#And also stop being such a perfectionist

[gate653]

Really really wish I knew how to get better at art.

#And that I had the time to commit to improving #Every time I try I get frustrated and sad and seeing other beautiful works of art can sometimes make me feel bad and jealous #And that's not good I shouldn't be like that #Im skeptical of guides or tutorials since in my fairy flower land art doesn't have any rules and I shouldn't try to copy how #Other people do things #But maybe it would be good to check some out #And also stop being such a perfectionist #And also maybe figure out more of the nuances of Sai since I'm still unable to make slow clean deliberate lines with my current brush #I just swipe quickly for every fucking line so that it's smooth and hope it looks good #Bodies and different angles and even basic facial construction eludes me I feel like I can't do anything #I have so many characters I want to share and stories I want to tell it's very frustrating #Especially when my peers are so talented and have put in the work to be much better than me #Ugh #I'll get there someday

[bittersweetresilience]

it feels cosmically unfair that i think about writing all the time want to write all the time and sit down to write all the time and i come up with two sentences at best. there should be some reward system i think

#RAAAAAAAAAA #the thing is i know why i'm stuck it's because i get overly wrapped up in meaningless details of word choice and sentence structure #and i need every word to be perfect before i can move on to the next and that just creates an interminable cycle of being so slow to #progress i feel like even more like a failure and imperfect and respond by being even more intense about it #in spite of the fact that almost no reader is going to look at my work and go hey nice i noticed you used a word with an aesthetically #pleasing number of letters here as opposed to a word ending in t which would have ruined the flow and disgusted me forever #but it's not about the readers i'm the one who reads it and gets disgusted forever #and i know this does not matter but it feels like there is no conceivable way i could write something without it being perfect first try #fucking hilariously i edited the tags of this post for a good ten minutes because the spacing of the words was bothering me so i had to #find words with different lengths as replacements #RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #anyway i'm doing wonderfully #this is about soulmate au i think maybe because it's so important to me i'm especially perfectionistic over it right now #brain can you stop it i'm on my hands and knees #also t is the worst letter invented hands down. no question.

[artinandwritin]

Some cute doodles I did after finishing up the homework college gave me!

Featuring Siri deciding that if she can't grab hand, she'll grab waist

Smooches (and a practise with their older designs

And Maglout with baby Aren!! @nosuda-cringe let them be happy. Pls. Im begging you

And my very bad warm up sketch under the cut

#i always love adding my first sketch of the day cuz theyre often bad but #that also needs to be seen #im a perfectionist through and through so i often rather not post the imperfect sketches #but i gotta stop being a perfectionist at some point yknow #anyway i love drawing older gussiri #theyre silly #plus playing around with different hair styles for them is sm fun #anyways #httyd #how to train your dragon #oc #artinandwritin's art #gussiri #mayeth vang #siri vínteri #gustav larson #snotlout jorgenson #oc x canon

[mystery-deer]

b99 Doodles (Terry & Holt have an underratedly sweet friendship)

#b99 #Kevin Cozner #Raymond Holt #that stuff about their families are just my headcanons of course #Holt seems like a perfectionist...student government + debate club + founded the first LGBT club unofficially + Top of his class + Volunteer #work and tutoring on weekends #Meanwhile Kevin was skipping school to read shakespeare or go see an old film and think about how much he wanted to get out of this #NIGHTMARE suburb... #Kevin seems like he stopped being angsty and mad only once he got to college and was able to be himself more authentically #I think Debbie does something where she talks to a lot of people as a job - like a receptionist. Something where she can be friendly and get #a lot of gossip...she was also involved in a lot of clubs and afterschool activities...powerhouses those Holts #Debbie appeared in ONE episode and yet she was so sweet in that ep v_v literally got cheated on but was like 'oh my god!!! No don't worry #about me - I'll be alright - I don't wanna stress you out!!' ...obviously loves her brother a lot <3 #b99 fanart

[ender--slime]

puppet rose update ! she’s nearly done!

i think she needs eyelashes and lipstick but i’m not entirely sure how to do those tiny details …also her inside mouth mechanism broke so i have to do emergency surgery (which is why you can’t see the Back of her head 😬)

#funtime speaks #homestuck #i need to make a Lot of these puppets (for sahcon! hee hee hoo hoo) #and i’m also new at this so. i gotta stop being a perfectionist about it. #if they look a little goofy and like Baby’s First Puppet. #That’s Okay. #esp because this literally Is Baby’s First Puppet !!!

