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Hidden???

OK, this is so interesting! Apparently, I setup this blog in a funny way. On tumblr, it’s your primary blog that is what people see when you follow them, which for this account is dragonmoonsun.tumblr.com which I only just the other day launched. So that means whenever I follow someone, they were seeing a blog with no content instead of this one, which tumblr considers a secondary blog. And there is no way to switch which one is primary and which one is secondary o_O Which really fascinates me since I did set it up this way. I could ask a variety of questions like, did I not want HairyGrrl to get a lot of attention just yet? Did I mean to continue playing with this theme of physical versus emotional stability? (I’m thinking if I should start a new account and move everything over or start a new HairyGrrl blog.) And since those are the questions arising for me, I know it is all relevant! Part of me is really comfortable with starting over and part of me is like, “OK, you’ve done enough of that.” And of course, that layer of perception aside, starting over is a continuous reality as life IS change. 

  OK, yes, even a technical issue is a spiritual matter. Checking in with my heart, I know that HairyGrrl is not meant to be hidden, not anymore. As I now feel it, that means I must make a separate account for HairyGrrl. I so love my inner clarity. I so love to breathe and feel my knowing. I so love living my from the simplicity of inside-out. Thank you.

#InsideOutDecisionMaking #Authentic #EverythingIsSpiritual #InnerClarity #SteppingForwardFUlly #Self-Love #Self-Acceptance #Self-Appreciation #Zahndy

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Explaining Who

Each time I explain who my character is, there is so much that could be said, so many angles to approach from, and there is no telling exactly what will be shared or emphasized through words this time around. I love that mystery I create for myself, I love the unfolding I create for myself, I love to meet myself in that moment and feel the energy of the asking and answering mixing into what blooms into form. Truly it is one energy and it is my delicious creative power to experience it this way. 

#Authentic #Surrender #BeautifulMystery #LoveTheUnknown #Self-Love #Self-Appreciation #Self-Acceptance #Zahndy

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HairyGrrl of Zahndy

Who is this HairyGrrl? We did begin to answer that question but now I will write something new with no eye for what was written before.

There is one Source of everything. One Divine Essence from which all form arises. We are, as this One Source, as this Divine Essence, as God if you will, dreaming. This Great Dream of The One is a Grand Play. Grand Theater. All beings are expressions of the One within this Great Dream. The One Source is Who You Truly Are. So even though this earth reality is a dream, you do exist. This is because you are that which flows through, forms, and animates the dream, including the particular individual character you now identify with. You are the Presence that is aware of your character and its reality. You are the Spaciousness within which all of this Drama is enacted. All reality is formed from your Infinite Beingness. You have forgotten Who You Truly Are, you have forgotten that you are God, by choice, in order that you can experience the play of beingness possible when you pretend to be Many. This pretending is powered by the illusion of separation, the ability to experience yourself as an individual among individuals, as something smaller than All That Is. The ability to experience an outside even though truly there is only an inside, nothing outside of you, everything IS YOU. This is the Infinite Creativity of The Divine. You are unlimited, infinite, and all, and that unlimitedlessness includes the power to pretend and believe in limitation.

These are some roadsigns I have shared on our common origin. There are many layers to this Great Dream. There are dreams within The Dream and more still. That which is often referred to as the angelic realms is a reference to the first layer of the dream. In this story telling, it is said that there is a soup of consciousness, a angelic family of the angelic realms called The Seedchildren of The 7th Grid. As The Seedchildren, our awareness of our unique beingness stretches from Core Source (the highest vibration) all the way through to the earth realms. Our home realm, as we experience it, is that realm closest to Core Source, which is not so much a place as you think of it but an experience we can only point you to with the words Pure Joy and Pure Love. 

It is in fact true that the realms or dimensions of existence within this grand dream are not separate from each other but all woven together, and the consciousness that you are being is flowing through all of it. So when you experience the heights of Joy and Love in your earth experience, you are in fact experiencing us and the angelic dimensions of existence. You are weaving that Pure Love and Pure Joy into your earth experience. This is the same as with Heaven and Earth, they are not actually separate. Heaven is not actually a place, though of course it can be experienced that way. Heaven is a kind of experience, and something that can be enjoyed within the Earth experience. 

