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madi-writes-things · 2 days

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Nobody Pt. 5

(C.Sturniolo X Reader)

Summary:

Chris and Y/N never seemed to get along, but sometimes help comes from the most unexpected places

Word Count: 906

TW: Cursing, SH (not in detail, but it is talked about), Hurt Comfort, Crying, Not Edited, Hangover (again, I’ve never even had a full beer. So this is probably not realistic 🤷‍♀️), Liquid Tylenol (self indulgent, but I personally struggle with swallowing pills. Any thing other than my iron pills is liquid 🫠), mentions of a dead sibling/toxic family, birthday stuff

A/N: I have over 100 photos/videos from the hozier concert… it took so long to find the Chris pics 🙃.

-Madi <3

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Y/N’s POV

Pain. Excruciating pain all throughout my skull and body. I reach out and realize that Chris isn’t in the bed with me. When I finally muster up the strength to open my eyes I see a bottle of water, liquid Tylenol, and a note on the nightstand.

Out filming with the boys, I’ll be back soon. I got you the liquid Tylenol, I know you struggle with pills (especially if you’re nauseous). Make sure you drink plenty of water, and try to eat something :)

I quickly take the accurate dose of Tylenol, nearly in tears about the fact that he remembered my struggle to swallow pills. My hands shake as I lift the water to my lips, my mouth feeling dryer than the Nevada deserts. The thought of eating right now made my stomach churn. I rolled over, and tried to imagine Chris holding me. As much as it sucks, it’s the only way that I can sleep at this point.

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Chris’s POV

I hated leaving her alone this morning, but our video is supposed to go up at 6:00 today and we hadn’t even filmed it yet. I left her a little note with some pain meds and water, I honestly hope that she didn’t wake up yet. The thought of her waking up disoriented, without me there is one that I’ve been trying to push to the back of my mind.

“dude, she’s fine. We’re almost home, and she probably just rolled over and went back to sleep if she did wake up.” I look at nick when he says it. I know he’s probably right, but it doesn’t stop the incessant bouncing of my legs.

I finally decide to change the subject to something that I’ve been thinking about for a while. “What are we doing for her birthday?” I know she doesn’t celebrate her birthday usually, but I think she deserves a celebration. Nick and Matt both make faces at me, conveying my thoughts. “Listen, I know that she doesn’t celebrate, and I understand why… but I want to make her feel loved, we’re basically the only family that she has.”

“we’ve tried to do birthday stuff with her…” Matt starts, staring straight ahead. “I promise you, she’ll just cry.”

Before the conversation can continue, we pull up to the house. I’m out of the car before Matt can even get the keys out of the ignition, and I’m up the stairs in no time. When I open the door she’s laying peacefully on her side, the water bottle is empty and the Tylenol has been opened.

she looks so peaceful. Her hair falls gracefully across her face, and her arms wrap around her body. As I get closer I notice something odd about the way she’s lying.

there are obvious tear tracks down her face, and he’s holding herself tight… it resembles the way that I hold her.

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Y/N’s POV

I feel hands on my face before I register the fact that I even fell asleep. Soft hands, brushing the hair from my face and pulling me gently from my slumber.

“Hey baby” that when my eyes open. There he is, crouching in front of me. Chris. “There she is.” He’s practically giggling, which makes me smile.

I sit up quickly, making myself a bit dizzy. He just holds me upright, a slight look of worry in his eyes.

Suddenly his hands are on my face again, wiping away my tears. He wasn’t supposed to see that, he can’t know that I cried myself to sleep because he wasn’t there to hold me. That’s not allowed when you’re fake dating someone, you aren’t allowed to need them this much.

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I can’t get out of Chris’s bed. I no longer sleep in my own, and as soon as I opened my eyes this morning I regretted it. For a moment, right when I woke up, I felt like it was going to be a normal day… but then I saw the date when I opened my phone.

I contemplate trying to sleep through the day, when I hear the door creak open. I roll over to see Chris balancing a personal sized cake in one hand, and a ballon that says “20” in the other.

I’m crying before he can even make halfway to the bed. As soon as he sees me crying he rushes to set the cake down and comfort me.

“I know baby” there it is again, even when we’re alone it slips out sometimes. I live for the moments that I can pretend that he loves me too. “I know you don’t really celebrate, and I understand why, but I also think that you deserve to feel cared for and celebrated by the family around you.”

now I’m crying even harder.

I hate today, partially because it reminds me of my brother, but also because I feel like I’m not allowed to be happy on a day that centers around him. Growing up, I wasn’t allowed to celebrate, my parents practically refused to acknowledge me on my birthday after his death.

