#; asks for an exhausted pigeon (ooc asks)

[valentinedaughtler]

Haven’t I Given Enough?

Kaz Brekker x GN!Inventor!Reader

TW: use of Y/N, mild, mild angst, slight ooc Kaz(?) (I think that’s it, let me know if I missed anything please.)

Synopsis: You’ve known Kaz for years, inventing gadgets to assist in heists and being his right hand ‘man’. One night you ask him if you can join a heist, but it doesn’t go as planned….

REQUESTS: OPEN✅

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My eyes flitted between the arriving guests in the bar. The Crow Club was packed tonight, and pigeons strolled in with restless naivety. I sat in the corner of the bustling room, sighing with exhaustion. I had just spent seventeen hours imitating mechanical watches in order to create a ‘fake’ for Kaz do swap with a real one. ‘Just something I need for a heist,’ was all he had said.

It would be worth it to know Kaz was proud of me in the end. Though, it was a long shot to think he would even do much as acknowledge anything I did.

I pondered whether I should slip through the crowd to find Jesper, but I couldn’t spot him. Instead, I pushed my way out of the suffocating bar out into the damp streets of Ketterdam. The cool air calmed my mind as I crossed toward the Slat. The cold made my cheeks rosy.

With the flick of a wrist, I flipped a switch blended into the old building’s exterior wall. It was hidden to an unsuspecting pedestrian yet, but it set off a system of pullies I had integrated into the inner walls a long time ago. A soft shlink was followed by the outward jutting of brick.

The side of the building became a rock-wall of sorts, since I could not climb up every surface like Inej. I began to grip the bricks, digging my nails into the gritty platforms.

Kaz was not always a fan of my inventions. A few had blown up in his face- literally- but it seemed he kept me around due to my many successes. I could fix any machine made by man. I didn’t have to know what it was, I could just take it apart in my mind, then do so in reality.

This was one of my inventions, a brick wall that was easy to climb, but could be hidden. Inej loved it- Kaz felt it was a waste of time.

He said there were stairs for a reason.

I shimmied the window of Kaz’s office open, the latch flipping and the glass sliding. I hopped off of the ledge and into the office, making sure to reset my brick contraption. I turned around and cleared my throat, but Kaz did not glance up at me. I rolled my eyes as he squinted at the blueprints that lay on his makeshift desk.

“Good evening, Brekker,” I greeted with a jokingly enticing tone. His eye twitched and he proceeded to turn his attention to me.

“Hello, Y/N,” his gravely voiced rasped in response. I smiled slightly, regretting so, and dig into my left pants pocket. I pulled out a shiny, gold watch with engraved initials. Whose they were was unknown to me, but if I asked, Kaz would most likely just shut me down. I had to respect his odd secrecy after all he had done for me. Out of all the years I’d known him, it has always been as if he kept me at an arm’s length. He was careful to never be vulnerable, as if that was the same as his skin touching mine.

I gestured for him to catch the watch when I tossed it, but he glared. I let out an exasperated sigh.

“You’re such a buzzkill,” I teased while handing the fake to him.

“You’re… difficult,” he retorted, but there was no malice behind his words- surprisingly. I huffed and plopped onto the blanket sprawled out on the windowsill. My eyes followed Kaz’s movements as he tentaviety inspected the watch. After a few minutes he placed it onto his desk and resumed his work. I waited patiently for any sign of recognition, but it never came.

“You’re welcome,” I mumbled while stretching out my legs. I opened up my leather sketchbook to doodle a new invention design. That or I’d just draw Kaz. But I was too annoyed with him to do so.

The dark haired boy sighed as he looked over at me. “You did good. It looks identical.”

I didn’t say anything in response, but I smiled slightly, my face heating up. It was embarrassing how easily I was flattered by Kaz, who could barely do the bare minimum.

“What ere you using it for— the watch, I mean,” I asked with growing curiosity. Kaz halted his work for a moment, most likely deciding if he felt like sharing or not.

“A local banker,-“

“The more-of-a-wanker-than-a-banker one?” I cut off his response, immediately feeling embarrassed. Kaz looked at me with mild confusion. “Inside joke with Jesper,” I elaborated.

