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In a perfect world I would have the means to follow a bumble bee around all day. Just to see what they get up to.

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To do:

get fast

get strong

So I can:

punch people

run away

#idk

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Anastasia Samoylova , Gator (Florida, 2017) , from the series 'FloodZone'

#i see this sort of things in my dream a lot #murky water with shadows of sea creatures is a recurring theme

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#tinnitus #depression #adhd #anxiety #mental health

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Every discord I’ve ever been in has had a pets channel. I like that about humans. Our companions will never understand this form of affection, yet we still love them so much that we make space for them even in a virtual communities. We care regardless of whether it can be understood or returned.

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Thank god they brought back An Amount Of Daylight That Makes You Want To Live. It was getting a bit scary for a minute there.

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now that i am a real adult i am starting to realise. media lied to me about the availability of rooftops to go hang out on. every day i wish i could be hanging out on a rooftop somewhere looking cool as fuck

#Let me on the fucking roofs #This is my main motivation for owning my own house #Let. Me. On. The. Roof

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Sometimes I feel as if I was meant for another world and don't fit into this one, because I can't seem to get over facts about life that others do, and this reality feels hostile to me.

There are many unfair things about our reality and world and you're supposed to learn to 'accept them' and have them no longer bother you. But I just cannot figure out what acceptance is, every description just sounds like ignoring it.

How are people not torn apart by the fact you only get one life? So many rich experiences and 99.9% you'll never have. Or that there is no balance to the universe and things happen with no meaning? That someone could live a short torturous life and die a horrible death for no reason. Do people not feel time passing like a grindstone on your skin? How do you live with the knowledge that tomorrow your entire world could be destroyed, like the most important person in your life suddenly dies, or you get into an accident and now you'll never be the same. I don't think most people get genuinely angry that they were born a human and not something else. I can't get over the fact you can't go back and redo things. I dwell often on the anxiety that so many horrible things have happened to people and there is no law that makes you exempt, you aren't special, it could happen to you just as easily.

Why do these things haunt me when it only brings me suffering? I wish I wasn't conscious, or that I was ignorant, or that I could forget about these things, or that I knew how to accept them.

#vent #existential crisis #sad thoughts #scared #sad #worries

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Ian Brown

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If you guys were on here at 11 years old what would you be posting about

#dragons #oh wait i still do that #probably be more seriously arguing about taxonomy though

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taking your own advice is so hard. it’s “make bad art” this and “kill your perfectionism” that until i sit down with an idea i like. the i have to execute it perfectly Or Else

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#Pylons #Pylons fuck yeah #I love pylons

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I can move me with my mind.

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leg refences

#animorphs

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fuckmylife666 - against me!

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Losing track of tracking what you wanted.

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yeah sorry i cant come over tonight i'm busy

#to watch