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[bioexorcizm]

little bit of anxiety talk under. ill delete later but just felt like i needed to say it somewhere

reason i made that poll is because someone messaged me re: that post that got hijacked by the aot weirdos and also added that if someone who had no idea what beetlejuice was googled it they'd think i was shipping with a predator ("the prognosis doesn't look good," in their words, as someone who has no reference point for it and simply looked it up). it caused my anxiety to spike and i spiraled pretty hard last night over it thinking to myself maybe i am a bad person and maybe im choosing not to see it.

looking back now i think it was really silly of me. one person's biased opinion because they were upset was not a reason for me to take it so hard, especially regarding. literally. beetlejuice. lol. as if it's some obscure media with a hidden agenda and not a cultural phenomenon whose fucking licensed build a bear i have sitting on my bed. i can't believe i let it go to my head and i can't believe i relapsed over something so absolutely silly.

anyways, i love you all, to my followers and mutuals who have been supporting me the past few days, especially those who reached out. i appreciate you all more than i can ever say 🫶

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[petewentzwombtattoo]

my mum is not in a good mood my ass is not getting dinner tonight i fear

#w/e i had some noodles a few hours ago so i'll live but i hate being so scared of my own mother ^_^ FUCK #.vnt #.txt

[sanitys-face]

if i apologize to anyone, its maple. hurting soda is what i regret the most. it killed me. fuck, i don’t even remember it, i was. too dissociated to. but to know i did that, i hurt her, i literally will never forgive myself. i deserve any anger you feel about what i did. i know i killed her, i know i did, i know i didn’t have any other choice, i didn’t want to see her suffer there, i had to do something... i just wish i did the right thing.

#.txt #.1txt #.vnt

[sleeplessmike]

“Being Michael Afton irl must be so cool!!” Yeah until I’m crying myself to sleep every night because I miss my family and my friends.

#five nights at freddy's #michael afton #irl #fictionkin #vnt

[borderline-culture-is]

TW: VENT / SELF HARM MENTION BPD/System culture is when your Favorite Person (FP) is blocked without explanation by their own favorite person after trying to reconnect. They disappear like everyone else before them, leaving your FP heartbroken. Now, you have to protect the system you care about from self-harm caused by someone who shares a source with you and is in the same fandoms. You encourage your FP to stay offline for a week to avoid seeing that person's hurtful blog and shield them from further pain caused by their heartlessness.

Oh, and did I mention that my FP was already going through a lot when this happened? like someone had died levels of a lot? I had to watch them on stream, crying and holding a knife, still hopelessly in love with that jerk they wanted to introduce me to bc of my source. "they are so cool and like birds 2" I don't get how they can still care so much about someone that blocked them when I'm right here.

I'm just so angry at how heartless people can be. If you know any resources that could help me or my FP, I'd appreciate it.

(also Vin if you see this I'm sorry) (anon bc I don't trust the FP they told me about) -☄️Sid☄️

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#borderline culture is #borderline personality disorder #bpd culture #bpd culture is #bpd safe #bpd #actually bpd #actually borderline #fp #bpd fp #fp bpd #tw vnt #cw vent #tw self harm #cw self harm #- ☄️Sid☄️

[silverisafukintrainwreck]

when you, for the most part of your life, have never understood the concept of “rollercoaster of emotions” or why it was a big deal. cause it’s normal. feeling too much, then too little, then stupidly depressed, then euphoric is just another tuesday. and eventually you experience the opposite. you find something or someone that, for the most part, glues you to only one emotion: obsession.

#genuinely how do i tag this cause i have no idea what’s going on in my headddddddd #i need to cleanse my brain #hmmmm i should write poetry about this! #z=47.txt #z=47.vnt #emotional instability

[hojlundaise]

#yuji nishida #ran takahashi #japan vnt #men's vnt #these two rock my world #ok i am caught up with my two teams im done #until next matchday hehe

[bioexorcizm]

whats sad is that a large of this community makes me want to leave and never come back honestly or at the very least exist separately from it, which sucks because my mutuals and friends i do have are important to me, i just wish it was easier to exist without so much fucking stress all the time here. like. idk

#it makes me not want to interact with people. it makes me want to blog for me only and ignore everyone else because only problems #can come from it. #it makes me want to remove myself from this godawful community. #.vnt

[petewentzwombtattoo]

chronic pain has me depressed as hell all i wanna do is play stardew valley and watch old rtgame vods

#mods are all fucked cause of the update so i’m playing vanilla for the first time in years #.txt #.vnt #kinda #painposting

[just-jayy]

But I think I'll just surrender to my bed

'Cause I need a night in my head

#my art #fan art #kaeloo #dissociation // #unreality // #vnt

[ranvwoop]

;; not doing the best. I am just so tired at this point to be honest

#vwoop.noises #:[ #uni is humiliating and I have no way out because parents #nondescript interpersonal issues. i am a very lonely person #family issues I also won't get into but like. m #No Good #and at the end of the day like. There's just no hope for any of it really #I dropped another course But it's not going to do anything. I will probably be kicked out by next term and that'll at least solve one issue #i hage a bad migraine today so maybe i just feel bad but like. idk #and the emotional regulation so. Maybe I just forgot #But. Shrug. I just wish things weren't this way #And so I can make vnt posts on tumblr dot com about it <3 Because. Well . What Else can I do

[bananasher1337]

tog cry

#asher's art tag #eddsworld #tord #cw eyestrain #ig #vnt artt to exutent

[dingleberry-7708]

a moment of silence for those whose love of decal died the 3000000000000000033-[p3w4720o3e4t5ryu93286z&TR_)E4f2m184yg b6fcb2;1[cfokijuhgolkijhth time they broke up /vnt

#vent #vent post #i fucking give up /vnt

[silverisafukintrainwreck]

calmly sitting in your bed one day and realizing that no one will love you or demonstrate their love for you in the same way you do. cause you’re too intense. cause you’re too weird about it. cause you’re not worth their time.

#z=47.vnt #z=47.txt

[gorakuraku]

i hate you so much but i hate myself more for constantly running back into your arms

but you are my father, you have loved me from the day i was born, be it as it may that you caused my sufferings, tell me, what else am i supposed to do?

you cried, i cried, and yet here we are again, dancing in circles, eyes pointedly avoiding one another, and when they meet there is anger, rage, pity in them

i do not like looking at you

you do not like looking at me

#poetry #ig #vent #more of a vnt than anything

[bioexorcizm]

it's so inconceivable to me that anyone could find me attractive in any way i guess that its to the point where whenever someone says otherwise i just assume they are trying to not hurt my feelings. i can't tell if it's the dysphoria or dysmorphia but it's 95% of the reason i never go anywhere or do anything fun with my appearance.

#.vnt #kinda idk. just been thinking.