He hummed in response, then continued, “He’s more of a swanker. For the past few months he has been flaunting his wealth a little too much. Especially his watch. It’s his most prized possession. I plan to take it from his vault; a simple swap.”

“What would you do without me?” I asked with a sly smirk. Kaz huffed, perhaps laughed.

“I’d have less of your inventions explode on me.”

“It was one time, Kaz,” I said with exasperation. My eye glittered as I met his gaze. I open my mouth to speak, but immediately close it again, pressing my lips together firmly.

“Kaz?”

“Y/N,”

“I want to go on a mission with you and the crows,” I blurted out. Kaz froze, only for a fraction of a moment, but Kaz Brekker froze. He nodded towards my left arm, where a tattoo of a crow craning over a guatlet was etched into my skin.

“You are a crow,” he finally rasped, dodging my question until I glared daggers into his skin. “And I have everyone we need for the mission-“

“Wylan is sick. You need someone who can easily disable complex machinery- the alarms, the traps-“

“I said no,” Kaz’s voice raised, sounding threatening.

“Why not?”

“Y/N,” his voice sounded as if he meant, don’t push it. But I did. I always did, and Kaz always kept me by his side anyways.

“I don’t understand- ever since I got hurt on that one heist you haven’t let me participate-“

“Exactly! You got hurt,” he said. His jaw clenched and his eyes avoided mine. I watched his Adam’s apple bob as he gulped.

“Dregs get hurt all the time- saints, some of the crows do too-“

“This is different,”

“How?”

“You’re an investment,” he stated blankly, “and I protect my investments.” I felt heat flush my face, my fists balling up and my shoulders tensing.

“That’s rich, Kaz, real rich,” I spat. Embarrassment pooled in my stomach and my eyes. “But that’s all you want, right? Kruge? Money? Power?” He didn’t say anything as I slitted my eyes and scrunched my nose. “Saints forbid the people who help you get to that point.”

Before Kaz could respond, if he even chose to, I got up and walked across his office, my shoes clacking against the hard, wooden floors. The old floorboards moaned and groaned at the pressure I subjected them to.

“Y/N-,” Kaz tried to get up, but his bad leg involuntarily spasmed at his abrupt movement.

The door slammed behind me. I knew it wasn’t a big deal, it felt like the last thing to topple a delicate card tower. Each card was a jab or a deny Kaz made regarding our… relationship, if you could call it that. He and I had been friends long before the other crows came along, yet I felt I’d come to know him the least. I sighed.

I turned back around on my heel, opening the splintered office door. On the other side was Kaz, reaching for the handling on the opposing side.

“You’re not an investment,”

I kept any snarky comments bottled up inside, along with my tears. I could tell what he was convey was eating away at him, so I let him speak.

“If I lost you, I’d have to burn Ketterdam down, and then I’d have no kingdom to rule,” his words soared through the air between us and to my heart.

“I just keep feeling like I’ve given enough, Kaz. I know I deserve to go on heists. If you see my as an equal, you have to treat me like one.” I met his deep, coffee-brown eyes.

He nodded. One of his gloved hands hesitantly, begrudgingly, came up to touch my face. He cupped my cheek and I leaned into the cold, leather touch. I knew this was the best answer he could give me at the moment. It was a more meaningful gesture than anything he could’ve said. He’d let me help on the heist, and for once in a very long time, it felt like he had let his high walls crumble a bit.

I knew I’d given enough.

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Word Count: 1460

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Part 2????

-Valentine

#shadow and bone #six of crows #fanfic #kaz brekker #kaz brekker x reader #kaz brekker x y/n #kaz brekker x you #gn reader #gn!reader #gn!y/n #gn #x reader #inventor #Grishaverse #hurt/comfort #confession #Ketterdam #kaz Brekker is bad at feelings #soc #soc kaz #sab

[atrxpine]

MOBILE RULES

INTRODUCTION; hi, it's kayla or k, 25+, she/her, ESL, permanently exhausted pigeon. i study and work full time, and surprisingly i have a lot of friends, but i'll try to be consistent with replies and such. ok that's a lie i'm a chaotic person, i don't even know the word consistency. i love to talk to my mutuals, my dms are always open to you.

