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vimceite · 5 months
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Y'know, i'd say that i'm currently "re-reading Demian" but frankly i just wanted to read Eva's chapter again
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v-tired-queer · 11 months
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After years of thinking about it and having yet another seizure on public transportation this morning, I've made up my mind and am gonna get a service dog! My doctors have all already agreed that this would be a good course of action for me. I'm nervous and excited as I'm owner-training, but I have local dog trainers I'm going to reach out to who have experience with training service dogs.
I don't currently plan on using a breeder, since my local animal shelter has a couple of dogs who I think would be good fits! Their different personalities, temperament, willingness to learn, ect are all posted on the website, so I've been able to look and see what dogs I want to meet before going in. Plus, my shelter also has information on service dog training and resources for people in our area.
I have an appointment with SSI coming up on July 20th to apply for benefits, and I'm praying that they approve my application on the first go so I don't have to lawyer up. My seizures are just getting in the way too much for me to maintain a job. I've known that for years, hence why I keep switching jobs in hopes of finding something that will work for me. I just felt like if I applied for SSI then I would be "throwing in the towel". It almost felt like I was giving up on myself. But the more I go on, the more I realize that sometimes the best thing to do is take a step back. I'm not mooching off of anyone. I'm still going to go to college. I'm still taking steps to better my life while living with a disability. Working right now just isn't feasible for me (why yes, I am still convincing myself of all of this, how did you know? It's a back and forth game over guilt, honestly).
Since adoption fees are affordable, I should, in theory, be able to adopt with in the first couple of SSI payments after I get approved.
Here's hoping that it all goes well!! 🙏🦮🍀✨️
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neekosarchive · 28 days
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i hate school
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I am once again asking if I can pay someone to tell me everything that is wrong with my writing 🫡
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lupismaris · 1 year
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Recorded tonight's monologue with the line "loneliness and longing both taste like sea water, the problem is it starts in the lungs and by the time you can taste it it's too late you've already drowned." Safe to say lads we are not in fact stellar.
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kitwing-moving · 1 year
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i was going to send my hop on elsword gif but the only two versions i have are of people kissing. hop on elsword while i make a platonic gif
I WILL once i am home. grabs you and shakes you until you explode
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skyeateyourdonuts · 7 months
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pooooo
#i do whatver i want#anyways#today sucks and it just begun#its my bday#and i feel unwanted#ive vented to two people and it made me feel more better each time#and im thankful that i got to do that#and i Know they care about me and love me#but i spent the whole weekend and especially today feeling ao unwanted#so its a little hard to get over#its just a lingering biting feeling#i feel unwanted and undesired#i Know intrinsically there are people who want me around#like ava and allan and brooke and my cousin#but. idk the feeling is still so unmoving so firm#its a giant wall and i cannot go under and i xannot go over and i cannot go through#the worst part is it has eyes that are angry and a mouth that is mean#and despite saying i am unwanted it also ridicules me for being insecure at all#'why wpuld u say that? what the fuck?' 'u know no pne wants u around right'#'whu would u say i dont want to be around u?' 'can u just get over it already?'#and tho i dont say anything theres One (1) guy in my brain fighting for me#its v small and it isnt loud but it echoes somewhat#'do u think anxiety takes off day wall? do u think it gives up around a special time'#'why would i Want to think that? why would i subject myself to that viewpoint if i had the choice?'#but!! honestly that voice is wrong sometimes and is so angry its blinded by hurt#and i have so little strength and confidence at times like these#why do i habe to face this fucking wall??? why is it ao personal???#do we really need to do this??? i just want to be happy and feel loved and wanted#if u cared about me walk ud move out of my way#:((((!!!!!!
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fridgevespidae · 1 year
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AHH judt eokr up from scary scary drwm i font liek that
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birdsarecoolio · 2 years
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woooooo.
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memospacexx · 4 months
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we need a part 2 of the absent father alastor, the first part was amazing 😭
Age wasnt mentioned last part, this pne they are hinted to be 13-16 :3
Im writting this in the passenger seat cos i REALLY LOVE THIS MY GOD
Perhaps this was his punishment all along
To have his own child turn their back on him
But he knows its his fault. As much as he wouldnt admit it to a soul he knows. Hes self aware but it doesnt make things better
After he reappeared when the hotel was fixed, it seems like the child stuck with husk even more, sometimes even downright avoiding him
Him?
But hes their father
HE raised them
Right?
He tried, tried to hard to recall memories to back up his point but he couldn’t. All he could remember was him dropping you on husk
Like some cheep booze.
I suppose this was the weight of his actions
He could do nothing now, but that didnt stop him. Hes a hard headed man afterall
It started with him asking you to accompany him at his radio station, something you loved and begged him to before
Always asked to go with him, oh how you loved his voice
But he never did allow you to
On good days he would, but even then those were rare
So hes the one bringing you now!you wouldnt turn down some time with your deer old dad right? Specially how you used to even beg for his attention.
No? What do you mean no? Dont you love going ? Dont you love radio? Dont you love. Him?
“Uhm no thanks father i wanna watch husk do magic” you could never truly look into his eyes
Even when you called him father it felt so..
Forced.
But he grinned and bared it “I understand little doe! But you know where to find me” he chuckled and walked away
He could do magic too. He could do magic better. So why husk? Hes stronger, more capable of protecting you, he could protect you better than husk ever could, there was no need for you to cower under that horrid sinners wings because your father, your blood, could protect you
But he never did. Not when you got in trouble for running into some loan sharks, he let you fend for yourself
Pain was the best teacher
He would say
So he threw you to the wolves. How ironic.
That ended as horrible as you’d think, the only reason you got out there alive is because vox, yes, him, out of everyone killed the demons when he noticed it was you, he was just passing by, going to another meeting from one he just left
He recognized you, he knew of alastors offspring but never cared for them, his business is with their father. However, even then this was cruel, and he knew that deer was watching everything
He could feel the eyes on him. On them.
Vox watched as you scampered away, like a deer, like a doe.
Even then , he thought alastor would atleast have compassion for the child
His child
But he was wrong, he gave that bastard too much credit.
Even rosie, a demon that doesnt share the same blood as you, treats you kinder than your own
After that incident, you refused to go out as much, opting to stay with …husk.
Husk, dear old husk, he never minded
He hated it at first tho.
Having to babysit, he didnt like you either
But he knows, he KNEW it wasnt your fault either, he knows you wanted to spend time with that absent father of yours
So he tried his best filling that void in your heart, he felt pity for the little child, so he told old stories of his life before he was damned,he says they’re boring but the shine in your eyes and smile on your face whenever he speaks never fails to amaze him
he even taught you how to play poker
Charlie reprimanded him for that, saying he cant teach a child how to gamble
But he didnt care
You were smiling
Laughing
It wasnt much but it was enough
Enough from him
Enough for you.
It made his blood boil, it wasnt fair. Alastor would think
Why cant you look up at him with admiration?like how you always looked when you were younger
Yeah
Maybe this was his punishment.
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scar-crossedlvrs · 11 months
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Imagine.. (smut)
Chris or anyone basically forcing leon to go get loose at a Club and then he end up getting a hot dance with reader... Leon decides to ask her number and they meet up pne or two times. From there on, maybe their friendship starts forming.
Please dont feel obliged to do it ofc!
Leon S Kennedy - Won't You Follow My Body Rhythm ?
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I immediately thought of re2 / rookie!leon when i read this, so i hope you don’t mind being my first try at rookie!leon. please try to enjoy my 2nd public attempt at smut and my longest piece of writing as of late.
i 100% didn't listen to this song like half the time i was writing this so honorary title.
cw for: smut, f / afab!reader, alcohol consumption, oral ( f receiving ), public-ish?, leon's real awkward, s.t.a.r.s chris redfield
18+ minors do not interact. gentle reminder that all of my works sfw or not are intended for 18+ audiences.
The inbox is open for requests.
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“Dude, just try and relax.”
Chris’s voice was muted by the sounds of the crowded club, despite his proximity.
“When you said we were going out for drinks, this isn’t what I expected.” Leon shouts over the music, raising his drink to his lips. “I thought we were going to the usual spot.”
