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My Time Here is ending.

TRIGGER WARNINGS: depression / s**cide / anixety / self hatred / body dysmorphia if you get triggered easily please don’t read this rant!

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14 years old I was at my most depressive state, I wanted to die and I was done with life I hated myself and my life I wanted nothing more to end my life.. for years I thought nothing would ever be good or I would never be happy and life wouldn’t get better.

As I sit here at 20 feeling so happy with the way my life turned out, I’m getting married to a boy I love and I’m feeling life at it’s highest I’m going on a first ever family trip with my family, I have money for the first time in years that I saved up myself I don’t regret anything things are going really good for me, I can’t imagine what would’ve happened if I ended it at 14 like I planned out to do. I would’ve missed seeing my nephews and my nieces grow up I would’ve missed my brothers, I would’ve left my mom and my dad alone. And it’s all thanks to being religious honestly I wouldn’t have gotten out alive if it wasn’t for God, I’m living proof that life gets better and you may see some really dark horrible bad days, when you can’t get up in the morning, you can’t brush your hair, or brush your teeth or change your clothes or pick up your head. I’ve had so many days where it seemed life wouldn’t change or end.

and you might have some really good beautiful days, you brush your hair and you get dressed in the morning or you find the song you’ve been looking for or you actually feel good about how your body looks in an outfit or you feel confident for once in your life or you had a good conversation with someone you look up to or the sun shines so brightly you feel warm all over, it’s the little things that keep us alive whether it’s a song on the radio or another human being telling you, you look beautiful today..

we’re all going through a really hard time with COVID and I know trying to be happy right now seems like a waste of time because of all of the shit going on and I don’t blame you not one drop for feeling hurt or disgusted by all of this but just remember your heart is beating you’re alive right now and that’s what matters.

Thank you to everyone who has taken this journey with me for the past 8 years that this account has been active, I will be posting a few last stories and this will be the end of the line. My account will not be deactivated! I will just be inactive. My story is not over yet and yours doesn’t have to be neither.

#personal #rant #thank you #for #the #support #supernatural #avengers #marvel #dc #comics #dc comics #marvel cinematic universe

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The falcon and the winter soldier wallpapers.

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reblog if you wear glasses. too many mutuals don't know they have glasses wearers in their midsts

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hughie: *teaching kimiko how to play a video game* alright, now on your screen, before you start up the game, make sure your safe zone is okay--

kimiko: *drops her laptop and runs to frenchie*

hughie: uhhhh i meant the safe zone on your screen but whatever works for you i guess...

[soldierallen]

Thanks 😊🙏🏼

Airplane Mode.

Henry leaves to do the Witcher season 2 y/n needs to talk to him but he switches his phone off to airplane mode.

Warnings: none.

“Henry” she whispered seeing him flat on his back asleep with a book on his chest reading glasses still on, she smiled kissing his forehead pulling off his glasses she covered him with a blanket “it’s easier for me to say this while you’re asleep but I do in fact love you...to the ends of the earth” she killed the light and walked away into her bedroom, Henry would stay over some nights to get some sleep or read a book to relax they were best friends not together for lots of reasons, he’s an actor who isn’t around all the time, he’s always in love with someone else, she can’t pick up and leave like he does, oh did she mention he’s always in love with someone else.

She lays in her bed looking at the roof until finally she fell asleep, laying awake thinking of the man in the living room never felt good because he didn’t love her back the way she did him.

she sits at her piano looking at the keys her mind wanders, “play me something..” she hears his voice she hums “hello sleepy head, like what?” He puts his hand on her shoulder as He sits next to her on the piano bench “something that makes you feel alive..” he says she looks at him like he’s crazy “are you feeling okay?” she asked checking his head with the back of her hand he rolls his eyes pulling her hand away “play” he said wanting to watch her, “gymnopédie no. 1?” She asked he nodded yes, as she played the piano he smiled he loved watching her play she was so involved in the music she loved having him here he rubbed her thigh lovingly as she played Henry’s love language was psychical touch the music soared through the walls you could hear her in every room even though it was quiet and she lived alone it felt like the whole world could hear it.