CAUTION; please do not follow me or interact with me if you are underage. im a trash person, i curse, i make innuendos all the time, i like to write about darker themes and nsfw might happen on this blog if im in the mood. fanarts and stuff too, so yeah im not pg13. i'll try to tag the most common triggers, i myself have none becaue i've done a lot of therapy lol but yeah if i miss something lmk allright?

HOW TO INTERACT?; best ice-breakers are memes, this is my prompt tag, you are always welcome to go through them and send me something. unprompted asks are always loved. i usually write multi-para, but sometimes one liners are so good to relax you feel me? i LOVE ocs! if you have them send them my way, i'm forever curious. uh.. what else? crossovers are great, crack interactions always spike my serotonin, and i usually vibe very well with dupes. there's nothing better than screaming about your muse with someone who also writes them. yeah.

BIG NO NOs; nitrogen oxide. lol. anyway, you know, don't be an ass, don't be a bigot and whatever-phobic please. i don't like drama or call outs on my dash so i might unfollow if i see it. you'll never catch me participate in ooc drama. ic drama on the other hand? sign me the fuck up.

SHIPPING; so i'm a shipping whore let's make that clear right off the bat, but lately i care less and less about this aspect of the rp. my muses need friends, platonic relationships, people they don't like etc. that being said, this blog is multi-ship

bruh if there's anything else... well i don't care, this was exhausting, lmao bye.

#mobile rules.

[lxspedeza]

MOBILE RULES

INTRODUCTION; hi, it's kayla or k, 25+, she/her, ESL, permanently exhausted pigeon, and i've been writing ino on/off since 2015 and been obsessed with her since i was a little kid. she is a character that i grew up with and thus is very close to my heart. i hope i still make justice to her. i study and work full time, and surprisingly i have a lot of friends, but i'll try to be consistent with replies and such. ok that's a lie i'm a chaotic person, i don't even know the word consistency. i love to talk to my mutuals, my dms are always open to you.

CAUTION; please do not follow me or interact with me if you are underage. im a trash person, i curse, i make innuendos all the time, i like to write about darker themes and nsfw might happen on this blog if im in the mood. fanarts and stuff too, so yeah im not pg13. i'll try to tag the most common triggers, i myself have none becaue i've done a lot of therapy lol but yeah if i miss something lmk allright?

HOW TO INTERACT?; best ice-breakers are memes, this is my prompt tag, you are always welcome to go through them and send me something. unprompted asks are always loved. i usually write multi-para, but sometimes one liners are so good to relax you feel me? i LOVE ocs! if you have them send them my way, i'm forever curious. uh.. what else? crossovers are great, crack interactions always spike my serotonin, and i usually vibe very well with dupes. there's nothing better than screaming about your muse with someone who also writes them. yeah.

BIG NO NOs; nitrogen oxide. lol. anyway, you know, don't be an ass, don't be a bigot and whatever-phobic please. i don't like drama or call outs on my dash so i might unfollow if i see it. you'll never catch me participate in ooc drama. ic drama on the other hand? sign me the fuck up.

SHIPPING; so i'm a shipping whore let's make that clear right off the bat, but lately i care less and less about this aspect of the rp. my muse needs friends, platonic relationships, people she doesn't like, people she has to tolerate etc. that being said, this blog is multi-ship, until further notice i'll play ino as pansexual. otp is kibaino, i'm always down for that one. yeah idk honestly all of this is mood dependent

bruh if there's anything else... well i don't care, this was exhausting, lmao bye.

#mobile rules. #look at me writing actual rules after 66541+ years

[disastrcl]

[ Message Incoming ]: Anonymous

ANONYMOUSLY TELL ME YOUR HONEST OPINION ABOUT ME. I CAN’T REPLY/COMMENT, JUST PUBLISH.

I think private and highly selective rpers is whats wrong with the community. Basically means you're super picky with high standards of who is allowed to talk to you. Have you enjoyed reblogging memes and making promos but never actually roleplaying because you're so closed off?

【☆】 Hi there welcome to the club of ‘I don’t care I’ll run my blog however I like’  I reblog memes and I don’t always expect people to respond to them. That’s life. I’m here for fun not to hound people to send or write with me. As it says in my rules, don’t like how I run the place then don’t follow. I’m not gonna feel guilt for how I run my account. 

