#..... i wouldnt be able to draw as fast as i think

[ganondoodle]

more ideas for the new totk rewrite (rewrite + villain rauru);

(zelda has the shiekah stone, link has an imperfect imitation of it that lacks its abilities from botw but can still make photos, has the map and teleport- since they lack the knowldge of how to make shiekah stones they tried to make one that at least has these basic function for you- it explains you not having its abilites anymore and works with zelda being gone for the first half of the game)

once you aquire all normal engima stones, the last one before the mid point unlocks, its the yiga one bc you gotta figure out first that they have one and since you can do the others in any order its to prevent you from doing the gerudo one last bc

once you are only missing zeldas and ganondorfs stone, rauru tells you to go back to the starting area bc from there he can get enough power to seek out exactly where they are- you do it and its ... in gerudo town

when you go there, the gerudo are suddendly hostile towards you, and are telling you that you are helping the wrong one- rauru of course says that ganondorf must have went to them and riled them up against you, they are his people after all (and evil stays in the family, right?), at the very least here youd notice something is off-

so he tasks you with infiltrating the city, you fight the gerudo until you reach Riju and Ganondorf (who is now in restored gerudo appearance), Riju again tries to tell you to not fight and listen to her but at this point raurus influence is too strong, he makes you keep going until she is forced to draw her weapons on you, but Ganondorf takes her to the side and says he will confront you, bc you will not listen- she begrudgingly agrees and ganondorf takes you to an arena to fight;

the fight is like an actual boss battle, once you defeat him the second phase takes you to the underground (still working on the details as to how) once you beat this one too, a cutscene starts, as you land the last hit and he gets staggered rauru takes control over your hand and throws the master sword (it wasnt broken at the start) to land the final fatal blow, rauru apologizes and says he only did it bc the moment was too perfect-

then, either that laserbeam thing or a shiekah stone ability breaks the wall and zelda storms into the arena, yelling at you to stop what you are doing (gan didnt want her to be in the same room when he fights you bc then rauru had both missing stones right there- but she couldnt not intervene once it was clear ganondorf was losing) she starts to try and explain what is happening but rauru takes ahold of you and you attack zelda to get her stone, she draws her dagger she carries for self defense but stops bc its .. link shed have to attack, at the same time ganondorf rips the mastersword out of his chest and lunges to intervene but rauru uses the hookshot like ability of his arm to stop him and grabs onto the stone on his forehead, his claws ripping both stone and its golden socket violently away- he has aquired both of their stones now- ganondorf falls to the ground and his body start to disintegrate into green magic, your tattoos start to disappear and your arm too as rauru quickly rebuild his own body, he throws zelda to the side of the arena and takes you to a strange dimension of nothing but another arena lined with statues of rauru, floating in a greenish void with sonau magic patterns slowly moving around

a fight starts, the mastersword lies on the ground here and ccan pick it up, but you have lost your right arm, and are hurt, your hearts empty and you cannot heal, you cant wield it with your left arm, much less in this condition, rauru gives a little villain speech, thanking you for what you did and telling you his grand idea to make your world into the one he had back in the day, a world full of light with no shadows to be found and no fights to break out as all are united under him and his holy rule, you he launches an attack every now and then but does so jokingly, you are much too weak to properly fight him, you can try to attack but the end of his health bar isnt even visible; once his speech ends you are throw out of his arena, you have served your purpose

back to were you were, you see zelda running to you, the room in which you are in starts to crumble in green light, changing form into something else, but black out

once you reawaken you are in a bed with zelda and purah in the room, a bodiless voice greets you, but its not rauru, you have a shiekah prosthetic arm now, still a little malfunctioning as you dont know how to use it yet, zelda comes over and a longer cutscene starts in which she tells you what happened in the time you collected the enigma stones

after you woke both rauru and ganondorf up at the start of the game gan took her away, she tried to fight him, scared by what just happened and by his withered look, but he i able to explain that rauru was attempting to get the stone she now has, and his too, in this condition he cant fight, his stone has been drained of alot of power over the centuries of shiekah tech drawing power from it first, the one rauru had- and now zelda, isnt as drained, rauru wont confront them immediately either as he is surely planning to reclaim all his lost power now- they both stayed in the underground, swtiching places over and over to prevent rauru from locating them vie zeldas shiekah stone, which is harder for him to do when in the udnerground too- they form a plan to counter raurus, ganondorf takes time to regain his strength (the roots all in the underground are him reaching around to regain it faster) since in this mummy like appearance no one would even try to listen to anything, and he will not let zelda out alone, the risk would be too great by the time link aquired the last stone that wasnt theirs, ganondorf had regained enough to rebuild his former body, they both approach gerudo town, where else would they go, these are his people and with zelda surely they will listen- and after alot of shock and confusion (zelda is fine and saying link is helping the wrong one?? there is a GERUDO MAN THAT SAYS HE WAS ONCE THEIR KING????) they do listen and agree to help them out- which is why they were hostile towards link at the end there

the land, your home, is slowly changing into something else, like its ground is reversing in time and sprouting strange structures you hadnt seen before, monsters are less now and those that persists are not hostile, there are new hostile creatures you have never seen before

rauru is reforming the land into what he beliefs it should be, and it needs to be stopped

purah and the gang tm explain to you what your new shiekah arm can do, its mostly the same as raurus did as they tried to imitate it, you are having trouble adjustign to it though and wielding a weapon is hard, this is way different after all- and then suddendly ganondorfs spirit appears (scaring the shit out of anyone but zelda whos just happy he isnt fully gone .. even if he lost his body) who says hes gonna help you out with it, he resides in the shiekah arm now bc he wont just let rauru do whatever he wants after spending such a long time being held captive and trying to break free; hes helping you to work with it (so you dont have an actual big set back in progress) and helps out as another ally- you can call him for help or advice and joins cutscenes or when interesting things are discovered, and also convinces the yiga to side with them for now too

zelda is now your permanent companion while ganondorf is another but it spirit form

(theres a bit of trouble when zelda learns he is responsible for the calamity and what it did, after which he refuses to appear when called for a while, but they both agree they need to work together if rauru is to be stopped)

#ganondoodles talks #zelda #totk #ganondoodles rewrites totk #why do i keep spending so much tiem writing instead of drawing #..... i wouldnt be able to draw as fast as i think #i cant even write as fast as i think #anyway #MORE IDEAS this is genuinely so fun

