melissaloveswriting

[melissaloveswriting]

Love how tumblr has its own folk stories. Yeah the God of Arepo we’ve all heard the story and we all still cry about it. Yeah that one about the woman locked up for centuries finally getting free. That one about the witch who would marry anyone who could get her house key from her cat and it’s revealed she IS the cat after the narrator befriends the cat.

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Last Week Tonight, March 16, 2022

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Saw this earlier on TikTok

“people are saying do it scared, but you also gotta do it alone. you'll miss out on so much you want to do if you wait til someone will do it with you. do it scared and do it alone.”

And I don’t think I’ve ever read a more accurate and vulnerable statement… maybe I should do more things alone

#im worth it #and I’m trying to like myself more #I was doing a pretty good job at it before all this other shit started happening

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I wish that nights held the same wonder when you and I spoke.

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I love to feel the rumble of someone’s voice while I hug them.

I don’t feel it often but it truly is one of the most comforting acts I can think of.

Just here, in the space between our bodies, I can hear your heartbeat like anyone else’s but your voice is unique in its minute tones and inflections.

#idk #I feel complete #but I want comfort

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Idk why but there’s something so women about this

#beautiful women #i swear #literally #please #poems #short poem #idk #I’m just tagging #quotes #what this is #people #people by barbara streisand #i love myself #i love my friends #i love you

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It’s hard to remember that I’m loved when I seem to spread myself all over my friends.

Like an extra full butter knife, I say something that’s a bit too much and I find myself scraping at the air like toast with too much jam on it. Apologizing profusely about how I slipped up

And they say nothing, this wasn’t out of the ordinary.

Interesting

Insecure

Pick one?

#idk #I think my insecurities are rearing back #I love my friends #I know they’d move on without me #I could shut down and none of them would reach out #my family would notice #they’re too busy to say anything about it #but that’s life #I’m 23 #I should have killed myself

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There’s a little moth in my room

I tried to usher him out the door to the rest of the house

He refused

I grabbed a cup to help him and he evaded every gentle scoop

I gave up and worked on homework but he always fluttered around me just out of reach

I didnt complete my assignments on time

I focused on him once more and tried to guide him out

I used too much force and knocked him aside

Guilt flooded me as I searched for the tiny body

He had crossed the room and was flying perfectly fine in front of my shut door

I fear I may kill him on accident

I dare not open the door completely

A crack is all

I fear I may kill him

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Reflection

#PLEASE #im fucking crying #im laughing so hard #you don’t know what’s beyond there #I’m fucking wheezing #i swear #I can’t wait for this to flop

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Dear God GET OUT

GET THE FUCK OUT

I SHOVED YOU OUT THE DOOR AND LOCKED IT

STOP TRYING TO BREAK MY WINDOWS

I’LL GRAB MY FUCKING BOW

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I should have just gone to the beach without any of you.

Instead I wasted half a tank of gas making your drugged hole of a head feel useful processing Halloween lights

I hated driving at a certain point

And now I’m home and all I have are some cold nuggets and a half empty carton of bbq sauce

My feet are numb and I fucking hate your payment

I should have just gone to the beach.

#I’m crying on my kitchen floor #I’m becoming bitter #I hate it #poem #short poem #i’m so fucking tired

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There’s a tiny spider dancing frantically on my windshield.

I’ve watched him scurry about trying to build a web before I press the gas again.

I’m sorry little one.

There are people in line behind me at McDonald’s

#literally #wtf is this #joke poem #pls don’t take this seriously #he’s just a little guy #just a lil boy #I’m not even at McDonald’s

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I sometimes wish I had a friend like me. I would sit down and help braid your hair.

Come here, let me tie this string around your wrist. We match.

#friendship #friendships are complicated #I am good #self love #hugs #poems #short poem #friendship bracelets

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In the same way that I love my mother. I know she wishes she had my life.

She would do so much more with it than I could ever dream of.

#mother mary #mom #poems #idk #it’s 2am in a warehouse #i’m really trying #I swear

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Fatal

Song: Feelings are fatal by mxmtoon

Opening up to a stranger

It’s so strange

But it seems so normal nowadays

Emotions running through my veins

Words engraving on my joints and blood vessels

Things I’ve wanted to show you for so long but

I’m Fatal

#fatal #melissa writes #melissaloveswriting #opening up #im breaking slowly #there is no ease #idk #havent done #one of these #for a while #sorry #about that #Feeling are fatal #mxmtoon #i dont even know #what this is #I have a new crush #but i shouldnt #like him #god #i hate this

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Recovery

Sure, let’s post this one. 

This one makes me feel better, kinda?

Song: Someone Like You by Adele

Part 6-

Old friend

Not apart of mine

But please

Here you are

I do this for you

But again you shall run to another

I can’t do this forever

No

Not forever

Crushing nails into my palms

Please

Forget me

Give me a reason to feel this way

God please forget

Forgive

Forget

Me

#melissa writes #recovery #I feel better #after this #Take #A #deep breath #In #and #out #You'll get through this