#you never care when i am and make me do shit anyway

[olderthannetfic]

I just got a comment saying I should have tagged for dom/sub undertones and I'm a little confused. In canon, this guy always bosses his wife around re: doing shit that's healthy for her - napping, drinking water, remembering to eat more than once a day, getting more than 3 hours of sleep - and she lovingly calls him "Boss Man" as a nickname because of it. On some occasions where she's gone more than a day without eating he'll swipe her phone and order her to eat before she gets it back, something she always seems to find endearing. There's a lot of 'I didn't mean to worry you', 'you're worth worrying about, now here's your favorite homemade walnut bread' stuff, all there in canon, just lifted from canon and transplanted into my fic.

Is this dom/sub stuff? I'm aroace so I've never been in a relationship, but I assumed "take care of yourself" "I will but I will call you a silly nickname over it" was regular relationship stuff. Or is it that the frequency of it makes it dom/sub stuff, and I'm just not grasping that because my neurodivergency is making me not read the social cues correctly? I was only recently diagnosed but this has been a problem for a long time, the whole line between normal and abnormal behavior, so I thought I'd ask you. You're much more well-read than I am and know a lot more about shipping dynamics and how they're tagged. I feel like you're an expert whose opinion carries a lot of conclusions-informed-by-knowledge and so your take could help me figure this out.

People who are doms or subs or write them, if you have a guide on this stuff, that'd be cool, too. I want to educate myself more so I know if I should tag something. After all, I can't get my story to people who want to read it if it doesn't show up in the tags they're searching for. Readers aren't mindreaders. It's on me to make sure they can get ahold of the things they're looking for. I just need to work around my own ADHD-addled brain to do it.

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I think this is the usual pattern of demanding silly tags that would only make sense in that reader's own bookmarks.

Yes, caretaking and food control of various kinds can be a part of BDSM. No, your description of canon does not make it sound like this has obvious undertones.

Readers are going to have different interpretations. It's possible that other readers would agree with this one. I have my doubts. I suspect they're projecting. But sure, maybe other people would think there was some of that vibe.

However, if you did not intend the fic to read this way, I would not add the tag. This is not what the fic is about.

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As for what this kind of thing can look like when it is intended as a dom/sub activity, the movie Secretary has a bunch of examples. She calls him on the phone to tell him what her family's dinner looks like that night; he gives her instructions about which things she can eat how much of. The way she acts while making that phone call makes it clear it's an exciting game to her. Another time, he tells her she's not allowed to cut herself anymore: he will provide what she needs.

Even if the characters are being playful, just nagging someone to do basic self care doesn't really come across as this. It's more charged when it's an intentional power exchange thing.

It's more like... hmm... if you and a friend agreed to LARP as characters for a day. Even if you were acting fairly normal and doing things you'd often do anyway, there would be this added extra vibe to it that someone who knew you well could probably detect.

It's not so much about the specific behaviors: it's about the extra meaning those people ascribe to them. If it doesn't seem like the canon characters think of this caretaking any specific way and you, as the fic author, don't see it that way, then I don't think it will generally read as a dom/sub thing to most readers.

[princess-of-the-corner]

Sorry, just discovered your public knowledge au, its hilarious. I think 'realistically' I like the Only Miraculous wielders & whoever they tell knows version as it could feel a bit less cracky though it'd still beg why they don't bring other heroes in to collectively stomp Gabriel as they know his location. Though that just has me imagining him palming it off on his various rich friends like a hot potato. Anyway two main thoughts:

`1: For the just Holders know AU, Gabriel owns up to his motives right away & almost convinces the kids. Except Fu shows up & reveals that its basically a monkeys paw and more people will die if he makes is wish. Gabriel insists he s smart enough to work around that (He also just doesn't care) but Tikki & Plagg are like, "Literally we have no control over this, it goes to shit every single time, sorry."

In essence, its his ego and control freak nature that mean Gabriel refuses to give up even when he and everyone else know he should quit. Its probably kind of a sad/rough start for Adrien especially, but also leads to very quick positive vibes with Marinette & more direct mentorship.

2: Rogercop be like

Chloe: Well, seeing as you won't do your damn job, how about our classes two super heroes show you up? Adrien: I am one hundred percent down for that except I can't find Plagg! Marinette: Ya know I've wanted to try this anyway, Luck Charm! (Gets a Plagg doll with his head snuck in the bracelet) Well that answers that.

Later

Tikki: How did you even get stuck we can phase through soli matter.., Oh this is interesting and maybe concerning. Chloe: What can it do magic, is it a Miraculous? Plagg: Well its tied to a Miraculous, where'd you find this?