Besides. I’m pretty sure I know who you are dear anon because this isn’t the first time you’ve done this to me. This will be the third time you’ve done it considering the first two where on my old accounts and honestly I was surprised to see you follow me after you sent me this same bullshit last. I’m not one to go blocking and all cause I don’t like cause shit even if someones been highly rude to me. I blacklist for my own comfort. You followed, I was surprised and just decided to just leave you be because whatever. I don’t care in the slightest. I’m just here to vibe and write whenever.

Anyways How about you be a dear and just fuck off? As I said I know who you are. Block me or whatever. I don’t care. Just maybe actually find and read the answers to the last two asks you sent me like a year ago but that’s asking far too much I guess. 

Thanks for the message however. Hopefully you’ll learn to not be so bitter with the fact your not entitled to anyones time and that not everyone wants to write with you!!!!

#ooc: permanently exhausted pigeon dead on the inside (ooc) #; personals/non rp do not reblog #; do not reblog #anonymous #; asks #((yeah idk im tagging this as drama so people don't have to see this bullshit if #they don't want to #like damn bois #imagine being salty as fuck #because you followed a private and selective account #and you don't agree with it lmao #fuckin rich i can't believe the nerve of people)) #; drama #((im sorry to new people and this is the first #thing they see of me writing here #asfdsghjkl #fuckin lethal my guys that my accounts here like 2 weeks #and people already trying to start shit)) #ooc: a wild ask about the mun appears (ooc asks)

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OOC Tag Dump

ooc: permanently exhausted pigeon dead on the inside (ooc)

ooc: a wild ask about the mun appears (ooc asks)

ooc: important stuff (psa)

ooc: so who shall we write today? (starter call)

ooc: and who shall we promote today? (self promo)

ooc: living the meme life (memes)

ooc: everyones resting back soon (queue)

ooc: the sin bin (nsfw)

ooc: things that have or will be used (resources)

ooc: promoting that good stuff (promo)

ooc: talented creators (fanart)

ooc: collection of headcanons for my muses (headcanons)

#; tag dump #ooc: a wild ask about the mun appears (ooc asks) #ooc: important stuff (psa) #ooc: so who shall we write today? (starter call) #ooc: and who shall we promote today? (self promo) #ooc: living the meme life (memes) #ooc: everyones resting back soon (queue) #ooc: the sin bin (nsfw) #ooc: things that have or will be used (resources) #ooc: talented creators (fanart) #ooc: collection of headcanons for my muses (headcanons) #; personals/non rp do not reblog #; do not reblog #ooc: promoting that good stuff (promo) #ooc: permanently exhausted pigeon dead on the inside (ooc)

[disastrcl-a]

@fullofmoxxie​ asked:  ☂ and ☺ for the munday meme!

Hella Sweet Munday Meme - Accepting

☂ What’s your best RP experience?

【☆】 I’ve already answered this but it can be found here

☺  What tends to bring out your muse the most? What inspires you?

【☆】 I guess it varies depending on the muse. Music is just a big inspiration in general that brings out a muse mainly. Yeah okay I do get a little distracted at times singing or bopping along to a song, but if I listen to songs that I associate with a muse then I brain storm headcanons or write RP stuff.  

Like with Death listening to Lady Gaga, 21 pilots and Hollywood Undead tend to give me muse for him. It depends on if I am writing him as a God or as his human self. With Jinx it would be a lot of fast paced music like S3RL, workout music and just fast paced rock sometimes. Angel is probably obvious but since I haven’t properly wrote him yet I haven’t actually figured that out yet. But I feel it’s gonna be songs related to sex tbh like BOTDF or just a bunch of pop songs that talk about it. 

Rpiers and friends inspire me too. Like if people are genuinely interested in my muses I’m more likely to gush about them and write headcanons and just devolpe them way more compared to muses that people don’t take much interest in. Though if I absolutely adore the muse good luck having me be quite about them at all!

#fullofmoxxie #ooc: permanently exhausted pigeon dead on the inside (ooc) #ooc: a wild ask about the mun appears (ooc asks) #; do not reblog #; personals/non rp do not reblog

[seanymphic-blog]

i  love  exploring  thetis’  personality  so  much  i’m  (’:

#now imma go do some uni work #send me ic asks xx #write me starters xx #love u babes #—— ･ ⇀ / ooc. exhausted pigeon tm.

