#//its nice to love something. to be loved. yk?

[kpopscruggles]

Do you think you could write something like jay has a secret crush on the reader ( in a school setting) ,like Everytime he tries to make a move on her she thinks he's just being nice ( can u make him kind of controlling ) and eventually he can't take it anymore so he does something wild ( u can choose yk anything spicy) so she'll finally understand.

I hope that wasn't vague or unclear , if it is let me know and I'll answer anything, if you could please write that it would be nice :)

MINE

It’s like 1200 words I’m sorry-

It’s also takes place in the school bathroom….

Anyway…hope you like it even though I kinda got carried away…

Notproofreadwell

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He needed it, it was itching at his skin in a way that clawing at himself couldn’t satisfy. Jay was a sweet guy; he knew that himself but something about you just made him disgusted with himself. The way he would do the filthiest things for you were all round questionable. He knew you had no idea the lengths he’d go for you, and that was something that fueled the flame for him. You were so blinded by the friendship you didn’t even notice how he secretly poured his feelings out to you every time.

“I just think you should do better than his is all, why go on a date with something like that? And too the schools basketball game?” He questions while playing with the beads on your bracelet, trying not to salivate just knowing he could feel your warm skin. Being angry at the fact you agreed to go to the game or doing anything alone with Heeseung and hiding a boner because he smelt your perfume wasn’t the combo he wanted to deal with the rest of the day. Another thing is Heeseung should know you belonged to him “You’d be better off staying with me like we do every weekend, and you know that heeseung is a disgusting choice so why go?”. Watching you laugh at this was ridiculous “Im not joking, you know I’m not”.

“What would we do besides sit there?” Your response made his hand go to your leg and his groaned “Anything...”. He watched as you glanced at his hand now placed on your thigh before you chuckled again. That fucking chuckle that made him sick to his stomach at how naive you were that he needed you. “Don’t be dumb babe...why is see the basketball game with heeseung when you could do it with me?’. “Its just one night. One night, thats all it took for heeseung though was one night to make you cum and jay was going to go livid.

B-lining it to your place after a while he wanted to spend some time with you, when arriving it was the usual hug and a kiss on the cheek for fun. He noticed it caught you off guard a little but he didn’t mind. “I still think you could stay here with me” he felt like he was so close to having you, he wasn’t going to give up yet. Seeing you look at him in such a manner let him know you were thinking about it.

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This why you guys we’re here…what lead you guys here is what should be said. Jay currently watched you from afar, every wiggle you did gave him a smile of satisfaction as he thought back one last time. How you denied you wouldn’t do such a thing but how Jay was still so precious to you…the nibbling on your lips giving you away after you said such a thing. Accepting the offer made his head spin a little though, he wasn’t going to lie about that. It just satisfied him that he didn’t have to give a full speech of how he loved you like he thought he would.

Heeseung wasn’t going to know a thing either, he was too blind himself. He didn’t know that your clit was being obliterated by the vibrating panties that you put on just to make jay so happy. You weren’t blind anymore, no longer h didn’t the truth in the back of your mind that jay needed you for himself. The panties you were wearing and his control on them told you very well how he felt. You knew it was more than just a little toy jay thought would be fun. It was his way to know he was yours….

Every simple touch heeseung gave, the toy fight back. It was a little way to let you know who you belonged too. This wasn’t working anymore though, you needed that push more and more with every neglected orgasm. You needed jay, you needed him buried inside you. It was a need now.

The simple text telling him you we’re going to the bathroom was enough to let him know too. Before you knew it your body had a mind of its own, pulling him into the stall and smashing your lips to his. The moans we let out sounded so much more filthier when muffled by our kisses. “You better fuck me like you mean it~” you moaned as his lips moved to your jaw. All you could revive in that moment was a simple “mhm”.

Your mini skirt lifted and the panties fell to the floor, your left leg now lifted against the other end of the stall. Jay on his knees just to lick up the wetness that soaked the panties only moments earlier. “Once my cock is in this cunt you’ll never want anyone else~” he moaned taking one last taste before standing once again. Your cunt only gushing more as you heard him unzip his jeans and the jungle of the belt before they fell just enough to pull his cock free. His cock a a painful red, the precum already oozing down his cock.