There’s a laugh from the other man. “It won’t kill you to try something new every once in a while, rookie.” Chris claps a hand to the blonde’s shoulder. “Besides, this isn’t so bad. Pretty sure the girl at the bar’s been eyeing you since we walked in.”
“I doubt it.” Leon rolls his eyes, downing the rest of his drink. Despite his words, his eyes move to scan the direction Chris had indicated, unable to see much in the dim lighting. “I don’t see anyone even glancing in my direction.”
“Fine, don’t trust me.” Chris rolls his eyes in turn and shrugs. “I’m not sulking in the corner all night with you though. Jill should be here any minute, just try and do something fun while I’m gone.”
Before Leon could protest, the other man disappeared into the crowd with a casual wave.
He was going to need another drink.
At least one.
Elbows propped against the bar, you bring your drink to your lips as someone pulls out the stool next to you.
“I hope you don’t mind if I sit here?” His voice pulls you from your thoughts, and you glance over to him. “ It’s the only spot open.”
He had caught your attention earlier, your eyes glued to him since he had walked into the club. Up close, you had a better look at his handsome features, pretty blue eyes framed by a fringe of dirty blonde hair and a jawline you couldn’t help but want to run your fingers along. He’s shifting his weight from one foot to the other, eyes darting to look anywhere but directly at you.
Cute.
“Go ahead.” red painted lips curl upwards as you gesture to the seat. “I won’t bite you.”
A relieved smile blooms across his face and his shuffling stops as he slides into the seat, doing his best to catch the attention of the busy bartender so that he could order.
“First time here, no?” you break the quiet between you after his drink is placed in front of him, curious.
His brows raise as he sips at the overpriced old fashioned. “Is it that obvious?”
“Has been since you walked in the door.”
There’s a sudden look of realization at your words, and his face is suddenly tinged pink. You let out a stifled laugh at the reaction, only causing the blush to spread a little bit further down his neck.
“Don’t worry, you just need to relax a bit.” you reassure him with a smile.
“You’re not the first person to tell me that tonight.” he chuckles slightly, letting some of the tension in his shoulders drop. “Chris wouldn’t stop saying the same thing.”
“And he’s right. You should.” your eyes glimmer in the dim lights as you lean a little closer to him. “Lucky for you, I’ve got a few ideas to help you out.”
He’s flustered again, thanks to the mixture of your proximity and the suggestion in your tone. Sputtering into his drink, his eyes widening in shock. “I…” his voice trails off as he glances away from you once more.
“Oh, calm down.” you straighten back up with a laugh, easing some of the closeness between the two of you. “Just teasing a little.”
The words do little to lessen the blush on his face as he stares into his drink. “Right. I knew that.”
“Sure, I’ll believe you this time.”
He falls quiet for a moment, sipping on his drink as the flush ebbs from his face slowly. “The name’s Leon by the way. Leon Kennedy.”
His eyes finally find yours again as he speaks and you nod, offering both your name and your hand to him in turn. Leon hesitated for a moment, before taking your hand in his firm grasp. Your lips curl upwards, hand lingering in his as your eyes glitter mischievously.
“Well, Leon.” Your words are slow and deliberate. “I think I’ve got the perfect way for you to let loose a little bit. C’mon.”
You quickly down the rest of your drink with your free hand as your fingers tighten around his. Slipping off of your barstool, you tug at his hand. Confused, he reluctantly finished his own drink before following you as you led him towards the dance floor.
“Oh, no. No, no, nope.” Leon blurted out the moment he realized. “Not happening.”
“Yes it is, I promise it’ll be fun.” you stop somewhere in the mass of already dancing bodies, pulling him closer and guiding his hands to your waist.
“I can’t dance, I’ll just embarrass myself and you.”
“Nobody’s paying attention. It’s easy. Besides, I’ll do all the work. Just follow my rhythm okay?”
Despite his protests, Leon’s hands remained on your waist albeit rather stiff. Taking this as a good sign, you drape your arms over his shoulders and inch a little closer. “Just move with me and try to have a little fun. It’ll come to you.”
Hips move, and you ignore the fast pace of the pulsating music to instead ease him into the movements. It didn’t take very long for his tense shoulders to relax under your touch, the hands on your waist slipping lower to grip at your hips. Satisfied with this reaction, you pick up the tempo, matching that of whatever was blaring over the speakers. He has to take a moment to adjust but quickly corrects, tugging you closer to him.
Before long you’re pressed close to his body, his chest against your back as your hips grind into his. Fingers dig into your hips to keep you in place and you bring a hand to his neck, pulling his face a little closer as a smile blossoms across your lips.
“I told you it was easy.”
“Oh fuck.”
The words spill from your parted lips, back pressed against the car door uncomfortably as his tongue drew messy circles around your clit as fingers pressed into your thighs.
This was becoming a familiar sight, the two of you sprawled in the ever so slightly too small backseat of Leon’s beat up Jeep after one too many drinks. You had slipped him your number that night, before he could be swept away by his original companion. Since then, he had been calling at least weekly to meet up.
You never declined.
And it usually ended with your dress hiked up to your waist and his face buried between your thighs.
Who knew the awkward guy you met at the club, the one that swore he couldn’t dance, was a natural when it came to eating pussy?
“You look so pretty like this.” eager, icy eyes stare up at you as Leon pulls away from your dripping cunt for only a moment before diving back in with a soft groan. “ ‘n you taste so sweet.”
Manicured fingers weave their way into his hair as lewd mewls escape you. The tug on his scalp only acts to encourage him, lips closing around the bundle of nerves as he inches you closer to the edge.
“Fuck, Lee ‘so good.” breathless, you manage to whine “ ‘m gonna cum.”
He hums against your clit, his grip leaving one of your thighs in order to slip two of his fingers into your slick, clenching cunt only adding to the already overwhelming sensation of his tongue.
“You can do it, pretty. Jus’ let go.” he urges, fingers moving, curling to find just the right spot causing you to buck your hips upwards.
Fingers tighten against his scalp as you feel the tightly wound knot within you snap, vision blurred as your orgasm washes over you in waves. Teeth sink hard into your lower lip, barely able to hold back the stream of whiny swears that spilled from your lips as you came undone around his fingers.
Leon stayed buried in your pussy as you rode out your high, eagerly lapping at the mess you made until you released your grip on his hair. There’s a dorky smile plastered on his lips as he finally raises up, wiping the mess of slick and saliva from his face with an arm as he leans in to press his lips to yours.
“You know, one of these days I’m gonna have to take you out on a real date, right?”
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anki-of-beleriand · 7 months
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Bad Liar ch.7
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Summary: Life is about lessons, and Wanda has been learning some harsh facts that had define her life and taken her to a place in which she was given a second chance. Then, all of a sudden, she meets you, and she realizes why it's easier to lie to yourself than to accpet what's right in front of her.
Pairing: Wanda Maximoff/ Female!reader - America/Kate - Mentions of past Vision/Wanda - past Natasha/Reader - Some Female!Reader/Carol Danvers
Warnings: Slow burn - slightly Enemies to friends to lovers - Mentions of abusive relationships - Toxic relationships - angst - drama - mentions of abuse - idiots in love - homophobia - more tags as the story progress.
Author's note: Here is a new chapter and right now there is no place to run, many secrets are out and it is time for everyone to start playing a part in the game.
As always, English is no my mother tongue, so please forgive the grammar, spelling and funny mistakes!
Chapter 1 - Chapter 2 - Chapter 3 - Chapter 4 - Chapter 5 - Chapter 6 - Chapter 7 - Chapter 8 - Chapter 9 - Chapter 10 - Chapter 11 - Chapter 12 - Chapter 13 - Chapter 14 - Chapter 15 - Chapter 16 - Chapter 17 - Chapter 18
Chapter 7
Whispered secrets
The Innovation Classroom had been a donation by the Bishop Family a couple of years ago. The main goal was to provide the school with the latest technological gadgets and programs so their students could always be up to date offering their students the right tools to keep up with their education. Everyone had access to the computers and the red of the school, but in reality only a few select students excel in the art of encrypted information.
America hated pne of those peoople, mainly because ever since she arrived at school her main goal had been to hit on a very clueless, and very exasperating Kate Bishop. But, after the long conversation she held with the team, America knew this would be their only chance to get some answers.
