#(hope that could be forgiven

[ruvviks]

PLEASE DO NOT TAG AS YOUR OWN OC OR PAIRING.

Nathan and Ruben share a bond more powerful than most; mutual understanding through past experiences no one should ever have to go through, and through past actions so horrible they cannot be spoken of. Their grief and the blood on their hands binds them to the STEM technology they created, which has alienated them from the rest of the world— but they give each other the comfort they have both longed for so desperately for years, and that is all they need. They are each other's counterpart; you cannot imagine one without the other, like two sides of the same coin. Through their pain, their grief, their desire, and their regret, they have become one.

anna akhmatova, the guest // bones; equinox // 'i won't become' by kim jakobsson // agustín gómez-arcos, the carnivorous lamb // by oxy // achilles come down; gang of youths // czeslaw milosz, from 'new and collected poems: 1931-2001' // 'extended ambience portrait from a resonant biostructure' and 'migraine tenfold times ten' by daniel vega // a little death; the neighbourhood // marina tsvetaeva, from 'poem of the end' // by drummnist // katie maria, winter // 'nocturne in black and gold the falling rocket' by james abbott mcneill whistler // micah nemerever, these violent delights // body language; we are fury // 'the penitent' by emil melmoth // chelsea dingman, from 'of those who can't afford to be gentle'

taglist (opt in/out)

@shellibisshe, @florbelles, @ncytiri, @hibernationsuit, @stars-of-the-heart;

@lestatlioncunt, @katsigian, @radioactiveshitstorm, @estevnys, @adelaidedrubman;

@celticwoman, @rindemption, @carlosoliveiraa, @noirapocalypto, @dickytwister;

@killerspinal, @euryalex, @ri-a-rose, @velocitic, @thedeadthree

#tew #edit:nathan #nuclearocs #nuclearedits #so much shame in my body but still used my taglist but um let me know if you want to be excluded from oc/ship web weaves #just really wanted to share this one because i'm very proud of it and i want it on my blog. so. :] #recognition of the self through the other + wanting so desperately for the other to be deserving of a second chance #because if there is hope for them than there is hope for you etc etc and so on. that's the core of their dynamic i think #they understand each other on such a fundamental level that no one else comes close to because they are in so many ways the same #like how in in the first game leslie could sync up with ru/vik and all that? nathan would be a VERY good candidate for that as well #and it makes me insane!! and then the added layer of nathan being lead developer of mobius' new and improved STEM system #which makes him the same as ru/vik AGAIN but in like. the way that they're both men of [computer] science #and there's the fact they both have a dead sister. they both killed their parents. they were both mobius playthings for YEARS #and they've happily killed and tortured during all of it. they're angry they're out for revenge they're completely disconnected from #the normal human experience and they're working with what they have. and then after all of that is over then what is left? #their story focuses on them picking up all the pieces. everything that's still salvageable at least. and try to start over in a way #they cannot be forgiven for what they've done but they can move on from the past and do different in the future #there's still things left undone and left unsaid... in my canon at least. i know there's not gonna be any more games. it's fine #anyway they end up going to therapy and then they get better they're not a doomed couple they just like being dramatic #if you read all of this we can get married tomorrow if you'd like

[stealingpotatoes]

In your Luke Raises Rey au, does Leia ever forgive her father? (Also anakin saying he still loves Leia after she says she isn't calling him Dad is incredibly sweet.)

Also does Ben ever actually fully turn to the dark side? I think it would be super interesting to see a lightsaber fight Between him and Rey when he tries to take down Luke's training.

have so many questions haha.

haha u opened a can of worms here bc i LOVE talking abt leia and her super complicated family feelings and grief and whatnot <3 <3 <3

I think forgive's a very strong word to use around anivader loll -- ESPECIALLY with leia. i mean. he literally tried to torture her and was semi-responsible in the genocide of her planet (and genocide of her other ppl, if she started identifying w the jedi!) and countless other crimes like he's done some Heinous shit (and not even in the anakin's fun sexy warcrimes way just the straight up evil warcrimes) and they're not the kinda actions you forgive.