Swiping it up you licked it clean from your finger, the salty taste satisfying you in a way no food ever would. The satisfaction only growing…. the tingling sensation once jay pushed his tip in, your pussy making room for him. Gushing even more once he was fully inside. “So big~” “all your princess, all yours…”. Eyes rolled back and you knew this wasn’t gonna last long, feeling him pull out and slam back in almost made you cum then!

Feeling his arm hook onto your leg, his hands reached a little further before he was gripping your ass. Holding you still so his cock could just run in and out of you, the filthy moans echoing in the bathroom with each time he bottomed out into you. Feeling that satisfaction of his tip against your cervix making him grow wild. “Look at you~ are those tears? You needed my cock so bad?” His chuckling mocking you “I know you did baby~ and it’s okay…whatever my love wants”.

The tears now pouring enough to fall as you couldn’t hold it, “JAY FUCK- OH GOD~!” Your throat burning from the loud cry and hiccups from the tears. “Good girl~ fuck I’ve always wanted to feel you cumming on my cock…” he whispered before pulling you into one last kiss. Your cunt gushing and tightening around him repeatedly was enough for a groan to leave him as he made sure to bury himself in your cunt before letting his release come undone.

“Your mine, there’s no coming back from that…” he whispered.

#Enhypen smut #Enhypen hard hours #Enhypen hard thoughts #Jay park smut #Enhypen jay smut #Jay park hard hours #jay park hard thoughts #enhypen jay hard thoughts #enhypen jay hard hours #Jay smut #Jay hard hours #jay hard thoughts

[revvywevvy]

from what I can tell you are attracted to characters who have been Through Some Shit and done things they regret deeply, even if they did them under duress or weren’t in control of their actions. leads me to believe you see love as a force for healing—not in an “love alone can fix someone” way, but in a way where having real and genuine love can give one the strength to move forward from their past and become the best them they can be - @fates-theysband

yeah :)

@fates-theysband

#ask #ask game #//ur so right tho. #//goes both ways yk? me and my f/os have all been thru some shit to some extent; ranging in varying degrees of bad but still bad enough #//its nice to love something. to be loved. yk?

[oatbugs]

everyone will always be haunted by what they are and i believe it is far more beneficial to embrace the haunting (as long as it isn't derailing your life or others') than to strive to be a truly "balanced" person. the idea of someone who is truly equalised to the point of utter harmony is an essentially unachievable thing imo

#too nice/kind/giving and you neglect yourself. focus on yourself and you neglect others #you love things too much and it consumes you. not enough and you are numb. meditate too much and you neglect life #not enough and life neglects you. speak your mind and you are sometimes abrasive. dont and you will sometimes be a pushover #etc etc. overly academic or too unconcerned. is politics your life to the point where you ignore the small mundane things around you? #are you so unconcerned with politics that you end up unaware of critical factors that harm or help your environment #like obviously not everyone is imbalanced in everything ever but #there is at least something at least one thing (and likely many more) that haunts everyone yk #and like. i think w some of these things as long as the haunting doesnt harm you to the point of derailing your life etc its...ok to be #haunted. or else you risk no longer being who you are. change and growth are essential but sometimes when youre upset you still say things #you dont mean or when you feel in love with your friends you offer to pay for their coffee even if you dont have money. you can fluctuate #and.change and grow but sometimes its ok to be haunted by who u are. #like i think the idea of being truly in harmony as a final destination for ur being is essentially bs. why would the monks spend their lives #meditating? its an active effort yk. #youre at the dj booth. youre tuning the violin every time you play. youre constantly adjusting your glasses.

