Why do I keep letting everything affect me so much?
I don't understand how I keep coming back, I've started cvtting again and it doesn't seem to be getting better. I should be better, I need to get better but it's so easy to give in.
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50 excuses for ed <3
1. You’re not hungry
2. You don’t like that certain food
3. You ate a big breakfast and are still full.
4. You’re allergic to that food
5. You ate earlier
6. You have a sore throat
7. You’re vegetarian/vegan
8. You’re saving your hunger for a big family dinner
9. You have tooth ache
10. You have stomach cramps
11. You feel sick
12. You have a stomach ache
13. You’ll eat something later
14. You have a mouth ulcer
15. You bit your tongue and it hurts too much to eat
16. You’ll eat when you get home
17. You’ll eat when you get hungry
18. You don’t have any money to buy anything
19. Invent an illness where it hurts when you eat but when you don’t it’s fine
20. You don’t feel like eating right now
21. You just ate something
22. If you have braces say you just got them tightened and they hurt
23. You’re still full from lunch
24. You have a nut allergy
25. You don’t like that food unless it has a particular sauce/dip/dressing that isn’t there
26. You’re craving one particular food which you’ll have later
27. You ate too much earlier
29. You ate all your food and have none left
30. You can’t be bothered right now
31. You’re fasting for religious reasons
32. You ate with someone else
33. You need to finish your homework
34. You need to finish studying
35. You’re busy doing something ‘important’
36. You have an intolerance to a kind of food
37. You want to go for a run later and don’t want a full stomach
38. You forgot your lunch
39. You forgot to bring a snack with you
40. You overate earlier
41. There was a bake sale earlier and you’re stuffed
42. You’re going out to eat later
43. You ate out earlier
44. Your doctor put you on a special diet
45. Your dietitian put you on a special diet
46. You’re fasting because you have a fasting blood test soon
47. You don’t want anything right now
48. You’re taking part in a famine
49. You don’t have time to eat
50. Nothing looks appealing
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i find myself falling into a viscous cycle of depression and numbness. the fact that i have medical issues i don’t have an appointment till early june annoys the fuck out of me. it furthers my anxiety, i cant deal, my therapy isn’t working and i want to switch it but i’m worried that my mom will know it’s getting bad again. i don’t want to put her through that again.
i’m always uncomfortable whether it’s mentally or physically
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Damn seasonal depression hits.
i havent had therapy in such a long time and im off my meds... i hate it so much, it sucks not having a proper outlet all im doing now is internalising it. it SUCKS so fucking much i need to talk to someone about my shit but i dont want my mom to know it got bad again. i dont want to worry the people i care about but the days keep getting longer and longer and life is becoming so obsolete
ive developed a nic addiction and i hate the person ive become, everything sucks.
this rant dosent even make sense
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i’m getting rlly scared for my friend, he’s have been spiralling with drugs recently. he had problems with fentanyl before… and it hits too close to home.
i’ve seen first hand how drugs can fuck up your life so bad and i don’t want it to fuck it up his life like it did to my dad
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the last time i tried to off myself was to be in the ward cuz it was a safe space for me i was calm and had a routine however the fucking doctors just released me after they saw i was medically good wtf
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So i was bored a few days ago and looked up some excersises n stuff and found this and so far ive been doing alright. Ik it looks like the cheesiest fuckin thing but it was a monday and i was lookin for something to do so why not yk. I missed tuesday so i did the tuesday workouts earlier tday and then did the wednesday ones later. I might post a before and after body check at the end of the two weeks to see how it went cause why not tbh ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ we'll see how it goes ig.
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