Everyone had their attention on Riri Williams.
The young woman chewed on the gun in her mouth, her brows knitted together while her brown eyes pierce every member of the advance class with a glint of curiosity in her eyes. Riri stopped for a moment on America, before her eyes set on Kate who was bouncing restlessly right behind her best friend.
Kate tensed lightly, her heart beating fast just as Riri smirked winking at her. Kate felt her cheeks warm, and America cleared her throat while positioning herself in the line of vision of Riri. The black-skinned woman chuckled tilting her head while resting her elbows on the table arching her back pinning America with her eyes.
"So, you guys want me to hack into personal files, get information from a private company and… What do I have in exchange?" 
Riri could tell her question caught everyone in the group off guard, they were not expecting such an answer and this was the perfect opportunity for her to make the right move.
"Money wouldn't be an issue." America intervened stepping forward.
"Money can't buy everything in life, Chavez." Riri rolled her eyes leaning forward while scratching the back of her neck.
America opened her mouth but Riri tilted her head, soon her eyes found those of Kate who looked around before settling her eyes on her. 
"How about a date?" 
The silence that followed could be broken by a needle falling to the floor. America was left frozen in place, her shoulders put back and her brows knitting together while she clenched her fists closed. Kate from her part was slightly confused, her heart beating fast just as she turned to America then back to Riri. 
Kamala had her eyes on Kate, whereas Yelena and Loki were looking intently at America. The tension in the room could be cut with a knife, and America had to hold herself for doing or saying something that she could regret. Riri for her part chuckled, playing the part she was asked to play.
“Come on, it shouldn’t be that hard! You guys came to me, after all.” Kate turned to America, and America hesitated for a moment. It was Loki the one who decided to break the silence.
“I believe we are very curious in knowing who you have in mind, Riri. We cannot force anyone to date you, as you so eloquently put it, money can’t buy everything and this would need to be a decision made by said person.”
“Always big with the words, and the fanfare, Odinson.” Riri rolled her eyes before she nodded towards Kate. “I was thinking, Bishop over there. What do you say? The Winter break is almost here, and I heard the Ball this year would be fantastic…so…Bishop comes with me, and I will give you what you want.”
That comment did it.
America straightened up, jerking her head to the side so her eyes locked onto those of Kate. The other teen was just as shocked as America, though America could swear she saw curiosity in them too. The young woman clenched her fist closed, while Kate started babbling away while trying to explain, and ask, and said a hundredth things at the same time.
"Well, what is it gonna be? Unless this information isn't as important as you made it look."
In all honestly, everyone was wondering the same.
While it was truth that during her babysitting duty, America had become overly found of the twins, their snooping around in the life of their newest teacher had become somehow America’s recent obsession. The young woman had not dared to revel that much, but Kate knew America had been worrying about her sister and the recent attraction she had developed for Wanda. When the black-haired woman turned to America she could see the conflict in her stance, and the way her eyes went from Riri to her.
Kamala stepped forward, chewing on her lower lip while crossing stares with Yelena. America for her part stood on her spot, her mind going over the different options they had. Why was it so important to find out about this woman? Why was she so curious about Wanda Maximoff? It seemed that everyone was wondering the same, and all eyes were now in America. 
Kate chewed on her lower lip, the decision should be easier than what it looked at the moment. Kate understood America’s worries, but they had other ways to find out about Wanda. They could use other means, and Kate had a hope that perhaps…that maybe America and her could go…
For a brief moment, America turned to Kate who was glancing at Riri, and Riri was looking back at her. A waved of jealousy grew inside America and she just clenched her jaw closed. This was such a mess, and it should be an easy decision on her part, still…
“America?" Kate asked, and all of a sudden her expression changed. Her face hardened and America could recognize the spark of annoyance in her eyes. "The decision should be easy, you know?" 
And of course, America knew it should be easier. But as of late she had seen the change in you, she had read the messages you and Wanda had exchanged and America couldn't help but think of the twins with their scars and the fear in their eyes. 
Loki locked eyes with Yelena, and both of them were as expectant as everyone in the room. Then Kate shook her head, she huffed, pushing America out of the way and walking straight towards Riri. 
"You have a deal, Riri." Then she softened her features, her tone of voice changing into one of pure sweetness flirtation. "And now that I think about it, I would be more than happy to go with you to the Ball…I promise you, it will be unforgettable." 
Kate leaned in, placing a single kiss on the woman's cheek before turning around, she walked past America towards Kamala, grabbing the hand of the other girl she left the room without saying another word. 
America felt a knot on her throat, the display of cowardice she just showed to Kate and her friends heavy on her shoulders. 
"Well, then who are we looking for?" Riri smirked, stretching her arms and getting ready to work. 
Loki hesitated for a moment before stepping forward to provide the names and what they were looking for. Yelena made her way towards America who seemed to be unable to move. 
"You are an idiot." Yelena hissed, shaking her head. "All you have to do is admit to her that you are in love with her and then she would have still done it but without the theatrics."
"I could not… She is… Kate is free to do what she wants." America replied quite stubbornly. 
"She is doing this for you, America." Yelena shot her a disappointed stare. "You better fix this or you will really lose her forever."
"Okay, found it!" Riri exclaimed and America dropped her eyes before going to the older woman. 
Yelena was tempted to hit America, but she decided against it. Loki shrugged and the both of them knew this would be the last chance Kate and America would have to finally be honest with one another and give into what they really want. 
“Fuck, you guys better take a look at this.” Loki said leaning forward, he and Riri wore the same angered expression.
America frowned moving closer while standing behind them. Her breath caught in her throat at the file, and Yelena cursed in Russian, the pictures, and the police records as well as the medical files were all there. Whatever or whomever Wanda was before getting to the school was not something nice, or even a happy life; the found the restriction order against her husband, the petition for divorce and the fight for custody. Riri whistled, she felt sorry for even asking for payment for something like this.
“Wanda Maximoff, isn’t she the new literature Professor? The one in charge of your class, Chavez?”
“Yeah, she is.” America replied softly.
“Damn, she really…this is…” Riri turned to the other girl shaking her head. “This is some heavy stuff, you know?”
“I know.”
“Please, Riri, no one can know about this.” Yelena intervened, Riri snorted pointing to the file on the computer.
“Of course not! She is hiding from her maniac husband, here let me show you the new underground railroad…It seems that she has been receiving help from some powerful people.” Riri stated tapping on some keys before showing the group a classified document.
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The halls inside the adjacent building to her school were empty and cold. America could hear the echoes of her footsteps and that of her friends following her to the main playroom. Loki and Yelena had been discussing the findings in whispered tones, none of them had been completely happy with the discovery but now many pieces in the puzzle that was their new Professor finally fell into place. 
America stopped right outside the playroom, her eyes falling on Kate who was laughing with Kamala while Balder and the twins played around the slides.
“You better fix your screw up, America, and soon, Riri is quite the catch and Kate doesn't seem that indifferent to her.”
With those words, Loki went in stretching his hand out to stop Balder from hugging him. The both of them engaged in their ritualistic banter of bickering, while the twins waved at America who shifted her weight from one foot to the other before going in. 
Tommy and Billy had changed in the last couple of months. America remembered the first time she met them, they were quiet and quite shy. At first America thought it was because they didn't know her and were still testing the waters around her. But then, she saw the fear in their eyes, how they would look at the clock and then at the door, how jumpy they were with loud noises, or how they would wake up sweaty and crying. Now for America it was obvious the shy, almost submissive nature of Wanda, how protective she was of her intimacy, or the fact the boys and her never used short sleeve clothing or why the twins had learnt to bathe alone without any help. 
Not that it helped a lot. 
America and Y/N had seen the scars, and while no words had been exchanged between them, they knew what was behind the Maximoff family. And America now had enough proof to prove her sister with the full background of Wanda. 
The question was, when should she tell her about it? 
“You are thinking too loud.” Kate approached her with her eyes never leaving America's ones. 
“I have a lot to think about.” She mumbled shrugging, the twins went back to their stuff putting everything away while Balder whined. 