[dramatic-delirium]

Ahoy

@moth-wave something headache inducing and your pfp inspired for you

#idk wtf I was doing #I think I like the B but truthfully I do not like the whole thing? (⁠╥⁠﹏⁠╥⁠) #I am rusty af need to get more into the game #also stop being a fucking perfectionist

[heytheredeann]

Whumpuary 2024, Day 7 - "I didn't know where else to go" + "Bruises" + "Drugged"

Tags: Post-Canon, Dissolution of UNCLE AU, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Hurt Napoleon Solo, Non-Consensual Drug Use, Bittersweet Ending, Reunions, Goodbyes, Napoleon Solo Is Bad At Feelings, Mentions of Gaby Teller, Everyone Needs A Hug

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He isn’t sure if he is relieved or not. The lights inside the house are turned on, which means that he won’t have to fumble to break into the KGB safehouse and subsequently risk setting off god knows what booby traps, but that also means that Illya is inside, and—and Napoleon really doesn’t want to see him.

He has been doing such a good job at avoiding him, since he caught sight of him two days ago and he realized that the KGB apparently also has business in town at the moment – Sanders claims it has nothing to do with them and to not worry about it, and Napoleon tried to believe him solely in the hopes of manifesting it as the truth.

Needless to say, he has been tense the whole time, distracted by the thought that Illya might show up behind him any second, and perhaps that’s partially to blame for the royal fuck-up that was tonight.

Perhaps he should have headed back to the CIA, but—he recognizes the area, remembers that there’s a KGB safehouse there because Illya dragged him inside once, during a mission under Waverly’s command where he got injured and they needed shelter, and somehow the thought of heading there seems less risky than letting Sanders get his hands on him while he is in this state.

To be fair, when he headed in this direction he was considerably less lightheaded, and he figured that if he found the lights turned on he could always turn back and find a phone to call for help with. Now, though, he doesn’t think he could stop walking, much less turn back, without falling on his face and never getting up again.

He only has to hope that it’s actually Illya inside and not someone else, which is absurd considering how hard he has been trying to avoid him.

He gets to the door with heavy steps that probably announced his arrival from a mile away, and he finds that it’s hard to even raise his arm up to knock, with how tired and dizzy he feels.

When Illya opens the door, the feeling that floods him is unmistakably relief. He feels a little ridiculous for it.

[More on Ao3]

#whumpuary2024 #napollya #napollya fic #tmfu fic #the man from uncle #tmfu #napoleon x illya #not spn #my fanfic #i am not super happy with how this came out ngl loool #but i am trying to stop hoarding fics forever because i'm too much of a perfectionist to post them so #also i do kind of feel like shit so maybe that's why i'm being so critical looool

[unsettlingcreature]

Slowly reconfiguring my altar space but I'm gently adding Halloween decorations as September passes and October approaches, I'm personally obsessed with the little ghost lights. Anyway I don't have a dedicated sideblog for this stuff anymore so I'm just slapping it on main :)

#witchblr #taking a break was so good for me because now im getting back into the flow of it? im realising how my beliefs and shit have shifted #still going to gently worm my back into witchcraft like. im not gonna do any blots or anything for a good while #and figure out ONCE MORE what actually works with my practice #like do i WANT divination to be part of my craft? or do i just feel like i have to #like when was the last time i touched my tarot or my runes or my oracle deck or my pendulum? even before my break? #and when it comes to deitywork. is that something i can commit to? has my time with Loki come to a close? lots of questions to ask. #and also do i really want to keep a grimoire/bos? because im too much of a perfectionist for it #and the stuff i do regularly are in my head. if I'm doing something different then I'm going to use other books as research points #idk theres a lot to think about. maybe I'll just ponder the wizard and stop sweating the details lmao #you'd think i had this shit figured out after over a decade but fuckin nooooppppeeeee #anyway witchcraft is always a journey and there's always more to learn and experience #its easy to say that shit but harder to accept it #ALSO LOKI LIVES IN MY BEDROOM I AINT EVER GONNA HIDE HIM AWAY #i cherish all the time spent with a deity and appreciate them for being there during that part of my life #just like with hecate before its ok if my time with loki is over. it is what it is. its not sad its something to look fondly on

[annadelveys]

my cousin asked me to record a text in English for her but she shent me the most convoluted and clearly copied wall of text that she definitely doesn't understand. and now I am forcing myself to just read it and send it to her without rewriting it completely :/

#STOP BEING A PERFECTIONIST i tell myself but also I hate doing bad work. hm

[tvrningout-a]

btw i might be slow about it bc i wanna try to make a nicer-looking pinned post, but i'll be adding affiliates soon to my pinned! just throwing this out there bc it's a housekeeping thing ( among many ) i've been meaning to get to since i've spoken to a few people about it.

