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Writing Challenge
February 29th
My February favourites
Wow, what a journey it's been. As I sit down to reflect on my February favourites and the writing challenge I embarked on, a wave of emotions washes over me. I never thought I'd make it this far, especially when the procrastination hit halfway through. But here we are, and I'm ready to share my favourite moments from this (little longer) month-long journey.
February 3rd Tips for self-love
Looking back on this post, I'm reminded of the introspection and effort it took to compile those self-love tips. It wasn't easy, as I had to actively search for advice that resonated with me. But it was a crucial step in incorporating self-love into my routine, and I'm proud of the progress I've made.
February 4th Lyrics to a love song
Ah, the joy of discussing my favourite song! I remember eagerly sharing the lyrics and creating a charming picture to accompany them.
February 5th A letter for someone I love
This post was a challenge, but it turned out to be incredibly rewarding. Pouring my heart out in a letter to a loved one reminded me of the power of vulnerability and expression. And it's a reminder to myself to share those sentiments with my partner – perhaps not just on Valentine's Day, but whenever the moment feels right.
February 11th Someone I look up to
Rereading this post evokes a swell of emotions. It's like revisiting a time capsule of admiration and gratitude. And it's a reminder that expressing appreciation shouldn't be confined to writing – I can show my admiration in meaningful ways beyond the screen.
February 13th if I were a scent
This post just makes me laugh! I remember the struggle I went through trying to write this. I ended up asking chatgpt for help because I really didn’t know how to put my thoughts into words.
February 14th letter of appreciation to myself
This post holds a special place in my heart, evoking emotions that are both raw and empowering. It's a love letter to myself, a reminder of my worth and resilience. And it's a promise to hang it beside my mirror as a constant reminder of self-love and acceptance.
February 29th my favourites of the month
And finally, we come to the end of the journey. Despite the twists and turns, the procrastination and self-doubt, I stand here today with a sense of pride and accomplishment. Yes, I finished the writing challenge a bit later than planned (March 25th to be exact…), but that doesn't diminish the sense of achievement. I'm unbelievably proud of myself for starting this challenge and seeing it through to the end.
Here's to the lessons learned, the challenges overcome, and the adventures yet to come. Cheers to February and all its beautiful moments!
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Writing Challenge
February 28th
Did I accomplish my february goals?
Did I accomplish my February goals? Some of them yes! A couple others? Not so much.
💪🏼 Past my last exam. Yes, I did! I can proudly say that I passed this exam with flying colours, and I do not have any exams left to take this academic year!
💌 Daily writing. Well not really, I am finishing my writing challenge in March… But I did finish it and that is all that matters!!
🍎Healthy eating. I didn’t accomplish this fully either, but I got better in trying to eat and that is a start!
📖 Reading, yeah well that book is still on the same page as it was when I started this challenge…
🫂 Social connection. Yes I did! I have been spending more quality time with my roommate!
🙏🏼 Gratitude practice. Kinda yes….. I have been more aware of my negative thoughts, and I have been practicing bending them to look at the bright side.
February went a bid different than I thought it would but that is okay! The month is over! 2 months done 10 more to go!
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Writing Challenge
February 27th
The last dream I remember
I am someone who experiences multiple dreams almost every night, each one varying in its intensity and narrative. Sometimes, I find myself as the protagonist, experiencing the dream through my own eyes, while on other occasions, it feels more like I'm observing a movie or TV show, with myself as a mere spectator. As a visual thinker and learner, I've always attributed the vividness of my dreams to this aspect of my cognition.
Reflecting on my dreams, I've come to realize that they may be influenced by a combination of factors, including past trauma and the coping mechanism of masking. Growing up, I learned to pay attention to every detail as a means of self-protection, a skill honed through years of being in survival mode. This heightened awareness of my surroundings may have seeped into my dream world, where I meticulously recall scenarios and interactions.
One recurring dream that has lingered in my mind recently involves the anticipation of receiving my propedeuse—an academic milestone I've long awaited. In the dream, I excitedly check my phone to find an email from the examination committee, bearing the subject line "Congratulations!" The email informs me that I can finally collect my propedeuse on an upcoming Friday.
Eager to share my joy, I call my family to deliver the news, only to be met with responses that leave me feeling deflated. Their lackluster reactions—dismissively brushing off the significance of my achievement—echo the disappointments I've faced in the past. Despite this, the dream doesn't end in despair; instead, it serves as a poignant reminder of the resilience I've developed in the face of potential letdowns.
While I no longer wake up feeling disheartened by the dream, its underlying message lingers, prompting me to confront the possibility of disappointment and to find strength in resilience. In a way, my subconscious seems to be preparing me for the challenges that lie ahead, urging me to navigate them with grace and self-assurance.
