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using tumblr mobile and seeing people talk about a desktop layout change is like hearing a timer suddenly start ticking down. I am safe for now but I hear the danger

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Autism: If something changes, I will cry.

ADHD: If nothing changes, I will cry.

ADHD/Autism comorbity: I will cry.

#adhd #autism #actually adhd #actually autistic #asd #autistic

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Sorry for not posting! Kinda been going through it, but it's a combo of that and being away from social media in general. I wanna get back into it but I also worry about my mental health, so we'll see! Hope you're all doing well <33

#i am alive #just checking in #adhd #autism #actually adhd #actually autistic #asd #autistic #tumblr diary #bpd

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Stimming

The Autistic Teacher

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'tism vent #10404834

I'm so hyperfixated on ONE GAME. ONE. That I can't play anything else. But at the same time I'm immensely bored and it's giving me anxiety that I'm so bored but have nothing else to do. Like literally nothing. No other game sounds appealing, no other activity, no other anything. I live and breathe Dead By Daylight and I even started playing killer just to switch things up and I'M STILL SO BORED. But my brain won't let me not play it for more than a few hours at a time and it won't let me do anything else because nothing else sounds fun or good in the slightest and oh my god I wanna rip my hair out

#adhd #autism #actually adhd #actually autistic #asd #autistic #tumblr diary #dead by daylight #dbd

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This is my results from the spectrum test! I'm mainly reblogging for two reasons;

1. To show that not all tests are accurate online and should not be used as a self diagnosis tool

And 2. To show what "spectrum" in autism spectrum disorder really means. As you can see my results are a bit different than the person above, yet we're both autistic. The spectrum isn't less autistic, or ""high functioning"", to more autistic, or ""low functioning"". It's about the symptoms experienced.

So I, an actual professionally diagnosed autistic, took the bullshit Pooh test. Note how Roo has only 60%.

I have really bad anxiety as a result of my autism, and this has been noted by PROFESSIONALS.

Everyone taking this test and claiming that it's proof of "the tism" or shit like that is NOT PROFESSIONALLY DIAGNOSED. SELF DIAGNOSIS IS NOT A MEDICAL DIAGNOSIS. IT DOES NOT SHOW ON MEDICAL RECORDS.

This has been a problem on this site in particular. Autistics actually trying to find people with the same problem as them instead find shit like this.

Autism isn't a cool little aesthetic thing. I have suffered through psychological and mental trauma due to how people treated me due to my autism. I have attempted sewerslide multiple times due to the depression caused by this. It's not a thing you'd want to have.

Tumblr, you better stop this fucked up trash and leave actually autistic people alone. /srs

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#bpd #actually bpd #bpd triggers

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Me: Man I wish these mosquitos would stop biting me. They just love sweeter blood

Brother in law: What makes your blood sweeter than mine?

Me, a diabetic: 👁👄👁

#diabetic #diabetes #adhd #autism #actually adhd #actually autistic #asd #autistic #tumblr diary

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Autistic Play is Play…

Neurodivergent_lou

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PDA be like

me: i'm gonna take the trash out of our room today and tomorrow we have to go to the store :) my fiance: well i was gonna clean the room today but first i have to put the clothes away and then do the litterbox...........unless YOU want to................. me: *loses all motivation to do what i was already gonna do* ahahah yeah want is a strong word but i'll do it (with a meltdown first but i feel too guilty to say no)

#pathological demand avoidance #adhd #autism #actually adhd #actually autistic #asd #autistic #neurodivergent #neurodiverse #pda #pda autism #demand avoidance

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Wooo!! Also on my way to 100 followers! That'd be the most i'd ever have on Tumblr tbh

#250 posts #tumblr milestone #adhd #autism #actually adhd #actually autistic #asd #autistic

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nd culture is hearing somebody say “oh theyre a narcissist/psychopath/delusional” and taking a moment to appreciate your nuerodivergent siblings. anybody who’s disorder is used as a marker of Bad Terrible Person know i love ypu <3

