer and closer pulls his attention to the hall doorway. She’s standing there, beautiful as ever but as his eyes trace her body from head to toe for the thousandth time today, his attention zeros in on her glassy mismatched orbs, and worry sets in.

“Hey, you feeling any better?”

Nervously biting her bottom lip, she keeps her eyes trained on his. “Ye-yeah, I am actually.”

“Hey.” Not buying her words, he closes the distance between them, his arms finding their way around her waist. “What’s wrong?”

She lets out a soft laugh, shaking her head as tears being to fall from her eyes. “Nothing. Nothing’s wrong.”

“What’s with these tears then? Was it the wedding? Do you wanna marry your gorgeous husband again or something?”

“Maybe later.”

“I’ll hold you to that.”

“Good.”

“What’s going on then?”

“I’ve been feeling crappy the past few weeks and just assumed it was because of the end of the school year and work and Mr. Romance keeping me up almost every night.”

“Gotta keep my ladybird happy.”

A small smile curls at her lips before leaning in to meet his. “You’ve been keeping her very happy so much so that it’s come with a little gift.”

“Gift?”

“Uh-huh.”

His brow furrows trying to put the pieces together but honestly, she’s gonna have to spell it out for him cuz the thin material of her dress is making Mr. Romance realize how little material is actually between them. “I’m not gonna lie, baby. I’m a little lost here.”

“You.”

He nods.

“And I.”

He nods again, hanging on her every word.

“We each have special things in our bodies that when mixed together creates something.”

Then it clicks. “You mean…”

Bringing her hands up from their resting spot on his chest, she cradles his head, making sure he understands what she’s about to say. “We’re having a baby.”

He feels his jaw drop before his mind fully processes what his wife just said. “I’m pregnant?”

“No, you dork, I am.”

There’s a tightness in his throat as he asks the question he’s not sure he actually wants to know the answer to. “Really?”

Leaning in, Kensi closes the distance between them once more, pressing her lips to his. “Really, really.”

#Densi #Densi Fanfic #Kensi x Marty #The Deekses #NCIS: LA #NCIS: LA Fanfic

[trashblog07]

Hey guys i have officially experienced my first A03 writer curse. I experienced a 4.8 earthquake at school while taking a history test. Everybody’s fine i’m fine. I just wanted to share this

#fanfic writer curse #celina juarez #aaron thorsen #the rookie #svu #veluncy #a03 writer #chenford #ncis los angeles #densi #neric

[kalliopekorekind]

Seven Hours

Hello there, all. Been a while, I know. Life has been nuts. Been reading and keeping up with you all, but forever since I posted. If anyone is in the mood - just finished a story over on fanfic. Densi (of course).

Deeks sees Kensi's paperwork on the nurses' desk. Arrival Time: 3:35AM. He's confounded. He kissed that head good night exactly seven hours ago and has no idea how she got from there to here. Seven lost hours that clearly put her squarely in harm's way. Densi. PG. Set in Season 13. Cannon 'til it's not.

#ncis la #ncis los angeles #fanfic #kensi blye #marty deeks #densi

[chicgeekgirl89]

First Line Tag Game

Rules: Post the first lines of your last 10 fics posted to ao3. if you have less than 10 fics posted, post the first lines of all your fics.

Thanks @bonheur-cafe for the tag!

1. Love is Sitting on the Bathroom Floor

The first gurgle in T.K.’s stomach is not a cause for concern. In fact, he barely notices it.

2. How to Say Goodbye

Kensi slides into the passenger seat and lets her head fall back against the headrest, eyes closing as her body relaxes into the leather.

3. Glitter and Be Gay

Of all the things Carlos had imagined doing today, getting called to a drag brunch was not one of them.

4. Like I’m Gonna Lose You

“Can’t the officers who are there go in?” T.K. asks frantically as Gabriel presses the gas to the floor.

5. Will You Take What’s Left of Me?

Carlos can’t remember the last time he threw up, but standing in the fire house, waiting for T.K. to get back, he thinks he might today.