“Yelena told us what Riri found.” Kate softened her stare putting her right hand around her left elbow. “It must be awful…”
“You know you don't have to go with Williams to the Ball, right?”
Kate cocked her head, glancing at America out of the corner of her eyes. America waited patiently, her eyes glancing everywhere but at her best friend and Kate sighed shaking her head, she turned around closing the distance between herself and America, the dark haired teen tensed with her heart leaping inside her chest. 
“I know, but you know what?” Kate said breaking her lips into a smirk America had never seen in her. “I realised that if the woman I want doesn't want me back, then I can't wait any longer… I’m going to explore my options. Thank you, America. I think I wouldn't have done this without your help.”
America stood there, dumbstruck while Kate winked at her, turning around to join the others. She could tell America was still watching her, and Kate smiled in satisfaction knowing her words had the desired effect on America. She just hoped America would do something, or else she would never forgive her for letting this chance go away. 
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Wanda glanced at the watch on her wrist, she winced noticing the time while her face turned to the rain right outside her windows. She had taken far too long grading some papers, the twins must be waiting for her getting restless back in the playroom in the small building in the compound. 
The young woman yawned, picking up her papers and her stuff before her hand went to grab her mobile. She hesitated for a moment until her eyes fell on the last message she received. Your name on her contact list was familiar, as well as the obvious signs that she was ignoring you completely. For more than a week, all Wanda had done was put your messages to the side, and those encounters she had come to look at with an eager heart were now almost non-existent as she made sure to always be out of her home before you. 
A part of Wanda, the rational one, knew she was being childish and that what she was doing was prolonging the inevitable. Another part, the emotional one, the damaged one… Was afraid. She was afraid of what everything meant for her, of the sudden surge of emotions she was experimenting for you. 
Wanda knew she was damaged goods, and that she had her children to look after. You on the other hand were free, intelligent, beautiful, and you already had someone in your life that apparently made you happy. Why would anyone want Wanda at some point? 
Not that Wanda was thinking about being with you. That would mean she liked you, and not in a platonic way. That perhaps her dreams, and the speeding of her heart at the thought of you, meant she was attracted to you, which was impossible because she was not like that. She liked men. Penis. Yeah, she liked that. 
So, you do like her in a sexual way, eh? 
A voice in her head asked, and Wanda hated to find the teasing tone of Pietro behind such a statement. She could imagine him, with his smirk and teasing glint, dancing around her while saying innapropiate things that would make her blush a hundred different shades of red. She missed her twin, and in moments like this, she wished he was still with her. 
“I don't like her like that, I can't.” Wanda replied softly to no one in particular. 
Wanda never thought her life would have changed the way it did. 
The weeks had turned into months, and she found herself experimenting changes that were affecting her in positive ways. No longer was she afraid of getting home knowing dinner was not done yet, or to get something wrong and get mistreated for it. She could finally have a voice and an opinion and people around her respect her, and actually took her word with admiration. Sometimes the dark clouds of her past came forward, and in those moments she went to her children to find the energy to continue. 
Wanda felt her life was finally getting into the right path. Her students had been amazing with her, and as of late it seemed as if their motivation had shifted and the young woman had never felt more supported than ever. 
She didn't need complications, and you had become one. A complication she never thought possible, a complication she couldn't afford to have. 
Whatever sadness she reflected in her face was soon wiped out when she caught the sound of laughter. She let out a sigh of relief knowing her children had not been alone for so long, and the fact the voice of her students reached her ears told her they had been in good hands. Her phone vibrated once more, but she ignored it completely, she never thought or even contemplated the fact that you might be there. 
She entered the room with a confidence she soon lost as soon as her eyes found yours. And whatever she was trying to not feel came back tenfold. Her sweaty hands, the tingling on her lower abdomen and the summersault from her heart. Everything came accompanied by a flush of her cheeks and the widening of her stare. 
You stood there rather conflicted, at this sudden appearance. The sound of laughter and conversation became too deafening, but you put your mobile away and took a few steps towards Wanda.
“So, you are alive.” You promised yourself you wouldn't let the bitterness you felt at Wanda's lack of response get to you. 
But that was easier said than done, the young woman was standing before you quite healthy and rather unfazed by the fact you had written to her a couple of times until you gave up on any answer. You felt humiliated, and also a little hurt, you thought the both of you were friends. And you felt ridiculous for hoping that maybe… 
“I… I was… Yes, I mean…” Wanda made a gesture with her hands, her eyes looking everywhere but at you. “I've been busy, uh with school and…”
“Hey,Maximoff, I'm not asking for explanations.” You replied nonchalantly, your stare hardening. “I was just curious because Tasha told me you and I were supposed to organise the Winter Festival.”
"The winter festival, yes! Yes, she did.We are!” Wanda interrupted her voice, raising slightly with a high pitch at the end. 
You arched a single eyebrow, your lips quirking upwards in silent amusement. Wanda almost slapped her face at such an answer, she tried to recover her momentum by clearing her throat and grabbing her purse with both hands. 
"I didn't understand much, but we'll, I guess we are in a committee…"
"We are the committee." You interrupted tilting your head, this time around you were frowning. "Nat didn't explain everything, did she?" 
Wanda pursed her lips and after a moment she gave in, shaking her head. You could only roll your eyes glancing at the ceiling, of course Natasha had not said anything to the other woman and it would be up to you to explain to her everything that needed to be done. You had a feeling this was the older woman's doing, a well-exécuté plan to torture you and make you spent time with the very woman that had been shaking your world as of late. 
"What else did she have to explain?" Wanda finally asked, she dreaded your answer for she had been trying to avoid you for more than a week and this sudden event would only make her spend time with you. 
She knew Natasha had placed the responsibility on her shoulders a week ago but Wanda had been down a road she was not familiar with. She hated the beating of her heart, the sweaty palms of her hands, the nervous tingling in her stomach and the flush on her cheeks whenever she was in front of you. Or whenever she received one of your messages that she had been ignoring for quite some time. 
She hated the fact she was standing in front of you and you seemed at ease, knowing Wanda was the only one suffering such conflicting emotions and not being able to do nothing to appease such emotions. 
"Well, this event is quite important, you know?" You lifted your hand to scratch he nape of your neck, a nervous trait you had picked up when faced with your reality. 
Wanda was about to speak when the twins and the rest of the teens came towards you. Her students were mostly smiling, while America seemed rather gloomy at the moment. 
"Mom!" The twins came running towards Wanda hugging her around her waist, Wanda smiled softly placing a tender hand on their heads. 
"Hey, boys, how was your day?" 
"It was awesome!" Billy exlciamed and Tommy nodded in agreement, you softened your stare watching the scene with a heavy heart. 
Soon Tommy and Billy were telling their mom all about their adventures, and you had to look away with a frown in your face. America and Loki glanced at one another, a plan already forming inside her head as to what she should do. 
“So, Y/N, we were thinking… It is late, and everyone in the room is hungry, right guys.?”  America turned to her friends, you narrowed your eyes when it took them half a second to react with nodding heads and hands on their stomachs. 
“Right, so hungry much, eh?”
“Oh, come on, Y/N, it has been a while since you last take us to Olympia and we could take the twins there too and Professor Maximoff of course.”
Kate grabbed your arm, she put on her best puppy stare while Kamala grabbed your other arms and America tilted her head amused. You snorted shaking your head, lifting your eyes you could see Wanda glancing at you and the twins frowning in confusion. 
“What is Olympia? “ Tommy asked tasting the word on his lips, Balder opened his eyes wide, grabbing the young twin by his shoulders. 
“You don't know??” Tommy scowled, lowering his eyes and shaking his head.
“It's the best place on earth!!” Balder turned to you and Loki. “Pleaseee, can we go?”
You raised your brows at Wanda, your eyes finding hers. The young woman was just as confused as her children, your heart shrank st the sheer familiarity you saw on those three faces. America pressed her lips together, she could see the conflicting emotions running through your eyes, the change in your posture, the softening in your expression. 
The young woman clenched her jaw tightly, fighting over the myriad of thoughts passing through her mind. America was ready to burst out until a familiar hand grabbed her softly, she turned to see Kate offering a single shake of her head while pulling her aside. 
