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godisshook · 1 year

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A Ride to Remember

I had known Liam since high school, he was one of the smartest in our grade, but he barely talked to anyone. I considered him a friend, and would work with him whenever I could. Knowing this I should probably introduce myself, my name is Adama Traore, son of two loving immigrant parents, and luckily, very gay. Later during freshman year, I got a boyfriend, I still remember him fondly as my first kiss, and my first heartbreak. When we broke up junior year, I went into a complete spiral, going to gay bars and hooking up with any guy I could find, neglecting my whole life because of a breakup. I barely spoke to Liam that year, I had heard he got a girlfriend in sophomore year, but I couldn’t bring myself to care. When college applications came around I applied to everywhere I could, just to see who would let me in. I knew that Liam was dead-set on going to Pell College, one of the most selective schools in the country. I applied to Pell too, and when decisions came out, I checked it last. It felt like slow motion when I saw in big letters:

ADAMA TRAORE,

WELCOME TO PELL NATION

I was officially a Dire Wolf (the Pell mascot, it’s lame, I know). I saw on the big board in the front office all the other major acceptances. Liam had a couple, but one stood out, a big wolf paw with his name in it, he got in too. I wasn’t shocked, but this most certainly meant we were going to the same college. While this would be the start to a great conversation, it simply never happened, we had just grown too distant.

Senior year came and went with me seeing little of Liam, and now it was summer break. I was college prepping and my mom was sobbing as she took me shopping for essentials each and every day. One day, I went onto our schools acceptance page on Instagram, and the latest post had a familiar person, at least, a familiar name.

@lgporter876 Hey guys, my name is Liam Porter and I am going to be a freshman at Pell in 2023, i wanna get to know ppl so leave ur snaps in the comments.

He was completely different. The shy sweet guy that I knew from high school had changed entirely. I didnt care though, he was doing his own thing and I was doing mine. I posted a few days after him, and I become flooded with dm’s of sorority girls asking me to be their gay best friend, truly something out of a nightmare if you ask me.

The day before classes, all of my things were moved into my dorm and I met my roommates. Kyle was your average nerd, he had brown curly hair and freckles, and wore glasses with wide rims. Next was Jamie, he was quiet, but stood at 6’2 and was here on a basketball scholarship. I immediately started chatting him up, and tried to see if he could be a potential fling. Finally was Eric. Eric was lanky but wasn’t entirely introverted like Kyle, hanging out with people and even becoming a good friend of mine on campus.

One of the buses drop off a load of students to the dorms, and a familiar face comes out of it with bags in hand:

My mom had barely seen Liam since freshman year, and never caught on that it was him, but I most definitely did. He walks to one of the dorms further down from mine, “There goes my chance to chat with him in the hallways.” I think to myself. I was a Literature major, and from what I knew Liam wanted to study Mechanical Engineering, so there was little chance we would ever see each other in the same class.

I go to my first class of the day: “History of Pre-Columbian Writing and Forms” taught by a frazzled professor who looks no younger than 76 named Dr. Fredericks. He was an awesome teacher, and I actually paid attention in class. Afterward I head to my Civics and Common Law class, it was rather empty, except for Liam. He was sitting in the 5th row, and as I open the door he glances back and meets my eye. I sit in the 7th row, open my computer, and start snooping. Lo and behold, this very class was an optional GenEd for Mechanical Engineering, and Liam chose it. I quickly leave class, and rush to my dorm.

A few weeks pass and my minifridge is empty. After eating the dining hall food for practically a month straight I was tired, so I drove to the gas station near our school to get some snacks and microwave meals. In the far back of the gas station I spot a group of frat bros, from the letters I could make out they were in Delta Zeta Kappa, known as one of the most toxic on campus. Laughing right with them is no other than Liam himself.

“You should’ve fucked her!” one of the bros near him says before patting Liam’s back. I try to quickly pick my stuff up and leave, but one of the other brothers whistles at me. It was Tyler Felton, a guy who I drunkenly hooked up with at one of his frat’s parties. Tyler calls me over and introduces me to each of the other brothers, and they start chuckling and jabbing Tyler in the arm, clearly he’s already talked about me to them. When I shake hands with Liam, it’s bare sly even a touch before he already has his hands pulled away.

Leaving the gas station was rather embarrassing, simply because I could imagine what they would talk about once I left. But Liam, he confused me. I didn’t think we were on bad terms, but by that handshake it seems we were.

I go back to my room and go straight to his instagram to figure out what’s going on. He still follows me, and it’s clear he unfollowed people from high school, so if he hated me why in the world did he still follow me?

I look at his recent posts and my eye catches to one of them:

He had clearly been going to the gym, and even though he might be a jerk now, he’s fucking HOT. I pull down my pants and start masturbating, thinking about feeling those muscles of his and fantasizing about how big his cock must be. I close my eyes and start imagining it, and the thought of it makes me end up getting cum all over my phone, and I immediately start wiping it away with tissues, feeling ashamed that I just came to a picture of a guy who is most definitely straight. After my little session on his insta, I study for my pre-calculus exam, and slowly drift to sleep over my notes. My alarm jolts me awake, as drool is all over my notes from my sudden study sesh coma. I rustle them together into my backpack and head to class for the day. Liam is there (as always) and we don’t speak at all during or after class (as always). As we’re packing up Dr. Stevens, the professor for the Civics course, announces we have a group project, but he’s already picked the partners.

As he rattles off last name pairings, I have yet to hear mine or Liam’s, until-“Mr. Traore, Mr. Porter, you two will be paired for this assignment.” My heart sinks to the very bottom of my chest. The guy who I now have nothing in common with, paired up for a 3-week assignment, nothing could be worse. “I can just handle it and you can get credit.” Liam says as he passes by me to leave class. Before he could fully pass, I grab his arm. He jerks back and stares at me. I glare back, “I will do my part too, I don’t know about you, but I care about this work.” Liam keeps my gaze and smirks. He easily releases his arm from my grasp, and walks away.

I don’t hear from him for a while, but he gets to work on our shared document, as do I. I suddenly get a DM on insta, while I expected it to be Liam, it was Tyler, sending me a flyer to his frat’s Halloween party. While Liam was most definitely going to be there, I just wanted a chance to dress all skimpy, so I accepted the invite.

After getting my sluttiest Daphne costume, i head down with Tyler, who decided to pick me up, and match with me as Fred (against my will mind you). My car had broken down, and I was simply far too broke to get it fixed now. We get to the party and it’s already insane, people are outside, beer pong tables set up everywhere, and girls grinding on all the brothers on the dance floor. I see nothing of Liam, but decide that’s a good thing.

The party goes much as I would have expected, with Tyler finding every way to stay near me, and me trying my very best to escape him when I can. I catch a glance of Liam while I walk for my 9th bathroom break to get away from Tyler. As I walk out, he’s near the door, and pushes me back in. “I want us to talk again.” he says, and before I can even get a word out, he leaves, never to be seen again.

Two days later I get a snap notification from none other than the man himself:

Using a shirtless gym selfie to get back into my good graces is a bold choice, considering i’m “talking to” one of his frat brothers, but I assume it’s all platonic, and send a photo of me studying for my literature exam in my bed back. After snapping back and forth for a few days I assume that will be all there is, and accepted that at least he was talking to me about our project. After checking the project the day before it’s due I see an announcement.

YOU ARE TO USE POSTER BOARD TO PRESENT KEY POINTS, POWERPOINT AND OTHER DIGITAL PROGRAMS WILL NOT BE USEABLE AS THE PROJECTOR IS DEAD.