6. I Get it From You

“I noticed you started wearing this recently,” Andrea says, reaching out to finger the tiny cross hanging around his neck. “It’s pretty.”

7. My Pain Fits in the Palm of Your Freezing Hand

What is he doing?

8. Packing a Piece

This was not how he’d planned to spend the evening.

9. Paper Rings

“Okay,” Owen whispers, darting a glance around the room to make sure no one is listening. “Here’s the plan: I’m going to tell them I have to use the bathroom. While they’re distracted, you sneak out the side door. I’ll get the car and meet you.”

10. If Only in My Dreams

He’s not supposed to be here.

Tagging @bluenet13, @wanna-be-bold, @ejzah, @irispurpurea

#Fanfic #Tarlos #First Line Tag Game #Densi #Tarlos Fic #NCIS LA #911 Lone Star #What I'm learning is that my first lines are not very good 😂

[mashmaiden]

Sorry I missed the episode with y'all! I've been stuck working on my classmate's film today.

But in happier news, we finished all the filming for mine on Friday!

Enjoy these behind-the-scenes shots from The Presents of Panic!

#densi fanfic turned original script for the win! #The Presents of Panic #film school life #meet 'Danny' and 'Erika' cuz I'm totally original when it comes to names! #but I couldn't very well call them Kensi and Deeks!

[ejzah]

Would you ever consider writing a fanfic of Densi and Callanna going on a double date together?

Hi anon!

I think I’ve written a few things with the two couples at each other’s house or at a party, but I don’t know that I’ve ever written them on a date. Most of my fics with all four of them tend to dissolve into the extreme ridiculousness. I’d have to have a few more details to write a double date fic.

Thanks for asking!

#ncis la #densi #callana #my fanfic #ask ejzah

[perfectpurls]

NCIS: Los Angeles Fanfic Round-up

I spent a bit of time this afternoon manually archiving & backdating my old NCIS: LA fics from FFnet to AO3. I've definitely grown as a writer since I first posted these (some nearly a decade ago) but it was fun to go back and reread them!

Back Door (12/20/13): Why, exactly, was Kensi wearing the same shirt the next morning? And how did she come in from the opposite direction of Sam and Callen? Missing moment at the start of “The Frozen Lake”

Signs of Love (12/29/13): Pulled in for a case by the LA team, Abby Sciuto indulges in two of her favorite hobbies: forensics and convincing her friends they're in love.

Wardrobe (1/30/14 - 3/14/14): A series of interactions between Nell and other team members regarding Eric's wardrobe choices, 5 chapters

I'd Tap That (3/28/14): A bit of fun with Eric and Nell in OPS early one morning

Happy Birthday, Junior (4/26/14): Sam never follows the same routine except for one day: the day he goes to visit his son

Calling Ray (10/2/14): Deeks finally makes good on an old promise

Puppy Love (11/10/14): Snippets from the love story of Nell and Eric, and a puppy who witnessed it all

By Any Other Name (1/2/15): Post-episode oneshot for 6x9 "Traitor", in which Eric wants to know why everyone is calling him "Beale"

Home for the Holidays (1/14/15): What happened between Nell and Eric when they went home for the holidays? Set between "Humbug" and "Spiral"

Indirectly Dating (5/5/15): She wasn't sure how it had happened, but Nell was pretty sure that she and Eric had indirectly started dating

The Fourth (11/22/15): Nell goes into labor, but something is keeping Eric from being by her side. Will the family be reunited?

Wondertwins of the Alpha Team (9/29/16): The Wondertwins keep the Alpha Team running from command central

Kiss me at Midnight (12/31/16): Nell and Eric attend a special New Year's Eve celebration

#ncis la #neric #densi #fanfic

[blogger360ncislarules]

Deeks’s poem for Kensi goes missing

@chaos-company

#swoonjune2023 #ncis la #fanfic #day23 #I never pick favorites but baby you're for me #my work #densi #ncs la drabble

[tellmegoodbye]

20 Questions for Fic Writers

Thank you @sznofthesticks for the tag!