[iloveyouitisruiningmylife]

i just came out to a real life person and i think im having a heart attack

#IT WAS SO UNPLANNED I HADN'T THOUGHT ABOUT IT AT ALL I DIDN'T EVWN THINK WE WERW FRIENDS?? #she lives in the building next to mine and we go to tui together to divide the auto fare and we've been walking home 2-3 dino se #and she likes kpop and kdramas #but like there isn't that Spark yk like oh ny god i love u best friends forever its a little awkward and formal still #but we were talking about something and oh my god #when we reached home we were standing uski building ke neeche and she was like i want to introduce you to my childhood bestie i think you #two will like each other #and i was like kinda weirded out like um are we that close yet i thought we were just classmates 😭😭 #so i asked ki oh why all of a sudden #and she's like 'i like you' and i look at her and laugh and she said STOP LAUGHING i don't meant it like that im straight ok #and idk something in me snapped i was like oh are u homophobic too? #but pls she didn't know what it meant 😭 so i explained ki do u hate gay people then #she said no no ofc not SO I JUST BLURTED OUT KI good cause im bisexual #THE SHOCK ON HER FACE OMG im saying this now in freaking out now but at that time i said it really coolly and proudly without fumbling #my voice didn't drop down to a low volume or waver or anything (which im so proud bc she's like the first irl person ive come out to face #to face??????? i mean obv childhood friends don't count they're all gay #but anyway she was like OH and then SHE FUMBLED she was like oh nice i respect u very much and it was so awkward i was like haan haan shut #up just don't tell anyone very few ppl know 😭and she wasn't done she was like so as i was saying #we're growing old and real good friendships are getting harder to find and i like you (stop laughing!!) and i hope we don't jinx it #and she literally touched a wooden table lying there and said touchwood???? 😭😭😭😭😭 #now i am thinking why did i tell her she's so extroverted she talks to everyone we go to the same tui this town is tiny #she could tell everyone my parents could find out #but also a part of me is relieved cause im so sick of hiding something that is such a small yet imp part of me #and if she tells everyone then cool maybe there'll be more queer people i can't ve the only queer person in this town and we could be #friends and my parents eh they'd never believe something like that they'll ask me if it's true and ill say nah just rumors dumb kids #and they'll believe me because they'll want to believe me so bad #so no harm #i still don't feel very bestfriendy with her but maybe my standards are too high 😭 idk ig i can't see myself being friends with her #for a long time if we weren't forced by circumstances and i don't like her that much but im happy i got to say it #literally said it omg 'kyunki main hu. bisexual' FUCK THAT FELT GOOD

[todayisafridaynight]

So Allegedly Infinite Wealth is 100 hours... not that you can't already spend that long on the games if you really want to, but I'd say it's the first time that could be said to be the base experience rather than a time only hardcore completionists are likely to get.

Yokoyama was talking at length about wanting to make the game worth the price tag since the team is incredibly conscious about the value of the players' time and money. They essentially feel they owe players ten times what they paid, so they're aiming for "an enjoyable 100 hours, but also an unforgettable 100 hours."

If they pull it off, I personally think it'd be 100% worth it and not just a "well other studios are doing it so we can get away with it too" price hike... I'm at least happy to know that's not the intent, and I'm intrigued to see how everything pans out and what the ratio is between story and side content

oh yayaya i saw that article this morning!!! 100 hours is actually so unfathomable to me in terms of an rgg game- i mean y7 was At Minimum around 45~50 hours but when i think of other RPGS that easily dip into 70's and 100's of hours, i'm not too surprised to see LAD start to climb towards those numbers now. it'd be such a jump in rgg's terms tho, so i'm TRULY curious to see where the nearly doubled gameplay hours comes from..

i really appreciate yoko's respect not just to RGGS but also to its customers: they want to make a great product, but they also don't want to sacrifice what they want to do to do that in the process

#snap chats #very timely article since .. i think it was passport i dont exactly remember who it was that was concerned about the game quality #maybe it was kana... idk one of you lot LMAO POINT IS thank you for reading our minds yoko #i wouldnt mind 100+ hours of island content LMAO but fr im truly curious to see what the main plot's gon be bout then #i mean we KNOW the main plot but yk what i mean... how the hell does this pan out.. #REGARDLESS. i never had any issue with the LAD8 price #maybe its just cause i dont buy videogames too much <- liar (theyre old so like .2% cheaper its ok i think) #in rgg's case i always know im gonna get something i'll love for months- even years at this point #either way its nice knowing that yoko's at least aware of people who aren't happy with the price #and even besides that still just want to make a worthy game #aint nothin wrong with knowin your worth.. i think. #talking about videogame prices in general honestly im p sure the avg price for a game should be in the 100's by now #going off inflation anyway #so the fact devs are still trying to keep it under the $100 is. Something to me anyway #the quality of games- in terms of graphics anyway- has really gone up. idk if that warrants a FAT slap of an expense in the end #but it's not hard for me to understand the crawl towards it right #but now im ramblngi LMAOOOOOO anyways #haruka did nothing wrong yoko said it himself <3

