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It’s fine because I’m actually using a secret technique called writing it in my head and nowhere else.

#writing things #queue u

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Friend pointed out to me that I haven't posted a fic on ao3 since 2021 and I am floored and sad. Time goes by so fast! I have been working on things! They just aren't finished. I don't know when they will be finished! And I knew it had been awhile but I didn't realize it was THAT long.

#yo #my fanfiction #our beloved a oh three

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Oh, it's April

It's not just April, it's almost halfway through April, heh, *insert sheepish face here*

Nothing is new. I have not written a single, fucking thing since mid March. I am trying very hard not to be depressed about it and just take a break. I'm going to try to read instead.

This is normal. Me not getting things done even though I want to. Me not keeping up on a blog. Me forgetting to talk to friends. Me not washing my face at night because I just want to move on to the getting in bed part. It's all my normal state of being for the many years of my life.

But I experience three months of not struggling with any of that, and coming back has been hell.

There is still hope, it just takes time and time is an issue when you have adhd lol

ANYWAY. That's the update.

OH! but also, the Bridgerton S3 trailer dropped and (I haven't read the books so) imagine my surprise to see that Colin will be helping Pen find a husband! This trope! What is it called!!!! I could only find matchmaker crush... but that is the trope of the fanfiction I did a detailed outline of! At least I will have a somewhat more commonly known reference.

The set up isn't exactly the same because my characters aren't childhood friends, but they are friends. The situation is: person A likes person B but is convinced it's a non-possibility. Person B has more than just friend feelings for A but doesn't really understand that they do. A ends up getting dating help from B, resulting in all the fun things like practice dates and maybe even practice kisses?

So, that's that thing. It's maybe 4th on my list of things to get done.

Two original stories. Two fanfictions. That seems fair... right?

If only my brain would cooperate.

#writing things #fanfiction #updates #still trying #never give up #never surrender

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just making some notes... nothing to see here... 👀

#writing things #working away at not working

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Obviously, I've not kept up on doing this, but I'm still going to keep trying!

This month, I celebrated a birthday, went on a trip to Seattle, tried a new medication (not successfully), finished a very detailed outline for a fanfic in Starkid's Hatchefield universe, and tried -- so far with limited success -- to get back to writing my own book. I did finish a paint by number project that was used for procrastination purposes to great effect! Pic below!

I saw Dune 2 and the new Ghostbuster's movie. I give Ghostbusters a 3.5 stars, I enjoyed it but I think it could have done a few things better. I'm still not fully settled on Dune 2 as I missed a 20 minute chunk of it. But what I did see was cinematic and attention holding.

I read two books, both novellas - Keep You Both by Kathryn Nolan and The Exception to the Rule by Christina Lauren. Both were cute; Exception was my fav of the two.

That's all I've got for now. Talk to you soon!

#Op-me

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feeling called out today

credit: _ADWills

#writing things #me

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I keep seeing people making fun of using growled, hissed, roared, snarled etc in writing and it’s like.

have you never heard someone speak with the gravel in their voice when they get angry? Because that’s what a growl is.

Have you never heard someone sharply whisper something through the thin space of their teeth? Or when your mother sharply told you to stop it in public as a kid when you were acting up/being too loud? Because that’s what a hiss is.

Have you never heard a man get so blackout angry that their voice BOOMS through the house? Because that’s what a roar is.

Have you never seen someone bare their teeth while talking to accentuate their frustration or anger while speaking with a vicious tone? Because that’s what snarling is.

It’s not meant to be a literal animal noise. For the love of god, not every description is literal. I get some people are genuinely confused, but also some of these people are genuinely unimaginative as fuck.

#a world with no metaphor #or simile #or subtext #have to have an omniscient narrator #telling the story #and explaining #every thought #and the meaning behind every action #characters have to be two dimensional #with no conflicting traits #because that would be just so confusing #/sarcasm #(except the world really seems to be #turning into that #which sucks) #writing things #queue u

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Hello, and welcome to stab Caesar month! It is also my birthday month, and this year's a big one. I don't want to think about it. Also, St. Patrick's Day - always a fave of mine. (Not at all because it's right after my birthday. /lies)

I have written 18k on an outline for a fanfic for my writing group's Fanfic Feb. I did not finish it.

18k is a big outline, you say. That's because I was making it as detailed as possible. Putting in everything I saw in my mind, whole conversations, and scene choreo in some places even.

I am oddly stuck on the 'dark night' section and Feb is over, and I'm not sure if I should try to finish it or put it aside and go back to the second chance romance I want to finish drafting by the end of Q1.

Stories and characters, they haunt me.

Also, MUCH of my brain power has been thinking about Tin Can Bros kickstarter and whether they would reach their goal, plus enjoying the amount influx of 'content' it created. (kind of hate the word content now.) It's definitely been a fun distraction, with Mac and O being as into it as I am and the three of us gathering in the living room with snacks to watch the live streams.

I am going to miss that.

In other news, I am rewatching W: Two Worlds Apart, my fave Kdrama - still.

And, finally -- meds are still out of whack. Part of the process is just trial and error I guess. I'm feeling pretty discouraged about it all, atm, but there's no point in dwelling.

Be well!

#content is the right word #it's just that it's come to mean something else #in this make money from social media age #and it's borderline toxic honestly #especially the way people have started to look at #fan creators as 'content' creators #and raging on about them not creating the content #and assigning intentions to their motives #that just most likely don't exist #a little guy (tm) comes to live in your brain #you don't control it #most of the time you never even wanted him there #fandom things #about me #writing things

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#too real lately #writing #writing things

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me: I'm going to write a fic to my own entertainment

also me, writing said fic:

#fanfic life #writing things

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#long post #image heavy #writing things #i found some typos #now that i posted it #isn't that always the way?