How many works do you have on ao3?

10. I used to have around 30, but I orphaned a bunch of my old stuff recently.

What's your total ao3 word count?

112,750

What fandoms do you write for?

Shameless, 911 Lone Star, and hopefully 911 in the future? I really want to but I don't have any ideas atm.

Top five fics by kudos:

I excluded fics that I cowrote, so this is all completely my own writing. These are all more recent too, so this is much more representative of my current writing style.

shut the door and let go

lover, please stay

when all is said and done

our love will guide us home

will the pain stop (if we go deeper)

Do you respond to comments?

I try to respond to as many as I can! Sometimes I run out of words to say (communication has never been my strong suit) but I read every single one and they always make me smile.

What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

will the pain stop (if we go deeper)

This is the most I have ever projected my personal experience onto a fic. I was going through a breakup at the time and not handling it very well, and writing a breakup fic really helped me cope with it at the time.

I'm doing much better now, and my ex and I are on good terms. Even though the ending to the fic itself was angsty, I'd like to imagine that the characters are doing better now as well.

What is the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Most of my fics tend to have happy endings, but if I had to pick the most satisfying happy ending it would be lover, please stay.

Most of this fic is pretty angsty, but the ending makes it all worth it I think!

Do you get hate on fics?

Thankfully I haven't received any nasty comments. I did receive a kind of weird comment once, but I completely forget what it even was.

Do you write smut?

I never did before I got into the shameless fandom, and then I kind of went crazy with it after that.

Craziest crossover:

I've never written a crossover before. It's not something I've ever considered or even know if I would want to do.

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Hopefully not!

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Many times with my ex, back when we were still dating. It was a lot of fun and definitely something I'd like to try again in the future! I've always enjoyed collaborating with other people.

All time favorite ship:

Favorite ship I've written for? Tarlos. Favorite ship I've never written for? Tiva, aka Tony and Ziva from ncis. I also love Densi (Deeks and Kensi) from ncis la.

What's a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

I have not written a chaptered fic in years and it is something I would really like to do. I have several ideas including a detective au that I've floated between two separate fandoms, but I still haven't been able to make any progress regarding those wips.

What are your writing strengths?

Angst and introspection! I love getting into a character's head and psychoanalyzing them (I am a psych student, after all 😂) and I also love writing sad shit. I'm a sucker for pain, it seems.

What are your writing weaknesses?

Transitions. We all know them, we all loathe them.

Thoughts on dialogue in another language?

If it makes sense for the situation/characters, of course! I wouldn't go overboard with it though, since I don't actually speak any other languages myself.

First fandom you wrote in:

Minecraft youtube, but like the old school kind. Around 2014-2015ish. And I physically wrote everything down in little journals. Fanfic was only something that existed in my head at the time until I discovered the likes of ff.net.

Favorite fic you've written:

My most recent fic always becomes my favorite, and that holds true today too!

My push coda, my baby, our love will guide us home.

This is something I'm incredibly proud of, and it's also my longest fic to date and something I wasn't sure I would ever be able to finish. I'm still kind of in disbelief that it's finally real.

Tagging (with no pressure ofc) @strandnreyes @carlos-in-glasses @freneticfloetry @welcometololaland and @lemonlyman-dotcom

I do remember this tag going around a few months ago so if you've already done this, you can either do it again if you want to or just accept this virtual hug from me. 🫂

#har rambles #tagged

[chenfordspiral]

Tag 9 people you want to get to know better / catch up with!

thank you for the tag, @queseraone 🥰

Three (3) Ships: Chenford, Mondler, Densi

First Ever Ship: pretty sure it was Barney & Robin from HIMYM, but the first hardcore ship was definitely Caskett

Last Song: Daylight by Taylor Swift (duh, ofc it's Taylor)

Last Movie: um, I think it might have been Red, White and Royal Blue like two, maybe three months ago. Idk, when did it come out?