but forgiveness isn't the only path forward! I do think she makes peace w him -- or more what he is and what he is to her. like yes, he was her birth father but no that doesn't change anything about her, she's not evil, she can still be luke's sister without having the same relationship to their heritage. bail organa's still her actual father in every way that matters and she realises nothing about anivader's existence can change that

she can't go full jedi and let go of all the anger in her heart -- she's not luke, she can't make that ultimate peace or find any good in vader -- but I do think she does manage to let go of enough anger that she's not holding that unhealthy burning hate in her chest 24/7. it can't help her now; he's dead. so yeah, its not forgiveness, but it's something

and i think the skywalkers deserve nice things so no, Ben's not going evil or trying to obliterate the academy!! let the poor jedi live!!!!!! he's just a bit of an emo with very questionable taste in men. the knights of ren is just his space discord server or smthn

#sorry idk if this makes any sense but the gist is: no she cant forgive him but she can still move forward without the total anger #tbh idk if luke 'forgives' vader in the strictest sense of the word either #he's just got a very different situation to leia bc he had an aunt and uncle and this ghost of a father his whole life so there was a Gap #and between that and luke's general hope/abiltity to find the good his making peace looks a lot more like forgiving #thanks for the ask! #it's a nice idea that she could and they'd all be a family but while anakin/vader is one of my top faves of all time #i can't woobify him like that and say 'yeah hes fine! leia could forgive him!!' nah nah #he did too much to be forgiven loll even if she can understand that he was semi-manipulated to the dark #he still did all that evil and saving luke doesnt make up for that

[aelswiths]

SCREAMING CRYING SOBBING

she feels so betrayed that she's looking at him with the most devastating and heartbroken expression. there are literal tears in her eyes. she has just walked in on the most emotionally devastating situation because its just proof that no matter what alfred will always trust uhtred and never trust her in the same way and I am sobbing and dying and SCREAM

#I'm having a moment alright #I'm having a time #I just #god god god god #look I know everyone's always like hahaha aelswith acts like she just walked in on them fucking why is she so dramatic BUT LISTEN #its ABOUT THE TRUST #its about the fact that she has never felt that she has the same level of trust and insight that uhtred has #its about the fact that alfred is constantly agreeing with her and then walking back on that and never telling her #its about the fact that she feels second no matter what #its about the fact that she is willing to sacrifice everything her children her life her dreams her hopes for him and she never gets #any acknowledgement in return #uhtred can commit the gravest of crimes and be forgiven and trusted and allowed to hear all of alfreds rawest thoughts but she isnt #she acts like she walked in on them fucking because a large part of cheating is the break in trust and thats what shes seeing #not the physical aspect but the emotional #she can deal with the physical and has her entire life #its the emotional aspect that kills her because its somethings shes worked so hard to earn and its proven to her in this most she never can #i have so many thoughts #so many feelings #I could go on #I need to stop #SCREAMING #aelswith my beloved #tlk aelswith

[sapphicteaparty]

i don't know who at bandai's marketing department was responsible but they could maybe watch their own anime before they make embarrassing statements about it because there's nothing "up for interpretation" in there. they deserve all the backlash they're getting for this.

you'd literally have to be homophobic or completely media illiterate to think that sulemio's relationship is ambiguous or somehow up for interpretation. 🤡

#g witch #i dont think the marketing department gets what g witch was about #or why it was successful #it's like that one time when one of the LIS devs validated a homophobic LIS fan #who asked if max could be straight #and they were like “it's up for interpretation!” #and that was the last straw for me & i quit the LIS fandom #(for what it's worth i've forgiven dont nod bc they're at least trying to improve) #i want cishet ppl to understand that this is not something you can be neutral about #when your work is queer or queercoded and homophobes are asking for validation there's only one right answer #the secret is this: you can't make everyone happy!! #not taking a side is being homophobic in this situation i hope that helps #the bandai situation is funnier bc they can't do anything about the canon #the text is so unambiguously gay and they can't erase it 😎 enjoy your PR fuck up bandai i'm sure it won't be the last #mp

[alienaiver]

Kaminari and 3? I love the colour theme of your blog! It's so sunny and happy

i gotchu my dear! and thank you so much 🥹🧡 i like that you think of it like that, that was the intention!! 🧡✨

number 3 is: "just please open your eyes" which.. took a heavy turn here 🫡

warnings include canon typical violence and wounds (no wounds are described in any detailed or gore-y way but they are still there and mentioned briefly) but dw, a happy ending and 1.2k words!