“so, what do you say? We could have something to eat and discuss the preparations for the Ball.” You proposed shrugging, you could see the conflicting emotions running through those green eyes, but you could also see the lost battle as soon as the twins turned to her with begging eyes. 
“I guess we could…” Wanda winced when the twins squealed and soon everyone was just walking outside the building. 
Yelena caught up to America and Kate, her hand closing on America's wrist. 
“What are you doing? Aren't you going to tell your sister about Maximoff?”
America hesitated for a moment, she turned to see you talking lightly with the other woman. Your face had changed completely, no longer wearing the wrinkles of concern or boredom you usually wear after a long day in the office. There weren't any signs of tiredness or anxiousness you got whenever you were with Carol. There wasn't even the dark cloud above your head, the one you had been wearing all week long, whatever was happening through your head, America could see the positive effect Wanda had on you. And without a doubt, the young woman knew you had a positive effect on Wanda. 
“I think she should know.” Kate commented to America's side. 
“It is only right.” Loki chimed in, America hesitated and it was Kamala the only one to actually voice what America had been thinking all along. 
“But it is Professor Manximoff's secret, we can't go around telling everyone much less Y/N about this.” Kamala crossed her arms standing her ground. 
“Why not?”
“Have you seen Y/N? Or, Professor Maximoff for that matter?” The group all turned to Y/N and Wanda. “Whatever we say or do right now could be bad for…”
“For them.” America shook her head turning to her friends with a determined stare in her eyes. “Let's give them time, I agreed that this can't be kept a secret, but for now we should be able to protect Wanda's privacy.”
The group hesitated for a moment before all of them nodded. They could keep the secret, for now. But for America the situation was turning into something really problematic, and her first instinct was to make sure you were okay, that you were happy. Thus, with a pursed of her lips she decided it was time for her to give you a push in the right direction. 
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Olympia ended up being a restaurant right outside the city. 
It was a five storey building, it was surrounded by a beautiful garden with fountains made of Led lights. The twins were dumbstruck, walking down the road leading from the parking lot to the main entrance. To their side Balder had taken the task to explain what they would find inside, and you had taken your spot right beside Wanda to do just the same. 
“I can't believe you never heard of this place.” Wanda tilted her head, her eyes watching with some amusement your childish excitement and the small smile playing upon your lips. 
She thought your giddiness was quite adorable, and she had to stop herself from just leaning in and grab your hand in hers. Her heart hammering against her chest at the mere thought. 
The restaurant was owned by the most peculiar family; they had built the place as a theme restaurant in which families and friends could come over to enjoy games, shows and nice warm meals. Wanda and the twins were awestruck at the sight of mythological creatures and decorations welcoming newest arrivals. 
The smile on your lips softened at the sight of Wanda walking around the place with the twins shying away with big eyes glancing around the place. You could tell this was her first time in such a place, and a part of you had to wonder if Wanda had never been in a place like this one. 
“Mommy, can we go?” Tommy asked shyly pointing at the playground to the right, Wanda hesitated with her breath caught in her throat when your hand rested on hers. 
“It is completely secure, and they would have America and the others watching over them while we look for a table.” You said to Wanda, your thumb making soothing circles on the back of her hand. “What do you say, Princess? I know it must be quite the tortuous experience to be with me but we can…”
“It's not a tortuous experience.”Wanda replied, cutting herself off before she could reveal something else. 
You nodded curtly letting go of her hand before nodding towards the lifts. 
“I know just the place for you and the twins to enjoy this first time.” 
You waited patiently for an answer, you were trying to quiet down the thoughts running inside your head. The best policy you could apply to just ignore the growing need to connect with the redhead standing in front of you. You had missed your conversations with her, the banter you had formed with the woman after a fateful day in which you had come to appreciate the twins. For more than a week you had tried to reason with yourself and the piercing need to talk to Wanda. 
When she didn't answer, and it was quite evident she was avoiding you, something in you broke a little. You were not one to beg, so you stopped writing after two days, but seeing her again you knew you couldn't let go without, at least, trying to forge a friendship with Wanda. 
Because that was all you wanted, right? 
Friendship. 
And that was all Wanda was ready to give you, right? 
Friendship. 
“Don't worry, Professor, they are in the best…Yelena, No!”
Kamala screamed running after Yelena who was already trying to steal a Nerf gun from a kid, Balder and the twins were already getting armed with Loki giving clear instructions. America winced chuckling while Kate rolled her eyes crossing her arms. 
“Guys…” You said and America waved at you. 
“I know, I know.”
Kate turned to Wanda, wincing a little, “Don't worry, I made sure they are okay.”
Wanda chewed on her lower lip, her eyes had not stopped checking the crowded restaurant while her own panic rose inside her throat at the sight of the twins mixing up with the rest of the children. You could tell she was tensed, her eyes worrying but what you saw there was actually terror. 
In just a second, Wanda was breathing hard, her eyes going wide open and body covered with a thin layer of cold sweat. She started trembling, and you could tell she was about to have a breakdown. Without thinking too much you stood in her line of vision, your hand grabbing hers in yours. 
“Hey, Wands, it's okay, they are going to be fine.” You spoke softly, soothing words and brushed caresses on her hands while you dragged her away from the crowded hall. “It's okay, come…you're going to be fine.”
Wanda clenched her eyes closed, and she let you take her away until the sound of a bell echoed in a closed room and soon. The sound of people disappeared. Wanda opened her eyes only to see you looking back at her, you offered a reassuring smile with the lift sliding all the way to the last floor. 
“Are you okay?” You finally asked, Wanda flushed looking away. 
“Yes.” Her tone was cold, and you could tell she was embarrassed by the scene. 
“You know, there is nothing to be emb…”
“I know.” She cut in exiting the lift as soon as the doors opened. 
You scowled, glancing at your reflection before following the young woman out. The fifth floor was something out of a Jurassic Park movie, wherever she turned there was a jungle like atmosphere with replicas of dinosaurs around. You couldn't help the half smile stepping inside the floor while locating a good table. This was, by far, your favourite place to be; you walked past Wanda, your eyes sweeping the place really quick until you found the person you had been looking for. 
“Ajak!”
The woman straightened up, turning sharply towards you, her eyes going big while a grin broke on her face. She gave some final instructions before approaching you with arms outstretched to engulf you in a tight embrace. 
“Y/N! And here I thought you had forgotten all about me, mija.” Ajak stepped back giving you a once over, her eyes sharp and witty taking into the form of Wanda who was standing at a safe distance before they settled on you. 
“Never, Ajak, but work and life has consumed most of my time.” You winced apologetically. “But I am here and I have new guests that have never tasted your amazing cuisine.”
Wanda found herself under black, piercing eyes that were a mixture of warmth and curiosity. The woman stretched out her hand, Wanda took it in hers almost wincing at the tight grasp. 
“Now, a guest of Y/N will always be welcome, I'm Ajak.”
Wanda offered a tentative smile, her eyes going to you then back at Ajak. 
“I'm Wanda.”
“Well, we cannot have this! A table for two? For you and your date.”
“No!” The quick, rather panicky scream coming from Wanda and yourself made Ajak turn suspicious eyes to you then to Wanda. 
You knew you were blushing, but you didn't dare to look over at Wanda before clearing your throat to clarify the situation. 
“We're not… She is not.. I mean… She is my sister's teacher so we just…”
“Yeah, no date or, her sister is my babysitter and…” 
Whatever else the both of you were going to add soon died off while you just stood there rather awkwardly. Ajak snorted, shaking her head while pointing to the tables. 
“So not table for two…”
“We came here with everyone, America and her friends and Wanda's children.”
Ajak nodded in understanding, finally pointing to the furthest corner in the room pointing to a balcony and a couple of torches. 
“Well, you can have the spot by the balcony, I will send someone soon…” Ajak then winked at you, and there was a hint of mischief in her eyes as she continued. “It's always good to have you back, and this time around with such a beautiful woman by your side.”
You put a hand on your face hiding away your embarrassment, Wanda merely clapped her lips closed blushing lightly at the implications of those words. Without nothing much to say, you and her were led directly to the last spot. 
“This is beautiful.” Wanda sighed dreamily, lifting her eyes to the sky above their heads lowering her gaze to see the outline of  the city on the horizon. 