#mainly making this post so no one thinks i'm not onboard with being affiliates! #i'm just a perfectionist and so very slow when figuring out graphics #also! if you mayhaps wanna be affiliates pls feel free to message me bc i'm a silly goose who gets nervous about such things uvu #on one hand i wanna approach a few people but on the other hand that's scary bc i might be more attached than they are #anyway lemme stop rambling asdf back to drafts!! #get ready to ramble | ooc

[chicago-geniza]

ok! learned an effective phrase for intervening at the inflection point of a frequent miscommunication type w/ parents. will need to insure my belongings for this apartment, which i've never had to do before, since i don't have a lease & am not a legitimate tenant & live in an illegal basement not zoned as housing. i also don't have a credit history, which i've been informed could prove problematic, & my bank will not issue me a credit card because i don't meet their financial criteria. so i asked my mother how to apply for insurance, especially given the credit thing, because i had no idea where to start. & she got that stressed sort of vocal-fry edge in her voice & said "raya, i'm sorry, i can't do this for you, you need to be an adult," & the intervention was: "i am not asking you to do anything FOR me, nor would i expect you to; rather, i am simply asking for INSTRUCTIONS, or even, perhaps, a general description of the process, since you presumably have prior experience with it, & i have no clue where to start. i am asking for guidance, not proxy." it worked!

#she literally always thinks if i ask her a question about how to do something #it means i'm asking her to do it for me & that is absolutely never what I mean or want #it means i never learned how to do the fucking thing & i am asking her to teach me or at least give me a suggestion of #where to go so i can teach myself #my phD advisor also did this & it's a symptom of perfectionist personalities who start to teach you but but get stressed bc #your first attempt might not meet their exacting standards & they get anxious that you will fail so they might as well do it themselves #& then they resent you for being incompetent & incapable & not as independent as you should be lol #so you gotta be like. Stop That. Repetition & Mistakes Are How People Learn

[starbuck]

i seriously do need to figure out how to be less angry and passive-aggressive, that’s gonna wreak havoc on my future relationships if i don’t nip that in the bud now.

#it’s terrible because i can FEEL it happening - i KNOW it #but i don’t know how to stop it… when i fuck up and my mom points it out i just get so ANGRY #primarily at myself for messing up in the first place but then it becomes anger at her as well #and all these awful hurtful things i COULD say pop into my head and i have to hold them back and go cool down (if i can) #so what i’m getting from all of this is that the core issue here is my being a perfectionist who fears the judgment of those i care about #but also sometimes i DO fuck up and DESERVE to be judged #and i can’t expect people to walk on eggshells for me and only judge me in ways i’m comfortable with #so i’ve gotta figure out how to fix that #but i don’t know how!! #obviously being aware of it is good - but atm that’s just making it more frustrating that i can’t stop #i’m at the point where i could forgive myself for just about any mistake no sweat #but if my mom Sees it and judges me for it - i lose it #even if she isn’t doing it in a mean way #bc she’s ALSO passive-aggressive because my Mom-mom is so all three of us are #and it INFURIATES me even tho i know i’m the exact same way #and anyone who didn’t grow up in the environment i did is just gonna correctly identify me as an asshole so 🤷🤷 #HOW DO I TURN THESE THINGS OFF????? HELP!!!!!!!!!

[holyshit]

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#mess anon #i think it's a reasonable thing to say since a lot of regular people are involved and it's become such a media shitshow #that it must be rough to be associated with all the drama surrounding it either way tbh #whether it was a complete mess bts a slight mess or not a mess at all #and the reality is we do not know what is true- we have hints that something went on mainly regarding florence #and obv the gross shia bs #but there's also a lot of the stuff that people are taking as fact are coming from anon sources- a lot of which could easily be fake #considering how much of a public spectacle this has become and people love to contribute to the drama fake or not #so the truth probably lies somewhere in the middle like with all these kinds of things because shit just keeps getting piled on #and i do feel bad for all the people involved who were just doing their jobs and are now dealing with such a public spectacle #attention anon #ehh i think it's a complex subject bc i do think he is a perfectionist and probably does want everything to come together like he planned it #so i wouldn't be shocked if he legitimately hopes it doesn't leak #but i don't consider people listening to leaks to at all be a moral issue. i always listen to leaks for artists i love #and it's never stopped me from supporting them through streams etc #so it's always annoying to see people make it into this huge moral Disrespect when you can't avoid the spread of information #of this scale once it's out- it's ridiculous to think otherwise #and acting like they're evil and awful for having a different opinion than louis might have #about the unavoidable spread once a leak happens #and i think no matter how he personally feels about it- he probably is realistic about it being a common thing that happens #and wouldn't put blame on individual fans for it lmao #but alas

[hershellaytonlovespuzzles]

character bingo: volkner!