[bunn1loid]

🌿 gn!reader who struggles to express their feelings ✩

➝ kaeya, diluc, chongyun

✩ warnings: mentions of anxiety

✩ a/n: i feel like diluc is ooc in here. sorry about that ):

❧ Kaeya

• it doesn't take him long to notice your troubles. he's observant, you can't hide anything from him.

• you tend to play with your hands when speaking, scratching your skin when you get too nervous. sometimes, you speak so fast, Kaeya wonders if even you understood what you were saying.

• he seems to be the complete opposite of you: he looks confident when talking, and dominates most conversations. there are times when you wish you were like him.

• but really, he gets shy and almost anxious when things get personal, too.

• he understands how you feel, to a certain extend.

• he keeps a notebook and a pen with him. if talking is too hard, you can just write down whatever you have in mind and give the piece of paper to him.

•  you can play with his hair or his clothes, he doesn't mind.

❝   Your day had been a disaster.

While you were on your way to feed the ducks for Timmie, you tripped on a rock and fell right in the lake. Not only did you get your clothes wet, but you could also see how disappointed the child was when you tried to explain that you scared the ducks away. The rest of your commissions went relatively well, until you had to fight a group of hilichurch. There were too many, running in different directions while screaming around you, it was too much.

Though you didn’t suffer any serious injury aside from a few bruises, you were exhausted and fed up with everything. When you walked past the two knights guarding the gates of Mondstadt, you had tears in your eyes.

And when you thought it couldn’t get worse, you bumped into someone while rushing back home. You expected a rude comment, a glare from them, or...

a gentle tap on the shoulder... ?

“ Why hello, Y/N. “ You sighed in relief when you recognised Kaeya’s voice. “ You should keep your pretty face u- “

That was it.

You tried to apologise for not watching where you were going, but your words turned into sobs and you buried your head in your hands, embarassed.

” Calm down, Y/N. You don't need to apologise for this. " He kept his hand on your shoulder, drawing circles with his thumb. His touch was warm, and the firm grip he had on your shoulder was comforting, as if preventing you from falling apart." You don't seem to be feeling well. Please, tell me how I can help you. "

" It- Everything was stressful, the pigeons- I'm tired! " That was all you managed to blurt out through your tears, and that was all he needed to know. Still, you tried to continue, pushing your limits. " 'm gonna get sick. I'm.. cold."

Kaeya couldn't help but chuckle.

Surely there was more to the story, but it was adorable to see you complaining about pigeons and catching a cold.

He didn't dare to tease you though, not wanting to worsen your mood. Instead, he brought you home, holding your hand until you felt safe enough to let go on your own. ❞

• he knows you're tired. it takes a lot of efforts and energy to form conherent sentences and find the right words when you're stressed, he can't blame you for this.

• he tells you to rest.

• if you do fall asleep, you'll wake up with your favorite drink on the nightstand. your notebook and pen will be placed next to your legs, with a note from Kaeya that says: "I'm proud of you! ♡"

❧  Diluc

•  he prefers when you get to the point, but he stays patient for you. he knows it's difficult.

• if he sees you struggling, he might ask you precise questions that you can answer easily. it's his way of guiding you through the conversation.

• lets you hide in his coat when you're too confused or scared <3

• if he sees you making progress, Diluc tells you that he's proud of you, and that you're stronger than you think.

• doesn't mind bending down in order to hear what you're saying. he knows it's embarrassing to be told to "speak louder" and he doesn't want to be that kind of person.

• Diluc also has a notebook in the pocket of his coat, but he rarely gets it out, unless you really need it: although he doesn't want to rush you, he wants you to get better soon. he's afraid you might not be able to take care of yourself without him.

• he tries to guess how you're feeling, learning your body language. that way, you don't have to verbally ask for comfort.

❝    Diluc sensed something was wrong as soon as you entered the tavern.

Your eyes were wide open, glancing around as if you were expecting a threat to come out of nowhere. You flinched when one of the drunk men at the back laughed loudly.

“ Y/N. “ Diluc tapped his knuckles against the counter, wanting to attract your attention. He kept his voice low for you. “ Come here. “

You quickly made your way behind the counter, and he greeted you by wrapping his coat around you, holding you close to his chest.