Your heart twisted painfully in your chest, you furrowed your brows turning away to glance outside the balcony. 
“I still can't believe you didn't know about this place.” You commented lightly. “This is the best restaurant in the whole East Coast, and it can be quite fun to spend some time with friends and family.”
Wanda sighed knowing she had missed the chance to get to know the world right outside her universe. She did not know much about the world, or places outside Westview or the events Vision used to take her to. The only holidays they had shared had been to Sokovia for the funeral of her father, a holiday she would always remember. Wanda jerked awake when a warm hand placed softly in her hand, she turned sharply to you and her breath caught on her throat. 
“Are you okay?” You asked tentatively, Wanda stepped back from your grasp offering a shaky smile. 
But before she could answer or you could say anything else the sound of laughter and loud conversation distracted the both of you and the group of teens with the three boys came around to occupy a chair in the big table. The twins ran directly to Wanda, and their excited chatter was enough to distract Wanda of her thoughts and the emotional situation she found herself in. 
Dinner was a strange event for Wanda and yourself. You both found yourselves sitting side by side with everyone sharing stories about school and Summer holidays, the twins were quiet watching and hearing everything while enjoying the dinner. Your eyes never drifted away from Wanda for too long, the young woman was quiet at first, her fingers tapping on the table while holding a strained smile hovering protectively around the twins. 
Wanda had always been a mystery for you, from the moment you met her she had been a contradiction of shyness and resolution. There were moments in which you could see a fire inside her eyes, the sharpness of her tongue and her intelligence always challenging you in ways you found fresh and exciting. There were other times in which she made herself small, the dark clouds of fear and uncertainty shadowing those flames while offering a vulnerable side you wished you could protect. 
You snorted, shaking your head while everyone at the table laughed, your eyes drifted slightly only to see Wanda glancing at you with amusement. 
“And then, of course, Y/N had to come out of there all dressed up in clothes that were not even hers and mom and dad decided to have the talk with both of us.”
All the twins winced while Wanda chuckled, raising a single eyebrow. You rolled your eyes hiding your blush, the twins scrunched up their noses looking around until Billy decided to speak. 
“What talk?” He asked innocently, and the question soon quieted down the laughter making everyone squirmed on their spots. 
This time around you raised a brow at Wanda, daring her to answer that question to them. 
“Want to explain that, Mommy Wanda?”
The deep shade of red that decorated the woman's cheeks caught you off guard. The woman looked away hiding her flustered expression, you didn't expect that reaction to your comment. Something inside you ignited with curiosity to explore that sudden discovery, but soon Balder decided to break the uncomfortable tension in the room with his own innocent comment. 
“The talk about sex, dummy!”
“Balder!”Loki exclaimed, slapping his hand while his little brother turned big curious eyes his way. 
“How does he know about that?” Kamala asked, but Loki made a face. 
“He overheard Thor, and he is a little brat that can't keep his mouth shut.”
“You’re the brat!”
Loki opened his mouth to retort but you lifted your hand shaking your head. The uncomfortable moment had passed, but you were still thinking about Wanda's reaction. 
“Okay, you two stop it, let's choose the desert.”
“Dessert?” Tommy turned to Wanda. “Can we have dessert, mommy?”
You smirked watching as Wanda squirmed under your stare, she was trying really hard to ignore you but you made sure this time around it was impossible for her to do so. 
“Oh, what do you say mommy, can we?” You spoke before you could censor yourself, Wanda glared at you clenching her fists closed. 
“Y/N, really?” America asked in disbelief, she glared at you and you opened your mouth. 
“Just stop, it is not as funny as you think it is.” Wanda turned around, softening her facial expression while placing a hand on Tommy's head. “I think we should go. Perhaps another time.”
You yelped, feeling the kick in your chin, turning around you saw America flaring at you still but this time around she was pointing to the other woman, her eyes big and eyebrows raised trying to speak to you without words. 
The twins moaned in protest, but Wanda was already standing up until she felt your hand on hers. She didn't turn around, but you didn't need to, you stood up and circled the young woman standing in front of her, your free hand on Tommy's shoulder. 
“Please, desserts here are delicious and… It's on me.” 
“I don't think…” Wanda started but her resolution crumbled as soon as you stepped forward. Your eyes softened greatly, and your next words piercing Wanda's resolution. 
“Please, sorry I was an ass, I just don't know how to act when I'm around someone like you.” You didn't mean to be this honest, you knew everyone was watching the interaction and probably this conversation would be something America wouldn't let go anytime soon. 
“Like me?” Wanda asked confusedly. 
You broke into a bitter smile shrugging, “like you.”
The silence would have grown even more uncomfortable if it hadn't been by Kamala and Kate that soon were making quite the ruckus to select the best dessert of the night.  
“Why do you like to make my life more difficult than it already is?” The question left her lips before she could stop it, and while she didn't quite mean to ask that, once she had said it a burning desire to know grew in her. 
You blinked a couple of times, looking away while shrugging. 
“I don't know.” You sighed lifting your gaze to the woman in front of you. “You just…Make it too easy and I just can't help it.”
Wanda let go of Tommy who had joined the others around America and Kate that were now explaining what each dessert had. Wanda had enjoyed her afternoon with her children and her students, that you were there with her had been just a plus she was still trying to pretend she didn't enjoy. 
Truth was, if she were to accept why she was so conflicted with your presence, why she had been avoiding you for the last couple of days, why she got so nervous around you. She would be admitting to something up until a couple of months ago she thought was a sin with someone that was already engaged in a relationship. 
Wanda had a lot to lose and nothing to gain. So it was better to pretend nothing was happening, it was easier to break something that was just starting to grow. 
“My grandparents and Tony's parents started the tradition of the Winter Festival.” Your voice broke into Wanda's thoughts, she turned to you quite surprised and you offered a single smile nodding towards the balcony. 
The morning breeze brushed against your cheeks, you leaned forward with the palm of your hand stretched out to receive the first snowflakes of the season. 
“My grandmother was a writer, and she was quite the romantic fella.” You chuckled remembering your childhood, the stories your grandmother used to tell right before going to bed. “She thought that a Ball and a festival around the Holidays would bring everyone together and would make a good way to find love.”
“A dreamer, then.” Wanda offered a half smile, she wrapped her arms around herself standing a few feet away from you.
The night had been strange, but not unpleasant. She couldn’t remember the last time she went out to a nice restaurant to eat, or to have some amount of fun and see her children free the way they had been that night. She looked at you out of the corner of her eyes, her heart fluttering lightly when you continued talking about your family and the traditions of the school, your tone of voice softening with the weight of memories and wishfulness. The confusion Wanda had been experimenting as of late was diminishing as you continue speaking, and the young woman knew sooner or later she would need to face whatever was growing inside her heart.
But for now, she could pretend.
“Then, whatever we do, whatever we plan, must be incredible.” Wanda stated after you had finished talking, you snorted shrugging.
“It’s a matter of honour.” You replied conspiratorially, your eyes twinkling at her reaction. “Believe me, we have been at this since we were at school so…”
Wanda chuckled shaking her head, for what little she knew about you and the others, everyone had gone to the same school and your friendship was based on banter and familiarity. She had seen firsthand how competitive all of them were, the great friendship amongst the families that controlled a whole school and many important businesses in the world. Wanda’s face fell for a moment, she had entered a world that could turn against her at any moment, one wrong step, or one wrong word could kick her out and leave her exposed to the man she had been running from. Natasha had been right when she said this would be important for her, and while Wanda didn’t think for one moment the older woman had tricked her in any way, she knew right now great things were expected from her, a payment for the favours she had received so far.
Movement to her side called her attention, and Wanda soon found herself far too close to you. From this distance she could see the light in your eyes, the small happy wrinkles around your eyes and the curve of your lips. She could also feel the warm emanating from your body, and a part of her, a crazy almost childish part of her, wondered what would happen if she were to close the distance…
Have you ever been attracted to someone other than Vision? Have you wondered what would have happened if people didn’t try to tell you who you should love or be with?
The words of her last therapy session with Hope resounded inside Wanda’s head, but before anything happened you chuckled nodding your head towards the restaurant.
