hyacinthdreamsworld

[hyacinthdreamsworld]

they're broken up and i still can't compete

#breakup #heartbrokcnn #hearbreak #heartbroken #pain #self destruction #depressiv #sad thoughts #depressing shit #kinda depressing #sucidial

[hyacinthdreamsworld]

he would never want me anyway

even if we got back together, it'll never be good. we'll just hurt each other.

[hyacinthdreamsworld]

even if we got back together, it'll never be good. we'll just hurt each other.

#breakup #hearbreak #heartbrokcnn #heartbroken #self destruction #depressiv #sad thoughts #depressing shit

[hyacinthdreamsworld]

been clean for 82 days. i need to break my streak.

#self destruction #self h@rm #depressiv #sad thoughts #depressing shit #tw s3lf harm #s3lfharmm #sucidial #s3lf harn #suicidal #su1c1d3

[hyacinthdreamsworld]

[hyacinthdreamsworld]

why can't it be easy for me?

why do i have to spend every single day fighting just to exist?

i'm fucking tired.

#self destruction #self h@rm #depressiv #sad thoughts #depressing shit #kinda depressing #sucidial #tw sui thoughts #sadcore #suicudal #suicidal #tw sui ideation #tw sui mention #i'm sad

[hyacinthdreamsworld]

tips on losing weight/st*rving yourself?

i've bever been able to stick to it.

#tw ed thoughts #tw ed descussion #tw ed related #just ed shit #ed not ed sheeran #tw ed diet #self destruction #sad thoughts #depressing shit #kinda depressing

[hyacinthdreamsworld]

i just don't wanna be here anymore

#depressiv #self destruction #sad thoughts #depressing shit #tw s3lf harm #kinda depressing #sucidial

[hyacinthdreamsworld]

looks like i'm not getting the surgery

doctors said if i don't stop c*tting, i won't be able to get top surgery. this is such bullshit.

[hyacinthdreamsworld]

doctors said if i don't stop c*tting, i won't be able to get top surgery. this is such bullshit.

#self h@rm #depressiv #self destruction #sad thoughts #depressing shit #tw s3lf harm #s3lfharmm #kinda depressing #s3lf harn #sucidial

[hyacinthdreamsworld]

idk if i've ever actually hit styro. i like to think i have because i do see white but maybe i'm just making it seem more than it is to feel better about not being able to go deeper.

#self h@rm #self destruction #tw s3lf harm #s3lf harn #sucidial #tw cvts #fresh cvts #cvtaddict #cvutting #depressiv #sad thoughts #s3lfharmm

[hyacinthdreamsworld]

[hyacinthdreamsworld]

how do i hit beans if i have a low pain tolerance?

#self h@rm #tw s3lf harm #baby cvts #tw cvts #fresh cvts #cvutting #cvtaddict #beans #beansblr #s3lf harn #sucidial #s3lfharmm

[hyacinthdreamsworld]

i wish i was dead

[hyacinthdreamsworld]

c*tting over scar tissue fucking sucks

#sewer slide #selfharn #self mutalition #self destruction #s3lfh4rm #s3lfharmm #tw s3lf harm #s3lf harn #cvtt1ng #self h@rm #sucidial #suicidal #tw sui ideation #suicudal #tw cvtting #cvutting #cvtaddict #i want to cvt

[hyacinthdreamsworld]

i don't have anyone to rely on. all have is my razor.

#self h@rm #sad thoughts #tw s3lf harm #s3lfharmm #sucidial #tw selfhate #suicudal #suicidal #tw sui ideation #tw sui thoughts #tw sui mention #cvtt1ng #cvtaddict #tw cvtting #s3lfh4rm #s3lf harn #sewer slide

[hyacinthdreamsworld]

the only thing that's getting me through the day is feeling my cuts rub against the inside of my jeans. it burns so good.

#self h@rm #tw selfhate #s3lfharmm #sucidial #tw s3lf harm #tw cvts #cvtaddict #cvutting #self mutalition #self destruction #s3lfh4rm #s3lf harn