Chloe: Back of my mothers cupboard? Andre: You aren't meant to have that (Tries to snatch) Chloe: Why, what is it!? Can it do magic?

Andre: If by magic you mean mind control you- don't break it you'll explode! Chloe: Why do you own a mind controlling bracelet that only works on me and kills me if it breaks and why was it in a fucking dust covered pile of half forgotten trash!? Andre: ... Its your mot- Gabriel's fault, blame him, now I have a meeting to get to bye! (Runs away)

Butterflies appear Adrien: Dad, glad you could... Make it. Gabriel: Well I am here now, also the Amok's treatment is very much 'not' my fault, it is like that because your parents don't love you.

Adrien: DAD! Gabriel: I am a magical empath son, I know it to be true, your mother and I were much more careful with your Amok & sealed it away so it could never be used against you or damaged. Those two tossed it in a cupboard once they realized it couldn't just rewrite a babies personality, or any personality, to not need things like food or affection, if they hadn't already made the announcement they'd have probably smashed it or given it away. Gabriel: By it I mean Chloe.

Chloe: Oh... (Uses the Amok to turn herself 'off' IE pass out) Gabriel: Dammit, I was hoping the truth would cause her to explode in a rage never before seen and become my most powerful Akuma! I can't even use this self destructive self loathing, she's too depressed to even transform! (Leaves)

Honestly this started out kind of funny then I made myself sad.

Gabriel: I wonder if I should mention the sister they had made as a replacement. That one didn't turn out how they wanted either but they did skip the baby phase.

GOD the chaos there.

But also yeah the AU is mostly crack because tbh I can't see an identity reveal happening that doens't immediately lead to an ending one way or another.

But also OOF.

#public knowledge au

[dapper-lil-arts]

I'm a multishipper, so when it comes to shipping for me, I don't really take canon dynamics into account anyway. So long as I like both characters, and I think they can work in the context of the story(canon or otherwise), I'm not too picky about ships!

...except for obviously immoral ships. Why the FUCK is Twilight/Celestia so God damn popular?! I won't go on a rant here about how much I despise that pairing and pairings like it, but I wanted to take the chance to make my feelings known about that.

TWILIGHT AND CELESTIA IS POPULAR?!! first i ever heard of it?!?!! disgusting wtf. This shit is ridiculous, how does this even happen Personaly to me shipping is a lot of how i do writing as well. I'm not gonna waste my time with something with zero ass potential in canon, and foundations on canon are very important to me merely on like. Seeing actual interesting dynamics to work on. (Hell, its even better when the ship is actually canon, you can work on a foundation that is already existant!)' Tis why i dont rly care for crackships, like, the characters have never even met, or suggested ever meeting. Am i supposed to do all the work here? no thanks bro. Give me smth to work with!

#that's her MOM!!!

[this-is-just-here-for-venting]

parents when you have a life outside of doing chores for them and picking up their mess

#like wow so sorry that im working and classes just started #but no let me just go get YOUR meds cause you cant be piss bothered to leave the house yourself #i dont give a shit that your sick #you never care when i am and make me do shit anyway #i already clean up after you and im the only reason this house isnt a fucking disaster #on top of doing my own shit like working when im scheduled unlike you #and opening week of school means im trying to get in a new flow of things #but heaven for fucking bid that i dont wanna do a chore for you #why are YOU allowed to be depressed and stay in your room sick and out of work for legit 2 weeks at a time #but IM not allowed to take a day off when i tried to kill myself the night before #why do i have to be the strong one and keep going into work and keep up with classes on top of cleaning your mess #and why do you get mad when im in a pissy mood or cant do things for you when Im busy too #so fucking sorry that i have a life outside of you and want time to myself as well #go fuck yourself youre never going to know where i live when i move out and im never helping you clean your house again #calling me selfish because i dont wanna do something for you when im dealing with other shit #then fuck you i am going to be selfish you dont deserve my help if you dont care i have things to do outside of taking care of a pill junky #despite what you think i have empathy i just dont have empathy for you b/c you dont care about me outside of me being your child #the only reason you had me was to be your little servant anyway so fuck off im not doing that anymore

[tavtime]

headcanoning monogamous characters as polyamorous is free, fun, and easy to do! additionally, it is always both cool and sexy 😎

#why am i posting this to my bg3 blog you ask? well. it is because. i am tired. #tag rant here we go: #when people hc straight characters as gay or bi there (mostly) isn't nearly this much pushback #because people understand that bias in storytelling means there just were never going to be as many queer characters in canon #so making your own is understood as creating your own stake in a heteronormative narrative #but when you do the same thing with polyam characters suddenly it's Disrespecting The Character bc 'that's not how they're written' #like no shit? polyamory as an identity is no more respected in mainstream storytelling than being queer is #so yeah. yeah. your canon monogamous boy is part of my polycule now. he's engaging with the beauty of commitment to multiple people at once #i helped your girl work through her possessive and jealous instincts with patience and care. she's our girl now. #anyway! no matter how much this fanfom clearly doesn't want me to be here doing this i remain #saltposting #baldur's gate 3

[icewindandboringhorror]

A very interesting cloud formation!