The warmth that envelopped you carried the scents of smoke and wine, but you didn’t mind. It smelled just like him, after all.

Diluc combed his fingers through your hair, making sure to untangle any knot he could find; he guessed you gripped your hair earlier that day, out of stress or frustration.

“ I’ll close the tavern in an hour or two. Think you can wait until then ? “ He felt you nodding against him and continued, “ You can stay here, we’ll go home soon. “

You reluctantly detached yourself from his body. He took off his coat and placed it on your shoulders, keeping his hands on it for a while in order to warm it up. “ Paper and pen are in my pockets, don’t hesitate to use them. “ ❞

• there’s a stool behind the counter, and it’s just for you, that way you can stay close to Diluc while he’s working.

• when you two get home, he can read you a story to calm you down! there’s nothing he wouldn’t do to make you feel better.

❧ Chongyun

•  oh, he gets it.

• he behaves the same way when his yang energy gets out of control. the only difference is that he genuinely spouts nonsense when he’s in that state, he doesn’t necessarily try to convey any message.

•  he makes sure that both of you are comfortable when you’re stressed, gives you as much time as you need.

•  encourages you to keep a journal - one that he’s allowed to read. even if what you write is a little hard to understand, it gives him more time to read it all.

•  and even if you cross words or scribble, he can always ask Xingqiu to translate.

• he’s not sure how to solve problems, but he’ll gladly distract you from what caused you trouble if you don’t mind.

❝         The sun was setting behind the golden trees of Liyue, letting the lights of the Harbor take over. The gentle breeze that made the branches sing was cold, contrasting with the heat of your stressed body.

Chongyun sat next to you, and handed you an ice-cream. “ I got this from Chef Mao. It might be a little tasteless, but... “

You smiled and muttered an hesitant “ Thanks “.

Your eyes were still red from crying, as you wondered why people couldn’t understand how hard you were trying to speak. They’d always tell you to make an effort, to speak louder, to stop acting to shy. You were tired of them misunderstanding everything and not giving you enough time to explain.

It wasn’t like this with Chongyun.

He was patient, encouraging you whenever you grew too anxious to speak. He didn’t mind staying outside with you at night, if it meant occasionally losing an hour of sleep.

His favourite thing to do was to talk about his knowledge in exorcism, and tell you about the things he did with his friends during the day. Then, he would always ask you what you did, and what you would want to do the next day.

And he’d wait for your answer, smiling as you shyly told him about your hobbies.

“ I, um... “ You looked down at the grass as you spoke. “ Thanks for... being here. For me. “

Chongyun nodded. “ That’s the least I can do for a friend. Thank you for trusting me, Y/N. “

You weren’t used to having someone to gentle with you, and couldn’t help but break down in tears at the thought. These were happy tears though, and Chongyun knew that.

He laughed, placing his free hand on your back and rubbing up and down to soothe you. ❞

• if he ever gets a little lost or runs out of ways to help you, he immediately runs to his friends or someone older for advice.

• he’ll never grow impatient or yell at you, no matter how much you struggle to speak or open up. (:

#genshin impact x reader #diluc x reader #kaeya x reader #chongyun x reader

[heroismdreams-moved]

◇ (◇ - not sure if u prefer asks or tumblr message system for communicating...O///O )

{ Why Aren’t We Roleplaying } | ◇ - Other/idk just wanted to say hi

( How to communicate with Carol, a non-exhaustive list : )

1. IM’s2. Asks3. Is Fanmail still a feature or did tumblr get rid of it? If it is - Fanmail.4. Commenting on my ooc posts.5. Do you have my discord? My discord.6. Carrier Pigeon7. Carrier Swallow - both African and European varieties, though the African Swallow is non migratory.8. Pony express9. Somehow find my real world address and mail me a letter10. Shout ‘Red Robin’ and wait for me to yell back ‘Yum’11. Say ‘Stephanie Br*wn wasn’t Robin’ or other incendiary remarks and wait for me to burst through the crowd.12. Morse code. 13. Horse code. 14. Two cans tied together with string15. Walkie Talkies, over.16. Hit me with a brick and tie a note to the brick.17. Just fckin hit me in general.

