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sweggish · 1 year

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I did not ask for the world,

I asked for you,

but it seems that is far more impossible than asking for the world,

and there, my dear, in lies the tragedy.

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sweggish · 1 year

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I'm not letting you have my heart anymore

in fact, I'm not letting anyone. the world has proven to me time and time again that my love is not the kind you keep in your pocket, like a spare that you only cap a feel for to make sure its still there, bringing it around where ever you go just in case you might need it but you just end up forgetting you had it for the whole day and when its time to go home you set it aside cuz you're tired and it's not the thing that gives you rest, just the thing that gives you momentary comfort. no, I refuse to be this kind of love.

my love, is the kind you put in your locket, wearing it around to show the world and to catch the eye of anyone you meet. its the kind you hold on to when you need strength and draw confidence in, keeping it closest to your chest, right besides where you keep your heart. the kind you never take off, even as you fall asleep, as you're lying in your bed, you clutch it closer to yourself. because my love is the kind you cherish more than anything else.

so unless you know the nature of my love, stay a good distance away. because this love is something I won't let just anyone take.

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sweggish · 1 year

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Brb replacing "I should" with "I have the option/opportunity to" in my internal monologue re: beating myself up over shit that needs doing. Let's see if that works.

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sweggish · 1 year

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sweggish · 2 years

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COMMUNICATE

this morning, I did something productive and I felt proud of myself for it but then my dad came along and started asking about it, i answered his questions and soon enough he went on a talking lecture as I stayed silent with a blank face. throughout this, I felt like he was judging me, like my efforts were being invalidated and my struggle was being doubted. I was filled with feelings of anger, sadness and disappointment.

These feelings were drowning me, so I went to the bathroom and stared at the door for a long while, At first I was stacking up all the times my dad had made me feel this way, I was painting him as the bad guy in my head, later on I decided I needed to let these feelings out, that I needed to get my side across to my dad. there was fear and doubt in me, I really didn't want to do it, my main reason was that even if I said something, nothing would change because I'm me and my dad is my dad, but I knew these feelings needed to be defused.

I built up what I was gonna say, in a way that's respectful but gets my point across. and i went to my dad. at first I just stood there out of his view, rehearsing what I was gonna say in my head. then I went up to him and asked if I could talk to him. and guess what? we cleared things up.

I realized why my dad always kept making the wrong judgments was because I never really talked to him about what I thought, I had this misunderstanding of his side and instead of asking for an explanation, I just stayed silent and brewed in my own self pity. he hurt me and I tucked away without actually communicating. but when I started opening up to him, for the first time in a veryyy long time, I felt like he understood me. and instead of feeling the pressure, I felt his support.

I always thought that the best way for a talk you don't want to happen go, is to just silently wait until it's over. but a conversation takes two people speaking so that each of their message can get through and both parties see the others point as well as clarify any loose knots that may cause a rift in the relationship.

after talking to my dad, I went to my room and sat down, then I started crying. not from the sadness anger or disappointment I felt earlier, but from the relief of finally having released all that pent up emotion. the relief of knowing that your feelings and effort were valued. I wasn't drowning anymore, I could finally breath.

anf to think, I had just kept it all to myself, I would have spent the entire day down and depressed, sending out my bad mood to everyone around me. I would have been drowned by my emotions and ruined my day.

so basically, communication is a must. you can't expect someone to heal your hurt when they didn't even know you were hurting in the first place.

#family #toxic behavior #love #communication

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sweggish · 2 years

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it is a dilemma

how people keep on repeating my mistakes to me

as if I do not replay them in my mind everytime I'm faced to make a choice in life

subconsciously pressing the restart button

right before losing my first life not caring that I have plenty more to continue playing

Being dragged back to the beginning already knowing how things will play out but always having a finger hover on the pause button.

it helps to know I can run away any time

and yet I come back, over and over again

to play a game I fear does not really have an end

#poetry #writing #creativewriting #poem #literature #poems #life #love

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sweggish · 2 years

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You loose everything and then what?

You loose more. So much more.

Even when there is nothing left

Desire dangles happiness at your feet

The world gives and gives and when it's all finally perfect,

it takes and takes and takes until you no longer want.

#poetry #writing #creativewriting #poem

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sweggish · 2 years

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and when you asked me if I would still love you after we survive all this,

I thought to myself, "would faith be so lenient to those who dare stray from it's sacred path?"

no matter really, if whatever punishment awaits after we've faced the impossible, all there ever was is us and despite what faith has to say, all there ever will be is us.