[moeblob]

Windy at my house + power flickering = no comm work = quick laptop doodle

#my characters #i genuinely hoped the wind would die down but like ??? nah? #and the last time we lost power without an actual storm it WAS bc of wind #and so i just get so panicked over please dont fry my tablet with a power surge #if it calms down by tonight i really wanna work on art since i spent almost all day yesterday struggling with a pose and i finally #think i thought of something that could work and then (gestures to the wind) fuck me #also in regards to these two you have seen me drawing deacon a lot recently and i only drew armya once so far #she is a devoted follower to fulj which is really rare since fulj no longer has a large following nor a temple #so when fulj finds her its comforting and reassuring and she adores armya a lot #however the fact that fulj relentlessly teases deacon and calls him names is like..... ok wait would you really be mean to me if it wasnt #for her ? like would you still pick on me? :c and shes like lol yeah dude absolutely #deacon is just constantly dunked on by the lightning group and hes so sad because he wanted to be friends :c #but also the guy wouldnt really recognize the followers if it wasnt for the traces of lady fulj #so if they would wander into the city without having been possessed recently he probably wouldnt even cast a glance their way #nothing personal he just straight up doesnt decipher looks fast at all #he could think they look familiar but then not know why ESPECIALLY if they wear something he's not used to them in #like if armya showed up in something other than her loose white jacket he would not be able to go AH YES ARMYA immediately #he identifies people by hair or clothing details so it kinda messes him up if people remove whatever identifying trait they have #long hair getting a hair cut? suddenly a whole new person #and armya knows this very well since he never looked her way unless fulj was possessing her or trailing her #so she does like to tease him as just. we are both in servitude to a deity and same rank but like. bro youre too easy to mock #(fulj agrees)

[bisexual-ashe]

why must i always get the urge to draw when it is too late in the day for me to draw

#i am now inspired to draw a mer!five #i have yet to decide what fish to base him on but i think i want somekind of shark?? #maybe a tiger or mako shark??? #apparently make sharks be the fastest sharks around and five do be a speedy lil lad #but hhhhh too late in the day now #i wouldnt be able to finish the drawing if i started it smh smh #but i like the idea of attempting drawing a merman fiv #im not bad at drawing torsos #and then the fish tail should come easy LMAO #jump speaks #personal #i still gotta draw my zora oc too smh smh #update: sailfish could also work.. they are v fast and have a swordfish like vibe

[subskz]

omg thinking ab making felix, lino, or chan squirt.. i'm not okay

what a fun trio hehe each of their reactions would be so cute in its own way 💓

channie always tries to take everything you give him like a good boy no matter how worn out he might be, so if you decide to keep going for multiple rounds, he’ll be more than eager for you to use him to your heart’s content <3 even when he’s sweaty and panting and spent he still nods obediently when u ask if he’s ready to go again…but what he doesnt anticipate is how after countless orgasms, the next one u draw out of him is the strongest yet…no matter how willing his mind is, his poor body just cant keep up now that youve milked him dry </3 he would be absolutely mortified once his foggy mind realizes why he feels like he’s cumming more than usual and why it feels so weirdly intense. the moment he processes it, he’s burying his burning face in his palms, squeezing his legs together in a useless attempt control himself, half-moaning, half-wailing in embarrassment…he apologizes like crazy afterwards, pouting when u wont let him help clean up his mess bc he’s completely exhausted and needs to rest after you pushed his body to its limit like that 💔 he definitely wouldnt be able to look you in the eye for a few days after without going completely red hehe but it turns him on all over again to remember it

i think of the three, lix would be the one who actually hopes to make it happen on purpose…curious lil kitty wants to know what it feels like, even if it’s a lil embarrassing <3 he’d beg you to keep going once you’ve made him cum, even when his body is writhing around from hypersensitivity he’d keep pleading w the cutest, high-pitched whimpers for you to overstimulate him right into another climax. it hits him hard and fast and before he knows it he’s spraying everywhere and letting out sounds you’ve never heard him make before…he’d definitely get a lil shy once he sees the aftermath but mostly you’ve got a giggly ditzy blissed out baby to take care of now bc it took a lot out of him, but felt so good that he’s just floating on cloud nine! i think he’d be especially clingy afterwards, gazing up at you w the biggest hearts in his eyes bc of the ways you’re able to work his body n bring him pleasure that he couldnt even dream of bringing himself~

lino is getting edged bc…of course he is 🙏 poor kitty is extra huffy and impatient today bc he didnt even do anything this time for u to be so mean to him. the only way to ever get him to do any work is when you deny his orgasm, n before he even realizes it he’s grinding down on your strap out of frustration, whining for you to just let him cum already. but you just shush him and pin his hips to the mattress, promising that it’ll feel even better for him if he bears w it <3 he’d definitely try to get his way by mouthing off but the more you bring him to the brink of his climax the more difficult it gets for him to do anything but babble desperately for you…the moment he finally gives in and whimpers the magic word so sweetly, you rub ur thumb in quick circles over the head of his dick and tell him to let it all out like a good girl 🥰 suddenly lino is cumming harder than he ever has in his life and even as he squirts all over his tummy he doesnt process what happened until well after he’s come down from his high…he would be humiliated out of his mind, even moreso than channie bc not only is he embarrassed abt his body reacting like that, he’s also embarrassed that he was so into it. he brushes off all your teasing w a huff but he definitely spends a long time thinking abt it afterwards and tries to figure out how he can ask u to do it again without looking too desperate

#ask #🪷 anon #💌 channie #💌 lixie #💌 lino

[triptychofvoids]

Hey, hey sunshine, considering how many cute sketches with a Medic you draw for people

Can I ask a question to a Medic from your headcannons?