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Me at the Carrie Underwood concert in November last year 💀 concerts are worth the overstimulation but not when there's 10k+ people in the stadium and they don't have an issue bumping into you to get where they need to go

aaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA bad bad bad badbadbadbadbad very bad why do people feel the need to touch you unexpectedly why do sounds exist why do textures exist why is the world so bright i wish i could put a dimmer on my eyes whywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhy this is bad veryvery bad and on top of that GUESS WHO HAS WORK TO DO FUCKING SKENSKDBAKDBWJDBQKSBAJBDUWBD

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Autism is always fun and games (/j) until you're in an unfamiliar place with unfamiliar food and you're forced to pick something to eat for breakfast that doesn't align with your routine or safe foods and so you just decide to starve until further notice

Sorry just venting 😭

#autism #actually adhd #actually autistic #asd #autistic #tumblr diary #actually neurodivergent #neurodiverse #adhd

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Reblogging to save!

Alrighty!!! It’s finally here . Completed and finished

PLEASE READ DESCRIPTION!!!

I’m not my parent legacy challenge all 10 generations:

I really hope you enjoy this and I’ll be working on the base game and modded version of this as well ! I just want to see how you use my wonderful creation !! Use #INMPL if you decide to give this a try .

*UPDATE*

You can now find my mini explanation video here :

Harden Legacy Challenge| Ep 0

Here is a post to the finished house product and sim with my gallery ID which will have the download link shortly with my cc sim :

* You can still subscribe tho with the link below*:

I’ll be making households for each generations and lots as a series for my YouTube so if your not subscribed here’s the link:

FOR EACH GENERATION ILL BE DOING A VIDEO LIKE ABOVE

Here the links for the optional mods :

( IF YOUR ON CONSOLE PLAY IN A WORLD THAT"S WOODSY WITH THE FITHY LOT TRAIT) or (CRIMINAL CAREER IF YOU DONT WANT BASE MENTAL MODS)

Zerbu Any World is Residential

Base Mental Mods:

Love yall , xoxo.

#sims 4 #off topic #saving for later #gaming #gamer #autistic gamer

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My Take On Self DXing

Disclaimer: My definition of self diagnosing is putting in A LOT of time into researching, trying to get a professional diagnosis *first and foremost*, among other elements. Not just looking at the top 3 traits of a disorder and saying "that's me!", that is not recommended and I do not condone that! Please be safe <3

I'm making this post because I've gotten some comments here and there of people using my posts as a reason to self diagnose/suspect autism, BPD, etc (whatever else I post about). I do *not* condone using my posts as a tool for this, as this blog is all about my *personal* experiences with being neurodivergent. Everyone is so vastly different and I do not represent everyone with these disorders! However, as someone who has self diagnosed before getting professionally diagnosed (and still haven't been professionally diagnosed with them all!), I understand the need for an identity and an explanation for your experiences. So here's some reasons I support self diagnosing, some tips, and some warnings.

Why I support self diagnosing

Mental health care in certain locations are absolutely horrible. Where I live, mental health care is...very limited. The professionals in my area are trained in very few areas, mainly depression and anxiety, and are trained to do very specific types of therapies, medications etc. For example, in the ER I was given a xanax for a panic attack, and this worked wonders for me, however when going to a psychiatrist I was told they don't prescribe those on the off chance that someone will get addicted. Because of this, my anxiety has been overlooked and I've been given medications that did not work and has even given me a bad reaction. Needless to say, I stopped going to psych appointments. (I don't recommend this for everyone! This is just a personal experience).

Insurance isn't always an option. Without insurance, you will be paying out of pocket for evaluations, therapies and treatments. Even a diagnosis. An autism diagnosis here out of pocket is anywhere from $1k USD to $6k USD in most places for adults! That includes the two part evaluation and then having it on paper. I have what's called a pending diagnosis of autism, which means that I was given a basic screening (thankfully for free, but it costs $500 out of pocket on average here!), and the results were that I am very highly likely on the spectrum, but I can't afford to continue with the evaluation. So my health care team knows that I am autistic but will not put it on paper, therefore I can't get any accommodations with my insurance, and any accommodation that I need has to be listed for "anxiety", which my insurance doesn't see as a big enough problem in an adult to cover things for.

