#and.change and grow but sometimes its ok to be haunted by who u are.

[oatbugs]

everyone will always be haunted by what they are and i believe it is far more beneficial to embrace the haunting (as long as it isn't derailing your life or others') than to strive to be a truly "balanced" person. the idea of someone who is truly equalised to the point of utter harmony is an essentially unachievable thing imo

#too nice/kind/giving and you neglect yourself. focus on yourself and you neglect others #you love things too much and it consumes you. not enough and you are numb. meditate too much and you neglect life #not enough and life neglects you. speak your mind and you are sometimes abrasive. dont and you will sometimes be a pushover #etc etc. overly academic or too unconcerned. is politics your life to the point where you ignore the small mundane things around you? #are you so unconcerned with politics that you end up unaware of critical factors that harm or help your environment #like obviously not everyone is imbalanced in everything ever but #there is at least something at least one thing (and likely many more) that haunts everyone yk #and like. i think w some of these things as long as the haunting doesnt harm you to the point of derailing your life etc its...ok to be #haunted. or else you risk no longer being who you are. change and growth are essential but sometimes when youre upset you still say things #you dont mean or when you feel in love with your friends you offer to pay for their coffee even if you dont have money. you can fluctuate #and.change and grow but sometimes its ok to be haunted by who u are. #like i think the idea of being truly in harmony as a final destination for ur being is essentially bs. why would the monks spend their lives #meditating? its an active effort yk. #youre at the dj booth. youre tuning the violin every time you play. youre constantly adjusting your glasses.