Dreams, with their intricate narratives and hidden meanings, offer a window into our subconscious thoughts and emotions. Through introspection and reflection, we can glean valuable insights from these nocturnal adventures, gaining a deeper understanding of ourselves and our innermost desires.
As I continue to explore the landscapes of my dreams, I'm reminded of the power of resilience and the importance of finding solace in the face of adversity. Each dream, no matter how fleeting or fantastical, serves as a testament to the strength and resilience that reside within us all.
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Writing Challenge
February 26th
How can I make tomorrow better?
Good question! How can I make tomorrow better? Improving your tomorrow often starts with small, intentional actions you can take today. Here are some suggestions to make tomorrow better:
Plan Ahead: Take a few minutes to plan out your day tomorrow. Set realistic goals and prioritize tasks to help you stay focused and organized.
Self-Care: Dedicate time for self-care activities tonight to ensure you start tomorrow feeling refreshed and rejuvenated. This could include activities like taking a warm bath, practicing mindfulness or meditation, reading a book, or enjoying a hobby you love.
Get Adequate Sleep: Ensure you get enough rest tonight by maintaining a consistent sleep schedule and creating a calming bedtime routine. Aim for 7-9 hours of quality sleep to wake up feeling energized and ready to tackle the day.
Preparation: Take care of any tasks tonight that will make your morning easier. Lay out your clothes, prepare breakfast or lunch, and gather any essentials you'll need for the day.
These are the things that help me the most. I know it is hard, take one step at the time.
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February 25th
Describe my room
My room is really the room I do everything in. I’m still in university, so I don’t live with my mom. I live close to campus. And because I don’t have the ability to travel to my mom and back every week my room is full of the things I need for the whole year.
I live here almost 365 days of the year. So, I have a big closet filled with clothes, winter and summer and my bedding. I even store some shoes in there!
If you walk into my room the first thing you will face is the Ikea Kallax with mostly storage. Then to the right is my loft bed and couch, behind my couch I have my second Ikea Kallax with all my study books and my private book collection. To the left is my crooked desk (which needs replacement) with my monitor and my brand-new Nintendo swich.
The colours of my room are all over the place, I am still in the transition of repainting my room, for now I have a greyish colour on one wall, a white wall and a brown wall…. OH and to make it even worse, my doors are light green…
It's a bit of a mess at the moment, but hey, it is my mess and i am happy to call it home.
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February 24th
What is the last thing I learned?
Recently, I experienced a particularly challenging day for my mental health. It was one of those days where the weight of the world seemed to bear down on me, and I felt utterly alone.
The catalyst for this feeling of isolation was the absence of my friend, who has been my rock throughout our shared internship project at university. With her unexpectedly falling ill, I found myself grappling with the stark reality that beyond her, I didn't have many other connections in our group of six.
As the day wore on, I felt increasingly unheard and sidelined by those around me. It seemed as though every attempt to voice my thoughts was met with indifference or interruption. The frustration mounted, and by the end of the day, I was emotionally drained and disheartened.
Seeking solace, I retreated to bed early, hoping to escape the weight of the day. The following morning, as I made my way to university, I sought refuge in music, a constant source of comfort for me.
Amidst the shuffle of songs on Spotify, one particular track caught my attention: "He's in the Room" by David Jennings and Bethany Jennings. As the lyrics repeated, "I am never alone," I felt a profound sense of reassurance wash over me.
In that moment, it was as if a divine hand rested upon my shoulder, reminding me that I am never truly alone. Though the challenges of the previous day had left me feeling isolated, I was surrounded by sources of support – my faith, my friends, my family, and my partner.
The lesson I took away from this experience is a simple yet profound one: even in moments of solitude, I am never truly alone. With the unwavering support of those around me and the comforting presence of my faith, I have the strength to navigate life's challenges with courage and resilience.
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Writing Challenge
February 23rd
Free writing
Rediscovering the Joy of Reading
For years, I found myself stuck in a reading slump, unable to muster the enthusiasm to pick up a book. Then, a thoughtful gift changed everything.
Reading has always been a cherished pastime for me. As a visual thinker, I find joy in immersing myself in the vivid worlds that authors create, almost as if I'm watching a movie unfold before my eyes.
The book that reignited my passion for reading was "Verity" by Colleen Hoover. From the moment I cracked it open, I was hooked. The story's gripping plot and compelling characters drew me in, and I found myself unable to put it down for more than a few minutes at a time.
I vividly remember devouring its pages during a trip to Wales. Despite the stunning scenery passing by outside, my attention was firmly fixed on the thrilling narrative unfolding in my hands. Before I knew it, I had reached the end, leaving me both satisfied and hungry for more.