Dr. Stevens was giving us an extension to find the stuff we needed, and I quickly text Liam to go pick up some poster board as my car is still very much broken. He chats back “come with me.” Confusion swept my face as getting poster board definitely wasn’t a two person job, but he quickly chatted again, “we can work on it together at my place.” Seeing this as a chance to actually reconnect, I say yes, and he comes to pick me up.

I start taking hits of my dab pen in the car, knowing that high me would actually be able to get some work done. As we pull into a residential area, he stops and pulls to the sidewalk. I ask him, “Why in god’s name did you stop here??? The store isn’t for a few more miles.” “I have been waiting for this my whole life.” he replies. Thinking i’m about to get axe murdered by my old friend I try to get out, but the doors are locked. He then says, “I never knew how I felt about you until I saw you with that fucker Tyler, the dude doesn’t deserve a pet rock, much less you.” The sudden romantic shift of his words gives me whiplash, but at least he’s not trying to kill me? As he says this, he puts a hand on my thigh. Even though I had ended my villain era, a little hookup between old friends was just what the doctor ordered.

I get in the base of the seat under him and pull his pants down very slowly. His hard dick pops up out of his underwear, and he glances down at me as I start to suck. He groans loudly and grabs the handle at the top, looking at me straight in the eyes the whole time.

As I continue doing down on him, he says, “I knew this would be the best.” If the rumors were true, he had fucked nearly half the freshman girls, and somehow i’m the best? I smile and keep going until he stops me. With his massive arms he pulls my head up and says, “It’s not over yet.” He pulls his shirt over his head, revealing that hard body and, as he starts the car he says, “Keep sucking.”

On the road in the rain, I keep looking up at this old friend of mine, wondering if i had missed a signal, and as I keep going, he starts to push my head down on his massive cock, and then let’s put a loan moan, as he cums all in my mouth. I swallow it down and look up at him, still listening to his music and focusing on the road.

While still below him, we come to a stop. He unbuckles and gets out, only in his boxers. I shimmy up and stumble out, clearly not at a Walmart or any place we could get poster for that matter. “It’s my cousins place, he’s not home so he lets me stay.” Liam says as if reading my mind. It’s clear what he wants, and I get ready for it.

After getting in he immediately starts kissing me, Unbuttoning my shirt, and pulling down my pants until i’m much like him, only far less muscly and way shorter. He pins me against the wall and starts kissing my nipples, saying, “Do you like that?” as he goes on and on. Eventually he takes me upstairs, and as I do I see him pull his boxers down. He tells me, “Get on the bed.” and I comply.

As i’m under him on the bed, he starts shoving his dick in my ass, pounding and pounding my tight ass and grunting all while doing it. He flexes his muscles in a mirror right next to the bed, which is the only way i can even notice what he’s doing as he’s giving me the best backshots of my life. He tells me to get up and wrap my legs around his, with his cock still in me i maneuver around and do it, and he asks, “Is that better?” After nodding he says, “Good boy.” and I look down, completely falling for him. As he pounds me again, I feel up and down his hard body, and he keeps fucking me ruthlessly.

After pounding my ass until it goes from a dark brown to a purplish tinge, Liam says, “I’ve had a crush on you since forever, but I never knew what to say, and by the time I could you had a boyfriend. I was always looking for a chance but I thought it would never happen, so I worked to be the guy you would want, and I just hope I fucking am.” How had I been so naïve??? He wanted to be with me since freshman year and I was the one to friendzone him. Letting this words sit with me for a while I caress his face and say, “You have always been the guy I wanted, I was just too blind to see.”

He smirks and starts fucking like never before, he takes my hips and moves it towards and away from his cock, grunting each time his cock goes all the way in me. In this moment I don’t see anything else but him, and as he cums in me I pull his body towards me, pulling him into me, and embracing him as our warm sweaty bodies touch. After that we end up continuing for five more rounds, each getting more and more passionate. After that whenever we would see each other after class,we would go into the supply closet and fuck again. I felt like a ball of hormones but it felt good with him.

Finally at present day, with us having been dating for three years, it seems like all of this could’ve been missed if anything had gone wrong. Every moment with him is truly memorable, and even though I never would’ve saw myself with the quiet nerd turned frat guy, I guess that’s what happened. I thank the universe each and every day for that fateful car ride, and as i get ready to graduate, I start thinking that Porter sounds like a perfect last name for me.

#nerd to jock #gay frat #muscle #pecs #frat bro

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ghostiiess · 7 months

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[NSB HEADCANONS] - regie being your boyfriend

pov: title says it all!

warnings: petnames, some swears here and there, mention of sex and aftercare (no smutty scenes), mention of dick (in an 🍆 emoji), mention of ass (in a 🍑 emoji), mention of aftercare, i think that’s all? Let me know if there’s more!

type: fluff (i promise, i know the warnings do not sound fluff but it is)

member: regie macalino

REBLOGS AND LIKES ARE VERY APPRECIATED!

First of all, i think we can all agree that regie would be a really good boyfriend

He’s the combination of ‘dirty-minded’ and ‘sweet’ kind of person

Not dirty-minded as Darren, but still… you can’t tell me otherwise 🤭

(More under the cut!)

He would turn almost everything you say in a dirty way

Like you would say « my blouse button won't attach! »

And he would say « maybe that’s the wrong hole »

Ok, regie.

And you know what? He’d be proud of himself for saying these

He would tease you sooo much

AND THIS MAN WOULD LITERALLY SMIRK AND SAY BACK TO YOU « oh yeah? You know what’s big too? »

And make you feel like YOU are the dirty minded in the relationship, not him

« You’re so tall and big… » you would say innocently

And then, you would think « holy moly, is he talking about his 🍆 ? » because that’s what he WANT to make you think!!

And he would be like « my room! » or something like that

HE WOULD SMILE AND SMIRK

HE WOULD BE SO PROUD OF HIMSELF LMAO

« Why are you looking down? Were you thinking of something else? »

« and here i thought, you were the innocent one in this relationship… guess i was wrong »

Regie love teasing you, what can i say?

He would call you with unusual petnames

It’s one of his favorite things to do to you because he loves seeing you all shy

Btw, since I’m talking about teasing, let me tell you that this man would make fun of you (but in a loving way)

For sure, he’d call you love, baby, sweetie, princess (omg imagine hearing regie saying princess)… petnames like that

BUT!

He would also give you teasing ‘insults’ as others petnames? Idk if you get me?

Like silly, weirdo… just teasing petnames? HELP, IDK HOW TO EXPLAIN AND MAKE IT SEEM HE’S NOT MAKING FUN OF YOU 😅

He wouldn’t use them really often, that’s for sure!

But time to times, he would

Also, he loves your hugs

So he would randomly give you hugs during the day

He find them so comforting :(

« My girl give the best hug » is a thing he could say

he loves holding your hands too

I hope you like his kisses

Because that man would literally kiss you all day long if he had the chance

Also, i am sorry, but he would smack ur 🍑

He loves you and he do not want to make you uncomfortable

He wouldn’t do that very often, just time to times, probably after the aftercare?

I imagine you are cooking or smth, and this man would go « damn, u looking good af » and then he would smack you (not in a hurtful way ofc)

IDK, ITS JUST SEEM LIKE REGIE WOULD DO SOMETHING LIKE THAT

But as again, if you don’t like it or feel uncomfortable, he would stop

He want to respect your limits

Ofc, i said aftercare, but like this man would be the sweetest during sex?