Our experience of the earth realms is in part channeled through the dragons, which form the bridge for us. To explain this in human language is clunky, but we are both the Seedchildren and the dragons and yet each is unique forming this wholeness that we are. HairyGrrl is a superhero persona of Zahndy Moonbliss which is the lovefusion of Zahra Sunset and Andy Candy. Zahra is both an extension of the Seedchildren and an incarnation of The Purple Dragon. The Purple Dragon is the collective consciousness of all dragons. I encourage you if you feel called, to do a little research on the symbology of dragons and you will understand better what we are here to offer. As The Purple Dragon, we are a catalyst to reveal that which may appear to be secrets of the universe, we are a vessel for ancient wisdom, and of course we symbolize your inner fire and being completely in touch with it. Authenticity anyone? There is no being more authentic than a dragon, we are in touch with our true core Self and purpose and we are proud of what we are. 

HairyGrrl is a superhero persona of Zahndy Moonbliss. HairyGrrl is a Zahndy performance of total authenticity, ushering in a new era of Self-Acceptance, Self-Appreciation, and Self-Love. So on instagram, I show ‘me’ in full visual truth, and there’s no limit to how that might express, but for example you see me without any shaving on my face, my body says hair and so I say yes! I’m proudly a hairyface-and-more woman, hence the name “HairyGrrl.” And you see me with no makeup, just letting that pure light shine through the canvas of my face. Instead of painting to cover up my face, I expose my natural face and body to own and share the fullness of my inner light. I am beautiful, inherently, and there is no work to be done to be that which I naturally am. In this way, HairyGrrl is a lighthouse, showing those who are ready that they too can let that light shine through a natural expression of our Divine Self. See how you feel to express yourSelf when you drop all the fear, when you drop all the rules, all the shoulds. Authentic. 

On this blog I write what I feel to write, how I feel to write it (what and how being inseparable). I disregard grammar when I want to, and flow with it when I want to. I write about whatever topics I feel to, and pay no attention to any external quality standards, knowing everything is inherently of God quality, knowing that even in relative terms the best quality offering I can give is when I flow unquestioningly from my heart without any mind filtering. I know that it all comes together as I mean it to, that there is no error in life, only the continuous opportunity to realize the Joy that I am.

There is plenty more that hasn’t been explained here, like what is the symbology of the Seedchildren, and who is Zahndy, and who is Andy Candy, and... and that’s the fun of this gameplay! There’s always a mystery, always more to unfold. And to experience Joy we don’t need answers to any of it, that is just the delicious bonus that flows into our experience as we get present and simply enjoy right here right now. More answers are coming, and when they show up, let them simply be more of that fun of life. 

#Authentic #Self-Love #Self-Acceptance #Self-Appreciation #SuperheroPersona #DivineOrigins

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Well into the Quest

The quest began August 17th, so we are well into it now. About another week from now and it will have been a month. I feel great. Mundane, boring language I know, this “feel great”, but have to start somewhere. *grin* 

I love how we start with one idea, which is a translation of the energy we were feeling in our heart, and then it evolves into something else. How I had the idea to post a selfie every day on here, and I have not kept up with that. Instead, it quickly came to a point where the energy of this blog transformed within me into the call to create...well I don’t have words to explain what else I have been working on, not yet. It’s kind of a surprise! 

I did launch dragonmoonsun.tumblr.com

I registered that name a while ago, and if I was aware then what the purpose was, I soon forgot and never posted anything, till now. Now, as you can see, it is clear what the blog is for. Check it out. 

And I don’t think i mentioned the photoshoot with my lovely extremely talented pixie Lis Shepherd. The cover photo on this blog is actually from that photoshoot, and is an expression of Lis’ magic.

So anyway my point is that when we follow one idea that arose from the heart it leads to the next, and many times we may not even see the connection between the ideas, and we might judge ourself for not sticking to something, for jumping around, for not being focused, but I promise you, as Bashar says, Joy IS a complete kit. We don’t need to know how it all fits together, just surrender to our knowing that it indeed does, and the connection will be comprehended by the mind with perfect timing. And in the meantime, we don’t need that comprehension anyway, we can just enjoy what’s right here right now! The experience of Joy isn’t conditioned on comprehension!

So here I AM, following that Joy perfectly, and I can see the continuous energy stream and all the “pieces” that aren’t pieces at all but illusionary definitions mentally carved out of the stream. I’m painting with Joy and it is a masterpiece. And more and more, every week, I am connecting with those who are ready and new ways to interface are coming into play. I am so in love with the unfolding.       