#I don't think I had ever really seen clouds like this before? it looks like a cool painting or something :0 #Pulling just a few images from my cloud and sky photos folder which has like 650 pictures in it becvause I'm obsessed with the sky lol #I will usually spare everyone the cloudposting but... in some exceptions when it's really cool I must Share #(upcoming covid mention in tags for those avoiding the topic) #I WANT TO BE ON AN AIRPLANE SO SO BAD I am going to start casting evil spells to explode all these 'back to normal' bastards who are out #spreading virus and shit HHHHHH... Covid is NOT over actually contrary to popular beielf especially for people with health conditions #that make them more vulnerable or would have worse consequences if they were to catch it etc. etc. wearing a mask in public is #in MOSt cases not THAt much of a horrific terrible evil inconvenience and it helps keep everyone around you safer including these #vulnerable populations!!!! Even if I didn't have any problems myself I would STILL be masking because it's a small gesture that can make a #big difference in people around me being comfortable. It's not like people with health issues just never have to go out or go to the stor #or whatever. There are still people out there who could be helped by extra precautions that are being overlooked. grrrrr... #Like at this point since I'm vaccinated and everything I would MAYBE consider flying on an airplane IF everyone else around me #was masking and being just as careful as me. But at this point it's just the wild west and I would literally be the only one who gives #a shit or who gets tested freqeuntly before after and during traveling and wears the proper type of mask well fitting and not half off my f #ce and blah blah blah. And precautions work best when EVEYRONE is participating. There's only so much you can protext yourself if everyone #around you is doing nothing. So.. alas.. I still do not feel safe traveling. And probably won't for years until more progress is made in #terms of like understanding and treating certain long covid issues and etc. Since I think it's inevitable that if I start going out again #I would get covid. Me and my household bubble are some of the only people I know who haven't had it yet (or at least not knowingly so - if #so it was one of the asymptomatic cases etc.). So if I was GOING to get it anyway I'd at least like the assurance that whatever long term #issues I inevtabley suffer because of it will be more easily treatable at that point instead of entirely disabling even further than I'm #already disabled. etc. AAANYWAY!! all that to say. I JSUT REALLY WANT TO be on an airplane!!! I dont even like traveling and going places I #hate vacations and would rather be at home working on my projects I'm fixated on lol HOWEVER I love the view from airplane windows #like the very few times in my life Ive actually been on a plane and the window is so COLD when you lay your forehead on it and sometimes yo #even see little ice crystals and it's like you're just in a landscape of clouds with a sea of clouds above and below and aaaAAAAAA #Literally I want to get on a plane just to go up in the air and then land and fly back. I don't even want to go on a real trip. I just NEED #to see the sky I need to be IN the sky I need to have that VIEW and the cold and everything!!!! gRGGHGgg... And I will do that the entire #time. I think my longest plane ride was 7 hours and I do not watch movies. I dont text or play games. I literally do nothing to entertain #myself except stare straight out the window for 7 hours (with a few eating and bathroom breaks). not even joking lmao. It's like a trance #I LOVE the sky and clouds so much and the view you get from an airplane is like incomparable!! also I love airports with the big windows an #people watching. but mostly I just long for the sky view again. GRRR.. sobbing and yearning >:T

[bunkernine]

society if hoo had them at uni age and the lost trio went to chb and chiron is like "how tf are ANY of u alive and unclaimed". wilderness was just community college.