If you aren’t ready, he would stoke your cheek and be super cute like « baby, that’s okay, we don’t need to do it now, i will wait until you are 100% ready to do it, its alright »

Like even if this man loves doing it (not a lie), he want you to also enjoy it

BUT IF YOU ARE READY!! And did it!!

He would do such great aftercare

stroke ur hair, take a shower, words of affirmations...

Regie would also do skincare with you

You? Applying your skincare products? With your own hands? NAWHHHH

He’s doing it

« I do yours and you do mine »

He would take pictures of you

And videos.

Videos where he’s making fun of you 💀

« she said i look like a freakin crocodile »

« she’s the one looking like it, bruh »

He would also post meme of your face on your birthday

« Happy birthday to my beautiful girlfriend »

Excuse me, sir?? Why do you want to share these meme pictures with all the stars

Btw, if someone’s making fun of you

Or like saying bad things or wtv

This man would literally make fun of them and expose them, like he would talk them back and clash them

Please, do not hurt him, he’s too precious

This man got your back

Always

Thank you (idk how to end this headcanon, hope you liked it!!)

Taglist! (Open! Send an ask if you’d like to be added!) : @nsb-rkive @kentisbaby @firebenderwolf @hyuneee0 @yawnzzznnn @ghostyycat7

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#ghostiiess #nsb #northstarboys #north star boys #headcanon #headcanons #nsbheadcanons #macalino regie #regie macalino #regiemacalino #nsb x reader #nsb x you #northstarboys x reader #nsb headcanon #please reblog #reblogs really help

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cosmicswan · 6 months

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hey, so i got into shifting in october 2020 but i paused my journey around april/may this year and haven't really tried shifting/thought about shifting/consumed shifting content since. i've been so busy with school, and now university, and my mental health has been growing poorer and poorer. but i'm trying to do better and i want to try again. (i've mini-shifted once). do you have any tips on how to get back into it and just general shifting tips? i adore your blog <3

helloo! tysm for the compliment <33

im not really sure why ur asking me for tips on shifting while i feel like you are further in your journey than me, but i’ll still try my best.

i would suggest to sit yourself down and really think about what made you mini shift in the fist place (if it weren’t accidental) and really think about how your body and mind likes to shift. me personally, i think that every one’s journey is different according to their own body. so i would recommend for you to go with the flow and really try what’s best for you and what you’re most comfortable with doing. (this includes everything, from meditation to the actual method to shift) i also believe you can shift doing literally anything. the only thing stopping you is your own limiting beliefs. sadly i am also a victim of 2020 shifttok and it has affected my mindset negatively till now.

as for tips on how to get back into it, i suggest to script your first day of being in ur dr, and visualize it clearly. like how your going to be feeling, maybe read or watch other ppls success stories. idk just remember that shifting is truly limitless. what usually keeps me motivated is imagining how you’ll feel extremely liberated when you succeed. you can live any life you want, you can be as rich as you want, you can be literally anything & anywhere. only imagining that kept me going for 4 years.

i hope you succeed in your journey soon! (hopefully mine too before i go crazy) <33

#aisha’s inbox #reality shifting #shiftblr #shifting community #reality shift #shifting realities #shiftinconsciousness #shifttok

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kalorphic · 2 years

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Can i ask for ROs reaction to MC being used? Like domestical things like someone keeps making MC do their job or getting coffee. And just in case u didnt get the amount of support u need, i think ur amazing: ur characters are all well written, ur twine story format is eye-catching, your gentle way with answering questions is appreciated and your complexion is beautiful ♡♡♡

I know this ask is old, but thank you so much for your compliments, lovely 🥹🤍 I can’t claim credit for the UI though, that’s all on the incredible @/outoftheblue-if !!

K: would have been informed by their minions in your department about this person. Luckily they’re at HQ, so they can get to you quickly. Fury sparks in their chest when they see you happily getting your user colleague a coffee. K practically prowls across the room, minions frantically throwing themselves out of the way, and makes eye contact with the bastard, who goes so pale, they might as well be dead. Good, thinks K, nobody messes with what’s mine. “You know who I am?” A nod. “You know who they are to me?” Another nod. K grins, all teeth. “Then you must be one stupid bastard.”

A: frowns at the sight before them. You’re giving a person a slightly strained smile as they dump another pile of folders, clearly their own work, on your desk. A is about to go over there and politely ask that the person do their own work in future, when said person snaps their fingers in your face and laughs as you flinch. It makes A’s hackles rise, and they’re by your side in seconds, shoving the folders back into the person’s hands with too bright eyes, a vicious smile, and enough force to make them stumble a few steps back. “Try that again, and I promise that you’ll regret it.”

Reese: feels their hands clench into fists as the anger wraps it’s way around them like an old friend. They’re usually so good at controlling their temper, but watching this person take advantage of you really ticks Reese off. Fortunately for your colleague, you catch sight of them and smile, allowing Reese to take a deep breath and force the tension from their body, returning the smile. Ahh, how whipped they were. Now calmer, Reese makes their way over to your user, and leans right down next to their ear. You don’t hear what Reese says, but the person goes an off green colour, frantically nodding their head. Your partner then turns back to you with a bright grin and a request to join them for lunch.

Luisa: raises her eyebrow at you running around for your lazy sack of shit colleague. She always knew that your good-nature would end up getting you into trouble, but lucky for you, your girlfriend wasn’t in a particularly forgiving mood today. She makes her way over to the person who thought they could use you, and grabs the back of their shirt, yanking them up to their feet and letting her smirk grow just shy of feral at the high-pitched squeal they let out. How pathetic, she thinks. “I think it’s time for the little piggy to do their own work, no?”

Cody: has had enough, they’ve born witness to this person taking advantage of your kindness stupidity too many times. They hoped that you would eventually tell them to back off, but it’s day six and you’re still acting like their servant. The next time it happens, Cody spins around on their chair, sneers at your user, and says very loudly: “are you so utterly incapable of doing your work that you have to fob it off onto other people? You might as well just quit at this point and save yourself from further embarrassment.” The person flushes red, and Cody laughs and then adds, much quieter: “apart from MC, I’m the best this place has got, keep pissing me off and I’ll ruin you.”

Noah: let’s their instincts take over when they see you being taken advantage of. It makes their blood boil. Noah comes up behind your colleague, completely silent, and leans down into their space, making the person jump. They start to snap something before they realise just who has snuck up on them. Noah grins at the fear in their eyes and the useless attempts to speak. “How sweet, such a scared little mouse.” Noah can’t help but laugh as the person whimpers. “You’re not even worth my time, so you’re certainly not worth MC’s. However, I’m in a good mood, so I’ll give you a piece of advice…if you want to live a long life, you’ll do your own work from now on.”

#ask #lol I’m so rusty with character asks #all ros #ro: k #ro: a #ro: reese #ro: luisa #ro: cody #ro: noah #cw threats #cw swearing #what’s this?#kalorphic answered an actual ask?#is the world ending?

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heyjude19-writing · 5 months

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Final q this christmas day (hope youre having a lovely day! I am stuck in bed with a fever 38! Luckily i am at my parent's home but i feel guilty as hell for having the influneza!)

I JUST read in a answer u did for a q that you are WRITING DRARRY! ahhhhhh. and its coming out soon in jan! what a great thing to look forward to this next month!