“You’re gonna have two kids running on sugar rush in a moment, you know that, right?” You couldn’t help but laugh at the glance of pure horror she put on as soon as she realized the twins were eating a huge plate of dessert while bouncing restlessly on the chairs.
“They have never had so much sweet before…” Wanda started worriedly, your grabbed her hand winking playfully at her.
“Then, let me help you with tiring them up so you won’t suffer later on.”
“What do you mean..?”
“Well, this restaurant has many playgrounds, and I’m friends with the owner so…let’s go, time for you and me to play some!”
Wanda was not sure what was happening, or what exactly were you talking about. But whatever it was, she didn’t care at the moment, the only think she could think was your hand wrapped tenderly around hers, and the childish grin playing on your lips. Everything else was forgotten.
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It was way past midnight by the time you parked Wanda’s car in the garage.
“You didn’t have to come with me.” Wanda shifted her position on the front seat, she turned slightly to see Tommy and Billy fast asleep.
You turned off the care tilting your head to see the twins then at Wanda who was looking completely tired. While it was true that you didn’t need to drive Wanda and the twins back home, but you couldn’t help yourself; you offered while lending your car to America so she could take the other’s home.
A part of you didn’t want the night to be over yet.
“I know but I just figured you may need some help with those two.” You pointed to the twins, Wanda smiled softly.
“Thank you.” She mumbled lowering her gaze, her hand closer to yours. “I don’t remember the last time I have so much fun.”
You smiled satisfied, “I’m glad to hear that.”
There was a moment of silence filled only with the knowledge that you were lost. As soon as you lifted your gaze you could see those green eyes glancing back at you, Wanda was looking confused and tired. But there was evidently some sort of happiness in her face, she was relaxed and for a moment your thought perhaps the weight she had been carrying was lifted. Not for the first time you wondered what had happened to her, what had really brought her to your doorstep with two kids and not husband.
It's not my secret to share.
“I think you should have more moments like this one, you and the kids.” You said after a moment, breaking the growing silence in the car.
“I think we are still getting use to this.” Wanda replied softly, and while she didn’t elaborate you could tell that this was part of the past you were dying to get to know.
“Well, if there is any way for me to help you loosen up more, Princess, don’t hesitate to tell me.” You winked at her enjoying the soft colouring on her cheeks, Wanda straightened up trying to gather her thoughts.
“Right, I think we need to first work on the preparations for the festival and…” She trailed off when you placed a hand on hers.
“Yes, yes…don’t worry about that, Princess.” You then opened the door and grabbed the car keys. “Come, I will help you take these two to bed.”
It didn’t take too long to take the twins into their room, both of them protested and turned around as soon as their bodies touched their beds. The only thing Wanda could take off of them were his shoes and jackets, she was about to insist on them getting in their pyjamas but your hand on her shoulder stopped her.
“Let them be, we really tired them up in the laser tag.” You whispered by the door, Wanda hesitated for a moment making sure that the boys were only on their shirts and with a blanket on top of them.
“I guess it wouldn’t make any difference.”
Wanda whispered back making her way towards you, finally the tiredness of the day was catching up to her and you could see the bags under her eyes and the cold of night sneaking inside her clothes. You pulled her out of the room gently, closing the door behind you leading the young woman to the hall and the stairs, Wanda stood by the stairs glancing at you then at the door down the hall. You shifted on your feet before glancing down the stairs.
“Look, today was nice.” You stated scratching the nape of your neck. “I haven’t had so much fun in a long time.”
“Me neither.” Wanda answered truthfully, her lisp curling slightly at the memory. “And the twins, they were happy too.”
You nodded smiling, “yeah, I could tell.”
Wanda put her right arm on her forearm, she glanced down then back at you.
“I’m sorry I was avoiding you this last week.” Wanda finally said without looking you in the eye, this was easier said than done, and while the reasons of her avoiding you were not clear for you, Wanda was not about to admit them yet.
“I’ve been having a long week, and I just…”
“Hey, that’s okay, I guess. I understand.” You replied leaning in, making it impossible for Wanda to look away. “I just hope you’re not doing it anymore because we need to start making preparations, and I was hoping you would come to my place and have some lunch.”
Wanda opened her eyes; she nodded slowly still a little confused until you rolled your eyes at her.
“You know? So we can start planning the Winter Festival.”
“Oh, right, yes, sure.” Wanda bounced slightly, flustered she tried to hide her yawn but it was almost impossible to do so.
“Go to sleep, Wands. See you tomorrow.”
Before either of you could do something, anything at all, you decided to lean in and kiss Wanda on her cheek. It was a short brush of lips, but it was enough to make her catch her breath and warm all over.
And just like that, you turned around and left before anything could be done or said.
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Next Chapter: Reader and Wanda start getting closer, the twins like this new addition to their family. America and Kate find themselves at a crossroads after Riri decides to play a flirty game, and Carol is at her wit's end with Reader. Someone from Wanda's past come into the scene, and Reader is dangerously clueless about the whole situation.
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lupismaris · 2 years
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Spent the entire day, work and otherwise, playing caretaker- adviser, nanny, big brother, big sister, valet, maid, therapist, devoted friend giving you away to something better- please fuck all i want is for someone to stop me and return the favor
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ayyy-imma-ninja · 6 months
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This goes nothing with what's happiness right now, but please enjoy this thing I thought of for your Serial killer au
Y/N sits on their bed broken with what happened. They have to stay quiet, no one will believe them. Why would they Sun and Moon be kind, helpful, and willing.
*knock, knock, knock* "Y/N -" Sun calls from the front door in a worried tone "- can we talk? I understand if you need more time. It's a lot to take in." Sun waits there for what feels like forever when a tired, broken, scared Y/N opens the door. "Hi Sun." Y/N trembles with tears pricking at her eyes. "May I come in?" Sun waves inwards, towards Y/N, they gives a subtle nod.
The two sit on Y/N's couch, both wanting for the other to start. "Y/N, I understand why you're afraid of me and Moon. After learning what we do, I'd probably be scared, too." Sun tries to comfort. "I understand if you want us to part ways or -" Y/N cuts him off. "Sun, I'm scared, I know you won't hurt me, and I'm glad you won't, but... I-I can't get rid of the thoughts that I'll wake up in a shed in the middle of nowhere, being hurt by you and Moon." Tears flow down Y/N's cheeks. "I'm scared, Sun. I want to trust you. You're my friends, best friends." Y/N starts sobbing with fear. "I can't handle it, the knowledge of what you do to the pnes who... yes, deserve it, but..." Sun reaches out, but doesn't touch you. It's like he's asking for permission to comfort you. Y/N leans on Sun and starts crying into his shoulder.
Y/N doesn't know how long she was crying into Sun's shoulder, but it helped a lot. At one point, Moon came in and rub circles into Y/N's back. "Are you okay now?" Moon asks softly and gently wrapping his arms around Y/N in a hug. Y/N melts to the touch, enjoying the comfort from the brothers. "Thank you." Y/N mumbles just above a whisper. This is okay. They can stay friends. 'I can stay quiet.' Y/N thinks.
Oh if only it goes like that :'3c
ty for the writing!!!
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ltash · 13 days
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Bullied by Ghost when you break into his room without permission.
We danced on the edge of destruction, our words sharp as daggers, yet beneath the surface, there was a fire burning, a passion that refused to be extinguished."
As I stood before Ghost's closed door, a sense of apprehension coiled in the pit of my stomach like a restless serpent.
I knocked twice and with each knock, my heart quickened its pace, the echo of my own uncertainty reverberating in the silence that greeted me.
The strains of music, faint yet unmistakable, seeped through the cracks in the door, a discordant melody that added to the disquiet swirling within me.
God, what do I do now?" I muttered, my voice barely above a whisper as I weighed my options.
With trembling fingers, I reached for the handle, my hand hovering uncertainly as I grappled with the magnitude of what I was about to do.
Breaking into Ghost's room was a breach of privacy I hadn't dared contemplate before, yet the urgency of Laswell's request left me with little choice. It was the last thing I would have done if I had a chance.
With a deep breath, I turned the handle, the door swinging open with a soft click that seemed to reverberate through the room.
Why would he left his door unlocked like that? But again I never knew because I haven't tried breaking into his room before.