and when she finished she smiled at Henry, he smiled back “you love what you do?” she nodded her head “I teach what I love” she said gesturing to her prize possession, “I’m leaving to do season two” he blurts out she feels her throat get dry “how long do I have..” she asked “tonight my plane leaves at 10” he said clearing his throat he clasps his hands together his elbows on his knees he looked stressed by telling her this, “and you thought now was the perfect time? what about four days ago or a week ago why would you tell me now?” she tried not getting upset however clearly she was he pulled her in hugging her “I’m sorry” he says “it’s always I’m sorry with you” she pulled away from their hug “go I know you’re just dying to leave like you always do.” “Come on don’t give me that crap if I could stay I would. you know that” he says not mad or angry but with a hurt tone in his voice, these goodbyes were always the hardest for them they spilt up constantly and she was getting tired of losing him. and he got up getting his things and going.. she thought about him-.. he’s leaving again and he’ll keep leaving it’s not fair she cried calling him..no answer.. straight to voice mail- she put his phone on airplane mode how am I going to get to him? and with the only thought in her mind

Run to him. And that’s what she did she got into her car speeding to the airport it was 9:30 at night she knew he was already there he hates waiting for bag check, she ran through the airport a women yelling at her to get through “this is my romcom moment” she said at all the people waiting in line “I don’t have any bags I’m not getting on a plane I need to tell the man I’m in love with that I love him he won’t answer my calls he’s on airplane mode and I need to talk to him, please let me through it will take 5 seconds I will put my keys and my wallet in that bucket and take off my shoes” and the lady got a little choked up hearing her speak she frisked her for about three seconds and let her through “you go get him sweetie” she said to her “thank you ma’m” she sped off with her sneakers in her hands keys and wallet too “Henry” she yelled, nothing she searched for him with her eyes nothing.. god was I too late- “Henry” she yelled once more and when she turned around his hand was on her shoulder “hey what are you doing here and shoeless?” he looked concerned he hugged her tightly

“I’m here for you, listen you can reject me and that’s fine- I’m not here to stop you I’m here to tell you I love you and I have for as long as we’ve been friends and trying to hide it from you has been the hardest thing in my life” she shallows quickly trying to catch her breath Henry listens his eyes getting glossed over “I heard you” he cut her off “what” she said “you said “I love you to the ends of the earth” but I thought I was dreaming I thought it was fake” he pulled her body closer to his “I love you y/n to the ends of earth the galaxy and whatever else is on the other side, you mean more to me than life itself.” He kissed her lips slowly “I’m not stopping you from going to do your show you just needed to know” he nodded his head his forehead up against hers “I know” he said lovingly “fly out to me in a week I wanna see you, I wanna hold you and tell you how much you mean to me in detail” he whispered “in detail?” She smiled as his lips glazed over her smile “yes darling, in detail.” He kissed her once more “can that be our song, the song you played on the piano” he said and she nodded “I’ll always think of you when I hear it”

“Now Bording the 705 to Budapest, Hungary.” He looks at her and then He looks up “that’s you cavill... stay safe oh and maybe don’t put your phone on airplane mode until you get in the plane” she said with a small laugh his followed “more dramatic that way... I’ll see you pretty girl” and he borded his flight she waved to him putting her shoes back on she smiled at him and he laughed watching her finally bording his plane.. as she walked back to her car a text was sent to her

From Henry

“I love you.”

From Y/n

“You’re on the plane and you took it off airplane mode?”

“You’re unbelievable!”

“oh and I love you too henry.”

#henry cavill fic #imagine #henry cavill

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😘😘 thank you so much for liking it❤️

Airplane Mode.

Henry leaves to do the Witcher season 2 y/n needs to talk to him but he switches his phone off to airplane mode.

Warnings: none.