Which segueayed into my final q which is-

I know you said uve been reading Dramione since teen, but what in your experience has been the differences between writing Drarry vs. Dramione? Everyone has their preferences but what is urs? Do you like both ships equally? What do you think one has over the other?

Excited to starting Drarry reads in 2024! Hopefully if you manage to rank most rec-ed/best reads for drarry in the other q, urs will be in mine in the future EASILY.

hi again! i hope you've recovered by now ❤

i am indeed writing drarry and i am very excited about it, hopefully others will enjoy reading it as much as i have enjoyed writing it 🥰.

hmm. for me, i'd say when im writing dramione vs drarry, there are different canon touchpoints i draw from to inform their relationship and draco's redemption. these relationships are two very distinct dynamics in my mind, and i approached them with their own lens. when im in my dramione headspace, the torture at the manor is obviously a big canon moment, as is draco's calling her a slur, and his childhood bigotry. for hermione to even give draco the time of day post-war, those things will color their interactions and i want them addressed in some way.

when im thinking on drarry, their mutual animosity is on a more personal level, rather than ideological. although, draco's prejudice still has to be addressed, that's very important to me. harry can forgive a lot, but i can't imagine he'd jump into something with a person who used to hurl slurs at his best friend (and harry's own mother, too), before knowing there's been a mindset change. draco and harry have a canon obsession with each other, which has been fun to play with, and i've loved incorporating a lot of their book interactions into their adult lives, showing how they shaped each other, even unintentionally. these two can be at each other's throats in a more vicious way than draco/hermione. i delight in finding the gentleness in these relationships, i just think the path to that gentle love looks different depending on whether it's with harry or hermione.

dramione will always be my favorite ship, my first love. but as i've read so much fic over the years, i've come to appreciate the many different ships we can find in this fandom.

#entering my multishipper era #dramione #drarry #i just want all the broken bbs to be happy

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yermes · 1 year

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Hello and good morning to all of my beautiful step children. 🌤️ I kinda took a plunge and apologized to someone who I thought was my friend. They accepted and we seemed chill. We talked for a while and they presented an occult idea of mine from my journal to me as if it were my own idea and APPARENTLY I forgot I gave the access to my book notes and some of my other ideas got in there. I wanted to see how far back this went and on their tiktok I saw that some of their videos match our DMs verbatim with times and everything.

Now I am just mourning what an absolute moron I was and I figured everyone has dealt with shitty people so heres a reading. And as the saying as above so below the lower aspects of your life which you may be ashamed of need to be celebrated and loved just as much as the higher aspects of your life. 🪼How can I over come the loss of a friend even if they’re still living and they just royally took advantage of me.

Pick a meme

Pick a card

Devil 🦚

Saturn the darker aspect, moon (pick a lane king), Tiphareth to Hod, represents the element earth

This card represents Lucifer more than the traditional devil. You were born to be free. In this situation you are not confined to rules. Now I am not advising you to dig up ur ex besties grandma and sit her corpse up by their window or anything but you are in the realm of doing whatever the fuck you want. Enter that healing era. Do things FOR YOU THAT BENEFIT YOU. You are no longer in this toxic spiral where you convinced yourself you would do anything for your friend you are now free. Take care of yourself.

Interference 🍈

Hod through air, eight of swords, Jupiter in gemini

Theres some issues here (obviously look who’s reading ur looking at rn) you would THINK with eight that this would be a lot of structure and reason however with 8 in Hod (structure and reason of the mind) with swords (freedom of the mind) there is a lot of internal turmoil. Which I get this is a shitty situation. On one hand you want to be logical and be like I shouldn’t be upset because and I am finally free and I am justified and X Y Z. But on the other hand you are hurt and you need the freedom to express that. Its hard trying to be a logical girly just manage both sides of this coin to the best of your ability give yourself time.

Princess of wands 🐅

Venus in fire, The Earth in the fires of Aziluth, Malkuth, earth aspect of fire

Well a big part of this card is revenge I should have saved the dead grandma joke for this card. Basically just flames and heat and the earth aspect as well as air aspects gives physical fuel to provide for these flames. Your sadness and betrayal skipped right to anger and you’re walking the war path. HOWEVER, another aspect of this card going again to feeding the flames with no water to subdue it is this cards lust for life. There is life at the end of this grief while its manifesting in hate as of now. Realize your love for life and put that FIRERY ASS ENERGY INTO THAT.

I hope this reading was helpful for you guys. For me my magic is so deeply personal. Like I will talk to someone for hours about it and help problem solve and come up with new solutions but giving my personal spells and theory to someone just is a line I usually do not cross and all my friends know this boundary. No they have not reached out or spoke to me after they stole some of my words and presented me with my own idea. I hope you all have a WONDERFUL day step mom germ loves ya 🩵🪼🩵💛🩵💛💛🪼❤️

#suitlifeofgerm #askgerm #pick a card #daily card #pick a picture #shadow work #I genuinely feel like a cool step mom giving their step kids bad advice #we should make hot chocolate #i love ur mom #magic #these readings are 100% self serving but yall are in it for the ride

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pity friendships r so sad, i told a girl that i had no friends the first day hanging out and now we can never be normal even a year later

im sorry :( i can absolutely relate, a while ago a close friend of mine found out she was like the only person i hung out with and it made the vibe weird for a moment. as time passed the friendship did develop and move forward and kind of become its own dynamic separate to my isolation lol but it was tough and i know how it is to feel like you literally have no support system in the world. it's so so hard, and you do deserve better. its really objectively difficult to make friends like sometimes it seems as if everyone else just slips into it so easily but finding those sustainable and real and genuine bonds......it's borderline impossible when people are so detached from one and other. such generic advice, but if there any classes or hobby groups or volunteer opportunities in ur area i think it'd be cool to check it out - you don't have to expect to find lifelong bonds there but just having that interaction and being open to that opportunity can do a lot for your self esteem. i know it's a big step though so no worries if it doesn't interest you, ive just seen it work for a lot of ppl. anyway when it comes to this girl, i really think if she's still friends with you after a year she does genuinely like you and likes spending time with you, despite the discomfort you feel in the back of your mind from being vulnerable with her. she may just not know what to say, despite wanting the best for you. sounds like confusion more than malice. sending a massive hug. if you ever need a friend or someone to talk to - u have that with me! ❤️ i know it's not the same, but i am always here.

#anon

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nerves-nebula · 1 year

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All the talk abt raphs cannibalistic intrusive thoughts have me Examining A Thing about myself and I don’t like it!! Anyway I’m making it ur problem now <3

SO my intrusive thoughts are usually about rape/incest/pedophilia (w me as the abuswr) and so I purposely turn those thoughts towards things like cannibalism (usually auto cannibalism) and like. Beating the shit out of myself bc I find it more uhh palatable ig? and I’m starting to think,, that maaaay not be the best way to handle that yk? I’ve tried thinking abt less violent things but alas it doesn’t work as well

aaaaaah. im no psych so not sure how helpful i can be here, but i'm pretty sure the key is to get hyperfixated on turtles./j

nah but like, finding things i'd rather think about helps sometimes, like the aforementioned turtles... cause im not actively trying to NOT think about intrusive thoughts (that doesn't work). so you're on the right track trying to think of something else, even if it's still violent as long as it upsets you less I'd call that at least a partial win ?

here's another pro-tip, and i know this is easier said than done, but like it's not actually bad to think about awful things. idk, I have a kind of "yeah what if that happened. that'd be crazy" mindset.

my intrusive thoughts mostly only bother me when i'm already in a bad mental state, otherwise i just imagine it as my brain trying to tell me a spooky story. like an annoying sibling trying to upset you that you just gotta ignore. idk if that'll help you but i've heard some people's intrusive thoughts lessen after they stop feeling so ashamed of thinking about them in the first place.

like it doesn't make me evil that i imagine nearly everyone whos ever been nice to me assaulting me, and it doesn't make me evil if i imagine doing the same to them. it's my brain trying to prepare me for shit i'm terrified of.