Currently Reading: basically nothing but fanfic, mostly older ones though. Last actual book I started might've been in June, don't remember the title though..

Currently Watching: rewatching NCIS

Currently consuming: in terms of food? Nothing, cause I have an upset tummy 😩 otherwise, I don't know. I feel like my answer to this could always be Chenford

Currently Craving: anything that'll make me feel better. And of course more cute domestic Chenford in S6 pls

tagging: @escapismqueen (don't need catching up with her though lol), @imperiumwife, @thesassywitchofthenortheast, @littlesnafu, @girlintotv, @theflyindutchwoman, @bluenet13, @randomlittleimp

#tag games #about me

[glenncoco4]

Beach Babe

A smile spreads to Kensi’s face as her husband brings the back of her hand that’s intertwined with his to his lips. The sun beaming down on them, her toes in the sand and their girls playing in the water…what more could she ask for.

Turning to meet his eyes, hidden behind his aviators, she slowly lets her eyes drift down to his glistening sun kissed chest.

“Excuse me, but my eyes are up here.”

She feels the heat rise to her cheeks at being caught but who could blame her? “Hey, you’re mine. I can look all I want.”

“You can also touch.” He wiggles his eyebrows before letting his eyes drift down her body. Public beach. They’re at a public beach.

“Excuse me. My eyes are up here.”

“Yeah, well mine are down here.”

She can’t fight back the smile on her face as she leans over in her beach chair, titling his head up, and brings her lips to his. “Mmmh, tasty.”

“I remember saying the exact same thing this morning when I woke you up. Wouldn’t mind going to sleep the same way.”

“Oh, really? I was actually gonna do a little something for you tonight.”

“You don’t mean…”

She bites her lower lip and nods, bringing her lips to his ear. “I’m gonna undress you slowly, pump your cock until you’re begging-“

“Mommy! Daddy!”

The brunette turns towards their baby, who’s running towards them as Deeks lets out a whimper.

Placing a kiss to his cheek, she takes a calming breath. “What baby?”

The 4 year old’s hazel eyes are as wide as saucers as she looks back and forth between her parents. “Have you ever just looked at the beach and…you just wanna live here?”

Deeks turns to his wife with a shit eating grin on his face and shrugs. “She gets it.”

“We should get a boat like Uncle Sam and live on the water!”

“Uh, but what about a yard for you to play in with Nutmeg?”

“We can play fetch on the beach! She told me she loves it here.”

“She did?”

“Yeah!”

“We’ll talk about it.”

“Yay!!”

The tiny dirty blonde plops down on Kensi, giving her a big hug. “Thank you, mommy!”

“You’re welcome, baby.”

“Excuse me?”

Harper curls in Kensi’s lap, meeting her daddy’s eyes. “Yes?”

“Don’t I get a hug?”

“Only if you come play with me and Rosa.”

“You drive a hard bargain, but okay.”

Harper hops, placing her hands on her hips and stares down the shaggy blonde until he gets up. “Let’s go, mister.”

“You know what? I think mommy wants to come, too.”

“No, I’m gonna finish my book. You two go.”

Deeks looks down at their girl who’s all her mama and shares a mischievous look with her.

Before she knows what’s happening, little fingers are wrapped around her book and being taken out of her hand. The suddenly larger hands are wrapped around her wrist, pulling her out of her chair right before her world turns upside down.

That’s when she feels her husbands muscles move against her stomach and a perfect view of his derrière fills her vision as they grow closer and closer towards the shore.

As the infectious laughter of their little girl fills the air around her she feels the need to pinch herself. How can someone be so happy?

#Densi #Densi Fanfic #Baby Deeks #Familia de Deeks #NCIS: LA #NCIS: LA Fanfic

[stanathanxoox]

Michael's Human

gif is mine

Anonymous asked:

Hello! Idk how comfortable ur writing levels are but can you write a fanfic for Sadistic Michael x Masochistic GenNeu Reader (The Good Place)?