Mr. Medic, what was the first reaction of Heavy to your autism? Did he notice sensory overload or other signs of autism not characteristic of neurotypical people? (may the author forgive me for such stupid questions ":D)

from very near the beginning most of the mercs would know something is a bit different about him, it would be fairly obvious if youre paying enough attention. medic wouldnt really mask very much (if at all) so other people would pick up on something eventually.

the rest under the cut because. this got a bit longer than intended ^^;

when medic makes eye contact its either all or nothing, hes either staring into your soul the whole time or he isnt looking at your face at all. hes more than happy to talk for hours on end about what he wants to talk about and doesnt really notice that he hasnt given the other person a chance to speak for the past 40 minutes. he doesnt really hide his stims (with a few exceptions) so it wouldnt be uncommon to see him rocking in his seat even if only a little or wringing his hands or waving them around when hes excited or anything like that. hes openly very picky about certain foods and drinks. ive already mentioned him having very low empathy. he tends to already be fairly quick to annoyance and anger but nothing pushes him over the edge like hearing sounds out in the common areas of the base while hes trying to sleep or focus on something and hes gotten into more than one argument trying to get whichever merc is out there being loud to be quiet. etc etc etc i could go on.

but at first even though a lot of this would be noticed by the other mercs many of them would just assume its because hes a little weird and eccentric or something, but eventually each of them would probably get their chance to learn more about it or possibly be forced to learn about it if the situation called for it.

now to finally get to heavy xD

he would have noticed many of these traits and like some of the others just brushed it off as medic being a bit weird at first, but i think hed get his first realization moment the first time that medic has a shutdown in front of him (hed have meltdowns too but hed be more prone to shutdown. it does depend on the situation though). maybe they had a really tough battle that day, medic maybe loses a glove and gets some clothes ripped or something, everyones dying everyones getting hurt even more and worse than usual, its completely awful the entire time and medic starts getting sensory overload but has to keep going until they finish the battle obviously. anyway maybe they actually manage to pull off the win somehow and when heavy goes to congratulate medic, hes unresponsive. not completely unresponsive but hes walking around avoiding touching or even standing too close to everything and everyone, he hasnt said a single word since the battle ended (and come to think of it, he had been talking less and less as the battle progressed), any of his usual over the top expressiveness is completely gone. heavy tries to figure out whats wrong but all his questions are met with a blank stare and medic more or less trying to get away from him. so heavy is thinking this is awful,, something broke doktor,, but, look, heavy is a smart man ok?

hed figure out that medic clearly isnt in the mood for talking so hed instead try short yes and no questions in his usual quiet and caring way. are you injured? are you angry with someone? do you want to be alone? can i help? and medic maybe answers with a small head shake or a little hum of affirmation, which takes a lot of energy and he wants nothing more than to collapse right there on the floor, but if it means heavy will be able to understand whats going on and it will get him the best outcome as fast as possible then he tries his best. heavy doesnt really know exactly whats going on but he works out that the poor guy just needs to be alone for a while so he helps escort him to his room or the infirmary or wherever he leads and helps keep everyone else away from him. once they get there heavy stands outside and waits because he realizes that anyone coming in there to bother medic is definitely one of the worst things that could happen at that moment, and he does it without asking.

it would take several hours because it takes medic about an hour of sitting in a quiet corner to even recover enough to clean himself up from the battle, and after that he collapses on any flat surface he can find that isnt the floor to take a nap, and once he wakes up from that he spends a bit of time quietly interacting with his birds or organizing some medical equipment before finally he goes to find heavy and is pleasantly surprised to find him essentially guarding the door. at that point he answers any of heavys questions, explains autism to him as best as he can and in detail, lists exactly what caused the problem that day, exactly what some of his traits are, explains exactly what to do if something like this happens again in the future. etc. so after that heavy would connect the dots between this and some of medics other traits and would have a better understanding of it and do everything he can to support medic if needed and umm yeah :]!!!!

#autism #tf2 #tf2 medic #tf2 heavy #thank you for this ask!!!! #i love talking about this so so so so much thank you for asking me this #no art just because i have some other things i have to work on #and if i drew a reply to every ask id be here all day #but yippee ^^!! this was fun for me thanks #replies from the void #the doc is in

[musubiki]

Sorry if this has been answered before, but I just don't know where to find it... how is Coco like in a fight? What does she use? What is her role?

Because I get that Mochi is like the support that can deal magical damage, Lime is the main damage dealer who can tank magic, oscar is a more general tank, and i dunno, is Taffy some sort of aoe damage dealer? Or is that conditional? I'm curious to know how they're like in a group fight.

OOOO NO TOO RIGHT I ACTUALLY DONT THINK I TALK ABOUT IT MUCH!!!!!! i always mean to do some kind of like...poms guide to tcwg focusing on the guilds actual abilities, but i never get around to it (besides talking about mochi and lime always being able to kick ass) but yes!!! let me talk about a quick rundown of everyone else!!!

first off, in general, all the guild members have combat ability to some degree!! the idea is that they each would be able to reasonably handle themselves in a fight on their own, so to an extent they can all be considered damage dealers, but for members like coco and oscar they can serve a slightly more supportive role if theres other damage people like lime or taffy around!! but!! coco and oscar can also do damage!!

coco:

her magic item ends up being her shoes!! essentially, shes the speedy flash/quicksilver type of power where she can move very quickly. the mechanics of it is that when she activates it, she has 5 seconds where everything around her slows down A LOT and she can move normally (which then translates to her moving insanely fast in like 1 second in real time), and then a 3 second cooldown before she can use it again. as mochis magic grows, this power grows too and eventually she is able to upgrade it to 10 (maybe 15) seconds of quick movement with a 3 second cooldown.

in an actual fight, this can have uses in several ways: 1) dodging, obviously, or escaping. 2) power: sometimes she just straight up uses all her seconds to just beat the shit out of someone, which in real time translates to you receiving like 10 aggregated punches to the face all at once. seems like this would be less useful than it sounds but she has downed taffy more than once just by (what looks like to mochi and lime) a punch to the gut, but in reality was like 12 punches to the gut all at once. 3) thievery: VERY easy to steal shit from people when they have no time to react. an example of this is her stealing marshals stopwatch mid-fight and he doesnt notice until its time to reset it and its gone. ANYWAY she has a lot of uses!!!! when shes on her own she makes use of the power function more, but around taffy/mochi/lime shes much better served as a supportive role.