“Henry” she whispered seeing him flat on his back asleep with a book on his chest reading glasses still on, she smiled kissing his forehead pulling off his glasses she covered him with a blanket “it’s easier for me to say this while you’re asleep but I do in fact love you...to the ends of the earth” she killed the light and walked away into her bedroom, Henry would stay over some nights to get some sleep or read a book to relax they were best friends not together for lots of reasons, he’s an actor who isn’t around all the time, he’s always in love with someone else, she can’t pick up and leave like he does, oh did she mention he’s always in love with someone else.

She lays in her bed looking at the roof until finally she fell asleep, laying awake thinking of the man in the living room never felt good because he didn’t love her back the way she did him.

she sits at her piano looking at the keys her mind wanders, “play me something..” she hears his voice she hums “hello sleepy head, like what?” He puts his hand on her shoulder as He sits next to her on the piano bench “something that makes you feel alive..” he says she looks at him like he’s crazy “are you feeling okay?” she asked checking his head with the back of her hand he rolls his eyes pulling her hand away “play” he said wanting to watch her, “gymnopédie no. 1?” She asked he nodded yes, as she played the piano he smiled he loved watching her play she was so involved in the music she loved having him here he rubbed her thigh lovingly as she played Henry’s love language was psychical touch the music soared through the walls you could hear her in every room even though it was quiet and she lived alone it felt like the whole world could hear it.

and when she finished she smiled at Henry, he smiled back “you love what you do?” she nodded her head “I teach what I love” she said gesturing to her prize possession, “I’m leaving to do season two” he blurts out she feels her throat get dry “how long do I have..” she asked “tonight my plane leaves at 10” he said clearing his throat he clasps his hands together his elbows on his knees he looked stressed by telling her this, “and you thought now was the perfect time? what about four days ago or a week ago why would you tell me now?” she tried not getting upset however clearly she was he pulled her in hugging her “I’m sorry” he says “it’s always I’m sorry with you” she pulled away from their hug “go I know you’re just dying to leave like you always do.” “Come on don’t give me that crap if I could stay I would. you know that” he says not mad or angry but with a hurt tone in his voice, these goodbyes were always the hardest for them they spilt up constantly and she was getting tired of losing him. and he got up getting his things and going.. she thought about him-.. he’s leaving again and he’ll keep leaving it’s not fair she cried calling him..no answer.. straight to voice mail- she put his phone on airplane mode how am I going to get to him? and with the only thought in her mind

Run to him. And that’s what she did she got into her car speeding to the airport it was 9:30 at night she knew he was already there he hates waiting for bag check, she ran through the airport a women yelling at her to get through “this is my romcom moment” she said at all the people waiting in line “I don’t have any bags I’m not getting on a plane I need to tell the man I’m in love with that I love him he won’t answer my calls he’s on airplane mode and I need to talk to him, please let me through it will take 5 seconds I will put my keys and my wallet in that bucket and take off my shoes” and the lady got a little choked up hearing her speak she frisked her for about three seconds and let her through “you go get him sweetie” she said to her “thank you ma’m” she sped off with her sneakers in her hands keys and wallet too “Henry” she yelled, nothing she searched for him with her eyes nothing.. god was I too late- “Henry” she yelled once more and when she turned around his hand was on her shoulder “hey what are you doing here and shoeless?” he looked concerned he hugged her tightly

“I’m here for you, listen you can reject me and that’s fine- I’m not here to stop you I’m here to tell you I love you and I have for as long as we’ve been friends and trying to hide it from you has been the hardest thing in my life” she shallows quickly trying to catch her breath Henry listens his eyes getting glossed over “I heard you” he cut her off “what” she said “you said “I love you to the ends of the earth” but I thought I was dreaming I thought it was fake” he pulled her body closer to his “I love you y/n to the ends of earth the galaxy and whatever else is on the other side, you mean more to me than life itself.” He kissed her lips slowly “I’m not stopping you from going to do your show you just needed to know” he nodded his head his forehead up against hers “I know” he said lovingly “fly out to me in a week I wanna see you, I wanna hold you and tell you how much you mean to me in detail” he whispered “in detail?” She smiled as his lips glazed over her smile “yes darling, in detail.” He kissed her once more “can that be our song, the song you played on the piano” he said and she nodded “I’ll always think of you when I hear it”

“Now Bording the 705 to Budapest, Hungary.” He looks at her and then He looks up “that’s you cavill... stay safe oh and maybe don’t put your phone on airplane mode until you get in the plane” she said with a small laugh his followed “more dramatic that way... I’ll see you pretty girl” and he borded his flight she waved to him putting her shoes back on she smiled at him and he laughed watching her finally bording his plane.. as she walked back to her car a text was sent to her

From Henry

“I love you.”