"would you?" I could see myself in your eyes, along with it the resigned desperation swirling focus on me

"I don't think I could ever stop" I reached for you, even though your were already in my embrace, and held on tighter as if daring loss to like how we've dared faith.

#writing prompt #writing #poetry #creativewriting

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sweggish · 2 years

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sweggish · 3 years

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服と素材【ふくとそざい】　・　Clothes and Materials

シャツ　shirt

ブラウス　blouse

セーター　sweater

アノラック　anorak

スーツ　suit

コート　coat

オーバー　

Tシャツ　T-shirt

ワンピース　dress

スカート　skirt

ズボン　trousers

ジーパン　jeans

スカーフ　scarf

ベルト　belt

眼鏡【めがね】　glasses

サングラス　sunglasses

ジャケット・上着【うわぎ】　jacket

水着【みずぎ】　swimsuit

下着【したぎ】　underwear

帽子【ぼうし】　hat

靴【くつ】　shoes

靴下【くつした】　socks

コットン・綿【めん】　cotton

ウール・毛【け】　wool

シルク・絹【きむ】　silk

革【かわ】　leather

アクリル・化繊【かせん】　synthetic fiber

長袖【ながそで】　long sleeves

半袖【はんそで】　short sleeves

100パーセント　100%

袖が長い・短い【そでがながい・みじかい】　the sleeves are long / short

丈が長い・短い【たけがながい・みじかい】　the length (skirt, trousers) is long / short

踵が高い・低い【かかとがたかい・ひくい】　the heels are high / low

（服・コートを）着る【きる】　to put on

（靴・ズボン・スカートを）履く【はく】　to put on

（帽子を）被る【かぶる】　to put on

（Tシャツ・靴下を）脱ぐ【ぬぐ】　to take off

（時計・指輪・ネクタイを）する　to put on

（眼鏡を）かける　to put on

（眼鏡・ネックレスを）取る・外す【とる・はずす】　to take off

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sweggish · 3 years

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There are two ways to talk (not write, but TALK) about daily routines:

like a robot - you just throw random sentences around without any connectors or filler phrases

like a human - you use filler phrases, small digressions, and your speech is a bit “chaotic” (disorganized would be a better word here, I guess)

Well, I wake up at 6 a.m. My dog decides when to wake up. She’s the boss here. I take her for a 20-minute walk immediately after getting up. Then… For breakfast, I eat hot-dog sausages! I love them. If I want variety, I eat scrambled eggs, or grilled cheese, or whatever I can find in the fridge. As for work… I work afternoons, so I spend mornings on doing hobby-related things, or on doing household chores. I start work at 2 p.m. and I work till 8 p.m. However, my schedule is not fixed; I work flexible hours. After work, I do workouts. I work out 4 times a week. I lead a rather sedentary lifestyle, so I need them. Before work and after work, I walk my dog. What else… I go shopping on the weekends. I try not to shop during the week. I mean…I think it’s a fast way to lose more money on random stuff that you don’t really need. When I have free time, I watch anime (usually in the evening) , read books, prepare handouts for work (I know, it’s my free time but teaching career has no mercy). So, my life is kinda boring, you know, not full of fireworks and exciting events. It’s calm and organized. I don’t mind, that’s what I wanted.

Yellow: That’s what students usually say. They’re grammatically correct, but their speech is unnatural-sounding. Such short sentences make you sound like a robot and unfriendly as if you were not willing to have a conversation.

Blue: Extra information that makes you sound like a human. You don’t have to provide details or tell your autobiography, but short explanations why you wake up at 6 am or workout in the evenings make you sound engaged in the conversation and friendly.

Green: Filler phrases that will help you gather your thoughts and help you sound even more natural.

Note* Don’t use “…” in writing. Such introductory phrases should be followed by commas.

More on Present Simple here

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sweggish · 3 years

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She takes in every word. Skipping not even the tiny marks of comas and quotations. Reading each sentence as if they were the air that kept her alive. Holding on to the story as if it were wo disappear from her mind at any moment.

Her cheeks are dripping when the realizations struck. This was her life. Yeah she couldn't remember a thing. But These chapters felt too much like memories for it to just be pieces of paper. And these characters felt too much like home for them to just be strangers. This was her. Written and summarized. Her Soul spilled in these pages. As if watching your life unfold without you.

And as she holds the thick book in her hands, lost and confused. She looks up at the hooded man in the near distance. Utters in desperation to him.

"how does it end?"

He's silent for a few seconds

The answers back resolutely

"you must read to find out"

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sweggish · 3 years

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sweggish · 3 years

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sweggish · 3 years

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