#. it’s just so fucking frustrating

[elbiotipo]

I think one big reason why we don't consider the stars as important as before (not even pop-astrology anymore cares about the stars or the sky on itself, just the signs deprived of context) is because of light pollution.

For most of human history the sky looked between 1-3, 4 at most. And then all of a sudden with electrification it was gone (I'm lucky if I get 6 in my small city). The first time I saw the Milky Way fully as a kid was a spiritual experience, I was almost scared on how BRIGHT it was, it felt like someone was looking back at me. You don't get that at all with modern light pollution.

When most people talk about stargazing nowadays they think about watching about a couple of bright dots. The stars are really, really not like that. The unpolluted night sky is a festival of fireworks. There is nothing like it.

#cosas mias #it's amazing it's always just up there and we can't see it! it's so fucking frustrating!

[inkskinned]

at some point it's just like. do they even fucking like the thing they're asking AI to make? "oh we'll just use AI for all the scripts" "we'll just use AI for art" "no worries AI can write this book" "oh, AI could easily design this"

like... it's so clear they've never stood in the middle of an art museum and felt like crying, looking at a piece that somehow cuts into your marrow even though the artist and you are separated by space and time. they've never looked at a poem - once, twice, three times - just because the words feel like a fired gun, something too-close, clanging behind your eyes. they've never gotten to the end of the movie and had to arrive, blinking, back into their body, laughing a little because they were holding their breath without realizing.

"oh AI can mimic style" "AI can mimic emotion" "AI can mimic you and your job is almost gone, kid."

... how do i explain to you - you can make AI that does a perfect job of imitating me. you could disseminate it through the entire world and make so much money, using my works and my ideas and my everything.

and i'd still keep writing.

i don't know there's a word for it. in high school, we become aware that the way we feel about our artform is a cliche - it's like breathing. over and over, artists all feel the same thing. "i write because i need to" and "my music is how i speak" and "i make art because it's either that or i stop existing." it is such a common experience, the violence and immediacy we mean behind it is like breathing to me - comes out like a useless understatement. it's a cliche because we all feel it, not because the experience isn't actually persistent. so many of us have this ... fluttering urgency behind our ribs.

i'm not doing it for the money. for a star on the ground in some city i've never visited. i am doing it because when i was seven i started taking notebooks with me on walks. i am doing it because in second grade i wrote a poem and stood up in front of my whole class to read it out while i shook with nerves. i am doing it because i spent high school scribbling all my feelings down. i am doing it for the 16 year old me and the 18 year old me and the today-me, how we can never put the pen down. you can take me down to a subatomic layer, eviscerate me - and never find the source of it; it is of me. when i was 19 i named this blog inkskinned because i was dramatic and lonely and it felt like the only thing that was actually permanently-true about me was that this is what is inside of me, that the words come up over everything, coat everything, bloom their little twilight arias into every nook and corner and alley

"we're gonna replace you". that is okay. you think that i am writing to fill a space. that someone said JOB OPENING: Writer Needed, and i wrote to answer. you think one raindrop replaces another, and i think they're both just falling. you think art has a place, that is simply arrives on walls when it is needed, that is only ever on demand, perfect, easily requested. you see "audience spending" and "marketability" and "multi-line merch opportunity"

and i see a kid drowning. i am writing to make her a boat. i am writing because what used to be a river raft has long become a fully-rigged ship. i am writing because you can fucking rip this out of my cold dead clammy hands and i will still come back as a ghost and i will still be penning poems about it.

it isn't even love. the word we use the most i think is "passion". devotion, obsession, necessity. my favorite little fact about the magic of artists - "abracadabra" means i create as i speak. we make because it sluices out of us. because we look down and our hands are somehow already busy. because it was the first thing we knew and it is our backbone and heartbreak and everything. because we have given up well-paying jobs and a "real life" and the approval of our parents. we create because - the cliche again. it's like breathing. we create because we must.

you create because you're greedy.

