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My heart is breaking fr and idk what to do. How am I supposed to just let go of someone who I want to write just the littlest but of poetry about? Who I want to make Tumblr posts for? Who I want to make art for? The last time I felt a heartache this bad was when my first boyfriend passed away.

I miss him and I want him and I wish I didn't have to wait for him to call me back.

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Its like my decembers continue to be sad every year. Sad and painful. Full of heartbreak and being unable to come home. And when I do eventually reach home, that feeling of this doesn't feel like "home" I supposed to feel

Will it ever change? As this December ends and this year does too I can't help but feel a bit hopeless, yet I hope I gets better

(i don't know how to add the sources rn. Or organise the pictures. Maybe I will do it when I am feeling less tired. Do I tag the accounts I got them from or the original writers of these quotes?)

#December #sad thoughts #textposts #dark December #when your house is not a home #what even is home ? #hope #i hope it gets better #heartbreak #this whole month feels like a bit of a rejection #i made a new close freind though. that's nice #december is ending #sad #sad December #end of year #hopeless #yet #hopeful

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This is for when I start living by myself

People with low spoons, someone just recommended this cookbook to me, so I thought I'd pass it on.

I always look at cookbooks for people who have no energy/time to do elaborate meal preparations, and roll my eyes. Like, you want me to stay on my feet for long enough to prepare 15 different ingredients from scratch, and use 5 different pots and pans, when I have chronic fatigue and no dishwasher?

These people seem to get it, though. It's very simple in places. It's basically the cookbook for people who think, 'I'm really bored of those same five low-spoons meals I eat, but I can't think of anything else to cook that won't exhaust me'. And it's free!

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How To Fight Planned Obsolescence

What is planned obsolescence you ask? 

Planned obsolescence is where companies design products to be obsolete - to break, to be ‘out of fashion’, to be difficult to use or to wear out - with the aim being that in a short period of time, you will be forced to throw the product out, and get a new one. 

Examples of Planned Obsolescence 

Tech companies that stop updating software on models that are over 3 years old 

Clothing companies that use poor quality materials and stitching, meaning that clothes will rip, tear or degrade very rapidly 

Jewellery companies that use poor quality plating and cheap soldering so that your earrings/bracelets/necklaces tarnish and break soon. 

Shoe companies that use cheaper labour and mechanical stitching methods ( RIP Doc Marten’s BuyItForLife) 

What Can I Do?

Look for companies that provide low cost - or even free - repairs for their products. This can be said explicitly, or you might have a warranty in the T&Cs section of sale. If the company is willing to provide free repairs for items, it probably means that repairing the items is a rare occurence, or that it can be easily done. 

Be aware of the materials that you purchase. Materials such as leather, raw denim, pure corduroy, Tencel, Linen, Wool, Silk etc are so durable that they’re often combined with polyester to make them cheaper and less durable. As these are pricey, try to find they second hand. Avoid polyester, acrylic and rayon where possible! 

This leads me on to my next point - products made of durable materials tend to be easier to repair. Good quality jeans, leather jackets and woollen socks are sturdy enough to fix with patches or to darn, whereas polyester and acrylic may not be able to withstand the poking and prodding that patching requires. 

Quality > Quantity - Planned obsolescence drives prices down - if you know that you’ll replace an item within less than 30 wears, its easier to look for the cheapest option. So, before you buy something ask - Will this be worn/used regularly? Can I see myself still using this in a year? In three years? Will this last that long? Again - you might have to go down the second hand for this one.

Look after what you have. Now, this may contrast with the previous points but bear with me. Don’t wear the items you have out. Swap your jewellery out regularly, taking it off when you go into the shower or the swimming pool. Avoid putting your clothes in the dryer. Wax your leather goods. An item made of good quality materials will still break, tarnish and rip if you use it every single day, drop it regularly, and dunk it in a swimming pool. 

Final Note

Avoiding planned obsolescence is hard so do what you can, what is accessible to you, and what is within your budget. Don’t feel bad if your products break sooner than expected; instead, be angry at the companies that use poor designs. 

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GF GF GF GF

Not me doing this every single time, even while reading this today 😂😂😭

#bread #brain #brain doing brain things #baking #gluten free #gluten allergies #cottagecore #textposts #meme #funny #hilarious #me every single time

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Research and ADHD

Not me leaving instructions to myself in large size letters cuz I know that if I open this file three hours from now I will have no memory of what is going on and am 95%sure to miss it if it's the same size as everything else ahahha

I know how to spell I just can't type on the laptop very well and do not have the patience to correct stuff at 5AM when all I wanna do if slose everything and sleep ahahah

#academia #research #research work #research scholar #first research #BIS 11 #psychology side of tumblr #🤝 #yoga side of Tumblr #citing #citations #what are your sources #paperpers feom peer reviewed journals of course #state your sources #science side of tumblr #textposts #adhd #bhramari pranayama #bhramari

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have you eaten yet? (I love you I love you) do you want a snack? (I love you I love you) what's your favorite food? (I love you I love you) can I make you a cup of tea? (I love you I love you) can you help me with dinner? (I love you I love you) I'll bring you some soup for the cold (I love you I love you) I made these and thought of you (I love you I love you) I'm sorry for your loss, take this it was my mother's recipe (I love you I love you) congratulations! let's celebrate with dessert! (I love you I love you) can I get you something to eat? (I love you I love you) no one can make it like my grandmother's (I love you I love you) I made sure it was dietary restriction friendly for you, I hope you like it (I love you I love you) love is stored in food (I love you I love you I love you I love you)

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I keep asking people why we like the teal and orange combination. Cuz I used to ask it to myself regularly as I couldn't really quite figure out why I like it even though I thought it was a random combination. And then one day I looked at the sky with the same colours in it and it hit me.