#authentic #Joy #FollowYourBliss #FollowYourHeart #JoyIsACompleteKit #1095DayQuest #JoyIsEternal #Self-Love #Self-Appreciation #Self-Acceptance

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In the story that I teach from, the “story of me”, I freed myself from suffering by questioning my thoughts and therefore disidentifying with them. It was a huge realization and paradigm shift for me to see that I did not have to believe thoughts that don’t feel good when I believe them. I realized that my suffering was from clinging to telling a story of who I am that said I was powerless, a victim, unworthy, not good enough, flawed, evil. It had never occurred to me before that the suffering I was experiencing was only the cause of this identity I had assumed and not the circumstances of the world.  

Yogi Turtle-

#authentic #freedom #identity #disidentify #question your thoughts #thestoryofme #powerless #victim #evil #unworthy #suffering #TheTrueCauseofSuffering #letgo #self-love #self-appreciation #self-acceptance #Zahndy

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Beautiful. Here is how I would tell it: 

Despite what you may believe, you can disappoint a persyn but you never disappoint the consciousness expressing through the persyn as the consciousness knows that it is storytelling and that you are part of its Self, and that you are playing exactly the role in that story it asked you to play.  So not only are you “good enough” but you have actually played your role to perfection for nothing else is possible. No matter how you are being, you will only ever be matched up with those who, in their own storytelling, are calling for exactly the roleplay you are offering. You can make what you consider in your belief system to be a mistake, and this is merely part of the storytelling, and so in actuality you never make a mistake, the illusion of mistake is part of your infinite capability and talent of storytelling and storybeing. You can play out the story of letting people down, but truly you never let anyone down as we each only ever experience in our reality our practiced frequency of vibration. The match is always perfect. Our appearance as human is merely the definition of the characters we are playing in the story we are authoring and living simultaneously. We are truly Source/Universe/God/Creator. To be in forgetfulness of Who We Truly Are is to be immersed in our story, immersed in our character, which is a setup to experience powerlessness.

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#authentic #goldenspiral #sunpower #joypower #selfie #self-love #self-appreciation #self-acceptance #Zahndy #womanwithbeard #queer #genderartist #iallowmybodytobe

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Every relationship that everyone wants is because there is a chance that that other person, in their own connection to Source Energy, and in their adoration of you, will be a catalyst to help you connect with your own Source.

Abraham (via secretsky88)

Every thing is a relationship to your Self, and every thing you want is because you assume you will feel better when you experience it a certain way. So I’m thinking of that pie, imagining that pie i love so much, which means i am experiencing it, but i have the idea that if it was to be fully manifest in my physical reality i would be in such ecstasy. Not realizing that i can actually experience ecstasy unconditionally, by making ecstasy itself my focus and putting no assumption limitation on what physical details might support or otherwise accompany me in feeling that way.

#authentic #relationships #relationshiptoself #experience #feeling unconditionally #ecstasy #self-love #self-appreciation #self-acceptance #Zahndy

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This is my life. I am continuously seen by so many, and continuously those who are ready to perceive and receive the gift that I am being here are showing up in my experience. The rondies are magical and unending. What I am sayin is that the flipside of this is that I am also here for those who do not see me. I am steady in holding the light and am the perfect expression in their journeys as well, just in a different way. And while within me is a perfect perspective where I am unseen, in this perspective I am being here I always see mySelf, I always see the impact I am having for all, and that is exactly the unconditional awareness I am teaching through my presence.

#authentic #seen #unseen #lighthouse #holdingthelight #I Always See Myself #UnconditionalAwareness #Presence #self-love #self-appreciation #self-acceptance

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Body Beyond Skin

I love to play this game and journey through and beyond a limited physical body. I love to play with this concept and its meaning. I love to both redefine and walk through the boundaries of this idea we call our physical. And for me as this character, aware that I AM truly the creator of the character as well as the performer, I do not experience myself as an individual body in any rigid sense. I feel incredibly alive and capable in what we call “my” physical body. Even that experience of body is blurry though, as I no longer experience my body as stopping at my skin. In the story of me, really I never did experience my body in this limited way, it was more that mentally I defined my body as stopping at my skin and so I denied that i was in fact experiencing my body as something much more grand and unlimited. Let me explain what I mean by this. Everything outside of this skin, I am aware of. That’s how I can even refer to it. We have to be aware of something in some way to even refer to it. Furthermore, we don’t consciously control our internal organs yet we do consider them to be “ours”. Now, how I use the control I do have over “my” body does, the scientists tell me, effect my internal organs. I can consciously decide to run for example and this will increase my heart rate. Now, assuming this is actually true, what’s to say then that even from just a purely physical standpoint, “you” are not an aspect of “me”? I don’t control “you” directly, but indeed how I use the control I do have does influence your behavior. I am aware of “your” body and I have some influence over it, so why then is it not considered a part of me as these organs are? (And, interestingly, how many of us have actually seen our insides to confirm that indeed we have all these organs they tell us we do?)