post-timeskip she ALSO gets the ability to ......how to describe this.....create platforms under her feet? like if she needed to to the top of the building she could just. walk. as if there was a staircase there. the platforms she makes last for ~15 seconds so theoretically she could "create" "steps" for the rest of the guild to follow

oscar:

in oscars case, he gets two separate magic items. pre-timeskip (or pre-arm i guess i should say), he has the cat witch's medallion-- mochi only has one, and it has protective properties so oscar is much more of a defensive role in the pre-timeskip!! she gave it to him because his reckless stubborn ass wouldnt stop going into the giants thicket and almost got fucked up by the forrest spirits more than once, so she gives him this as a symbol of "under the protection of the cat witch, do not fuck with"

but basically put its more of a shielding item!! its a little different than the rest of the guilds items in that it directly draws its power from mochis magic!! it creates protective barriers, but with oscars mind he can use that for more than just barriers (he uses it for all sorts of things that are not directly protective in nature. imagine a fight where the opponent can constantly put up and take down and move around walls that cant be destroyed. theoretically capable of turning someone to jelly if they get caught between them)

after amanita rips his arm off (rest in peace, oscars dominant hand), and after some time passing for the quest to take place, mochi gets him the arm of Camongyf-- an artifact from the kingdom of the first witch king that can be considered an upgrade from the medallion!! its actually not horribly dissimilar from limes m34th weapon in the sense that it was the first kind of technology/magic fusion weapon. basically can make use of either technology or magic depending on the situation, and its also capable of drawing on mochis magic to make those magic energy weapons mochi uses!! so post-timeskip (and post-arm) he has a lot more combat capability, but still tends to drift towards the sheilding/protective uses!! also, the arm he uses was once actually the crow witchs artifact, so it has wings built in that he can use

taffy:

obviously taffys magic is water magic, and he has a 100% combat role. as the water mage, he technically has unlimited use of water and ice, so he CAN do things that are not technically combat, but most of his magic use is in a fight. water magic historically and traditionally is meant to be elegant, peaceful, smooth, like water bending kind of magic. taffy however was never taught properly and the only way he knows how to use it is how he learned by experience and desperation, so his water magic is very rough, chaotic, unrefined, but equally very terrifying and powerful. kind of like the difference between a calm and glassy shoreline ocean vs the ocean in the deep sea where waves are 40 feet high and will kill anything above the surface

water magic can do.......most anything. whatever he can think of. he can make ice weapons, he can wrap you in water and suspend you until you drown, he can freeze you, sink you, impale you, force water into all your orifices and blow you up like a balloon if he wanted to.,,, he can ALSO do AOE damage just by the nature of water-can-do-whatever-i-want-it-to-do

this is also scary when hes paired up with lime (pre-timeskip) with the thunderbat, because it gets like that mechanic in botw where you use lighting weapons in rain/water and it becomes AOE lightning damage (of which doesnt hurt lime because of the resistance)

something also to keep in mind about taffy is that as the water mage, his magic follows slightly different rules than a normal mage, and one of those quirks is that resistance.......doesnt really mean anything against him. since water is considered a natural element and while CONTROLLING it is magic, the element itself is not ACTUALLY magic. ie, limes resistance doesnt play a factor in a taffy fight. those who cannot be hurt by magic can still be drowned and impaled.

that being said taffy is absolutely terrible at hand-to-hand. he relies so much on the water magic, even at close range, that if you can somehow get to a point where you can land PHYSICAL BLOWS on him, thats it. which is why cocos power is so good against him because shes too fast for him to keep her away, and when she DOES land blows it packs a mean punch

as far as a group fight, i havent payed much attention to synergy!! theoretically they would all be good together in different combinations and just using their abilities differently, but at some point i would like to see all of them paired together to see what kind of cool things they come up with hehe

#I NEVER TALKED ABOUT IT THANK YOU FOR BRINGING IT UP!!!!! #also sorry if theres any typos i bought a new keyboard and im getting used to it still #lore #bpp #text

[drdemonprince]

Hey! I was the anon who asked about autism, socialising and lying. Thanks so much for responding. I was thinking of 'deeper' lies than the polite ones - specifically, navigating a workplace environment that requires you to spend time with people who don't at all value what you value.

I teach a subject that is related to my special interests and my values, so I find it intrinsically fascinating and important. However, it's also a subject of economic value, which means the students and most of the other teachers are only interested in it as far as it lets them keep making money or make more money. I want to keep working with it, but it can be extremely painful to be around people who blatantly don't care about it the way I do.

Thank you so much for the additional context! And I definitely have thoughts on this subject, I left social psychology for much the same reason honestly.

I think one piece of advice I'll give, but which I personally was not able to follow, is to try and draw a boundary between your view of the world and your commitment to adhering to your values, and what other people think and feel. It is possible, especially in academic o educational environments, to hold fast to your values, express open disagreement with interpretations of data and theories that do not seem well supported to you, and to refuse to participate in initiatives that go against your beliefs.

In education, there's a space and a degree of tolerance for the well-read iconoclast. If you can stand to be the needle in every neoliberal's side, and just set yourself apart from your profit-motivated colleagues, both mentally and in actual behavior, you can get along fine in departments where that's a role people already anticipate somebody existing to serve. and even outside of departments like that, most schools do consider some degree of disagreement proof of their own intellectual rigor, even if many people do wind up eye rolling at you and considering you the resident communist crank or whatever.

I assume you're probably already doing a lot to fight these battles professionally, and I encourage you to continue to do so. it might just be a matter of mentally divesting from ever changing these peoples' minds and letting their comments slide off your back more. You can still create a bit of an intellectual home for yourself in your work and in the students who are challenged or supported in their thinking by your perspective.

i think there is real value in being that person, the one who bursts the bubble that everybody's on the same page ideologically and morally. i personally relish getting to be the person who states openly that what an organization is doing is ethically troubling, or who inquires openly into the unspoken assumptions that are floating around uncontested in the room. and there are diplomatic-enough ways to go about doing that without losing your job or your good standing, if you're an academic or an educator.

the other option is to remove yourself from this kind of environment -- which might already be necessary if you're at a school where the insistence upon intellectual agreement is especially punishing. that will depend a lot on what level you teach at, whether it's a public or private school, who funds it, the school's approaches to accreditation and teacher evaluation, and the place's overall attitude toward intellectual debate. but suffice to say, you definitely can find a place to teach economics where you can question your students' profit motives, expand their horizons, expose them to readings and theories their neolib instructors wouldnt, and could raise plenty of smarmy but correctly placed questions at department brownbags and speaker series' and the like.