(this was also formatted and posted from my phone as i have flunked down on my gengar plushie and cannot get up. if theres any mishaps let me know and ill fix them on my pc tomorrow! 🥰🧡)

Kaminari whips his head around, a triumphant smile on his face as he searches for your hero suit's color scheme in the mess of settling debris and civilians. This is the first respond and rescue you both have officially been a part of as Pro Heroes and the overwhelming victory has Kaminari's veins buzzing in a way that he haven't felt like before. He might even feel brave enough to confess to you right now.

Now, where are you?

In more depth he takes in his surroundings. There's paramedics by their vans, helping civilians with their wounds and cuts, over by the setting sun there's his mentors talking to civilians who passed by, there's Bakugou crouched down by an unconscious person and then there's the media by the edge of the scene, trying to catch the scoop of today's events. Only one building fell down and that was the villain's doing. The debris around you is so small and dusty because Bakugou's fast reflexes and quirk prevented the falling debris from being big enough to kill anyone. Kaminari sure is lucky he's got so capable friends -- colleagues, he reminds himself with a cheerful glee.

Wait, rewind.

Who's Bakugou crouched over? He's checking for a pulse. Kaminari scrunches up his eyes to get a better look and his heart stops beating as time freezes. He thinks that his breath hitches but the second that the dusty air returns to his lungs, everything goes into overdrive. His heart beats faster than he thought was possible, sweat travels down his brow, his back and his hands feel sticky. Every muscle is begging him to move, to run.

So he does. He runs and screams and yells your name as loud as he's able, hurrying to be by your side. He stumbles and falls down on his knee and in the back of his mind he does register the scraping, the blood trickling but none of that is what he feels.

There's blood on your face. Kaminari can't see more for the paramedic hooking you to a machine. He pushes and pulls uselessly at Bakugou's arm and somehow, the brute lets him -- doesn't even reprimand him for accidentally scratching.

Did the debris hit you? Did the Tech Villain get a hold of you before Kaminari zapped and paralysed him? Someone grabs a hold of his arm but he can't tear his eyes away from you to look at who it is and what they want.

In a muted, underwater sort of way, he hears Yaoyorozu's voice as she starts fiddling with him, putting a mask over his face without kaminari flinching or moving to stop her. It seems logical in a situation that isn't, so he lets her.

At the hospital, the doctors have a hard time being allowed to check the cut on Kaminari's abdomen that's still bleeding and while Kaminari has always prided himself in being way more collected in serious crisis than his peers (which is a debatable feat according to you and Sero, but he digresses), he shamefully has to admit that a coffee table has been punched hard enough to break in blind rage. He refused to leave your side, so the doctors have settled on fixing him up as he looks at you from another bed they put in for him. Cruelly, his mind supplies the thought that he'll probably receive disciplinary action at the agency for acting out like this on his first job and creating trouble for the doctors and paramedics. He scoffs at the thought, eyes trained on you.

Someone is patching up a minor cut on his shoulder as he sighs out, "just please... open your eyes."

He's drained now. His battery's running on empty and the buzzing that's been going in his ears settle to a low hum so when he's asked to lie down on his stomach so that they can clean a wound on the back of his thigh, he simply does as he's told without a fight.

He falls asleep. Somehow, miraculously, he manages to fall asleep while fear and anger has him tossing and turning in his mind, drowning and burning, crying and yelling. His dreams are nothing comfortable, but they're not tangible either. He can't describe any of what he sees and hears in the dream to anyone, they're not coherent.

So when he wakes up with a startle, his eyes widening as tears roll down, he's surprised to feel a weight on his mattress that isn't his own. Slowly, almost fearfully, he turns his head to his left, where you're propped up, a fidget toy in your grasp.

He whispers your name, almost in disbelief and you look at him with a bright smile. Your head's still wrapped in bandages and he can see that you're connected to an IV you've dragged with you to his bed, but you seem... fine?

"Yo!"

The way you so casually greet him with a grin deflates him slightly as he lets his head fall back on the pillow. "You're okay?" he asks muffled half through the fabric and you put down whatever gadget you were fidgeting with and runs a hand through his hair, "are you? I heard from Momo that you've caused quite a stir."

"You were unconscious!"

"I got a concussion and passed out."