Being drawn to colours that they “associate with sunrise and sunset-times of transition and daily possibility” Livien Yin's paintings have an awe-inspiring palette and such a delicate, considered finish. “I try to render the way that sunlight feels against the skin, like a caress of the subjects in the painting.” Another recognisable quality of the artists work is their repetition of imagery, specifically hands and fruit. Sometimes the hands frame the face of the subject, and the fruit lies half eaten. And, sometimes the two images come together – a model's hands lazily peel an orange, another clasps an apple, mid-bite.

Livien Yin explains that their focus on hands is a means a of referencing both manual labour that characterised the first major wave of Chinese immigration and their connection to Chinese culture and cooking; “I like to paint hands to commemorate the cultural legacies and ‘acts of care’ passed down from the generations before us.” Whereas the fruit has a more specific reference – “when ‘paper sons and daughters’ were preparing to be interrogated at Angel Island Immigration Station, they memorised the details of their new identities using something called ‘coaching notes’ which were sometimes secretly sent to them inside fruit.” And, simultaneously, when placed in the hands of women, Livien intends for it to be a metaphor for sexual agency.

on Livien Yin

#teal and orange #nature vs nurture #evolution

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I want a space like this in my future home

Greenhouse reading nooks 🌱

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My first time attempting to ✨ research✨. I take ages to write up my synopsis and what feels like even longer to write up the start of my dissertation. I start my data collection at the nth hour and struggle with my data extraction. When I feel like I've reached the end of my troubles, I realise that I've used the worst possible assessment tool to collect my data. It is not standard. My final results are not even in the same range as those values normally are. My (p=0.7) for one group and (p=0.4) for another. (if you're not aware ab research at all and are reading this it means that the results aren't that significant)

I need to go home. I don't have time to repeat my data collection because I'm way overdue already.

I just really wanted to publish my research in a good journal. But I guess with these results all I can do is submit my dissertation to my college and go home.

#first research #science side of tumblr #research side of tumblr #rant #im throwing a pity party for myself because i couldn't do a thing the first time i tried my hand at it #my imposter syndrome is really kicking in #i can't attend a wedding where all my friends are going to be there because u though to myself #that if i do this well and publish my paper it will be worth missing out on the wedding #im so fucking done rn #academia #research #research study #medical research #failing at research #p value #not statistically significant

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In his 1956 book The Marlinspike Sailor, marine illustrator Hervey Garrett Smith wrote that rope is “probably the most remarkable product known to mankind.” On its own, a stray thread cannot accomplish much. But when several fibers are twisted into yarn, and yarn into strands, and strands into string or rope, a once feeble thing becomes both strong and flexible—a hybrid material of limitless possibility. A string can cut, choke, and trip; it can also link, bandage, and reel. String makes it possible to sew, to shoot an arrow, to strum a chord. It’s difficult to think of an aspect of human culture that is not laced through with some form of string or rope; it has helped us develop shelter, clothing, agriculture, weaponry, art, mathematics, and oral hygiene. Without string, our ancestors could not have domesticated horses and cattle or efficiently plowed the earth to grow crops. If not for rope, the great stone monuments of the world—Stonehenge, the Pyramids at Giza, the moai of Easter Island—would still be recumbent. In a fiberless world, the age of naval exploration would never have happened; early light bulbs would have lacked suitable filaments; the pendulum would never have inspired advances in physics and timekeeping; and there would be no Golden Gate Bridge, no tennis shoes, no Beethoven’s fifth symphony.

“Everybody knows about fire and the wheel, but string is one of the most powerful tools and really the most overlooked,” says Saskia Wolsak, an ethnobotanist at the University of British Columbia who recently began a PhD on the cultural history of string. “It’s relatively invisible until you start looking for it. Then you see it everywhere.”

 —   The Long, Knotty, World-Spanning Story of String

#Musubi is the old way of calling the local guardian god. This word has profound meaning. Tying thread is Musubi.Connecting people is Musubi #The flow of time is Musubi. #kimi no na wa #your name #musubi

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How I been feelin lately.

#ceilings - Lizzy alpine #ceilings #ceilings song

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This actually makes so much sense that petting cats and kittens and floofy doggos calms me to no extenjt.

Cottagecore Stimboard for Anon Want your own? Send me an ask

#its just me stimming #random adhd stuff

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I love doing research, I am not tearing my hair out (lying)

#research

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i want to be perceived as a hozier song

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Breaks my heart every time this movie.

She loved you, you know. You know, Leslie, she never had much luck making friends at her old school. We were hoping that when we moved out here she would. She said that if it wasn’t for you… Jess, you’re the best friend she’s ever had.

Bridge to Terabithia 2007 | dir. Gábor Csupó

#golden sun room #bridge to terabithia abd #my girl

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Do lafz hai...

tanha, akele...

Lekin ek saath likh diye jaye toh

Ek duniya, ek kainaat, ek talash, ek lamha, ek khushi ban sakte hai

Rough translation: two words, by themselves are alone and lonely. But put them together and they could create/become a world, a universe, a quest, a moment, a happiness

Movie: Silsila/ Year 1981 / Actor: Amitabh Bachchan / It's also the starting dialogue of some versons of the song rimjhim gire savan

#theres someone in my life right now who's beinging me so mucj healing without even realising snf this post kind of relates to him #he loves good food #good movies #and old hindi music #even if he never sees this #this if for him ❤️ #Ratatouille gifs #silsila movie #old hindi movies #rimjhim gire savan #rim jhim gire savan #rimjhim gire saawan #kishorekumar #amitabh bachchan #Bollywood #rain #life #im slowly learning to love hindi music #but only some of it #Ratatouille #food #chef #flavours #words and flavours joining together to make something beautiful and amazing