It can be from when Michael is still a Bad Place architect/employee, but this sinner *likes* being tortured so it surprises him?? He’s like “oh shit, alright??” Lmao

Can you include bondage, praise kink, scratching, biting, etc? Thank you 😭

Michael couldn’t believe that he’d lucked out when it came to his human. Whilst planning was underway for the good place, he had found that he needed some test subjects to work with and one of the humans that was sent to him was Y/N, they were stunning in Michael’s eyes, absolutely gorgeous in human standards and he didn’t even like humans normally. Though after getting to know Y/N more it surprised him just how masochistic they were, they enjoyed any type of pain that was caused to them. Something that both surprised Michael but also gave him reason to want to test Y/N’s limits, he knew that they had limits but it seemed that Y/N was willing to go pretty damn far, being marked up, spanked and bitten by Michael was something that Y/N seemed to revel in and it just turned Michael on more and more. On one particular occasion when Y/N is striped bare in front of Michael and begging to be bound and choked Michael’s brain short circuits for a second before he quickly finds the rope and begins to tie Y/N up, doing exactly as Y/N asks. He panics when he sees the bruises and hears the whimpers that Y/N lets out but at the gentle encouragement to keep going Michael does and when the two lay spent on the bed, he holds them close to him, placing a kiss on the top of their head as he thinks that he truly found his person in Y/N, they were everything to him and he would do everything in his power to protect them.

Tag List: @tiva-jenry-caskett-rizzles-densi​, @jimmybpride​, @dressed-just-like-z1ggy, @nikkiwierden​, @samchelforever007​, @kirkspockbones​, @xoncisxncislaxncisnolaox​, @lasalle-pride-sebastian-love​, @haliannej​, @brooklyn-99-amyxjake​​, @mizzezm​, @genius2050​, @twilight-twihard​, @cullencoven2019​, @wxlfgirlx​, @luciferxchloeislove​, @drethanramsey-ismybabe​, @sawyer-oakley-is-mighty-fine​, @loverofoneshots​, @aelin-thefirebreathingbitchqueen​​

Tag List for The Good Place: @eleanorandchidixlove

#the good place #the good place fic #the good place imagine #the good place x reader #the good place reader insert #michael tgp #michael tgp imagine #michael tgp x reader

[wanna-be-bold]

5, 10, 15, 20

5. The fic you’re most proud of writing?

Oh goodness. Probably any multi-chapter fic. It's so hard for me to write more than 1 chapter so I'm proud of all of the multi-chapters I've finished.

10. Best/funniest comment you’ve ever gotten on a fic?

Anytime someone comments and says that I wrote them in character will be my favorite comments. Someone left a comment like that on my first Ellick fic and it made me so happy and spurred me to write more.

15. Fandom you wrote the most fanfiction for?

NCIS. I started out writing Tiva fics and then I wrote a ton of Ellick fics (especially considering I started watching NCIS again in 2020 and had a lot of time to write for Ellick)

20. Hardest character to write/get the characterization correct for?

Kensi Blye. I love NCIS LA and Densi SO MUCH but for some reason she is so hard to write for for me.

Fanfic Ask

#fanfic ask #thanks for the ask!

[chicgeekgirl89]

Well, it’s been a week since the end of our beloved NCIS LA, and Sunday nights will never be the same. I’ve been meaning to post something that feels like a farewell and the first Sunday night after seems to be the right timing for it.

I found NCIS LA when I was in grad school. My first time out on my own, living in a crappy apartment with a roommate named Karen who was exactly as whacky as you’d imagine a person getting a master’s degree in opera could be. I don’t even know how I found the show, it must have been a rerun. But there was Deeks and there was Kensi my brain immediately said, “Wait, okay, one of them must have been injured at some point, right?” And I found Personal and the rest is history.