He looks up at you with furrowed brows, "they hooked you up to some kind of machine."

You can't help the snort that escapes you. You can tell he's anxious and from what Yaoyorozu has told you, he hadn't listened to anyone since he spotted you passed out.

"Yeah, because they couldn't assess the damage properly on site and needed to take precautionary measurements until I was brought here, you know protocol. All this has done is give me a giant headache and a free pass from writing reports for a few days. I'm okay, Denks."

He sighs as he snuggles close to you. You wrap an arm around him like you usually do when he gets cuddly and needy. Your heart is beating faster than you'd like to admit and hope he doesn't notice. He'd been so beautiful today on scene, fighting with confidence and brilliance. You wanted to confess when the battle was over.

No time like the present, right?

"Hey Denks?" you carefully ask, and he hums a reply but seems to exhausted to look up at you. You kiss the top of his head and feel him tense, "I'm in love with you. I'm sorry i worried you."

There's quiet for a moment, like time stands still. Then, he jumps to sit up, groan from the pain of his stitches -- though no less excited -- and yells out a, "really?!" with stars and hearts in his eyes. You can't help but laugh.

Kaminari's never been subtle, but you needed some time before you were ready. Then, he coughs into his hand and turns all serious and nods solemnly, "mhm. I mean, I appreciate the apology. Don't pull that shit on me ever again."

He tries to shake hands with you, face still pulled tight like he's doing business and you just laugh, grab his hand and pull him down so he's face to face with you, "I'll do my utmost, handsome." and then you kiss him. You both grin into the kiss before deepening it.

#i really hope u like this even if its not as sunny as my theme and my usual stuff bcos 🥺 how could i not torture the precious man just A Lit #tle Bit... 👌🏼 #ALSO he is totally THE GUY to see you heard and immediately lose all the braincells. NO COHERENCY. UNTIL UR AWAKE UR PRESUMED DEAD #to see u hurt** i sm. so sneepy KSKSKSKSK #bnha x reader #kaminari denki x reader #writing game #nohr.writing #nohr.bnha #I AM PASSING OUT IN A MINUTE OR SO so rest will be monday/tuesday 🧡🧡🧡🧡 #also: me turning on the pc to make sure of the word count real quick #my cat: goes absolutely BALLISTIC abt the fact that i gave the pc attention after being away the entire day (he was in the other room when i #did this) and came in to scold me #he has only mildly forgiven me bcos he got to be tje little spoon rn instead of gengar

[spaceshipkat]

i kinda hope we’ll get a moment in season 2 when Stede asks Ed if he wants to do something weird (whether or not Ed agrees probably depends on the episode in which Stede asks this)

#or hell maybe it’ll be an ongoing thing as the series progresses #Stede asking Ed if he wants to do something weird #and we’ll see Ed angrily say no to the first time only for it to get less and less angry as the series progresses #and then gradually it’ll stop being angry and more wary #and then from wary to sad #and then sad to hopeful like he’s not quite sure if he should still say no bc what if this time is the last time Stede asks it #but Stede keeps asking until finally Ed says yes and is fully enthusiastic about it #and Ed finds himself a little worried afterward that Stede will stop asking him altogether #and some time passes and Stede doesn’t ask even though they’re really good together rn—nothing to complain about #Stede has been forgiven and they’re sharing a bed and kissing and fucking #but Ed still wishes he could hear Stede ask him if he wants to do something weird again #and then finally Stede does and Ed starts to cry and Stede’s all confused but he just wraps Ed up and kisses him #and then when Ed calms down Stede asks him if he still wants to do something weird #and ofc Ed says yes #and then they go blow up parliament or something idk #our flag means death #blackbonnet #ofmd #ofmd s2 #ofmd season 2

[zoobus]

Idk how to put it into words...korean novels/comics have this je ne sais quois when it comes to interpersonal relationships that nourish me. That I was deprived of. Girl insanity, girls with real friendships, girls with undiagnosed personality disorders, girls and their grooming mothers, girls who are evil and it only makes sense they would be. Girls who realize their mistakes far too late. Girls who recognize they can't be forgiven no matter how sorry they are and have to keep living with that.