i understand neurotypical culture deems it impolite to be a disagreeable, forever questioning communist crank, but those of us in education are some of the rare people who do have the social cachet to get away with it, and the obligation to use that cachet to move the needle.

there's already an existing social script in people's mind for the eccentric, brilliant, disagreeable professor type, and you can use that to your advantage. my personal disagreeable professor persona at work is a kind of neurotic, interior, introverted deep thinker who sits and ponders in the corner of the room and lets everyone say their peace and then stands up and delivers a pained, but on point comment synthesizing everything that's wrong with how the university is handling matters, or how the field views a topic. im also the type of person to pull my weight when it comes to obligations that serve students, but who wont agree to take on a task that i think is wrong or a waste of time and i can articulate why.

people don't interpret me as difficult or hostile at work because of the way ive engineered this persona to seem very genuine and anguished by the things i perceive to be wrong, and im not pushy, just quietly assertive, and i stand by my own boundaries even if i cant move anybody else's. that's what works for me. it's not too far from the reality so it's not a performance, just a playing up of my more earnest qualities.

what works for you will be different probably, but there are ways to make it work without having to lie or to pretend to believe something that you dont. and on days when its not worth the trouble, you can just give a slight nod of mildly puzzled thoughtfulness (not agreement) and be silent.

[droodlebug]

Im a little woozy due to sleep meds so Forgive me if this doesnt make any sense but I saw your post and got to. Thinking. What if a centaur was kinda like a weird bug, where the "human" half is meant to lure people close while the other half is fast and can catch up to them easily for consumption . Whwt if Centaur was Mantis

OK ACTUALLY SO !! the way I like to view fairies is actually that they are a subgroup of mantis-like bugs with a range in sizes so wouldnt it be cool to have one that like. mimics the shape of centaurs. i did a little doodle ideally id like to add elements of other bugs lmao but !

I was thinking about like. Like you said they lure people close by looking like a centaur from far off. Probably the kind of guys that hang around in wetlands and mountain foothill forests and coatal areas etc etc. places that tend to lend themselves to fog and heavy foliage that doesnt allow for good visibility.

Theyre large, smaller than a centaur but still a little larger than your average elf. Drawing in people and rushing in to swipe and grab at them. Very opportunistic and carnivorous. Theyd collect moss and lichen to patch over themselves for better camouflage. Maybe they are able to flatten themselves low to the ground to blend into brush. If any people come near, sometimes they will drape cloth and clothing over themselves. its cool its cool !!!!!

#asks #oc #ocs #fantasy biology

[goatpaste]

Sammi do you think you'll ever do like, a full comic of your ocs/SBR rewrite(Or any of the rewrites) /pillar fam AU or like at least a full write up of one of those I am curious

mmm maybe,, iv considered it for my Jojo Ocs/Nuclear Heat fan part with Holly honestly. but the thing is i have tried to do comics from time to time but i loose steam and interest on them so easily. its like the worst killer of my interest in something is to try and to a whole full fleshed out comic and i cant figure out why. because i love to make comics in chunks and i love the format

idk if its just where i was mentally making past comics or what but iv abandoned two comics so fast in the last 6 years fr. i barely make it past a single chapter...

i think its also partially it takes a lot of me focusing on ONE thing to do it, i can really only focus on the comic and getting to do extra art/commissions isnt as easy to do and my crazy ass wants to draw everyday so much and be able to try and post as often as i can.. so idk. but i just need to find a formate or scheduling that works for me or something.. also again being able to balance it with commissions and work because i wouldnt get payed for it.

also my spelling, its bad lol. if you haven't noticed. between my adhd and my dyslexia i tend to write fast and not notice mistakes also im kinda stupid. so i dont really have confidence in making a more full comic as much as i would like to, i think its just too much for me alone to try and handle

buT

i havent somewhat done a full rewrite with loTS of long length comics for my pillar fam AU. i meant to cover all the high points and most of the story through random post drawings and mini comics, but i think i got into reading sbr and jjl and got so mad at sbr that i forgot i was mad at BT and was rewriting it lol. id like to return to it, i still have some ideas for it but it feels weird returning to such a niche AU after not touching it for this long lol

[magnoliamyrrh]

and another thing that chronic pain brings that i find is less talked about and that people without chronic pain can't wrap their head around, is the emotional pain and just straight up despair of feeling like your body is useless, knowing you'll never be able to do the things you want to that "normal" people can do.

^^^^^ Exactly

especially when it hits you when youre young. even if and when you manage to get used to the pain itself (tho even "getting used to it" takes a prepetual toll) theres still always that part of it too. of feeling trapped in a body that seems so weak and fragile, and there being things you want to do that you used to be able to at some point, or dreamed of being able to do that you just.... have to accept you either cant, or that if you do them theyre going to make you exponentially worse....... it feels like being forced to miss out on so many things, and its so damn hard and mentally draining and scary and,,,,yea,, a lot of dispair hits you. its hard to accept

i always lose it when i realize how much i can't rly do anymore. even when i had chronic pain some years back and my joints were going to shit, id still push myself and walk for hours upon hours almost every day, it was relaxing and one of my favourite things to do.... now there are many times when walking for 30-40 minutes a day or several times a week feels like it absolutely cripples me. such seeminly low effort things take it out of me for days on end.... i cant play guitar anymore because my hands cant handle it. when my pain was worse, thank god its better now, i couldn't draw anymore... theres so many hobbies i wanted to try, but cant because some part of my body wouldnt handle it. many times ive been too dizzy or exhausted to cook, despite it being one of my favourite things to do.... i had an entire weeks-long mental breakdown and spiraled horribly when i realized i couldnt really ski anymore, despite being very, very good at it. id rather die than think i could never ride horses again, but i know there is a high chance doing so will ruin my hips...... the list is fucking endless

it feels like some sort of nightmare you just cant seem to wake up from. past a point damned be the pain, but realizing your body just cant handle or do shit or doesnt have the strengh, or that the pain is just too sharp, its just... fucking horrible.... it almost breaks you more than the pain itself past a point. and idk personally its been a nightmare for me to see how fast a lot of my health issues have progressed. i was certain i wouldnt be as bad as i am now until i was in my 30s.... but in just a few years, its gotten so much fucking worse

..... its one of those things that i guess you cant do nothing about but accept...? and try to make the best out of??? because getting endlessly upset about it doesnt help, and being upset only feeds the chronic pain. but its very hard, especially when daily things in your life constantly remind you. i still havent been able to figure out some sort of way or mindset to do that at all

i assume from this ask you also struggle with this? im very sorry ❤️🧡❤️ it truly is a lot to handle to say the least. thank u for this ask tho, helps to feel less alone, and if u ever need to vent to someone who gets it ur more than welcome to 🌸 i hope this week will be easier on you and that youll feel a little bit better, and i hope with time you'll maybe be able to find some things which make it easier to bare. god knows what the chances are, but maybe with all the science nowadays well both have the insane luck for some cure or actual treatment, as far fetched as that seems at times

#also pls tell me if u want this deleted i didnt know if to publish it or not

[two-calicos-in-a-trenchcoat]

So I recently started dicking around on nation states again. I have very little interest in the actual RPG part....I like rpgs in theory but whenever I actually try to play i get bored really fast....

