#<- god thats such a stupid name

[dirtshack]

All of the Stoke-on-Trent Steamers' stat cards shown in season 2, episode 1 (art by @raindrop-righteous)

#sorry to everyone who follows me for homestuck or minecraft #im going to be insufferable about wii sports baseball for a while #bogboy #wii sports the anime #<- god thats such a stupid name

[spookberry]

I put them next to each other casually without much thought, but I've had to redraw them in this set up so many different times in the development of this project that I kinda ship them now??? like why are they always lookin at each other like that

#my art #vampire debutante #they dont even have names #but its funny in the very vague concept of these twos characters yellow is like the hunk that all their peers are kind of obsessed with #tiara and niamh even fight over him sometimes(for status reasons not cuz theyre into him) #but i was imagining red as like a bit dorky but sweet #girls arent into him really but they dont turn him down when he asks to dance or tries to make polite conversation #in an earlier draft i was gonna have a bit where Niamh and Tiara are both vying for red's attention and Niamh wins so they dance #Tiara's only other option then is red who isnt as hunky as yellow (L for her) as she needs a dancing partner to show up niamh with #but i didnt wanna animate the stupid little dance battle so i didnt do that #now the boys are just hanging #but the fact that i keep drawing yellow making eyes at red is so funny like thats just supposed to be his default expression but #do you think hes really into red and half of his showboating is just to try and get this dweebs attention but literally nothing works #meanwhile red's just sorta accepted his role as the dweeb that no one's into #oh my god

[botanybulbasaur]

Schneider's family ; The significance of Marian

REVERSE 1999 SPOILERS AHEAD : FOR CHAPTERS 1 AND 2 ! Please tread carefully and make sure you only read about what you're willing to know.

I know we're all still completely in shambles from Chap. 2, but I wanted to make a speculation about Schneider-- and a comment about how well she's written !

Let me start with this: In many pieces of media, viewers, listeners and readers alike are told that a character has people they care for. They're told a character has a lover, a wife, kids, a family, a sister. We're told the same about Schneider: that she has 11 older siblings, and that she works in the mafia to support them.

However, it's very rarely that we're given a name and a face for these supposed loved ones. And even rarer is it that they're written well, not just as a ploy for empathy, but as their own character: Ladies, gentlemen, and esteemed guests: I present to you, Marian.

Marian is one of my favorite characters just as a stand-alone: she's realistic, she's anxious, she clings to Schneider like a lifeline-- but she's brave, too. I'd love to do an in-depth analysis on her another time, but we're here for another reason.

Marian, first of all, shows us what Schneider's family is like. How they were raised, what they believe in, who they depend on. Soft topic, I know, but as someone of Italian lineage, it's very important to me that I point this out: Marian is extremely religious.

Immigrants of every kind tend to be religious. It gives them much more faith than they ever could have: a new lifeline. They managed to make it across such a winding sea? Oh, thank the lord. They haven't been kicked out of the Americas for emigration? Thank you, holy one. There's so many more reasons for this than "they need something they don't have"- maybe the fact that the rendition of god in every religion is said to love everybody, not just those who were born into wealthy families with the bluest eyes and the blondest hair.

When in a moment with no reason, and all different kinds of desperate measures being needed.. Schneider does what her family coaxes her to. She prays.

(I can't find a screenshot, but please refer to the iconic "I didn't know you prayed" scene, and the screenshot directly below this sentence.)

I also want to point out a large difference between Schneider and her family: Schneider's perspective on a 'god' differs so, so much from her family's.

She looks to whoever may be above, in her world, scornfully-- at least, in the present day. In her past, there is a particularly impactful line I want to debunk.

"The god there ... loves the world." Schnider's family seems to believe that god was the one guiding them, the one who will forgive them-- Schneider believed that it was a whole different entity. This kid believes that the god in Sicily, whoever they may be, does not love the world-- and mio dio, if that's not fucked up, I don't know what is.

And, when Schneider comes to America and sees that shit isn't as it's cut off to be, she's resentful of whoever this god may be. She gives a pray as her last bet-- what her family wants.

And it's not that she doesn't believe in this god-- no. She just doesn't believe they love her.

"Finally forgive me" -- Finally being the key word here. She's lived all her life never being treated to mercy or being 'forgiven for her sins' -- and at her most fragile, exposed moment, she relents to what her family has taught her. To what she truly believes-- to Sicily, to Marian, her sorella. Maybe even all 11 sorelle and her parents.