#i never tire of it #this comic where you see the bully's actions from her pov and you get it #you get why she saw herself as the victim who was only trying to help. when the victim admits 'maybe we both sucked. fine.' 👌👍👌👍👌👍🥵 #and that look of hope! that she might be forgiven that they could start over that all she needed was understanding! #'but you've been harassing me in high school over some shit that happened when we were NINE? are you fucking kidding me? kys' #it's like SO TRUE you could NEVER make up for this insanity #love love love when two people finally understand each other and it's Not Enough. No I get it I just don't care. fuck off. #webtoons #korean comics #the way I feel about genuine platonic female friends/relationships is how i think normal people feel about romance. pog facing nonstop #niche effortposts

[seimei-chsq]

imagine having not one, but two underscored world records… just yuzuru hanyu things 😌💅

#worlds 2017 ​hope&legacy and 4cc 2020 chopin say hi #my sanity has snapped like a stale breadstick #yuzuru hanyu #isu congress #figure skating #isu will NOT be forgiven for what they’ve done to his confidence #when he got his score back for 4cc 2020 chopin and you could TELL he wasn’t satisfied with his score despite setting a new WR #@ the isu: i am at your front door. i am under your bed. #rambles

[scorchieart]

Nooooooo!!!!!!!! Please this can't be the end of the Clavis and Evie saga! We need to see the teenage years at least! (For Clavis's birthday.... if you have the time, of course 🥺💕)

Hello Anon 👋

Thank you for your ask, your enthusiasm tickles me Evie pink! 💗🩷

That series started as an off-tumblr request, and truthfully it only turned into a series because of some riveting back and forth theorizing goofing 😂 I'm still really swamped with irl duties (I've got jury duty next week, woooo....), plus I have other requests and series on hold, and all that doesn't include the reading list of fics I'd like to get through sometime before the next decade... it sounds like I'm listing excuses, but it's the reality 🤷‍♀️

I may pick this series up again if inspiration for future parts hits, but I can't guarantee that it'll happen this month. I hope you'll understand 💕

#could be sooner tho idk #future parts will be angstier btw I hope that's forgiven #they will be teenagers after all #who am I kidding it wouldn't be a family fic from scorchie if there wasn't at least a little derpy comedy

[yerimoonlight]

Siri...Play Traitor on repeat because The Legacy of Yangchen is coming out in July and I still have not forgiven Kavik.

#personal #the legacy of yangchen #BOOK TWO YEEEE!!! #I mean we all saw it coming but we were all hoping not #and even though he had good intentions in the end (from what I remember) still screwed them over #I literally had traitor on repeat for days #it's like when I read the shadow of kyoshi and could not stop repeating cool by nmixx #I have the tendency to listen to playlists or artists or albums or even lone songs on repeat #so when I read a book or after I read a book/series there's usually a song or two that I associate it with #and traitor by Olivia r was it!! #do I see them in a romantic relationship tho??? #time will tell... #I think I want them two bc I'm always a sucker for the two MCs and character development #but also when women have to teach men to be honest/loyal it gives me the ick #but he's also kind of forgiven by me at least bc Yangchen forgave him but said HA never forget so BYEEEE #and I love that for her. so much! #so I suspect he will be working overtime in this book to win over her good favor #if that's how you phrase that #anyways v excited July will be great #this...hogwarts legacy...may quit my job....so exciting!

[ladyimaginarium]

please do not repost.

#arcana.uploads #our& art. #fictives. #kuromi. #tw; vent art #idk. im& Feeling Things #& yes that was actually the ring i& wanted. #j. #anyway i&. still have a lot of feelings about this even tho i& forgave them & they've long been broken up but still. #n e wayz this is our& first v.ent a.rt !!!! #tbh i& still have unconditional l.ove for them. i& may have forgiven but i've& never forgotten how painful that shit was. #& like i& could tell that they felt guilty as shit afterward but that didnt matter. #the damage was already done. #wherever they are i& just hope they're doing alright & are safe. #** post; okay to reblog. #anyway this was inspired by a d.ream i& had where #we just newly married. i was eatin yogurt on da kitchen counter they were sayin smth 2 make me laugh & leaned in 2 kiss me then i awakened. #mine. #traumacore #tw; vent

[legacysam]

did a stressful thing (called my student loan people) for zero reward (they don't know anything yet) now full of stress hormones and no less uncertainty than before

#if my loans qualify i could get 80% forgiven if not it's 0% and the hope is too much tbh #they should have released all the details to loan companies etc when they announced it i hate this