BUT that kinda depends on your own personal history with these thoughts, and your theories on where they may or may not come from. i think i've got a solid theory on the reasoning behind most of mine but only you can do that kinda introspection for yourself, hahh.

sorry if im rambling and more nonsensical than usual its like 1 AM and i just sort of finished my homework and im. so tired.

#nnstuff #ask #intrusive thoughts #cannibalism tw

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borathae · 2 days

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Chapter 7

are we about to see his art collection or his "art collection" ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

sneaking around is fun keke no wonder she is all excited and giddy haha cutie pie

Stop laughing”, Taehyung warns quietly, looking over his shoulder. He carries fondness in his eyes and a mischievous grin on his lips. stop IM GONE IM SIMPING IM A PUDDLE

NO UR A MENACE FUCKER DECIDES TO TICKLE ME TO STOP MAKINGME LAUGH NOPE watch my ass fall down the stairs and wake the whole house up

“You’re beyond adorable."

I told my familiar to light the candles your WHAT????

Taehyung is thinking into the future. THATS I WHAT THOUGHT TOO YIPPEEE

other than the rest of the house - which reminds you more of a museum than a home - his wing looks like a home. Bear in mind it was still a very impressive - and royal - home, but it gave you a homely feeling with its burgundy red walls and hardworking radiators. ooh red walls, they feel cozy/warm and very royal vibes

He is already wearing fur slippers HOW DID HE DO THAT dudes faster than flash

Why ruin your home with the dirt of outside? FR 💯

HE TOOK OFF OUR SHOES AAAH and TOUCHED OUR ANKLES THEY BOTH ARE FOR THE COBBLESTONES

They are matching with his UWU, im imagining cat slippers its too funny

You have the prettiest of ankles, my sweetest me to hobi and kook

ALSO HOW MANY ANKLES DID U SEE MY MAN (ik he saw a lot considering he is ancient lol)

Tall windows let in the moonlight from the left, illuminating the paintings on his walls that sounds extra cozy, i want to put a fluffy blanket on my shoulders

“Doesn’t he? It’s the reason why I purchased it”, he says excitedly. 👀 u sure about that?? 👀 did he get kneller to paint it for him 👀👀you sure that this isn’t like your great great great grandfather BABY CONNECT THE DOTS

come now I want to show you something else. HE CHANGED THE SUBJECT

Oh no”, you chuckle, “he just likes to show off.” still cool cousin kudos to him

“Three years? Holy cow and I can’t even work on an essay for twenty minutes without feeling the need to procrastinate.” WOW TAEHYUNG DAMN THATS SICK also u didnt need to call me out like that i-

Delicate roses climb up a marble pillar thats amazing i love murals

"A very long time." edward cullen who

Shall I show you something else too?” he asks quietly. aww my cute lil pookie go ahead why so nervous, smooches the fuck out of nervousness😭

the description of him playing violin gave me goosebumps and its 33C here. why am i slightly teared up

THERES A SECRET DOOR OMG IM GONNA PLAY BARBIE AND THE SECRET DOOR THERE FUCK THIS IS SOO CUTE AAAH

Gosh you own so many cool things.” ik he is soo cool, he can totally murder me on the stairs

Do you have your secret stack of drugs up there?” you joke, dont what if he is a mafia boss???? also he is about to throw you off the top 😭 yeet

Okay yep, holy cow. This is better than drugs FR OCTAGON SHAPED ROOM ARE THE BEST, my uncle's living room is like that and its amazing to play "find the object with hints" type games

if I could marry one room it would be this one TAE MOVE SHE IS MINE WE ARE MEANT TO BE MARRIED wait tae dont move, we can be a throuple

people were right, namjoon copied love yourself album FROM SIR KIM TAE-ITH HYUNGWILL THE THIRD, love thyself

His skin is glowing silver again, like water when it reflects the moon at night or snow when the sunlight hits it just right. singularity performances *shudders

You are the only person who knows this room exists.” SAY WHAT *faints

Why did you paint the stars?” THAT TOO FOR 3 YEARS AND HE THOUGHT OF IT AS HELL, his therapist will need a therapist

NAUR THE ICE CREAM NO SHE JUST TOLD U NOT TO hes such a cute lil shit i cant

oh the trying to be invisible, i do that too, i keep doing that for half of an academic year, and all that time i just vibecheck everyone and the other half, i slowly come out of the shell (not much tho lol) that way i dont miss anyone or does anyone miss me and they cant hurt me too

this chapter was so cute, fluffy and cozy and they both speaking more about themselves aah its sooo good. and i loved his home/wing. the description of the place was just great i could feel the bed and the stars

byee 💜💜❤️❤️

This ask was a ghost ask on my computer 😶 like I saw that you sent me an ask in my notifs and I could open it on mobile, but it was non existant on my laptop HFHADHSF help

sneaking around is fun keke no wonder she is all excited and giddy haha cutie pie

no but they're so cute no joke 🥺

I told my familiar to light the candles your WHAT????

he's just a rich lil spoiled vampire

Taehyung is thinking into the future. THATS I WHAT THOUGHT TOO YIPPEEE

EHEHEH <3

I agree YES 🥺

HE TOOK OFF OUR SHOES AAAH and TOUCHED OUR ANKLES THEY BOTH ARE FOR THE COBBLESTONES

he is so fucking HOT

You have the prettiest of ankles, my sweetest me to hobi and kook

I'm obsessed with their ankles 😶 it's the Dom in me 😶

ALSO HOW MANY ANKLES DID U SEE MY MAN (ik he saw a lot considering he is ancient lol)

imagine all the ankles he had resting on his shoulders 😶

Delicate roses climb up a marble pillar thats amazing i love murals

NO BUT ME TOO 😭 I wanna paint a forest mural on my bedroom wall, but I'm too scared to mess up

Shall I show you something else too?” he asks quietly. aww my cute lil pookie go ahead why so nervous, smooches the fuck out of nervousness😭

he's just a lil pookie <3

Okay yep, holy cow. This is better than drugs FR OCTAGON SHAPED ROOM ARE THE BEST, my uncle's living room is like that and its amazing to play "find the object with hints" type games

ooh nice I love this vibe <3

Why did you paint the stars?” THAT TOO FOR 3 YEARS AND HE THOUGHT OF IT AS HELL, his therapist will need a therapist

he does not a Therapist I can tell you that much HAHAHHAAH

That was me too when I was younger, but we're allowed to take up space on this earth. That's our right too, remember that my love 💜