#on a serious note this changes a lot actually. annabeth and percy would not be in chb anymore so when percy goes missing #its like. a genuine possibility and fear because demigods don't make it that old. there is also some added time between tlo and tlh as well #further adding to jasons isolation as being even WEIRDER than everyone else. he also would've been praetor for longer so maybe the romans #wouldve cared more. this also does away with the plot hole of ppl not giving a shit that jason piper and leo (and dylan) straight up #dipped. introducing piper especially to a summer camp makes chb less appealing because they're too old for that and thus makes their #departure from chb make more sense in toa. yet also it opens up the possibility of new rome uni.... which i cannot see any reason as to why #leo would not go there!!!!! outside of being banned cuz he bombed new rome lol. but pipers sexuality arc works for college too!!! ur never #too old to find urself. but also this is the question of if you are able to relatively function in society (this is more for piper leo fran #and i guess percy) then why would you even fight this prophecy??? anyway lol them being college aged is perfect cuz percy is literally #going to a new place and having a new transition with new ppl... like u do in college LOL. now the question is would hazel still be 13. nic #is a lot older at this point and perhaps has the same age gap as bianca and him did 🤔 cant remember. but also don't know why hazel was 13 #in the first place lol. idk. in my college hoo she is just a senior in hs about to graduate from spqr and thinking about staying there or #possibly going to newru after seeing frank make the decision the previous year! SAD! #anyway in hoo. percy and annabeth are sophomores. frank and the lost trio are freshman. #but then in toa. percy annie frank and the lost trio are all graduating cuz percy got held back and Annabeth failed after tartarus fr. #but then also know that piper never went to newru and is adamant about going to mortal uni. and leo kills in newru but is bored. nvm i #forgot he died 🧍‍♂️ ummmmmm ok. ignore leo. and jason actually. so um. ok that really threw me off but are u getting it. that's when apollo #is like 'heeyyyyy i need help pwease 🥺' and they're all like 'dude.' #OK! #but also i ackowedge that this is a children's book and i am not its demographic so god be with you.

[surpriserose]

My hottest goofiest most tumblr brain take is that genuinely most if not all media would be better if it was animated

#Like idk like a lot of movies are...already animated because of the massive use of cgi we just dont call them that #And the blend of live action and cgi just looks so bad to me and it always ages badly because no one cares how bad mixed media looks if #Youre not intentionally doing it for a reason thats not just exploiting non union labor #Plus advances in technology but its also like idk #Like its never gonna look as good as a fully animated movie even if the animation aged like #Obviously im biased im a little animation guy its just like idk we do rly need more adult animation because to me its just idk the best med #And you can make some insane looking stuff with animation and keep a more cohesive tone and visual style like #Like idk you cant make live action akira to me but you could make an animated the matrix...you could even call it the animatrix hey wait #Like idk in an ideal world we would be doing animated remakes of shit instead of the other way around or no remakes obviously #Anyways i am exaggerating but also idk geniunely animation is a medium that has so much to offer and idk it just doesnt get explored in th #Way i want very often especially now as 2d animation is being phased out for 3d animation which i support but well...not when again its jus #Because its cheaper #Anyways this is all to say im excited to see just how badly live action netflix one piece crashes and burns

[angellurgy]

i dont fucking need money or reminders of my old blog to be rbed when you guys are just fucking killing me anyway. it doesnt fucking matter cause im not gonna fucking live long enough to see any of that have use when you're just digging me into the fucking dirt. god do fucking ANYTHING else you status-quo loving fake fucks fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck

#WHAT DOES MUTUAL AID MATTER WHEN I HAVE NO REASON TO LIVE. WHAT DOES IT MATTER WHEN YOU FUCKING KILL ME RIGHT AFTER #ITS ALL A FUCKING JOKE. YOU THINK THIS SHITS A FUCKING GAME. SHALLOW FUCKING FAKE SOLIDARITY BECAUSE ITS EASY. THE REAL SHIT #IS TOO MUCH FUCKING EFFORT FOR YOU PEOPLE. #JUST FUCKING KILL ME YOURSELVES THEN I DONT CARE. ILL FUCKING DOXX MYSELF IDC FUCKING DO SOMETHING. #INSTEAD OF MAKING ME FEEL LIKE IM GOING FUCKING CRAZY FOR WANTING SOMETHING MORE THAN DETACHED HOLLOW RECOGNITION #JUST SAY YOU WANT ME DEAD. SAY YOU DONT CARE WHO I AM. ALL YOU CAN DO IS HATE ANYWAY. NO LOVE. JUST HATE. #HATE THE BIGOTS MORE THAN YOU LOVE THE VICTIM. LIKE ANY OTHER. ITS FUCKING PUTRID #NO LOVE. NO SISTERHOOD. NOTHING. FUCKING TOWER OF LIES BUILT ON THE BONES OF EVERY DEAD TRANNY YOU IGNORED #YOULL NEVER REMEMBER MY NAME. MY FACE. MY BEING. ALL YOULL REMEMBER IF ANYTHING IS THIS ANGRY POST N NOTHING ELSE. #ALL YOU CARE FOR IS RAGE. #ok im done

