#BUT THINKING OF IT MAKES ME ILL/POS

[cherrirui-official]

I hope u guys don't mind me posting these au doodles while I work on things ahaha

I also gave JD slightly longer hair in these doodles as a funny haha but I don't think it's funny anymore he looks genuinely good with his hair like that ahahaha I hope you're not mad at me for changing his au design a bit

#first of all ahem DONT TAG THIS AS SHIP OR WHATEVER!!! ILL THROW ROCKS AT YOU!!!!! BITCH!!!!!!! #troIlcest (or whatever you call yourselves idk) DONT TOUCH my SHIT! Ty :] anyways... #For context I like to hc that when he was younger Bruce would always have JD brush his hair #and like... whenever lil Bruce was upset it would help calm him down i think ahhauysgjiodk do u guys see the vision?? #and since it's my au i can make reality whatever i want it to be sooooo :] #I like to imagine that it still helps Bruce calm down even tho they're older now.. Big bro brushing his lil bros hair to soothe him UUGH #Let JD be a good older brother pleeease #also gave JD flowers in his hair too bc he deserves them me thinks... Now him and Bruce are matching!!! #i dont have any specific flowers in mind for the ones in their hair i just picked a color for the flowers that looked pretty and ran with i #also saying it again i love love LOOOOVE the crayon tool in mspaint using it to make gradients is so!!!! UUUGHUHHH!!!! /pos #the pattern on JD's jacket fur will never be consistent shhhhh #trolls #trolls band together #john dory trolls #trolls john dory #bruce trolls #trolls bruce #beach bros au #cherris canvas #I made that last image btw #everytime i saw that screenshot of jd it made me think of the spongebob scene where its a pov of flats waking up #and the first thing he sees is spongebob waiting for him with flowers in his hand and smiling

[fumifooms]

NOO NO YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND LAIOS’ SUCCUBUS AKA MOST ALLURING FORM IS MARCILLE SMILING

#Dungeon meshi #Laios touden #marcille donato #and it’s the romantic advance that’s unwanted #…. OR IS IT #Anyways this is my TLDR of my huge succubus analysis #Laimar #marios #Marcille is so special to Laios it makes me go insane and feel ill (/pos) #I’m collecting laimar moments to post one day hehe #I’m a hopeless shipper but don’t let that blind u from my point if u don’t like laimar!! Like debate if u disagree #I see too many people fully disregard the succubus scene when it has so much to say!! #OUGHH THE WAY HE DOESN’T EVEN FLINCH AT SEEING HIS MOST ALLURING FORM BC HIS LIKING OF IT IS BASED ON FAMILIARITY #AND THEIR LONGTIME FRIENDSHIP. HE SEES IT ALL THE TIME SO OBVI HE WOULDN’T REACT LIKE A MESS #They make me unwell I can’t stop thinking about this #Btw that second picture is the last page of a chapter where on his deathbed Laios sees his life flashing before his eyes #And the chapter is all about how he met Marcille and when she became part of the party #And that chapter is the one JUST before the succubus mini arc #So like it’s 100% connected and intentional #dungeon meshi manga spoilers

[mblue-art]

care. reassurance.

#cross!sans #self insert #mblue art #yeah im. soff #may or may not have been fueled by that tender forehead kiss post #(this started as a vent art kinda but!! feeling better now. hopefully. i jst wanna yearn) #(been dealing w irl stuff n fighting the brain around the time i made this. nnn. wahoo. yippee.) #(also havent had the spoons to scroll thru tumblr/twt feeds so i feel out of the loop ;w; but thas oke i'll live;;) #(simping for him makes me mentally ill /j/pos (but also /neg bc. mmm. blaming my brain for that lol)) #(ANYWAY i think he's been hogging too much of my brainspace lately and i think he should make way for lust too wth man 😤😤😤 smh /lh) #CM

[apollolovesu]

thank you @gaysonlyocean for inspiring this heiisuhdihd

#tmc #love me a series that makes me ill to think about/pos

[esora247]