From Y/n

“You’re on the plane and you took it off airplane mode?”

“You’re unbelievable!”

“oh and I love you too henry.”

#this is crazy #i never expected this #fic rec #henry cavill #henry cavill x reader

[soldierallen]

Thank you so much 🥺🥰 it really means a lot to mee!!

Airplane Mode.

Henry leaves to do the Witcher season 2 y/n needs to talk to him but he switches his phone off to airplane mode.

Warnings: none.

“Henry” she whispered seeing him flat on his back asleep with a book on his chest reading glasses still on, she smiled kissing his forehead pulling off his glasses she covered him with a blanket “it’s easier for me to say this while you’re asleep but I do in fact love you...to the ends of the earth” she killed the light and walked away into her bedroom, Henry would stay over some nights to get some sleep or read a book to relax they were best friends not together for lots of reasons, he’s an actor who isn’t around all the time, he’s always in love with someone else, she can’t pick up and leave like he does, oh did she mention he’s always in love with someone else.

She lays in her bed looking at the roof until finally she fell asleep, laying awake thinking of the man in the living room never felt good because he didn’t love her back the way she did him.

she sits at her piano looking at the keys her mind wanders, “play me something..” she hears his voice she hums “hello sleepy head, like what?” He puts his hand on her shoulder as He sits next to her on the piano bench “something that makes you feel alive..” he says she looks at him like he’s crazy “are you feeling okay?” she asked checking his head with the back of her hand he rolls his eyes pulling her hand away “play” he said wanting to watch her, “gymnopédie no. 1?” She asked he nodded yes, as she played the piano he smiled he loved watching her play she was so involved in the music she loved having him here he rubbed her thigh lovingly as she played Henry’s love language was psychical touch the music soared through the walls you could hear her in every room even though it was quiet and she lived alone it felt like the whole world could hear it.

and when she finished she smiled at Henry, he smiled back “you love what you do?” she nodded her head “I teach what I love” she said gesturing to her prize possession, “I’m leaving to do season two” he blurts out she feels her throat get dry “how long do I have..” she asked “tonight my plane leaves at 10” he said clearing his throat he clasps his hands together his elbows on his knees he looked stressed by telling her this, “and you thought now was the perfect time? what about four days ago or a week ago why would you tell me now?” she tried not getting upset however clearly she was he pulled her in hugging her “I’m sorry” he says “it’s always I’m sorry with you” she pulled away from their hug “go I know you’re just dying to leave like you always do.” “Come on don’t give me that crap if I could stay I would. you know that” he says not mad or angry but with a hurt tone in his voice, these goodbyes were always the hardest for them they spilt up constantly and she was getting tired of losing him. and he got up getting his things and going.. she thought about him-.. he’s leaving again and he’ll keep leaving it’s not fair she cried calling him..no answer.. straight to voice mail- she put his phone on airplane mode how am I going to get to him? and with the only thought in her mind

Run to him. And that’s what she did she got into her car speeding to the airport it was 9:30 at night she knew he was already there he hates waiting for bag check, she ran through the airport a women yelling at her to get through “this is my romcom moment” she said at all the people waiting in line “I don’t have any bags I’m not getting on a plane I need to tell the man I’m in love with that I love him he won’t answer my calls he’s on airplane mode and I need to talk to him, please let me through it will take 5 seconds I will put my keys and my wallet in that bucket and take off my shoes” and the lady got a little choked up hearing her speak she frisked her for about three seconds and let her through “you go get him sweetie” she said to her “thank you ma’m” she sped off with her sneakers in her hands keys and wallet too “Henry” she yelled, nothing she searched for him with her eyes nothing.. god was I too late- “Henry” she yelled once more and when she turned around his hand was on her shoulder “hey what are you doing here and shoeless?” he looked concerned he hugged her tightly