[mydemonsdrivealimo]

ik realistically i never got a lot of love for jensen and bryce bc oh my god a queer pairing of color?????? fucking tragic i know but also i like to pretend its just bc they are too complex for the mere cishet choices player to understand 😌 

#no bc fr otherwise ill just be sad :') #on one hand i love laying everything on the line from day one #my first fic was a demiro bryce fic which scared off all the bryce romancers bc god forbid i go against the general consensus hc #and like sure i dont want them there if they cant appreciate or try to understand other hcs #but on the other hand like how fucking disappointing is that??? #like its just so fucking tragic #this fandom is such a non queer friendly place #and not usually in the literal bright red im queerphobic way #but in the small ways that are so obvious #to queer people but maybe not the rest #and idk i just.. miss a lot of the people that were here when i started ig?? #like ik im the one who bothered to stay this long but also like i just want people to enjoy media/hc bc theyre good??? #like not bc they fit a trope you like?? #idk im just wishing for something that isnt a thing here #and i Know it #but still #to have friends who love the characters i do would be so nice #just to gush about them yk #but the second i came here with a different hc it immediately set me too far apart from everyone else #and on one hand i Am annoyed #but on the other i just ignore it bc if i paid attention to it i might rip somebody's arm off #n e ways that was a nice mj ramble for you all youll never get it again

[youdeserveprison]

i’m absolutely not complaining about ttpd as an album, i love it even more than i thought i would, but i do kind of wish she would’ve waited to release it until after the eras tour was over so it could’ve gotten its own tour :/ like the visuals and the stage design and the outfits are just sooo good and not only is it being cut down into only seven songs so it can fit into an already massive setlist, but everyone who went to the shows in the us, mexico, south america, asia, and australia — aka a huge portion of the tour dates — didn’t get to see any of it live. like it’s so impressive that taylor was able to add the ttpd section into the existing setlist but i can't help but feel disappointed bc this means we likely won't get a ttpd tour, which is something i would kill to see </3

#i know so many people demand new content from her constantly but with everything she’s been doing we didn’t NEED this album so soon yk #i personally would’ve been fine waiting another year or even longer if it meant ttpd could get its own era #bc it’s kind of impossible for it to fully have that when she’s already a year into this huge tour #she’s already had to cut so many songs to fit everything (not even everything bc there’s no debut set) #with lover/folklore/evermore not getting their own tours bc of covid it makes sense why she did the eras tour instead of a midnights tour #but now that touring is an option again it would’ve been nice for her to slow down her releases a bit to really focus on new albums more #idk maybe this is a hot take bc ofc the eras tour is incredible and i do feel so lucky to have gotten to go at all #but i just really wish i could see ttpd songs live and it seems like i won’t get that chance until the next tour #which will likely be years from now and who knows how many albums she’ll have put out by then #rn all i can do is hope that she’ll add another us leg or something so i can see eras again with the new setlist #but that’s very unlikely since she’s already added shows in miami/indy/etc none of which i can afford travel for let alone resale tickets #no one’s gonna even see this but if anyone does i hope it’s not taken the wrong way bc she’s given us so much in the past few years #sorry for the essay i just love ttpd and i want to see it live </3 #lj speaks now

[strawberri-syrup]

i refuse to believe that unconditional love actually exists you get something out of every relationship you are in why would you be kind to someone if it didn't also serve you?