And, again, they're different at face value. Marian is calm, kind. She dresses modest and has her hair grown out: she's timid, too, not befitting of a mafia boss. She's different from her younger sister.. but she's still important. She shows us another side of Schneider: and, more importantly, she shows us what-- no, who Schneider is fighting for.

Marian provides us with extremely beneficial background context of where Schneider comes from-- and, in that process, gives many of us someone to empathize with. Yes, I too know somebody at least a little like her. You do too, likely.

Maybe, you're even like Schneider-- maybe she's someone you'd aim to protect.

,,aaand that's the little lore rant. Whew! Now to study for my math finals. I hope you have a good day :)

#reverse 1999 #schneider greco #schneider reverse 1999 #schneider #lore #hello internet #welcome to #game theory #hahaha this is so stupid #never let me talk about schneiders family ever again or im dumping the italian bloodline lore #certified pasta muncher schneider speculation #yelena my beloved #yelena greco #yea that's her real name #god reverse 1999 makes me sick #/pos? maybe?? #also i love ms z so so so so so so much #my skurnrkly doo #the silly #thats it #CLASSIC BLUNDER SCHNEIDER #CLASSIC BLUNDER

[kari-go]

Oh they look so much better

#slight redesign for them #i just made them more slutty lmao #my art #miraculous ladybug #miraculous disaster au #kwami swap #arthur duval #blanche duval #peacock miraculous #peacock!arthur #peacock!blanche #temper #emo #god thats a stupid name xdd #I FORGOT TO DRAW THE MIRACULOUS FUCK

[vulpixhoney]

why does Rick Riordan hate the original myths so bad 💀

the Asphodel stuff?? regret? where is that coming from? you fully just made that shit up? out of his ass fr. the fields of Asphodel are specifically an area of neutrality, where the pretty much all mortals go when they die. it's for anyone who lived a normal life, who isn't a hero or a literal monster. it's specifically a neutral zone for people to exist once they die, it has nothing to do with ~your regrets in life~. it's like, a peaceful field of flowers where all your life's troubles are left behind on the surface.

the closest things to that is the fields of mourning/sorrow, but that's specifically for unrequited romantic love and also not called the fields of Asphodel (and also I'd bet money that rr doesn't know what that is) (and also only in Virgil's The Aeneid and not the Odyssey with the rest of what we know of the underworld)

#the fields of Asphodel are so so personal to me as someone who practices helpol too #like thats such a stupid and nonsensical change #just straight up fibbing for fun #and for what? a half baked poorly writted one off scene?? #like he really just hates the myths huh #this and how he depicts a lot of the gods (namely ares Aphrodite and athena) #snd HERA #GODS #i forgot about that originally he fucking SLANDERS hera #for no reason #hes is such a MAN he cannot write a well wrotted female character for the life of him goodness gracious #and Persephone too!! with how she treats nico #“he would not fucking say that” but its me to about how rr depicits the gods #and mostly the female ones too #he writes all of them terribly but its noticable how he is nice to the “misunderstood men” like Hephaestus and Hades #but then slanders the women #and what he said about Aphrodite when asked where she was in tlo!! “oh she was probably busy doing her makeup hahaha” #ill kill you. like what the fuck?? #this got horribly off topic oops oops #percy jackson #percy jackon and the olympians #pjo tv show

[demadogs]

i just saw someone talk about what the characters would be doing in like 20 years and they said “lucas and max have a kid. billy.” im sorry WHAT

#i hope they dont see this i dont want beef #but homie #did you skip volume 2??? she was lying in her letter she wanted her abuser dead #and i dont blame her #and lucas??? naming his kid after a racist white guy that literally tried to beat him up oh my god are you stupid #thats literally like naming the kid vecna #my god #lumax #byler #<- target audience #it was a byler shipper too!! #i had more faith in us

[keepinventory]

dreams are so fucking evil. i had a dream i got a new baby sister and i got to bond with her and teach her things i wished someone would have told me when i was her age and i was wondering what she’ll be like in 18 years. and i just woke up crying because she’s not real…..

#👽 < text tag #i didnt even know her name. #i have my drivers test today and im more upset about my phantom baby sister that doesnt exist #in the dream i met her when she was like newborn snd then she aged quickly from baby to toddler and we had an arguement #and then she grew up again to like 10 or 11 and i started teasing her about her friendships and giving her advice and making stupid jokes #to make her laugh. Ugh. #i really really wanted to have a sibling when i was little but i grew out of it so i dont know WHY im so torn up about it now #probably because it felt just. so real. all my feelings were real i wasnt sure how to feel about getting a baby sibling when im 19 #and so on and so forth. God. GOD. WHY THE FUCK DID MY BRAIN DO THAT ??!!! THATS EVIL!!!!