[shopcat]

there is, Obviously, fundamentally a difference between headcanon and an analytical reading of text, and treating the two as exactly the same is not only wrong but devalues both, but funnily, i've found people tend to forget that both of these things are the product of referencing our real life experiences and applying them where we see fit to make a more interesting way to interact with media. and you can't just like, forget that it's not JUST about headcanons and meta analysis and whatever, because people in real life also still matter. and in real life, there are different stakes and EXPERIENCES, and those experiences lead to thinking the way we do because that's how you Be a goddamn person, which is why it's ironic is all 😭

like, saying zuko atla has to be cis in order to be "properly" gay in order to be Truly Compelling narratively is fucking ridiculous. textually, zuko is not actually gay. he never was intended to be, he never will be intended to be, he was never even subtextually. the assumption otherwise is already rooted in fantasy, and the tongue in cheek assertion that it isn't, which means it has more credence, is ... dumb? childish? admitting to at least yourself that the things you talk about wrt character analysis aren't the intention of the creator is literally half the point of doing said analysis – you're MEANT to throw away the intended interpretation in order to give it a new life through different keyholes without entirely divorcing itself from the text. (in the same breath, insisting the creator truly meant One Thing when they absolutely would not have/don't care at all, and ignoring that the people who made the piece are going to put their own biases and experiences and background into the media itself and actually MUST be taken into account for things like this is just ... well. Stop That.)

i've personally never been someone to ever claim that The Writers All Along INTENDED to do something that they obviously didn't, like make a character from a 2005 cartoon lgbt+. this doesn't mean that reading doesn't have any substance or cannot possibly hold any meaning, or that it's wrong. if you can't be objective about your own readings what's the damn point... leaning into it being fiction, which changes just by being observed by a different person, is why it's fun or interesting to do in the first place. and yeah there are some basic cookie cutter headcanons people like to fling around, and there can be criticism for that otherwise, but claiming headcanons themselves AREN'T an offshoot of this way of thinking is fucking stupid. like it's plain wrong.

our own thoughts on why a character acts, what they do, what their presentation is, why their personality is what it is up to and including their sexuality, gender identity, religion, JOB, whatever, are made to fill the gaps the text can't or won't provide, and in the case of lgbt ones as long as it's not actively harmful (as in like insisting a lesbian character is bi or something) it is literally harmless seeing as it is fairly solidly a "won't", along with a whole bunch of other hc material that usually don't see the light of day on-screen nonstereotypically. people seeing themselves in characters isn't new but more than that, saying that you know this but then pushing it aside because The Analysis Means More when it's Realistic And Plausible is fucking dumb. and rude. bc the entire point of drawing the line of connections this way is how WE see them. being all like "oh well, your own personal identity is still valid otherwise, don't get your feelings hurt bc it doesn't matter," is moot if you've already asserted there's only One real way to be... plausible 🤨. which is to be NORMAL ! duh.

like, the read that zuko IS gay (and cis) relies on extracting parts through the lens of our own gay perceptions and is why cishet fans don't pick up on it, but you can ask pretty much any other lgbt fan and they'll agree. zuko's narrative arc IS compelling with the read that he is gay, from the way he is ostracised by his family, neglected and abused, the "punishment" he receives and then continues to become his own warden of, the order of his death and the banishment itself, sozin criminalising homosexuality, his inability to connect with others especially his own age, his inability to seamlessly interact with girls, his literal externalised viewing of seeing himself as someone with Two Sides, them being good vs evil, realising he can change the damn world through love and acceptance, striving for peace, being the face of change for his nation, relearning what it means to be who he is once he is free from his past, the shame and humiliation rituals, the claim of his father that he is worthless as a prince and person, AND MORE... and i cannot express enough here how fucking little it matters if he's specifically gay or WHAT THE HELL EVER 😭.

to claim in no small way that it's impossible for a trans person, or a bisexual person, or anyone else lgbt, could ever line up his narrative with their own personal one is so beyond ridiculous it gives me a headache. no, "plausibly", i don't think zuko is like, transmasc. yes, plausibly, he could be gay. plausibly, he could be amab nonbinary but no one seems to actually give a fuck about that for some reason (i wonder!). nothing would change in both cases, because he's not actually either, so i really don't see the point in making fun of or being frustrated by one to lift up the other because you want cisgender boot soles to brush the back of your throat THAT badly. the implausibility of thinking any way about a fictional character should be taken into account to an extent, sure, but at the end of the day neither of us are doing anything truly worthwhile, and no one is claiming that it's the intent from the beginning to say otherwise, so what's the point here. why are we doing this. let's go skip in a meadow together before i kill someone with this rock.