“I’m here for you, listen you can reject me and that’s fine- I’m not here to stop you I’m here to tell you I love you and I have for as long as we’ve been friends and trying to hide it from you has been the hardest thing in my life” she shallows quickly trying to catch her breath Henry listens his eyes getting glossed over “I heard you” he cut her off “what” she said “you said “I love you to the ends of the earth” but I thought I was dreaming I thought it was fake” he pulled her body closer to his “I love you y/n to the ends of earth the galaxy and whatever else is on the other side, you mean more to me than life itself.” He kissed her lips slowly “I’m not stopping you from going to do your show you just needed to know” he nodded his head his forehead up against hers “I know” he said lovingly “fly out to me in a week I wanna see you, I wanna hold you and tell you how much you mean to me in detail” he whispered “in detail?” She smiled as his lips glazed over her smile “yes darling, in detail.” He kissed her once more “can that be our song, the song you played on the piano” he said and she nodded “I’ll always think of you when I hear it”

“Now Bording the 705 to Budapest, Hungary.” He looks at her and then He looks up “that’s you cavill... stay safe oh and maybe don’t put your phone on airplane mode until you get in the plane” she said with a small laugh his followed “more dramatic that way... I’ll see you pretty girl” and he borded his flight she waved to him putting her shoes back on she smiled at him and he laughed watching her finally bording his plane.. as she walked back to her car a text was sent to her

From Henry

“I love you.”

From Y/n

“You’re on the plane and you took it off airplane mode?”

“You’re unbelievable!”

“oh and I love you too henry.”

#it really means so much to me #henry cavill x reader #henry cavill fic

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A clue for what’s next ✨

Oh, well. What’s a royal ball? After all, I suppose it would be frightfully dull, and boring, and completely… Completely wonderful. Cinderella (1950) dir. Clyde Geronimi, Wilfred Jackson, Hamilton Luske

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“Eternity”

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Airplane Mode.

Henry leaves to do the Witcher season 2 y/n needs to talk to him but he switches his phone off to airplane mode.

Warnings: none.

“Henry” she whispered seeing him flat on his back asleep with a book on his chest reading glasses still on, she smiled kissing his forehead pulling off his glasses she covered him with a blanket “it’s easier for me to say this while you’re asleep but I do in fact love you...to the ends of the earth” she killed the light and walked away into her bedroom, Henry would stay over some nights to get some sleep or read a book to relax they were best friends not together for lots of reasons, he’s an actor who isn’t around all the time, he’s always in love with someone else, she can’t pick up and leave like he does, oh did she mention he’s always in love with someone else.

She lays in her bed looking at the roof until finally she fell asleep, laying awake thinking of the man in the living room never felt good because he didn’t love her back the way she did him.

she sits at her piano looking at the keys her mind wanders, “play me something..” she hears his voice she hums “hello sleepy head, like what?” He puts his hand on her shoulder as He sits next to her on the piano bench “something that makes you feel alive..” he says she looks at him like he’s crazy “are you feeling okay?” she asked checking his head with the back of her hand he rolls his eyes pulling her hand away “play” he said wanting to watch her, “gymnopédie no. 1?” She asked he nodded yes, as she played the piano he smiled he loved watching her play she was so involved in the music she loved having him here he rubbed her thigh lovingly as she played Henry’s love language was psychical touch the music soared through the walls you could hear her in every room even though it was quiet and she lived alone it felt like the whole world could hear it.