Since then, Colleen Hoover's books have become a staple on my reading list. Her captivating storytelling and ability to craft unforgettable tales have made her one of my favorite authors. Thanks to "Verity" and the countless other books waiting to be discovered, I've reignited my love for reading and opened myself up to a world of literary adventure once again.
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Writing Challenge
february 22nd
I wish I could....
When confronted with the prompt "I wish I could…", the first thought that springs to mind is, "I wish I could fly."
To me, the idea of flight symbolises ultimate freedom. Imagine soaring through the sky, unburdened by the constraints of gravity or earthly worries. It's a sensation of liberation, of escaping from the tensions and pressures of everyday life.
Flying represents the ability to go wherever one desires, unrestricted by traffic jams or environmental concerns. There are no carbon emissions, no crowded highways—just the exhilarating sensation of ascending into the boundless expanse of the sky.
In this fantasy of flight, there's a profound sense of autonomy and possibility. It's a wish rooted in the yearning for liberation and the desire to transcend the limitations of the terrestrial world.
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Writing Challenge
February 21st
How do I show gratitude?
Gratitude manifests differently depending on the person I'm thankful for. Let me share how I express appreciation to two important people in my life: my partner and my roommate.
With my partner, I've learned that clear communication and physical gestures go a long way. Knowing that he tends to overthink things, I make sure to express my gratitude directly and explicitly. I use words of affirmation to tell him how much he means to me, reassuring him of my love and appreciation. Additionally, I've found that physical touch, like a gentle thigh hug or holding hands, helps to ground him when he's feeling anxious or caught up in his thoughts. These simple gestures allow him to relax and feel secure in our relationship.
Similarly, I express gratitude to my roommate through words and actions tailored to her preferences. Recognising her tendency to overthink, I make a conscious effort to verbally acknowledge my thanks for her presence and support. For instance, since she often takes charge of dinner preparations, I make it a point to express my gratitude before each meal. In return, I take on the responsibility of preparing breakfast, incorporating it into our daily routine. This act of service not only shows my appreciation for her efforts but also strengthens our bond as roommates.
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February 20th
What did I learn today?
While today’s learning lessons isn't necessarily a new discovery, it's a realisation that struck me over the weekend.
As the temperature begins to rise and the sun graces us with longer hours of daylight, I couldn't ignore the signs: seasonal depression had once again made its presence known. Despite my initial belief that I had somehow managed to evade its grasp this year, I came to the humbling realisation that I had merely been blindsided by the weight of my burnout. It wasn't until I started to feel a bit better that I could truly gauge how much I had been struggling.
This past weekend marked my second consecutive break from work, and it provided me with a rare opportunity to unwind, or perhaps more accurately, to distract myself. For once, I managed to set aside the demands of school and simply be present in the moment. I indulged in some video games, went for leisurely walks, and made a conscious effort to quiet the persistent chatter of academic stress in my mind. It may not sound like much, but to me, it felt like a small victory.
Acknowledging the influence of seasonal depression doesn't come with the weight of defeat this time around. Last year, I battled through some of my darkest moments, but this year, armed with the insights from therapy (where I also learned about my concurrent burnout), I've been able to better care for myself—well, sort of. It's a gradual process of learning and adapting, and I'm beginning to understand more about how I respond to the challenges of the changing seasons each year.
This journey isn't one I'd ever wish to rush, though I admit I long for the day when I can navigate the darker months with greater ease. Still, it's a journey I'm committed to undertaking, especially knowing that I have an incredible support system by my side. To all those who have weathered my emotional storms and offered their unwavering support, I am deeply grateful. This post is my humble way of expressing thanks—I couldn't have come this far without you.
If you or someone you know is battling depression, it's crucial to remember that you're not alone in this journey. Seeking support and professional guidance can make a significant difference in managing and overcoming depression.
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Writing Challenge
February 19th
Who is my favorite artist?
Choosing a favorite artist is like picking one star from a galaxy. But here are the ones who stand out to me right now.
I've been really into Imagine Dragons lately. Their music speaks to me deeply and always gets me feeling inspired.
In the world of online creators, I love watching Safiya Nygaard and QuarterJade. Safiya's videos are my go-to for winding down before bed, while QuarterJade's laughter is contagious and always brightens my day.
Even though I'm not a big art enthusiast, I admire the creativity in visual art. Each painting tells a unique story.
As for books, I enjoy exploring different genres, so I don't have a single favorite.
Overall, my favorite artists come from all sorts of mediums, each adding something special to my life.
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February 18th
What makes me feel good?