Last time I played I actually did make an attempt to interact with other players but this time around ive just been deleting all the telegrams they send me asking me to ally with them or move to their part of the world. I'm enjoying it much more. But it also helps I had a theme for my country this time around. And it was apparently enough to kick artist brain into gear for the first time in weeks cuz uhhh

I spent 14 hours (give or take) working on this

I WAS going to make it in krita but my stylus battery died and it takes an AAAA battery which I don't really have just lying around (and walmart doesn't have them in store so I couldn't just go get one).

But id spent 2 hours last night going through the star names Wikipedia picking random constellations and recording all the named stars on the list in probably the least efficient way possible but I didnt really go in with a plan...just the vague idea of using constellations and star names somehow...and I knew if I didnt continue with it I'd lose steam and never finish AND I wouldn't be able to work on literally anything else the rest of the day.

So Stellaria is made up of 10 allied states. Each state is named after a constellation. I decided I wanted to use the shapes of the constellations to make the shapes of the states. But i didnt have any particular idea as to how I wanted to have it laid out. I was pretty sure I wanted it to be an island cuz its in the south pacific so an island made sense.

My initial plan for doing it on my laptop was to just draw a shape for an island and fit the constellations into the shape wherever I could. I think that wouldve eventually morphed into what I ended up doing with paper instead. But who knows. My brain goes in weird directions sometimes.

So stylus dying set me back a bit. Spent about 20 minutes staring at my sticky notes and my laptop while also scrolling through my phone trying to find some cheap AAAA batteries while also being annoyed that I wouldn't be able to work on it at all today since I would have to order the batteries.

So ultimately I decided fuck the batteries. I'll just get all the constellations sketched out on paper and label the stars so I'll at least have an idea what im working with. Cause despite liking constellations and stars and spacey shit in general I don't actually know too much about constellations and didnt even know what a few of the ones I chose even looked like. I'd never even heard of 2 of the ones I ended up choosing. I just liked their names.

Turns out not every main star in most constellations have names. Theyre numbered. But don't have actual names that I felt could work at city/town names. And some of the ones that are named aren't a part of the main body of the constellations themselves. I debated a bit on whether I should include them. But then I thought...well...island nations are very rarely one big land mass. Those could be their own smaller islands.

Unfortunately I didnt think about that part until id already outlined a few of the constellations (with the unconnected ones included) so I ended up having to refine the shapes quite a bit. Both while I was cutting the shapes out and then again while sketching the final product. But it worked out I think.

So I had all the shapes drawn in pen in my little notebook but I had no idea how the layout was gonna work. I tore out the pages they were on and looked up some star charts to try and figure out where the constellations were in reference to each other to try and get a layout that way.

Briefly considered adding all the other constellations on the star charts as their own states cuz then I wouldnt have to think about the layout as hard and just copy the star charts exactly

Ultimately decided against doing that because finding out the locations of the stars was bad enough the first time

Tried laying out the full sheets of paper and realized it would be a lot easier to figure out a way to lay them out if I cut off the excess paper

Tried using the star charts again but still couldn't get a layout I liked

Said fuck it again and just started positioning them where I thought they looked best. Knew I wanted certain constellations to face certain directions to create peninsulas and needed the smaller islands to actually be in water instead of touching another state. Found a layout I liked and realized i needed some paper to draw the rough draft on. In krita I had my canvas size set to the average poster size but I dont have paper that big so I had to dig through my sketchbook drawer to find something that would be a decent size. Ended up going with a large pad of Bristol board cuz I was starting to think I should maybe color code the states to keep track of all the little islands better so I wanted something kinda heavy duty since I wasn't sure what I was gonna use to color code them.

At first I just tried copying the outlines of the states id done earlier but I was having a hard time keeping track of which shape was which so I decided to erase everything I had and draw the constellations themselves first and then go back and add in the borders and coastlines after i sketched in the constellations. This worked much better.

I think im gonna make the unnamed stars in the main bodies of the constellations important landmarks. Eventually id like to flesh out the map more with bus routes and train track...hiking trails..bridges and main roads and all that stuff

Next on the agenda is gonna be creating a flag (im using the romanian flag on nation states right now. And also designing the currency. Theres a lot of general type stuff I need to do too but im gonna wait till ive been playing the game a bit longer so my country is a bit more establisbed

Anyway. Here's some more information on stellaria (spelled stelleria on the site cuz stellaria was taken.

Im not sure what I chose to make the police well funded but whatever. I mostly just like looking at my nation's stats and watching how different things affects them.