#every time someones like ''AI will replace u" im like. u will have to fucking KILL ME #there is no replacement here bc i am not filling a position. i am just writing #and the writing is what i need to be doing #writeblr #this probably doesn't make sense bc its sooo frustrating i rarely speak it the way i want to #edited for the typo wrote it and then was late to a meeting lol #i love u people who mention my typos genuinely bc i don't always catch them!!!! :) it is doing me a genuine favor!!! #my friend says i should tell you ''thank you beta editors'' but i don't know what that means #i made her promise it isn't a wolf fanfiction thing. so if it IS a wolf thing she is DEAD to me (just kidding i love her) #hey PS PS PS ??? if ur reading this thinking what it's saying is ''i am financially capable of losing this'' ur reading it wrong #i write for free. i always have. i have worked 5-7 jobs at once to make ends meet. #i did not grow up with access or money. i did not grow up with connections or like some kind of excuse #i grew up and worked my fucking ASS OFF. and i STILL!!! wrote!!! on the side!!! because i didn't know how not to!!! #i do not write for money!!!! i write because i fuckken NEED TO #i could be in the fucking desert i could be in the fuckken tundra i could be in total darkness #and i would still be writing pretentious angsty poetry about it #im not in any way saying it's a good thing. i'm not in any way implying that they're NOT tryna kill us #i'm saying. you could take away our jobs and we could go hungry and we could suffer #and from that suffering (if i know us) we'd still fuckin make art. #i would LOVE to be able to make money doing this! i never have been able to. but i don't NEED to. i will find a way to make my life work #even if it means being miserable #but i will not give up this thing. for the whole world.

[uncanny-tranny]

I recently had to do a project in one of my psych classes, and man, I knew that CBT was used for every little thing, but seeing over and over, "do CBT! CBT is the best for every mental illness!" was so jarring. I'm absolutely biased because of my own experiences, but I just don't think it's as universal a treatment model as it's touted.

If you didn't benefit from CBT, it's not because you're lazy or didn't try hard enough or lacked intelligence or foresight into your own needs. Frankly, it's a therapy model that (I think) shouldn't be the only readily-accessible model and among the only therapy models covered by insurance. Some of us should not be treated in a CBT model and that's okay. It's not a sign of poor character or unreasonable demands, and if you don't think it's a model that works for you, then it's your right to express that!

#mental health #mental health advocacy #it was just so annoying because every resource i could access for this project often ONLY recommended cbt and #that just doesn't seem helpful for a good chunk of people #because i know i never benefitted from that model of therapy #obligatory: i am not against this therapy. me having a negative experience with it is not indicative that i believe it should be abolished' #if it works for you: KEEP DOING IT. cbt is not inherently harmful for MANY people and it's a good and valuable tool for many #but the overemphasis of cbt as the Only Therapy Model You Need sends this message that YOU failed... #...if you don't miraculously recover with that therapy model. it often feels like you'll Fail Recovery/Therapy and you're now a Bad Person #i've tried for over a decade to stick out cbt with a dozen therapists to boot. so i think i know a thing or two about my experiences with it #and overall its an unimpressive model (for me) as someone whos had a history with abuse and miscellaneous mental knickknacks rattling around #it's also frustrating because i genuinely like psych and i love learning about people #it's just. i'm tired of only being exposed to cbt (because i hate it honestly) #i feel similarly about cbt as i do with sigmund fucking frued #anyway i just want other insane people (affectionate) to remember that they deserve to not beat themselves up over this #if you're an insane person reading this: i love you i love you i love you i love you #i will share a slice of cake and homemade bread with you <3

[squuote]

this was meant for an ask my friend sent about what if stanley wasn't actually stanley's name but tumblr DELETED IT and now i am pissed take this comic from my hands NEOW

#the stanley parable #the stanley parable ultra deluxe #tspud #tsp #crows art #GUUUUUHHHHH #THE ASK WAS STILL THERE YESTERDAY WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!! #<- not actually super angry but!!!!!! frustrating!!!!!!! #anyway it was a silly fun ask and i loved it a lot >:-( so i drew a comic #just took me forever to actually get to #but here it is. in the flesh #now i am gonna go angrily drink ginger beer