#🐾 #tldr i am actually just so sick of people saying the word plausible #it's not plausible for this character to be trans. well OKAY. THARS NOT THE FUCKING POINT IDIOT #not every fucking thing people do is for the sake of furthering the fucking plot holy shit what is wrong with you #these people will never know joy or happiness and forever be miserable bc they're just OBSESSED with trying to rationalise.. art?! #LIKE ITS NOT GONNA HAPPENNNN 😭 #even if it is a plausible trans read people will pick it apart. I Know. i've been there. people do not and i hate to break it to you #like trans people. even other trans people. SHOCK HORROR. jesus christ #this is a real torture dungeon of my own creation #also my two cents personally i think the sum of who zuko is as a person is first and foremost autistic and gay. and everything else is as #an abuse victim. and i honestly don't care if he's trans bc it doesn't matter in the way ppl need to be tantruming over #but it still would be just as significant if not more so. acruallg definitely more so what the hell. my family doesn't hate me bc i Like #Boys .. OR GIRLS. #and YEAH sokka does read more trans sure. but he also is the one who got made fun of for at least like matching his belt and bag #or liking shopping or being feminine .. #is this what people mean when they say that... that katara would be transphobic to her own brother 😭 #well probably not. anyway. #if we're being textual sokka literally IS the one with some sort of gay subtext just FOR being the victim of the charming 2000s lightly #homophobic joking. not zuko. no one gives af about zuko #it does not break my arm to say zuko got banished for being too much sowmrbing and not enough something and got to be himself afterwards #in the slow journey that that took. this could mean literlalt anything. so who cares #he's lgbt all at once. There. bitch #also these ppl bc it was a whole bunch ofc. seemed to just mostly be mad bc zuko got the hc more #like how is that everyone else's problem now. just make sokka trans more ... idiot #☆

[skrunksthatwunk]

just found out rascal (babycat)'s been with his owner this whole time instead of my roommate which is. something. :|

#if you dont know whats happening basically mr and my roommate (dorms) have been raising an abused kitten belonging to our floormates #we had him for a month and a half i think and then a month of break has gone by with my roomie staying on campus and me going back home #to my prey-driven dogs and snake and cat-allergic mother among other things. hence the inability to really take him in easily. #i mean shit. if she decided to actually take care of him instead of making everyone around her into free childcare then that's a good thing #*petcare #and admittedly both me and my roommate should've been more in contact about him whether this was going on or not #we both have really bad object permanence + flow of time issues though so it kinda... didnt happen #i thought about him a lot though. i planned on coming back early to spend a few days just chilling with him before the semester started #but other stuff got in the way and i had the 'its too late so dont ask at all' guilt #idk. it seems like hes alive but i don't know much more than that rn. it makes me nervous yk #but i never thought she'd just. still have him. i never expect what she does with him tbh #i almost feel better about getting stuck and not figuring out visiting or shared custody (in my house that is Not Ideal For Him) knowing it #wasn't even really attainable but. shit. #i want her to treat him like he deserves and if she's doing that i have no right to complain. he's not my cat. he's not. #but it means she'll probably just leave with him someday. no thanks or payment or future contact. idk i just. thought this would end sooner #in taking him to a shelter or a new home or us taking him in or her putting her foot down. but instead it's like im drowning in gelatin #what am i even doing. i love him. so much. and i want a cat so so bad. i want *him* so bad. #but i didn't rescue him and i didnt even try and. god idk. i love him and i still couldn't get my ass up to visit in a whole month #i want to say it's because i was stuck and it's not untrue. but i just. idk. i still feel like i shoulda pushed through or whatever anyway. #it makes me feel like im just as bad as his owner when i know im not. im not. #he's probably a lot bigger now. assuming she's actually feeding him. god. i really thought he'd be with my roommate #for reasons im not even gonna bother getting into. and i was reassured that my roomie would tell me if something was up with him. and she #didnt. and im not mad at her it's not her fault i didn't reach out when i wanted to know. but i feel just. ough. stupid ass situation i got #myself into. stupid sad ass consequences of being nosy and big hearted and wanting to help in stupid ways #at least her dogs didnt eat him. i was worried about that. i don't think i could take it if she got him killed and i didn't push harder to #help him. but i can't just fucking. kidnap him. he's not mine and we're neighbors and i can't even keep him at my home. not really. #god i miss him so much. i hope i didn't hurt him by leaving. fucking hell. #but he needs somebody and his owner is almost certainly not it. and maybe im not either but i want to try for him. man.