Sorry if this is inaccurate I didn't know a lot about him so I read his wiki (fake pokemon fan I know /j)

#space answers #ask game #ill explain my answers here #1. i like his design and name #2. hes so dramatic hes definitely a purse dog (i mean this in the best way) #3. i think he could work really well alone since hes a gym leader. but he does need help from others when hes feeling down #no shame in that #plus he and Flint are buddies #as for the projection #it has to do with his clashing feelings of never feeling challenged enough as a gym leader #but also not being able to become an elite four #he feels he is both wasting potential and also not good enough #poor guy got depression so he just gave up and handed oit badges with a machine and no actual fights #come on man no shame in asking for help #you gotta stop taking everyone's power #i have issues with being a perfectionist and experiencing burnout so i get it #and sometimes i used to have destructive habits in response

[kavehater]

I honestly wish people cared more about depression and other issues rather than saying they care but scrutinise a person so horribly when they show symptoms associated with said condition 🧎‍♀️

#everyone’s so horrible about it #if you don’t know what something means you research #I research when my friend says they have an illness or a particular sexuality I may not know about #or just to understand and help out because that’s what friends do right ? #so research if someone tells you they have a condition and learn the symptoms #don’t like it ? leave. #but don’t stick around if you’re not in the slightest tolerant to any speck of symptom they may exhibit #whoever does this is a horrible person #because you signed up for this so you deal with it. it’s so mean to punish someone for something they can’t control #because ppl aren’t nearly as kind to people who are normal as they are to mentally ill people #aren’t nearly as mean to normal ppl* #yeah sure they still have to control themselves etc but you never say this to normal people #you’re never so harsh to normal people if anything those with mental illness need more kindness and understanding and everyone blows it #how are you gonna sit there with full conviction saying I have depression and anxiety ( I have way more than that but okay ) #yet blame me when I can’t commit to my work or blame me for being “lazy” I think as a perfectionist and star student I beat myself up over #that already so why would you hurt me more #alternatively this applies to ppl who get mad at others asking reassurance #im gonna rip my hair out for that why literally why would you have a problem #it’s always communicate this communicate that but in fact everyone’s allergic to communication and they’re not traumatised by it #ZERO EXCUSES BUT SOMEHOW all the excuses for normal people but none for mentally ill ppl #everyone’s sick. this is what I mean when. I say it’s so aggravating seeing people because they’re so hopelessly stupid #in the sense they don’t have an ounce of compassion and are disgustingly selfish thinking of themselves 24/7 and their feelings when not to #compare but ppl have it worse than your dumb ass paper cut - esque issues 😇 #oh but all the sympathy to you and none to the “crazy people” who actually need more compassion than you be so Fr #and if you cope well with your own issues then good 4 u ! but you’re not the standard of the DSM 🤗 you also aren’t any better #everyone copes differently and expresses things differently dependent on their unique exposures circumstances and view of the world #let’s stop pretending that one view is the right view #this doesn’t mean let yourself get abused btw it means using that thing in your head to be reasonable #dora daily

[myriahkamm]

My supervisor at work during my annual review: "You're the best on the team! There's virtually nothing you could do to improve your annual review score! I don't have any suggestions other than to keep doing what you're doing!"

The company I work for: "Enjoy your $0.84/hour raise!"

Me:

(Guess I really need to work on those job apps, because this bullshit happens every year at my annual review, and it's a fucking joke. The company touts its profits online and then treats its best employees like this. Yes, I'm a peon, but if I'm getting top annual review scores that my supervisor "has never seen on any team" she's been in charge of and whatnot, you'd think I'd get a raise that actually matters and means something. Oy.)

#myri speaks #work stuff #i hate it here #on top of that my teammates are all awful #i get it #the job isn't the most amazing thing ever #but I'm so tired of picking up all their slack #and i can't help but do that because I'm a perfectionist #i can't just stop being who i am even if i know it's not worth being that way #job hunting also sucks tho #so #stuck between a rock and a hard place