and when she finished she smiled at Henry, he smiled back “you love what you do?” she nodded her head “I teach what I love” she said gesturing to her prize possession, “I’m leaving to do season two” he blurts out she feels her throat get dry “how long do I have..” she asked “tonight my plane leaves at 10” he said clearing his throat he clasps his hands together his elbows on his knees he looked stressed by telling her this, “and you thought now was the perfect time? what about four days ago or a week ago why would you tell me now?” she tried not getting upset however clearly she was he pulled her in hugging her “I’m sorry” he says “it’s always I’m sorry with you” she pulled away from their hug “go I know you’re just dying to leave like you always do.” “Come on don’t give me that crap if I could stay I would. you know that” he says not mad or angry but with a hurt tone in his voice, these goodbyes were always the hardest for them they spilt up constantly and she was getting tired of losing him. and he got up getting his things and going.. she thought about him-.. he’s leaving again and he’ll keep leaving it’s not fair she cried calling him..no answer.. straight to voice mail- she put his phone on airplane mode how am I going to get to him? and with the only thought in her mind

Run to him. And that’s what she did she got into her car speeding to the airport it was 9:30 at night she knew he was already there he hates waiting for bag check, she ran through the airport a women yelling at her to get through “this is my romcom moment” she said at all the people waiting in line “I don’t have any bags I’m not getting on a plane I need to tell the man I’m in love with that I love him he won’t answer my calls he’s on airplane mode and I need to talk to him, please let me through it will take 5 seconds I will put my keys and my wallet in that bucket and take off my shoes” and the lady got a little choked up hearing her speak she frisked her for about three seconds and let her through “you go get him sweetie” she said to her “thank you ma’m” she sped off with her sneakers in her hands keys and wallet too “Henry” she yelled, nothing she searched for him with her eyes nothing.. god was I too late- “Henry” she yelled once more and when she turned around his hand was on her shoulder “hey what are you doing here and shoeless?” he looked concerned he hugged her tightly

“I’m here for you, listen you can reject me and that’s fine- I’m not here to stop you I’m here to tell you I love you and I have for as long as we’ve been friends and trying to hide it from you has been the hardest thing in my life” she shallows quickly trying to catch her breath Henry listens his eyes getting glossed over “I heard you” he cut her off “what” she said “you said “I love you to the ends of the earth” but I thought I was dreaming I thought it was fake” he pulled her body closer to his “I love you y/n to the ends of earth the galaxy and whatever else is on the other side, you mean more to me than life itself.” He kissed her lips slowly “I’m not stopping you from going to do your show you just needed to know” he nodded his head his forehead up against hers “I know” he said lovingly “fly out to me in a week I wanna see you, I wanna hold you and tell you how much you mean to me in detail” he whispered “in detail?” She smiled as his lips glazed over her smile “yes darling, in detail.” He kissed her once more “can that be our song, the song you played on the piano” he said and she nodded “I’ll always think of you when I hear it”

“Now Bording the 705 to Budapest, Hungary.” He looks at her and then He looks up “that’s you cavill... stay safe oh and maybe don’t put your phone on airplane mode until you get in the plane” she said with a small laugh his followed “more dramatic that way... I’ll see you pretty girl” and he borded his flight she waved to him putting her shoes back on she smiled at him and he laughed watching her finally bording his plane.. as she walked back to her car a text was sent to her

From Henry

“I love you.”

From Y/n

“You’re on the plane and you took it off airplane mode?”

“You’re unbelievable!”

“oh and I love you too henry.”

#henry cavill x reader #henry cavill fic #imagine #henry cavill #henry cavill imagine #Henry cavill reader #airplane mode #i love henry so much

[soldierallen]

if you put as much effort into writing then into defending other writers, then your blog would definitely take off again.

im not gonna let the writing community get toxic because of anons sending hate to writers. writers are dropping left and right - due to plagiarism, lack of inspiration/interaction, hate, etc.. we don’t need to bully others off this platform.

tumblr isn’t meant to be toxic and no one deserves to be harassed by those abusing the power of anonymity behind the screen.

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Only for you.

After the events of endgame y/n comes home everyday feeling lost without Steve, Wanda insists she tells Bucky how she feels about him, when it’s not Bucky but Steve Rogers but he isn’t here. Can she find love with Bucky?

