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i love mcr so much rah

their music has legit saved my lifeeee

#music #gee way #mcr #my chemical gee #my chemical frank #my chemical romance #mikey fucking way

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i love being an angsty teen

sneaking out to hang with friends

blasting my music full volume

playing my bass without giving a damn

Jumping up an down while thinking abt my fav band members (lookin at u mikey way)

Splittin monsters with friends while climbing onto school rooftops (true story lmaao during spring break)

dying my hair the whole rainbow

i. just. feel. so. free

#teen fashion #2000s emo #scemo #nostolgia #teenage love #music #monster #free

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wow

The last thing i had that kept me going. my mom.she called me an idiot. told me she hatesme. told me she wantsme to run away.tolsd me she hopes i die.

idont know when.but i think imight finally do it.

ill make her happy. ill godie. die/ die

thats al;l; i wamt to do

im nothing

im fuking bothig '

im sorry

#baby cvts #self mutalition #styro #sewer slide #relapse #tw self destructive behavior #im so fucking exhausted #im fat and ugly #im going to kill myself. #im crying

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a poem

All the calories ive counted

all the food ive thrown up

all down the drain.

The pills i swallow

each night.

i lay as i cry

a cry for help

#baby cvts #tw ana shit #sewer slide #self mutalition #relapse #short poem

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(tw)

you know its gotten bad when you take random pills and melatonin before you sleep in hopes of not waking up.

#baby cvts #self mutalition #sewer slide #tw ana shit #please help #i genuinely have no clue #relapse #i need to die #please #this is my cry for help #tw self destructive behavior

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nonononono

(tw relapse)

i hate myself so much i was getting better

i was getting better

i reeally wantedd to get better i was a day clean oh my fucking god;

why can i not just stop

#baby cvts #self mutalition #tw ana shit #relapse #styro #beans #tw s3lf harm #tw self destructive behavior

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First time getting to play my bass since i was on vacay!!!! I missedd my bass sm hehehee

also i learned king for a day by ptv on bass!!!

#king for a day #bass #fender #ptv #pierce the veil

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Ptv lyrics i <3 + happy pride :3

anyways to celebrate pride heres some pierce the veil lyrics i love:

my love for you was bulletproof but your the one who shot me

whats sso good about picking up the peices, what if i dont even want to

oh what a waste of a perfectly good clean wrist (idk i just love this lyric sm yall might know why )

can we create something beautiful and deystroy it

your the only thing thats keeping me alive

i count your heartbeats before you sleep

what if i cant forget you.

Anyways those are my fav ptv lyrics idk what they have to do with pride but yeah happy pride and guys please hold on til next may cause thats my goal honestly :p @ptvjaimepreciado @official-mike-fuentes

#pierce the veil #gay pride #pride month #ptv #lyrics #hold on til may #happy pride 🌈

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the reasons why i cant

my hair is ugly

my makeup is ugly

my face is ugly

my jaw is big

my teeth are crooked

im not pale

i ave a big stomach

my thighs jiggle

my thighs are fat

my legs are hairy

my legs are fat

my arms have ugly scars

my arms are fat

my arms are long

my feet are big

my smile is fake

my smile is ugly

my gut is big

im so fucking fat

im so fucking ugly

nobody here likes me

my thighs have scars

my mental health sucks

my eyes are ugly

my eyebrows are ugly

i am a fucking pig

i dont desevre anything

this is a cry for fucking help, but will anyone fucking listen?

#baby cvts #tw ana shit #self mutalition #styro #ed but not sheeran #im so fucking exhausted #im fat af #im ugly #ii need help now #please help #this is my cry for help #im going insane #i want to die #fat #im fat and ugly

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omg fr tho

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ABOUT MY ACCOUNT

I would like to start off by saying that i WILL post about sensitive topics sometimes (i will pput tw's) but be warned for that. I may use this account as a safe space to vent.

other times, i might just post emo shit or homestuck memes.

Rlly thats all ily take care of urselfs <3

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yo i think i fucked up

(tw $h but not photos just abt the blade)

I recently had a smalll relapse but it wassnt to bad there was some blood but i just found rust. on the fuckingg blade. i didnt see it at first

what tf do i do i mean its healing properly but god help me

#baby cvts #self mutalition #cutting board #self mutilator #styro #bladee #relapse #sewer slide

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TW: (s3lf mullitation but its a meme)

Me literally having my worst r3l4ps3 yet: oh noo

2 minutes later: *watches yt and pretends like nuthin happend*

#baby cvts #self mutalition #tw ana shit #styro

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TW!! mention of sewer of da slide

I ddont know if i can make it much longer

i know that nobody reads my blog buut uh iddk.. Ive already seen the ptv concert. i technically heldd on til may. Im scared in aa sense now that summer startedd

i know that if im left in my room alone for to long theb my intrussive thots just

get to me..ya know? Im scared of wut i can do to myself and nothing has been ok latekly. i think i might just end tonight

i coiuld take p1llz or bl3d out in the bathtub i just..

dont know.

Im only 13 but damn. I feel like this shows wut bullying and trauma and depression and all that mental shit can do to you.

im scared..

possibly the last time i write anything in my blog..

with all love, a dumb 13 yr old who has no social life, - Alex

#self mutalition #baby cvts #mentally fucked #sewer slide #send help #depresión #bullying #tw ana shit

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the urge to jump out a fucking window

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i was 2 weeks clean.

almost three.

i gave up

#cvtt1ng