( Please note this list is non-exhaustive and subject to change. )

#answered #✽ ooc (ᵒᵘᵗ ᵒᶠ ᵐᵉᵐᵉˢ) #museofsolaris

[denicdlife-a]

[ Message Incoming ]: @detective-rk400​

Send me a “ 🔥 “ for an unpopular opinion.

🔥🔥🔥

[Topic Chosen]: Complaining about what’s on the dash

【☆】I fortunately haven’t seen this yet here in the DBH RPC but I have seen it frequently in the past in other fandoms and I have seen complaining over some of the dumbest shit in the past such as over ships, portrayals and fanon vs canon and even just see stuff of people complaining about seeing people they didn’t like on their dash. 

And you know what that shit is annoying. If something bothers you that’s on your dashboard. There’s a handy thing called blacklist. Or even unfollow or block if you really need too. It’s not that hard. 

Like I have callouts and drama blacklisted. You don’t see me complaining about it constantly. And if someone just constantly involves themselves in this stuff? I softblock them to get rid of them completely. Don’t see me complaining about anyone I ever blocked for my own comfort either appearing on my dash either. Why? Because I’m a grown ass adult who knows what to do in order to make my dash comfortable for myself. I take the actions necessary to make myself comfortable on this website as much as possible!

If you can’t even do that then you need to stop and think ‘Is Tumblr the place for me?’ cause yeah, even with updates that’s made it a little bit shittier, for me it’s also one of the only places I know where you can take the steps needed to cater your dash to your needs. 

In general, stop complaining about stuff you don’t like on the dash and use what’s been provided to get rid of said things from your dash. It’s not that fuckin hard.

#detective rk400 #detectiverk400 #; the gremlin surviving on pure spite and caffeine (ooc) #; asks for an exhausted pigeon (ooc asks) #; asks #tw; salty astral

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Chosen Topic: Using mental health to justify actions

【☆】Don’t do this please. I’ve had people use their mental health to justify their shitty behaviour and keep me roped in with being their friends. Looking for pity and sympathy along with guilt tripping, gas lighting and suicide baiting me. It’s awful to experience. Now that I’m older and more experienced I won’t be letting this occur again. For anyone concerned this happened when I was around 15/16 and I dropped them by leaving an entire fandom just to escape as I didn’t know what to do other than leave the fandom to get away from them. I don’t tolerate this behaviour and will not allow anyone to do this to me again. 

Mental health should not be used to justify your shitty behaviour. It might explain why you do certain things at times, but you shouldn’t be using it as your scapegoat, using it to avoid taking responsibility for your actions and try to better yourself. That’s not acceptable behaviour and can in turn lead you into becoming a toxic individual. If someone tells you to cut your shit out, don’t go crying to someone about it. If someone is saying your behaviour is not good and might be considered toxic, then it’s best to look over how you’ve been acting to see how true it is. 

Look. I get it. I do get how mental health can affect your behaviour at times. I do. My own affects me on a daily basis on how I behave around others. I tend to be very self-loathing and negative about myself on a daily basis about things I do and I’m not very good at accepting praise or being told I’m doing good. But it’s a behaviour I know I have and I try to catch myself out on it so I’m not being extremely self-loathing or rejecting praise immediately. It happens sometimes though and I know this is shitty behaviour. Yes it happens cause of my own mental health but I don’t justify my actions as being okay because they aren’t okay and I shouldn’t be doing that. Usually it’s just be telling myself these things but sometimes it slips in a conversation with people at work and I always end up apologising for saying that because ya know. I shouldn’t be doing that but it happens sometimes. But in the end, at least I can recognise that it isn’t good of me to do those things and can correct myself and apologise to the person for saying self-loathing things about myself. Because I don’t want to garner a pity party because I’m not doing gucci. 

You gotta take responsibility for your own health in the end. It’s up to you to change your behaviour if someone tells you about it or you realise that some things you do or say are kinda shitty. And if you don’t? Well don’t be surprised if people call you out about it and drop you like a hot potato because in reality, they can drop you for their own well being if they want to. I’ve done it to people and I will do it again if I need to because I don’t need people using their mental health against me to try and justify their shitty behaviour. 