I'm coping (lying)

#good omens #good omens 2 #ineffable husbands #ineffable bureaucracy #crowley #aziraphale #gabriel #beelzebub #IM STILL SO HAPPY ABOUT INEFFABLE BUREAUCRACY MY CRACK SHIP FROM SEASON ONE IS REAL #Gabriel had a taste of the non binary swag and it flipped his entire worldview good for him #DESPERATELY NOT THINKING ABOUT THE HUSBANDS TO HARD ASUSGDHD they make me ill /pos #my art ¯\ (ツ) /¯ #fanart #more notes than usual #100

[skitskatdacat63]

Boy King Seb :D

#thank you to Grace for the idea of making his chivarly collar red bull instead <33333 #he was gonna have both collars but then making that one made me suffer so no not today #this was a lot of fun but also made me suffer. but i keep looking at it and being like AAAHHHHH BABY!!! BABY BOY!!!!!!! #can you believe i tried to do this in one night? i cant #i stopped and came back to it and was like 'no way you could do this in one sitting at 1 am' #this is kinda the ascended form of that very first sketch i made for this au! concentrated boy king sebby!!! #i say to myself i need to take a break from drawing complicated things but youll prob see a nando version of this in less than a week ;;; #okay about the drawing(i wrote good tags and then tumblr deleted them so these are a bit inferior AGH): #this is typical pouty seb but is also referenced off a specific pic from AD 2009(beloved) #its very important to me how emotionally open Seb is. im not sure the specific context of this. maybe after a triumph? #but instead of being that typical stoic serious detached kind of ruler; i like him being openly emotional(think AD 2010) #its important as well for his dichotomy with nando and how they choose to portray themselves #seb is very assured in himself and his rule vs. nando who is more insecure and bitter about his #so nando takes strides to portray himself in that more stoic calculating way bcs he feels like it helps him legitimize himself better #whereas seb has absolutely no care for outward public image and shows how he feels and is loved for it(nando hates it but loves it) #not that nando cant be fun and whimsical!! but to me he always seems a bit more mysterious; like i can never tell his true thoughts tbh #anyways i feel like ill finish 10 more drawings before i end up posting the lore pt 2 LMAO #its just a lot harder to organize and layout compared to part 1 which was just an explanation #pt2 would be a mix of more world building/characterization/anecdotes ive talked about with mutuals(LOVE YOU GUYS!!!) #i have a *lot* of ideas (gotta whip out my notes app every once in a while to write down stuff abt it) just hard to put into a coherent pos #sebastian vettel #f1 #formula 1 #f1 art #formula 1 art #f1 fanart #formula 1 fanart #catie.art. #*ill prob make a process post later if anyone is curious!! its fun to write abt my process and influences and such #boy king au

[itshomobirb]

> cat's urinary episode probably caused by stress

> both my parents left for a vacation earlier this week

> the implication that my cat got stressed out from my parents leaving

> which includes my mother, who has [redacted] me and is abusive and just Not a Nice Person

> my mother, who finds fault in litcherally everything i do for the cats. and even if i give in and do what she wants... several months later, she's complaining again

> swapped their litter several months ago to pine pellets. they've adapted nicely. their litter is fine. also doesn't track everywhere (something my mother complained about for MONTHS with their previous litter)

> my mother, unprompted: did the vet say that maybe this could be caused by their new litter?

i fucking hate her.