“Here, I had nick get your favorite flavor” he shows me the cake that was formerly sitting on the nightstand. He places two candles into the cake before lighting them. “Make a wish.”

I wish that this wasn’t fake, that someone could actually love me as much as Chris pretends to.

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@unbruisable @bernardsbendystraws @sturniolo-fann

#madi writes things #chris sturniolo #chris sturniolo imagine #chris x reader

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tsireyqs · 5 months

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AND WHEN I’D FIGHT YOU, YOU’D USED TO TELL ME IIIII WAS BRAAAAAAAVE

#AND IF I’M DEAD TO YOU WHY ARE YOU AT THE WAKE???#CURSING MY NAME!#WISHING I STAYED!#LOOK AT HOW MY TEARS RICOCHET!!!!!#breh #i love folklore #even on my worst day! did i deserve babe all the hell you gave! me!#TAYLOR SHUT UP GYAL #ari screams into the void

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sincerelyourswhistledown · 1 year

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Lucerys doesn’t remember much of the outside world.

There are faint memories, flashes of silver streaks and high pitched giggles. A faceless brown haired boy with a hand always held out for him to take. Lucerys remembers feeling warm, a lightness to his otherwise empty chest as he chases the high of his dreams.

Aemond tells him it’s his overactive imagination. That the outside world wasn’t good, that their childhood was nothing but pain and despair. That’s probably why he never lets Lucerys out of the house.

Every morning Aemond leaves him with a peck on the lips and a promise of return. During that time Lucerys is left alone to his devices, cleaning the house and playing with his kitten, Jace. Never mind that Aemond absolutely hates the cat, he’s not the one stuck at home bored out of his mind. At exactly five in the afternoon, Aemond comes home and Lucerys is there to welcome him. With open arms and a hearty dinner.

It’s repetitive but it’s all Lucerys has ever known. All he’s ever remembered since the accident. Aemond doesn’t like talking about the accident. Whenever Lucerys tries to ask about it his lover’s expression becomes unreadable and he’d have to deal with a brooding Aemond for the rest of the day. Sometimes, when Lucerys pushes too much he wouldn’t see Aemond until the next morning. The idea of cheating had never crossed Lucerys’ mind, usually by then he’d been too inconsolable. His separation anxiety turning him into a sobbing mess and only Aemond’s warm arms and comforting hum could make him stop.

There was one time when Lucerys had managed to summon the courage, he’d asked Aemond where he went to every Friday. And why he came home so late. He didn’t expect much, in fact he’d expected it to get ignored. The same way all of his questions about the outside world was. Much to his surprise, Aemond had stared into Lucerys’ face with an expression that was absolutely devastated.

‘To a dear nephew.’ He confessed. That night Aemond had told him about a beloved nephew who had been in the same accident as Lucerys, except unlike him the boy never woke up. He’d explained what the doctors had said, that he may never wake up ever again. Forever caged to his hospital bed and connected to wires. After that night, after seeing the devastation and despair in his beloved’s face Lucerys never asked again. He didn’t like seeing Aemond like that.

“My Aemond is so handsome,”Lucerys teased, tying his lover’s tie with expert fingers. “It almost makes me want to tie you to our bed and keep you here forever.”

The older man chuckled, his sapphire eye glinting in the morning light. With his long arms he encircled them around Lucerys’ waist and pulled him closer. “Promises, promises.”

Lucerys eagerly accepted his kisses, basking in the affection before his beloved once again left him for the day. It almost made him want to pout and charm his way into keeping Aemond home today, it’s not like he hasn’t done it before. It usually took some effort and the man was nothing short of disciplined but with enough kisses and suggestive petting, he’d find himself back in bed and a playful Aemond on top of him.

Breaking away from the kiss, Lucerys rested his forehead on Aemond’s and sighed. “Are you sure you have to go to work today?”

The pale blond almost looked apologetic, giving him another peck on the lips. “I’m afraid this meeting is impossible to reschedule, my dragon.”

Although unsurprising, Lucerys found himself grumbling as he begrudgingly untangled himself from the older man. He could do nothing but pout as he went back to straightening his beloved’s crumpled suit, determine to keep Aemond looking sharp and put together no matter how much he wanted to tear the suit off and not fix it. “What do geneticists even talk about in meetings? Don’t you guys just stare at microscopes and petri dishes all day?”

Aemond let out an amused huff, shaking his head at the younger boy’s adorable grumpiness. “Silly taoba, do you really want me to stay that much?”

