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playlist for the 𝒶𝑒𝓈𝓉𝒽𝑒𝓉𝒾𝒸 girlies

#barbie playlist #barbie #spotify playlist #spotify #aesthetic playlist #my playlist #playlist #rapunzel theme #barbie as rapunzel #constant as the stars aboce #terpsichore #symphony #fairycore #fairy aesthetic #faecore #cottagecore #cottage aesthetic #barbie movie #bibble #music #pinkcore #pretty in pink #aestehtic #aesthetic #aestethic #inspo #pretty things #aestheitcs #cute #glitter

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Tʜᴇsᴇ ᵣₒₒₘₛ

#roomcore #curtains #ethereal #sun aesthetic #room aesthetic #room design #aesthetic #home aesthetic #room decor #design #decor #home #alternative #dark academia #dark acadamia aesthetic #dark aesthetic #aestheitcs #dark #art #light acadamia aesthetic #light acamedia #coquette #coquette moodboard #bedroom moodboard #girlblogging #coquette aesthetic #dollete #dollcore #lolita #girly aesthetic

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Soft boy ᵃʳᶜʰⁱᵛᵉ 

This is just something I've been up to today 

#spotify #spotify playlist #playlist #blackbear #my edit #indie pop music #rap #emo #emo rap #pop punk #lyrics #bands #alt rock #emo lyrics #edit #black bear #music #blackbearmusic #aka the softest sounds from the softest boy

[wishbowl]

also while im here another fun fact, im trying to sort of maybe recover, or at least hae my whole food situation a bit more under control. 

in a round about way that is actually kinda a major reason why i started a new blog.

for context: i used to hae a blog, well i still use it, but years ago when i was but a child i started it off as a eerything blog. i watched it change from dan and phil shitposts into reblogs of workout and low calorie recipes before i added my own thought bubbles into the ed world that is this fucking website.

while 14 year old me ate up the likes and reblogs to those posts the older i got the more it got to me. signing into tumblr and seeing posts from your past pasted oer blogs that werent mine it felt like a mistake i could neer undo. and for that im sorry and i hope to fuck that my words arent the ones that end up being the trigger to someones thoughts.

that blog overtime had become somewhat more digestible as i grew up and got questionably better interests but definitely way better vibes. 

but i am still unbetter but i don't think i want to die and i want a space to be able to unpack that and i know i cant do that on that blog. its been years since i posted anything related to ed and im pretty sure nowadays, most of the active followers on that account don't even ed so i definitely don't want to fuck that up by stirring that pot. 

i hope the shit i post on here wont add to the flame because it isnt at all my intention. in saying that i will try to be mindful of triggering content and what that is will change with time but i can promise myself that there definitely wont be mention of calories, and pounds and weight and basically most scary number things.

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there's nothing like  starting off a new blog in the depth of an existential crisis by contemplating how the concept for this just might not work if im sober.

i feel like i need drugs to fuel my creativity so much so that i feel i wouldnt be the same without it. of course it wouldn't. but its not exactly that; i hae this irrational fear that any essence of creativity that i poses would seize to exist if i ever give them up.

i know in my consious mind that this probably isnt true. i keep telling myself ive been creative all my life and only been high for the later half of it but i cant help but shake off the fleeting feeling that im running on empty time because i know im no longer the girl i was before and living in the past will never get me back to the mind she had.

lol.