[pup-pee]

thinking about terry in the hospital & his parents bing angry & upset but just so so so confused like god homophobia GODDDDDDDDDDDD

green lantern ((1990)) issue #155

#tw homophobia #? i think i should put that here? #i just god i h8 them but i can understand y theyre confused #i dont have sympathy bc honestly they suck but i just #GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD #OK JUST #i cannot get over these pages sometimes #hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #literally just #ok listen just god #bc i get that stupid parental thing of wanting 2 protect ur children but @ the same time theyre protecting them w/their ideals in mind #instead of TERRYS WELL BING EVEN THO THEY THINK THEY R #& I JUST CRY #BC TERRY I MISS U #DAVID JUST WANTED 2 SEE HIM HE LITERALLY DID NOTHING WRONG I JUST #jen...............hhhhhhhhhh never did i think i woul dsee u again & just not melt #im more upset about terry #srry yall terry #sakfl:HFKJAGHSFKJAG #terry berg #david #<- thats terrys bf????? #IDK HIS LAST NAME LMAO #aslhfjlkahfas #green lantern 1990 #dc

[surprisinglydomestickakashi]

My favorite part about being still into Naruto is the way I'm into it means I frequently have to tell algorithms that I don't actually want to consume Naruto like they want me to. Don't give me bland voice over theories from people who need to be reminded of minor characters. I need my clinically not-normal girls, gays, and theys to talk with about the little side guys they have entire lives mapped out for, the interpretations that include their favorite filler episode because they like it and above all else people who don't shit on the women characters or only consider them, annoying and useless or waifu material.

#you ever stop interacting with the mainstream version of a fan of something #and forget how condescending and stupid they are #one time i was reading kakashi retsudan at an airport and someone asked me if i knew who the guy on the cover was #when i said yes he was like but really or just from that book #like dude none of thr short stories make sense if you haven't seen naruto shut upppppl #he tried to slamder sakura to me and i would not have it #i had to block this one channel that would act like an expert but still has not put together that naruto calling tsunade granny is not #evidence that his theory of tsunade being minatos mom is true #like thats just a cultural way of addressing a woman her age she explicitly states she had no kids #and it wouldn't even change his one idea of kage nepotism because shes still a senju granddaughter #like the fact she doesnt have kids is why there are no senjus around #and why the heck would Minato not take her last name if she was his mom #it is killing me so i needed to vent here #he just says it like its fact casually after he dropped his theory video too #not to stereotype but ohhhhbmy god cishet anime boys are a f #different breed (derogatory)

[cryptoidantagonist]

dont know if youve already seen this or not but you were in one of those youtube voice overs

https://youtu.be/mitzWloYb_Y?si=sGzCweWqizQa1uAF

i paused the video like ??? thats my mutual???

oh my god yeah, i haven't checked the link but im 99% sure it's the Don't Drink This one. some of my my irl friends actually found my tumblr through a video like that lmao. i got jumpscared so hard the first time one of those got recommended to me

#thats what i get for having a tumblr with the same name as my discord #my eternal love... my eternal shame... that fucking Drink #checked the link to make sure im not stupid and yep. Don't Drink That #god i need to make that again #its only bad if you let it sit for a while so if i make it in like. small glasses at a time it should be ok

[toytulini]

i made an oc thats at least nicknamed "Stupid" and im constantly thinking about what a power move that is tbh