I had written and posted fanfic before, but nothing to the scale at which I posted Densi fic. I don’t even know how I had time to watch the show and write in between classes and working basically forty hours a week, but I made it happen because I had to. These beautiful characters had a grip on me that wouldn’t let go and the ideas just refused to quit.

Halfway through my first year I found Tumblr and was very excited to have a place to chat about Supernatural. Instead I found a happy little corner of the internet and friends I didn’t even know I needed.

@raccoonsmate4life, @aprylynn, @ejzah, @glenncoco4, and @wanna-be-bold you all have become such an incredible encouragement to me. I don’t know where my writing would be without your constant support and validation and endless kind words. 

@mashmaiden, the keeper of the fandom, the person to whom no question was too small or too obscure, thank you for your service and kindness. I have often said you are the kindest person in the world, and I do truly mean that!

@chrisodonline, my saltiest of friends, I have enjoyed our chats so much. You made the highs feel higher and the lows feel bearable. I am lucky to know you!

And @bluenet13...well, I don’t even know what to say about our friendship. LA started it, SEAL Team cemented it, and now you’re stuck with me forever. Thank you for listening to my ranting and raving and sobbing and being the first person I ever trusted to read a fic before posting it.

And to everyone else who has interacted with my posts or read my fic, thank you from the bottom of my heart. I didn’t know fandom could be like this, and it has truly been such an incredible experience because of all of you!

It seems only fitting that a show that had such a beautifully tightly knit cast has handed me the best online friendships I could ask for. The show might be over, but this definitely isn’t goodbye! 

In retrospect, maybe the real NCIS LA was the friendships we made along the way...

#NCIS LA #Farewells #Open with Caution #Sappiness inside

[bluenet13]

Tag 9 people you want to get to know better / catch up with!

Thanks @chenfordspiral for the tag!

Three (3) Ships: Chenford, Densi, Tarlos, Peraltiago. Sorry, totally cheating but I couldn't leave any of them out. Peraltiago is the last one to join my fave ships but they also own my heart now.

First Ever Ship: Densi.

Last Song: Sunshine by Sia cause I've been writing holiday fics and need to get in that mood.

Last Movie: Hallmark's Christmas Island.

Currently Reading: Fanfic, so much fanfic.

Currently Watching: Still binging Brooklyn Nine-Nine for the first time. Currently on season 5 and still loving it.

Currently consuming: I had breakfast like two hours ago.

Currently Craving: For my shows to finally return.

Tagging: @ejzah @psyched1328 @ravens-words @wanna-be-bold @queseraone @mashmaiden @anonkp @dmarx @chry5alis-05

#tag game #about me

[ejzah]

Can you do a fanfic of what if Densi had come their separate ways after the season 9 finale. You can make it really angsty. I'd also like to see Kensi have a moment of realization, regretting she was the one who drove Deeks away cause I always found it unfair that he had to apologize when I've always felt it should have been the other way around!

A/N: I kind of made this after the season 10 premiere, because rewriting things to exclude Mexico felt too involved.

I think both Kensi and Deeks said and did some things that were unfortunate. Though I don’t think Deeks ever was trying to give Kensi an ultimatum when he said they shouldn’t get married.

***

Shattered Beyond Repair

Kensi stood in the center of the living room. She’d made it past the front door, finally, but couldn’t seem to get past this point. Everywhere she looked, there were little signs of the life she and Deeks shared.

Had once shared, she reminded herself internally.

After they returned from Mexico and Deek was released from the hospital, Kensi had stayed with him to nurse him back to health. Even though they weren’t together anymore, she couldn’t justify abandoning him to a rehab center, or some stranger. Not after everything they’d been through, all they’d overcome.

The cavern between them had persisted though, and Kensi could never quite find the words she needed to fix things. Then before she knew it, Deeks was well enough to be on his own, and decided to stay with a friend of his. Unable to stay there on her own, with the constant memories, Kensi had temporarily relocated to a hotel.