I'm so happy that you loved it so much seriously heheh 💜💜

#asks: sanguis alpha #asks #minusback #tw: long post

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//SLIDES IN// HI ZAK!!! I'M INCREDIBLY LATE BUT I FINALLY READ THREADS OF TIME AND- AND- AND- //LOOK HOW MUCH I CAN CRY- FWSHHHHHhhhhh// but okay seriously, reading this card makes me so emotional because of just how luke has grown within the past 2 years and like- THIS CARD IS JUST SO SOFT AND FULL OF LOVE, MY HEART IS FLUTTERING!!! god and evEN BACK THEN LUKE IS ALWAYS THINKING ABOUT HER HNGGG, YOU'RE SO RIGHT,,, LUKE IS GOD'S STRONGEST SOLDIER,,, cause imagine pinning for your best friend who's so damn oblivious throughout your whole life, have your confession plans ruined (by giving her the worst haircut ever), WAIT FOR SEVEN WHOLE YEARS TO GET BACK TO HER (AND EVERYTHING ELSE THAT HAPPENED TO HIM) HOW IS THIS MAN REAL???? i love being able to hear peanuts story, ROSA HAS ALWAYS BEEN A BIRD MOM ALL ALONG (SHE JUST DOESN'T KNOW??? will she have to pay child support for impregnating luke with a myna bir-//SMACK) AND GOD THERE'S JUST SOMETHING SO INTIMATE ABOUT LUKE CUTTING ROSA'S HAIR (the art too, as luke gazes at rosa with so much affection- i'm going to- //coMBUST) love is stored in hair cutting UWAHHH (they definately banged in the shower after that haircut no one can tell me otherwise) i know not a lot of people use the korean dub but let me tell you how luke sounds so gentle and tender and so in love

ahem anyways, all in all this card with dreams of benji goes so well side by side i think. if dreams of benji is *the* rosa card, then threads of time is *the* luke card cause i think he really shines here (it almost feels like that this acts as a better anniversary two card rather then orange scent) if i had to collate *the* luke pearce experience it would be personal story ep 1 & 2, shape of you, personal story 3 & 4, under the milky way, dreams of benji, sweet chapter 2, threads of time, (honorable mentions on love between pages (SUCH A GOOD SR CARD) also among the great blue (just because it's the card that made me fell with luke during the early periods of tot))

SORRY FOR RAMBLING IN YOUR ASKS I HOPE YOU DON'T MIND //SCURRIES AWAY

eeEEEEEEEYYY CONGRATS ON READING THREADS OF TIME, CHIKA :DDDD!!! it's so fucking good isnt it GOD GOD. i definitely do not mind the rambles on this in my ask because i adored Threads Of Time so mUCH

im seconding everything uve said abt the card’s story because Mood. and also reading ur thoughts made me realize that, probably among the reasons i adored this card was its balance of tone.

i personally tend to be more partial to card stories that isnt All Just One Emotion (i.e. it’s All angst, or it’s All shenanigans, or it’s All fluff), and this one just had such a lovely balanced mix of different things. immense emotions over luke’s dissappearance? check. intense hilarity over the series of unfortunate events that led to luke not being able to confess as a high schooler? CHECK (FUNNIEST FUCKIN THING TO ME, WAYLAID BY MESSING UP UR CRUSH’S BANGS, HELP). absolutely touching domestic fluff? CHECK CHECK CHECK. and to top it all off, PEANUT BACKSTORY!!! luke and mc have been co-parenting all this TIME im gonna run up the WALLS

i am OBSESSED with your dichotomy here of

dream of benji - mc highlight card

threads of time - luke hightlight card

because i agree, both in the sense that i think these cards go hand in hand and also in that it highlights each of them in that way and aLSO BECAUSE, TO ME:

dream of benji - story hinged on being confronted to face the future (very mc-coded theme)

threads of time - story hinged on accepting what had happened in the past (very luke-coded theme)

ur luke collation is exquisite . it makes me now wanna collate my own top picks, and mine would be:

Bloom Chapter Personal Story ep 1 & 2,

SSR Shape of You (//SHAKES UR HAND, i love how every luke enjoyer understands that shape of you is INTEGRAL it is LUKE PEARCE 101 it is the FIRST CARD I WOULD PUT IN THE SYLLABUS OF A LUKE PEARCE CHARACTERIZATION COLLEGE COURSE SJKFSJ)

Luke Mysteries of the Lost Gold event story route (listen….i go crazy for this because of the first instance seeing raven!luke, yes, but also the clear fear he has of being seen as who he getswhen hes raven!luke //chef’s kiss)

SR Star In The Palm (this is probably personally my favorite SR card story to date….to me, this is an honorary SSR just AGH…..THE ACKNOWLEDGEMENT OF LUKE’S COWARDICE, HIS PROMISE TO BE BETTER WOOOAAAAUAUUGH)

SSR Overflowing Thoughts (i know this is an au but so far among the au cards this story is my dang favorite, i CANNOT STRESS just how much it rewired my brain chemistry. like aha, what if we were in a completely different life, one crueler than the life we do live, but hope and devotion set us both free, aaahhaaa 👉👈)

AND THEN ALL OF UR SSR PICKS AGAIN

conclusion: //holds luke and mc so so gently

#khickuwa #asks #WE OUT HERE FEELING SO MANY FEELINGS ABT THREADS!! OF!!! TIME!!!!

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bl00dhearts · 5 months

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My little rant on the new Priscilla movie by sophia coppola:

Ok so first off the movie wasn’t even that bad the aesthetics and how it was portrayed was beautiful. The story telling was incredible and the convey of emotion really spoke for the movie. Even thought it did kinda drag on on some parts i feel, overall great film… i would give this a near perfect rating if it wasn’t based on REAL people…

This movie is a glamorized over exaggerated fairy tail of elvis and priscilla. i don’t know what other way to put it. It clearly portrayed elvis in a bad light even his daughter Lisa Marie Presley shared her thoughts on the movie before she passed. Saying it was vengeful and portrayed her father wrong. Like damn that’s literally elvis’s daughter and y’all still saying he was all this stuff. Like i ain’t saying he isn’t a bad person he definitely had his flaws but priscilla did too. But the movie very much portrays priscilla as this sad depressed little girl being groomed by elvis when that wasn’t the case at all. than y’all be clapping back saying ‘the movie is based on the elvis and me book priscilla wrote and it’s her perspective’ like no duh. but it’s her perspective and could easily be taken out of proportion. like i ain’t saying what priscilla went through wasn’t real like it def was and i’m forever a priscilla defender AND an elvis defender.

but y’all seem to have a problem with people defending elvis. and that’s all got to do with the modernization of extreme feminism and the me too movement… which is just hideous like i get ‘I’m just a girl’ what about ‘i’m just a boy’ like don’t get me wrong am a girls girl and all put i also have empathy for the other side even if i know there wrong.

(sorry for that lil rant)

Back to the movie, due to sophia coppola influence on young girls (low key me) they be taking her film as reality which it clearly isn’t. like it isn’t a documentary and it isn’t a hundred percent factual to the last detail, it’s a story told from priscilla’s perspective. and y’all straight up hating on elvis as if he wasn’t a real person with feelings and emotions that actually lived and sadly passed. and he isn’t here to tell his side.

i would not recommend this movie to anyone and would actually discourage it to people who haven’t done there research or don’t have proper background knowledge before hand, because if you hardly herd of elvis and didn’t rlly know who priscilla was going into that theater your definitely going to come out have a raging hatred for elvis and extreme sympathy for priscilla.

one more thing is that y’all really be pressed about the age gap like most parents including mine have a similar age gap to elvis and priscilla. Like every other person i hear yap about this movie is ‘priscilla was a CHILD when she dated elvis’ like girl be fr i be getting second hand embarrassment for that. She was fourTEEN a teenager and elvis a young adult. and it’s not like elvis immediately started dating when she was fourteen they MET each other when she was that age. and even priscilla herself said elvis NEVER tried anything on her and wasn’t sexual towards her. Even herself priscilla said ‘i was older in life not numbers’ which is so real bc i bet a lot of y’all thoughts y’all’s was mature for ur age. she also said ‘i don’t think i was groomed’ and that’s from priscilla herself and how you gonna deny her own words, even herself also explained how she actively persuade elvis when she was younger and begged her parents to let her move in with elvis at 17 it wasn’t like elvis was begging for her to come to Graceland. and elvis always treated her very well.