#i also wanna include the mythology surrounding the constellations some how #anyway #its 3am #i am tired #goodnight gay people in my phone

[slimercore]

currently trying hard to decide how ill tell the story when i actually. have. the story. since despite what ive put out so far im not actually an artist lol i dont consider myself one. im a writer. so my obvious conclusion is to write it out but theres so many plot lines that i dont think ill be able to keep it as one fic :(

if anything ill probably do like. multiple fics from dif characters that all tie together. a mix of longer and shorter stuff to get my message across then do art on the side for development / interest. ill prob do art to go along w the fics as well

GOD! i wish i had the capabilities to make a game cause this would 100% work best as a game. a little rpg maker one but its hard bc

since im not an artist i cant draw fast / theres a lot i need to improve upon

despite this i would want to hand draw everything bc im annoying like that

no idea how to code

i lose interest fast

i mean tbh i could prob look into it anyway just to see cause why not. like the goal wouldnt be to have a fully furbished beautiful game thats enjoyed by hundreds. its just a little something abt my au that maybe a select amount of people would like

idk im still trying to figure out how everything works

ive come to realize that im actually sticking somewhat close to hs plot where im taking certain things an including them which is strange cause usually i disregard the plot entirely an make up my own but w/e

#talks

[many-gay-magpies]

HELLO. GOOD MORNING. HAVE YOU SEEN THE NEW CONCEPT PHOTOS OH MY GOOOODDDDDDD HEAD FULL. HEAD SO FULL MANY THOUGHTS. SEVERAL BODERLINE UNHOLY THOUGHTS. ANYWAYS ALSO UR HEESEUNG DRAWING!!! IM SO PROUD OF U FOR FINISHING HE LOOKS SO GOOD!!! THE SHADING AND LIGHTING IS REAL NICE !!!!

YESSS THE PAST SHENANIGANS OF TGE VAMPS. jakah would’ve been an Incurable street urchin/pickpocket back in the 1800s HES SO FAST HOW WOULD ANYONE CATCH HIM??? THEY WOULDNT ! and the idea of jino and jakah realizing that the random watch they stole off a guy is now more valuable than they could all imagine bc of how long has passed- they’d double over laughing and not even pawn it bc “hey- it’ll only be worth More the longer we wait !” AND THEM IN A MUSEUM LMAO imagine decelis takes a field trip to a museum for educational purposes and theyre like “how the Fuck did all this end up in riverfield this hideout is from a country over” and jaan literally has to clap his hand over shion’s mouth when he starts speaking. fantastic

YEAH . YEAH LOTS OF IMMORTALITY FEELINGS. i’m getting emotional thinking abt sooha trying to teach the boys how to Live again instead of just existing from place to place- sneaking out, celebrating birthdays (they’ve all stopped counting, but sooha forces them to celebrate hers ofc, and no one mentions how small that number feels to them, and how fast it runs out), watching movies (ofc the boys are mildly wowed by how far film has come since the 30s), and just . little things that she has come to appreciate about Living that they gave up/moved past a long time ago. yeah .

- vrvr anon

YES IVE SEEN THEY LOOK SO GOOD. THEYRE SO BEAUTIFUL. some of the photos are sparkly and its literally feeding my soul; the styling and the vibes are everything, im so ready. BUT YES THE HEESEUNG!! IM DONE!! FINALLY!! after . *checks watch* yeah actually idk how long ive been working on him but MAN it has BEEN A BIT. that hair took me several days spread over multiple weeks im so glad its over HDBFJBFNF im proud of me too!! its the most detailed work ive posted i think, its like this big weight's been lifted off my shoulders-- thank you so much!!!

NO LITERALLY what we were talking about with jakah being fast and tiny and faster BECAUSE hes tiny, and therefore very good at slicing peoples' ankles . that would also apply to pickpocketing ! which in concept is just very fun to me! after the vamps escape the orphanage and start their new lives on-the-run, it's probably a while before they're able to grasp onto any sense of stability, so in those early years (which could mean anywhere from three years to like, thirty) they probably do a lot of pickpocketing and general minor misdemeanors in order to survive. also as far as food goes, even if they can eat SOME human food (like we saw shion eating ice cream that one time), its probably only liquids or liquid-adjacent foods, and they are still fundamentally vampires whose main source of food is blood. they wouldnt want to drink from humans, because something something morals something something still being conflicted about being vampires in the first place, but i DO wonder if the towns they pass through have... lots of complaints of suddenly/mysteriously disappearing or dead pets and livestock.

LMAO YES THE MUSEUM shion would totally be the one to start babbling out loud about all his stuff being behind glass and jaan has to shut him up and remind him "there is a REASON we talk to each other telepathically you brat".

oh the immortality feelings... the sooha feelings.... theyre real. and i actually have a lot of feelings specifically ABOUT the boys and birthdays because if they had their memories wiped as soon as they came to the orphanage, they wouldnt exactly REMEMBER their birthdays, would they? and for a while (because of how the people in the orphanage isolate them) they probably wouldnt even know that birthday celebrations are a THING. after escaping, they'd probably stumble across a few, and there'd be yet another bulletpoint added to the list of experiences they'd missed out on because of the orphanage—maybe they'd celebrate the day they all woke up together at the orphanage, since to them that sort of WAS their birth; or a second birth, anyway (since none of them remember the first). they'd celebrate the beginning of their bond and give new meaning to a day that used to have only negative connotations (the day they were kidnapped, the day they were trapped, the day they began to be altered irreversibly from the people, the CHILDREN they once were). or maybe they'd celebrate the day they escaped, instead—after all, they didn't REALLY start living (ironically enough) until they were free. but after a while, like you said, they'd probably forget; they've lived so long that keeping track of the years via some arbitrary celebration doesn't seem necessary anymore—that's what the new year is for. but then sooha comes along, asking them about birthdays and parties and when they should celebrate, then expresses shock when she hears that they don't celebrate their birthdays at ALL. they of course explain it to her; they dont remember their actual birthdays, plus they've lived so long that celebrating another year feels inconsequential. she insists, well, if you dont celebrate YOUR birthdays we'll just celebrate mine—and when the day comes she drags them all to some diner or ice cream parlor or movie theater in town and they spend the day together. the boys realize—or remember—huh, this isnt actually so bad; and maybe when everything quiets down sooha says to them, "when you get your memories back, we'll celebrate ALL of your birthdays."

so, yeah. feelings <//3

#asks #anon 📝 #vrvr anon #dark moon universe #dark moon nonsense #dark moon

[b4kuch1n]

cue training montage that I do not have enough ink or stamina to finish

#mob psycho 100 #kageyama shigeo #hanazawa teruki #reigen arataka #comic #doodle comic #how do you teach something to a teacher #also how much does reigen have to try to bring this up smoothly #its for a case #no its not its actually bc he wants to start but thinks he's too old to go to a class #also teru thought this would be a challenge to his humility #but it turns out to be very humbling #bc reigen is very good at picking up random skills #and also bc its reigen #he does that to people #when he can play the guitar properly reigen pats terus back #'wouldnt have been able to learn this fast without a good instructor' #and teru suddenly feels like extra happy #also I wanted to draw this in magic reigen verse #but reigen would make it too flashy and I ain't have the strength #so pls imagine reigen dangling from the ceiling and confettis everywhere #that's it for that thank you

[roenais]

doll grian ask masterpost! i get a lot of these apparently good lord

ofc, i didn't come up with the concept! no need to credit it to me or anything, in fact to me it isnt an au, that's just how i draw grian in general lmAO.

amsmkkeg yeah its such a funny concept to me. i like to think that he's always somewhat aware of where they are, so many other hermits have had the experience of trying to prank him by moving a spare body only to be jumpscared when he interrupts them.

pov you havent seen your somewhat brother-figure since he became a god. you find out he's been active on a different server for the past few years. you join the server. he's a marketable plushie. i think she'd be halfway between confused and finding it hilarious.