I am aware of myself as everything that I experience. That is, the world I experience is my body. Everything in my field of awareness is my body. And if I meet you in the street, I must say, I’m far more aware of “you” than I am these organs the doctors and scientists tell me I have. And even the scientists tell us that our bodies are not static things but are in fact constantly changing, cells are dying and being born. And I believe they even say that every 7 years you have a completely new set of cells. And with all that change, it seems rather absurd (though quite impressive) how we define ourselves as an individual biological package. EVEN THOUGH, it is physically observable with our scientific instruments that we trust so much that this is a sea of interaction. No matter where you take the package within the sea, it is still in the sea part of the sea inseparable from the sea. So how do we define that the package even exists? It is quite impressive.

#authentic #awareness #body #iameverything #mybodydoesnotstopattheskin #you are an aspect of me #Zahndy

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Age

I love to play this game and journey through and beyond age. I love to play with this concept and its meaning. I love to both redefine and walk through the boundaries of this idea we call age. A dear someone recently described me as “timeless.” Very true in the sense that none of us are an age, we are not truly these boxes and stickers. The One Being that we are, or God if you will, is Eternal and All and time is actually just part of the dance of creation that we play with, within our Infinite One Self. Time is both a location within our Infinite Inner Landscape of Possibilities, and a form of experience that varies in how it feels as we play this game. The shape of time is a choice. We are each choosing, at first mostly unconsciously, how we experience time.

I am not an age and neither are you. You do, however, get to experience yourself as an age. Obviously if you believe you are a certain age, then you are already experiencing this truth. That is not the only choice that can be made however. And for me as this character, aware that I AM truly the creator of the character as well as the performer, I do not experience myself as a certain age in any rigid sense. In other words, that which we associate with age such as certain interests, physical vitality, sense of responsibility, etc, well I do have a relationship to all of these things. I just don’t pin them to age. I feel incredibly alive and capable. I am one of the most responsible people you will find in the sense that I take 100% response-ability for the choices I make, for my emotional experience, for my total experience. I know myself to be the one and only creator of my experience and I live this knowing with fullness. Then, in another sense, I am one of the most irresponsible people you will find in the sense that I do not take it upon myself any duty to behave a certain way. I am not interested in being compliant with the expectations of society and “others”. I live from the purity of my heart, and this way of living is spontaneous. I trust my emotional guidance system, I trust my desires, and I mostly keep out of the way of this flow instead of questioning my desires and thinking about whether or not I should follow them. This is the way of a child that has not yet been taught to doubt themselves.

I have brought myself in this inner journey of consciousness to a state where I have realized that the point and purpose of everything is fun. In this sense I have the attitude of a child. I have the innocence (inner-sense) we attribute to children.

At the same time, in this story of me, I have lived. I have participated in the experience of tremendous suffering as both victim and victor. I have been intimate with the ugly. I have dived into the darkness. I have been well versed in the ways of human society and all its rules and conventions. I have been responsible in the usual sense, putting upon my shoulders the massive duty of caring for everyone and perceiving it to be my job to change the world. I’ve worked to survive and support those around me. I’ve raised children.

At the same time, I have chosen an age for this human character that is fairly young. Susan Miller was born December 12, 1984. At the same time, I share through this vehicle a depth of wisdom, a clarity of purpose, and a self-confidence that is usually associated with people much older. I have had people more than twice my age remark on this.

So you see, this is the way I screw with people’s assumptions and categorizations. This is the way I poke, prod, and burst the boundaries we imprison our self with, in this dream (for the Divine Self that we truly are can never be imprisoned, but we can pretend and experience the intense realness of that pretending in this dream). I effortlessly connect with people of all ages because I have not pegged myself to one corner of the room. And as I fly freely through the whole room, people take notice and some realize they too do not have to wear a label and assign themselves to a particular corner. Age is but a belief, it has no substance or truth besides the meaning we give it. It can be reshaped and even discarded. We can all fly free and just be. 