#i do believe that humans are inherantly good #and that we arent born with a desire to do harm or whatever #but also #i dont think you can love someone unconditionally? #everyone has limits #i am kind to others and am trying very hard ot be a Good Person #but im not kind to people for the sake of kindness u know? #it makes me feel good to be nice and i am scared of what someone would do ot me if i wasnt kind #its transactional #why would someone be friends w me if i wasnt doing something for them yk? #it makes sense in my head

[strangerhands]

ohmygodddddd i am a fucking genius...👁️ the fic idea i just came up with. the Specific Line i thought up. its such a random idea but its so so cute and sweet and ugh its gonna plague me forever. kinda proud of myself to be honest so lets just hope i can Actually write it soon🧎

#mmm brain isnt always bad sometimes i guess. #its some unapologetic jake fluff btw #bc he deserves it #also i forgot i cant really spend time on tumblr today bc ill be busy again lol so tomorrow it is (hopefully) #but its gonna be a good day bc me and my bestie are going to see love lies bleeding And immaculate together😋😋 #and probably get some lunch and maybe ice cream too #excited #have been looking forward to today #and then after today im looking forward to finally crawling back into my little tumblr cave #hopefully i can Actually Read. #and yk. writing would be nice too. #also im goin back on sertraline today and apparently it can be used for ocd too so i will try to see if any of That feels different as well #raaaaaa #still havent fully researched ocd tho🧎ive been procrastinating🧎as i do🧎 #anyways goodnight its 5am. #shouldnt have had that 8pm iced capp #i downed that shit fr #ok bye bye love yall #talkin shit #FUCK YES THIS POSTED LIKE ON THE VERY SECOND 5:15 WAS ENDING YESSS #sorry i actually like am distressed when the minute(s) of my posts arent posted on a 0 or 5 or like the same as the previous number #and when it is i feel like actual relief and joy #and when it isnt i contemplate deleting and waiting until the desired minute to post again. #anddd sometimes i actually do. #i also will just wait several minutes to post something when its not the exact minute i want yet #or ill queue it for like. literally a couple minutes in the future. #yeah i have many issues #okay gn thank you for reading if you read🧍🫶 #i always either suck my own dick or beat my own ass. #rarely ever is there an in between

[vivstenius]

also arsenal prioritising the mental health of the players by having a therapy dog is so so important. I think sometimes we forget these players all have feelings and struggles too, so its nice to know the team cares to put things in place to help. WIN ON TOP!! ❤️

#also the fact that a therapy dog tho not trained as indepth as a service or emotional support dog is being shown with such love and #positivity! #its not something ill get into because ik theyre not the same #but i bet its nice to have some sort of rep yk

[beegswaz]

oh what the fuck How did i never notice one of my Eyelids droop what the fuck

#taking Photos beclaws i wanna paint myself Vs my slightly crooked nose my lazy eye And my droopy eyelid #i love my lazy eye Beclaws soo many people growing up made Fun of me for it so i loved it Out of spite #and thats evolved into ACTUALLY loving it #i like my dimples Beclaws i generally just think i Look nice #i used to think my smile was fugly as all Hell but now i quite love it #same goes for My resting face my lips are downturned normally but i Think i look soo silly #and i dont think my Crooked nose is noticeable so i Dont care about it mich #BUT THIS FUCKONG DROOPY EYELID. #ik its something ill eventually come to love about myself like everything else #but for now i Dont. like it. that much. #like ok. i Love loving myself and thatll never stop but #grrahh sometimes i Notice something and i go What The Fuck Is That. Die. #but its wbatever. loving myself if More important than hating parts of me. #thats why i Love drawing myself so much. i used to Never draw myself fun fact #i thinl #more people Should draw yhemselves. its so nice And fun actually #paint yourself draw yourself Study ypur body for things use the Experience you have being you #and make Something genuinely wonderful beclaws its *you who made it* and Itll *always be you* #sorry i Did not mean to ramble in the tags but #yk. loving yourself is important To me #love yourself beclaws thats YOU! hating yourself is Only going to slowly drive people away. #care abt yourself And things will get oh so much better i Prommy

[munamania]

something that makes me feel guilty is the fact that seeing that persons face rn literally makes me angry. they walked into class and i nearly winced. and in all fairness they were quite kind to me. outside of the several kind of odd red flags. girl whatever. to be quite frank i am a horny bastard and vocal proud etc but few people interest me enough to actually want to hang out with and get to know And i have deep seated intimacy issues so it's like. we really dont have a shot unless the circumstances r exactly right on a full moon perfect thursday of a month etc like. well and tbh i probably would have fucked around with this person but i dont... care... about some big relationship w them.. and i know i could be a relationship girl like eventually i have it in me to have a muse that's what im built for i think idc but not rn... rn i need to hang out with my friends and do my film stuff and have people that maybe wanna make out sometimes is that so much to ask for. for a lesbian at a bar to want to make out perhaps. ** for there to be lesbians at the bars to potentially make out with.