#borbtalks #my mother is fucking stupid and asks really pointed questions like that to try to force her opinion as Being the Right One #this includes asking me if maybe my hrt. the stuff that helped me not be low level depressed all the time. has turned me into... #.... an angry cold mean heartless brat. and that maybe bc im autistic im just not self aware enough to notice. #like uhhh no youve been calling me an angry cold mean heartless brat since i was like 5 #or asking if my dr has said im immunocompromised (with the implication that if im not. i shouldnt be masking around them.... #....i started masking around them after they tested pos for covid and didnt tell me for several days) #or when i said i wouldnt be able to participate in thxgiving bc i was having a rough time w/ my health & she asked #'is it bc of ur chronic illnesses or are u just being antisocial?' #my mother will find any fault within me & if she cant. she'll make one up. #and then everyone in my family will take her fucking side bc umm yeah her looking up ur skirt & purposefully staring at u naked is bad... #but have u um. talked to her? and asked her to stop? i just think u need to give her another chance :) #fuckijg. putting myself in a clown car & hoping it explodes.

[amiharana]

not really an ask, but i just gotta say you singlehandedly converted me from "i dont get revalink. where's the chemistry?" to "i need them to make out NOW" with that one post you made today/14 hours ago as of me sending this. and i gotta say, thank you. you altered my brain chemistry.

i am become revalink conversion therapy, the alterer of brain chemistry

#ask #revalink #😃😃😃 #JSFKJADHFKS this has gotta be one of the craziest things smn has ever said to me on here /pos #LIKE. YOU'RE WELCOME? I THINK? #i swear u guys i didn't do anything special on that post like 😭 #i spat out 95% of it in one go back in april & tacked on a paragraph and some edits before i put it on the queue to post #the reception it's receiving is so unreal to me like it wasn't anything crazy #i'm fr just ill about revalink 🙏 #i Also need them to make out rn to be honest #tumblr user amiharana also known as Licensed RCT: Revalink Conversion Therapist #q

[puppyeared]

Wip

#You already know what this is #Can you believe it guys? The owl house is just a week away. I am so excited about this information #The owl house is just a week away!! Woohoo!! #My art #doodles #myart #toh #the owl house #toh season 3 #toh luz #toh hunter #luz noceda #Guys guys you know what would be great and make me cry for an hour straight.. hunter noceda #THINK ABOUT IT THINK ABOUT IT. JUST CASUALLY MENTION IT IN PASSING ILL DIE OF JJOY #I had trouble drawing hunters eyes in my usual art style so I tried it with squares and I don’t wanna brag but ngl.. sheeeeeesh /pos #Still getting used to his new haircut but I like it I think it suits him. Also way easier to draw without his side triangles #Which were a pain in the ass to draw from an angle orz

[small-spark-of-light]

just some old Velda doodles :)

#incredibox #incredibox fanart #arbox #two faces #velda #they’re super unique looking and fun to draw :D i love them<3 #i STILL don’t know how their eyes work and i need help/lh #my blorbo :) i have so many thoughts(most of them are pretty angsty/pos) #one has to do with velda coming from 2 separate mods #i don’t think the people from two faces are good :0 like morally grey(two faced lmao) at best and it leads to a lot of issues #while velda is a good person :)!! along with most people from arbox(all of the scarlett’s for example) and that leads to issues too!! #velda always stood out to me in two faces #they look around while everyone else faces forward(unless they look around while making their sounds. and it’s only then) #velda actively blinks and looks around while they are silent. they are the only one who does this and i find that very interesting!! #i’m rambling but if people want ill talk about the story. it has angst and near death experiences :) #i notice a lot and am probably looking WAY to into this than i should #d'arbox #sparks creations

[prestonmonterey]

"love is all that i request"

fucking SOBBING over this line

#marble musings #promise me youll think about the implications/ref #augh this show makes me sick/pos #im also like literally sick but we dont have to talk about that-- #(APPARENTLY sleep deprivation and stress and anxiety DONT actaully make my nausea go away who woulda guessed) #sorry i said id stop venting in tags ill actually stop this time

[daevstroders]

Hi sorry if this is out of nowhere but I'm a baby dirkjake fan who found you through your writing!! You do dirk and jake so good, there's always so many little details they notice about each other that you capture in such heartwrenching ways. If its not too much of a bother I'm wondering if you can point me to some dirkjake fic/writer recommendations? I'd love to hear your thoughts, you really get their characters and I trust your opinions on dj content