#toy txt post #i miss it i should play w her more often but it was going to be for a dnd thing that ive all but abandonded bc i feel like #i cant. do that but it sucks bc i had some cool fun concepts and characters but it was hard enough back then when i was just insecure and #knew nothing about dnd and was intimidated by the mechanics but wanted to try dming for some reason but now i just straight up dont know #what to do but i really enjoy those characters. i should just unlock the secret channelsand scrap the dnd game idea for now and keep the #concepts and im sure i could come up w something if i ever actually learned anything about that shit #anyway. my point being. im obsessed w my character i made up and you should be too cos its good shit #toxic anarchist half dragon demigod with authority issues whos an alloaro clown named Stupid Cupid. #i think her pronouns were whatever but also it/she? when i say toxic i mean it did have a bit of a Clown Cult. #Cupid i think is possibly its given name and Stupid was her clown ass addition and yes i do know of the song and yes it is on its playlist #obsessed w all the stupid overpowered characters i made in that universe. they were such good concepts. gulliver obviously. charybdis #silas (cupids father + previous (now deceased) god of chaos) #cupids mother who i dont think i had a name for yet but she was supposed to be kind of a neutral lawful (in a rules lawyering way) #moon paladin who hatefucked the god of chaos after failing to kill him which she was trying to do out of devotion to the moon #and she supposed to have what i can only describe as chainsaw powers? and she destroyed every gun in existence and killed anyone who knew #how to make them until there were no guns left bc silas kept being annoying w guns and was trying to use them on the moon. for reasons #so she really pissed him off and impressed him before she finally got to him and tried to kill him. and if she was even a minor god instead #of a 'mortal' it wouldve worked and thats the only reason he didnt die from her. and then her child. stupid cupid the clown #grew up and had issues and started a clown cult and wandered around usurping warlords and dictators before putting her aim on silas #and trying to kill him. but failing not bc she was mortal but bc he outsmarted it. but he couldbt bring himself to kill it so he had her #put to sleep for a thousand yrs until someone else killed him(he pissed off a stupid seagull druid who lured him into the path of Charybdis #who he'd ALSO pissed off and Charybdis mega killed him and then the gull druid was made the new god of chaos just to have someone fill the #roll but then they kind of suck at it? they did not want that much responsibility altho the immortality is nice. when they took over they #released cupid whos a bit of a legend but then the vibes are super weird bc cupid Definitely wants to usurp and take on the mantle of #chaos deity and gulliver idolizes her but doesnt feel great about just handing that over to it? and cupid has to grapple with not being the #one to kill silas. almost everyone she knew is dead. her mom isnt. the world has changed a lot. she finds out her cult is still going and #gets excited? but they have Changed. it disgusts her now. they are not the radical clowns she intended. the vibes are weird. she denounces #that and tries out piracy. she manages to get the moon paladin living chainsaw power? #despite not being aligned w their ideology at all. wow nepotism. then it was going to spiral into some fucking meta galactic shit and have #well. ran out of tags. anyway i miss this character i should figure out what im doing w this universe cos theres no way im dming rn 🙃

[orcelito]

The constant struggle of needing to continue my trimax reread so I can get working on the next ITNL chapter vs the wish to keep playing stardew valley

I started this new game not even a week ago but I'm midway thru the first fall and already married to Sebastian. And so it goes 😂

#speculation nation #im naming all my farm animals after trigun characters. vash and wolfwood are chickens. #milly and meryl are cows. and i just got 2 ducks that i named livio and razlo. #AND im gonna name my dinosaur zazie. bc it just makes sense. #thinking of making midvalley and hoppered goats. elendira & dominique as sheep. #sheryl and lina as rabbits. probably kaite too. hell lets make all the kids rabbits #idk who im gonna do for the pigs. it feels a little mean given the connotation of calling someone a pig. #might break the trigun streak and name my pigs after shrek and fiona. as i have in previous games. #who am i missing. luida as a sheep. brad as a goat. omg knives as a void chicken. #I SHOULDVE NAMED MY HORSE REM!!!! oh well too late. i named my horse after my horse-coded oc Lana #and my cat is named Sammy. after my special orange boy 🥺🥺🥺 #fuck who are the other ghgs. omg monev would work as a pig actually. big guy. #then theres e.g.mine. kinda wanna ignore him bc his name's stupid. #i dont want an animal named e.g.mine 😭😭😭😭 #omfg rai-dei. what the fuck should rai-dei be. none of the animals feel like a rai-dei. maybe i'll make him a duck. #theres leonof... ugh. i dont want a leonof. or a ninelives. fuck those guys. #oh my god how could i almost forget legato??? maybe i'll make him a 2nd void chicken. OH WAIT NO #HE COULD BE ONE OF THOSE BLUE CHICKENS!!! THATS PERFECT!!!! #idk im still working on upgrading my barn and coop so this isnt happening in full for a while still #but i am Thinking About It........ #u can see how well my manga reading is going lmao. oh well. at least im having fun.