Lucerys stayed quiet, stubbornly refusing to meet his eye. If Aemond didn’t want to stay with him today then he wasn’t going to force him. He wasn’t some dumb doll created solely to rely on Aemond and fawn for his attention. He had more pride than that, thank you very much.

From the corner of his eye, he noticed Aemond grin in amusement. A gentle hand on his chin coaxed him to look up and Lucerys once again found himself staring at the breathtaking view of his love’s pale lilac eye and the blue sapphire.

“Don’t worry my love. Once I finally prove to them that human cloning is impossible then I can finally shut this research down. That means more time for you and me.” Aemond cooed, bringing the younger boy back into his arms.

“Promise?”Lucerys asked, his voice tiny but hopeful.

“I promise.” Lucerys beamed at his lover’s quick response, feeling warm all over.

“Besides,”Lucerys feels more than hears Aemond’s voice from where he’s pressed his cheek on the taller man’s chest, “Human cloning should be left as it is. Who knows what kind of crazy things sick fucks would do if it was possible.”

Lucerys hums along in agreement.

#lucemond #aemond targaryen #lucerys velaryon #hotd #aemond targaryen x lucerys velaryon #aemond x lucerys #if you don’t get this short Drabble #it’s basically aemond cloning lucerys #the accident aemond talks about is the same accident where aemond chases Luke’s car with his own and Luke ends up in an accident #the original Lucerys is in a hospital and in a coma #at this point the doctors are unsure if he’d even wake up #he’s like two inches from being brain dead really #with this news Aemond spirals into madness #and he basically clones his own healthy Lucerys to keep him sane #this is why Lucerys never gets out bc if any of the family finds out then it’s the coo coo ward for aemond #I’m sorry but I feel so bad for clone Lucerys #he doesn’t even know he’s a clone #someone free clone Lucerys !!#also I’m making it canon in this universe that should the doctors officially declare original Lucerys as brain dead #then aemond would 100% kidnap his body so that no one can pull the plug on original comatose lucerys #don’t mind aemond it’s just him his lover clone Lucerys and comatose Lucerys chilling #if anyone wants to expand this universe please do #idk Aemond just gives me STEM kid vibes #please don’t ask me to get into the scientific details #I’m an accounting major pretending to understand science #also Lucerys’ brother worship for jacaerys definitely passes on to clone lucerys #clone Lucerys basically has all of original Lucerys’ memories but it’s muddled and difficult to understand

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moonylouwho · 3 months

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thinking thoughts

#hannigram #will graham #hannibal lecter #hugh dancy #taylor swift #my tears ricochet #hannibal #i can go anywhere i want just not home #if i’m dead to you why are you at the wake

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please-picturemeintheweeds · 1 year

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I thought the tolerate it blocking was familiar! Act 3, scene 4 in Macbeth is often staged almost exactly like this, with Banquo up on the table haunting Macbeth during the dinner party. Sometimes it’s Macbeth on the table with Banquo sitting motionless in his seat, sometimes they’re both up there. It’s like she’s haunting her killer, and he’s haunting her too.

#macbeth #the eras tour #tolerate it #c #taylor swift #banquo #and if I’m dead to you why are you at the wake vibes #I sit and watch you #very Theater Kid Vibes hahaha

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catgirlreisuwa · 1 year

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While I understand that people are disappointed about the backstory re: Kazuki’s wife and blame the writing for making her yet another bland, soulless side character who fades into the background without leaving so much as a strong imprint on us, the audience, I have been thinking about it and even though it can be because of poor writing, falling into clichés that make the story progress easily without delving too much into things… I can also see why Karin described her sister as “happy” and “she loved flowers”. At the end of the day, when we experience loss, all that remains are the memories we have of that person. If we do not move on, or until we move on, like Kazuki, those memories will be rooted in grief. And, don’t get me wrong, the grief will always be there! But with time and conscious effort, it will get easier. Karin has moved on, and she remembers her sister the way someone who wishes to be happy without her does.

At the end of the day, isn’t those things the sort of things people say during wakes and funerals? She was always so happy and full of life. She loved flowers and long walks on the beach. She lived for her family and friends. She was always nice to people. Sure, they’re things people say about those who are no longer with us, that do not really have much depth to it. I’m not denying the lack of profoundness in those statements. But, at the end of the day, it’s the trivial, menial things that get said about those who left us. And I think it’s important to remember that.