[firelordhotman]

friendly reminder that even if youre open about something on your blog, even if you think its so obviously right in your about/description/pinned/whatever, most of the people who will interact with you are not even looking that far at your blog. they dont know your name or your pronouns or your disabilities or your interests or your credentials or whatever you think is just *so obvious* that they *must* be intentionally ignoring it just to hurt you. ESPECIALLY not if theyre a random stranger who youve never interacted with once before, has never interacted with you once before either, and has absolutely zero reason to care about you. its not a personal attack, its just a fact. this is literally the internet

#i am TIRED. yes this is a vaguepost idc #utter stranger shows up in my notifs DEMANDING i explain a simple little joke tag about me and my loved ones experiences #as if i owe them the slightest ounce of attention in my day #and then when i do explain my & my loved ones lived experiences. they get mad & say im using THEIR personal experiences as a weapon #like. i dont have the slightest clue what your personal experiences are! i dont even know your name!! and i dont want to nor do i have to!! #i dont mean this rudely. but factually: you are not important enough to me to care even a little bit about your experiences #i dont bring up suicide or addiction or any shit like that because its Your experience. bc i have no fucking idea what your experience is #i talk about those things because its MY EXPERIENCE. that IM TALKING ABOUT. in the tags of a post that doesnt belong to either of us no les #this is probably the last thing im gonna post abt this bc i know youre still up my ass looking at everything i post rn #but to finish off. i was never even making a Point about anything in the tag. i wasnt starting discourse about anything. #it was just an Acknowledgement of a shared experience that me and many of my loved ones have. whether u like it or not #like literally i dngaf if YOU personally wouldnt describe your experience that way. We do describe it that way! We can be different #i just made a silly little tag for my friends to see. and YOU decided that you were entitled to both hear my life story and blatantly #misinterpret everything i say about it. like literal 'how dare you say we piss on the poor' type shit #like. saying 'x can cause y' does not mean im saying 'y is literally x' fucking OBVIOUSLY. god #i didnt fucking ask for this! YOU DID!! YOURE the one who DEMANDED it of me unprompted #& clearly must have just gone looking thru the tags of posts for ppl to beef with lollllll #i mean cmon. you didnt follow me i didnt follow you and that wasnt even your post. theres no other explanation lmao its p obvious #anyway i hope u find a better hobby or at least a more fun and fulfilling way to use this website. sincerely #at least get some better critical thinking skills before picking stupid arguments with random strangers online #but hey! play stupid games win stupid prizes<3 right?? #also one final note: to hear someone talking about the lived experiences of them and their real life loved ones and go 'hmm. sounds fake'. #its just giving Friendless. its giving 'how could anyone make fun art without doing crazy drugs!!'. #its giving 'Wait yall have friends irl? i thought it was just a joke'. its fucking hilarious and im gonna think about it forever #thank u for a lifetime supply of laughs godspeed

[polzkadotz]

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#gonna be venting I guess lmao #this is what happens when you delete your twitter account I guess lol #I'm getting real tired of being me but above all of being someone struggling with substances. it's hard to be kind to myself #especially because I feel like I dont deserve it #I'm burying myself in debts I barely talk to my friends I'm trying to build routines but it all falls apart the MOMENT I relapse #I've self-harmed for the first time in years I've been more suicidal than ever and I can actually see my body breaking down #and it's hard to care about me cuz well. I've never cared about me. and every time I talk to the people I love I try to put on this front #bc I don't want to upset them or make them worry about how unwell I actually am #and honestly...... I'll be so surprised if I survive until the rest of the year. I honestly don't see myself surviving past my nephew's bday #and that's... two months away? how can it be two months away already wow time really flies when your a piece of addicted shit #not the best way to refer to myself but Oh Well lmao #I'm sorry I'm not a good person to be around friendos. And I'm sorry if my death is gonna affect you/traumatize you but like #me dying would make the life of a LOT of people better. and I think it'd make me happy to go out by doing a good deed I guess lmao #anyway #here's wonderwall

[the-acid-pear]

A good chunk of my dream today was spent on a bus traveling with my dad where after a very long while of being annoyed by an old woman an old classmate whose face and voice i remember but his name i don't encouraged me to tell her, and tell her i did. At first i started speaking formally but by the end I snapped and i was straight up screaming about how she's annoying and i hate to see her face every time i get on this goddamn bus and it was time someone told her these things. There wasn't a reaction from anyone because i was waking up tho so the dream fell apart before my own eyes.