[bangcakes]

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#personal #lmao around this time last year i decided to give up on him n LMAO girl if only you knew #i should have just talked to him but djdjjdjdjd idk it felt weird. but he even like. complained one time that we didnt talk all summer #like LMAO..... bro its two ways. u could have messaged me too xjdjjdjdjdj #tho to be fair i think he did show up to a dinner but i wasnt there bc i had just had wisdom tooth surgery n was 1. blown up like a balloon #and 2. so high on pain meds i couldnt function JFJDJJDJDJDJDJ #n e way whatever jdjdjdjd im just laughing at myself bc how did this man become my closest friend from college Zhfnnddnnd #our relationship is so weird. not in a bad way but in an unexpected way #we sat beside each other an entire semester n never talked til the last day like thats so FUNNY IDK #i even said to him that time. bc we were talkin in the hallway n went to sit for the exam n sat in our regular spots of being one seat awa #y and i was like... you know its so funny that we sat beside each other all semester and only talked today #and he was like.... hahha yeah #i was gonna introduce myself but it felt so stupid JDJJDJDJD #i didnt even know his name LMAO #i had him narrowed down to 2 names. bc he was one of like 2 guys that Always showed up in another class' zoom #and LOL i was right. he WAS one of those 2 shjdjsjsj #n e way. then the next sem came n i didnt know whether to say hi to him or not bc we talked ONCE #and i was still wearing my mask at this point and so id try to smile at him with my eyes but never got a response HDNJDJD and so i got soooo #annoyed with him. and even more so bc i kept making friends with ppl and they KNEW HIM??? and i was like WHO IS THIS???? #then one time he came up to me n my friends before class n we just talked and i was like o lmao this annoyance im having??? its a big ole #crush BDNNDNDND #and in community college its hard to like. know ppls ages and that day i found out he was 2 years younger so i was like o ok 26 n 28 isnt #bad at all #but thinking back.... first things we exchanged that time was age and i think he was also trying to fish for whether i was single bc he was #talkin about this other guy havin a baby n a wife n i was like o wow !! i didnt know!! #jdjxjdjdjdk god when he found out my age he was like... oh i never would have guessed you were older. you look young ZFHJDJDJDJDJD #oh so you were Looking is that right HJXJXJXJZJZJ GOD LMAO #i look back on so many moments n im like oh duh... he must be interested #but for me its like. i will literally more easily believe literally any other theory so i thought he just liked one of my friends Zhjxjx #ya i dont think so anymorem but i thought that up until like mid january HDHXJJXJDDJJDJ

[lovromajers]

Cant even yap about uni because id need to post an half an hour voice note on here

#nothing bad btw i just want to yap 😭 #esp about pre and proto history #actually let me tell you ONE story i went to my british pronunciation class today and when the teacher read out the names with mine (my name #is jana btw) jjj.... yyy....yyy and i had to correct her not even an embryo of an attempt to jana [ CROATIAN LASTNAME] #and she said oh! i thought that was a smudge 😊 A SMUDGE IN THE SHAPE OF A PERFECT V ON A PRINTED OUT PAPER? #as in š or č or ž i mean #and THEN she wanted us to introduce ourself and say if we were abroad (in an english speaking country for au pair etc) #and i said i am from CROATIA so i spend a lot of time THERE and she literally went i dont care about that i didnt ask :| #TWO THINGS LADY YOU LITTTTTERALLY DID AN MICROAGRESSION IK YOU DIDNT MEAN IT THAT WAY #SECOND THING I MIGHT HAVE A CROATIAN ACCENT WHILE SPEAKING ENGLISH THEN INSTEAD OF A GERMAN OJE #im soooo mad because she lowkey is fun etc but after she mansplained that she wanted to hear about english countries #i said yes i know :) and we STARED at eachother #GOD HOW EMBARRASSING! BUT DO YOU UNDERSTAND WHY I DID IT??? LIKE I CANT NOT SAY THAT!!!!! AND NOW IVE BEEN #SITTING LIKE A SIM THATS CONSTANTLY EMBARRASSED ALL DAY ON THAT STUPID INTERACTON #INFRONT OF THE ENTIRE CLASS #sham!s rambles

[lacependragon]

Hi I'm gonna rant about Apothecary Diaries and how much I hate it again because Youtube won't stop reccing me videos of it and I have to keep staring at the thumbnails while I wait for my sub page to load. So I keep thinking. And spiralling.

Also straight up like 75% of my problem with Apothecary Diaries is that Jinshi is not a fucking eunuch.

It's like the basis of him being in the harem area. Not only is it a massive fuck you to everything about harem but like? It's solely so that he, the love interest, has a cock he can stick in Maomao? It's because he's the male love interest. That's it.