#and i am quite lonely yes thank u for asking. yeah someday id love to get to know someone again in the context of falling in love #what about it. so what now. i dont think im meant for our understanding of romantic love but boy do i crave it #why am i having this moment rn. well ok consider im on my period all i could think about this morning was [redacted] and both parties #of my dyke drama were back in class today. and the one gay person that i think has a crush on me but we dont see each other super often #so im just. guessing based on the way awkward lesbians communicate. idk #and i feel really just mean but i quite literally dont have it in me to pretend to be nice to this person anymore #i wasnt like. some villain for realizing we were acting really coupley and being like oh shit because i didnt want to hurt them #. and trying to communicate and put some distance between us when i thought they were probably in too deep. it's unfortch it took me a sec #but jesus christ yk i cant walk around and feel awkward about it forever. and im frustrated by the fact that we're just acting so odd #but again frankly i think it's largely bc they have an unhealthy relationship with dating. THROWING HORIZONTAL PUNCHES HERE. #OK. STONES FROM A GLASS HOUSE. IM AWARE. REAL RECOGNIZES REAL. #and YET. despite my past insanity. ive been kind. i can understand disappointment and a little awkwardness #but jesus would you rather i pretend to be in love with you for months and then really break your heart. #this is where i get mean and make a joke like well hey if we couldve had weird really mediocre sad angry dyke sex abt it #that would have been cool with me. but alas. we're here instead and it's fucking with my friendships too #and like we were kind of ok friends too. what now. its just u me and this brick wall u built between us bitch #now was EYE not answering texts for a minute. we dont need to get into it. #because the thing IS if i dont play things exactly right. and im not good at that without prior planning. i will accidentally say or do #something that i know. again. from being insane myself. would be just enough for them to hold onto hope #and im not trying to do that to them you know. i was trying to help with the detachment. shitty as it may be. i dont fucking know dude #this post is going to make me look kind of. well. whatever u guys have seen me at my worst. mostly. and post #ok one last thing sorry if this makes me sound like i have a giant ego. like wow heres this person who really liked me and im just shitting #all over them. not what im meaning to do but whatever

[nomaishuttle]

i have to get a new phone case and screenprotector Guys its literally scaryyyy

#getting a new case scary... my current one is piterally like. well ill be honest i think it is more like shrapnel than a phone case #its like. a soft part and a hard part and well. the soft parts that arent under hard parts have been entirely torn off #so the entire bottom of my phone is sxposed as is the top half on both sides #and the hard part is also broken all alone the bottom And i lost a corner the other day #so yeah. #i should prolly get a new one.. ill probably just get another boring one bc i get scared if ppl know things abt me #vut also maybe i should get like a nice one so i can like. idk its a conversation starter.... #like if im at the library and somebody sees my phone case and its like idk van gogh or something they could be like I love van gogh and i #could be like Omg thats awesome hes one of my all time favorite painters .... hes also very interesting as a person and his letters with #his brother etc etc etc and the person would be like Wow this guy is so interesting and knows a lot about van gogh I should become friends #with them and introduce them to my friend group and we will all be friends. #<- thats basically what might happen. but also what if theres somebody who Would have talked to me #and then they see my theoretical van gogh phone case and theyre like Ugh i hate van gogh. fuck this guy... #not that id rly wanna be friends with that person anyway but like. yk. van gogh is a theoretical example #what if it was more of like a fandom thing or something Which id literally never get but theoretically. and theyre like ew this guy likes #... idk. outer wilds. and this imaginary person ive created thinks iuter wilds is rly problematic so they tell everybody else in the #library Hey this guys a freak and a weirdo and everybodys like wow this guys a freak and a weirdo and they throw books at me and then i #cant ever go to the library ever again. i know thats unrealistic but a lot of thjngs i never thought would happen to me have happened to me #recently so. i wouldnt even be surprised at this point its like im a little kitten in a wet cardboard box all alone and somebody poured #gasoline on me. and i was like Oh what the hell why did that person pour gasoline on me... and rhen im like Its ok i can deal with the #gasoline. ajd then as soon as im recovered ANOTHER person pours gasoline on me and im like dude why this. what the hell. #but km like Weird it happened twice.. but its ok and fhen ANOTHER THING OF GASOLINE and im like WHYY and b4 i even get s chance to recover #skmehody throws a match in. and its like man what the hell did i do. thats basically whats happening with me Nd god rn. he just keeps #pouring gasoline on me and brother its getting a bit tiring.