...though if you want a somber moment, i like to think that at some point early into boatems construction then sat down together on a quiet night and talked about it. just chilling out discussing the fallout of evo and what theyve been up to since. whether he misses his humanity. yknow.

l.. .like a light switch? girl help i dont know what that is but i am intrigued.

aw im glad! that makes me happy, glad he likes :)

the desperate phrasing on this is killing me. i'll canonize it for you. he's too big for build a bear clothes but he'll make it work.

i wouldnt think so! the only reason he can possess a doll in my headcanon is because it's inanimate. it's less possession and more like very advanced puppetry smfmekg.

that being said, he could probably abandon his body and still be able to knock things over like a petty cat. or place wither building blocks to terrify mumbo. casual menace things.

this image is hilarious im laughing so hard. fly grian fly.

gem: wait so he's just a plushie?? that talks and builds?? and that counts as a player???

scar: you get used to it remarkably fast!

pearl: well to be fair he was a regular player once

scar:

scar: he was what

grian plays along for the sole purpose of jumpscaring scar into lava lets be real. he absolutely would.

#asks #i have too many thoughts about this guy apparently

[tinyyzz]

Winter Confessions

Note: a bestie wrote how she imagined a scenario that 24 to 25 gave her, and i thought hey, thats a pretty good prompt. Also this isnt exactly Christmas themed, i have another story for that. After a lot of editing though, this was the result (it was actually supposed to be super super long but i didnt really like it) otherwise, as always, i hope you like this as much as i did writing it! <333

Fluff!, confessions in the snow || Hyunjin x reader

“(Y/N) think fast!!”

“Wha—.”

WHAM! The moment you turned you were immediately hit square in the arm by a speeding snowball. You stood there gasping at him exaggeratedly as you brushed off the snow.

“ Hwang Hyunjin…” you threatened, narrowing your eyes as you bent down to compress snow in your hands,”…you started this snowball fight, and now I have to finish it.”

“No wait hold on—” He pleaded in horror, putting out a hand as he jogged away from you.

You charged at him with a war cry, snow in hand, and soon handfuls of snow were thrown mercilessly as the war ensued. Legs were tripped over and arms were thrown out of aim as they got hit. Childish laughter erupted from the both of you, ringing out clearly as the wintry air filled your lungs, carrying them out in frosty mist.

It had continued until you hit Hyunjin right in the face, falling backwards with impact, you laugh until you hear him groaning. Worried, you rush over to his side.

“Jinnie?” You stare down at him worriedly.” Did I really hit you that hard? Are you okay?’”

He doesnt say a word, still groaning.

“Jinnie I’m gonna move your hands alright?.” You say cautiously, how much damage can a snowball even do?? And its not like you were very athletic. Despite all this, the worry grew in you as you remove his hands from his face gently and even though you didn’t know what you were expecting to see…

…a cheeky smile beaming up at you was definitely not on the list.

“Ugh!” You groan, tossing his hands away as he sits up laughing.” I knew it!”

“You should’ve seen the look on your face.” He giggled

When you looked away and didn’t answer, he pulled you down, hugging you.

“Hey!”

“Oh come on, I’m sorry.” He smiles.” I didn’t think you’d be that worried.”

Yeah no kidding you thought as you had hoped that your now beating heart wouldn’t be felt or heard by the boy holding you tightly in the snow on the ground. Any longer and you wouldnt be able to take it anymore, after all this effort of hiding your feelings from him you definitely did not want them to blubber to the surface and possibly ruin the moment

“Hey, c’mon let me go.” You say, trying to hide your nervousness as you struggle to push his arms down

“No.” He retorted

“C‘mon Jinnie…”

“No.”

Your protests were null as you try to sit up on your own, when you almost succeeded, he pulls you down with a jerk. The sudden force had caused, to your dismay, you to almost land on top of him, your two hands steadying you as you faced him now even more closer than before. Great! Fantastic! This is going so smoothly!

“I wish I could kiss you right now.” He muttered under his breath

“What??” You exclaimed

“What?” He replied quickly.” I didn’t say that out loud did I?”

You sat up immediately yet still staring at him flabbergasted.” What!??”

“Well I…” he began, stammering,” you…how do i—“

“I, you, how blebleble.” You mimicked him incredulously.” You mean to tell me you like me??”

You didn’t know why you were feeling frustrated, at least, this frustrated. Your sleepless nights spent worrying, thinking, drifting, oh maybe that lady over there is more his type, maybe he likes people that can relate to him in the industry, maybe he’s busy and wouldn’t want to talk right now…

Your pent up frustration rose to the surface because you had finally realised how stupid you had been.

“Do you like me…?” You questioned cautiously.” Or is this a spur of the mome—“

“(Y/N)” he began, drawing circles on the ground with his finger and then admitted timidly.” (Y/N) I like you… alright? I didn’t plan to confess this way I…”

And all you could do was stare.

It felt too good to be true.

“Hwang Hyunjin.” You breathed.” You like me.”

“Uh-huh.”

“So its okay if I kiss you?”

Now it was his turn to face you, confusedly.” What?”

“I like you too.” You laugh out loud gleefully, holding his face between your hands.” Hwang Hyunjin I have liked you so so much for the longest time ever.”

He holds your gaze for a moment, hardly daring to believe it, and then gently, he moves in close to meet your smiling lips.

And it feels like, finally.

#hyunjin #skz fluff #skz scenarios #stray kids x reader #stray kids #hwang hyunjin #hyunjin imagines #hyunjin fluff #hyunjin x reader