#also: it’s a 13 episode season #they genuinely cannot plummet into character arcs longer than a couple episodes without straying too far from the plot and the main arc #i’m sure the fans will give her more depth should they choose to make character analysis about this episode #i’m not saying it’s not cliché-y or anything. because it is #it is also very telling of how women are treated in fiction. both in the east and the west apparently #you don’t see male characters get that sort of treatment as often #but anyway: yes. my point is that is EXACTLY the sort of trivial soulless thing you say to a griever about their loved one #people don’t really go into depth on people after they died. unless the situation calls for it #it’s why sometimes people find funerals and wakes infuriating. she was so much more than that. and it will go unsaid. because now is not #the time to say those things. because people are grieving. and they cannot process more than surface level commentary on a dead person idk #buddy daddies #buddy daddies spoilers #hope this is not too separate from general fandom opinion or consensus tbh maybe i have autismed too close to the sun #and i’m reading too much into it #anyway. if you have lost a loved one you’ll know. that is EXACTLY the sort of comment that gets thrown around during the grieving process #🐈‍⬛

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zappedbyzabka · 10 months

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Just thought of Kreese teaching Johnny how to light The Menorah and say the blessings. They pretty much only celebrate Hanukkah because Johnny was never very attached to Christmas anyway.

#Antisemites fuck off. You are not welcome.#Me when I wake up at 2 am to post this #well….I was already awoken #Kreese calling Johnny a balaboosta #I’m soft #I miss celebrating Hanukkah #(Fun fact: used to practice Judaism and have a video of me as a wee baby getting named by our Rabbi. Not anymore though)#I’m rusty #Rabbis and priests…why am I so attracted to them #Funny enough Johnny is too. and no it’s not projection yall can take this from my cold dead hands #kreerence #tw religion #tw blasphemy #Because I said I was attracted to holy men lol #john kreese

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ravenpoefan · 8 months

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Why does Father seem like the kind of guy to fall asleep with his eyes open?

#father knd #benedict uno #knd villains #knd father #idk I’m just talking #but he seems like he would do that #omg the delightfuls thinking he’s dead and start freaking out #but he wakes up and is like ‘why are you 5 crying? What’s wrong?’#and they just stare at him shocked and confused

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whatshehassaid · 23 days

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I’ve had My Tears Ricochet stuck in my head all day. My ADHD brain is literally like

I CAN GO ANYWHERE I WANT ANYWHERE I WANT

Just

👏🏻

Not

👏🏻

Home

And you can aim for my heart, go for blood

But you would still miss me

In

👏🏻

Your

👏🏻

Bones

👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻

#Taylor Swift #and if I’m dead to you why are you at the wake bitch? 🤨

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whenthegoldrays · 1 month

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Girl help I was listening to “my tears ricochet” and I thought of Jesus and Judas

#you wear the same jewels that i gave you as you bury me 😭#IF I’M DEAD TO YOU WHY ARE YOU AT THE WAKE #CURSING MY NAME WISHING I STAYED #🕳️👩🏻‍🦯#elly's posts

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gutslive · 6 months

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lucy gray and coriolanus being sooooooo my tears ricochet coded like “when i fight you used to tell me i was brave” like how he told her she could win and “and you’re the hero flying around saving face” being about him getting promoted to university after his betrayal in district 12 and “when you can’t sleep at night you hear my stolen lullabies” like helloooooo?!?! katniss and her song!!?!

#if i’m dead to you why are you at the wake?!?!!#CURSING MY NAME?!? THE FOREST SCENE #they are just sooooooo #im losing my mind #the ballad of songbirds and snakes #avery speaks

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magpie-trove · 2 years

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My tears ricochet and karma both portray this kind of justice that’s like—you are punished by the very act of hurting other people, hurting others hurts YOU

#it’s if I’m dead to you why are you at the wake cursing my name wishing I stayed look at how my tears RICOCHET #they don’t hurt me in the end as much as they hurt you just by merit of you causing them #or like the you can’t look down at all the people you burned just to get there in karma #like that’s hell imagery and it’s made of all the things you burned!#and then all her friends are at the top #and in vigilante the anger for her hurt becomes anger over anyones hurt almost #idk idk it’s a very good understanding of Justice I think for all it’s vengeance imagery #I am pspsping Kaylie to swoop in with the Augustine and Aquinas

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thecrimsondandelion · 1 year

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Can’t believe Taylor Swift wrote My Tears Ricochet about Geraskier/Jaskier

#‘did i deserve babe. all the hell you gave me. cause I loved you. I swear I loved you to my dying day’#‘you’re the hero flying around saving face. and if I’m dead to you why are you at the wake. cursing my name. wishing I stayed.’#the whole song #geraskier #jaskier

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slayingandserving · 10 months

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I’m high thinking about how gay marriage was legal in the elder scrolls games before it was legal in America.