Bucky x reader / Steve x Peggy -

Warnings: spoilers about endgame, angry steve, fluffy bucky, talks about deaths in endgame

Appearances: Wanda Maximoff, Sam Wilson, Bruce Banner, Tony Stark, Pepper Potts, Steve Rogers, Peggy Carter, Bucky Barnes

“So this is what it’s come to?” Wanda looks at y/n laying flat on her stomach flicking through channels, she crosses her arms and watches her. Y/n rolls her eyes and flips over “Wanda please I’m not in the mood for one of your talks” Wanda magically pulls are legs off the couch and sits putting y/n’s legs on her lap “you know we’ve been friends for years and I know the way you feel about Bucky why can’t you just tell him!, it’s literally killing you” “where’s Bruce banner when you need him” y/n says getting up “can you stop” she heads to the kitchen as Wanda follows “but you’re in love with him shouldn’t you tell him I mean if vision was still around I would’ve told him I loved him” and that’s when y/n had a enough. “Wanda it’s not Bucky” she yelled, Wanda was a bit startled “then who?” “Steve it’s always been Steve, I thought maybe just maybe he’d stay but no he left no call no text nothing he left without saying goodbye and I’ll never see him again!” She was so frustrated that after everything Steve vanished he’s been gone for months at this point, he might never come back she doesn’t know.

“Y/n I didn’t know.. I thought it was about Bucky” Wanda said unknowingly she was embarrassed and felt stupid “Wanda I’m sorry I just I can’t- Steve meant so much to me and he’s gone and I’ll never get him back I can’t keep living on it or being sad anymore I’m tired I’m done” she says, she swallows “I’ll leave you alone, I’ll be in the tower if you need me.” She says leaving y/n to defend her own thoughts, she looks out the window it’s dark but the moon casted a light on the water.. she felt comfort in the night she never knew why but she did all these years. She heard footsteps behind her “very settle sam I always know when it’s you” she smiled turning to see him “you know I hate when you do that right?” Sam said sitting next to her “I know but it creeps you out” she nudged his shoulder “I think there’s something you should see” Sam said getting up holding out his hand “what’s going on?” She grabbed onto his hand and he didn’t say a word, he lead her into the avengers tower the bottom level “we’re going time traveling sam” she smiled and when she looked straight ahead it was the machine that Tony made before everything happened, “I think you need closure, I heard you talking to wanda.. I asked Bruce for a favor” Bruce walked in glasses in hand a small smile on his face “how’s the big guy?” she smiled walking up to Bruce hugging him he engulfed her in his arms “he misses you” he cupped her face in his hand “let’s get this show on the road” he pulled his hand away from her face they walked up to the machine, “can I see tony for five minutes I won’t talk to him I just...I want to see him” Bruce nodded at her he missed his best friend, tony trained her he used to call her his little iron girl she wanted to be just like him.

she watched him as he took pepper in his arms and kissed her they were just walking in the park enjoying each other her eyes welling up with tears, she hated that he was gone he was like a father to her when all of sudden without notice he was walking up to her “y/n?” He said she felt her stomach turn she hasn’t talked to Tony since before the war with thanos “hi Tony” “how are you here I thought you was on a mission with cap?” He said, she was at this point old time her “I got back a little early, I wanted to sit in the park for a little while” she hugged Tony and he hugged her back “god Tony I missed you so much” she tried holding back her tears “it’s only been a few days but I do miss you too lovebug” She nodded her head “I have to go.. I love you tony Don’t tell anyone about this I wasn’t suppose to be at the park so if I talk to you later and I don’t remember this conversation that’s why okay?” “I love you too kid” he bowed his head silghtly and she walked away,