#luly talks #there were also some moments of claustrophobia probably because my horrible anxiety as of lately #first one was after me and my dad tried to skip paying ticket we were forced to go to the corner behind the bus driver seat #between the machine to pay #and wait until the next stop to do so #second time was after i went to sit on the back because the middle had some weird long seats #there was a very weird guy next to me but i was ignoring him until between him and some other guy (it wasnt intentional they weren't trying #to hurt me but they were doing it anyway) i got stuck and i was like begging them to move snd let me go and saying i was stuck #as i tried to squiggle away #i got away from that bug fuckin g BITING them #and finally the last was before i finally snapped where someone screamed something and i looked out of the window and i realized the bus #was going underwater so i grabbed onto this classmate and ducked down not even caring about it being weird #but then it cleared like nothing and due to that stress i just snapped at the woman #who let me give more context: when my dad and i tried to skip paying she started talking shit in that old woman fashion #but then she wouldn't stop complaining about this student who had done a graffiti because apparently the bathrooms were trash #and one of the things i told her is ''you can have us from morning til noon making graffitis and cleaning them up but that won't change #that the bathroom is still shit #also i think she wanted to cause some repercussions for me speaking like that bc she was like DONT YOU KNOW WHO I AM? I WORK AT ... #and i was like No i don't i never heard of it im new im from the city but with the most arrogant tone ever #anyway it was fun

[depresseddepot]

My brother failed his driving test (was so nervous that he crashed) and cried afterwards because he was so upset about it and I, in true estranged eldest daughter fashion, am sick to my stomach worrying that my parents gave him shit for it

#i don't even like my brother very much #hes conservative and shitty like my dad (tho he is only 16 so im holding out for a few years before i decide he's a lost cause) #but i am still The Third Parent #my brother is My Dad's Son TM so i sincerely doubt he would humiliate him abt crying/be anything less than encouraging #but knowing how they treated ME when I made a mistake is. making me extra paranoid #surely they wouldn't do it a second time. surely they've noticed how i never talk to them #surely they understand what they did to cause it and wouldn't do it again to their youngest baby. right? #he was raised so much more leniently than i was so i don't think he's quite as. like. #terrified or failure but not bc of the failure but bc of the repercussions from The Bosses #but man. man. i need a leather cord to chew on. #i know my parents are shit to their kids bc they were shit to me and now im worried they'll be shit to him! what a cycle #anyway. tonight i am drinking to fall asleep faster! huzzah or whatever #also editing this to add a prediction: yes i know i could just ask my parents/brother how they reacted. you misunderstand our relationship #i live here and take care of the chickens and feed their son while they gamble. we do not talk. not even casually. #i don't just 'ask' any of them what happened. we exchange facts about events and move on #sometimes we visit my grandmother and get too encouraged by a chatty environment and get into arguments #we disagree on fundamentally everything (other than polite manners in public. that is unbreakable and sound) so we don't talk #ive surpassed wanting their attention. i don't want to know their opinions anymore and they never wanted to know mine #tough shit i guess. who knew you needed to love a child as a child and not as a cute handbag to lug around #(especially when that cute handbag grew up to be not so cute anymore and fat and actually reacted to that shitty treatment) #anyway this post isn't abt me (but im my mother's daughter so i always make things abt me huh) #i feel bad for my brother and wish i had been a better sister #i know i had 3+ undiagnosed mental illnesses/disabilities but still #i hope he passes really easily the next time and he isn't as nervous and my parents help him fix his car without complaining #vent

[donttellthemangosiwashere]

Tierlist made by @intrulogical

#OKAY i did one ajdhf #i am a sheep. anyway #hot take dark sides and light sides is dumb and the fandom gives it way too much weight <3 #its just some dumb shit roman made up on the spot dont listen to him lol /aff #also dont kill me but. ive never liked combine creativity stuff #i think its dumb i dont think there was a split. ''king c''s are just an excuse for fun character design #and ive only ever seen ''pat and jan split them'' as an excuse to villainize one or the other of the two #also like. cmon. pat should be the youngest side if any of them are any older/younger than others. #what age were you when you first truly grasped the concept of right and wrong?? older then when you started colorin and being scared of shit #i also hate all the orange side nonsense. i dont like the new twist with orange logan in canon and i doubt i ever will #logan overworking himself was a hard one. i love to make him do it in aus but in cannon he just doesnt really seem like the type?? not to th #the extent fanon means it anyway #and i dont care if its not canon VRJ deserve to be friends #as a treat (for me) <3 #@ me if you disagree or want me to explain smthn #or think you could change my mind. im willing to learn to Enjoy Things lmao