poeitryforsomereason

[poeitryforsomereason]

I leave you this offering of pencil stubbs pinky rings and Lego peices

Let the spiders and mice that find their way in find their way out again safe and warm

I speak to you ruler of puzzle pieces and hair ties

Let the children straying from the path find their way back with treasures enough to share

I pray God of small lost things

That you protect your flock

#poetry #witch poetry

[poeitryforsomereason]

The things I pray for

Please let my freind succeed

Please let the others be kind

Please help the nervous girl feel better

Please let the teacher not notice the smell

Please let them notice I'm here

Please let today be good

Please let them leave me alone

Please let them remember me

Please make it not hurt

Please let people know they are loved

#pagen poetry #witch poetry

[poeitryforsomereason]

the choice

My life.

It's a blur

fast and mindless. I had no plan.

like to believe

we will behave like heroes

without thought

I did try. It just wasn't possible

a straight recitation of the facts

A repetitive coward yes,and naive,

Stupid 

Smug

the plain fact of crisis

uncertain reasons

no consensus

moral confusion is always imperfect cause you can't fix your mistakes

the man Knew a place where your life exists before you've lived it

A mistake, maybe

I know it's not a happy ending

I understood that I would not do what I should

"Nothing," I said. " Wait."

“Anything” , I said 

I couldn't decide,

it was no longer a question perhaps you can understand why

#poetry

[poeitryforsomereason]

My mother was once my whole world

She told me I was special

But special is lonely

I have never met somone like me

I just want them to like me

I want somone to tell me they understand and really mean it

I want to stop everything from changing

I never want to see this town again

I want to live out of her shadow

I don't want to live at all

#poetry #disabled poet #its about growing out of who you were ya'know #im not fine but im not gonna do anything so im fine enough

[poeitryforsomereason]

I like to think I live a quiet introspective life

Then a girl who tells me her problems asks me to keep a secret

And I remember

I am lonely

#poetry

[poeitryforsomereason]

Hair pulling breath stealing clashing teeth love

Fun in the moment

You leave me feeling dirty

Kisses turn my stomach

I want you to stop touching me

I want to stop touching you

Constant breath on my shoulder fear

Hand on my waist supress a shudder

It feels like a chore to be a good partner

I feel the love but not when I'm alone

I am happy when I'm alone

I am made to be loved but not love back

#can someone whos aro please tell me if thats what this is #dating genuinely makes me feel gross but its kinda fun in the moment #poetry #anti love poem #kinda

[poeitryforsomereason]

Werewolves are body betrayed

They are you did something to me

and why am I not the same

And it hurts again

And it hurts again

and secret

and am I a monster

and can anyone really love somthing like me

And why does it still hurt

And can I be the same as I was

And I promise I'm not like them I promise I'm not what they say about me

And I won't hurt you please don't hunt me

And please love me

#disabled poet #werewolves are trauma #and disability #and queerness #werewolf #werewolf poems

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It's following them to the ends of the earth with no question

It's being so proud they chose you despite everything

It's love and admiration bordering on worship it's always living in their shadow but being fine with it because at least it's theirs

It's swallowing all their anger like a spoonful of oil because who else could love you like they do

it's knowing they bring out the best in you and you can't for them it's feeling like you are nothing without them

It's not knowing if you hate them or love them It's jealousy and first love and I would kill for you and I would die for you and please just love me

It's wondering who you would even be without them

#i was listening to the crane wives and i got feelings #the moon will sing #this whole thing feels like that vaguely gay codependent childhood freindship

[poeitryforsomereason]

Is it better or worse to know me?

If you know me you have somthing to direct your hate towards but instead of it being this nebulous threat it's just... me

a teenage kid who loves roller skateing and spending time with their freinds

who's bad at singing but does it anyways

who has a bad haircut and sucks at makup

who collects stuffed frogs and loves animals

who gardens with their mother

who is afraid of crossing the street alone

Who hates bullies but never knows what do do about them

Who has a favorite food that changes every week

Who wishes they could make you understand

Do you see me as a person now?

Are you still afraid?

#trans poets on tumblr #trans poems #trans artist #waving generally at the world right now #questions for people who hate me

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I love you horror book cripple bitch

Tap-glide walk like thunder you have places to be

March through a puddle just to blot a perfect bullseye next to your boot print

Master a dead-eye-stare through a migraine and use it every day

They will laugh at you but they will move for you

Parting like dust before a fan

They will never know your smile

#actually disabled #disabled poet #disabled poetry #somone laughed at me today so i wrote this #original poem #poetry

[poeitryforsomereason]

I think I must be made of garbage

If I'm not where does it keep coming from?

Pouring out of me like blood from a wound

I dont do anything but lie in my bed and stare at where I think my floor used to be

Where does it come from?

I want it gone

#depression

[poeitryforsomereason]

Dark eyed stolen voice girl 

Hair cropped too short itchy dress cold legs 

I am sorry 

You are no one and everyone 

You died a thousand different ways 

I am sorry 

I want you to run 

I want you to survive and thrive 

I am sorry 

#un settleing

[poeitryforsomereason]

I wish I could lie back down on that too hot table and scream for scans till they find what's wrong

Wish I was dead so they could gut me like a fish digging out enough rot and trouble to bring back my vindictive spirit to cackle in the tear stained face of my mother

Lay flat on my back limbs twitching like a dieing spider

Skin zipped off showing my strain and struggle as clear as I could

Wish I could paint you my pain

Make it so pretty you hang my corpse above your bed and look at it before you fall asleep

I dont even want it to stop anymore

I just want a reason

#disabled poet #disabled poetry #actually disabled #cronic pain #reumatoid arthritis #< maybe? #pissed cripple #i am so tired

[poeitryforsomereason]

He asked

What would be the worst thing they could find

I dont know how to tell the man who raised me and I barely know

The worst thing they could find would be nothing

No reason

No answer

No help

So I lied

#disabled poet #disabled poetry #actually disabled #chronically disabled #reumatoid arthritis #< maybe? #parents amirite

[poeitryforsomereason]

10 posts!

#10 posts #tumblr milestone

[poeitryforsomereason]

A collection of words about man I think I loved

I don't know if it was abuse

I think it was the before stages

Like a rumble on the horizon

She rejected him

and he punished me by digging his fingernails so deep into my shoulders that I still have light crescent shaped scars that I scratch when I'm nervous

Sometimes I wake up in a cold sweat the feeling of claws around my throat

He spent three months taking out every drop of anger he had on my forearms until my mother found out and made me tell him to stop

Five months of being an emotional sponge later and he fell in love

I was afraid he would hurt me if I said no

Loving him felt like loving a thunderstorm

His anger was so corrosive and destructive that it could only be home

a year of fear

And he said I was to selfish to love

I'm just glad he didn't kill either of us

#abuse tw #abuse mention #original poem #poetry #love poetry #the bird #if somone can tell me if this was abuseive that would be great because i cant afford therapy 🙃

[poeitryforsomereason]

I am blood and bone

Gaping maw spitting song

The softness of girlhood rotted to this

Obsene and unforgiving

Haunted house child 

Never what you're supposed to be

#blood cw #blood tw #body horror cw #body horror tw #? #poetry #original poem #trans poets on tumblr #trans poems #gender ya'know