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DBT comic 9 ♡

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Wow guys, thanks for all the love you've given this, I am amazed

I finally got my Iratze-Tattoo. And I’m massively in love with it.

As you can see, I have quite a lot of self harm scars covering my arm, and yes, it hurt like hell. But it was oh so worth it. I keep staring at this beautiful piece and can’t actually believe it’s really there.

Thank you @cassandraclare for your books, the Shadowhunter world, everything about it. It kept me sane in times of sadness, it’s your books I always come back to. The Iratze is (at least for me) there to heal my damaged soul, and it’s black and not white because recovery never ends, and therefore the healing rune will not stop working.

This is my second Shadowhunter tattoo, the Angelic power/Enkeli rune is on my back. I wonder how many more will follow.

Descensus Averno facilis est.

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I don't matter

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I finally got my Iratze-Tattoo. And I'm massively in love with it.

As you can see, I have quite a lot of self harm scars covering my arm, and yes, it hurt like hell. But it was oh so worth it. I keep staring at this beautiful piece and can't actually believe it's really there.

Thank you @cassandraclare for your books, the Shadowhunter world, everything about it. It kept me sane in times of sadness, it's your books I always come back to. The Iratze is (at least for me) there to heal my damaged soul, and it's black and not white because recovery never ends, and therefore the healing rune will not stop working.

This is my second Shadowhunter tattoo, the Angelic power/Enkeli rune is on my back. I wonder how many more will follow.

Descensus Averno facilis est.

#shadowhunters #the mortal instruments #the infernal devices #the dark artifices #iratze #tattoo #black and white #healing #mental health #depression #self harm #heal #mark #marks #rune

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Art: @ninten_beau

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If you need someone to talk to, just message me or send an ask :-)

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Anyways the way Tumblr treats the Perks Of Being A Wallflower like it’s cringe and bad just because of the hipster craze over it in 2012 and ignoring the fact that it’s one of the few books/movies that shows the ugly side of teen mental illness and discusses sexual trauma in young boys (something only portrayed in shows like SVU) is in fact, bullshit, and I’ll never forgive y'all for taking the line “we accept the love we think we deserve” (a reference to toxic abusive relationships) and turning it into cringe culture. This is a book about a struggling depressed kid who I saw myself in as a teen, and yeah he and his friends could be annoying and pretentious but are you going to say you weren’t as a kid?

Alexa post tweet

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- so no one can hurt you -

#personal #depression #life #anxiety #sadness #whatever #depressed #gothic #hate #fuck you #trust #don't trust anyone

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Going through the same thing after 5 years and I know exactly how hard it is to not play with that blade. I've even broke twice now but just for a second... I guess I don't know what to say bc I know no words will help but you're not alone in losing someone you greatly care for. You're not alone in thinking you're not worth it. Just knowing I'm not the only one feeling this way is a relief in its own. I really hope you pull through and keep fighting. (: you're worth it.

Thank you so much, this really means a lot. I got through the night, I didn't do anything.

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My sadness has returned, I want to hurt myself so badly.

I'm going through a breakup after 7 years of relationship, I did something extremely stupid, and I feel like I should punish myself. But at the same time, no one really cares whether I'm around or not. So why not take the blade and end it all right away?

Well... I'm currently at my parent's house since I can't stay in the flat I used to share with my boyfriend, or ex, or whatever the fuck he is right now, but my parents aren't here, and they won't be until mid March. I don't want them to find my body.

Also, my dog is here, who's gonna care for her if I kill myself right now?

And it's not like I haven't tried to kill myself before, it just never worked out, so why should it now?

Why am I even writing this post when no one is going to bother reading it?

I'm a mess. I'm a fucking wreck, and no one's around to save me from drowning.

#cutting #self harm #depression #breakup #sadness #suicidal

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Aaaaaand day 3 of #wgt2016 ! Honestly, I feel so pretty. Just had a panic attack at the signing session of Lord of the Lost - now @nothingwordscansay and me are waiting for the beginning of their show. Happy!! #wavegotiktreffen #goth #gothic #makeup #falselashes #corsage #leather #skirt #pale #combatboots #black #blackhair #lordofthelost #whaaaaaa

#combatboots #lordofthelost #goth #whaaaaaa #leather #pale #makeup #corsage #blackhair #gothic #wgt2016 #black #wavegotiktreffen #skirt #falselashes

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being careful not to hurt her paws on the cacti

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First day of #wavegotiktreffen managed! ❤ And this was my look today. How do you like it? #wgt2016 #gothic #goth #black #lace #lacyoutfit #victorian #dress #makeup #makeupaddict #dark #darkness

#goth #lace #makeup #victorian #makeupaddict #dark #lacyoutfit #black #gothic #wavegotiktreffen #dress #wgt2016 #darkness

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My mind feels like a war zone.

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