[miwtual]

im so fucking tired of the disrespect gifmakers get on the gifmaker website

#kai.txt #negativity tw #(sorry these are gonna be a lot of tags. i have a lot of feelings and i dont know where else to put them) #we make gifs and nobody reblogs them #when they do get reblogged all people want to tell you is that your gifs arent good enough to them and rip it to shreds #'you're missing x' 'why didnt you do y' 'if i made this i would have abc' 'hey op ur wrong and this is why' 'i dont like this op' #reposters dont even reblog your fucking gifset but they'll save your gifs to repost later asking for how to do something #that they could have asked you how to do in the fucking first place #we reblog ourselves constantly because nobody else will and maybe to make our work look like it has more notes than it does #to make ourselves feel better about the lack of interaction we're getting #and then when we TALK about this frustration we have. people who are too afraid to say it to our faces #go on anon in our askboxes and tell us how we're somehow selfish for wanting people to interact with the sets #that we spent time on. hours. days. WEEKS in some cases #or we get anons who tell us the reason we dont have notes are because we arent good at gifmaking in the first place #but this is all on anon. because they're too scared to tell it to our faces #they're too scared for us to see that they ARENT a gifmaker and that they dont know how to do it any better either #they dont see us as people doing something we love as a hobby. they see us as content machines that dance like court jesters #im just so fucking tired of the disrespect #and this sentiment goes for more than just gifmakers. graphicmakers. artists. literally any creative hobby shared on this site #we get treated like shit and for what? literally for fucking what.

[butchmartyr]

it will never stop being funny/sad seeing a different transmisogynistic transfem make this same tired ass post every other year and inevitably attract insane transmisogynists calling random trans women pedophiles and predatory in the notes for talking about consensual kink she enjoys with her lovers or whatever else, never makes it clearer that the point is transmisogyny and apologizing/making space for it because those people are always tolerated whereas trans women asking if someone reblogging from someone they don’t know is always a tacit show of universal support are blocked. it’s an intellectually dishonest misportrayal of what some transfems say (who is saying these things you’re claiming to are being ‘inherently linked to transfeminity’? is that what’s actually being said? what does this statement do if not just accuse a voiceless group of trans women of being pedophilic incestous Evils?) that directly likens many to apologizing for and normalizing pedophilia, playing off the readers bias to see trans women as predators despite the reality that this “normalization” is only really happening for cnc and incest rp kinks and barely at that. you’re not making it out of the pit

#and this have to be said but cnc kinks and such are literally fine when practiced safely with consenting adults just like other sex #like please god you’re being so reactionary! #*shouldn’t have to be said #it’s so frustrating because i remember doing it when i was a teen and didn’t know better but fuck!! #you have to learn better at some point you have to learn to care about trans women #kvetching

[bluedillylee]

[ID: season 2 Jaskier reaches out to grasp the memory of season 1 Geralt and Jaskier as they are laughing together. Below the image are the words “I miss the days when you loved me”. End ID]

#the witcher #witcher netflix #Jaskier #Geralt #u ever have an idea but you just can’t quite get it to translate into art #its so frustrating but fuck it #better to do it half baked than not at all

[lbhslefttiddie]

youve heard of sex flowers get ready for the flower that makes you into a celestial shoujo herione complete with particle effects you cannot turn the fuck off and creates a wifebeam so powerful it can incapacitate and maim and keeps making you burst into tears and fall on your ass which makes the wifebeam More Powerful and you also cannot turn this off either. and is also still, sort of, a sex flower

from one of my favorite fanfictions, Celestial Afterglow by elanor_pam, a fic that defies description in the best possible way