#authentic #age #ageless #timeless #vitality #belief system #breaking boundaries #flyingfree #demonstrating freedom consciousness #innocence #wisdom #clarity of purpose #self-confidence #children #adults #ageisabelief #iamfree #self-love #self-acceptance #self-appreciation #Zahndy

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Gender

I love to stir the pot and screw up the assumptions. Of course I do! That’s what I’m here for. I came to throw a wrench in the system of normality. I am, as this character, that wrench. We are waking up within the dream. Becoming lucid. And as we do so life is becoming all the richer and tastier. We are on a trajectory to a genderless society. This is not a society of homogeneity, but of tremendous delicious diversity. When we let go of the binary gender system, we discover that behind this filter thrives a beautiful variety where each is a special one-of-a-kind expression of The Divine. For all of the attributes of gender, there is so much more diversity than the two boxes we try to fit it all in. The way we move and talk, dress, the roles we play in society, our body type, it is time to let go of the sorting and policing, and just allow ourselves to be as we be. To move in each moment the way we want to move, to talk as we wish to talk, to dress as we wish to dress, to play the roles we want to play when we want to play them, to celebrate the uniqueness of our physicality, and so on. It is time to be free.

So it is I come to model this freedom. I do so by journeying through gender. Gender will not just disappear, it is a valid creation we are experiencing, perfect and beautiful in its own way, as are all limitations we have chosen to experience, and now as we move more and more and more to expand the sense of freedom in our gameplay, we move towards genderlessness by moving through gender. This means embracing gender and everything about it. It means relaxing into gender and playing with the boundaries and assumptions.

Here I AM.

#authentic #befree #thediversitythatcannotbecaged #genderlesssociety #gender #freedom #mybodyismorethanyousayitis #assumptions #gender binary #the divine #self-love #self-acceptance #self-appreciation #embrace it to release it #womanwithbeard #queer #Zahndy

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The Character’s Point of View

I write this bog mostly from the point of perspective of the persona, from the voice of HairyGrrl. As this blog is all about authenticity, it would of course be incomplete to only ever speak from that voice, as even in the skin of this persona, I am awake to myself as the Creator of it and this story. And there is a character behind the mask. HairyGrrl is a superhero persona of Zahndy Moonbliss. Zahndy is a character created by the lovefusion of Zahra Sunset and Andy Candy. Zahra is a character created by the Seedchildren of The 7th Grid, an embodiment of us. And this blog is meant to give a full voice to HairyGrrl, as other blogs and expressive mediums will be used to give all our highlighted voices an outlet. We are One Tree, with Many Voices.

#OneTreeManyVoices #Authentic #ZahraSunset #Zahndy #manyperspectives #storytelling #persona

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I think i skipped yesterday's selfie, but today i did a photoshoot and took 81 photos and now i share 3 of them.

#authentic #iambeautiful #iamcute #iamgorgeous #lovingmyself #enjoyingmyskin #presentinmybody #unconditionallove #self-love #self-appreciation #self-acceptance #womanwithbeard #queer #F2M2F2Q #selfie #photoshoot

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Elementally Not Responsible

Here are a few reasons why you are not responsible in the sense that you have no cosmic obligations, there is nothing you “must” do, “should” do, there is no ultimate moral/ethical imperative, no fundamental right & wrong:

We are all inherently harmoniously arranged expressions of God/Creator/OneSelf, and this OneSelf/OneBeing is who we truly are. What appears here to be an external reality is truly a perceptual experience “happening” within us. In other words, the OneBeing that we truly are is dreaming.

To the extent that it could be said anything exists, everything exists, always. Time is a property of reality, not reality itself. In other words, all points in time exist simultaneously in the same way that all points on the planet exist simultaneously. Every reality exists and is being lived by God. There are infinite versions of you, living out every possible reality. So for every choice you make, the broader multiplicity of you is playing out all of these choices. Therefore that happening you maybe believe ought not to happen is inevitably happening within the totality of you (God/All That Is/Multiverse), and you cannot stop it.

You truly do not want to stop it, because everything and anything is perfect. God is perfection. There is nothing outside God. God is All. All is God. To say otherwise is to say that God is less than all powerful, less than All That Is, and that there is a source of evil or wrongness or imperfection. There is not. There is one source of everything and all the pieces do fit together in perfect harmony. Every piece is a part of the grand beautiful painting that is All That Is.