Another point is that elvis treater priscilla like a doll and made her dress up the way he wanted. Like priscilla literally said that’s how they both was, and she always wanted to look her best for elvis and even herself, like is that so hard to believe that woman back than put in effort to look presentable like that was the time back than. even elvis himself never showed up looking slouchy or lazy, he was always dressed well and priscilla was also dressed well.

another thing about priscilla’s personal style changing because of elvis is low key kinda weird bc i can’t be the only person that noticed this. like a lot of videos point out ‘oh when priscilla before she met elvis was really girly with long skirts and cardigans, than during elvis was shift dresses, than after elvis she started to wear pants and ‘express herself more’” like girl no. she literally just followed the fashion trends of the time. like the late 50s and 60s was that style them long skirts and blouses and cardigans and dresses and ponytails, that’s what was popular back than. she met elvis and moved in with him in about mid 60s and that’s when the shift dress and big hair became really popular and elvis may have influenced that as well but priscilla followed. than towards the end when they had there kid and priscilla started to get more freedom her style changed and she started to wear more pants and denim…. like girl it’s was literally the late 60s early 70s that was the height of fashion, like pants and denim were literally trendy and popular so ofc priscilla had to cop bc she’s the it girl. so it’s not rlly her own style like she just followed the trends and was the height of fashion.

and also kinda going back on what i said before about the grooming. that term wasn’t really coined till later and it’s kinda of a newer term because that never really happened before because back than that’s just the way of things. It was normal for a woman to get married between 14-18 to a older man in his 20’s because that was the norm back than, not necessarily in the 1960s but more true in the 1910s and before. and that only changed sort of recently because of the modernization of everything including health. because back than people married young bc a lot of folks didn’t make it to get so old. and also they didn’t encourage woman to go to school and colleges as much as they do now.

anyways that’s all i could think of for now and i’m high key getting tired of typing all this, like i havnt even written school work this long before. but yeah i hope y’all at least understand my take on this, and if you have any critiques or some u wanna say feel free to say them it’s not that deep. bye!

#aestethic #pretty #girl blogger #girlblogging #idk #so cute #coquettecore #1960s style #1960s vintage #coquette #priscilla presley #priscilla movie

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11queensupreme11 · 1 year

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U r soooooooooo underrated like wtf!!!! Your book tsunami is a fcking masterpiece and u definitely deserve a award for it. I mean the other yandere books are so predictable and I'm like 🙄 😐 😕......It's like the yandere looks at them and is like "Ur mine now" "I'll kill whoever even looks at you" I'm like bro chill...... bcz that just so irritating to me. Your story is toooo good to be a fanfiction. I mean the Mc blends so well with the other characters that it feels like she actually in the anime. And the characters personalities are on point too. I mean HOW ARE YOU THIS GOOD. You don't know but I am literally addicted to your book. You need to update bcz I can't wait anymore cuz like girl end the suffering already I mean u already know whats gonna happen so. Sorry if I'm being rude but you need to update. Stay healthy 😁😁😁

You're not being rude at all, I LITERALLY LOVE YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS 💖💖

I’m obsessed with yandere books (whether it’s an original story or a fanfic) and yeah I kinda disliked the way certain yandere characters would be like “ur mine now 💖🔪” to the MC all of a sudden and I had a couple of other pet peeves so I was like “you know what, imma write my own”

I also tried my best to make sure the boys’ yandere traits made sense with their canon personality so they wouldn’t be too OOC, so I’m glad you think I’m doing it right 🥰

I WILL BE UPDATING SOON DONT WORRY! My semester is officially OVER which gives me more time to focus on tsunami again! I’ll update the next chapter either tomorrow or the day after 💖

#👸🏻| asks #👸🏻| tsunami

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sailoryooons · 6 months

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hey! i loved ur cam boy fan fic of yoongi and i was wondering if i can use it as inspo for a story i’m writing? i’ll credit you completely :)

Hi anon! I'm not entirely sure how to answer this so I'm going to do the best I can in a way that hopefully makes any sense at all. I'm not entirely sure what manner of inspiration you mean? Do you just want to write something in the camboy trope (with or without Yoongi) or do you specifically want to write something similar to my plot or characters?

I do not own the camboy trope/genre and I certainly did not come up with it, nor am I the only person who uses it! So if you're just looking to write a camboy fic - by all means, have at it! They are fun to write and everyone has their own spin on it, which makes it super fun. I certainly do not need to be credited for using a trope/genre widely used by the community!

But if you're asking to write a fic that you feel would be close enough in plot and characterization to mine that you feel more comfortable crediting me in some way, I don't think I would be comfortable with that. And what I mean when I say 'in plot and characterization', I just mean like.. if you find yourself writing the actual story and it's similar to my story in more ways than just being 'camboy' or 'camboy Yoongi', then my answer would be that I prefer you not to.

Again - you can absolutely write camboy Yoongi, but I would really like it if the plot and characters themselves were not replicated or written in a way that it feels like my fic. I think that's really all I care about!

I really hope this makes sense and again - I don't want to discourage you from writing camboy Yoongi. I just really want to make sure that you make it your own! I really do not want this to come off as gatekeeping and I want to emphasize you can write this trope, just please don't use my plot or depictions of Yoongi!

#replies

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gralunaisland · 2 years

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Hey, I'm @xanvasofxords! Glad to be talking to you for the first time, until now I only ever saw your posts but never interacted much. But holy shit you speak so true--

Anyways, you know, I don't ship Gray with anyone. Because there's simply nobody I find is a suitable love interest for him in the series. I don't ship Graylu, just as that anon, but I passionately hate Gruvia. Why? Because it's result of a serious character assassination of two characters at once. One of them *cough* Gray *cough* used to be my favorite once before Gruvia brainrot took over Mashima. Sadly, now I don't care about him.

That said, I can't completely ignore his butchered character every time he's onscreen. So I just wanted to elaborate my own thoughts on the topic about Lucy and Erza being Gray's type :

Gray has carried the guilt of being the reason of his master and her daughter's despair. It's pretty normal for him to resist people who express their love towards him. It has to be done slowly, eventually breaking the invisible wall he surrounds himself with. With friendship. There's no other way than friendship.

The friends Gray grew up with mean his world. Why wouldn't they, they've been there since he joined the guild. They've been sharing happiness and sorrows together. Especially team Natsu members are a crucial part of his life. They helped him overcome his past with Ur and Deliora. He needs a person who values the relationships just as much as him if not more.

Gray is mature, but he can be pretty childish too. I think he needs someome to match his energy. She has to keep him in check while also being one with his fun-loving nature at times.

Gray is quite hesitant in terms of being affectionate in public it seems. He needs someone to respect that boundary for him and wait until he's ready. Someone who won't embarass him.

Gray needs someone who isn't dependant on him. Someone who can take care of herself even when he's not present.

I don't think Juvia has even one of these unfortunately. She's completely dependant on him emotionally, will literally drown a town with rain if need be. Doesn't respect Gray's boundaries and embarasses him publicly and even in front of thousand people in a arena. Her only gag is love and love rivals and love rival sensor. She doesn't match his energy except stripping alongside him and picking his clothes. She tries to compare herself with his friends all the time. Can't bear to think about him being alone with anybody, let alone Lucy. She wants him to choose her over everybody. She forces herself onto him with no regards of his discomfort.