#arts #shen qingqiu #svsss #listen im not saying that ive spent a cumulative half a year reading this fic and then trying to make an arts for it #and then getting frustrated and stopping because i couldn't figure out how to make sqq shimmery enough #but like. im not NOT saying that #this is the FOURTH time ive started something for this bitch it haunts my fucking dreams and yet the opalescent glittery sqq evades me #perhaps you o unlearned fool look at this and say hmm that's too many colour layers and glowy effects but oh how wrong you are #if it doesnt make you literally fall over yourself at how otherworldly and radiant he is then there is room for improvement yet #perhaps you look at this and you think Wow!!! this gives me literally NO ideas what this fic is about #well Let Me Tell You. i have no fucking idea how to summarize this fic #its not often the tags in a fic give me pause but i saw this and as i read the tags i was increasingly just like What #but i have no idea how to describe it. the tags arent NOT accurate but i was SO unprepared for what happened in like an extremely pos way #if i were tagging this i think i would give it the no archive warnings apply label if that matters to you #the author seemed they wanted to leaned towards over caution rather than risk missing anything re tags because This Is A Weird Fic #but oh my fucking god #i am gripping you by the shoulders i cannot stress enough how charming it is #brilliant characterization especially with airplane in the first scene #and also so much fucking funnier than i thought possible for the general setting summary tags and buildup #its just. ough. its good

[nyancrimew]

waiting for the hopefully once again temporary loss of focus and massive brainfog from covid to hopefully also fade away again after like a month just like the other time i had covid

#like fuck i rly hope this also goes away again #my writing has slowed down like literally by a hundred times #ive managed to write like four paragraphs so far this week despite more or less just focusing on doing these articles #it's so endlessly frustrating

[ef-1]

tapping the "do you even like Lewis or do you just like shipping him with a white man" sign

#some of you LITCHERALLY sound like helmut. 2 races into the season. wtf lmao #'i love him but-' but do you actually love him? #'its sad to see him like this. maybe its time for younger drivers to get a chance' no. fuck then kids #like some of you are so frustrating and disrespectful #you dont lose points if you stop pretending you like him. live your truth. its not mandatory to like Lewis #you just dont have to justify it with “hes not like he used to be” WHAT FROM LIKE 4 MONTHS AGO? LAST YEAR???? #f1 #lewis hamilton

[a-small-writer-in-a-big-world]

I hate people who are like “AI allows me to do these things I wanted to do but can’t because I suck at it” do you think that every person before AI didn’t suck at what they were good at? Do you think it’s worth stealing other people’s passions so you can pretend you’re good at something instead of trying?

#got pissed about AI again #fuck ai #I fucking hate it #yeah I say shit like I wish I was good at art and get frustrated taht I’m not good even when I haven’t practiced #but I’m not making fucking ai art #and stealing stuff from people just so I can push out something #mediocre #at least if I drew shitty you can tell that there was some kind of passion in it #I fucking hate ai #and if you like gtfo my blog #please #ugh

[phykoha]

I hate hate HATE when people say I'm "having an attitude" with them, bc I'm literally not until AFTER they say that. And thats not even "an attitude", it's me being annoyed and frustrated bc youre saying im having an attitude when im NOT.

Like what does that even mean. I'm just autistic.

#blah blah blah #vent #like i was just responding to my name being called???? i literally just went “huh?” which i do all the time????? #and when you walk off mumbling shit that i cant hear bc we're dozens of feet away from each other in a loud ass store #and i come over and ask what you wanted #and youre like “i said we'll talk when you drop the attitude” or whatever and have the audacity to smirk at me like its a joke and i have #any idea wtf youre talking about #like i got so frustrated and upset about it that i legit cried for like an hour after that. while still doing my work bc i just wanna get #done and go home. #this is about one of my managers btw. if it wasn't obvious #like shes cool most of the time. but she says shit sometimes that make me wanna quit on the fucking spot

[bestjeanistmonster]

Dc au- made Amy a villain clown outfit for a fun monster of the week type adventure

(Do not tag as ship)