If he was actually a eunuch it might be an interesting take on the romance. As it stands, it's the most boring, cookie cutter, snark-snark woman in a subservient position but doesn't act like it, heterosexual relationship ever. It reminds me of 10,000 other romances that have done it better and with more interesting men.

And god I just. It's so frustrating because Jinshi is the only part of this show that I dislike! The rest of the show has fascinating themes and moral quandries and characters. And then there's Jinshi. Trying to fuck Maomao. And being creepy. And being in the harem area despite not being a eunuch and clearly having a sexual desire for Maomao. Which, again, rules. Where are the rules. Why does this rule not fucking matter.

Why does the worldbuilding of this series build up everything so nicely and so perfectly and then Jinshi comes in and none of it applies to him? It's not even well written in the narrative. He just sucks. He can do whatever he wants. Whenever he wants. And there's no fucking consequences. Ever.

Oh no Maomao thinks he's ugly.

Big fucking whoop this guy could hold her down and assault her and he wouldn't get in trouble.

I just. I cannot get over how much Jinshi sucks. How much his character is awful. How the story just completely ignores all the ways he breaks it and its rules and just goes "lalalalala" and keeps going.

Everything about Jinshi sucks. He breaks every rule. He is creepy. He abuses his power. He's not actually supposed to be in the fucking harem. And in the end it's SURPRISE! He's got a functional cock! So he can FUCK YOU ANYWAY!

Honestly it seems to me like the creator just. Fell in love with Jinshi and stopped caring about logic.

And I STILL can't get over the BAIT AND SWITCH and the eunuch thing. Like of COURSE the ONE THING that makes this not a typical power-struggle snark-snark-kiss anime relationship isn't even fucking REAL.

God I fucking hate this series.

#no amount of worldbuilding can save you from how fucking stupid Jinshi's entire character is #i wanna take the mangaka by the face and go 'you ruined an interesting storyline so people could picture him fucking. congrats' #god i fucking hate this series #yes this is why i cant stop thinking about it #its like a rock in my shoe #i just cannot FATHOM with this series #i mean i w ouldnt even be this annoyed but then i found out everyones favourite character in dungeon meshi has my AWFUL SISTERS NAME #and that is REALLY FUCKING RACIST (go read the manga dare you) #so THAT started grossing me out #so now i just have all this misplaced anger and frustration for dungeon #thats gonna get shoved here #theres no good anime right now #fucking end me #its all the same bullcrap as always #dont get me wrong i love a fucked up power imbalanced romance #but thats not what this is #at all

[borderlinegerard]

i hope i die, you broke my heart

#personal #my posts #so fucking tired oh my god #just yelled at my sister so loud that my throat is sore over a piece of fuciing plastic #sometimes ecerytbinf feels so bad and its like. what do i even do #like ok i relapse and i need a break from someone and they loose their fucking shit on me #taljing about how you always deal with my shit and youre tired of how i see you as the worst in the group #as if i didnt literally repeat to you over and over again that i love you and that i always will even when you kept denying it #all of the times youve left all the servers and the gc and all that and i was there to comfort you #theres a reason im always the person you go to #byt yeah . im neverrrr there for you #like is it just that im not there for you in the Same Way that youre there forme ?? #does it need to be completely equal to be fair #and idk. i know hes struggling too but its so fucking stupid because ive been struggling for months and i dont treat u like tjat #im tired of feeling like i have to do two times more than everyone else ro be worthy of their love #like sorry man but im fucking sick and tired #i know ill be fine without you but like youre so sick right now that i dont know what youll do without all of us #idk im just like. you used to be so kind but now youre writing your name in mu blood #and sometimes i feel bad because i didnt mean evedytbinf i said to you but lets be honest #you didnt mean everyrbinf you said either #and i dont know if you were ever the right person because a lot of the time i think we are just two chemicals that werent meant to mix #but ill always remember you when i hear that one song and im making it sound like this is some kind if goodbye but it Really isnt #but like there was a time when i would tear myself apart for you. mot even because i liked you that much #i guess i just wanted someone that liked me as much as you did??? #and when j say that it isnt even about one soecific oerson. its an amalgamation of ecery person tgat has ever loved me #a little more than they were supposed to #i think i hate ahen people love me Too Much because i dont want to be adored like that it scares me #iknow what thats like and i dont want to be someone fp Its so scary #okay if im being honest i dont know whbat the fuck im saying right mow #byt like. idk. im tired and i think im done. tbh