WELCOME NEW DIRKJAKER!!! happy to have you :))) sip the sweet sweet nectar of violence as devotion. the side effects are all imagined. we're a very Normal and Sane bunch.

thank you so much for the comment that is very sweet i'm really flattered you think so :')) they know each other better than they know themselves, pay attention yet still let the other keep their facade, two bodies one being... they mean sooo much to me lol. please don't apologise its made my day! i really appreciate it. people saying nice things about something i made is like all i need to sustain me. i'm bad at taking compliments in general but just know you're helping the cause in keeping this frail body from falling apart.

as for the recs, i'm gonna link borzoi's fic list because it truly has all the holy grail dirkjakes and everything on there would be on this list too. it seems silly to repeat what has already been said. they're top tier for a reason.

(also i'm on this list now? wtf? wtf?! i'm going to die. what the heck. thanks borzoi.)

my personal favourites are. an acquired taste. i shall say. but one that i would really recommend that isn't on the list is bumbly's murder boyfriends series. cw for murder, gore, sex, suicidal ideation, generally some pretty fucked up stuff. dirk wants to die and jake only lets him do so at his hand. so so soooo delicious. absolutely rewired me. love this series so so so much. but please heed tags before reading!

thanks again !!! happy reading :)))

#time and place for oversharing on the internet is not now #believe it or not i actually know where to draw a line #sometimes #thank you so much for this ask tho anon! very kind very sweet i will think about this for at least a week hehe #anyone who is nice to me actually please know i constantly think about nice things that have been said and get nauseous /pos #fic recs #update: friend said RECOMMEND THEM THE ONE YOU MADE ME READ ITS ESSENTIAL DIRKJAKE #he means sedbark #“make a special mention for sedbark its essential” <- he (outskirts of dirkjake) is talking to me #the one who spins them and that fic especially around in their mind 24/7 #funfact hes never read anything ive posted but hes read my rec. ill take the l honestly worth jt

[neofelis----nebulosa]

against my better i ended up seeing some of the clips people are posting from kfp 4 and i actually really like it

#id have to actually watch the movie to form a proper opinion #but based on what ive seen they made a lot of choices i dont love but i love what they did with the direction they took #and everything they did with the effects on the chameleon are just so cool #i feel like its worth watching based on that alone #and ik a lot of people are not happy about zhen but she actually looks like a pretty interesting character #i wish they had hired someone other than awkwafina to play her but you win some you lose some #all and all it looks like it works well as an epilogue to the original triology #like the trilogy is pos journey with body mind and spirit #and the 4th is what happens after that arc is complete #but i hope they stop the main series after this one #but i would love a furious 5 spinoff movie #or just more short films set in this universe #like secrets of the scroll and secrets of the furious 5 #wow the people who make these movies really like the word secret #but yeah i can see why a lot of people feel let down by the movie but from what ive seen it has a lot of merit in its own right #but as i said havent actually watched it yet #so whos to say #ill probably wait until i can rent it or it goes to streaming bc i dont know anyone who would watch it with me who would actually want to #like i have people who would be willing to but i dont think they would actively want to and i dont want my experience watching it to have.. #...to be me forcing someone else to watch it with me #and i dont want to go alone bc that would be embarassing #(unless another secret option presents itself before its available to rent or stream #which dreamworks if youre reading this that was totally a joke i would never watch your movies in a way you would not profit from)

[spinspoon]

so, i might just be Saying Things here, but here's something i was thinking about

so we know that becoming part of the Cast essentially grants you immortality (or some flavor of it anyway) so that even if they die during the show - well - the show must go on, i suppose

and we know now that gl!ranboo DID die earlier at the very beginning of ep 2 (im pretty sure the mask going off while they were unconscious was when that happened) so therefore that implies that they were already apart of the Cast

and i think the most popular running theory that i've seen is that they got straight up nabbed, which, to be fair, sounds like something showfall would absolutely do (considering that's how charlie and possibly sneeg ended up there), BUT my thought is

showfall is presumably a big and well known media production company or whatever you wanna call it, so why would they need to kidnap people to get people for their shows? why couldn't they just put out into the world some kind of advertising that's something like "we need you!", something that would draw in aspiring stars?