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I think it's been awhile since I posted anything. Time blindness is real my friends. Also, what was my last update? Oof. My writing group is doing a fun fanfic feb thing, which has me all “Just when I thought I was out, they pull me back in.” lol I am just outlining - yes, I think I told you this -- I am still outlining. 😅 It has slowed down a bit because I'm not as clear on this section and I need to work out what scenes I actually need.

So that's the update. Following this, I am going to post some graphics I did for a little trend a writer I follow started.

Be well Everyone!

#writing things #update

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#about me #fanfic life #writing things #queue u

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I am sure someone will say I am too old to be a starkid fan (and i would say you are never too old to be a fan of anything that brings you joy) but I was watching Spies are Forever - Tin Can Bros (who were basically born of StarKid) again last night and my brain has been trying to form the most UNHINGED crossover fic!

Please, Brain, don't do this to me.

But also, SaF takes place in 1961... TMfU 1963... of course it's going to try.

If you have never seen or heard of Spies are Forever, and you like independent theater, or musicals, give it a watch:

#Op-me #i am not tagging either of those things #i don't want to be perceived #but i definitely had to note this down in my 'records' #also #these guys are doing a kickstarter to make more stuff #so getting eyes on them is something I want to do

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These retreat mentions share more if you are ready and want too :)

I will admit that I’m not sure it will ever be ready to post, but I do have a two sentence synopsis. But the bitch is 375k (absolutely ridiculous) which makes it difficult to fit into any size synopsis.

Elevator pitch: Two people with disastrous sex lives are matched together on an exclusive sex retreat, and the sparks fly. Months later, fate brings them together again but, to have any chance at a real relationship, they’ll have to overcome past traumas, personal conflicts, long distance, and a hidden connection that puts them both in the cross-hairs of a maniac.

(If you don’t like sex scenes, this fic is not for you.)

Getting Illya to go to a sex retreat? I know, I know, friend. It did take work. lol

I want to give a list of tropes but I’m drawing a blank, except for the most important one, lol, the Size Kink. Hahaha! Most important one to know going in, anyway. 😂

Gaby’s owns an automobile manufacturing company, Schmidt Automotive, which she inherited from her foster father. Things are going well in that department, but her sex/dating life is in the trash. All the men she dates end up being selfish/clueless in bed. After a particularly disappointing (insulting) encounter, she gets a call from long time rival Victoria, offering her a free trip: to an exclusive, tailored, sex retreat.

She doesn’t take her up on it immediately but eventually decides that, since she can turn down the person she is paired with, she might as well give it a try.

Illya owns/operates a company that offers security and protection services. His sex life also sucks-- mostly because of his, shall we say, anatomy? It’s more than a little intimidating. It sucks, sure, especially since his last long time girlfriend dumped him over it. **  He is ready to just deal with it, but his partner and foster brother, Solo, is not ready to leave things be and decides to but him a trip to this very exclusive retreat where they are experts at matching people up for sex. Illya immediately rejects this but, after some time and trials, he decides that doing something different is better than just doing nothing/same thing over and over. He decides to take a chance.

After a slightly awkward beginning to their first meeting, things between them go VERY WELL. In fact, it’s almost like they were made for each other somehow. Problem? This retreat was only supposed to be a one weekend deal. While Illya is hoping she’ll be willing to keep in touch, Gaby and her abandonment issues are immediately in retreat because of how much she actually likes the person behind all the great sex. She leaves without exchanging numbers, or even last names.

Six months later, her company is experiencing a security issue. Important, proprietary information has been leaked to the competition: Vinciguerra Motors! Waverly sets about hiring a security expert to come in and close the gaps. And who walks into Gaby’s conference room but the guy she left behind at the sex retreat. The guy she has totally not been thinking of ever since.

ANYWAY - there’s more after that, because it’s like three books in one lol, but that’s as long of a post as I want to make. Writing it all out makes me see how ridiculous it all is. But, in my defense, when I was originally writing it, it was just for funsies, so I wasn’t trying to make it make sense.

Hope that gave you a little of what you are looking for, anon. And it’s not just torture for something that will never be, because I cannot guarantee I will ever post it.

**all the tictok girlies calling out how ridiculous large dicks are in romances/erotica is so funny to me now because, yeah a huge dick seems normal when you read this shit but in reality? Sure. Illya's dick is too big, that's literally the point. *snerk* (Also, I started writing this Dec 2015, friends. And the idea was born after watching Magic Mike XXL, bwahahahahaha!)

#gallya #gaby x illya #tmfu #illya kuryakin #gaby teller #illya x gaby #fanfic life #project: the retreat #asks and answers

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Happy February!

Don't want to get too tmi about meds or spend a lot of time talking about mental health and all that, but last month we were trying something new and it was not working. I was definitely missing the ability to focus that I had gained in Nov and December. Here's hoping the new set-up is the sweet spot my brain needs. Cross your fingers for me!

In writing news, my writing group is doing a new thing called Fanfic Feb, which is funny in some ways because I only just managed to start writing non-fanfic! But I am trying this new thing called outlining (snerk) and outlining a little idea I had for a fic in a whole different fandom that what I have been writing for the last eight (8!) years. I can already feel that writing the outline might remove the desire to actually write the fic, which is something I've suspected but never really tested. But, maybe getting it out of my brain it all that really needs to be done.

#Op-me

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Brain: *vividly imagines next scene so passionately the body can only sit and stare at a dot on the wall while it is happening*

me: cool, now let's write it down

Brain: write what down?