The darkness enveloped me like a suffocating embrace, broken only by the dim glow of the window and the soft hum of the music player.
"What if he was inside? What if he catches me breaking into his room?"
Thoughts racing my mind because that was the stupidiest shit I was going to do.
He was surely inside. I knew It was such a bad idea entering into his personal space like that but it was compulsory at that moment as it was Laswell's order.
Ghost?" I called out tentatively, my voice barely audible in the stillness of the room. But there was no response, only the eerie silence that hung heavy in the air.
Ghost! You there?" I called him again but to no avail.
Taking a hesitant step forward, I scanned the room, my eyes adjusting to the darkness as they swept over the familiar surroundings. The faint scent of cigarette smoke and musky cologne lingered in the air, a telltale sign of Ghost's presence.
My gaze landed on the coffee table, where a cigarette box and lighter lay abandoned amidst the remnants of smoked cigarettes.
It was a revelation that caught me off guard, a glimpse into a side of Ghost that I had never known.
Ghost like smoking. I didn't know that. Me and my father never smoked. Infact I hated smoking.
The door closed on its on and I lightly jump on the sound. I turned around and there was no pne there.
Before I could dwell on the discovery, the rustling of sheets beside me startled me, my heart leaping into my throat as I spun around to confront the source of the disturbance.
There, on the bed, he layed, his form shrouded in darkness as he slept soundly, oblivious to my presence.
The sight of him, clad in his signature black hoodie and skull balaclava, sent a jolt of adrenaline coursing through my veins, my mind racing with a thousand questions.
Oh Jesus! I was stuck in such an odd situation.
I had to try to wake him up. How will he react seeing me in his room like this.
I was feeling like burying myself alive in the ground right now.
My heart hammered in my chest as I stood there, frozen in place, the weight of the tension bearing down on me like a suffocating cloak.
With trembling hands, I reached out, the only option left to me a desperate attempt to rouse him from his slumber.
"Ghost!" I called out, my voice a mere whisper as I gently shook his shoulder, my nerves coiled tight like a spring.
But before I could register what was happening, his arm moved, his grip tightening around my wrist with a force that took my breath away. With a gasp, I found myself yanked towards him, his strong hand pinning me down to the bed with a strength that left me powerless to resist.
"What are you doing in my room?" His voice, laced with anger and confusion, reverberated through the air, sending a shiver down my spine.
Panic surged through me as I struggled against his hold, my attempts to free myself met with only more resistance. "Let me go, please," I pleaded, my voice muffled by his hand as he pressed it against my mouth, silencing me with a single gesture.
"Shut your mouth. Stop making noise," he commanded, his words cutting through the silence with a steely authority that left no room for argument.
As he loomed over me, his breath hot against my skin, a surge of heat coursed through me, igniting a fire that burned brighter with each passing moment. Despite the fear and uncertainty that gripped me, I couldn't deny the magnetic pull of his presence, drawing me inexorably closer with each beat of my racing heart.
As Ghost's grip tightened around my wrists, a wave of pain shot through me, my skin bruising under the pressure of his hold. His hand radiated heat that I could feel going into my cold wrists.
Despite my futile attempts to free myself, his grasp only grew stronger, his fingers digging into my flesh with a relentless determination.
A low moan escaped my lips, the agony of his grip overwhelming my senses as tears welled up in my eyes. With each desperate plea, I silently begged for release, the ache in my wrists a stark reminder of my vulnerability in the face of his overpowering strength.
But as I looked up at him, my tear-filled eyes meeting his steely gaze, I saw no mercy in his expression, only a cold resolve that sent a chill down my spine.
Trapped beneath him, I felt the weight of his dominance pressing down on me, a silent reminder of the power he held over me in that moment of vulnerability.
In that moment, I realized the extent of my helplessness, the realization sinking in like a heavy stone in the pit of my stomach.
Ghost could do anything to me in that moment, and there was nothing I could do to stop him. The thought sent a shiver down my spine, the fear of the unknown looming large in my mind.
With a surge of adrenaline coursing through my veins, I reacted instinctively, wrapping my legs around his waist in a desperate attempt to dislodge him from his position atop me. But before I could execute my plan, his voice cut through the air, his tone tinged with a hint of amusement that sent a chill down my spine.
"Don't you even think about that," he warned, his words laced with an authority.
Caught off guard by his unexpected response, I froze, my mind racing as I weighed my options. Trapped beneath him, my attempts to fight back had only served to further entangle me in his grasp, leaving me with no recourse but to confront the reality of my vulnerability.
With a resigned sigh, I released my hold on him. I knew I couldn't fight him back.
Ghost's words washed over me like a cold wave, leaving me trembling in their wake. "That's like a good girl." He said while his hand released my mouth.
The weight of his gaze bore down on me, his eyes piercing through the darkness with an intensity that made my skin crawl.
"Now tell me what are you doing in my room." He asked. His voice raspy.
"I-I..." I stammered, my voice faltering as fear clenched my throat like a vice. Every fiber of my being screamed for escape, for release from the suffocating grip of his presence.
But as I searched for words, for some semblance of explanation to offer, I found myself coming up empty.
"Use your words." Ghost's booming voice echoed through the room, I flinched, feeling a surge of fear grip me as he roared at me.
"I-I was sent by Kate to tell you about the meeting," I stammered, my voice trembling with anxiety.
With a sudden jolt, Ghost released his grip on me, causing me to roll off the bed and crash to the floor below. Pain shot through me as I landed with a thud, my breath knocked from my lungs.
As I struggled to regain my bearings, I looked up to find Ghost still seated on the bed, his eyes fixed on me with a steely intensity that sent a chill down my spine. Tears welled up in my eyes as I met his gaze, the betrayal of his actions cutting deep into my soul.
With trembling hands, I rose to my feet, my wrists throbbing with pain as I glared at him, a mixture of anger and hurt boiling beneath the surface. How could he have treated me like this, I thought, the weight of his betrayal heavy in my heart as I struggled to make sense of what had just transpired.
I stood before him, trembling with a mixture of fear and indignation, I knew that things would never be the same between us.
"I am afraid," I whispered, my voice barely audible above the pounding of my heart.
"Afraid of who?" he demanded, his tone sharp and cutting.
"You," I replied, my voice trembling with raw emotion.
With a surge of adrenaline, I propelled myself towards the door, desperation lending strength to my limbs. With trembling hands, I yanked the door open and fled into the hallway, my vision blurred by tears.
Running as if my life depended on it, I sprinted towards my room, each step a desperate attempt to escape the turmoil and confusion that threatened to consume me.
The sound of my own ragged breaths echoed in my ears, a stark reminder of the fear that gripped me.
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heartnosekid · 5 months
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hey friends, i wanted to share some things that are going on in my life right now. mostly for possible support, since it is really difficult going through this right now and i wonder if any of y’all have been through the same.
in july, i had three psychogenic non epileptic seizures (PNES) which required me to go to the hospital. they were caused by extreme nervous system stress, i.e. ptsd and panic attacks combined with the fact i was trying to self medicate with cbd and delta 8. super scary, never experienced a fear and strangeness like that before.
since then, i have had like. no full seizures but instances where i felt like i did before the onset of having the three in july.
i am now coming off cymbalta, the second SNRI i have had to come off in the last three years. i am experiencing pretty intense withdrawals and i was wondering if anyone else has had experience with cymbalta withdrawal as well and if anyone could tell me what their experience was like.
essentially my withdrawal symptoms are feeling similar to how the onset of the PNE seizures felt, and i am kind of just. i guess super scared. i have a support system IRL, but regardless of that, whenever i have these symptoms, i feel so alone and isolated. not necessarily in a lonely way, but in the way that i feel the extremest thing is going to happen and no one will be able to help me, if you know what i mean.
so yeah. i’m sorry to vent here, health problems have really been kicking my hind-end in recent years and now the seizures and withdrawals on top of it has really made things more complicated. and i wanted to know if anyone else has any similar experiences, because if someone has shared my experience, it will somehow calm me down. i will be responding to all comments left on this post btw.
as always, i love you all. very very much. if i miss any trigger tags on this post, please let me know and i will fix it accordingly.
- ish 💕
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