Being professionally diagnosed is a privilege. A lot of mental health professionals have a bias, and this is an unfortunate truth. Racism, sexism, classism, and even fatphobia play a huge part in how you're treated by the health care system, including mental health care. For example, if a healthy, average white cis man goes in and explains his symptoms and can afford to pay whether it be through insurance or out of pocket, he will be taken much more seriously than someone who is not any of the above.

Why I don't support certain self diagnosing disorders

A self diagnosis is not anywhere close to a substitution for a professional diagnosis. You will not get the proper therapy, treatment, or accommodations necessary by self diagnosing. You also won't be taken seriously by professionals if you walk into their office and say that you have a disorder, because their next question will be if you have documentation of the diagnosis. If you are suffering from a severe mental illness such as schizophrenia or borderline personality disorder, you will likely need treatment and therapy if at all possible. If you are able to get this, please do!! Do not suffer alone!!

Some disorders have overlapping symptoms...autism included. While I support self diagnosing autism to an extent, you have to realize that autism in a person who does not have high support needs will more often than not look very similar to ADHD, OCD etc etc. Autism being a spectrum can make it look like so many different things in so many different people. Someone with autism may be hyperverbal, able to read tone of voice and emotions with ease, and be outgoing, which are all traits that are not inherently apart of autism.

If you do not have *insert disorder that you self diagnosed*, you may be spreading misinformation. Many mental illnesses are already so stigmatized. Regardless of if YOU think that YOU have this disorder and that YOUR experiences are part of it, if you're wrong you may be adding to the stigma. For example, there are a lot of people who fake tourettes, dissociative identity disorder, etc. and this is very dangerous to people who actually suffer from these conditions. When self diagnosing please be mindful of others when you post about it publicly and be sure to specify that you are self diagnosed if you do! This is not meant to be mean or make you feel any less valid. Your experiences, regardless of your disorder or label, is 100% valid and you deserve to be taken seriously. But you have to realize that your words have impact on others.

"Tips" for self diagnosing

Don't! If you can easily get a professional diagnosis. See above points for why.

If you do, put in the research! This doesn't mean look up "autism spectrum disorder" on Google and look at the first 3 symptoms and decide that you resonate. Look up how it is professionally diagnosed, what the DSM-5 criteria is, and speak with/watch content creators, friends, family etc that have been diagnosed!

Take note of the different variations in different individuals. Do not watch one YouTube channel of a person with *insert disorder* and think that they represent the entire community. They do not. Not one single person represents an entire community, this goes for any, mental illnesses, physical illnesses, etc. If you know one person with autism you know one person with autism.

Research other conditions that are similar. You think you're autistic? Cool, research it as stated above! But don't forget to research ADHD, OCD, and other disorders that have overlapping symptoms! And yes, it is possible to have multiple, which is another reason why self diagnosing can be tricky.

ABOVE ALL ELSE: LISTEN TO THOSE WHO HAVE BEEN PROFESSIONALLY DIAGNOSED AND TO PROFESSIONALS!

There is no shame in telling someone, especially a therapist, that you think you have a disorder. What will likely happen is that the more you fight for yourself and your concerns the more you will be taken seriously and possibly given an opportunity to get a screening. The worst that will happen is that you'll self diagnose and get it wrong, but possibly be properly diagnosed! You know yourself better than anyone. Regardless of what label you have, you are valid, you are loved and you will be okay. If you ever have any questions or concerns, please feel free to reach out to me! I'm here for you!

For transparency, this is my situation:

Autism - pending diagnosis, see above ADHD - diagnosed PTSD - diagnosed Dissociative identity disorder - diagnosed, previously self diagnosed Borderline personality disorder - sort of pending. was told by a therapist that it seems more likely that I have BPD than bipolar disorder, but it was never screened. self diagnosed Bipolar type 1 with psychosis - diagnosed, mixed beliefs from different professionals, personally undiagnosed Eating disorder - diagnosed (will not elaborate, am in recovery!)

#adhd #autism #actually adhd #actually autistic #autistic #asd #borderline personality disorder #bpd #cluster b #ptsd #disordered eating #bipolar #dissociative identity disorder #did system #mental health #mental health awareness #self diagnosis #self diagnosed #self dx