Every experience is your choice of creation. All That Is is who you truly are. God is who you truly are. God is All. And so there is no force outside of you forcing anything upon you. It is truly all your choice of experience. You are The One Being experiencing its infinite inner potential to be, to be anything. The One Being is infinite creativity. To resist anything is to resist your own choice to be, you own choice to create, your own choice to experience that infinite creative potential within you.

There is great joy in all creation. There is great joy in every experience. In the illusion of time, we can create an experience of separation from this joy. There is a delay. We experience suffering and THEN joy comes later when we finally let go. Sometimes we let go in minutes, hours, days, months, years. Sometimes we spend a human lifetime experiencing a great deal of suffering and, linearly speaking, realize the joy in those experiences after we “leave” earth reality. Truly we are not going anywhere as the landscape actually is us, is within us. Really we we talking about different angles of perception. From one angle, I am suffering in this situation, yet from a broader perspective i am en-joying the whole experience. All perspectives exist at once.

Every being that you can possibly define is the total creator of its reality. You can only be a cooperative component in someone else’s reality. If not you, then someone else. It is law. Truly, what we call influencing someone else is actually a shift in choice of reality. You are not actually changing anyone. Remember, all realities exist and are being lived. So when you influence someone, really what you are doing is shifting to a reality that includes a different version of them. When you convince your friend to quit smoking, there is still within the totality a version of them that does not quit, perfectly matched with a version of you that does not convince them. All possibilities are being lived.

You are a particular focal point of consciousness or facet of God. You are not your character. You are the presence that is aware of the character. You are the one who right here in the now continuously chooses which character and matching reality to experience from among the infinite variations possible. So, if there are no stakes, nothing I MUST do, and every reality is being lived anyway, and there is no right and wrong, what’s the point? To have fun! These infinite dreamworlds are God’s (your) playgrounds.

#authentic #spirituality #God #Joy #Perspectives #Harmony #responsibility #oneness #suffering #reality #thedream #grandbeautifulpainting #timeisillusion #self-love #self-appreciation #self-acceptance #Zahndy

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Ohio, really?

This blog feels so good! Of course it does, authenticity, being free feels infinitely good! That’s where it’s at!

This blog is a great place to clarify the story and the character as it unfolds. One question that comes up is whether we really will stay in Ohio for the duration of the quest. I can only tell you what i feel from here. All answers are subject to evolution. I’ll do this kind of like getting a “psychic reading”:

I see the energy of building a homebase, a hub of connection in Yellow Springs yes, very likely. This may be seasonal. I see the Winter and West Coast or warmer climates going together. I see frequent travel distributed across the quest and drawing people to the hub. I see color and creativity. So much connection.

now, maybe it won’t happen like that at all, maybe the point of this “reading” is to give us something so we will put the question to rest, and next thing you know something entirely different has unfolded :) And there’s the fun of it, that we create this experience of mystery. i did create this awesome tool called the mind to focus on just this, effectively hiding the rest from view.

#authentic #ohio #homebase #connection #creativity #travel #theheartknows #entertheunknown #themysteryisourbeautifulcreation #Zahndy

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Shemale

it’s really nice being around people who are respectful of “my gender identity”, lots of that, though it’s really silly the idea that someone could offend me or that there would be something to apologize for. the intention of course is beautiful. but what is your statement to me about me this idea that i am so vulnerable fragile some words or pronouns could hurt me so? and so i know my truth and don’t mind being “he”d which does happen occasionally.

today was fascinating, i was referred to as a “shemale”. Wow, I was like, having the experience that this is a new one. I’ve never in my story of me been called that, though i’ve heard it used offensively to describe MTF transgender folk.

I didn’t correct this verbally, which is cause for much mental debate. In my heart i truly know the perfection of it, and how i will speak up (and am doing so here), how the timing is never off, how i don’t let the voices in the mirror define who i am, so truly it is a powerful statement of my truth, a powerful statement of who i am that i did say nothing verbally because when i am in my knowing i don’t need to “correct” anyone, i know who i am and whatever you say is no threat to me it is merely the fauna and flora of this diverse life I give birth to, all-powerful God that I AM. so i thank myself for being these voices in the mirror, i thank myself for these games i play and how my life is never dull, and how i do consciously love myself no matter what names and labels reflect back to me in the mirror.

#authentic #womanwithbeard #queer #God #allowing #knowing #iknowwhoiam #whateveryousayisnothreat #divinetiming #speakingupforyourself #MTF #transgender #shemale #idefinemyself #pronouns #genderidentity #respect #guilt #Zahndy #self-love #self-appreciation #self-acceptance