She traveled to the time Steve was in, she saw him from the window, dancing with Peggy laughing... he didn’t care about her it’s only ever her. And when she knocked on the door with her outfit to fit the time she felt uneasy barging in on him, she needed closure and Sam gave it to her it needed to get done. Steve answered the door his eyes widened “y/n what are you doing here? In this time?” she swallows hearing his voice for the first time in months “can I talk to you out here” he nods walking out closing the door behind him they sit on Peggy’s porch “this is twisted” she says, his face turns to her “you left for peggy a women you met for a few months, me the women who sat by your side and fought a war with you, bucky who served with you and was your childhood best friend and- Sam god and Sam he’s so broken losing his best friend he hasn’t been the same since you left, why would you leave us?” she had no plan on saying all of that however her brain had other plans “I lost my parents I lost bucky I lost Peggy I lost nat I lost tony..” he sighed “I couldn’t risk losing anyone anymore the thought of losing you or sam I couldn’t be here for that.” He said

She looked at him like she’s never looked at Him before a sense of disappointment in her eyes “you left everyone in shambles, I’m in love with you what don’t you understand she got married she moved on she had kids grandkids, you left me on the sidelines like our relationship was nothing to you”

“don’t be like that.” Steve said not looking into her eyes “I will be like that steve because you left everyone to defend themselves and didn’t say goodbye” she was firm, “I’m not your goddamn baby sitter” he said with anger in his voice “maybe it should’ve been you and not Tony.” And with that she walked away.. down Peggy’s steps and into the street she found her way into a diner... she remembered Bucky told her once about this place she took a book of matches off the table and placed them in her pants pocket most of the women wore skirts and dresses and looked at her like she was crazy, and surely enough it was time for her to leave. She arrived back and safe she saw Sam and Bruce telling them what Steve said and how arrogant he seemed and Tony was always himself Bruce seemed sad when she talked about Tony but that was a given. she walked back into the tower knocking on Bucky’s door, he answered he smiled at her “hey pretty girl” she covered her face in embarrassment “I think Sam told you where I was going” he nodded crossing his arms over his chest “he might’ve said something” he seemed nervous “I talked to Steve, he was so different like it changed him... I won’t get into it but I got this for you” she handed him the matches and his eyes lit up “are you serious?” He was amazed as he reached out his metal hand to grab it but quickly reattached his hand to use his flesh one to hold it “wow” were his only words “unbelievable... thank you” he hugged her.. “yeah only for you.” She squeezed him back. Maybe Wanda wasn’t wrong bucky was here and did everything for her she should be with Bucky. It seems right. “I saw Tony and I told him I miss him and I love him he said the same things back I told Steve I loved him...he didn’t say anything back. I thought maybe buck just maybe he’d change his mind for me, but I finally got the closure I needed.” “you will find someone else who will love you maybe they’re right in front of you” he cupped her cheeks in his hands “bucky...” “you don’t have to say anything, what you did was one of the most thoughtful things anyone has ever done for me...you remembered something I said once- you don’t have to say anything” he said she kissed him it was a sweet light peck on his lips he smiled, his blue eyes glossy on her, he kissed back once more “maybe we should try this out..” he said she nodded “maybe we should” she said finally letting go of him “Saturday at 8 we’re gonna try it” he said she blushed “sounds like a date..” she said walking away, maybe what she needed all along was for someone to tell her how important she was to them or she was loved maybe she didn’t need to feel so lost or empty, all you need is that one person that lights a fire in you.

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Not to be that person but if that’s henry’s house... when I wrote “Married” this is exactly if not the exact same house I pictured Henry living in!!!

it is so crazy to have him be in front of a house that I imagined in my HEAD when I wrote those chapters...absolutely wild

even the walkway towards the house looks the same like- I am so! in! shock!!

Henry Cavill:  Monday to Friday I’m up at 0430 to get a few hours rehab in before my work day starts. Some mornings are rough, but I do always get to see the dawn by the time I’m finishing up. The snow made this one even more enjoyable, if not a touch chilly!

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Hey guys sorry I’ve been gone for so long, I started working again and there’s literally no time to write, I just had my 20th birthday. I thought it was going to be so different I thought by the time I have my 20th birthday life would’ve been so much better and really nothing happened. Thank you to everyone who’s been supporting me even when I’m not around liking my stories and rebloging me I truly truly appreciate it! 

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