#she’s infiltrating the joker gang as a civilian just wanting to join #Sonic realising that his old friend is now part of this now has to show her the ropes and help her fit in #or else she’s basically fucked and Eggman will kill her #he missed her a lot so he’s happy to see her but he’s frustrated with her seemingly not recognising that he can take care of himself #meanwhile Amy is just trying to support her friend and protect him when she can but she’s going a bit overboard without realising it #✨miscommunication✨ #it was hammered into Sonic’s skull that everyone else saw Nicky as weak and pathetic too so he just assumes that after everything he’s done #all the crimes on the news all the heinous acts that she still thinks of him that way and that just pissed him off #art #drawing #doodles #sonic the hedgehog #sonic #sth #sonic fandom #sonic fanart #digital art #sonic the hedgehog fanart #sonic au #sth au #sth art #sth fanart #sonadow harlivy au #digital aritst #amy rose sth #amy sth #amy sonic the hedgehog #sth amy #amy rose fanart #amy rose

[asafeplaceforus112]

I currently just feel so overwhelmed by cleaning

Does anyone have any ADHD cleaning tips?

Rant below

I have no clue on how to fix this but I'm sick of having no space and being treated by my parents like I'm a slob

You know even though they never bothered to teach me how to clean, how they clean is based on their dopamine "time to do this task now" and how I've never lived in a clean house my whole

I just feel so frustrated

Currently my brain thinks that if I get storage (because I do not, and it resulted in me just having shit everywhere)

I just feel so frustrated and it's keeping me awake and I just want to sleep and not think about this

#adhd #adhd cleaning #neurodivergent #neurodivergent cleaning #cleaning #frustrated #room cleaning #adhd room #adhd room cleaning #cleaning tips #tips #please god #rant #vent #negative rant #negative vent #im just so fucking frustrated #why is cleaning so hard #why do others know how to clean right #like i just other people have rooms that their parents arent so ashamed of that they wont let you bring your friends intl your room #UUUUUUUUGGHHHHHH #I feel like screaming #i thlught this would help me go to sleep but it just made this deeling worse ):< #so annoyed #so frustrated #someone please give me a good tip

[derekhalesbian]

genuinely how i feel sometimes

#adhd #NOBODY TAKES IT SERIOUSLY EXCEPT PPL WHO ALSO STRUGGLE WITH IT ITS SO FRUSTRATING #kitty needs to chill #neurodivergence #neurodiversity #add #actually adhd #actually add #if i see one more person acting like adhd isn’t an actual debilitating neurological disability #i’m going to fucking scream and no one can stop me #i also would like to point out i said ‘ppl without adhd’ and not ‘neurotypicals’ for A Reason #bc i see some fellow neurodivergents acting like adhd is just…. not a thing #or not as ‘bad’ as other neurodivergencies #or maybe not as impactful would be a better term #and if you’re going to tag this as ‘me but with [other thing]’ please just make your own post

[leupagus]

Okay I've been drinking but I gotta say

I keep seeing takes in the Ted Lasso takes about the various favored pairings — be they Rebecca/Ted, Trent/Ted, Roy/Jamie, Roy/Keeley, Keeley/Roy/Jamie, WHATEVER, with this sentiment of "if this relationship does not turn into a romance, then what was the point of the show?"

And that really frustrates me as someone whose most valued and cherished relationships are not romantic, and who will not likely ever have another romantic relationship in her life. Because there's a point to friendships! There's a point to love in all its forms, in all its complexities. Romance is great, absolutely, but to say that there's no "point" to Rebecca and Ted's trust and respect and affection if it doesn't become a romance, or there's no "point" to Trent becoming a Diamond Dog if he and Ted don't start dating, or there's no "point" to Roy and Jamie and Keeley's complicated dance around each other this past season if it doesn't end up in bed — that just makes me really depressed about the limitations people are putting on how people can love each other.

You can absolutely cheer for your favorite ship and hope that it becomes canon — but to reduce all the rest of the show does a disservice to the show itself.

#ted lasso #to be honest there's been a lot of other things that have frustrated me in the ted lasso tag lately #but most of them aren't in my lane #so I'm just gonna say the constant comments about how you haven't 'forgiven' a fictional character for fictional things they did fictionall #is weird #as I said before: #real fucked up to treat real people like characters and characters like real people #REAL FUCKED UP #believe mothereffers