I had a conversation with a friend of mine about this who follows you. So here is a piece of my mind! I'd message you off-anon but tumblr would reveal my main blog so sorry for the anon!

Hi, @xanvasofxords! Nice to meet you! I've seen some of your awesome posts around in the anti-tags, and I agree with a lot of what you say! You've got a very refreshing take on certain aspects of FT, so I am delighted that you're stopping by!

Onto your thoughts:

I totally understand where you're coming from, how you don't ship Gray with anyone. In all honesty, as an Anon has sent in an ask before, I would be totally fine if Mashima didn't make any ships canon and kept the focus on friendship and familial love. I think the show had its best moments when it stayed on course with the moral of the story. Not every friendship has to boil down to romantic love, and it's very refreshing to see powerful yet platonic love between friends. I personally think Gray staying by himself would be just as healthy as him being with Lucy, but that's just me, so please do keep doing you in regard to your ships haha.

Oh man, I so agree with you here though, that gr///via simultaneously destroys 2 characters' characters (ha) at once. juvia had all the potential to be a really cool, relatable heroine, who overcame feelings of loneliness and low self-worth with the help of her friends. Gray had the potential to finally put himself first for a change and value his own life so he could live for his friends and for himself and not just throw his life away for them.

But nope.

With the introduction of gr///via, juvia loses all individuality and self-agency. she finds no worth in herself, only in following and slobbering over Gray. she loses all relatability when she begins to act selfishly and creepily and obsessively as soon as someone shows her an ounce of human decency. she doesn't even care about friends, no matter what the once-in-a-blue-moon "i love friends" moments will try to have you think, and she would abandon any semblance of friends at the drop of a hat if it meant she could be with Gray.

With the introduction of gr///via, Gray now is shackled to a woman who doesn't actually love him but wants to possess him, and he's now manipulated into only living for her (not himself nor his friends) and only wanting her to be happy (disregarding himself entirely). There's being selfless, and then there's completely losing your sense of self. You can't help others by neglecting yourself completely, you know. juvia doesn't care that Gray's devolved into this; she just wanted him in her clutches, so she's happy Gray's joined her in her sick, manic, twisted version of love.

Yeah, you put it perfectly: it's a "serious character assassination of two characters at once". Neither of them is the best they could be, and they're no longer recognizable to whom they once were.

I don't blame you for not caring about the current 100yq Gray anymore; for me, I still hold true to the old Gray, the real Gray. The current Gray is definitely not the one we knew and loved.

Onto what you say next, wow.

Just wow.

I'm blown away by your thoughtfulness; you've parsed everything so wonderfully!

I agree with you 100% about your analysis of Gray and how romance would go with him. Wow, you make such good points; I'll give a few thoughts, but I really don't need to, because you've hit the nails on the head, my friend.

There's definitely no way to romance with him outside of friendship. That's the only way he's gotten close to people before, so it wouldn't make sense for him to fall in love with someone he was never friends with. He most definitely was never friends with juvia, considering friendship was never on the table with her, only romantic partners. she doesn't care about what he wants; she just wanted to date him, to own him. That's definitely not friendship. And friends were his whole life, so it makes even less sense that a woman who hates his closest, dearest, female friends just because they're women would become the object of his affection.

As for the rest of the characteristics, all of which I agree with, juvia absolutely doesn't fulfill any of those requirements. she in fact demolishes them by being the exact opposite of what Gray needs in a healthy relationship. I'm not going to reiterate it because you made such a perfect conclusion yourself, but I will say that my gosh, I don't understand how people could like juvia and this pairing when juvia doesn't even exist. she's not her own person; she has no personality or goals or motivations outside of Gray. The only things left to her are her jealousy, her selfishness, and her obsessiveness. Otherwise, she gives Gray nothing, and she herself is nothing, which you can see clearly if you take Gray out of the equation. (I talk more about this in this old post of mine).

I'm happy that we got connected through a follower of mine and a friend of yours! The Anti community is still strong! And don't worry about the anonymous thing, it really doesn't matter to me whether someone uses it or not! Anyway, thank you for sharing your wonderful thoughts! This was such a meticulously written ask, I am very impressed!

#im very happy to get more in touch with the anti community #and wow there are some really smart ones out there haha #though all of you are smart to me already!#askgraluna #ask #anti gruvia #anti juvia #fairy tail #anti juvia lockser #anti juvia loxar #defend gray fullbuster #gray fullbuster #fairy tail discourse #fairy tail discussion #romance in anime #gralunaessay #anti gray fullbuster x juvia lockser #anti gray x juvia

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any tips for starting a new writing blog?

hello dear anon!! oh my days it’s been so long since i started mine i cant really remember.

i would say remember that the first post is always nerve-wrecking and it’s ok to be nervous!! and subsequently the lack of notes since people wont know you and your style right off the bat! it’s ok to feel discouraged when you arent getting much attention too, since you are a newly established blog. the algorithm on tumblr sometimes sucks too :/

to me its personal preference but i like to have some semblance of a theme, or rather more of a post to consolidate everything that you post, not just your writings but also your faq, introductions, links, rules, etc. i usually look at a few writing blogs to see how they format things - everyone has their own ways of organising their pinned post and you can always mix and match to how you want to organise yours but it is NOT an invitation to plagiarise directly (yes, even if you change the colours of the theme to avoid suspicion). think of it with your own ideas and whatnot!!

NEVER. NEVER write on tumblr drafts on mobile. PLEASEEEE remember this. bc notifications appear on the bottom of the screen, sometimes the keyboard will go down and your finger might accidentally brush up against it. you will lose your work. it’s very very disheartening. another instance is also getting out of the app to fact check smtg for ur fic for eg and you come back to a previous post of your own from the notif ... and ur work is gone lol. writing on drafts is easier on desktop although i would say still have a safety net on google docs / notes / ur own writing notepad.

in regards to posting, if you are looking to fully be a sfw or nsfw blog then you can ignore this but i try to plan what kind of works i plan to post. if my smut works are doing well i try my hand at posting a fluff. smut works unfortunately will always get more notes imo, but dont get discouraged from writing fluff bc its still very fulfilling but the reality surrounding these genres are very distinct.

dont be afraid to delete asks or feel an obligation to answer every ask. at the end of the day it is ur blog and u choose what to put on it. if u get trolls and spammers just delete them or if u want to entertain them go ahead too.

be prepared to write out of your comfort zone. i know i said it’s ur blog and you choose what to put on it but sometimes i dont want to write the same trope with the same character and some of the requests allow me to improve my writing with characters im not too fond of for eg. i personally am still trying to push myself more, but it’s a good way to grow!

i like to attach a good amount of tags to my writing. the max on this site is 30 tags, i like to do around 15 or below that. to me it just looks less cluttered and neater. ofc w/ masterlists i usually just tag everything but for individual pieces i dont do a lot!

the writing community is to uplift too 💟 it isnt about who gets the most notes and interactions but rather to celebrate our love for the characters, so much so that we create stories out of thin air. be respectful and kind and dont be afraid to form mutuals! ignoring all the drama and craziness on tumblr sometimes it really is one of the best places to be at the height of your fandom!! enjoy anon!

#mutuals pls chime in to help anon i cant think of any more at the moment #anon #asks

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