[pyxscythe]

K!Lincu and K!Maddy subtley doing nice things for each other. Like one falls asleep and their desk an other puts a blanket over them.

YEEEESSSSSS I'm actually fucking insane over the idea of them just really passively and simply showing each other some kind of care like that

#Especially because like k!lincu ofc gives a shit about her but he still holds back from overconcern showing for masking's sake #I mean he's made it more obvious too with visiting her EVERY DAY after she got stabbed and the way he reacted when he was like cmon lets+ #take a walk yk like he was so obviously concerned about her #But anyways point being . He generally tries to appear unbothered so thats part of it #So I just LOVE imagining him doing little things relatively silently to just show her a little care or just do something nice #Like in the End if she was stressed/overwhelmed by work/research he would do it for her or at least help by giving her more notes and stuff #Like by just dropping her some notes in passing yk #Obsessed with this concept its another one I've just never talked about #《👾》

[kn11ves]

idk what it is with me and women but they just flock to me in my time of need. 5 seconds ive been in a room and they want to tie my shoelaces for me they wanna help me do things they want to give me advice and make sure im okay i what

#i wish i was kdiding #I HAVE NO PROBLEM WITH IT! #btw im not talking about like. older women although that also happens to me #im talking about girls my age theyll just go to me like im a helpless baby bird if i need something #its not even my cane either because even when i have to do things without it (like my danza folkorica) they still wanna help me #like im so fr first day i showed up a girl tied my shoelaces TWICE and THEN drove me to my dorm afterwards with the rest of her friends i #mean that was so nice #idk what i activate in them but they always wanna help me out its so particular to me #and like. listen ok today we are learning a dance from sinaloa and to be short about it one of the moves is bending your back really far & #i was doing it wrong and bending badly and i ''nearly fell'' multiple times #except see i would never have fallen bc i have been so used to living without a cane until now that i know how to catch myself and im very #yk. good at not falling so i dont embarass myself #but it LOOKS very much like i am about to fall and at least THREE times the president was like ''oh my god ivan are you okay??'' #i spooked her so bad i felt bad😭😭 #its bc km always in front when shes teaching bc i wanna see her n others r too scared to be up front #and anyways what i was on about literally i was visibly struggling and EVERYONE IM NOT EXAGERARINF ALL THE GIRLS (well there was only one #other guy there but) STARTED GIVING ME ADVICE AND TRTING TO HELP ME one girl moved all the way accross her spot to mine and help guide me #shes so nice i hesrt her her name is charisma bro imagine your name being CHARM and she is charming :> very nice #it feels weird calling her my friend bc well we r all friends in a sense as we r clubmmates but. U Know #long rant TLDR women love me #dont tell them im afraid of them

[bingobongobonko]

methinks i will make a new kind of commission section cuz colored sketches are actually really fucking fun, not finished with it rn but wow. my depth and shading has gotten better, if not adapted to my style.

#i have THAT goin for me!!!!!!!! i admit ive been in a sour mood and im not in the best mindset but. this is nice #i feel accomplished... my art rlly has taken a turn for the better #well objectively #i loved my style back then even when i wasnt good #i say good but i dont think me or anyone for that matters ever been BAD at art its just a learning thing yk #whatever that means but idk theres merit in the growth #i like how it is rn .. proud of myself #ofc i still wanna emphasize and improve my linework but do think me pathing off into color-heavy artwork has been REALLY good for me for #not getting like #bored #now coloring is fun!!!!!! its not something im afraid of anymore