[everlastingblossom]

that reminds me. why was tj written like that and why did the fandom just feed into it

#desperately need someone to explain to adminbrite and a good amount of the fandom that autism doesn't make you mentally three years old #look i'd understand if they used like. amnestics instead like the foundation typically does #at the very VERY least say that he's not actually like that and just pretends to be innocent and clueless for whatever reason #which seems to have been what adminbrite was going at but suddenly switched halfway #then switched back or whatever #i guess the fact that the literal r slur was used could have been forgiven due to the fact that the article was written in goddamn 2008 but #why is it still that way. #adminbrite had several years to change the phrasing of that sentence yet they just. didn't. like why #i've lost hope of a rewrite at this point but i just want to know why the fandom still characterises him Like That #i really dont care about the 'foundation is cold not cruel' part because if you look you can see that the foundation can most definitely be #pretty cruel and doesn't hesitate to put subjects through pain especially with humanoid scps like tj #and i dont expect him to be a sudden exception for whatever reason #i think a good example of the foundation's cruelty could be 054 wtf were they thinking #but regardless the horrific amounts of ableism in adminbrite's writing especially when it comes to tj is something the fandom should not #have let happen #also why is he permanently 16. can we let him age to like. 20 or at the VERY least 18-19 #not even going to talk about that thing with sarah because it really just made no fucking sense #the way he's characterised in the fandom especially very hhhhhhhhhh because this guy actually has the ability to stop mikell's arguing #just by looking at him but unfortunately despite the fact that we should've let him be a character with his own ideas #just by looking at him but unfortunately despite the fact that we should've let him be a character with his own ideas agency etc #for some reason the fandom just. went along with whatever is going on in canon which saddens me because he deserved better than whatever #ableist bs adminbrite wrote #remember when meri's writing was also really '??????? wtf' but we ignored it and made her cooler until she got a rewrite? #yeah. we should really do that again with tj. except he is most probably not getting a rewrite but still #like i said he has the potential to be a cool character with his own agency its just that most people in the fandom dont put it to use #but anyway #tldr: there is a lot wrong with tj's writing and we should never have went along with it #i know theres a good few people who fortunately don't portray him in whatever way adminbrite tried to but still i come across Horrifically #Ableist depictions quite often #and by that i mean like. pretty frequently

[poltertoast]

Let more people in media be flawed

Like no more pure standards give me cringe fail, give me rude, give me self consumed

#not necessarily taleblr #but kinda #its a goofy thing but i like how these characters aren't goody two shoes #theyre silly but still ljke they hurt people and it can be forgiven #jusr gives memore hope than those perfect characters #i miss them honestly #like not just as characters #venting a lot #but i miss my family there #i miss knowing i was bad but having people #or not necessarily bad #i could just be me #i miss my brother and my niblings honestly #i miss a lot

[parf-fan]

Got to PARF today for the first time this year. Loving the yeomen; but this is blatant Donatello erasure, and I will not stand for it.

#y'all went and linked parf to my current main special interest and that could have been so cool (and i mean it is to an extent) #but then you left out the character who i literally got into tmnt for #who has - if i understand aright - historically been neglected in most iterations #until rottmnt (which is the only version i actually care about tbh) #and i was honest-to-god genuinely angry about it for the rest of the day #like it was actually impeding my enjoyment of the plot #this is going to be the primary thing i'm mad about all season (though not the only thing) #i friggin' hope that the halloween plot somehow brings in a character analogues to donnie #all will be forgiven (unless it's somehow bungled or demonized or something) #anyway there are at least five things that i'm genuinely so delighted about and grateful for #those are for later posts though #yeomen 2023 #parf 2023 #parf #pa ren faire #pa renaissance faire #renaissance faire #ren faire #faire

[lunarr-stuff]

...

#there are people in my life who have hurt me alot #in the past #somehow i never could quite break contact with them #so meeting them sometimes and realizing #that they really changing for the better #gives me hope #they arent mean anymore #they are processing thier emotions properly #they dont lash out anymore #im so happy for them #i had always wished the best for them #:'')) #im just relieved they are doing better.. #they are quite literally the cause of my anxiety and stuttering #but yanno #shit gets forgiven when u ask for forgiveness #i feel better about it :)))