She drew her finger along the top of the coffee table, leaving behind a streak in the thin layer of dust. It was just another sign of everything that was wrong. Pressing her lips against the tight, painful sensation rising in her throat, Kensi moved on. She didn’t get very far; stilled by the sight of a picture frame tucked between some knickknacks.

It contained one of the pictures from their engagement shoot. The pure joy on her and Deeks’ faces is such a cruel juxtaposition to the constant ache in her chest.

“Hey.”

Kensi spun around at the sound of Deeks voice, tucking the picture against her chest. It had only been a few days since she’d seen him, in passing, but her eyes roved over him like it had been weeks.

“Hey. I didn’t realize you were coming today,” she said when he didn’t say anything else.

He hesitated in the doorway, head dipping for a second before he looked up again, gaze focused beyond her.

“Uh, yeah, I just came to pick up a few more things. I won’t be long,” he said.

“You don’t have to rush,” Kensi told him, not even caring that she sounded desperate. “How have you been?”

“I’ve been, um…” he shook his head, and made rough, sarcastic sound. “It’s been hard.” He looked as hurt and lost as she felt.

Kensi started towards him before she even fully registered the decision.

“Kensi,” Deeks protested softly as she wrapped her arms around him. “This isn’t—”

“I miss you,” she whispered softly, and he broke off. His remained stiff in her arms for a few more seconds, and then his arms slowly rose to enfold her shoulders, his chin lowering to rest on her head.

“I do too. You don’t know how much, Kensi.”

“Then we should talk. We can work this out, Deeks.“

She felt his chin move against her head, side to side.

“I don’t think that’s going to happen,” he said.

“We’re both miserable. I know I made mistakes, I said things I didn’t mean, but I was angry and scared, and I definitely don’t feel that way now.”

“And what about when we have another issue we don’t agree about?” He paused briefly. “Are you going to walk away again if you don’t like what I say?” It wasn’t said maliciously, but Kensi flinched at the reminder.

Deeks eased back slightly, cupping her cheek so he could turn her face to his. She was so used to looking to him for positivity, for the humor in moments of darkness, yet she only found deep sadness in his eyes.

“I never meant to give you an ultimatum that night, Kens,” he continued, his thumb brushing along her jaw almost absentmindedly. “And I would never force you to do something you’re not ready for. Like leave NCIS.” He sucked a shallow breath between his teeth. “Or start a family. But I want those things, Kensi. I want them with you, and I…selfishly, can’t live a life where I might lose out on all of that. Or you.”

Tears filled her eyes, and this time she did nothing to stop them. She wanted to tell Deeks that she could give him everything that he wanted. Now. It would be so easy, but the words stuck in her throat.

“So, what are you saying?” she croaked out finally.

“I can’t—I can’t do this anymore,” he said, his voice breaking on the last word. His eyes were wet too, a couple tears creasing down the sides of his nose.

“No, please, baby.” She held him tighter, as though she could physically keep him with her.

Deeks dipped his head, his nose brushing against hers, his mouth so close. Cupping his cheeks, Kensi tugged his mouth down to her, and kissed him. She expected Deeks to pull away, but instead, he drew her closer, his mouth moving over hers with a desperation that was almost terrifying.

It ended far too soon. Kensi buried her face in Deeks’ neck, breathing in his sent, relishing the feel of his skin and beard against her cheek.

Slowly, Deeks encircled her wrists, and gently drawing her hands down. “I love you,” he whispered, and Kensi couldn’t contain the sob that erupted from her throat.

“I love you, too,” she gasped back, clutching at Deeks’ shirt for a few more seconds until he pulled out of her arms. He stepped back, fists clenched at his sides.

“Good bye, Kensi.”

She watched him turn, walk away, the door closing behind him. Sinking to her knees, Kensi sobbed.

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A/N: I hope that was suitably angsty. Honestly made myself cry a little bit writing this.

Thanks for the prompt!

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