And if you think me saying this is harsh? It’s unfortunately not my fault if you think this is. I’m 23 and I’ve experienced toxic people in the past using their mental health against me to garner pity, attention, use me and keep me as their friend and it worked until I learnt it wasn’t okay and dropped them like a hot potato for my own well being. People don’t have to help you work through your mental health if you’ve been shitty and toxic with it because that isn’t their job. They can leave you for their own well being and that will happen and is okay. It just means you have to learn and grow to be a better person and not let this kind of behaviour take over. And if you don’t try to improve? Don’t be surprised if people leave you.

But anyways. Thanks for coming to TED talk on this.

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[ Message Incoming ]: @kxruyucu​

What drew you to my blog initially, and what, so far, has made you stay?

what drew me: i was lookin for dbh blogs n i found yours! when I took a look at your blog i was in awe ?? i’ll be honest, aesthetics do capture my attention fast! then i read the rules n the bio n read some posts n i was like wHOA HIT THE FOLLOW BUTTON !! n i stayed bcuz from what i manage to capture on my dash, you’re a great presence to have on the dash, a very talented writer, an open minded person, n rohan has stolen my heart !!

【☆】Honestly when I first read this I was super tired and I cried in bed because??? This was so nice to read???? Because I know how off putting my rules can be as they seem long and strict but honestly I am just tired and want to set boundaries ;w; And yeah I’m a lil aesthetic gremlin I like to make complicated or pretty things for usage!! 

But???? I’m glad you like what you’ve seen so far. I wouldn’t know about my presence as I’m just a lil gremlin who appears and disappears with memes uwu. Sorry though. No refunds on getting your heart back.

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[ Message Incoming ]: Anonymous

Any favorite thread ideas you are exited for?

【☆】This ask is killing me on the inside just a little bit. Because I am hyped for a lot of threads but I’m such a slow bitch cause of work as well as destroying my soul due to the amount of IC things I have to do but that’s a me issue and I’ll slowly get through everything eventually.

I’m hyped to get to writing here with my waifu @robobiitch​, my husbando @rob0badge​ and my fellow danger noodle of a waifu @ruthlessnessisyourdesire // @creation-is-chaos. They’re all good beans who I adore and can’t wait to see the antics that our muses will get up to. I love you all and don’t forget it!

I also can’t forget my lovely lil bean GooV @ambitiouslyruthless​. I’m enjoy the things we’re writing privately and the threads we got going here. Just know that I love you and I’m never going to sleep at a normal time! 

Though I am excited for all current threads. There’s so many talented writers out there! I really do just wish I had more time in day to feel alive and write with you all but sadly work is a thing and I have to make a living somehow. Just know I am excited to get to the asks and replies I got and write starters for people I never interacted with before!

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[ Message Incoming ]: @creation-is-chaos​

beep beep how’s my portrayal ?

Rohan is his own gremlin and I mean that in the best way possible. He is an asshole who will take no shit. That's the kind of good boy I'm talking about. Your writing flows really nice and I like what I'm seeing on my dash. I'm really in for seeing how things go with him and 60 but I am also curious how Rohan would react to Corvus. We shall see. You are a literal danger noodle ;) So is Rohan.

【☆】Ash my fellow danger noodle!!! I love you <3. Rohan no matter what will always be an asshole. I am crying a little internally because I always worry people do not like the words I throw out at you all ;w; I do need to have him eventually interact with Corvus and see if they end up possibly stabbing each other or some weird mutual agreement that works for the two some how. In general I need to have him sass all your muses eventually! Careful though, I will bite like Rohan >:3c

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[ Message Incoming ]: @rob0badge​

What drew you to my blog initially, and what, so far, has made you stay?

I came for the gremlins and I staid for the gremlins 

【☆】A gremlin appeared for gremlin muses and stayed because all muses are gremlins that just happen to have a gremlin for a mun!

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[ Message Incoming ]: @robobiitch​

tell me something positive!

Hey nerd, you already know that all your muses are *chefs kiss* to me but just fyi rohan can stab me and i'd thank him for it

【☆】Hewwo bby. I love you too. We need to write our dumbasses together at some point ;w; I mean I don’t really want him to stab you but if that makes you happy I guess I can let him stab you one(1) time.

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