now, imagine ranboo, being still just barely a teenager, starting to make their way in the world, having a passion for writing, filmmaking, and things of that nature (like cc!ranboo!) seeing this huge company looking to hire, a once in a lifetime opportunity for this inspired person with big ideas they want to put into the world - being so excited to apply and even more thrilled when they make it in - only to be pulled into this twisted, never-ending nightmare that they could have never known they were signing themselves up for; all because showfall took advantage of a young, aspiring person, just for the sake of personal gain and entertaining their never satisfied audience

but the show must go on, does it not?

#genloss #I KNOW SOMEONE'S PROBABLY ALREADY TALKED ABOUT THIS #BUT AGH #gl!ranboo is so tragic they make me ill /pos #i cannot stop thinking about things #spinspoon speaks

[mechieonu]

in my kfp 2 feelings again & do you think when po got back from gongmen he realized that he'd subconsciously carved/placed/embedded the red sun into everyday stuff

#a la rapunzel-style #kfp 2 #on some of the prototypes for furious five dolla he can see it #on his old school paintings the sun in the corner is red flecked and bold #the corners of one of his throwing stars—every other prong is covered in red paint #its just so painful to think that this heartache is so‚ SO‚ integral to him #esp when you get to po's joy and humility #its another kfp 2 thing that makes me go nuts: the 'who you choose to be' montage #how at the end of the day he's still that boy with the wok on his head #how at the end of the day‚ he was loved. like the truest fact of the world. #HE MAKES ME ILL I LOVE HIM SO MUCHHSHHSB #kfp

[nexus-nebulae]

brrrrr (/pos)

#weight talk #<- just in case even though this is pos #but like. okay ive been. SEVERELY underweight all my life #like i looked like a skeleton you could see all my bones it was AWFUL #i just. I've literally always hated looking like that i hated looking like a walking corpse i mean i looked ILL #but recently i started taking remeron for anxiety #partially bc my anxiety keeps causing me to not eat properly bc i feel sick constantly #so i kept ending up in the ER for malnutrition and dehydration and my liver getting messed up #well i started the remeron for the panic attacks bc daily panic attacks suck but the psych mentioned it could increase appetite #and it???? did????? I'm eating on a slightly more regular schedule???? I'm eating more than once a day???? #and like. ok I've always weighed like 100lbs #highest i ever got was 111 when i was 16 #and then it dropped 10 #and then dropped 10 more in the span of 3 months while i was in and out of ER #and i was genuinely starting to panic over it bc i could PHYSICALLY FEEL my muscles getting eaten bc i had no fat left #like i was getting drastically weaker by the day my knees still won't stop buckling #but in the about three months I've been taking those meds I've. gained 10 back #I'm actually gaining weight like me and my mother are genuinely SHOCKED this genuinely hasn't happened since i was fucking TWELVE #and just now i took off my shirt and noticed. holy shit. my stomach doesn't go CONCAVE when I'm hungry anymore #like whenever i couldn't tell if i was hungry before i would just look at my stomach and be able to tell if it was too curved inwards #but now!!!!!!! it doesn't do that!!!!!!! and I'm genuinely fucking ecstatic like oh my god i don't look dead anymore #I've always wanted to gain weight i feel like i would be 100% more comfortable in my body as a fat trans man #and i can't talk about that to anyone bc they always say it's either self harm or fetishistic #when no i just genuinely feel more comfortable in my skin thinking of myself that way #and now i have confirmation that i would genuinely be happier that way with this bc the sheer joy i have at not being underweight anymore #i mean I'm still a bit under but at least im gaining SOMETHING like at least i dont look like a drowned street cat #seeing the very slight rolls and folds in my stomach when i move the right way makes me happy