Discovering what makes us feel good is a journey filled with surprises. For me, it's often the little things that bring a smile to my face.
Returning home after a hectic day, the familiar comfort of my surroundings instantly lifts my spirits. The soothing melody of my favourite songs fills the air, providing solace amidst the chaos of the day.
Sharing my thoughts with my roommate over a cup of tea brings a sense of relief. Knowing that there's someone who understands and listens without judgment is a true blessing.
In today's digital age, platforms like YouTube and TikTok offer a brief escape from reality. Whether it's watching funny videos or indulging in satisfying organisation videos, these moments of entertainment provide much-needed reprieve.
However, I'll admit that lately, finding joy has felt like a challenge. The pressure to constantly be productive weighs heavily on my mind, leaving me feeling unfulfilled at times.
Yet, I'm learning to be kinder to myself, to embrace the moments of rest and relaxation without guilt. It's okay to start later, leave earlier, or simply take a break. Each day is a new opportunity to find balance and redefine what success means to me.
So, while the journey to finding joy may have its ups and downs, I'm grateful for the reminder that it's okay to take things one step at a time. After all, happiness often lies in the simplest of moments.
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Writing Challenge
February 17th
A quote I relate to
Christopher Robin once said, "You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think." This quote deeply resonates with me, serving as a reminder of our inherent resilience.
In life's challenges, we often underestimate our own capabilities. Yet, each obstacle we overcome reveals the depth of our courage, strength, and wisdom.
So, when doubt creeps in, remember these words: You are braver, stronger, and smarter than you think. Embrace your inner power, and let it guide you through life's journey.
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February 16th
How would I describe my aesthetic?
Its ever changing, influences by mood, surroundings, and even the weather. However, if I were to pin it down to most days, I’d say it oscillates between the comforting embrace of cottage core and the intellectual allure of light academia.
There is something undeniable enchanting about the rustic charm of cottage core. The simplicity, the connection to nature, and the cozy warmth all draw me in like a well-worn fairytale book. It is a reminder to slow down and appreciate life’s simple pleasures.
On other days, I find myself captivated by the intellectual allure of light academia. The pursuit of knowledge, the love of literature, and the quiet elegance of libraries and bookshops beckon me. It inspires me to expand my horizons, indulge in intellectual pursuits, and embrace the timeless charm of academia.
Despite the ebb and flow of aesthetic preferences, one constant remains— I’m drawn to positivity and light. Even when self-doubt creeps in or negativity clouds my thoughts. I strive to seek out the silver linings.
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February 15th
What is love?
The first thing that comes to mind is a verse from the bible.
NIV 1 Corinthians 13:4-7
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonour others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres."
This to me is the truth. Love can be shown and felt in many ways and that to me makes it so incredibly beautiful.
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February 14th
Letter of appreciation to myself
Dear me,
I want to take a moment to express my appreciation and admiration to you. You are truly remarkable in so many ways, and I believe it is time to recognise you and celebrate your own strength, intelligence, and depth of feeling.
First and foremost, your strength is undeniable. You've faced numerous challenges and obstacles, yet you continue to persevere with unwavering determination. Your resilience in the face of adversity is nothing short of inspiring, and I am constantly in awe of your ability to push through even when the odds seem stacked against you.
Your intelligence shines brightly in everything you do. Your sharp mind and keen intellect allow you to navigate the complexities of life with grace and insight. Whether you're solving problems, learning new concepts, or offering valuable perspectives, your intelligence is a beacon of light that illuminates the path forward.
But perhaps what truly sets you apart is the depth of your emotions. You feel deeply and passionately, and that is a gift to be cherished. Your ability to empathize with others, to love wholeheartedly, and to stand up for what you believe in is nothing short of extraordinary.
I admire the way you can be both calm and protective, a comforting presence in times of need and a fierce guardian of those you hold dear. Your willingness to stand up for justice, even when it's not easy, speaks volumes about your integrity and character.
Yes, some may describe you as bossy, but I see it as a reflection of your strong leadership qualities and your unwavering commitment to doing what's right. You have a voice that deserves to be heard, and you use it to advocate for yourself and others with passion and conviction.
Above all, your capacity for love knows no bounds. You love deeply and unconditionally, and that is a rare and precious gift. Your heart is open, generous, and overflowing with love, and I am grateful that you are still able to be that person even after all you’ve been through.
So, dear me, I want you to know how truly special and valuable you are. You are a force to be reckoned with, a beacon of light in a sometimes dark world. I am so proud of the person you are and everything you've accomplished. Keep shining brightly, keep pushing forward, and never forget how truly amazing you are.
With all my love and admiration,
Wander cloud
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